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10/26/20 10:34 A

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Hello EE team, Just checking in to say hello. Tomorrow is my BIRTHDAY!! :-) But I have to work (and give a presentation) so ... not too exciting. haha.

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Debber Nebber!!! Oh man, late night is the hardest for me too!!! What can we do to eat less in the evenings??? Thank you for any tips. Love, Vespa

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Been struggling with late night snacking recently

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Been sticking to my meals. What few whims I've had to eat for the sake of eating have not felt like they were associated with any particular emotion unless you call feeling unstructured an emotion. I was on a mission today and can't remember having many inklings to eat. Maybe just a tad as an old habit to eat something from groceries I had just bought while in the car on the way home. But it just seemed dumb. Just knee jerk. I was fine until official lunch time. Okay I was a little antsy to start early but it worked out. Dinner was lighter than usual; experimenting to see if I get hungry before I sleep. It doesn't feel now like I will! I am plenty full, but I also know I ate a lot of water-rich foods, so who knows. But I'm fine.

Seven years of maintaining a 20% weightloss and counting.
*To seek happiness, identifying the Self with the body, is like trying to cross a river on the back of a crocodile." Ramana Maharshi
*The No S Diet saved me from my emotional eating defeats.
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I send you strength! Emotions never make us eat. They have been paired with food so we've been Pavloved! They just make us want to eat. It is just a habit. It is such a blessing that you have lived another lifestyle that you liked. Unprocessed foods do not trip those wires unless we constantly use them the same way. You can do this!

Been doing fine with food. My life is not especially stressful now, but I am very capable of getting miffed by plenty of events! Even little ones. It is so obvious afterwards that most of them are false alarms . I am trying to get better at seeing them that way, as false alarms, just as so many small urges and big urges to eat are false alarms. My blood sugar regulation works very well in my body, and I have way too much in storage to ever have been in any remote way at risk of starving!

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Seven years of maintaining a 20% weightloss and counting.
*To seek happiness, identifying the Self with the body, is like trying to cross a river on the back of a crocodile." Ramana Maharshi
*The No S Diet saved me from my emotional eating defeats.
8 years and counting! nosdiet.com/
*Get to the next meal hungry!
www.sparkpeople.com/myspark/groups_i
ndividual.asp?gid=1323


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I have been an off and on Sparker...but I'm just getting to know the message boards and found this one. I have had major problems my whole life with emotional eating and struggle every day. Over the past few years I have lost 100 lbs but still have another 100 to go and have stayed this weight (250) for a year now. I lost it by not eating sugar, simple carbs, and processed foods - focusing on real foods, fruits, veggies, protein, and having fun with exercising. However, stress is getting to me and the last month I've been eating sugar/carbs almost every day, binging when everyone is out of the house, and I've actually started gaining weight! I have to turn things around but now in the middle of moving...argh! More stress. I know there are ways to fight the urge to eat...I just have to focus on those. My motto is to never give up..although there are days when I feel like I have for the short term.

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My eating is going very well. I am becoming a binge coach and it's really helping to fill in some cracks. I wanted to use the program to increase productivity, too, but I lost my mojo today. Not going to let myself get too down, though. I'll try again tomorrow, and aim for getting half done before noon.

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*To seek happiness, identifying the Self with the body, is like trying to cross a river on the back of a crocodile." Ramana Maharshi
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8 years and counting! nosdiet.com/
*Get to the next meal hungry!
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Vespa, do you think emotional eating is getting in the way? Is it a weight goal you're talking about?

I myself have never been able to aim for a certain weight. Other things have been more important, but they have led to my weighing less than I did for most of high school. I still wouldn't have been one of the really thin girls. I'm kind of amazed I've gotten to where I am. I have never eaten less just to weigh what I do. But I eat a lot less, and certainly way less (or even none) of certain foods, for other reasons.

I am letting myself have a very low bar to start on my something-dreaded-every-day regime. Yesterday, I got nearly one box of papers gone through, mostly seeing what I could jettison. This means I will handle some papers more than once. That's okay for now. But today I will handle at least one thing that will take more time and decision-making, which is where the dread is. Just like I had to see so often that my desire for extra food hid the illusion of need, the dread is not a sign that something has to be feared. It's an illusion lIt doesn't necessarily make all the angst go away, but, like desire, it becomes tolerable. It's not forever!

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Seven years of maintaining a 20% weightloss and counting.
*To seek happiness, identifying the Self with the body, is like trying to cross a river on the back of a crocodile." Ramana Maharshi
*The No S Diet saved me from my emotional eating defeats.
8 years and counting! nosdiet.com/
*Get to the next meal hungry!
www.sparkpeople.com/myspark/groups_i
ndividual.asp?gid=1323


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7/16/20 9:22 P

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You know when you are SO close to achieving a goal ... and yet ... so far away :-) HA! That's where I'm at right now!!!

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7/16/20 3:01 P

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Your reply was encouraging. I agree I can spend too much time on here too. I get emails all the time from the community board etc and I have to check them out. Haha! I think I might turn those off and just go on when I need to record food and exercise. I can get on the board at that time.

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Renee, that is fantastic- that you didn't go crazy. Isn't it great to have that experience of mostly eating reasonably in the face of all that went on? I affirm that you will get to the point where that will be your default, and it will seem weird when you remember how often you took it for granted that eating "all over the place" was logical and normal. I bet you have an idea of how you might handle a similar dinner in the future. BTW, Apple has my address in its maps miles away from where I live. It has directed a couple of people there instead of where I actually live. The other spot is in a kind of rundown neighborhood in a canyon that can be confusing to get out of. A drag for my visitors! I'm sure you actually did great under the circumstances. So sorry you have such difficulties to look forward to. All I can say is in my experience, I do better during stress if I don't stress eat!

