I'm Almost To Goal, So Now What?


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I know there is a part of me dreading reaching my goal, because then what?  I’ve been a dieter and the funny, creative fat girl all of my life.  I don’t know how to be anybody else.  It’s a good thing, in that particular case, that I have a lot of weight to lose.  It gives my mind time to adjust. That’s such a change from my days of “I want it NOW!”  
Maybe that’s why I never lost the weight before.  Perhaps the speed I was losing at did not give my mind time to adjust to the new me.  Heck yes, I enjoyed the compliments, clothes, and feeling smaller.  In my head though, I was still the same fat person with low self-esteem.  I was fighting the same emotional battles the same way--with food.  I was still totally obsessed with what I was eating, wasn’t eating, or was going to eat in a given day.  
This time around, I’m making small lifestyle changes and it has taken me since December 2005 to lose 150 pounds and counting.  I don’t have that panicky fear that the weight is going to come back this time.  I know it isn’t because I am a different person now.  I’m still the funny, creative fat girl, but someday I’ll be the funny, creative girl.  This slower weight loss has allowed me time to adjust and learn to cope, while reinventing myself.  
My old self was a fairly healthy eater, but she ate too much of whatever it was at hand.  Portion control, binge eating, and emotional eating are my skeletons in the closet.  If I hear the rattle now, I head for the healthiest fare and eat a proper portion fast.  Catching hunger before it gets a grab onto you is key.  (These are 15 of my favorite hunger-fighting foods.) My old self also hated to move or work out.  Now I am marveling at anything my body can do after having been bed ridden for several years due to chronic illness and pain.    
The SparkPeople Community really holds me together when I’m going to lose control of my healthy lifestyle.  I come to SparkPeople, where everything is beautiful and accepting, after hard days or during rough bouts.  Having people cheer you on is the best feeling.  When bills are due, work is tough, you need to work out, you’re hungry, your family or friends are being less than supportive, you can log into a whole world of support and ideas to deal with your problems without food.  
Little changes are my main strategy in weight loss.  I don’t jump head long into anything, unless it’s a refreshing pool of water.  If I do I lose my enthusiasm in a blaze of glory and end up on the floor crying “Why did I fail again?  I’ll never succeed!”  I now do things like order small, eat from small plates, drink water, have more fruits and veggies, whole grains, and lean proteins.  I eat less processed junk.  I still have some, but less.  (How I keep going when the road is long: My "Indyisms.")
So, yes I know how to live this lifestyle now and I love it.  Doors are opening into a new world with each pound lost and each new skill I achieve.  Each skill is obtained by moving a little more each day.   Last year my big thing was that I wanted to do tree pose in yoga and I did it!  This year I managed several others, including downward dog.     
With a new world opening up and new super powers, what’s a girl to do?  Set new goals of course!  I no longer plan to settle for my goal of 250.  I plan to celebrate like mad and then set my next goal.  I want to believe I can get under 200.  I’m not there yet, but when I reach 200, I’ll let you know what my new goal is then.  
Please allow me to share some photos with you of how far I’ve come:  The main photo is me last month, 150 pounds lost! This was me then.

 Editor's note: Congratulations, Beth! We're all so proud of you. Please leave a note of congratulations for Beth below. :)

