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Cynthia, I've never rented where there wasn't a drop box! Especially now it's totally necessary. Although I set up automatic bill pay for rent early this month, and confirm they got April's payment yesterday. I had set for it to come out of my acct on the 26th, and it arrived on the 30th. It might be sooner, depending on day of the week. It's fantastic that you can enjoy virtual therapy appts and recovery meetings!

I'm really sorry about your brother. As I mentioned in my goodie message, I know it's hard to witness another person suffering. A member of my GG team has been super anxious about the virus, as she and her husband have chronic conditions, putting them in the high risk category. We encouraged her to limit watching the news, and since taking up painting again she's been doing better. If he can limit news and spend time doing things he enjoys or is good at, or takes up learning something new, and can stay or become more active--it may help a lot.

I did get to bed just a little after 9, slept more than 8 hours (a long time for me) & woke up well before the alarm at 6. I tried a new qigong routine that I really enjoyed, plus that 30-min Silver Sneakers stretch and mobility workout, broken up between calls. I did Amy's low impact beginner cardio routine for break, and have already picked out a 15-min cardio blast by Jessica Smith for lunch. I want to start some ST again, but left shoulder is still sore, and I don't want to aggravate it, though I wonder if bicep curls and triceps kickbacks or raises would be OK, maybe back rows? I should probably ask my PT doc.
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I did just a few timer sessions after work and transplanted a couple of pansies I picked up last Saturday at Freddy's. I do like their bright, cheerful faces on the balcony!
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I'm getting to bed by 10 tonight, so not as early as last night, but good time!
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And I love myself just the way I am."

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Amanda ~ What a Praise that you're getting a great tax return back! emoticon
emoticon for posting the qigong routine. I plan on checking this out. It's a great feeling to help others. I've enjoyed little things like sending hugs. Makes me happy.

I emailed office manager as to how they plan on collecting the rent. I so hope they will do a drop box. They have not been clear about anything here...their hours...when available to call. So very frustrating. I really hate the idea that I may have to be around several people including staff in order to pay my rent.

My brother called me this morning. He sounds so down. He watches the news and feels more discouragement with each passing day that the numbers keep rising in Michigan and throughout the country. I feel anxious too. He sounds like he's starting to feel hopeless and that worries me. I'm doing my best to encourage and just be there for him. I'm getting where I have lost knowing what to say. I listen. He loves baseball and we both cheer for the Detroit tigers each year. Yesterday was supposed to have been opening day, but with everything it wasn't. I love my brother so much. On the bright side, his case manager has been calling once a week to check on him.

Tomorrow is my telehealth session with my therapist. I'm so glad. Also I received a text from my Celebrate Recovery small group leader that starting next Monday we will have Small group through Zoom. Yay!! I'm excited about that.

In 30 minutes I will hit an online recovery meeting. I went to one last night that was really good.

Hope y'all have a good day.

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It took me a long time to get to sleep last night. I won't do any night time qigong for a while--maybe I revved my energy up too much, too close to bedtime? So I want to eat earlier & get to bed earlier than usual.

Things at work keep shifting. One of our 2 primary care clinics didn't have enough staff to answer the phones, so we took their calls until 1. I only had 2 in those 5 hours. Since we don't deal with medical appts, we had to email a team to take care of the patient requests; the team started at 4, but then went up to 5, then 6. Later in the afternoon we had a conference call with our primary WIC contact and trainer to touch base & discuss recent changes and challenges. Then we learned that dental calls, which used to be a majority of our calls, but dropped way down due to cancelling all but severe emergency situations (as determined by a clinician), are now to all be transferred to clinics. Since they have the time, they will consult with dental patients about care and concerns, though they still won't be able to help many people in person for now.

Signed my taxes and returned to the accounting service along with my check. I had a big surprise when it turned out I wouldn't owe, but would get over $1000 back! So that will still be a nice amount even after the bill is paid.

Shared links to qigong routines and super short workouts with teams and also with coworkers. I makes me happy to offer healthy options to people. Whether they use them or not is completely up to them, but it feels good to share. Everyone have a great night & a terrific Tuesday!

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But change outside can only come when deep inside I know:
I'm beautiful and capable of being the best me I can,
And I love myself just the way I am."

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Cynthia, I really honor your desire to reconnect with old friends, and encourage you to let go of any attachment to their responses. emoticon that focusing on all your amazing, loving & supportive relationships is a great choice. And naps are wonderfully healing & nurturing! emoticon I also recommend trying one (or more) of these qigong routines I blogged about. I've tried 3 different ones, and really like their gentleness and how I feel tingly after some of the movements. They might help. emoticon emoticon emoticon
And emoticon on participating and sharing in your groups today, too! emoticon emoticon

Left early this morning and got to Safeway before 8; there was no TP by that time, but they had some facial tissue left, including 3 boxes w/ lotion, as I prefer. Sadly they are still limiting to a single item per person, so I'm glad Fred Meyer raised their limit to 3 boxes of tissues yesterday! I did fine on food there, including a super sale on Starbucks coffee--2 bags of espresso, one of decaf Italian roast (also very dark) to mix with my flavored coffee beans. It never hurts to stock up on a sale, since I use it regularly. I only have decaf on weekend afternoons since I'm often getting up from a nap later than I want fully caffeinated coffee; usually about half and half.

I got to Trader Joe's around 8:25, with opening at 9:00. I had my book, journal, and phone for texting, plus an umbrella, since I got spit on Saturday waiting for Costco to open. Though since I was the first person in line, I got to fit under the overhang. I also discovered they have an expedited senior line from 9-10. Once someone came out, I asked where that line formed, and switched sides, helping direct others who came and asked which line to join. They kindly put the senior line where everyone got to stay under the building overhang that passed other stores, instead of wrapping around the building where I had stood last week, which is open to the elements. I found everything I wanted, including TP, so I have plenty of back stock--more than I normally kept on hand. In fact I'm still working out of the last package I opened just around the time the hysteria and TP hoarding hit.

As well as trying a different qigong routine Qigong to Purge and Tonify by Yoqi Yoga and Qigong www.youtube.com/watch?v=3GtF
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I found an old 10 minute cardio workout by Amy before she was miked, when she didn't have rests built in. I find I really do prefer the HIIT format that switches between higher and lower intensity. In addition to those, I took a nice long walk in the neighborhood, and called a couple of former coworkers, left messages for them, but got through to an old friend I've only spoken to occasionally over the years, and had fun catching up with her. I need to get my taxes signed and returned, which I'll do tomorrow. I'm doing pretty well over all. Like I said in my blog, I'm doing what I can--and that's enough.

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But change outside can only come when deep inside I know:
I'm beautiful and capable of being the best me I can,
And I love myself just the way I am."

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Amanda ~ Thank you for your support and cheerleader! I love the high five you sent me! emoticon So glad you had a nice phone chat with your sister! I love chatting with mine.

Today has been strange. I woke up tired. But I wanted to spend morning with online Recovery meetings, which I did. I attended the Open combined....which is a meeting with all 12 step groups together. I love it! Then I attended the ACA...adult children of Alcoholics and Dysfunctional families. That was a great meeting and I shared on self acceptance, which I am trying to work on.

Right now I am hurt and covering the hurt with anger. I went through FB messenger and decided to reach out to people I have lost touch with as far a real chat...not just a like on my post. I made the mistake of choosing people that have distanced themselves from me. I had hoped that we could recoonect. But I got ignored by one that I.miss so.much. It brought up a lot of last memories and hurt. My little kid feels abandoned. I keep asking myself what did I do wrong. Maybe they will respond later. But in the past one has ignored each message I have sent her. Why I chose to reach out to her...makes no sense ....why set myself up for more hurt. I handed my hurt to God. And I am just putting this out to share and process.

I have many people that love me. I need to remember that and not let myself be defined by those that hurt.me.

I'm going to.make the most of the rest of the day. I may nap in a bit.



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I'm so glad you were tickled by that video, too! Have you seen any of her others? I haven't tried them, but like that they seem to be short. And I am thoroughly delighted that you sound positive and upbeat!
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Glad you could spend time--at a safe distance--with your friend. Good for you for informing J that you won't jeopardize your safety just because he won't take precautions & follow acceptable guidelines. It's nice you can talk to your brother and support him. And yes, I've been thrilled to see you participating on Spark, and to hear it is helping you and that you are enriched by helping others.

I had planned to post last night, but after posting the links to the Silver Sneaker workouts, and mentioning them on the wall, then writing my blog and doing team spins, it was late and I was tired.

Last weekend I only went to one store each day--TJ's on Saturday and Safeway on Sunday. This morning I managed both Freddy's--arriving before 8 and walking right in, and Costco about 50 minutes before opening. I thought Saturday hours might be earlier than Sunday's 9:30, but learned they are both the same. And they're just shortening weekday hours, not starting until 10.

Because I had NEVER seen so few cars in the gas station, I stopped there first and got less than a quarter tank; doesn't hurt to fill up! I was able to park close and get in line less than 3 dozen people from the front. I asked the employee out holding up the "Line starts here" sign how many people they were letting in at a time. She said given that this is one of the 2 biggest warehouses in the county, along with a Seattle one, the limit of 50 at other locations isn't needed here. At some point (maybe to do with register lines) they stop folks going in and let them in as shoppers leave. Oh, and they opened the doors 15 minutes early, which was really welcome!

