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9/27/17 8:10 A

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Saw an article this morning from Drs Oz & Roizen - seems being a vegan or vegetarian can make one at higher risk for depression. They share some vegetarian food sources to help with depression to build up supplies of B-12, iron, zinc, Omega-3s, etc.

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Hi!! I hadn't seen you on the team for a while. Where do you usually post?

I've been hanging in. Making changes to my lifestyle to bring me closer to my goals. It's a long, arduous process.

I had a total knee replacement revision three weeks ago so am home recuping, which is why I can come to Spark more often.

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You'll get there, RUTHIET_456! We're here for support!

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3/11/16 2:38 A

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Well, that didn't happen! I gained 10lbs and just started losing some of it. I'm learning so much in my journey, and learning how to love myself enough to do the things that will bring me closer to my goals.

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11/10/15 3:09 A

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After some missteps I'm back on track. Trying to get below 180 by Christmas.

Hope all are well.
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10/10/15 7:57 A

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Just wanted to check in and say that I have 6 days of compliance with my program. Probably the most I've had in 5 years. It's been a long time coming and I have the rest of my life to repeat it so I can't rest on my laurels. I need to keep keepin on.

Have an awesome weekend all!!
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9/26/15 10:12 A

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Eating like a pig and working out do not cancel each other out. Need to make a change starting today.

Hope all are well.

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9/12/15 3:26 A

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Hey Becci,I can't say enough about doing exercises. I have an extremely stressful job that has caused me to up my meds and the exercising is having a positive impact in my life. Yesterday I was inundated with things to do so I could leave early to get my physical, and I caught myself humming to the Jazz that I listen to throughout the day. I don't think I've ever done that. I'm not perfect. Sometimes I go a few days with not doing any, but I go back, and if I'm having a bad day I do just a little bit, but I do something and that's what matters. I highly recommend it. My mood swings are very dangerous and if I don't keep them in check I am affected by my double whammy of added schizophrenia. Not fun...

I'm glad this team is here. I feel as if I'm in a place where I am understood and people can relate to what I go through. I am planning to go to a couple of events/month held by NAMI (national alliance or mentally ill, I think), and I hope that helps me. I am very alone in my life and I need to get out there and meet people outside of my family.

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9/8/15 1:45 P

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Just hopping in to chat! The update is that I haven't started doing anything with my days, constructively, since I left Day Health which isn't necessarily a great idea. I have been in a sort of Bipolar Bounce for the past couple of months and am Finally seeing my Psych this afternoon!
I saw the Crisis Team to no avail, last week, and am not going to be in any rush to phone them again! Thinking it is high time to brush up on my DBT skills, USE them and get back to journaling! Another great thing would be to get my but back to exercising which I stopped doing, almost completely, about the time I stopped Adult Day Health. Funny how things in life can be connected...

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7/19/15 8:33 A

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Feeling better now regarding the loss of my dog. I know things are as they should be and I should not feel at a loss or give in to depression.

Hope all are well,

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7/12/15 8:13 A

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Hey Becci!! Hope things are going better for you and that you have been able to connect with a good group. No luck yet on my end.

I'm very melancholy these days, with the passing of my dog Jasper last Sunday. Sundays will be bittersweet from now and I miss him terribly. He was my companion for 14 years. He would watch me proudly as I did my exercises. Now it seems as if I have more room to move around, but it feels strange.

Have an awesome week everyone!!

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6/29/15 1:12 P

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Left my Adult Day Health Center, today after a year and a half of attending, because I am just tired of going to a "program" that just isn't suitable to my needs! I know that I need a group schedule that is applicable to my Bipolar illness and not used a baby-sitting service for mostly elderly patients, God love them all! Starting Monday morning, my out-patient Psychiatric treatment center is on strike! So not a good time! This afternoon I was calling for an appointment with my Psychiatrist for a med adjustment...which I'm feeling as if I really need right now! Ugh! Don't particularly want to go into the hospital for a med adjustment since I haven't been hospitalized since like 2007!

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6/29/15 3:15 A

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I'm handling my illness well, although I get super hyper from anxiety at work. Haven't found a group that meets on my schedule yet.

Hope all are well.

