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8/29/13 10:00 A

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Good morning everyone, and happy Thursday. I hope today will be a good one for everybody.
Pascal, welcome back. You were only gone for about a month, but I was gone for about 3 years... while I was stressed out taking care of my dear sick mom who died a year ago. I ended up gaining a ton of weight when I wasn't logging in like I used to. We do need SP, and especially this team. It gives us motivation, hope, and support. Wishing you all the best.

Greg, don't beat yourself up too badly about drinking the coke. We are EE and are therefore sick with a disease. I try to have an excuse ready for not accepting restricted foods, and eve n then, I am sometimes defeated. I can tell that you are very serious about your recovery. At least you did the right thing to not let it get you started on a binge. .


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Hello everyone. It has been a month or so since I posted in this forum. I know that I need the support of others in order to succeed so I like to stay in the habit of posting at least once a day and maintaining a presence on the boards but some days I just scratch my head for something to say. Anyway, I'm here now and really trying to get my eating under control. Everyday is a struggle. Being on a team like this has really shown me that I don't have to struggle alone. Thank you all for sharing your ups and downs with the rest of us.

BTW Greg you are amazing. Thank you for your positivity, gratitude, and persistence.

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8/29/13 6:29 A

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**Food Mentioned**

Good morning
I hope you had a good day yesterday, and this finds you well this morning.

I was not abstinent yesterday, damn soda again. Someone else bought it and offered it, I did not even bat an eye before accepting and consuming it. I do not blame the other person for this, I will inform them I cannot have soda, and I will refuse it next time. It was another snap decision; there really wasn't any train of thought at the time. Someone offered me my favorite soda and I took it without blinking. I don't believe there was any rationalization going on in my head; I saw it and drank it. Itís so frustrating to keep hitting my head against the same wall over, and over again. Itís not the first time I have repeated the same behavior, however with help from my sponsors and my Higher Power I have put those behaviors down and not picked them up again. Not that I think I won't ever do it again, I know I am capable of doing it if I let my guard down for a second.

I went to a meeting yesterday in another program. A friend was celebrating her 15 years. It felt good to be there amidst recovery even if it wasn't for my main issue which is food. I am going to attend at least one of those meetings a week.

I am going to focus hard on the soda issue and work to stay away from it at all costs. I am also going to start looking more closely at my food in an effort to stay away from anything with high fructose corn syrup in it, and sugar in general.

My calories for the day were 3120. The ice tea I have been drinking is not reduced calorie as I originally thought its full strength and loaded with High Fructose Corn Syrup. I need to stop drinking these immediately. Were it not for these empty liquid calories I would have come in at about 2500 for the day.

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Do not stop enjoying the wonders of life despite the inevitable hurting that impairs our soul. Hence, it does not make you less of a person when you weep in tears and are in distress. Nonetheless, learn to withstand the stings of time; rise on your feet for no one can ever bring back the soul in you and the beauty of life except you, and you and you."


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8/28/13 11:41 P

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Good day. I am getting ready to take off to the cabin for a week. So I'm wishing everyone a safe and Happy Labor Day.
(Hope I can watch my eating as I won't be around internet for a couple of those days).

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8/28/13 9:44 A

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Good morning all. Having a good morning so far...I still need to go for my morning walk though. It was drizzling rain earlier so I didn't bother to go. I already have my meal planned out for the day...the nutritional tracker is great! I will be keeping busy today by doing busy work in my bedroom and kitchen. The busier I am, the better. It gives me a better feeling of value, and I tend to stay on track better.


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8/28/13 8:50 A

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Good Morning

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8/28/13 7:04 A

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**Food Mentioned*

Good morning

I hope you are well this morning

My day was good yesterday. I emailed my mom apologizing for my behavior the day before. I am able to better communicate by writing out my thoughts sometimes. She apologized for her behavior as well, and both agreed to work on our interactions



My food was good yesterday, I started to say I was abstinent but I did have a slip. For a snack yesterday afternoon I had a biscuit with honey on it. I didn't over indulge on either thing, but it was something that sounded good, I wanted it so I had it. Neither honey nor biscuits are on my trigger/binge list, but still for whatever reason I feel I needed to disclose it. I actually had to think about it for a minute, initially I didn't feel like it needed to be mentioned, but I wasn't sure.