I skipped the TP/paper goods line at first, since so many people went right there, though I wanted to see if they had facial tissues with lotion. (I was able to get 3 boxes today at Freddy's, but I go through a fair amount, and definitely prefer the ones with lotion.) After picking up a few things, I saw the paper line was way down, so joined it only to discover that neither the Kirkland or Kleenex brands they carried have lotion. So I grabbed a box of wipes to make the waiting worth it, and got into a line where I could start putting things on the belt right away, behind a single customer! The cashier and I both learned that they can't put items in customer bags, so I had to do that outside. And they no longer pick up your card to scan; you hold it and they scan it without touching. Anyway, not only did I get home before 10 am, but the parking space right by stairs and closest to my front door that I left this morning was still there!

Had a nice chat on phone with sister, then finished a new (to me) qigong workout--which I LOVED. I added a very positive comment on YouTube before posting a link on my teams (on the YouTube thread here), as well as sharing that the Silver Sneakers instructor to the Zumba workout I tried yesterday replied to my comment within hours!! I started another Zumba workout by her, intended to be more intense. Cue sound was better, but faster paced, harder to pick up moves. I stopped at 15:36 of the 33:43 time to make a late breakfast. I've finished that (leftover potato & veggie with sausage soup with lots of melted, shredded cheese on top) and will probably nap before starting on cleaning and timer sessions.

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Blessed Be, Amanda

"I love myself the way I am, and still I want to grow;
But change outside can only come when deep inside I know:
I'm beautiful and capable of being the best me I can,
And I love myself just the way I am."

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I am shouting a big AMEN to your friend's video! I love it! "I am not a Shoneys, an IHOP, Waffle house....HA Ha!!!! emoticon emoticon Thank you Amanda for taking then time to share. I do needed a good belly laugh! It sounds like you are making good progress at home with your decluttering. I am very proud of you! emoticon emoticon

Well I finally sat in the sunshine the other day and yesterday. Yesterday I visited my friend at her house sitting on the porch 6+ feet away. It was so good to see her. We had wonderful conversation about so much...a lot of laughter, just trying to make the best out of things. I had been home without going outside for 8 days. Tonight I will take trash out and spend another week at home.minus a drive to the banks drive thru on Wednesday. Then back home I will stay. I have plenty of food and toilet paper...she's enough for about 6 weeks. I have enough cat food too. Yay!

J and I have conversed a lot on the phone, but I made it very clear he is not allowed here and I will not be visiting him...especially since he has spent time with neighbors that have been hanging outside with crowds of people in my building that do not seem to care about getting others sick. I'm a little concerned that people in my building are not taking precautions, but I just have to do the old AA slogan Let Go and let God. That and pray...not much else that I can do.

I've been calling my brother more often and am enjoying our chats. He is fearful....rightfully so. I do my best to encourage him and listen.

I'm getting back to being more active here at Spark people. I find the support helpful and I am happy to support others.

Have a great Saturday!




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I've been working hard to get in exercise to make up for a lot less walking during the day. I can't remember if I've posting links to some of the short workout videos I've been doing, that can be fit into a 15-minute break. I shared some with coworkers in my unit, and will try to share them here as well.

Then for that other wellness concern: mental health & emotional balance, which is especially important now with the ongoing stress of the crisis & its impact all through our lives. My GG coleader mentioned how she is using mantras to keep a positive focus. That reminded me to say my affirmations again. I used to say them while biking during my work breaks and while walking to and from my take out restaurants and to and from the bus stop--all activities that I no longer do while I'm telecommuting. I missed them, and saying them again today helped to raise my spirits and feel more positive.

Calls continue to be pretty light, so I'm making the most of it while it lasts by fitting in timer sessions. I'm continuing to sort through old papers and mail, purging, filing, and setting aside to take action. When I spent a little time after work planning where to direct my efforts tomorrow, I felt pretty energetic and hopeful, and realized that for the first time, I'm feeling confident that I can complete this decluttering process. I've believed I can & will make progress before, but never felt that knowing that there is an (eventual) end in sight. It may be this year, or it may take longer, but I will not stop until I've released all this crap I've allowed to accumulate while feeling too tired to deal with or incapable of making decisions about.

Blessed Be, Amanda

"I love myself the way I am, and still I want to grow;
But change outside can only come when deep inside I know:
I'm beautiful and capable of being the best me I can,
And I love myself just the way I am."

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emoticon you were so upset, but I totally get it. I hate when putting things off creates problems; it's hard not to get really mad at myself, and technical issues can make me so frustrated and feeling helpless. So yeah, I really do understand! emoticon But how wonderful that you solved your issues, reached out, and your therapist was able to give you a session after all! emoticon emoticon I'm so happy for you and for that good long chat with your sponsor! emoticon

To lend you a smile, after all that stress, my GG co-leader, whose 6th grader is home until schools reopen, sent this link to a riotously funny video--less than 2 minutes--of a mother forced to homeschool her child: A Desperate Mothers’ Prayer www.youtube.com/watch?v=gpN9
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I loved it! May check out her other videos; she has several hashtags including clean comedy.

Not sure why I'm so tired. Work wasn't especially hard. I fit lots of timer sessions around calls, as well as catching up with my call stats (something I do on my own). I emptied another box that was behind where I sit in the dining room doing my telecommuting, and when I moved the box, I found a game that's been missing for over a year! emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

My shoulder is feeling better, and all my exercise sessions went well. I'm not sure when I want to try any dumbbell work though, and of course I'll back off on weights again. I finally did some journaling this morning--without my usual routine of journaling on the bus & while waiting for it to arrive, it's been spotty. And with getting up at 6 instead of 5, my whole morning routines are different. And I wasn't happy with a weight jump. I normally do salad for dinner, but had that homemade soup instead last night (so not loads of sodium, though I topped with lots of shredded cheese), and I hadn't expected to gain more than a pound. I know things can fluctuate, and I'm trying to keep exercising regularly and not go overboard with the snacking, but I admit I was disappointed. The weather cleared up this afternoon, but I just didn't feel up to going out for a walk.

Planning some gentle self-care tonight, will try to get to bed early, and see how I feel tomorrow. May we all stay safe and healthy, and practice kindness toward ourselves & others! emoticon

Blessed Be, Amanda

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But change outside can only come when deep inside I know:
I'm beautiful and capable of being the best me I can,
And I love myself just the way I am."

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Update: My therapist called around 12:15 this afternoon to let me know she was available at 1 o'clock. So at 1 we had a telehealth session. It went very well. What a relief. I can't explain why I was so upset earlier, but I know it's a fear of mine not to be able to get my mental health services. I am so glad it all worked out. I took a long nap afterwards.

It's a beautiful Sunny day. I want to go outside, but our elevator in my building is tiny. I feel it's a bit risky to take it during the day. I could walk the stairs down, but not up. I am on the 15th floor. Last night I took out the trash and checked my mail. I didn't come in contact with many people.

My sponsor and I had a really long chat last night. It was great.




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I totally screwed up my therapist appointment. I misunderstood...I thought my therapist was supposed to call me. Since I didn't get a call I figured I needed to look at Mychart. I had to reset and figure out Mychart log in . Well I did and they had set me up with video appointment. Had I not procrastinate d I would have known that. The later it got I went to call the office and I had no phone service because I didn't change my Method of payment. So at 10:50....my phone bill was paid...I called office but had to leave a voicemail message for the desk. I'm so very upset.My appointment was at 10 this morning. I'm in a heap crying. emoticon

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My Tuesday was much better. Call volume continues to be light, given great unit attendance. Even with one person out and someone starting late or going to an appointment, coverage has been really good. Calling and/or emailing clinics for the majority of calls. Still clarifying the different policies between the 3 programs--dental, family planning and WIC, and fighting to get one of the dental clinics to stop doing their own thing and trying to get us to change the rules and guidelines for their patients. Got a bunch of timer sessions done between calls. Also did some organizing & purging of emails, and revised one of my reference sheets once I finally got that the 18 WIC clinics split into 4 regional teams have different scheduling protocols for new patients than the 9 who aren't on a regional team. I'm hoping that changes soon, because it makes no sense to me, but at least I finally understand the distinction.

I also did some research on YouTube exercise videos, found some of Jessica Smith's 10 minute cardio ones I've enjoyed in the past, plus found some Silver Sneakers ones I want to try. I'm having fun with spreading out a little and even if some don't turn out well, I like that I'm trying some new things. Took another walk after work today, ~ 25 minutes in the neighborhood, up a steep hill & down the other side. I'm cooking up some soup with a bunch of ingredients that needed to be used up or tossed soon. We'll see how it turns out; starting to smell good! Wishing everyone a wonderful Wednesday!

Blessed Be, Amanda

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But change outside can only come when deep inside I know:
I'm beautiful and capable of being the best me I can,
And I love myself just the way I am."

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Cynthia, you might see if your therapist can do phone appts. A yoga studio I get a newsletter from (though I've never attended a class) has just switched to online classes. So there may be some options for self-care activities. My fear is a lot of people will feel isolated in this time. I'm glad you are connecting with people by phone. And I'm checking in with my 3 teams here pretty much every day. Oh, and I don't watch the news--way to depressing!

