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SARAHLAND Posts: 37
5/30/07 12:17 P

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Congratulations - that's wonderful!!!

Goal 1- 10% - 232 lbs
Goal 2 -10% - 209 lbs
Goal 3 - 10% - 188 lbs


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5/29/07 9:34 P

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Hee hee! Yay!

They have a thing called "babyfit" that's basically SP for baby-makers, but I think I might just adjust my goals, etc. to track here instead.

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LJHEALEY Posts: 38
5/29/07 11:58 A

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i get the spark emails and there was one addressing exercise fatigue last week. not just "im sick of exercise" but actual physical burnout. it reccommended taking a week-long break from exercise to let your body recouperate and then starting back in.

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5/28/07 5:08 P

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Ooohh!!!!!
CONGRATS!!!!!


Maybe I should have a baby so I can give up dieting ;)

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5/28/07 10:38 A

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dude, did you craft a baby? ha ha! that's the BEST reason to give up giving up treats!

"That's why we call it a struggle/ You're supposed to sweat"


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5/27/07 10:25 P

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Just wanted to let you guys know I'm taking a break from weight loss for awhile! See you again in January or so~! (that's about 9 months...)

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5/21/07 3:11 P

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i feel you, yo. while this site is dedicated to positive changes, i think that it can quickly turn sinister if you're so inclined, as i am. i can turn any good thing into a chore, and that's what this has become for me in a lot of ways. i sweat the numbers way too much, in part because the numbers are so easily calculable and accessible here. i mean, before spark i never could have worried about being 32 calories over my daily limit because i never would have taken the time to figure that out. now i get to beat myself up over 3 jellybeans too many. it's not a good way to live. this site makes it really easy to be very critical, and since i tend that way already, this can be a real pain in the arse.

an interesting thought: a coworker is reading Perfect Girls, Starving Daughters, a book about the normalization of hating our bodies, and there's a list on pages 6 & 7 about time-wasting, defeatist practices that i'd wager most women do when considering their and others' bodies. and the thing is, a LOT of them are, though not spark-started, very spark-friendly. i mean, a lot of those practices i started doing once i started working toward losing weight. not that this process is or should be effortless, but i'm sick of the accumulated time that this constant counting and quantifying takes. i'm getting tired of the worrying and mulling over decisions about food and the quantification of every moment of exercise i take part in... this just isn't a natural way to live. i mean, i get that we're using tools and taking tools that we like and making them work in our lives, but sometimes i wonder if my quality is improved all that much by this. i like having lost weight, and i like being healtier, but the constant numbers game of maintenance is starting to kill me a little bit...

so, to help, i'm taking a vacation from the scale until 05/30, and i'm considering taking a vacation from calorie quantification. i mean, i'll still eat healthy food and work out, but i don't know if i want to spend this much time on data entry. for now i'm going to keep with it, but i might stop soon depending on how i feel about it.

long-winded. sorry.

"That's why we call it a struggle/ You're supposed to sweat"


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5/18/07 8:29 P

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Hey, everyone, thank you for your responses. One of the great things about this site is the positivity, but sometimes I'm a misery chick and I need confirmation that this isn't all happiness and light.

I think I figured out what my damage is about all this. I'm not used to so frequently looking at my body in a critical way. It used to be that if I started doing the typical girl dialogue of saying rude things to myself about my poochy belly or jiggly thighs, I'd shut it right up, because I have friends who have constant inner (and outer!) monologues about that crap, and they seem really unhappy.

However, in undertaking this, I'm necessarily having to allow that voice into my head. After all, part of the reason I have weight to lose is that I wasn't being as picky as I apparently needed. But it still feels like an acidic, corrosive voice. It's not something I'm used to, which I guess speaks to how relatively successful I was at keeping those thoughts at bay. I think part of my learning in this will be to incorporate that set of thoughts, ideas, and observations without associating it with the usual media/societal messages regarding what one "should" look like. So often opinions about appearance become closely tied with self-worth - I need to learn, to really understand, that wanting to change myself in this way is actually the opposite. I am putting this effort in because I'm awesome, and because I could use some improvement in this way.