My sponsor always told me if I wasnít sure chances are I wasnít doing the right thing, doing the right thing is always crystal clear food wise, when in doubt go without. Aside from that the rest of my day went well and according to plan.

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attend a noon AA meeting, a friend is celebrating

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" Taking ACTION is the ultimate power of Motivation. Nothing beats it, period."
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Do not stop enjoying the wonders of life despite the inevitable hurting that impairs our soul. Hence, it does not make you less of a person when you weep in tears and are in distress. Nonetheless, learn to withstand the stings of time; rise on your feet for no one can ever bring back the soul in you and the beauty of life except you, and you and you."


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8/28/13 6:48 A

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good job with the walking and sticking to your plan Carol :) I know my days are better when I follow my food plan and my action plan for the day. Day's I get off track things don't seem to go quite so well for me, coincidence? Possibly but I don't think so.

Not sure how much of an inspiration I am *chuckles* but its inspiring to see people take action. At the end of the day no matter how much I plan, how good my intentions are, how much BS I spew, if I don't take some action then it all means nothing, so good job on taking action :) thats the key to success in my book

" Taking ACTION is the ultimate power of Motivation. Nothing beats it, period."
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Do not stop enjoying the wonders of life despite the inevitable hurting that impairs our soul. Hence, it does not make you less of a person when you weep in tears and are in distress. Nonetheless, learn to withstand the stings of time; rise on your feet for no one can ever bring back the soul in you and the beauty of life except you, and you and you."


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8/27/13 10:48 P

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Ready to call it a night. Been little tired and down today. Maybe it's the heat. Heading for the mountains in a couple days. emoticon

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8/27/13 9:14 P

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Have a good evening.

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8/27/13 9:16 A

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Good morning everyone. I was a member of this team several years ago, and I enjoyed being a part of the group. I gave a better introduction of myself in the other thread for introductions.
Greg, I'm so glad to meet you here this morning. I'm inspired by you to go walking today and to stick to my food plan.
Hope all of you will have a great day.


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8/27/13 8:17 A

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Greg - you are doing great and are an inspiration.

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Good morning
I hope you are well today. I had a pretty decent day yesterday; my calories for the day were 2445. They would have been lower but I have been having an issue with soda as of late. I have been deceptive because I have not mentioned it to anyone, I rationalize it as "not a big dealĒ There was no need for it, I was not experiencing any sort of diabetic emergency or anything of that nature. Actually I was using them as meal replacements of sorts. I have had a few days where I have gone way to long between meals and I was not going to be home anytime soon. I grabbed a soda to get me by for a few hours. I did not intentionally plan it this way so I could indulge in a soda, although when selecting a soda it was totally compulsive, I picked out a soda I remember from my childhood that brought me happy memories, and honestly it tasted fantastic.

I still realize I cannot have it. If for any reason I need something I will use orange or apple juice from now on, I will not look to soda for anything. I will add that to my trigger/binge list. I think I already put it on there, but if I did I need to re-affirm it to myself, and if I didn't then it needs to be on there. If I had not had 2 sodasí I would have been at about 1900 calories for the day. Although it did taste good, it was 500 useless, empty calories. The next time I even think about picking up a soda I will text my food sponsor or pray, or both.

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Text ,my food sponsor l before/after meals (I got side tracked and did not text him before lunch; however I did before/after breakfast/supper)
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Do something for my recovery every hour
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Do not stop enjoying the wonders of life despite the inevitable hurting that impairs our soul. Hence, it does not make you less of a person when you weep in tears and are in distress. Nonetheless, learn to withstand the stings of time; rise on your feet for no one can ever bring back the soul in you and the beauty of life except you, and you and you."


