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''I Thought I'd Always Be Fat''

One Member Shares What a Difference a Year Makes

-- By Alexa, SparkPeople Member
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One year ago, I went to lunch with a co-worker. When the waitress came over to take our drink order, I ordered a Diet Coke. The woman looked me up and down, snorted, then asked, "Diet?" in a very snotty voice. I just sat very still and said, yes. My co-worker kept his gaze down and pretended it didn't happen. I made a face, but then thought that maybe the slight was in my head. Maybe I'm being overly sensitive. Maybe she wasn't making a comment on my weight. When she came back with my soda and my co-worker's iced tea, she also brought a glass of water. As she placed my soda down onto the table she said, "Now drink your water. There's 'no refills' on soda." Throughout the meal she came by and refilled my co-worker's iced tea and gave me dirty looks. It was completely and totally humiliating. I didn't finish my meal or the soda. I wanted to. I was hungry. I just couldn't let her win.

Of course, by acting differently than I normally would have, I had already let her win. She wanted to make me feel bad, and she succeeded. I should've said something. I should've drank my soda and told her I'd pay for another. I should've asked to speak with her supervisor. Something. But I didn't do any of that. I just let her walk all over me.

You might think that was the moment I turned my life around, but no. The next couple of days came and went. I felt miserable about myself and stuffed my face with cookies, which made me feel even more miserable. I knew I needed to get control of the situation, but I had no idea how. My whole family is obese and I have been for most of my life. I didn't grow up eating well-balanced meals at home. We ordered out all of the time, sometimes more than once a day. Nutrition labels meant nothing to me. The only ways I thought of trying to lose weight were drastic. I had briefly tried Medifast, but I was so calorically deprived that I felt weak all of the time and was extremely moody. I had tried restricting what I ate on my own, but experienced similar results. In both cases, my diet would last a couple of weeks and end by bingeing when I just couldn't take it anymore. I hated myself for it. I figured that losing weight was something I was just never going to be able to achieve. I was always going to be fat—someone to be made fun of at restaurants.
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  • Thanks for sharing. I'd like to give that waitress a swift kick! - 6/4/2014 12:18:11 AM
  • Wow! Such a motivating and encouraging story. I could relate to so much of it. - 5/29/2014 9:34:34 PM
  • Inspirational story. Thanks for posting! Gives us hope out here.

    Susan - 3/26/2014 9:28:08 AM
  • Well, I'm back at Sparkpeople.... again. Once again, I am going to try to lose the weight. And your article was the first thing I saw. Thank you so much for the inspiration! And congratulations on your success! - 12/25/2013 11:32:09 PM
  • Very good points in this article... thank you... very inspiring and helpful! :) - 12/6/2013 11:23:14 PM
  • Hats off to you Alexa !!! - 12/5/2013 2:13:40 AM
    this was a big help for me because today i stepped on the scale and realized i did not lose any weight like i thought i had my scale was just off :( but this made me feel a lot better and motivated!! - 10/19/2013 3:51:21 PM
  • Nice Inspiring article. Remembered my own ups and downs along way... - 9/25/2013 11:32:54 PM
  • Thank you!! This was so motivational for me!! - 9/2/2013 8:57:26 PM
  • Great article! Wonderful testimony to how well SP works!

    Keep on Sparking!

    You will most assuredly reach you goals! - 7/16/2013 10:41:55 PM

  • thank you for sharing ,it gave me a new out look thank you again

    hugs - 7/16/2013 2:56:45 PM
  • Kinda teary eyed reading that:( That is how I feel often more than not! It is always reassuring to know you are not alone! - 7/16/2013 12:55:43 PM
  • I am sure there are many of us that understand EXACTLY what you mean and where you are coming from, including me! I loved that you are able to write what we all want to write, to understand and sympathize, to love and encourage us all. Great job! Great weight loss! - 6/25/2013 7:07:40 PM
  • Very beautiful article, never give up! always be positive!!! you can always do it and anything is possible! - 6/25/2013 4:59:35 PM
  • The first time I read this article was in January of 2013. I read it again today (6/25/13) and it still resonates with me. I started with 50+ pounds to lose in December of 2012 and I am down 14 pounds now with the help of SparkPeople and inspirations like you! I was stuck at a 10 pound loss for more than 5 months but this last 4 weeks I stepped up my exercise and tracked my food EVERYDAY! The scale is finally budging! I just kept telling myself to hang in there and not quit - something great is happening inside me and I kept thinking of it as my transition phase! I am going to keep at it until I am down all 50 pounds and then reevaluate. Who knows, I may not be done at that point! Kudos to you for sharing this with us! - 6/25/2013 5:34:06 AM