And that negative feeling was stretching over into the whole Spark experience, as that's what brought it about in the first place. It's just taken me a while to figure out and then articulate what was going on in my head.

So thank you again, for your honesty and for your encouragement. And, uh, for reading all of this. You help a lot, and it's good to have people who have succeeded so far at this (look at all of you with your impressive little tickers!) help me along.

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5/18/07 3:28 P

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I think it's great to use whichever tools work for you and lose whichever ones don't. That's one thing that's pretty great about this site - it has so many different tools.

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LJHEALEY Posts: 38
5/18/07 12:00 P

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i think its fine to take a break. i go weeks without entering food - its something that doesnt work great for me. i keep a rough tally in my head, i check on SP for nutrition info sometimes of foods and other than that i dont log food anymore. sometimes i log exercise, especially when i record a new weight and im curious how many fewer calories im burning. one thing i still find useful are the articles and emails.

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5/17/07 6:09 P

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I think if SP becomes just a time-suck and makes you more stressed than not, then it has ceased to be a useful tool and has become something unhelpful.

I try not to stress or worry too much about the whole thing. If I start putting too much emphasis on any part of it, I try to pull back a little. I mean, there's plenty of parts of this program where I pretty much suck, but I'm trying to focus on the positives and keep a good perspective on the whole thing.

SP has helped me a lot, though. I feel like I am doing well -- better than I have ever done at weight loss before.

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5/16/07 4:50 P

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I think you've both pinned it in different ways. Before doing Spark-style dieting, I had never in my life had a chocolate craving, or been obsessed with any kind of food. It's happened several times since doing this.

And I have, I think, been overdosing on the Sparkpoints. I've been getting each point for each email, and each point for this and that, and I think what was once fun is now becoming a malignant problem. I think it says something that this Spark vacation of mine would not involve skipping exercise or having crazy binges. I just don't want to think so hard about it. I do miss cookies and stuff, but the thing that bothers me is the conversion of things I enjoy to things I do to be productive. Dance class, for instance, had always fallen happily under both banners, but last night it felt different.

I think backing off a bit is a good idea. It doesn't help that work involves me being in front of a computer all day, though.

Thanks, guys. This wasn't quite making sense in my head before, but it seems logical now.

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5/16/07 3:45 P

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I've been feeling the same way.

Or, more accurately, the fact that I CAN'T get myself to stick to the program, makes me feel crappy about myself.

Then I think it causes stress and stress eating, and I really don't need more stress in my life!!

I also have trouble doing more than one thing - its like either exercise OR food, not both.

SO - I'm still gonna hang around, but for the summer I'm just going to work on enjoying the outdoors, get exercise and keep the healthy eating in the back of my head without the stress of having to stick to anything.




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5/16/07 2:51 P

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i hear you. i've taken a few days off here and there when it gets to be too much to keep doing math all of the time. i feel that over all, though, i've picked up some good tools here, like how to determine portion sizes, etc., that don't require daily math. i found that coming here just once or twice a day (usually morning and night) to update my numbers and post a couple of messages has helped me not feel fatigued. it was when i was receiving all of the spark emails and trying to accumulate sparkpoints that i was really starting to get bored with myself.

so, yeah, take what's good from here and leave what's tiring, i guess is what i'm suggesting.

"That's why we call it a struggle/ You're supposed to sweat"


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5/16/07 2:37 P

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Lately, I find myself sick of quantifying. In my dance class yesterday, I got mad at myself for thinking, "Oh, this is such good exercise!" when I got winded during free dancing, rather than just enjoying flinging myself around like normal. I'm tired of eating being a matter of math, something which complicated a most delicious visit to a vegan restaurant last night. This new way of thinking that came with doing Sparkpeople is undoubtedly useful, but I'm sick of it right now. I think soon (I'm thinking when I hit 160, half-way to my goal) I might take a week's Spark-vacation - not to binge and drink gallons of beer and eat buckets of cake, but just to act normal for a little while. I miss it.

It's weird; I'm a list person, and this way of living was great fun at first, but the fun's worn off, for the moment. Anyone else had this happen? I'm still going to keep at this, to get back to a healthier size for me. I'm just weary right now.

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