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First night back to work since my surgery. This is the place where I have the most problems, 10 hour shift with nothing go do but eat. So far I've gotten through 4hrs without boredom eating! emoticon

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8/26/13 3:00 P

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Hi Nomi, I do a combo. I like live meetings better than online, I engage more in person. I get tempted to play solitaire or watch a spider walk down the wall in online meetings, I have a short attention span. I like live meetings but that's not always possible. Phone meetings are good as well. I wish I lived in NY city they have meetings all over the place, all times of day. I live in a small town in Northern Maine, my options are limited *chuckles*


" Taking ACTION is the ultimate power of Motivation. Nothing beats it, period."
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Do not stop enjoying the wonders of life despite the inevitable hurting that impairs our soul. Hence, it does not make you less of a person when you weep in tears and are in distress. Nonetheless, learn to withstand the stings of time; rise on your feet for no one can ever bring back the soul in you and the beauty of life except you, and you and you."


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8/26/13 1:05 P

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Greg - do you go to meetings or online?

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8/26/13 5:56 A

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Hi LUCASMOM2003 mom welcome :) Well what do you think will help you? What will help me and everyone else in here might not necessarily work for you. I found that out over years of experience, I had to find what worked for me, and that is a 12 step program for food. I had to find people like me who were going through or went through things like I did. They are the only ones who understand. I would recommend sitting and meditating on it a while to see what might help you. We all have the answers inside of us, its just not clear at first. No one else can really tell us what is best for us, but they will sure try ;) Only we know what is best for us, I know how frustrating it can be to seek an answer and not find it. That's why I choose the program I am on. I am a food addict/compulsive over eater/emotional eater, I am insane when it comes to food. I cannot make informed choices for myself. I need someone who has come before me, and is free from their disease to guide me. The only advice I feel worthy of offering is to build yourself a support team of people you trust who are loving and helpful. If people aren't supportive and positive they have no place on my team. I hope you find what works best for you :)

" Taking ACTION is the ultimate power of Motivation. Nothing beats it, period."
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Do not stop enjoying the wonders of life despite the inevitable hurting that impairs our soul. Hence, it does not make you less of a person when you weep in tears and are in distress. Nonetheless, learn to withstand the stings of time; rise on your feet for no one can ever bring back the soul in you and the beauty of life except you, and you and you."


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Keep the Faith Nomis, sometimes the road is hard, you can get back on track. This is coming from someone who is used to chronically relapsing with food. I get back up every day (mostly) and get back on that horse. I sometimes slack off with doing emails and posting here, I even slack off emailing my sponsors. Its never usually more than a day or so, but I get back at it. That's really (in my option) what it comes down too is getting right back on that horse, at least for me. Does it suck and hurt to keep falling? Yep it does, i am black and blue I have fallen so many times, but i am not willing to give up. My choices are to keep working at this until my life changes or I am going to die due to being over weight. My situation is not as dire as other peoples, but I don't have the luxury of messing up too many times for too long. I am pushing the limits as it is, so every time I put something in my mouth that's unhealthy I am one bite closer to death. This is the heaviest I have ever been in my life and it happened over time. I have always been a bit overweight 20-40 pounds over the years but nothing like the couple of hundreds pounds I am now.

I know it sucks but just keep fighting, that's the only advice I will offer, because thats the only thing I am successful at, getting up and keep on fighting. Ill keep you in my thoughts and prayers. if you need some support I would be willing to text or email you. Its not my job to tell you how or what to eat but I can try and support you when you feel like eating something that maybe is unhealthy. I know for me having a support team helps, but it only works when I reach out to them.

Greg

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Do not stop enjoying the wonders of life despite the inevitable hurting that impairs our soul. Hence, it does not make you less of a person when you weep in tears and are in distress. Nonetheless, learn to withstand the stings of time; rise on your feet for no one can ever bring back the soul in you and the beauty of life except you, and you and you."


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8/26/13 5:45 A

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(Email I sent to my sponsor this morning)

Good morning

I hope this finds you well today.