I am working on not spending a lot of time on Spark unless I am also getting unpleasant productive things done. This is on a 14-minute break. Did a very long project the previous two days without any big deviation from my regular routine. Feeling grown up!

Seven years of maintaining a 20% weightloss and counting.
*To seek happiness, identifying the Self with the body, is like trying to cross a river on the back of a crocodile." Ramana Maharshi
*The No S Diet saved me from my emotional eating defeats.
8 years and counting! nosdiet.com/
*Get to the next meal hungry!
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7/16/20 9:14 A

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Last week was a stressful week, and I made it through without eating off plan. However, I had a follow-up appointment yesterday, and the clinic was about 40 minutes away. I used the map on my phone, but "she" took me to the wrong area. As a new resident of this state, driving anywhere is a new adventure, but to be late for an appointment causes anxiety. I finally arrived and saw the doctor. The results of my last imaging wasn't showing what he needs to see, so he wants to do a different kind of test with needles and dye and other "fun" stuff. I have had the test previously, and because of a spinal cord injury the pain during this test registers quite high.Ugh! Pain is a beast and has been my companion since 1996. Thoughts of the upcoming test distracted me, and I missed my offramp. The drive home took much longer than necessary and I was famished! I ended up eating stupidly. My emotional eating won yesterday, but today is a new day to eat on plan. The difference as a Sparker is that I didn't go binge crazy!!

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Am I emotional eating or is it just because I'm staying home more?




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I wasn't clear before. The test results took three days. It took over two hours from the time I arrived at the test site until I had the test. The tests were supposed to start at 8:30 a.m. I meant to get there at 8 but arrived at about 8:15 a.m. and I was number 16. They had chairs set up spaced far apart, but there was no one in them. (This all happened in an open air parking lot under an office building.) Turned out they were asking people to wait in their cars to be called when it was close to the time they could get tested. I had walked. My car was a mile away. I realize now I could have walked back and moved my car closer but they thought I might get my test by 9-ish, so I went for a longer walk and came back around 9:15. I did not get called until after 10. But I had nowhere I had to be. I probably went on Spark on my phone!

Did some nibbling I normally wouldn't do this morning basically eating my lunch early. I know what stimulated it, though I'm always saying that just because I want to eat doesn't mean I have to. I've noticed that I often am drawn to eating more in the morning, getting overfull, and then having a pretty easy time waiting for dinner. To preserve a pattern so that I can eat dinner with other people, I've wanted to leave room to have a good-sized dinner, but maybe during COVID, since I won't eat with others often, I should let the pattern change and move it back when things are safer. I have done well in the past not allowing for a lot of change and decisions about my meal timing on a daily basis, so just thinking I'll play it by ear isn't ok right now. But, I AM having dinner with a couple of friends Sunday so I'll keep things as they are until Monday.

Seven years of maintaining a 20% weightloss and counting.
*To seek happiness, identifying the Self with the body, is like trying to cross a river on the back of a crocodile." Ramana Maharshi
*The No S Diet saved me from my emotional eating defeats.
8 years and counting! nosdiet.com/
*Get to the next meal hungry!
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7/11/20 12:14 A

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I can still go in to work until the results are in. I am essential personnel so working from home is not possible.

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7/10/20 11:40 P

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I enjoy your writing. It's a journey you take your readers on and we all gain some insight into our relationship with food. I think when you share on here rather than eating, you are making a good choice. You will catch up on your house work. Funny how when we find out company is coming our house comes together rather quickly! So invite someone over for dinner and your house will get done. Hahaha! I had a medical test this week and I couldn't eat the whole day before or the morning of. Needless to say I was hungry. I didn't eat well when I did eat but still under calories. I ate a yummy hamburger and fries too! Tomorrow back to salads and chicken and vegetables that haven't been soaked in oil!! emoticon

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Do you have to sit in the office for a week? If I had made an appointment, I would have had to call well ahead. In any case, I hope you are okay juggling so many things.

Seven years of maintaining a 20% weightloss and counting.
*To seek happiness, identifying the Self with the body, is like trying to cross a river on the back of a crocodile." Ramana Maharshi
*The No S Diet saved me from my emotional eating defeats.
8 years and counting! nosdiet.com/
*Get to the next meal hungry!
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I wish mine was a 2 hour wait instead it is a 1 week wait

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I wrote most of this yesterday but somehow did not post it. I caught up with new posts since then.

Hi, Onicam, haven't seen you in a long time. You probably don't remember me. No worries. I had one C19 test and it wasn't bad. The worst part was the 2-hour wait. I'm retired so it wasn't so terrible, but I wouldn't want to do that every week. There have been other sites in my city where I could have made an appointment but this one was nearby.

Fnight, I wish I could find other things I am willing to do besides come on Spark when I want to avoid eating. I have things I SHOULD do, but this is more fun. And I'm maintaining a 50 lb. loss. Maybe my house will be clean, too, someday.

Renee, good one about the dimples. Near your other cleavage? emoticon

The Spark calculator or any calculator can only guess. A lot of stuff in the body goes into its deciding how much it burns. It can speed things up, slow them down, hold water, etc. It doesn't mean weight loss is impossible, it's a matter of whether the right balance of in and out is tolerable/comfortable/ pleasurable ENOUGH for you. And a body that gained and lost and then gained will hold on more than one that hasn't. Maybe you already knew that, but it's hard to face. The survival brain thinks the body needs protecting; other parts of the brain think our identity needs protecting; I like to think the prefrontal cortex knows our well-being needs protecting. Being mad at yourself for having done the best you could at the time is only useful if it actually helps you make the right decisions in tough moments. Productive suffering, Baby! Otherwise, it's kinda mean. Part of us won't cooperate with meanies without a lot of resentment.