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5/10/15 6:59 A

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JMD5583: I know what you mean about not being able to talk to people about our illness. What's the chance of finding a group that you can go to once/week? Talk to your doc, he/she might be able to suggest a good one that fits into your schedule. I am one of those who fall through the cracks of the mental health society of providers. I work long hours and haven't been able to find a group that meets on Saturdays or Sundays, my only days off. There is a very good group that meets on Fridays, but very late, which is a challenge for me because I wake up very early in the morning and am absolutely wasted by that time, never mind being in a group for an hour and a half. Be grateful that you have a supportive husband. I don't even have that. That you have two friends that you can talk to is awesome. I can't talk to any of my friends about it, and I don't have many, either.

I'm becoming accustomed to working two jobs for the price of one. The department manager has requested a meeting with me on Tuesday so we'll see what comes out of that. I am hoping for the best but preparing for the worst. All in all my attitude is that I'm fortunate to have a great job, can pay my bills, and acknowledge that I am there for a reason. I will take my meds and show up, every day, on time, and take things as they come.

Have an awesome Sunday all!!
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4/3/15 10:49 A

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I just need to vent a little. I'm so frustrated with my family. I am an adult, I'm married, I have kids, but I'm still close to my parents. We live near each other and my parents help watch the kids often. I told my parents 7 years ago that I was diagnosed with bipolar and since then we never talk about it.

I started cutting a year ago, I stopped for a long time and then got stressed and super depressed recently so I started cutting again. I see my psych doc and my therapist often to try to get my meds straightened out and strategies to deal with my ups and downs. I'm not stable yet and I haven't been for some time. My parents are totally f***in clueless. Its so frustrating because I want to talk to them about it, but I can't. They don't want to hear it or acknowledge it. Its even more frustrating because I'm an only child so its not like I have siblings I can talk to.

Thankfully my husband is super supportive and great. His sister tries, but she is such a selfish b***** that I can hardly stand talking to her. I am really lucky to have 2 good friends who are always there for me, but then I have other friends who are so clueless and absolutely useless that I don't know why I even bother talking to them some days.

I just want to scream at all of them, I'M NOT OK! Stop acting like everything is all hunky dory, IT'S NOT! Ugh!

Ok, I feel better now. Thank you for letting me blow off some steam.

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1/23/15 7:17 A

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Not looking forward to the snow predicted for tomorrow. It's supposed to be followed by rain so not fun.

Hope all are safe!!
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1/19/15 10:18 A

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Had a GI bug that assailed me for a couple of days. It was horrible but at least I've had the weekend to take care of myself. I'm pretty sure it was caused by stress and the plan for this week is to go back to the gym.

Hope all are having a great day!!
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1/13/15 5:23 P

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It seems as if 2015 is mimicking 2014 in that it is going by too quickly!! Been so busy that days turn into weeks.

Hope all are well.

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1/5/15 2:26 A

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Hope all had wonderful holidays! I spent a great deal of time with one of my older sisters, who's been diagnosed with early Alzheimer's. Hard breaking to see a once vibrant and accomplished woman reduced to confusion. Very happy I did it, although it was quite stressful, since I don't know when I will be able to do that ever again.

Happy new year! My wish is for all of you to have a prosperous, happy, healthy, and safe one.

Cheers!!
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12/19/14 1:21 P

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Got injections in spine on Monday and am having a rough time with pain in legs so exercise is spotty especially since I'm trying to get the house kinda cleaned up. Seems I can do one or the other - just not both, though I am aiming for a workout later this afternoon. Shopping tomorrow and all I need to pick up for our Christmas dinner is a pumpkin pie for the others. I picked up the rest of the stuff last week before it got wiped out! DD is cooking again thank the Lord! I will plan my meal in advance again and stick to what I can work into my calorie "budget"!

"and I said to my body softly; "I want to be your friend." it took a long breath and replied; "I have been waiting my whole life for this." - Nayyirah Waheed

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12/19/14 2:48 A

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Hey Jeanne, I know what you mean about being exhausted coming out of mania. Another thing I need to watch out for when I get into that state is shopping beyond my budget. Very dangerous, especially in this season of holidays and sales. I too tell myself that I'll do a very small amount of minutes at the gym, and I always get a good workout in. The trick is starting, getting moving. The rest comes after that. Good for you for taking care of yourself.

I have been insanely busy with an audit at my job. I am responsible for the Work Control data and I uncovered almost 1 million records to review. Mind boggling. Been working overtime, but expect to finish tomorrow, even if I have to burn the midnight oil. I'm glad I haven't gotten angry or suffered any symptoms from it. This too shall pass...