Yesterdays calories were 1870. My caloric goals on a daily basis are between 2000-2400. That will give me a 3-4 pound a week weight loss if I can maintain within that range. I was not successful at texting my food sponsor before and after every meal yesterday.



I did before hand but go distracted and did not after lunch. I did not have any supper last night. i got up late, had breakfast, and then by the time lunch time rolled around it was pretty much my supper time, I was in bed not long after supper. I was abstinent yesterday



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Submit meal plan (done)

Pray before/after my meals

Text my food sponsor before/after meals

Pray

Be of service where I can

Do something for my recovery every hour
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" Taking ACTION is the ultimate power of Motivation. Nothing beats it, period."
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Do not stop enjoying the wonders of life despite the inevitable hurting that impairs our soul. Hence, it does not make you less of a person when you weep in tears and are in distress. Nonetheless, learn to withstand the stings of time; rise on your feet for no one can ever bring back the soul in you and the beauty of life except you, and you and you."


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Hello I'm new...I have been flushing my body, and was wondering how to keep from eatting because I feel hungry? Think it might be because I'm bored...I'm not sure what to do... maybe someone can help me out..

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8/26/13 12:25 A

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Once again not doing well with the food.

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4GREEN4 ~ Sorry you had a bad week! Try to pick yourself up and focus on what you can do to improve last week. Don't beat yourself up over it, get determined to do better this week. emoticon

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TERRIBLE- BAD WEEK. BAD DAY

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I did buy ice cream after the movies. I ate a lot but through out the rest. That is a biggie for me.

My daughter called from the ER - she brought my granddaughter in and appendicitis is suspected. Tests are being done but haven't heard anything back yet.

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It is just the start of the day, but so far it has been pretty good. emoticon

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Great day! Walked 20 minutes. Bought step counter can't believe how it motivited me. emoticon

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Good morning
I hope this finds you well and that you had a good day yesterday
my day was pretty darn good. The only deviation I had was a mountain dew. I did not properly plan my snacks between lunch and breakfast and I was out on the road and started getting a bad headache and started feeling dizzy.

I took my 7 year old niece out to see some horses at my friends house. I was in a rush and forgot to take snack.

My food the rest of my day was great, I ate exactly how I was supposed to. I count yesterday as being abstinent. I reported my food to my food sponsor, I didn't have any snacking issues at night time. It feels good to be abstient.

I had a pretty good day with mom, no commotion or anything like that, the prayers my sponsor sent me helped out alot



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work on my recovery by taking a recovery action every hour of my day
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" Taking ACTION is the ultimate power of Motivation. Nothing beats it, period."
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Do not stop enjoying the wonders of life despite the inevitable hurting that impairs our soul. Hence, it does not make you less of a person when you weep in tears and are in distress. Nonetheless, learn to withstand the stings of time; rise on your feet for no one can ever bring back the soul in you and the beauty of life except you, and you and you."


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Good Morning

Greg thanks for sharing that article.

Went to the gym and so far so good today.

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Good morning

I hope you had a good day yesterday

My day was not bad. I still couldn't sleep well. I took a brief nap yesterday morning, I really didn't sleep I just tossed and turned. I was up late last night I didn't fall asleep till well after 10 and I was awake at 3, I reset the alarm for 4 but really just drifted in and out it didn't give me any rest.

I did some recovery readings, I read something one of my sponsors posted on Facebook that was very profound and helpful for me Ill share it here

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I would have used Tinyurl to shorten that up but for some foolish reason sparkpeople doesn't allow it? makes no sense what so ever...anyways




The recovery readings I did yesterday seemed to tie into that, itís amazing to me when different parts of my life intersect and seem to fit together, coming from totally different directions. Itís pretty cool



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Pray before/after my meals

Text my food sponsor before/after my meals

Be of service

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Do something for my recovery every hour


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Edited by: GREG32572 at: 8/21/2013 (06:23)
" Taking ACTION is the ultimate power of Motivation. Nothing beats it, period."
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Do not stop enjoying the wonders of life despite the inevitable hurting that impairs our soul. Hence, it does not make you less of a person when you weep in tears and are in distress. Nonetheless, learn to withstand the stings of time; rise on your feet for no one can ever bring back the soul in you and the beauty of life except you, and you and you."