I've just come across two online coaches in the last couple of days who are coming at this from completely different places but both of them talked about how all our anguish over food and the body's appearance are not our real selves. And what's really interesting is that I also stumbled across a youtube video by a world-renowned anorexia nervosa therapist whom I happen to know. I knew her decades ago through a friend I met while traveling in India, when she was a junior high school teacher. In the video, she was asked about the core idea in her work and it was exactly what these other people were saying. She started her work with anorexics back in the early 80's, I think, before one of the other coaches was even alive, maybe both of them. I even have her book but never read it! Hers is an idea- who is our real self- on a much less radical level similar to a concept in the Indian philosophy I've studied for several years. It's an interesting image to use. I've been able to separate out most of the time the thoughts that say go ahead and eat that. from my real needs. I never thought of those thoughts as representing a non-real self, just a mistaken urge for protection I didn't need. Hmm, it feels like this could be important but I'm reaching a bit of a wall. Not frustrated. I'm having faith it will float up to the surface later, possibly even more coalesced.

Been kind of avoiding stuff, binging here on posting and reading, though not eating. I forgive myself.

BTW, another thing I heard is a delineation between cravings and emotional eating, something else I realized I knew but hadn't actually spelled out. In my case, I haven't felt a lot of need to straighten them out because my plan allows me to treat them similarly in the sense that I don't see either as a reason to eat. Sure, the urges can seem awful, terrible, excruciating, but ultimately actually tolerable, especially when I consider the alternatives. Caught.



Edited by: OOLALA53 at: 7/10/2020 (17:17)
Seven years of maintaining a 20% weightloss and counting.
*To seek happiness, identifying the Self with the body, is like trying to cross a river on the back of a crocodile." Ramana Maharshi
*The No S Diet saved me from my emotional eating defeats.
8 years and counting! nosdiet.com/
*Get to the next meal hungry!
www.sparkpeople.com/myspark/groups_i
ndividual.asp?gid=1323


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Ugh, I'd not like getting COVID tests every week. Sounds like you have a lot going on.

What are you knitting? I just finished a wrap and am going to work up some new dishcloths because they're short, easy, and we need more of them.

I'm currently coming up with a list of quick things I can do instead of eat this weekend, feeling like food is calling my name.

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At this time I am working 3 long days a week, taking care of my dog, in 2 Braille classes, looking for a new dentist, needing to lower my cholesterol, beginning stages of knitting, looking for a new sponsor, still with 2 government agencies, trying to get organized, and having to get COVID tests every week while needing to see eye doctors that if you have gotten tested within 10 days you can’t pass the first question on the screening. The testing is due to my work not any symptoms.

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I just discovered there are NEW Leslie Sansone Walk Away the Pounds videos on YouTube (free). Yay! I did a 2-mile video today!

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That is possible that the calorie range might not be accurate. I input my information in the Spark Program and the calories were set by their program, adjusting to my calories burned by exercise. I have been using Sparks since April something, but as I stated the weight comes off so slowly. Even as an emotional eater, I was able to keep my weight down until too much loss and too much eating to fill the void, shot my weight up to over 200 lbs. What a foolish thing to do. I have to get this extra stuff off my body. The dimples on the wrong cheeks are not cute. emoticon

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The calorie range may not be accurate for you. It is just an estimate. The good news is you are at least doing good for your body eating unprocessed foods and not engaging those binge pathways. I can imagine it is discouraging. emoticon

I haven’t been having terrible problems with emotional eating. Also, four times a year I do a special diet that lasts only five days. It is not meant for weight loss. I say this because I’ve been able to stick to the whole program every time I’ve done it. I know partly it’s because I know it’s only temporary. That’s OK because of what it is. It’s not meant to be a lifestyle. It’s just making me wonder how I could have an eating plan for the rest of my life that had enough freedom to accommodate some extra eating at times, but also had some limit that would help me know and be able to stop before I thought I had too much. I’m at the point where I am more interested in that then I am in losing anymore weight. I’m realizing I have to really think about what it would mean for me to feel completely at peace with my eating. I know that I do not think that I want to limit myself forever to a completely healthy diet. I do not believe that every example of eating a little more than I need equals an emotional eating problem.

I have to think about this a little more.

Edited by: OOLALA53 at: 7/6/2020 (22:44)
Seven years of maintaining a 20% weightloss and counting.
*To seek happiness, identifying the Self with the body, is like trying to cross a river on the back of a crocodile." Ramana Maharshi
*The No S Diet saved me from my emotional eating defeats.
8 years and counting! nosdiet.com/
*Get to the next meal hungry!
www.sparkpeople.com/myspark/groups_i
ndividual.asp?gid=1323


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I eat within calore range almost every day since I started. I stick to basics on food with meat -- mostly chicken, veggies and fruit. I don't eat bananas much because I can easily make them a binge food. :( I don't eat sugar, but I do substitute with truvia. I don't eat baked goods even sugarless because I will turn those into a binge food also. I have had a two inch squared piece of birthday cake, and two cookies in the last few months but I counted them in my calories and didn't go over. I had a bad weekend about a month and half ago and almost cancelled my membership to Spark People I felt like such a failure but instead I read success stories and got back on track. That is when I found the emotinal eaters, the food addict and the binge teams. They were playing my tune. Hahaha! My exercise is limited due to physical limitatons but I keep trying!
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Big hugs! It's okay to get it out here. You are feeling the effect that is so common in the literature. I think the explanation is that we do not have the same non-fat mass as we age, so we need fewer calories right off the bat. In addition, ff we have lost weight in the past, we need fewer calories than a person of the same weight who has never lost. I maintain on hundreds of calories a day less than lots of websites say I should be able to eat.