Have a wonderful weekend all!! Happy holidays!!
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12/13/14 7:10 A

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Just getting ready to go grocery shopping for the week. I am coming down from a mania and it's been rough trying to make myself workout...... yesterday I did not want to at all but I promised myself - "just 5 minutes and I made it for an hour so that was good! Thursday I didn't exercise at all because I hadn't slept in over 24 hours and my muscles were just yelling from lack of sleep. You know when I was young these manias were a lot easier to get through!

Ruth - Have a great time at your dinner!

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12/13/14 5:49 A

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Hey Jeanne, glad you had a nice time at the party. It's really something to see people do shots, for me. Those days of excess are over for me. Now I just think of the sugar and I cringe. Glad you went to the doc when you felt dizzy. Hope your exam turns out good.

I'm working out with my trainer this morning and later will be having dinner with my sisters, celebrating the birthday of one of them. Am planning to bank calories so I don't do too much damage...

Have an awesome weekend all!!
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12/10/14 7:04 P

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Made it fine through the company dinner...... I was nervous but we sat next to a nice couple and basically just visited with them so that was ok. We left when people started to get real loud and rowdy because they were doing shots all night long.


Went to the Dr. on Monday for dizziness and she found a heart murmur. I have to go and have an echo cardiogram on the 16th to be sure it's nothing serious. She said it sounds very minor but we have to be sure. Of course I am worried sick about it but really trying to fake that I'm not! I'm trying the fake it till you make it scheme with this too!

"and I said to my body softly; "I want to be your friend." it took a long breath and replied; "I have been waiting my whole life for this." - Nayyirah Waheed

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12/10/14 5:17 P

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The scale was kind to me this morning and that got my day off to a good start. I know the scale shouldn't matter much, but it does to me. I just don't let it take over my emotions if it doesn't go my way. If nothing else in my journey, I've learned that.

It's snowing in NYC but it's not supposed to accumulate much, we'll see.

Abby: I hope you feel better. Have you considered getting a flu shot?

Jeanne: busy is good. It's nice that you have a party to go to. I decided not to go to the department's holiday dinner, which is very expensive, because I'm not happy with my boss and another co-worker right now and know that I won't have a good time.

Have an awesome day all!!

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12/6/14 6:30 A

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Ruth - That is terrific! I am so happy for you!

I have already done my workout today. I have DH's company Christmas party tonight and I aslo have grocery shopping to do today! Busy, busy day!

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12/6/14 3:45 A

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Met with my doc yesterday and left encouraged and excited. He too agrees about the training. We came up with a plan for me to lose 15 lbs by February, when I see my surgeon again. I've always been leary of making weight loss goals because I've failed miserably at them these last 5 years, but I feel good about this. He is also working on finding a group that would meet weekly and fits in my schedule and budget. I need to be around people more and experience society. I am alone all of the time that I am not with my family or at work and I think that would be a big step for me. And, who knows, I might meet the man of my dreams...

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Ruth - I too am working on being assertive...... not aggressive, assertive. I have a tendency to be a doormat until..... boom...... I get aggressive from bottling it all up! So proud of you for keeping to your streak!

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12/5/14 3:21 A

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Jeanne: you are doing amazing. I know what you mean about feeling guilty about something you can't change. I too have had to make choices for my own good, despite what others might expect and want from me. Good for you for turning to music and the elliptical. Easy does it. I am quite afraid of them!!

I am going to practice breathing this weekend. I've had a very trying week and started having symptoms yesterday because of the stress. My illness is very humbling. Just when I think I've got it licked it comes back and tells me to slow down. My goal for next year is to get some assertiveness and communication training. I need to find a way to express myself, instead of bottling everything inside. People need to know that their behavior is not acceptable, and need to be made aware that they must take responsibility for their actions. Anyway, breathing is better than drinking 6 beers or a bottle of wine. Have a streak going and don't want to break it.

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12/3/14 4:38 A

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Well I moved on to the next thing..... I am done feeling guilty over something I can't change! Okay so maybe I am doing the fake it 'till I make it thing but intention counts! I downloaded some kick butt 80's songs to bebop to when I clean or do the elliptical, or just sit at my desk Sparking! Anything to keep moving! I only got 4 minutes on the elliptical yesterday. I think I may have been trying to go too fast. Also I may have to do it in short 2 minute bursts and then break for a couple minutes and go back to it and so on. I'll play with how to make use of it. DH is loving having it so I'm glad we got it!