I was very excited to see my GG co-leader's Body Coach link on her new blog. Since I knew it would take a while to type in the words on my TV YouTube page, I waited until after work, so tried a little longer workout--thinking I'd save the 10 min senior ones for work breaks. Unfortunately the 16 min "low impact hotel workout" didn't have much in the way of modifications, though it was only 30 seconds moving, 30 of rest, then repeat the move for 2 rounds. The moves didn't agree with my knees, wrists or elbows, so I tried different modifications on my own, but had to take a pill for pain after I was done. I'll try one or both of the senior ones tomorrow during breaks. I have a handful of ones I really like by Amy, but I'm getting a little tired of them, especially since I'm leery of using weights with my shoulder acting up.

I really stressed myself today when I knocked over my water bottle near the end of that body coach video, dousing some boxes and puddling, so I quick paused the video, grabbed towels to wipe up, then unstacked boxes to prevent seepage as much as possible. I got most of the mess cleaned up, but the area needs to dry before things move back, so the sense of accomplishment with decluttering took a hit. Still, I was pretty sure I wanted to move to living room clutter for the focus of next month, especially to make exercising easier, and this is just extra incentive.

After relaxing with some reading, I put in 3 timer sessions, one on one of the damp boxes moved into the desk area (which luckily didn't have paper in the bottom), and the others on the stack I've been working on. I also remembered at lunch to return the call from the tax people who left a message offering to mail or email my completed return (trying to prevent face-to-face interactions). So I can finish that soon. Oh, I had tech issues to deal with today that kept my off phones for ~ 1 hour 45 minutes. No wonder I'm feeling kind of tired, like I want to go to bed early! Dinner first, then reading, then bed. Hoping for a smoother Tuesday!

Blessed Be, Amanda

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But change outside can only come when deep inside I know:
I'm beautiful and capable of being the best me I can,
And I love myself just the way I am."

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3/22/20 7:48 P

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Amanda~ wow, your adventures going grocery shopping leave me tired thinking about it. LOL I'm glad you got what you needed. I'm really glad they put limits on things. Your walk through the neighborhood sounds lovely. Makes me wish I had gone out on the sunny days we had here. Way to go getting all those chores done so early in the day! emoticon

The last time I went to the store was Tuesday I believe. I went to Target. It was eerily quiet...very few people there. It made me feel less anxious, because most of my friends had been mentioning how busy the grocery stores were. I went to Target since a friend of mine gifted me a gift card from there.

I've been remarkably calm during this crazy time. It's kind of strange, since I am usually a very anxious person. I have watched very little news. I have been keeping up with how things are in SC regarding the virus. It's scary, but I just do my part by staying home as much as I can.

I have a psychiatry appointment Tuesday. Since I have all my meds, I plan on calling to cancel it in the morning. Wednesday I have my therapy appointment. I didn't go last week, because I was sick with a cold and felt crummy. Part of me is nervous about going and I'm wondering if it's such a good idea to go. Yet I think it might be a good idea to get one last session in , in case they have to shut the office down.

This weekend has been quite uneventful. Napped a lot yesterday...just felt so worn out..from what I don't know. Probably Fibro fatigue. Today I talked to a few people on the phone. 2 of them being my sisters.

I've been doing online recovery meetings nearly each day. Celebrate Recovery has been cancelled indefinitely. I will miss seeing the special ladies from my group, my sponsor included.

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Well, as I tried to post last night, My plan yesterday was to get to Trader Joe's just a little after they opened at 9, then go to Costco a little after their 9:30 opening, so crowds waiting & lining up would have gone in already. But there was a line at TJ's which wrapped around the side and back of the building. With 6' in between, people were really stretched out. An employee came out & thanked us for our patience, explaining they were only having 25 people in the store at a time, but they were well stocked, though there was a limit of 2 on any item, so more people could get what they wanted. She asked if anybody needed TP, and I and one other person I could see raised our hands.

I had arrived at ~9:15 and it took about 40 minutes before I got in the store. I spent the first while texting Mary, but my fingers got really cold, then I read in my collection of Mercy Thompson short stories. When I did get inside, I went to the TP aisle which was empty, so asked an employee--mentioning the woman's question which made it sound like there would be some. He was directed to the manager's desk, where I could see a few packages. I hadn't known if I could get 2 of those, but he handed me 1 and I was fine with that. Since I had already decided to skip Costco, I got a few more items to replace what I would have gotten there. When I mentioned it to the cashier, she said Costco was doing the same thing. That would have been really grueling given that their parking lot must have at least 300 spaces, which are almost all full when I'm there. It was 10:15 when I left; I was happy to head home.

After a big breakfast of frozen leftover fried rice w/ lots of veggies & half an Adele's sausage tossed in, I read then took a nap. Had a nice chat with Mary, just catching up. I went for a walk in the neighborhood, even walking down a street I had never been on. It was pleasantly warm, a little cool in the shade, and the late afternoon light was soft and lovely. It was nice to be out of the apartment for relaxation rather than errand running, and to wave at people I saw, for a tiny bit of connection. Then I did an intense but low impact standing legs workout by Amy. After dinner I worked a half hour (in 6 back-to-back timer sessions, because I love making those tally marks in my planner!) on old papers, purging and filing. I think I lowered the level in the current banker's box by around 4 inches. Plenty to go, but satisfying all the same.

This morning I slept past 6:30, so after brewing coffee & transferring to my insulated cup, headed to Safeway. I think they are now opening at 6, but I arrived ~ 7:30--with no line! Got everything I wanted but one particular brand of dry cat food, though I'm not out of that. Even got another package of TP, just to keep plenty on hand. I was able to get down to the laundry room to do 2 loads by 8:30, and I was the first one there. That means my chores were finished before 11 am! Same big breakfast as yesterday, and I'll be taking another nap soon, just because they're so cozy & sweet. Looking forward to more exercise, cleaning & timer sessions--and Mercy reading, of course!

Take heart, and take care, sweet friends! Blessed Be, Amanda

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3/22/20 2:19 A

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I was just finishing a long (3 paragraph) post all about today, when my computer cashed. It's now past when I planned to go to bed, so no recreating it tonight. Will post tomorrow. Have a good weekend, all.

Blessed Be, Amanda

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But change outside can only come when deep inside I know:
I'm beautiful and capable of being the best me I can,
And I love myself just the way I am."

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Finished the new Mercy Thompson book, Smoke Bitten in ~ 28 hours. Very good! Lots of ties to recent books. Once I read it again, just to savor, I'll reread the series, including the short stories in their proper places in the timeline. A fun prospect to keep me entertained during this challenging time!

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with coworkers and family, whom I also sent the wellness ideas I shared on our Anything ... Help thread. We can help battle the spread of fear by sharing information & suggestions, and by connecting with compassion. Sending loving thoughts & prayers out to all our SAssy sisters.

Blessed Be, Amanda

"I love myself the way I am, and still I want to grow;
But change outside can only come when deep inside I know:
I'm beautiful and capable of being the best me I can,
And I love myself just the way I am."

[by Jai Josefs in his amazing song I Love Myself the Way I Am]

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Yes, Karen and I met up with no trouble. There was no TP at Freddy's at 5:30, but a very helpful young woman directed me to other items--I got face tissues & baby wipes and kitchen gloves I wanted (not CV-related). I asked her about when TP might be available. She explained they got shipments every day but Thursday, stocked at night, and if I came soon after they open at 6, I should be able to get some. I was glad to see they had signs all up and down the aisle saying limit 1 per customer--which I appreciate! I went back & asked her name, and mentioned her when I gave feedback on an online survey. So I woke up before my 6 am alarm, and got to Freddy's ~ 6:15 or 6:20. Had grabbed a 12-pack of Kroger TP, then found a green brand on the backside of the main aisle, so got that instead--and I think it was cheaper--less than $6 for 12 rolls! Also picked up regular disinfecting wipes, also limit 1.

I stopped by Safeway, thought it wouldn't hurt to pick up TP there also, but there wasn't any. I asked if it had sold out already (I think they still open at 5 am), but was told they didn't get any in their delivery. Another helpful employee asked if I was a senior, and explained that they've just started a Senior Day, Wed, when 7-11 seniors can get what they need; sounds like stock will be held back for them. I don't really want to go out early again; I hadn't finished breakfast yet when I logged on this morning. But I appreciated learning about what they are doing, and I'll keep it in mind for next week if I need to.

I was happy to see in a countywide staff email that the county's wellness program published tips for telecommuters, on self care in these times. Good ideas & suggestions! I'll post elsewhere on the team. Loving the new Patricia Briggs book! I was pleased to hear yesterday a few minutes after 5 that it was their best selling title that day. With my membership, I got it 40% off. Once I finish it I may well reread the entire series. I just don't want to stay up so late tonight. I'll see how that goes!

Blessed Be, Amanda

"I love myself the way I am, and still I want to grow;
But change outside can only come when deep inside I know:
I'm beautiful and capable of being the best me I can,
And I love myself just the way I am."