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Had a hard day. I found that lost stash of M&M's in my house. Good news, the binge lasted for a minute. Still, I will take this as a small victory. I have had binges that have lasted all day. I am learning to fine tune my understanding of victory. Victory can come in all shapes and sizes. It is those baby steps that define the journey.. I never got it until now.. The glass of half full vs the glass half empty.

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Hi Nomis, good job :) yep it does work if you work it...doesn't matter if its a 12 step program or any sort of other program, or just one you make up if we work it, it will work. Good job on distracting yourself. I suffer greatly in this department. The pull inside of me to eat sometimes is very great, it almost feels like it causes physical pain as the 2 sides of me battle for control. Often times its easiest to let the dark side win just because I don't want to go through the pain, but that rarely every solves the problem, no let me rephrase it NEVER solves the problem, sometimes the good gives me a minute of "happiness" right before it all falls apart again....these days even when I go to eat food that I should not have, often times it doesn't taste how I want it to taste, sometimes its just gross, which REALLLY makes me angry. An old saying is "nothing messes up your drinking like AA" or in my case nothing messes up my eating like OA, because I KNOW that food is not the solution, yet time and time again I bang my head on the wall and keep trying to do the same thing over and over again and expecting different results. Its very difficult but I work at it everyday and I make progress everyday, its not easy, but neither is slowly dying from all the weight that's ravaging my body. Ty for sharing it really helped to remind me about the stuff I need to do when the food calls me....that helps :)

" Taking ACTION is the ultimate power of Motivation. Nothing beats it, period."
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Do not stop enjoying the wonders of life despite the inevitable hurting that impairs our soul. Hence, it does not make you less of a person when you weep in tears and are in distress. Nonetheless, learn to withstand the stings of time; rise on your feet for no one can ever bring back the soul in you and the beauty of life except you, and you and you."


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8/20/13 4:35 P

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So far so good today.

I did feel like eating something. I think it was out of habit. So I came to the computer. it works if you work it.

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8/20/13 6:11 A

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(guess the band responsible for my blog title and win a 50 point goodie)
I wanted to make it more challenging but this was the song playing as I wrote, should be easy ;) OH and you only get ONE guess *grins*

Good morning

I hope this finds you well. I am ok this morning, which is odd because I didn't sleep for crap last night. I was exhausted yesterday, couldn't wait for sleep. I got into bed and tossed and turned all night. I took my pain meds before bed I figured they would help with the pain and knock me out, they didn't do anything, and I didnít sleep more than a few hours the whole night

I got up a bit late, about 4 am. I didn't feel crappy at the moment; I did a quick meditation and prayed then left for work. I am kind of tired and have a bit of headache right now but otherwise I am well, trying not to think ahead to the inevitable crash coming *chuckles*

I had about 2300 calories yesterday, thatís about 300 than I would like



My goals for today

Pray

Submit meal plan (done)

Pray before and after my meals

Text food sponsor before and after my meals

Be of service where i can

Pray

Do something for my recovery every hour

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" Taking ACTION is the ultimate power of Motivation. Nothing beats it, period."
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Do not stop enjoying the wonders of life despite the inevitable hurting that impairs our soul. Hence, it does not make you less of a person when you weep in tears and are in distress. Nonetheless, learn to withstand the stings of time; rise on your feet for no one can ever bring back the soul in you and the beauty of life except you, and you and you."