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    You look awesome! Congrats!!! - 7/29/2011   1:43:39 PM
  • 661
    Congrats, Beth. You are amazing!!!!!! - 7/29/2011   1:27:19 PM
    Beth, Thank you so much for sharing your story...you are such a beautiful person. It was inspiring to read your words! - 7/29/2011   12:45:43 PM
    I am only just getting started, but you have given me such inspiration, thank you. - 7/29/2011   11:11:13 AM
    Great job! Keep enjoying your journey! You definitely inspire me! - 7/29/2011   6:50:16 AM
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    Beth my dear friend, I am beyond proud of you and hope you know how truly special you are. Thank you for sharing this journey with us all! You give us all hope! - 7/28/2011   11:36:12 PM
  • LIGHT512
    Way To Go :-) - 7/28/2011   9:28:43 PM
    That's Awesome, it's such an encouragement to me. I've lost weight over the years too, and I'm on my last 30 lbs! It's a strange world that I can dream when a dream of being 140 lbs is 35lbs away then reality. I never was, my last goal was like yours, to be less then 200lbs. If I can do it so can you!!! Be encouraged Beth- we'll both get there! :-) - 7/28/2011   6:15:58 PM
    awesome awesome awsome!!!!!! this made me tear up a little! it also brought a smile to my face =D - 7/28/2011   5:14:38 PM
  • 653
    What an AWESOME story. So inspiring.. great job, Beth. Congratulations on your hard work! - 7/28/2011   3:23:54 PM
  • 652
    What an AWESOME story. So inspiring.. great job, Beth. Congratulations on your hard work! - 7/28/2011   3:23:54 PM
  • MICHELE6441
    Wonderful to reassess your goals as you lose more! - 7/28/2011   1:50:02 PM
  • 650
    You are wonderfully created! You have come so far, farther than most people would ever have the courage to go...yes, you! Not only are you the "funny" girl, but you have already accomplished something that most people will never even have the guts to try. God bless you, and may His spirit continue to grant you the faith to continue running the race!
    - 7/28/2011   1:08:48 PM
  • 649
    OMG Girl! You look wonderful! I can see you're glowing and healthy! Yes, you can manage any goal you wish to achieve, so if you want to lose more weight, then you have my support!

    Here's some unsolicited advice - Remember to celebrate with things and activities, not food. Now comes the next goal - adding more little changes and keeping it all going so that you don't see it creep back on. Keep active! Keep conscious about food choices! Keep YOURSELF going - don't depend on others! You can do it!!! - 7/28/2011   12:54:43 PM
  • 648
    Bless your heart Beth. I wanna be like you when I grow up!
    - 7/28/2011   11:56:22 AM
  • 647
    Congrats on your weight lose. You look great!!!! - 7/28/2011   11:27:37 AM
  • 646
    Thanks for being you, Beth! You continue to be an inspiration! I know that you will achieve any goal you set for yourself, because you have discovered that you can. - 7/28/2011   8:36:56 AM
  • 645
    Wow, you are an amazing woman Beth! I am so excited for you, you truly are an inspiration!!! - 7/28/2011   7:26:44 AM
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    Way to go!! - 7/28/2011   5:56:15 AM
    Congrats!!!! What an inspiration you are for us newbies. Thank you so much for sharing your pictures. Enjoy and have fun with your new goals!!! - 7/28/2011   12:52:49 AM
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    !!!!!!!!!!!!!!! - 7/27/2011   11:40:32 PM
    Why do you have to change who you are because you lost weight....you are the same person ....if you want to change then do so for your own good you want to be the funny girl be her.....I call myself the fat angry white woman...what will I be when I lose the weight lol the skinny angry white woman....I dont plan on changing...yes you will go through other people changing around you because you are not fat..but thats them they should treat you just like you are ....and dont let them change you....being a skinny girl after being a heavy girl is a huge change but its your size thats changing not you.....hope you keep up the good work and dont be nervous....it will all work out in the end - 7/27/2011   11:16:27 PM
  • 640
    That is fantastic. Thank you for sharing. Way to go. - 7/27/2011   3:59:46 PM
    That's really great. You are a real inspiration. Keep it up :) - 7/27/2011   12:56:41 PM
    You have done a great job in a short time,so proud of you,keep it up.way to go girl - 7/27/2011   12:36:42 PM
  • 637
    I am so amazed by all you do and continue to do for your health and to help others. Congratulations, you are so wonderful and a inspiration to all of us! - 7/27/2011   11:37:33 AM
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    What an amazing transformation! Congratulations! - 7/27/2011   11:21:48 AM
    Congratulations!!! you look absolutely fantastic! you are such an inspiration! Keep up the good work! You are the perfect example of slow and steady wins the race!!! I really believe you will reach your goal of 200 and then some! Good luck! - 7/27/2011   9:49:04 AM
    Congratulations - you are such an INSPIRATION with a great attitude. I just know you will even go less than 200. Who cares how long it takes as long as you enjoy the ride. Keep up the great work. - 7/27/2011   9:09:00 AM
    Great! You are looking beautiful. Keep going. - 7/27/2011   9:06:35 AM
  • 632
    CONGRATS Beth!! You are such an inspiration. You will make it to 200. I just know it! - 7/27/2011   6:41:14 AM
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    You are still "you" funny,witty and amazing just the healthy you that was wanting to come out : ) - 7/27/2011   12:47:37 AM
    Hi Beth! You have a great blog, and I really liked how you talked about your weight loss motivation in this post. I've enjoyed all your blog posts, keep 'em coming! lol :)