[by Jai Josefs in his amazing song I Love Myself the Way I Am]

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3/17/20 5:21 P

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I have good news. After wishing the unit a Happy St. Paddy's, I sent similar wishes to Karen, my old supervisor, asking her if she was working at home. She said it was her last day at Chinook (our county bldg) for a while, & I asked if she were in south county, if she could grab my ergo mouse pad. She's actually getting that and the wrist rest for the keyboard, and meeting me at the Burien Fred Meyer, close to my Safeway & not far from TJ's where I shop every weekend. Hurrah! I'll see if they have TP & tissues, & a couple of other items. If not, I'll ask if there's a time they might be available. I can always take a small amount of leave to go make a supply run, if it's likely I can find what I need. Then I'll hustle over to B&N & get the new Patty Briggs book!

Blessed Be, Amanda

"I love myself the way I am, and still I want to grow;
But change outside can only come when deep inside I know:
I'm beautiful and capable of being the best me I can,
And I love myself just the way I am."

[by Jai Josefs in his amazing song I Love Myself the Way I Am]

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We just got word early this morning that no regular dental appts will be made until at least 4/13, just emergencies. Then they revised that the call center will make NO dental appointments, but will refer emergencies to the clinic to decide whether they can be seen. Haven't heard from family planning yet. Luckily WIC can load cards remotely--for clients who already have them; figuring out what to do with new clients.

Just learned that theaters, health clubs, salons, must close; no eating in at restaurants--only take out and delivery. So no movies as well as library materials to keep us occupied! {sigh} I'm really thankful Mary and I saw our latest play and had lunch out this weekend! I made sure to call Barnes and Noble to make sure they'll be open tomorrow so I can pick up my new Patricia Briggs book as planned! Shorter hours, but they will be open. I hope the craziness lessens by next weekend and I can get TP then!

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Blessed Be, Amanda

"I love myself the way I am, and still I want to grow;
But change outside can only come when deep inside I know:
I'm beautiful and capable of being the best me I can,
And I love myself just the way I am."

[by Jai Josefs in his amazing song I Love Myself the Way I Am]

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3/16/20 1:28 A

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I went shopping earlier than usual, shortest gas lines I've seen in awhile, got to drive right up to the pump at Costco--very unusual. People were in long lines to get TP and paper towels, and they announced as I got near that they had just run out of cases of bottled water. I didn't join the madness. Where would I even put a Costco case of TP? I have an unopened 6-P-pack from TJ's. I'm hoping by next week things will have calmed down a bit. Safeway & TJ's were out of TP, though both had some water still. And food items were mostly fine. So I did my normal shopping pretty much.

Oh, I used my Ivar's birthday coupon at an Ivar's between Safeway and Trader Joe's that I've seen but never gone into before. Mary and I often use ours together, both ordering a crab caesar salad at $15 (we normally do the shrimp for less than $10), and since 1 is free, we both pay half price. But since she didn't feel well last weekend, then we did Wally's with Brian on Saturday, I got a crab & a wild salmon caesar to go; had the crab for lunch and the salmon for dinner.

I had a sort of late nap, and did 10 timer sessions. Got to the bottom of that banker box. I love getting through all those old papers. Lots to go, but I'm making good progress. I mention in the reading thread that I'm watching the Toy Story Blu Ray discs I bought. I'm astounded again at how good they are. The stories are unique, and not just rehashes of the previous ones. They are funny and moving. I just finished TS3--I forgot how much it made me cry at the end. I sort of remembered the sad tears in the incinerator, but didn't recall the bittersweet ones when Andy leaves for college. Looking forward to the special features tomorrow night, then Tuesday I buy the brand new Patricia Briggs on release day!

Blessed Be, Amanda

"I love myself the way I am, and still I want to grow;
But change outside can only come when deep inside I know:
I'm beautiful and capable of being the best me I can,
And I love myself just the way I am."

[by Jai Josefs in his amazing song I Love Myself the Way I Am]

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I was glad that the restaurant was OK when we went today. I'm headed for groceries in the morning, and I'll see what I see. I was really sad about the libraries all closing for a month!! Mary said today her city and county libraries were closed. I checked mine when I got home, and they just announced it yesterday, starting today. No fines, just keep what you have. The books I had requested are paused, but a couple I had requested earlier are in transit. No new books to read will be sad!

So I'll be watching videos at home (though carrying books with me, as to the store). I bought myself the set of Toy Story 1-3 on BluRay, since I had already picked up Toy Story 4 when it came out. I just finished the first one, and am watching the fun features and shorts. I had forgotten quite a bit of that first movie, and enjoyed it thoroughly!

Got to my 9 am tax appt on time and had 2 nice surprises: it only took us a half hour, since I had pulled everything together, and the best is I get a refund--even bigger than last year. I really had expected to pay. But changing my holding from 1 to 0 on my W-4 worked, even with the bigger salary & investments doing better. Then had a nice lunch with DS and BIL at Wally's Chowder House, came home an took a nap.

Did one of Amy's longer cardio ST workouts (38 minutes). I put my timer sessions toward sorting papers, got through ~ 4 inches in a banker box, with about 3 inches left. I'm tossing and grouping into categories to deal with later, when I'll merge and purge files. It was fun sending old application materials and mail to recycling. I know there's a lot more applications still to find and toss. So satisfying, and a physical relief!

Blessed Be, Amanda

"I love myself the way I am, and still I want to grow;
But change outside can only come when deep inside I know:
I'm beautiful and capable of being the best me I can,
And I love myself just the way I am."

[by Jai Josefs in his amazing song I Love Myself the Way I Am]

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3/14/20 12:21 A

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We were asked today if we all wanted to telecommute next week, and were assured they prefer we work from home until further notice. I had 2 tech issues to deal with, but luckily each only took ~ 15 minutes to resolve, and only one person was out--which was planned. So attendance is certainly better than usual! One coworker lost her internet and was offline for a while, but it's been pretty smooth. I apologize to some callers for how long it takes me to navigate between pages, now that everything is overlapping on one small screen. Whereas before I would size various pages just so to leave a convenient corner visible to bring that one forward in standard places on my 2 monitors, now I frequently have to maximize screen to be able to see and reach buttons to select at the bottom--I can't always scroll to find what I need. People are pretty understanding, and some laugh about the same thing as they've dealt with working from home too.

I called to confirm my tax appt for tomorrow morning. I'm assuming I'll have to pay with my pay increase and investments doing better. I'll just pay the bill and strategize about quarterly estimated payments. 3 more workouts, including PT exercises. Deleted over 150 emails from my inbox--that feels good! I always feel light after some purging. I haven't gotten to bed as early as desired the last few days because my books have been so much fun. Enjoyed The Unhoneymooners, and have started Roomies, also by Christina Lauren, which is also a great romp.

Blessed Be, Amanda

"I love myself the way I am, and still I want to grow;
But change outside can only come when deep inside I know:
I'm beautiful and capable of being the best me I can,
And I love myself just the way I am."

[by Jai Josefs in his amazing song I Love Myself the Way I Am]

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3/13/20 12:28 A

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I'm very proud that I got in 3 more workouts (totaling 39 min) during my 3 breaks. All were short ones by Amy. Yesterday was low impact cardio most without weights, today was cardio sculpt with weights (I haven't worked back up to 5# yet, but will get back there soon.) Then after signing off & relaxing with a book, I did her 21-min cardio sculpt. I did some paper sorting of items I brought home from work, and got my reference binder put together with pages I had posted on my cubicle wall or inserted in a reference stand.

I also found the first virus update I printed out--from 3/3 when total cases in the county reached 21, with 8 deaths. Today's total, just 9 days later was 270 cases and 27 deaths. I decided to cancel my PT appt I had just made for Tuesday, since it's not urgent--back is doing well, and while knees twinge sometimes, I do have exercises I can do--just need to make time for them.

Other successes--I deleted 100 sent work emails (mostly communications to clinics about specific patients, clients and appts). And I finally reviewed my tax documents, and think I have everything I'll need for appt on Saturday. I better call them and confirm the appt! Will try to turn in a little earlier tonight after reading for a bit. Fun rom-com, The Unhoneymooners by Christina Lauren.

Blessed Be, Amanda

"I love myself the way I am, and still I want to grow;
But change outside can only come when deep inside I know:
I'm beautiful and capable of being the best me I can,
And I love myself just the way I am."

[by Jai Josefs in his amazing song I Love Myself the Way I Am]

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3/11/20 8:31 P

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Today went really well, everybody was working from home, call volume wasn't bad & with full coverage, I rarely had back-to-back calls. A few times early on, I almost messaged the group to make sure I was showing up as available, and then a call would finally come. Made good use of several of the reference sheets I brought home, but still trying to get them organized.

Today's virus update was disturbing.They are now expecting case numbers to double every 5-7 days. Case total up 44 from yesterday, deaths up 4--though some of those happened last week, they don't always get immediate data, and I'm sure they have to verify all info coming in. And 22 of the 26 deaths have all been from a single care center; 3 of the newly reported deaths were individuals in their 90s.

I put in 3 short (10-12 minute) workouts for morning, lunch, and afternoon breaks. Good thing, since my steps are WAY down! Going to relax a little before doing a round of timer sessions.

