I completely know where you are coming from. I am starting over because I started on another program and was overwhelmed with both. Now that I can run for a few minutes at a time, I am realizing that much of the pain I felt before was anxiety based. That and the fact that everytime I would try and run before I somehow had it in my mind I had to run like a bat out of hell. Not realizing it was okay to do a walk run. I am doing it on the treadmill and that has helped since I can gauge my tortoise-slow speed. Have no concept of that on the open road. Using a stop watch and just trying to breathe is too much!
Not sure I will ever be a great runner. Would love to have some runner high, but so far it's not happening. BTW...I have friends that are runners that say they don't get that high. I am just geeked that I go a little farther distance than normal. Would love to be able to run for a 1/2 hour, only so I don't have to walk for an hour:) Cardio isn't a fav of mine, but I know I have to do it!
Congrats on getting to week 4. Gives me hope:)