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    kbank.net/ - 7/26/2011   11:49:16 PM
  • 629
    Beth, you are a WONDERFUL, BEAUTIFUL person inside and out! Congratulations on 150 pounds lost! Enjoy this milestone and then on to the next one. :) - 7/26/2011   11:04:01 PM
  • 628
    Thanks for sharing your story. I loved how you comment on how good it feels to lose the weight at a slower rate, knowing that you are going to be able to keep it off because of the skills. I am just starting out on sparkpeople and I feel the same way, that I am finally learning what I need to do it right. Keep up the great work! - 7/26/2011   10:19:36 PM
    You are such an inspiration! Always know that you are a light for so many as we walk our paths. Blessings - 7/26/2011   10:14:17 PM
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    Wow, how fantastic! 150 lbs is amazing. What a great job you are doing Beth. You should be so proud of yourself. Good luck on the rest of your journey. We are all here cheering you on!!! - 7/26/2011   9:30:15 PM
    Wow! I don't know you yet I am very proud of you!!! I am new to the site and have quite a lot of weight to lose. You have really inspired me. Keep up the amazing job and congratulations. - 7/26/2011   9:15:40 PM
  • 624
    The sky is the limit! You can do anything you set your mind to! Go for 200! Then set a new goal. There is always another peak waiting to be conquered. Congratulations. - 7/26/2011   8:18:52 PM
  • 623
    Well done on all of your hard work - you are a great inspiration! - 7/26/2011   5:50:24 PM
  • 622
    Way to go! Such willpower to keep it going and actually achieving that goal! - 7/26/2011   5:37:25 PM
  • GINGER7563
    I think it's just wonderful, Beth, that you have stuck to your guns and slowly chipped away at all that weight. I know it takes a lot of will power and I really appreciate it that you're not afraid of gaining all the weight back because you've changed. That's a fear I have because the weight seemed to come on so easily. Thanks for the encouragement and CONGRATULATIONS!! - 7/26/2011   5:22:57 PM
    Congratulations on your achievements, Beth! You have a lot to be proud of - and in quite a (relatively) short amount of time. I know you might perceive it as a long road, but when I think about 2005, it doesn't seem that long ago.

    Great job! - 7/26/2011   3:46:05 PM
    I am really proud of you. I have only lost 22 pounds. But have to have a hip replacement. So I am bummed.
    I am glad for you. Keep up the good work
    Pat C - 7/26/2011   2:24:26 PM
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    Super job!!! - 7/26/2011   2:14:13 PM
    Congratulations, Beth! I know you can get to 200! Keep up the great work!!!! - 7/26/2011   12:11:43 PM
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    You are such an inspiration to me!! I am so happy for you and you're looking fantastic! - 7/26/2011   12:10:34 PM
    I love to read your posts. You are an inspiration. Best wishes on your continued journey of a lifetime.
    - 7/26/2011   10:54:06 AM
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    Congratulations!!!! You are truly an inspiration! Keep up the great work! - 7/26/2011   10:48:30 AM
  • 613
    Thanks for your post and your pictures! You are a wonderful inspiration. Congratulations on your continued weight loss! - 7/26/2011   10:31:22 AM

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