I wish I could speed this for you, but it's extremely hard for the body to lose more than a pound of fat a week. More than that is usually water and can easily fluctuate. May I ask how easy it is for you to stick to your plan?

Seven years of maintaining a 20% weightloss and counting.
*To seek happiness, identifying the Self with the body, is like trying to cross a river on the back of a crocodile." Ramana Maharshi
*The No S Diet saved me from my emotional eating defeats.
8 years and counting! nosdiet.com/
*Get to the next meal hungry!
www.sparkpeople.com/myspark/groups_i
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I am on track but not feeling the success I had hoped for. I will not give up! I will not stuff my feelings with the wrong kind of food like I have done in the past. I will take a walk. I will read, or watch a good program. I can tell my body has less fat, but the scale is not indicating much success. I have to go by my clothes and by the flatter tummy even though the lbs lost are minimal. I have a long ways to go to hit my goal weight. At this rate I will be another year older and still in the 200s. it will be 2021 before I achieve my goal. Weight used to come off so much easier and a lot less trying but now the adipose won't let go. I am complaining I know, but I am thankful for Spark people. This outlet for the frustration is helpful because we are all struggling or have struggled and the ones who are successful are my inspiration. I have about fifty more lbs to go. Saying that almost chokes me. How did I let myself gain so much? Ugh!

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I'm always glad when times of high temptation are over.

Seven years of maintaining a 20% weightloss and counting.
*To seek happiness, identifying the Self with the body, is like trying to cross a river on the back of a crocodile." Ramana Maharshi
*The No S Diet saved me from my emotional eating defeats.
8 years and counting! nosdiet.com/
*Get to the next meal hungry!
www.sparkpeople.com/myspark/groups_i
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Hi team!

I overate this holiday weekend, but not as much as I could've (or used to). So I'm glad about that. I'm ready to be back on track tomorrow, though! :)

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7/5/20 7:47 P

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If others don't wear a mask in a public situation where they come close to others for a period of time, I am not protected. Masks only marginally protect the wearer. They are for the other people. I wear mine more for them. I have a scarf tied around my neck that I can draw up pretty easily if I am out just walking in my neighborhood, but we can often just distance. I use my masks with elastic holding them on my ears in stores. It covers my nose and chin really well. But I spend less than 15 minutes in any store.

I've been on Spark for 13 years. Thankfully I did change things for the better years ago, but some things are still challenging. That seems to be the way it is for MOST people who are maintaining much loss. Some people are tracking every calorie ten years later. Unless I am actively trying to deal with disease, I'd rather weigh a few more pounds than do that. I have other ways of keeping myself in check that so far I prefer. I'm maintaining at one of the lowest weights of my adult life. That's not the total measure by any means because there are some very slim women who are miserable from emotional or binge eating (which is not all emotional).

Ok, got to drag myself away!

Edited by: OOLALA53 at: 7/5/2020 (23:14)
Seven years of maintaining a 20% weightloss and counting.
*To seek happiness, identifying the Self with the body, is like trying to cross a river on the back of a crocodile." Ramana Maharshi
*The No S Diet saved me from my emotional eating defeats.
8 years and counting! nosdiet.com/
*Get to the next meal hungry!
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7/5/20 6:54 P

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Good share. We are dealing with hard times that is for sure. The masks that many wear are so dehumanizing because we can not see smiles, but I understand that some people feel safer wearing the masks. I wear one if the situation calls for it, like when in a crowd and not being able to space well. I will be glad when we are on the other side of this virus. I think there is an ulterior motive for the way this is being handled but that is for a discussion other than weight control. I do understand your description of the food pull. I often treated myself when out away from the stress of my dysfunctional situation. That is what got me over 200 lbs. :'( I haven't given in to that pull since I joined Spark People this time around. I have slipped with food a few times but stayed within calorie range and I keep on checking in to Spark People. The weight is coming off so slowly but it's better than having gained yet another pound. I appreciate your transparency because I can identify with the things that you share.

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Good job.

Could have gotten caught up in feeling sorry for myself for not having a cohesive social network where we would have celebrated yesterday together, even online. I heard social events going on all around me. I did go out on a couple of errands; these days, just doing that feels like a social event, even though I didn't see the people I picked things up from. Even washing my car at a self-service place, seeing the other people. I at least are so hyper-aware of other people now. But they don't seem aware of me. I'm trying to be very objective about that. I can read it very negatively, but I do see other interpretations are more valid. Still, the old pattern pops up. I almost got something takeout while I was out yesterday but it would have been a kind of "I'm free, so I'll eat risky, seductive foods to prove my independence from the food police!" But it didn't make much sense this time because I feel like I allowed those foods for years and gave myself plenty of chances to see if they were really worth the downsides. I'm not saying I'll never have them, but I find myself not looking for many reasons to fit them in the way I used to. I would so often go into a store to look for binge foods that seemed good enough to override my attempt at avoiding them. There might be 20 similar binge-y foods but if there wasn't a particular one, I'd still walk out with nothing. Now it's not just that I am more convinced that I don't want to chance the damage they could be doing to my innards but also to my not awakening the seductive food response. Not that it's not a little awake at times. But I'm feeling more and more value in sticking with my limits, as much psychologically as physically. Developoing conviction is a rather delicate process, actually. It's pretty hard to get just from exhortations from someone else. Oh, yeah, we can get "inspired," but I've found that it is often not true inspiration. It's just a temporary thrill I get from unconsciously thinking I'm going to get the gains of a path before I've actually taken the steps. It's so comforting imagine that it's all taken care of. We don't consciously think these things, but it's what behind the good feeling of inspiration. It's as if just by having seen someone else imply that we can be these ideal eaters that are thin and admired, we get the excitement of imagining ourselves already there. Yet we so often don't outlast the tough times, so we're just riding off the high of the "inspiration" drug.