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Blessed Be, Amanda

"I love myself the way I am, and still I want to grow;
But change outside can only come when deep inside I know:
I'm beautiful and capable of being the best me I can,
And I love myself just the way I am."

[by Jai Josefs in his amazing song I Love Myself the Way I Am]

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3/10/20 12:49 A

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I think Mary said Pierce County where Tacoma is has 1 case as of Friday or Sunday, while this morning's update is over 100 total cases in King County, but 19 of the 20 deaths are all from one care facility with a bunch of elderly residents. The high at risk categories are the elderly, pregnant women, people with chronic conditions or a weakened immune system.

Ian was back today after 3 days off, so I got another tutorial on setting up at home--how to get on the network remotely. He had me take and handle a call just on the laptop. The biggest drawback is the little screen on a laptop, when I'm accustomed to dual monitors. This all happened too late in the day for me to want to pack up and work from home tomorrow. I jotted notes, but want to outline it all in a Word document--what to items to take equipment wise,copies of reference materials I have available at my desk, supplies I commonly need and use that would be hard to get along without. Then I plan to pack up tomorrow and start working from home on Wed. I'll miss the recumbent bike in the activity room in the basement, but with no commuting, I'll get 1.5-2 hours back, in which I can fit in exercise for sure!

Tried to make a PT appt online last night, but couldn't do it, so emailed the PT I worked with. Got a response from a colleague who said she was out this week, but gave me the number to call for PT appts. I put it in my phone, along with my Kaiser number, so I can call from work tomorrow. Plan on hitting Tat's Deli for one of their chopped salads tomorrow since I may be out the rest of the week--working from home.

Blessed Be, Amanda

"I love myself the way I am, and still I want to grow;
But change outside can only come when deep inside I know:
I'm beautiful and capable of being the best me I can,
And I love myself just the way I am."

[by Jai Josefs in his amazing song I Love Myself the Way I Am]

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3/9/20 12:19 A

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This morning I did some PT exercises for back (which is doing quite well) & knees (bothering me more than usual lately). Got clean laundry put away--mostly socks, underwear and linens. Got away in time to get to our pre-play lunch date a little early, as did Mary. So we had time to review next season. While she filled out our season ticket order, I wrote her a check for mine. We got the order turned in before getting a program and sitting in our perfect front row aisle seats. They only went on sale 3/1, and it's great to have that done, and not worry about ordering ours before we lose our prime real estate. (I've probably said it before, but we plan to keep those seats until we die!) We're usually the first ones to reach the restroom at intermission. Though today's crowd was smaller--maybe a combo of virus fears and folks forgetting to change their clocks forward. Oh, the play was Wolves, about a girls' indoor soccer team. Realistic, but hard to follow with a lot of overlapping dialog.

I actually got in a few timer sessions this morning before leaving for the play, and did several more this evening. It helped that I drove home completely in the daylight in dry weather. I decided to go the back way--2 highways instead of I-5. Even though it's mostly just 2 lanes, there's less traffic, so we didn't bunch up and slow down as often happens on the interstate. We kept 60-70 pretty much the whole way home which I did in less than 50 minutes--faster than the freeway when I hit bad traffic.

I've done some prep for tomorrow's food. Will do more to streamline the morning. Ready to just relax a bit before bed. Hope everyone gets a great start to their week!

Blessed Be, Amanda

"I love myself the way I am, and still I want to grow;
But change outside can only come when deep inside I know:
I'm beautiful and capable of being the best me I can,
And I love myself just the way I am."

[by Jai Josefs in his amazing song I Love Myself the Way I Am]

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3/7/20 10:46 P

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I've had a productive day. I woke up later than usual (almost 7) and still got to the laundry room soon after 8 (we're not supposed to run machines before then) and got 2 loads done. I held off exercising until later, so was able to cook up a yummy stir fry of Chinese leftovers and eat it before the drying was done. Then it was write the shopping list, get dressed and head out. Got to Costco closer to 11 than 11:30 to 12 when it can be hard to park anywhere. Still parked in the far corner, but I don't mind a nice long walk--it runs up my step counter for Spark Points, after all! Got shopping done at Costco, Target, Safeway and Trader Joe's, then the library and home.

Read, then took a nap, had afternoon decaf coffee while I finished my book--Midnight at the Blackbird Cafe by Heather Webber, which I absolutely loved! Details in the reading thread. I plan to send her a fan letter and ask if she'll write more novels in this setting. It would be really sad not to visit these characters again! I did my first long cardio/ST routine in weeks, Amy's (w/ J Zook) 35 minute Strength and Cardio HIIT. Went a little lighter on some of the weights & didn't keep to their pace as much, but it felt good to challenge myself more, while checking in with my back periodically. Still have laundry to fold, and want to get a few timer sessions with paper sorting. Will change clocks before bed. Have a great Sunday my friends!

Blessed Be, Amanda

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But change outside can only come when deep inside I know:
I'm beautiful and capable of being the best me I can,
And I love myself just the way I am."

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I did Amy's 10-minute low cardio HIIT workout after work, and I had to take it slower, as I'm building back my strength and endurance after taking about 2 weeks off when my back was hurting so much, then I was just moving around carefully with a little PT, but not much else.

Half the crew worked from home today. I was there with Eric, our new guy, and an old float friend who has only just come back to join us after months away. Bus was less crowded, as more people in the area are telecommuting. Bad accident in downtown Seattle made the morning commute super slow, but as I texted Mary, I wasn't driving so I didn't care much.

Call volume wasn't bad. I was able to do more internet research and create more flyers for Women's History Month. In a group of firsts, I was going to include the first Asian American woman cabinet member (who happened to be Republican), but then read some allegations of improprieties, so decided to choose a more positive role model--or less controversial, and found the first Asian American woman Congresswoman was also the first woman of color elected to the House of Representatives. I had known Shirley Chisholm was the first African American woman in Congress, but Patsy Takemoto Mink got there 3 years earlier. I found some great quotes and photos, and illuminating articles. Fun!

Blessed Be, Amanda

"I love myself the way I am, and still I want to grow;
But change outside can only come when deep inside I know:
I'm beautiful and capable of being the best me I can,
And I love myself just the way I am."

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I'm not sure who all put it together, but we had an awesome display on the tables in the kitchen for Black History Month, including a bunch of cool Black History flashcards, as well as ones for significant African American women. I loved it and learned a lot--and was proud when I recognized some of the names and faces already. A call went out for contributions to a bulletin board for Women's History month. Now that coverage is mostly better, I was able to spend some time in between calls creating some flyers with names and photos & little blurbs and quotes. I think I finished printing a 5th page just before 5:00. It was fun to do something creative and valuable.

Then a funny thing happened as we all dashed out the door and into an elevator to leave. When I went to use my badge to push the button for the basement, I couldn't find it. I spent the trip down looking through my purse, since it wasn't in the pocket it always goes in when I'm not wearing it. Had to ride back up and found 2 ladies about to get on the elevator whom I asked to let me in the secure door, since I didn't have my badge. They did, and I ran to my desk: no badge sitting next to the computer. So I dug through every pocket, and found it in a different zippered compartment on the wrong side of the purse. But when I pulled everything out of the center compartment, I found the laundry card I lost and had to replace weeks ago! How it got in my purse is a mystery, but I'm thrilled to be able to use the balance on it now!

I've done a few timer sessions, and was just thinking that I feel surprisingly light and happy--over nothing in particular. I think it's a combination of making progress at home, no longer worrying over applications and interviews, and getting some competent help. Tamara's out sick, but Eric is doing great, sounding completely confident and at ease with callers. Hurray!

Blessed Be, Amanda

"I love myself the way I am, and still I want to grow;
But change outside can only come when deep inside I know:
I'm beautiful and capable of being the best me I can,
And I love myself just the way I am."

[by Jai Josefs in his amazing song I Love Myself the Way I Am]

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I only managed one timer session last night, so made sure I got 5 done tonight--fun! It became like a game of how much can I get done before the timer goes off? Can I finish that task in 5 minutes? Reminds me of mentioning to a couple of clerks at TJs about my plans to take a nap and do some timer sessions and one asked, "Oh so you set a timer for like an hour, and just work that long on something?" I LAUGHED and moved my thumb and index finger within an inch of each other, saying, "I set my timer for a LOT less time than that!" She replied, "Oh, like baby steps?" And I was "Yes!" emoticon An hour! Ha-ha-ha-ha-ha! emoticon

Blessed Be, Amanda

"I love myself the way I am, and still I want to grow;
But change outside can only come when deep inside I know:
I'm beautiful and capable of being the best me I can,
And I love myself just the way I am."

[by Jai Josefs in his amazing song I Love Myself the Way I Am]

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3/3/20 1:14 A

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Spent a nice quiet day mostly relaxing. Tried a beginner yoga routine--brand new for me. I like the teacher, but had problems as I have with Amy's workouts with moves that put weight on my wrists that make them ache. I couldn't figure out how to modify while trying to follow directions in a completely new routine, and had to sit out before rejoining when she moved from the floor to standing poses and moves. I addressed my issues in a comment on YouTube, but I've done that with Amy videos, and am not aware that anyone has read them or reacted. I Googled and actually found some helpful info; I shared links in another forum.

