How I Ditched My 'Fattitude,' Lost 200 Pounds and Found My Self-Worth

By , SparkPeople Blogger
SparkPeople member Carl Purvenas-Smith (CGPS1975) is no stranger to roller coasters. He's been an unwilling passenger for most of his life, watching helplessly as his weight went up, down and back again. This time, though, feels different—this time, he's down more than 200 pounds, and at 68 years old, Carl is finally ready to get off the ride for good.


The Clean Plate Club


Growing up in Sweden with his grandparents, Carl was raised to always clean his plate and never waste food. In his culture, chubby was equated with healthy. But when he moved to the United States in elementary school, Carl's extra weight caused him to be teased and excluded. "I was the last to be chosen in team sports. Nobody wanted the fat kid on their team, and that hurt."
 
The lose-gain pattern persisted all through high school. Due to some rocky family relationships, Carl was on his own at home a great deal of the time. "I was doing a lot of eating late at night while reading and studying, which didn’t help the waistline," he says. The weight gain continued during college, where the dining hall served foods heavy in fat and calories, and exercise wasn't part of the curriculum.
 
Carl eventually sought help from a doctor, who put him on a 1,000-calorie diet and gave him diet pills. Along with the pills came a surge of energy, and a dramatic, dangerously fast weight loss. Down to 171 pounds, Carl earned the nickname of "Twiggy"—and the concern of his family. When another doctor instructed him to stop taking the pills, the weight came back, along with the yo-yo dieting.

Topping out at Rock Bottom


In the 1980s, Carl reached his highest-ever weight of 460 pounds, with a 72-inch waist. He joined Optifast, a medically supervised diet program that included weekly weigh-ins, group sessions and bi-weekly medical check-ups. For the first time, Carl faced the fact that he was morbidly obese—and that if he continued along the same path, it could very well lead to death.

"I was one of only two men in my Optifast group. The other one was in a car accident, which he initially survived, but he died four days into his recovery," Carl says. "His heart just couldn’t take the additional stress that a person of a healthy weight would have survived with ease."
 
In an attempt to avoid a similar fate, Carl replaced his easy chair with a rowing machine and started walking with his dog for two hours a day. He was successful in getting his weight under 300 pounds, but still hadn’t made any significant lifestyle changes. "I was focused only on losing weight, not becoming healthy," he explains. "I hadn't adopted the permanent habits and strategies that would result not only in weight reduction, but also in good health, reversal of symptoms and improvement of the attitudes and behaviors that have defeated me in the past."

Sparked toward Success


In 2011, a nutritionist at Carl's diabetes education class recommended that he check out SparkPeople. He became a member and started tracking his eating, but didn't tap into all of the available tools. "I was still afraid of failure and felt unworthy of success," Carl remembers. It wasn’t until 2013, when his life partner became partially paralyzed by a stroke, that he was ready to pull out all the stops.
 
At that point, Carl was severely lacking in health and self-esteem. "I was an insulin-dependent diabetic, pending a double knee replacement and facing possible thyroid cancer," he remembers. "I wasn't able to walk 40 feet without getting winded." Determined to regain his health—both for himself and for his partner—Carl turned to SparkPeople in earnest.
 
Documenting his food intake and exercise became like a game, something he looked forward to each day. He discovered sections of the site he hadn't used before, like the local teams and challenge communities.

An Unlikely Mentor


As he became more involved in the SparkPeople community, Carl started a public blog on the site. It was a safe space for him to share the ups and downs of his journey, not only as a form of therapy but also to inspire others facing the same obstacles that had once seemed insurmountable. Carl was blown away by the supportive comments and insights he received.

In January of 2016, on a dare from a SparkPeople challenge to stretch outside his comfort zone, Carl attended his first Zumba class. "I wasn't the type to go to a gym, I certainly never wore shorts and, above all, I didn't dance in public," he says. In facing his fears, Carl realized he'd made a lot of mistaken assumptions. Instead of getting snickers from skinnier people, he was greeted with warmth and support. That first courageous step led to Carl ultimately becoming a Zumba instructor and a SparkCoach.
 
"I like the friendly competition at SparkPeople—not between the members or the teams, but all of us against a common nemesis, our 'fattitudes,' which is our attitudes about all aspects of our lifestyles," Carl says. "We're all learning together. Not learning to losing weight—we've all become experts at that—but learning to live healthy lives filled with joy and free of pain."

"The beauty of the SparkPeople program is the support, encouragement and accountability you receive, along with the ability to set small, manageable goals and a means of attaining them."

No Turning Back


Today, although Carl still takes insulin and thyroid medication, he's healthier than he's been in decades. His weight has gone from 460 to 247, his waist size has decreased from 72 inches to 44-46 inches and he's gone from zero activity to walking 10,000 steps per day.
 