What we really want is conviction. I think conviction is when you know on some level that you are going to have to do really hard things sometimes, but you are deeply willing to learn. That goes way beyond being inspired, which usually imagines the tough tests but sees us sailing past them, so when they really happen, we topple. They can seem to happen in the same way, but one is only skimming the surface of entertaining thoughts of our success. It feels like we are buoyed. Conviction feels more solid, rooted, but not stiff nor stuck.



Seven years of maintaining a 20% weightloss and counting.
*To seek happiness, identifying the Self with the body, is like trying to cross a river on the back of a crocodile." Ramana Maharshi
*The No S Diet saved me from my emotional eating defeats.
8 years and counting! nosdiet.com/
*Get to the next meal hungry!
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6/30/20 10:32 P

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June 30th - day 8 of my exercise streak :-)

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6/29/20 5:49 P

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Feeling anxious about some hard-to-deal-with issues. Not eating over them.

Seven years of maintaining a 20% weightloss and counting.
*To seek happiness, identifying the Self with the body, is like trying to cross a river on the back of a crocodile." Ramana Maharshi
*The No S Diet saved me from my emotional eating defeats.
8 years and counting! nosdiet.com/
*Get to the next meal hungry!
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6/28/20 10:41 P

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Good work, OoLaLa!!! :-)

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OOps, I forgot about this, dang me. But I have gotten in a couple of days of 30+ walks and some short intense bouts. Walked today: I'll take the time right now to do a lower body workout.

Seven years of maintaining a 20% weightloss and counting.
*To seek happiness, identifying the Self with the body, is like trying to cross a river on the back of a crocodile." Ramana Maharshi
*The No S Diet saved me from my emotional eating defeats.
8 years and counting! nosdiet.com/
*Get to the next meal hungry!
www.sparkpeople.com/myspark/groups_i
ndividual.asp?gid=1323


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6/28/20 11:16 A

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Yesterday, I got my - day 5 - of exercise. My sig other and I went to the beach with friends and took a walk from Torrey Pines Beach to Blacks Beach (but we turned around there ;-). We couldn't walk up the stairs to Torrey Pines (yet) but there were a ton of people up in the air hang-gliding. It was overcast and a bit muggy! Then we went to lunch in Del Mar. It was such a fun Saturday morning!!! Today I'm planning on getting my day 6 of exercise!!! :-) Maybe a jog or some stairs. Then ride the Vespa!!!

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Kudos, VGirl! I will do this with you, though I am committing to very short bouts at first.

I really feel I don't do that much emotional eating anymore, though I can be susceptible to other stimuli that aren't related to true need. But I am going through the process of getting a refi on my house and it can seem so overwhelming to try to figure out if someone is offering a good deal. It is so complicated! One lender can give me a break on X, but charge me more on Y. I also know I was sorry I did a refi in 2014, but it seemed like a good idea at the time. I do not spend money easily; it's a little hard to see that if I had done things differently, I would actually be close to having my loan paid off. Instead, even with the new rate, I still have so much I owe just in interest. But, it should also save me quite a bit. Anyway, I know it is a privilege to have this kind of problem. And I have to admit I have been doing some stress eating. What's interesting is that in the old days when I was a consistent binger, the eating would start anywhere from midday and continue through the evening. Now, I tend to get overeating done earlier (and MUCH less than in the old days!). Now I rarely eat anything after 6 p.m., even though I don't usually fall asleep until midnight or later. Even when I used to eat compulsively at night, I was aware that I wasn't really hungry; I was just "jonesing." I might get a twinge or two at night, but it is such a habit to ignore night urges to eat that it rarely happens. It was mostly a matter of practice, not having the urges go away. It's occurring to me that I have to get better about ignoring the day urges. However, after I started eating meals at regular times, and skipping snacks, the night urges became very weak. These daytime ones, at least recently, are more irritating than I remember the others. But the truth is they are definitely tolerable, certainly less painful than a headache or toothache.

Seven years of maintaining a 20% weightloss and counting.
*To seek happiness, identifying the Self with the body, is like trying to cross a river on the back of a crocodile." Ramana Maharshi
*The No S Diet saved me from my emotional eating defeats.
8 years and counting! nosdiet.com/
*Get to the next meal hungry!
www.sparkpeople.com/myspark/groups_i
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6/25/20 10:59 A

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Today I am going for day 3 of exercise. 3 days in a row!!! Hey, it's a start!!!

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6/24/20 11:37 P

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2 days in a row of exercise :-) Feeling very good about this. Also, I took my final exam today for Advanced Physical Assessment and got 122/144. It's a solid B! This has been the toughest class so far. Next I being clinical practicum with a physician at a private practice. I'm excited to start and learn!!! :-)

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It has been a lo-o-o-ng time since I've posted here. I would say life got busy but nearly everyone's life is busy. I know that sharing helps in this journey to good health so I am tryig to get back in the practice of posting on Spark Team pages.

Yesterday was a tough food day for me. Twice a year my family (my dad, his kids, grand kids, and greats) have a reunion. Visiting and lots and lots of eating. I tried to prepare myself with a eating plan and took healthy choices but once I started on the deserts, healthy eating went out the window. Ah well- back on track today. there were 27 of us in all, from several towns and 3 different states so I am sure it broke Covid guidelines.

Hope you all are having a wonderful Sunday!