My biggest accomplishment was finishing my Medicare application which involved getting email help from big sister ( emoticon Mary!) who went through this not quite 3 years ago, calling Kaiser to get my health coverage effective date, and a call to Social Security to figure out why the application wasn't letting me fix an input error and correct my application. That last one had me on hold over 30 minutes, but it was eventually resolved, and I got signed up for Part A. (I don't need Part B now while I'm working.)

That tired me out and I ended up taking a nap. Other things I did: changed bed linens ahead of schedule, deciding I'll donate the ones I had been using, because I just don't care for them. Why continue using something I don't like, when I can give them away to someone who will appreciate them more? I have that in mind for a few items of clothing I don't like much (anymore). I replanted a mini rosebush from TJ's. Somer have survived, but not all; I'll see how this one does. I paid my rent for this month, then signed up for automatic bill pay for next month. I've scheduled it for a few days early; Kim in the office said she'd watch and let me know if it hasn't come on time. She had to work with another tenant for a couple months until he got the timing worked out. I also hennaed my hair and ordered a just for fun gift for myself: Toy Story 1-3 on Blu Ray. I had them on VHS & got the brand new Toy Story 4 since I now have a Blu Ray player. It'll be such fun to watch them all with the special features, too!

Blessed Be, Amanda

"I love myself the way I am, and still I want to grow;
But change outside can only come when deep inside I know:
I'm beautiful and capable of being the best me I can,
And I love myself just the way I am."

[by Jai Josefs in his amazing song I Love Myself the Way I Am]

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3/1/20 10:43 P

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I'm making a point to take not every time I put recycling in the bin now to remind myself how easy this is, and how glad I am that I made time to move it. I'm hoping the positive reinforcement will encourage me to make similar efforts and changes elsewhere.

I did my first longer workout (21 min) with weights--a favorite cardio sculpt by Amy. Sometimes less weight or not the most advanced version of moves, as I build back up. I'm encouraged how well my back continues to do. It really is my knees that I feel twinging more often. I'll ask the therapist about those when I go back to PT next week.

An easy day of exercise, Chinese leftovers, grocery shopping & library, nap, reading. Last of yesterday's laundry and the food put away. Oh, and yesterday I began the Medicare enrollment process, but ran into a confusion. I checked with sister, who did this a few years ago. She didn't remember the details, but knows where she got her answer from HR, so will check at work Monday morning and get back to me. I happily reviewed my email, deleting all those blog comment notifications, and found a coffee sale I had missed. It's their best deal--a free 1/2 pound sample, since that equals a savings of $7.95. By getting two full pounds and two half pounds, I met the 3# minimum for a free sample, plus the $40 minimum for free shipping. (Whereas three full pounds only totals $39.) When I've done this before, I've tried a new flavor I'm curious about--because if I don't care for it, hey it was free!

Blessed Be, Amanda

"I love myself the way I am, and still I want to grow;
But change outside can only come when deep inside I know:
I'm beautiful and capable of being the best me I can,
And I love myself just the way I am."

[by Jai Josefs in his amazing song I Love Myself the Way I Am]

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2/29/20 11:57 P

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I remember noticing as I carried my very full laundry basket down the stairs this morning that I had a big happy grin on my face. It's amusing how happy and satisfied I feel sometimes when I'm getting tasks done early. Of course I was also smiling after I finished several timer sessions in a row after dinner this evening after consolidating and breaking down boxes that had been stacked pretty high in the dining room, then moving stacks to finally get the big recycling bin out in the front where it will be easy to access. I've been irritated for a long time with how inconveniently it was located, and I finally decided to fix the situation!

Sometimes it amazes me (especially after the fact) that I will put up with inconvenience rather than spending a short time--in this case less than 15 minutes--to resolve an issue! Ah well, it's solved now, and I have a more accurate sense of how much stuff in that area I have to go through and sort.

(* I almost put this in the Success thread, but I wasn't sure how many folks would see it there, and I thought others might potentially relate to this post.)

Blessed Be, Amanda

"I love myself the way I am, and still I want to grow;
But change outside can only come when deep inside I know:
I'm beautiful and capable of being the best me I can,
And I love myself just the way I am."

[by Jai Josefs in his amazing song I Love Myself the Way I Am]

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2/29/20 12:33 P

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When a member on another team mentioned her fears concerning the COVID-19 virus, my co-leader spoke to fear-mongering, noting "People overreacting causes a whole different set of issues." This was my reply:

emoticon strongly about the virus hysteria. Yes, it's serious; yes, it's good to take precautions. But the news always blows up potential health or weather dangers in order to keep people tuning in & passing the hysteria as a way to cash in on more readers & viewers. One of the horrible characteristics of capitalism is that fear-mongering is "good business" while being harmful to the mental health of the populace, and possibly causing a lot of people to spend too much money in a panic in order to feel safer or more prepared--again making some people rich.

And I'm reminded of that New Age motto "What you resist persists." I'm concerned that when people obsess about bad things happening, they might draw negative energy to themselves. It's behind my mantra "I am young and healthy, I am strong and free" (followed by a rhyming phrase) that I repeat many, many times per day, mainly during my cardio sessions on the bike at work or while walking between home and the bus stop. I'm expressing my intention to stay healthy and not get sick, and my belief that getting older doesn't automatically doom you to a weak or failing body.

When I reminded coworkers I wouldn't see them Monday, since I was taking off on my birthday, I mentioned it was a milestone year. When asked the number, I proudly told them 65, and proceeded to wave my arms and shimmy a few dance steps, laughing that I looked and felt pretty good for 65.

Blessed Be, Amanda

"I love myself the way I am, and still I want to grow;
But change outside can only come when deep inside I know:
I'm beautiful and capable of being the best me I can,
And I love myself just the way I am."

[by Jai Josefs in his amazing song I Love Myself the Way I Am]

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2/28/20 12:14 A

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Nothing special, more of the same. I was happy I got that mini-blog posted and cleared up the pile of jewelry boxes that had accumulated in one little area in my bedroom last night. It's amazing what I can get done in a 5-minute timer session!

Tonight I worked on sorting mail tonight, really glad I opened a couple of those items promptly, since I've often buried or misplaced mail before. I did a short beginner low impact cardio workout by Amy from a few years ago. I'm enjoying feeling more energetic and stronger. And I'm pleased I'm giving myself time to work back up to more strenuous or challenging routines.

I was thrilled to learn a favorite author, Patricia Briggs, has her next Mercy Thompson novel coming out on 3/17. I've started rereading a recent installment in preparation!


Blessed Be, Amanda

"I love myself the way I am, and still I want to grow;
But change outside can only come when deep inside I know:
I'm beautiful and capable of being the best me I can,
And I love myself just the way I am."

[by Jai Josefs in his amazing song I Love Myself the Way I Am]

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2/27/20 12:14 A

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I'm really happy that I'm getting back into my exercise groove since the back pain pretty much disappeared. I'm back to biking over 2 miles during each of my 2 daily 10-minute breaks down in the activity room of my county building. At lunch I did some arm exercises with dumbbells, though I back off on weight and reps since it was the first time in 2 weeks. And tonight I did Amy's short standing abs routine with a dumbbell.
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I'm continuing to ask questions and provide feedback at work, and I love that it's appreciated. I also asked, and got approval to take a vacation day next Monday, which is my birthday. Not sure what I'll do, but a play & progress day sounds great.
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"I love myself the way I am, and still I want to grow;
But change outside can only come when deep inside I know:
I'm beautiful and capable of being the best me I can,
And I love myself just the way I am."

[by Jai Josefs in his amazing song I Love Myself the Way I Am]

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2/26/20 12:31 A

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I'm glad I did a couple short Amy videos--overworked the hip flexors and quads on the 8-minute standing 6-pack abs workout, but enjoyed the 11-min regular standing abs routine--and did a few timer sessions before my energy gave out. But now I'm thinking about bed, and feeling too pooped to post!

Had a weird interaction with a phone interpreter, and complained in detail to the head of interpreter services for our department. I'll be interested to get her reply. Finished Midnight Without a Moon, the YA novel set in 1955 Mississippi. Heartbreaking and compelling, but unfortunately fizzled at the end.

Blessed Be, Amanda

"I love myself the way I am, and still I want to grow;
But change outside can only come when deep inside I know:
I'm beautiful and capable of being the best me I can,
And I love myself just the way I am."

[by Jai Josefs in his amazing song I Love Myself the Way I Am]

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2/25/20 12:23 A

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I posted on the gratitude thread about events yesterday and today. Tamara, the new woman next to me, was back after staying home sick Friday, and Eric, our last addition to the unit started today. They were deep in training mode. I mentioned an issue to Deborah, the dental manager in the kitchen before work, and she said she would look into it. She came by the unit later and asked everyone to let her know when we had questions or problems. She is so wonderfully responsive! And Mara from WIC checks on us often from the other side of the building. She is also extremely helpful and always thanks me for my questions. She'll be working with others to try and get our scheduling tools current and make them less confusing.

Back is (all?) better, and my speed is building back up on the bike at breaks. I enjoyed beginner workouts by Amy this weekend, as I build my way back up in intensity on exercise, after pulling way back when the back was hurting so much.