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8/20/13 6:11 A

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I stay away from any sort of sweeteners, artificial or otherwise, I have too. Anything sweet provokes the phenomenon of craving in me. So even if its a "calorie free" sweetener that's supposed to be "healthy" for me I stay away from it, especially diet soda. I believe those are horrible for us and killing us, the chemicals in aspartame are frightening, and they provoke craving in me as well

" Taking ACTION is the ultimate power of Motivation. Nothing beats it, period."
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Do not stop enjoying the wonders of life despite the inevitable hurting that impairs our soul. Hence, it does not make you less of a person when you weep in tears and are in distress. Nonetheless, learn to withstand the stings of time; rise on your feet for no one can ever bring back the soul in you and the beauty of life except you, and you and you."


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8/20/13 6:09 A

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that's great Nomis, rinse and repeat today :)

" Taking ACTION is the ultimate power of Motivation. Nothing beats it, period."
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Do not stop enjoying the wonders of life despite the inevitable hurting that impairs our soul. Hence, it does not make you less of a person when you weep in tears and are in distress. Nonetheless, learn to withstand the stings of time; rise on your feet for no one can ever bring back the soul in you and the beauty of life except you, and you and you."


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8/19/13 8:42 P

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Did okay today. Did not buy any junk food.

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8/19/13 2:32 P

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I am not using artificial sweetners these days, but I have tried stevia. It is ok. Sometimes, I use brown sugar in place or reduce the amount of sugar in my baking, etc..

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8/19/13 12:04 P

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6 hours and I'm doing okay.

I may have to stop later at the supermarket. That's hard. If I don't get the lettuce I want at the farm stand I'll have to stop at the supermarket.

Coming home after being out is a hard time for me.

Does anyone use artificial sweetners?

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8/19/13 11:05 A

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made it thru one whole day without binging! I feel so happy and encouraged..sure hope I can make it thru tonite again. Nightimes are so lonely and easy for me to binge..I read an article about a fatitude...how one mistake doesn't mean to give up and gorge..and that how I perceive my body while improving my health, needs to be positive..I do alot of self hate on the inside...one day at a time is my goal...hope everyone has a good day emoticon

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8/19/13 10:07 A

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Greg - thanks I'm trying.

Still doing okay. Went to the gym and had breakfast.

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8/19/13 8:56 A

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have a great day Nomis

" Taking ACTION is the ultimate power of Motivation. Nothing beats it, period."
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Do not stop enjoying the wonders of life despite the inevitable hurting that impairs our soul. Hence, it does not make you less of a person when you weep in tears and are in distress. Nonetheless, learn to withstand the stings of time; rise on your feet for no one can ever bring back the soul in you and the beauty of life except you, and you and you."


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8/19/13 6:39 A

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Good Morning

I'm only up 40 minutes - but so far so good.
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Going to the gym in a little while.

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8/19/13 6:29 A

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(for a little entertainment value to my blogs, some of you may know my blogs are often titled by the song that is playing while I write them. I thought it might be fun to give a 50 point goodie to the first person who emails me the name of the band of said song, ill announce winners the following day)

Good morning I hope this finds you well.

I am doing alright this morning. I don't feel fantastic but I don't feel horrible either.
My weekend was good and bad. I already covered the stuff that happened Saturday. Yesterday things kind of worked out, my mom and I talked a little bit. I realized I have deep seeded resentment against her for my childhood.

I didn't really think I did or that I let that stuff go, but itís still there. I have some work to do on the subject as with all things in my life.
This weekend was the first time I was really able to start taking the pain medication my Dr gave me. it does help to dull the pain out which I really needed after my yard work expedition on Saturday. It does not totally take the pain away from me but it helps. I feel very fortunate that these types of drugs don't hold the same type of lure they do for other addicts. They bring me no pleasure what so ever, they never have. Sitting in my chair like a zombie with a swirling head and a slight headache is not my idea of a good time.

I feel proud of myself I got up and started my day off with some meditation and prayer, I wish I had gotten up about 10 minutes earlier, my 5 minutes of meditation didn't really cut it. I have been doing it for 10 minutes but I slept in a bit today. Iíll try and set the alarm for a few minutes earlier tomorrow to make sure I can do my 10 minutes. I also did my vocal training. I got my meal plan sent to my food sponsor. I feel pretty good about this stuff, I am off to a strong start.