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I tried a temporary eating plan that was supposed to help adjust appetite, but I think I am alreayd too far along in that process for it to help me. Those things can be easy while you do them, but lead to pendulum swings in eating, and that's what happened. I found myself jusitifying eating foods and in ways I hadn't been doing in months. I'm still not back to where I was almost ten days after it ended, but I'm not in terrible straits and am 9 lbs down since Jan. 1, to the second-lowest weight of my adult life, about the same as I was as a freshman in high school- when I thought I was too fat. The only time I was lower was after months of being a tourist in India, eating when hungry a couple of times a day, and walking for hours with no obligations or big worries. I will not pressure myself to recreate that now.

I was also a little driven by frustration over taking a foray out to handle an item return and encountering mask problems. It is my safety as a senior citizen that is at risk when people refuse to wear masks correctly, especially employees. Most of the time, I am actually okay with having to stay in so much but occasionally, a sense of unfairness rises, but this society has a lot of unfair pressures. There's no reason I should be exempt. It's not as if I am actually ill, bedridden and in pain, which some people are. I can still work in my yard, take walks in the neighborhood and local canyons, and do fitness workouts at home. I have a few good social contacts by phone and Zoom. Gratitude.

Seven years of maintaining a 20% weightloss and counting.
*To seek happiness, identifying the Self with the body, is like trying to cross a river on the back of a crocodile." Ramana Maharshi
*The No S Diet saved me from my emotional eating defeats.
8 years and counting! nosdiet.com/
*Get to the next meal hungry!
www.sparkpeople.com/myspark/groups_i
ndividual.asp?gid=1323


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I didn't realize how long it was since I had posted, so here I am again.

Not much is happening. I did finally make it to the dump yesterday (two trips, but could have made three), and I picked up the tons of mail the PO personnel were holding for me. Thank heavens I live in a small town, it would never have been held for this long anywhere else!

I have managed to get outside for two days this week, I got my new weed eater up and running (I love it!), and did a lot of work with that - including trying to cut off my foot! I got myself in two places and it is a mess, but looks clean and healthy, so I will just let nature take its course. Long pants and sneakers next time I go out with it are definitely in my future. I do need to get out and rake up the grass cuttings, but it will have to wait until the weather cools down a bit. I have lived in the North Country of NH long enough that anything over 75 degrees is way too hot for me, and today it is supposed to be close to 90. I'm staying inside until this lets up.

I have put on some weight just lately, but I know what cause it, so I will just get back on the bandwagon and pick up my routine again. I've been lazy, and not fixing my own meals. Although Lean Cuisine and Smart Ones are low on calories, they are ridiculously (dangerously) high in sodium, and I suspect that leads to more bad eating. I will always keep some in the house, because they are convenient, but it will be back to cooking for me. I have total control over the sodium AND calories that way.

I have been really trying to watch the evening snacking and succeeding to some extent. I've been eating a lot of yogurt, some plain, some not, and a ton of sugar free jello. That seems to helping. At least it is something in my mouth, and I eat it very slowly to savor the flavor that much more.

Oh well, it'll all right itself one day, of that I am sure. I just hope that day comes soon.

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I've been avoiding difficult tasks. Had some overeating, but actually don't think that was why. I've been overusing electronics and TV. Oh, well. Not gambling or heroin. I did one last night- project to re-season cast iron in an outside fire- and it made a smoky mess. I am procrastinating going out to clean it up.

Another source of annoyance had been getting the runaround from my mortgage company for a refi. I was able to track down a phone number that got me to an agent after the company had not gotten back to me from an online request they had said was necessary. It almost made me want to change companies, but that can be very complicated, so I am going with them. It kills me how much I have paid and still have to pay in interest on my house. If I lived somewhere besides San Diego, I would not think it was a good deal, but here I was somewhat lucky to be be able to qualify at a time prices were not at the top of the market, so I do have equity, but honestly, it barely balances out. But a lucky problem to have.

Seven years of maintaining a 20% weightloss and counting.
*To seek happiness, identifying the Self with the body, is like trying to cross a river on the back of a crocodile." Ramana Maharshi
*The No S Diet saved me from my emotional eating defeats.
8 years and counting! nosdiet.com/
*Get to the next meal hungry!
www.sparkpeople.com/myspark/groups_i
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6/10/20 9:06 A

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Hi OoLaLa!!! Yes - I couldn't believe how hot it was yesterday!!! Stay cool out there and let us know how it goes with your gardening. Love, Vespa

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Vespagirl, that IS a lot on your plate! NP is a tough program, but a great opportunity.


KLB, I know what you mean about groceries. I did get one big delivery order from Costco, and have been making mad dashes into smaller places for freggies. I hope I'm not being stupid. Getting sick for a head of cabbage wouldn't be very smart. I think I'm set for awhile, though.

Getting a bit stalled in my yard work because it's becoming less obvious how to handle some problems. I have several succulents that need to be repotted. Most of them actually need to be divided, but figuring out how to do it right and trying to use the pots I already have isn't obvious. I'm also trying to use what I have for a project to re-season some cast iron frying pans, a pancake griddle that can go across two burners, a Dutch oven, and a darling waffle iron that is five hearts arranged so that it looks like a flower. The last one I bought more than 40 years ago. Other details that are probably too tedious to go into. And a heat wave struck that I thought was coming tomorrow. Got up to 91. I had planned to do some heavy-stuff laundry at the laundromat and dry them on my deck tomorrow. When it got so hot today, I changed plans and dashed over to do two loads. There were only three other people in there, thank goodness. If it had been more crowded, I think I would have come back home. It was so hot that several pillows and rugs I hung out after 4 p.m. still dried completely through before sunset.

And I'm losing ground on a couple of indoor projects, but refusing to let it bum me out. I know shame and fretting won't actually make me take action. I am trying to avoid what an old boyfriend called unproductive suffering.