More importantly than his physical transformation, Carl feels better than he ever has. He now enjoys going to the gym, taking his Zumba Gold classes and maintaining an overall active lifestyle. He hasn't just lost weight—he's also shed the self-defeating thoughts and behaviors that held him back for so long. "I’m not quite at my goal yet," Carl says, "but for the first time in many years, I feel that I’m going in the right direction."
 
Perhaps Carl's most surprising realization is that he has no desire to "graduate" from SparkPeople after reaching his goal. "That would be like expecting to graduate from breathing or eating," he says. "I need the accountability and support to maintain this new healthy lifestyle and to share it with others. I have come to believe that you don’t know what you have until you give it away."

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Comments

REESEK65 6/4/2018
I read this before and am still inspired. Your incredible determination, friendly personality, caring heart, and willingness to do what it takes will ensure you reach and keep your goals. I am blessed to know you. Report
CAROLYNINJOY1 5/31/2018
Bravo Carl, for your ongoing success. You are an inspiration. Thank you for sharing your story. Report
KHALIA2 5/15/2018
You go, Carl! Thank God you found Spark People! Report
DIANEDOESSMILES 5/1/2018
WTG Carl!m. Hey, super cool on being a Sumba instructor!! And the PAWSOME attitude!! Report
DEE107 3/1/2018
way to go Report
LUNA_IS_MY_HERO 2/10/2018
Congratulations on turning your life around!!! Report
MOONDRAGON29 1/31/2018
Thanks for sharing. Report
BMGH85 1/30/2018
Thank you for sharing your story! Report
IRHOLL35 12/1/2017
Thanks for sharing! Report
MUSTANGMOM6 11/11/2017
Way to go Report
MAW_OH 11/6/2017
You are an inspiration! Report
JOHNMARTINMILES 9/15/2017
An absolutely great story! Report
FLCOLTFAN1 8/30/2017
What a great story...congrats Report
SPUNOUTMOM 8/25/2017
Wow! this is very inspiring. Report
CSCOTT_06 8/12/2017
Thanks for the inspiration! Report
ESMERELDA12 8/3/2017
This is a great story! Thanks! Report
VERONICA678 7/8/2017
Carl, You are truly inspirational. Thank you for sharing your story. Report
AUNA_VISTA 7/2/2017
Way to go, Carl! Report
DRLMAZ 6/30/2017
wow - thanks for sharing Report
Very inspiring story! I love it. Report
Awesome job!!! Well done Report
inspirational for sure! :)
thank you. Report
Wow! Carl, what a great story you have to share. I'm so happy for you that you've embraced everything that SparkPeople has to offer. I too am beginning to work my way through ALL of the steps and tools and I have to say, I'm so amazed at how great this place is! It's my new Facebook! Report
That's an amazing job be proud of yourself that is a great accomplishment.. Report
good on ya - you got this! Report
Great story - thanks Carl for sharing with us. Report
What a great job Report
Thank you for sharing your story! I have been part of Spark since 2008 and haven't ventured into all that the site has to offer. A diagnosis of high blood pressure brought me back and I don't see me ever leaving. I need the support and the accountability! Great job keep up the terrific work! Report
Thank you for sharing your story! I have been part of Spark since 2008 and haven't ventured into all that the site has to offer. A diagnosis of high blood pressure brought me back and I don't see me ever leaving. I need the support and the accountability! Great job keep up the terrific work! Report
Awesome! Report
T92091
Thank you for sharing your inspiring story, Carl. Report
MUSICLOVER724
Very inspiring story! You look great👍 Report
Thanks for sharing Carl!!!! Sending hugs. Report
I loved reading your story Carl. So inspirational... Keep up the great work. Hugs. Report
You are an inspiration! Thank you! Report
Thank you for sharing your story Report
BARRYHAPPY1
Thanks Carl for sharing Report
What a beautiful, inspiring story!! Thanks for sharing Report
I always enjoy reading your story. Well done!
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Woohoo! Way to go Carl! Report
Well done, Carl. I wish you continued success! Report
Great work Carl!
Spark on friend! Report
Awesome story! Carl, I too was raised to clean my plate and told that children needed to be chubby, just in case they faced a serious illness. Chubby was healthy according to my grandparents. Their generation lost too many children to illness. They fretted over me because I was a skinny kid....I picked up the lessons about eating though and my weight began soaring after I had my children. Glad you found SparkPeople. You are right about never leaving; it becomes a serious maintenance program once you reach goal and the accountability will always be necessary for me too!! Report
AZMOMXTWO
a true inspiration keep up the good work Report
AZMOMXTWO
a true inspiration keep up the good work Report
Inspiring! Report
Carl is such an inspiration! Report
WOW!! So very inspirational!! Great story! Report
A longer and happier life for a great person. Report
 
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