Goals for the day
pray
submit meal plan (done)
pray before/after meals
text my food sponsor before/after meals
pray
be of service where I can
do something for my recovery every hour, use my phone to help with this
pray

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" Taking ACTION is the ultimate power of Motivation. Nothing beats it, period."
`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~
Do not stop enjoying the wonders of life despite the inevitable hurting that impairs our soul. Hence, it does not make you less of a person when you weep in tears and are in distress. Nonetheless, learn to withstand the stings of time; rise on your feet for no one can ever bring back the soul in you and the beauty of life except you, and you and you."


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8/18/13 9:31 P

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Still not doing great. I look forward to the day when I can say I ate well and stuck to my plan.

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8/18/13 5:04 P

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Hello team!! I am doing well and staying on course. Went for a one hour bike ride with family and had a great time.

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8/18/13 4:15 P

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I will remember that concept. How can we live our lives without direction? Of course, I have done that very same thing for the last few years.

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8/18/13 2:41 P

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good job Sharebear, that HALT is a tricky monkey sometimes, I fell prey to almost all of it today. I hope your Sunday is going well :)

" Taking ACTION is the ultimate power of Motivation. Nothing beats it, period."
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Do not stop enjoying the wonders of life despite the inevitable hurting that impairs our soul. Hence, it does not make you less of a person when you weep in tears and are in distress. Nonetheless, learn to withstand the stings of time; rise on your feet for no one can ever bring back the soul in you and the beauty of life except you, and you and you."


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Good afternoon



Itís not been a great weekend for me, I am still alive and kicking so thatís good J I had written a long letter to my sponsor about what I have been dealing with but I am not going to share it like I normally do, I donít think itís necessary to put all that stuff out there, I got it out to my sponsor that is good enough. I will say I am having a lot of pain issues this weekend. I am also going through some stuff at home that I am not dealing well with, I have been reacting explosively and not in a very good manner.



There are certain things about my home life that I cannot really change and I do not currently deal well with so I am going to work on dealing with those things better and ďchange the things I canĒ hmmm maybe that means I have a little wisdom today *chuckles* in the grand scheme of things no one died, no one is hurt, I still have a roof over my head, food in the fridge, gas in the car, the car runs, I have internet and a computer to email. All that crap is just that its crap, itís done and other with and I kind of feel a bit better now, actually I am in pain and my batter is starting to wear down so I am tired *chuckles* but Iíll take it, better to feel a little tired than angry and on the war path. The sun is shining, the breeze is blowing and life it alright. I hope everyoneís weekend has been good, enjoy the rest of your day
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" Taking ACTION is the ultimate power of Motivation. Nothing beats it, period."
`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~
Do not stop enjoying the wonders of life despite the inevitable hurting that impairs our soul. Hence, it does not make you less of a person when you weep in tears and are in distress. Nonetheless, learn to withstand the stings of time; rise on your feet for no one can ever bring back the soul in you and the beauty of life except you, and you and you."


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8/18/13 7:38 A

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Good Morning! I want to give you a word of encouragement. I know that you have heard this before, but, here it is ..Keep going. Keep searching Do not give up. In this journey, I am aware that there are so many demons we have to fight. I can say for myself that I did not learn the proper tools of confronting conflicts/crisis without the assistance of some external source.

Growing up in a dysfunctional childhood takes away the ability just to be a kid. We take on adult emotions before our brains can handle this stuff. I can relate to a lot of your feelings.
Our stories have a lot of common threads that look and sound familiar

You are not alone and neither am I. We are all in this together.

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8/17/13 10:38 P

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emoticon went walking today, and increased it again. My new goal for a week is walk at least 6500 minutes a day. Wish I was doing so well with my eating, having a hard time not eating in the evenings. It has been hard being able to afford fresh fruits and veggies. I live 21 miles from town and so it is hard to keep them fresh.


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