Some desires for off-plan eating are cropping up, but after some stress eating last Friday, I have held the line. I'm always glad later!

Edited by: OOLALA53 at: 6/10/2020 (01:13)
Seven years of maintaining a 20% weightloss and counting.
*To seek happiness, identifying the Self with the body, is like trying to cross a river on the back of a crocodile." Ramana Maharshi
*The No S Diet saved me from my emotional eating defeats.
8 years and counting! nosdiet.com/
*Get to the next meal hungry!
www.sparkpeople.com/myspark/groups_i
ndividual.asp?gid=1323


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6/8/20 5:58 P

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It's incredible how I am always sent the help, support, and love I need, just when I need it most :-) I know that Someone is looking out for me and I am held in the palm of God's hand! I'm still a bit overwhelmed, but I keep saying ... I can do this! Love, Vespagirl

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6/8/20 5:57 P

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Thank you for the words of encouragement!!! :-)

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Not much has been happening. The grocery delivery on Friday was a disaster, so yesterday I went to the store myself. It felt so good just to be doing something for myself! I didn't stay long, just quickly in and out, but I did pick up a few things the store personnel just can't seem to get right. Mostly my Fiber One 70 calorie snacks. I love those things (even though they are probably packed with artificial food!), and they sent me the wrong ones last week. So now I have the flavor I love.

The store was not at all busy, and shelves were pretty bare in some places. However, they had what I wanted, so I'm content. I had forgotten to order dog food for my babies, so I did pick that up. I'm sure if they knew, they would be very happy with me. As it was, they went crazy when I got home. They are too used to me not going out.

I had meant to go to the post office on Thursday, since I had planned to go the dump, but neither happened. I will have to do both tomorrow (Monday). I believe the white sewing thread, and zippers, I had ordered is in, so I can finish up the slacks I was working on. I'm looking forward to getting that done.

I did get some work done on the jigsaw puzzled I've been working on. I have finished the planets that are on it, and all I have left are the black pieces - and it is one of those puzzles that has only two different shapes - the sides and the inside. But it is getting there, so that's the main thing.

Other than that, not much is happening. Just a lazy time for me, and I suspect many others who are retired.

Have a great day!

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5/27/20 4:17 P

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Vespagirl, Prayers for success and for a sense of peace in the midst of all that you have going on. You will soon be on the other side of all this intensity and you will find that you have grown stronger.

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VESPAGIRL1027. You will get through it. I know, I've been there. I didn't have a full time job, but I did have a sick child to care for, and a sick husband. Try moving around when the stress really builds up. We are all thinking of you during the next month.

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I have a mid-term exam this week for my nurse practitioner program and I am STRESSED! I have scored fairly during my weekly quizzes - but it's been a struggle. This class is the toughest one yet!

June is going to be a BUSY month - and I'm just worried about holding it all together (a full time job, full time school with clinicals, and keeping a relationship). Plus in June I am a bridesmaid in a wedding and my brother is coming to visit! AHHH! I got this - I can do this!

Just ... keep ... swimming.

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It has been too hot to do much of anything for the last few days. We seldom get really hot weather here, that it is not worth it to have central heat, so we make do with window units, but they are really not enough. So I will just suffer through, doing as little as I can get away with. I know I can't sew, since my hands sweat, so I will just play on the computer, and maybe do some on the jigsaw.

My eating seems to be doing better. I may have cheated a bit last night, but not much. I'm trying very hard to control it, but this weather and the noise from the a/c is not helping much. I hate having a loud consistent noise going on all day, that's when the claustrophobia kicks in. I'm also trying to get used to wearing a face mask - again, I have to train myself because of the claustrophobia. I can go all year and not have a problem, then Covid 19 and the heat hits, and I'm fighting it all day, every day. Oh, well. This, too, shall pass. I just have to remember that.

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Yesterday was something of a do-nothing day. I had watched Mass at a Catholic church, in Wollongong, NSW Australia - my home town, and discovered a wonderful speaker. I was on cloud nine for most of the day, and just wandered around in a daze. No cross stitch, no sewing, and no jigsaw, but it was a wonderful day, nevertheless.

I hope today is more productive.

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I wear house dresses all the time. Just lightweight simple lines, with no waist, and at least two pockets. They are great - especially when it is hot! I to buy them, but it is usually a limited choice, so I decided to make them instead. More variety, and probably better made in the long run. I'll try to post some of them on my page. Where we are is totally in the boonies, and I would have to drive over 100 miles to find a decent clothing store. We have a family dollar close by, but their clothing is usually not worth the money they are asking. I don't mind paying, but the quality had better be good. I will not pay for trash.

It's a gorgeous morning here. I hope it lasts, because I want to get outside some today to do some gardening. I'm so glad that winter seems to be over, finally. But then, I thought that two weeks ago, and the day after I did some gardening, it snowed for three days! I wish nature would make up its mind!

I only slept for about 1.5 hours on Thursday night, so yesterday was not a good day. I did some vacuuming, but that was about the extent of it. It was desperately needed, that was for sure. I'm not sure what I will be doing today, other than two loads of laundry and some gardening.

I will be so glad when this Covid 19 thing is dead and buried - 24 ft under if possible. At least I will be able to get out and do my own grocery shopping. I appreciate the store doing it and delivering it for me, but invariably they get stuff wrong. I want to be able to make my own selections again, and wander around so that I can find stuff I had forgotten to write on my list. I've never been a patient person anyway, and this is driving me nuts!!!!!! Oh well, such is life.

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I don't think I've ever worn a dress around the house. What are they like?

Just saw a good thought on the Beck Diet plan site:
You dont cure emotional eating by removing all comfort foods. You do it by learning to comfort yourself.