Blessed Be, Amanda

"I love myself the way I am, and still I want to grow;
But change outside can only come when deep inside I know:
I'm beautiful and capable of being the best me I can,
And I love myself just the way I am."

[by Jai Josefs in his amazing song I Love Myself the Way I Am]

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2/23/20 11:06 P

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Wow, I can't remember the last time I've gone this many days without catching y'all up. Thursday & Friday I was tired from not enough coverage at work, and just wanted to relax when I got home. Then Saturday I did my grocery shopping & picked up a new library book I just fell into--a new 2020 release by Jill Shalvis, with lots of family dynamic issues and demons being dealt with (not just another rom com). I finished it this evening, and then spent time emailing brother & sister, as we are dealing with our own communication and family dynamic issues.

Of course I did get to play with sister. We went to an early matinee of Jumanji: The Next Level, then shrimp caesar salads at Ivar's, then a little shopping for her this time at Penney's. Tried on a bunch of tops, found one keeper at 60% off--gotta love those sales! The movie was just as much fun for me the second time. We loved both Dwayne Johnson and Awkwafina channeling Danny Devito, and Kevin Hart's totally different way of speaking when inhabited by Milo (Danny Glover) vs. Fridge. And Jack Black got a workout as a very angry Fridge ("Now I gotta be the fat dude? At least last time I was black!"), briefly an uncomfortable Martha, and then back to Bethany (sweet, breathy, "Oh I missed you!") Of course fantastic stunts, thrills galore, and that goofy extra scene after the end, with the heater repair guy that just might segue into another sequel. I'm sure I'll buy this one too, but getting the chance to see it on the big screen: emoticon emoticon

Blessed Be, Amanda

"I love myself the way I am, and still I want to grow;
But change outside can only come when deep inside I know:
I'm beautiful and capable of being the best me I can,
And I love myself just the way I am."

[by Jai Josefs in his amazing song I Love Myself the Way I Am]

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2/20/20 12:16 A

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Left mid-day to allow for getting back home, having breakfast & getting to the clinic. Got there nice and early, so got to sit and read in a delightful library book. She did a bunch of testing for strength, then had me perform a strength or stretching move, then asked if I felt better, worse or the same. I couldn't always tell. It would have helped to tune in with first with the understanding I would be comparing how I felt at different times, to try to get a sense of baseline to compare to.

She said we would be figuring out if flexion or extension suited me better. Turns out that even though I was most aware of pain in bending forward, I actually prefer the flexion moves over the extension ones. So I got a series of those that she printed out for me to perform several times daily. I mentioned that could be hard with working full time (and I don't want to give up my twice daily cardio sessions on the bike). I was thrilled when pain was minor enough this morning not to take any pain meds (until after PT!) and to finally have some speed on the bike again, "traveling" over 2 miles in my 10 minutes, which I hadn't done since the back pain began.

I did have some surprise almost cramps in different spots on both legs during the PT. And I sat and relaxed with my book for an extended period after I got home, to rise which incited some pretty agonizing cramping in the usual left leg. That was disturbing and disappointing. I hadn't suffered any cramping in many weeks. I'm tired and want to get to sleep earlier tonight. I didn't make it as early as I had hoped last night--I was too close to the end of the most recent Novel of the Others, Wild Country, and had to finish it. Loved it all over again!

Blessed Be, Amanda

"I love myself the way I am, and still I want to grow;
But change outside can only come when deep inside I know:
I'm beautiful and capable of being the best me I can,
And I love myself just the way I am."

[by Jai Josefs in his amazing song I Love Myself the Way I Am]

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2/18/20 10:27 P

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I had a heck of a day! Since it was the day after a holiday, everyone showed up, though one was late and one left early. I had taken 8 calls in the first 30-60 minutes, then I realized other unit members had taken multiple calls while my phone didn't ring, though my status said Available. I logged out and in of Skype a couple times, restarted my computer, later shut it all the way down and started back up. Nothing fixed it, although any one of these has resolved such issues in the past. Called the Help Desk, but they couldn't solve it, so they created a ticket and sent it to the Telecom group. I finally heard from them, did a bunch of the same things with no change. I asked for an update ~ 12:30, got a call ~ 12:45 and spent around an hour trying a bunch of techy stuff, but I was confused and hungry and headachy, and we finally stopped so I could go to lunch almost an hour late.

Lo and behold, when I logged in after lunch (at almost 3:00), I finally started getting calls! I sent an email thanking the Telecom lady I worked with, but she said she hadn't done anything while I was at lunch. So nobody knows what the problem was or how it fixed itself! Slow elevator going down, stopped on almost every floor, waited for a bus that ended up really crowded to go my 2 stops, missed my regular bus, and stood in the dry but increasing cold for 12 minutes for the later bus. Walk up the hill--even after 6--wasn't all the way dark. But so tired when I got home. Tomorrow I leave at lunchtime (after just half a day) to get home, have lunch and get to my PT appt. Want to turn in early tonight!

Hope y'all had a better day than I did, and that we all have a great tomorrow!

Blessed Be, Amanda

"I love myself the way I am, and still I want to grow;
But change outside can only come when deep inside I know:
I'm beautiful and capable of being the best me I can,
And I love myself just the way I am."

[by Jai Josefs in his amazing song I Love Myself the Way I Am]

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2/18/20 1:18 A

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Had a fun day with sister! She came up and we got to the mall nice and early, found some great sales at Penney's. Got 4 tops and 2 pants for $143, saved $162 in discounts, for less than $24 per piece, including tax. I'm so happy to have some nice new things to wear! I was tired of wearing the same things over and over. 3 of the tops have colors and patterns that are different for me, which is also fun.

We also took advantage of Claire's B3G3F sale, including Valentines socks and earrings at 75% off. Then we went to Barnes and Nobles and used our 25% coupons. Then to Taco Bell for their power bowl lunch to go, which we brought back to my place to eat and play games. She got away early enough to have time to do more chores, and I had time to nap!

I did Amy's beginner bodyweight workout this morning, which I handled fine. It's gentle, and the first one of hers I ever tried. I've done some timer sessions, continuing sorting papers, and prepping coffee: mixing flavored beans (Cookiedoodle for regular, Pecan Praline for decaf) with espresso or decaf Italian roast.
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Blessed Be, Amanda

"I love myself the way I am, and still I want to grow;
But change outside can only come when deep inside I know:
I'm beautiful and capable of being the best me I can,
And I love myself just the way I am."

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Today got around late, but had another productive day! Did my first workout with Amy since last weekend, as I've been careful with my back. This was just a short standing abs with no weight. A few of the moves have the option of using a light dumbbell, which I usually do, but not this morning. I was careful, and it did OK. I took a naproxen capsule this morning before exercising, and the back has been pretty good today. I'm definitely recovering--Hurray!
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Got away too late to attempt Costco, so adjusted the list to just Safeway and Trader Joe's for groceries. Got everything put away, plus the hanging clothes from yesterday's laundry, including the bras that dry on a rack. I've done 13 timer sessions on cleaning tasks and mail sorting, often alternating a couple and then reading for awhile. Picked up some new titles and authors at the library when I returned several items; I'll report what I think in the reading thread as I read them or give them up as my bus/work books. I'm on the 5th Others novel here at home, absolutely loving it all over again.
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I'm beautiful and capable of being the best me I can,
And I love myself just the way I am."

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Did a couple loads of laundry, then had my yummy leftovers. Enjoyed the Little Women movie, though the jumping back and forth in the timeline was a bit confusing. Very good performances. Saw some exciting previews, including the live action Mulan by Disney, plus a couple of great commercials--one a funny and eye-opening one about all the things you can do with bleach, by Clorox, and then a touching one I thought was a movie preview at first with all these people talking about what a wonderful husband, son, friend, coworker this man is, and when we finally see him, it's seconds before he's hit by a car--but the accident never happens; it was a Honda add about safety with a mention of all the people who are affected by car accidents who aren't in them. Surprising how emotionally powerful it was!

Too late for a nap or coffee with caffeine. Talked to sister to make plans for playing together on Monday, then put in some timer sessions, alternating between putting away laundry & bedroom cleaning with desk work. I rearranged things and have a large working surface, cleared the front so I can sit there and work now. I'm so happy with my progress!

Blessed Be, Amanda

"I love myself the way I am, and still I want to grow;
But change outside can only come when deep inside I know:
I'm beautiful and capable of being the best me I can,
And I love myself just the way I am."

[by Jai Josefs in his amazing song I Love Myself the Way I Am]

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Glad you had fun yesterday, and I think it's wise you are putting distance between you and J. It just seems like that relationship is not a healthy and esteem-building one for you. You have so many good people in your life who build you up and don't diminish you.

My first Valentine's Day success was getting my PT appt made for next Wed. The second wonderful thing was meeting the new unit member, Tamara, whose name I have seen on old patient messages from the Downtown dental clinic where she used to work. She is really nice and getting settled in next to me. I have offered to share any of the resources I've developed, and she told me she liked how I handled a caller who no longer qualified to be seen by us, since she now has private insurance. (It's not the first time I've congratulated a former patient on "graduating from Public Health"; I've had a couple who were pretty upset they couldn't keep going to places where they knew and liked the office and dental staff.) 3rd was transferring both Chinese dishes to tall containers with snug lids (what I've gotten a bowl of hot & sour soup in, so it doesn't leak), so the sauce didn't end up all over the bag like it does with the regular to go cartons.