"and I said to my body softly; "I want to be your friend." it took a long breath and replied; "I have been waiting my whole life for this." - Nayyirah Waheed

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I'm so proud of both of you for the encouraging you're doing. As for BLUEJAY1969 I think that your family surely would NOT want you to feel guilty. If you can't do it by yourself maybe you could visit the person that is doing it and help where you can? Just a thought! I hope you'll forgive yourself because it's nothing that you should feel bad about!

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12/2/14 12:22 P

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Hmmm well between physical and emotional derailments yesterday, it was not a successful day! I had to give up watching my granddaughter because I physically can't do it. Of course this led to all the emotions you can imagine - fear when it first got out of hand that I was going to accidentally drop her or something. Shame that I couldn't do this for my kids. Frustration with my body. Guilt because I am relieved that I don't have the responsibility anymore for 10 hour days with a newborn at my age. I got over the rest. I am working on the guilt. That's going to take some time. If only the love in my heart would translate into ability.........

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12/2/14 3:47 A

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Thanks for the encouragement Jeanne! Sometimes it seems as if I struggle just to stay above water. It will be worth it in the end - that's what I tell myself. You will do awesome with your granddaughter because you have a lot of love in you, and that's what it takes, for the most part, to care for others.

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11/30/14 3:42 A

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Ruthiet - I am on a couple of the same teams as you and I just wanted to tell you how great I think you are doing over all! You should be so proud of you!

I begin watching my 6 week old granddaughter this Monday and I'm a little nervous about how I'm going to do with that. My SIL is talking about splitting the days with me which would give me a break in the week and that would be nice! I have to discuss more with DD but I guess we'll work it out as we go! It's been 4 years (since my grandson was a tiny one) since I watched over a baby! Yikes!

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11/29/14 10:16 A

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Ate so much for Thanksgiving, but I gave myself permission to enjoy the wonderful food and my family. I did spend some time away from the table, interacting. My sister's boyfriend remarked on how he saw I've lost lots of weight (not) and then made a comment about how I don't have a man in my life to pester, and...?

One of my sisters, she's 67, has been diagnosed with early stage Alzheimer's. She's on meds but it was sad to see her struggle to remember things.

The joy of being with family can be bittersweet but well worth the experience.

Hope everyone was able to enjoy Thanksgiving!
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11/24/14 5:30 P

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Glad you're all doing great!

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11/24/14 5:05 A

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Back on the workout wagon last week and it felt great! Going for another active week here!

"and I said to my body softly; "I want to be your friend." it took a long breath and replied; "I have been waiting my whole life for this." - Nayyirah Waheed

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11/24/14 3:35 A

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I recently discovered how to give the team points!! Nice!!

Great workout with my trainer yesterday and my mood is great.

Have an awesome Monday all!!
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11/18/14 11:00 P

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That's all I ask hun! And thank you!

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Jeanne: I too am living proof that exercise helps improve not only the mood, but the body's health overall. Sometimes it's so hard to do the right thing and my mind trys to stop me from pursuing my goals. I get tired and sore from working out. But, the bottom line is that when I do work out I have more energy and am a much happier person. I'm glad you feel that way too. Walking is excellent also, you just have to pick up the pace to the point where you're breathing somewhat heavily.

Abby: because I'm short on computer leisure time I can't post every day but I check in when I can.

Have an awesome day all!!
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I'm happy to do the leading thanks! And also thanks for using the chit chat board.

I didn't know that exercise could have such a big effect! I love that you discovered this because I'm going to run my own test now! Thanks for sharing hun and I hope all is well with your DH!

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11/16/14 8:03 A

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Hi Abby! Wanted to say thank you for leading the team!

I have not been doing "regular" workouts since DH has been home recovering from surgery for the last 6 weeks and I sure notice a difference in my moods! I am starting with the workouts again tomorrow as he is going back to work and I hope my moods level out again! I have been walking a lot but that is not the same thing and I know it! I was actually surprised when I began working out and it really did level my moods. I always kind of thought that that wouldn't work with the bipolar but I was proved wrong by my own self! Hope everyone has a great Sunday!

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Feel free to chat back-and-forth here!

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