In my case, although I can't claim to be totally cured, it was also by just plain refusing to eat outside my (generous and flexible) plan. And I still suspect that not all eating people call emotional is emotional. I think it's just responding to habit cues and a fair amount of plain old addictive eating.

Had a relatively busy day and an easy time with my plan. BUT even though I was plenty full whenI finished dinner, I'm feeling some rumblings now. And it was not a light dinner! This body is full of surprises.



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I know that when I finally give up the cookies (except for special treat) I will feel better. I did better last night - during the day is not the problem, just in the evening - but still not as good as I would have liked. But, my weight was trending down again this morning, so I know I didn't over do it.

Finished up the blouse I was working on. Now I have to try and find something else to work on. I have seven more pieces of fabric I can work on, I just have to decide what I want to make with them. I know I need more house dresses, so I will probably do some of them with at least two of the pieces. I'll see about making some tops and/or dresses with them. I have more fabric for pants, but without zippers I would rather not get started on them. I already have one that is partially done, and I can't do any more until the zippers come in. I will have to try and find another source of zippers, Joann's has such a limited supply.

It's another beautiful day, so I know it will be a good one.

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Dang! I didn't get to unpleasant task 2 yesterday and turned out I had to add some steps to task 1 that took time today. And I have a webinar in 20 minutes, so I might not get to task 2 because businesses will be closed when I'm done. Well, I can research numbers to call tomorrow.

I never can figure out why I feel more calm and resilient some days, and believe me, I've looked for the pattern. But it's too exhausting. I am just grateful and vow to accept what arises in my thoughts as something temporary.

Boy, do I know the cookie thing. After ten years, I decided to break up with them for a year. Have to admit it hasn't been as hard as I thought, BUT I also know I couldn't have forced myself to earlier.

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I knew you were only kidding - so was I in my response. Enjoy your decaf!

Not much on the agenda again today. Covid 19 has seriously slowed my life down - and it was slow to begin with.

I noticed my weight is creeping up again, and I'm aware of the fact that I've been eating too many cookies, so I know what I have to do.

I will be "good" today, and maybe the downward trend will start again tomorrow. My goal is to be down to 153 by 5/30. Today I was 155.8, so I will have my work cut out for the next week or so.

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I was just teasing about your husband, though any of us can be unaware of our own motives!

I like wearing pants that are a little too big, as long as I don't feel too full, too. I notice when I eat a little lightly and wear more comfortable clothing, I feel peppier.

Got at least two unpleasant tasks today and noticing a subtle yen to go nibble. Will make some decaf and get to those tasks after a little more catching up on Spark.

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Oolala53, you might be right, about my DH, I hadn't thought about that. But maybe not, I don't think he is that vicious - at least, I hope not. Oh well, if he is, that's his problem.

I had a good day yesterday. I did some more prep work on the new pants. I think they will be too big at this stage, but I would rather it be that way than too small. There's only so much seam allowance I can let out to increase the size. I hope they work out, pants are not easy.

Other than that, I didn't do much. Once I start with the sewing, I tend to get tunnel vision and forget everything else, including eating sometimes. Yesterday I did remember to have lunch, so that helped.

I'll see what today brings. It is starting out full of promise, lots of sunshine and blue skies, so maybe it will stay that way for awhile.



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KLB, maybe your husband has an ulterior motive with your getting stuck when he helps... emoticon

Had a sore throat for about 36 hours. It dissipated today but I was also doing a lot of gargling and taking herbal support (I swear this stuff really does something, called Wellness). Soreness was gone for most of the day: I feel it a bit now, but that sometimes happens at night. Refusing to freak out. Wasn't hungry until evening so just had tea before then, a fair amount. A delicious dinner and done. I do sometimes get antsy when I'm not hungry and I am trying not to eat; forgot I had an online event at 2 until 4, so that solved that problem then. Need to get tax docs to my accountant. I was going to drop them off before she opens her office; now not sure.

Sometimes feel some strong frustration and discouragement from continued problem with rats getting into my attic space. Have paid a few thousand dollars and eventually, they get back in. Maybe I need to accept to pay some company to be on retainer? but I lived here for years before there was an issue. Oh, well, will do some research tomorrow. Last company was terrible so won't use them again. Will not eat over it!

Seven years of maintaining a 20% weightloss and counting.
*To seek happiness, identifying the Self with the body, is like trying to cross a river on the back of a crocodile." Ramana Maharshi
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Another Sunday has arrived, the start of a new week. It's a nice and sunny one, too, maybe I can get outside again. I have to start clearing the ground for the fruit cage. I would like to be able to get some planted, by mid-June at the latest (usually, the last expected frost, but this year - who knows). I would also like to finish off the cleaning up the garden bed I started over a week ago, just before it snowed again! That's summer in New England, for you!

I started on the pants for my outfit for the dressmaking course. I love the brushed denim. I will probably try to get some more of it in different colors. I think it will make up fairly easily. My biggest problem is trying to rush it, and fitting. It's really had fitting clothes on yourself, even with a full length mirror. My DH is useless when it comes to thing like this. All thumbs, so he tends to stick me with pins a bit too much. Oh well, such is life.

Have a great day, everone!

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Thanks OOlala53, I made it through the day. Getting outside definitely made a difference. I was hoping to do so again today, but we are expecting rain, so I guess I will have stay indoors. I wish I had a poncho, then I could be outside light rain or no.

Yesterday was a great day. I made three trips to the dump, and got just about all of the trash gone. I still have some cans, glass jars and cardboard to go, but that will be easy. Hopefully, that will be done on Sunday. I WISH we had trash pickup here. It would make my life and garage so much happier!

I'm still looking forward to today, in spite of the rain!

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