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10/26/14 8:55 P

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Actually my ticker needs to be adjusted yet again. I have now gained almost 130 pounds back and I am so upset. For the moment they have told me to rest because they are not sure what is wrong with me. It seems when they find the problem it disappears and a new one pops up. I am so disgusted. I have thought about doing some light yoga, but I am afraid to even do that at the moment.

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8/3/12 2:28 P

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Ohh I'm sorry to hear that Jezebel :( I hope that you are able to cope & find treatment. I know how frustrating it is, mine has gone up 20lbs since Oct 2011.. I'm now only 4lbs away from my heaviest weight and I don't want to see it again.. am trying with diet only at the moment (day 2 .. yay :) since I'm having issues physically as well.

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12/20/11 12:22 A

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My ticker has went up 30 pounds but I am going through a lot the last few months. In July I was diagnosed with a serious illness. So some days I barely can get out of bed.

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CHRISTYFG's Photo CHRISTYFG Posts: 642
8/16/11 10:46 A

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I know what you mean because no matter how old I get I will always miss having my mom around!

Thanks for your kind words Chryl, I certainly try and do the best that I can. And nope, you're not being too nosey and no, I don't have any friends here in Utah. I've discovered it's difficult to make friends in a new place when you don't work outside of the home. I've tried being friendly towards our neighbors but it's obvious that this isn't a tight neighborhood kind of place, everyone just kind of keeps to their own business. My hairdressor is from out of State and she told me it took her and her husband three years to actually make new friends here in Utah. I've been here just over two.

On the bright side, a woman I met at the farmers market last weekend mentioned that she is trying to form a local artists guild & would I be interested.. of course I said YES :) So maybe that will turn into something.. it'd be great to have a little social circle again with people I have something in common with. As much as I love my husband & Master a l'ill "me" time with the girls would be very welcome. I hope I remember how to do that when the opportunity arrives!



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8/15/11 6:37 P

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Yea for mom! I am so glad for you. I know your mom probably misses you like crazy. I miss my little girl like crazy and it doesn't matter if she is all grown up. emoticon


I know that things have been hard for you, but you are the kind of person that has perseverance and there may be down periods but in the end you will keep at it and after all isn't that just like life?

My I ask a personal question? If I am being too nosy just tell me. Do you have any friends where you live? I am talking about the friends that you can really talk to, not the one you say hi to and chat for a couple of minutes.

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8/9/11 11:45 A

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OH I almost forgot. My trip to Canada was cancelled because of our sudden move. Master finally had enough of the SS's constant BS, insults and tyranny so we moved into our own place back in May. That took up our trip money but it was worth it. We have our freedom here, a nice, **clean** and uncluttered place. (the old house should be on that show "Messiest Home in America" - that was what I walked into when I moved to the USA 2 years ago .. ugh.. long story.)

Anyway, we couldn't afford the move and the trip. So, since my mother was determined to see me anyway she decided to come here!! I'm very excited! To top that off, she's told me that I'm going back to Canada with her for a couple of weeks on her! How can I refuse that? My nephews are forever asking me "Aunt Christine, are you ever coming back?" Breaks my heart.. so yeah, I'm excited :)) And rambling.. once again .. haha





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CHRISTYFG's Photo CHRISTYFG Posts: 642
8/9/11 11:40 A

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Chryl chick.. you rock. I hope your know that.

Your year has been super tough.. none of the things you mentioned are "little things".. not ONE. And all together.. wow... honestly, I would have crumbled under the pressure and had more than a bag of candy!! Sometimes we just need to cry and get it all out. You have so much going on, major changes in your life especially with your daughter moving away.. seems perfectly reasonable to me that you might be feeling sad & the need to cry those tears. I would too!!!

It's ok to grieve the changes in your life when they affect you so deeply. It doesn't make you a wimp. It means you have a big heart.. that's a good thing :)

As far as the weight loss wagon goes.. man oh MAN it's a ricketty old thing and I'm not sure it's built to pull MY ever growing butt, maybe I will just run along behind it for a little while and gain momentum to jump back on.. start making some repairs.. get those wheels rounded & rolling.. 4 on the floor & all that.. am I rambling again? probably.. I do that when my fingers can't keep up with the thoughts in my head.

SO chick.. what do you say? Lets DO this. I know that you can do it, and I hope that I can!! I've watched your progress over the many months we've known each other here on Spark and you always amaze me.. I'll never catch up to your fitness mins now...!! 2lbs - you can crush that before it becomes 4lbs.. 6lbs.. 17lbs.. don't wait.. trust me..!

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8/8/11 1:54 P

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Hello there again girl. emoticon I am sorry about your weight gain but you can lose it! I know that it is tough I REALLY understand. It is so hard to do it without a support system and even harder when the people closest to us are opposite of helping, lets just say. I am glad that your mother is going to come see you. I thought that you were going to go back and visit this year?

I have been struggling as well it has been a tough year so far for me. I have gained back two pounds I(I know that it does not compare to yours but I do understand the shame). I think that was because I sat down and ate a five pound bag of gummy worms in about three days after my daughter left for boot camp. All I can seem to do this year is cry. It is not just because of my daughter, a lot of things have happened this year and I spend more time crying at night when everyone is asleep than I do sleeping it seems. None of my stuff is that important it is just a lot of little things like the neighbor killing our dog, my oldest son hanging with a bad crowd and getting into trouble, my daughter and all her friends taking off to all parts of the country to get on with their lives, and like the baby squirrel I rescued dying and a lot of other little thing.

So I should not be drowning in tears, I know that I am being a wimp but I need to get off my but and do something. I was supposed to be done with my weight loss this summer and on to just be keeping it off and instead I gained and I am not seeming to even get myself to respond, or get back on the wagon, so to speak. I don't seem to know how to find my way back. But I am NOT giving up. I am glad that you are not giving up as well.

So see we are all in the same boat, so to speak, just in different ways. So I am willing to try to help you, if I can. emoticon

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CHRISTYFG's Photo CHRISTYFG Posts: 642
8/8/11 11:00 A

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Since Master & I moved to our new place in May I have totally lost my routine & gotten so far off track from what was a GREAT weight loss streak and feeling that I can't seem to get myself back on track. I don't know why it's so hard to go back to doing what I *Know* works!! I've gained 17lbs back.. 17lbs in only a few months!! It's disgusting & awful.. I'm so disappointed with myself that I've been avoiding really coming back to Spark 100% because frankly I'm embarrassed that I've gained so much back..

As of today I am forcing myself back on the Spark People Wagon - I only wish that Master would push me to stay on track but he just buys cookies! LOL I'm not faulting him for my horrible choices.. they are mine & mine alone.. I mean, I lost 40lbs while he ate everything in sight I can do it again.

My mother, who I haven't seen in over two years, is coming to visit me here in Utah for the first time in October.. and I am SO SO SO excited to see her!! I would love it if when we get that long over due mother-daughter hug in that there would be less of me to hug and easier to wrap her arms around :)

OK.. enough venting.. ranting.. whining & complaining.. hello Spark.. I'm BACK.. please kick my ass with your steel toe boot if start to fall .....





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