This weekend I'll be doing some fun and nurturing--as well as productive (a different kind of nurturing)--activities. Did laundry today, ate yummy Chinese leftovers (at least 2 more meals worth), joined another local theater & just bought a ticket for a matinee of Little Women. Watched the preview for Just Mercy, which looks amazing, but they only had night showings of that one. This theater has some older titles that aren't at the mall cineplex; I may see the Tom Hanks/Mr Rogers movie there too. Also want to buy some clothes, maybe books or a game; will do some looking today and some shopping with Mary either Sun or Mon, plus lunch and game playing with her.

Blessed Be, Amanda

"I love myself the way I am, and still I want to grow;
But change outside can only come when deep inside I know:
I'm beautiful and capable of being the best me I can,
And I love myself just the way I am."

[by Jai Josefs in his amazing song I Love Myself the Way I Am]

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I got a nice hot shower. Then dressed and walked to the Nearby Starbucks downtown. I sat in a quiet corner and read some recovery material while enjoying my frappucinno. On my way back home I stopped by the candy store and picked up 3 pecan pralines. That's my little Valentine for.myself. I feel better now that I got into the sunshine and our of the house.

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Gentle emoticon and prayers that you'll be in less pain. What a bummer about your commute home. But how awesome that you received such nice compliment from woman from work.

I'm doing okay. Trying my best to put a lot of distance between J and me. It's not easy, but I'm doing okay overall with it. It's necessary for my peace of mind and mental health.

Today's Valentine's day. I'm trying to not feel down hearted. I'm sending out goodies and posting on teams. Really I am not over thinking it. I don't have any plans for today. I kind of would like to go to Starbucks, but everyone is going to be out and about. It's Friday so traffic is going to be kinda crazy. I could walk to the one nearby I suppose since it's so sunny out. We shall see.

I went to Celebrate Recovery Monday night. It was nice to see the friends I have made there. Yesterday I went out to lunch with my good friend to our usual Tex Mex restaurant that we enjoy so much. We shared Ponchos...which are very similar to Nachos. It was a nice enjoyable time out.

Hope y'all are having a good Friday! The weekend is almost here! Woo Hoo!!

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Only one person out today, and thankfully everyone but me was there yesterday. So I finished the last Infolinx checks from Friday, and started in on Monday. Back was still sore in the morning, ended up taking a second dose, but improved by afternoon. Door wasn't fixed yet, still slamming occasionally (which kept me tense and on edge constantly). Ian talked to different people, and finally got 2 big pieces of butcher paper and made BIG signs saying STOP! DOOR IS BROKEN--DO NOT USE! Facilities has been notified. He taped this across the door and handle on both sides. Got a bunch of extra steps going down the hall to cut over to the other side of the building to reach the restroom or take the elevator, but *so* much quieter! What a relief!!

Heard something really nice from a lady I know by sight, but had not learned her name. She said people are saying really good things about me. I didn't know what she could mean, so asked "Like what?" I figured out she was talking about WIC when she mentioned I asked really good questions and put in really good notes, and the Bellevue staff had mentioned me by name at their meeting. I was totally surprised, but very pleased!

Briefly described the afternoon commute saga in my new status: Bad pm commute: my bus arrived & left early, so waited 15 min in the rain. Then an accident had us stopped, finally got onto an alternate route, home ~ 40 min late. At least back is better! I was tired when I got home, taking a break from most everything, will try to get to bed in next half hour or so. Have a great Friday, Spark buddies!

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"I love myself the way I am, and still I want to grow;
But change outside can only come when deep inside I know:
I'm beautiful and capable of being the best me I can,
And I love myself just the way I am."

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I really don't know what I did. I've been exercising as usual through the weekend, and never felt any pain during a routine. I know I did a couple longer and more challenging workouts Sat & Sun. But I may have done something while carrying groceries out of the hatchback, up the stairs and into the apartment--I was never aware of what may have brought on the soreness. It's mainly when I bend or lean forward. So I talked to the advice nurse, got a bunch of ideas, and sent a message to my PCP asking for a referral for PT.

Took a couple naps today, so even though I wasn't sick, I guess yesterday had been stressful enough that my body wanted extra recovery periods. Tried elevating my legs on the couch, a suggestion by my GG co-leader, plus a toning move the advice nurse recommended of laying on my back, knees bent & feet on the floor, then tightening the core while pressing the lower back into the floor and holding that for a slow count of 10 or longer. Just one naproxen capsule in the morning (got up at regular time to call in) & one mid-afternoon, with pain present but manageable. So I plan to go back to work tomorrow, just being careful. Hope everyone is doing well!

Blessed Be, Amanda

"I love myself the way I am, and still I want to grow;
But change outside can only come when deep inside I know:
I'm beautiful and capable of being the best me I can,
And I love myself just the way I am."

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I'm not sure if 3 of my coworkers have any leave, or using FMLA, or LWOP. But it happened again today. The lead Paulina, who had scheduled yesterday off (she's the other person with leave to her name, so far as I know), was there today, but just the 2 of us until Ian came in from his MRI at 2:30. My lower back was *really* hurting. I finally took a second naproxen gel cap (they are supposed to last 8-12 hours and usually work fine, but never controlled the pain this morning. She had planned to take lunch at 12:30 (we both usually go at 1, but she only takes a half hour), but when I ran over to say I was making a quick restroom run before she left, she said she was just starting to register a new family with SEVEN kids, so I should go then. Added onto all this was the door to the elevator lobby which started randomly slamming shut with a crash--only occasionally--when people went in or out. This door is only a few feet from my desk, so it was driving me nuts! So after Ian started taking calls and the queue actually caught up briefly, I decided I had reached my limit, and left at 3. I suspect I'll be staying home to rest the back and recover.

Blessed Be, Amanda

"I love myself the way I am, and still I want to grow;
But change outside can only come when deep inside I know:
I'm beautiful and capable of being the best me I can,
And I love myself just the way I am."

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2/10/20 10:33 P

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At 7:58 I ran over to tell Karen I was the only person in the unit. Ian showed up right around 8 and hopped on phones, one person came at ~ 8:10 and another around 10. There was a phone queue all day long. Those days get tiring, when there's no break before another call comes. But it was clear today--even through the commute! In fact it was the first time this winter that it wasn't dark when I got off the bus in Tukwila. The sun had set, but the sky wasn't dark yet. It's been so overcast and rainy lately that I still had my flashlight on last week as I walked up the hill, but not this evening!
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But change outside can only come when deep inside I know:
I'm beautiful and capable of being the best me I can,
And I love myself just the way I am."

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By the time I had coffee & did my morning reading, did a long ST & cardio HIIT workout with Amy (& J Zook), a couple little timer sessions, washed my hair & wrote out a shopping list, it was later than I planned to get started, so I skipped Costco. (It can be hard to find parking in the lot, with really long lines, and hard to get out of the lot, too, if I don't leave by 11.) Went straight to Target where I found some, not all, of what I wanted. Then over to Burien to Safeway and Trader Joe's. Didn't need to swing by the library today--kind of rare for me, but then I'm rereading my own copies of The Others series at home, and I have 2 juvenile fiction books for bus & work. The current one is very good--The Unteachables by Gordon Korman, who wrote the excellent Restart a couple of years ago, about the bully who falls off the roof and becomes a much nicer person when he has amnesia.

Had a late nap, so afternoon coffee was mostly decaf. I've done several more timer sessions, mostly caught up with the new mail from this week & logged today's spending. More work to be done on the desk, but it's looking so much clearer, which makes it a nicer place to work. Need to prep a couple days' of salad extras when I make tonight's dinner salad. Hoping to get some Valentines in the mail, too. Hope your week starts out great!

Blessed Be, Amanda

"I love myself the way I am, and still I want to grow;
But change outside can only come when deep inside I know:
I'm beautiful and capable of being the best me I can,
And I love myself just the way I am."

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I'm so pleased. I slept in till about 6:30 this morning, and finished my wonderful book with my morning coffee. (I've just started rereading the fantastic urban fantasy series about The Others by Anne Bishop, starting with Written in Red, an amazing series debut novel!) I did a couple timer sessions, sent some goodies with a brief message to inactive BBs. I've sent different messages and goodies to more active team members. It's all part of the BBs turning 9 this week (and me having more energy, now that the job hunt is done!).

Then I did a nice long & challenging cardio HIIT workout with Amy. I added a new comment on the YouTube page for 35 Minute Fat Blasting Cardio Challenge HIIT Workout www.youtube.com/watch?v=XoH-
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which I shared on the Success thread. Then I made a nice big breakfast w/ Chinese leftovers (from last week, which is why I opted for a salad for lunch yesterday). A few more timer sessions, and I've reached desktop! I'm so pleased; I thought it would take a lot longer. I have lots of follow up work, especially filing, and also actions to take, but I've purged plenty of mail and papers to recycle, pages with a blank side to reuse (mainly in the printer or for shopping lists) or supplies to put away.

With clearing the desk and dealing with mail 2 of my major focuses for February, I may be able to morph it into purging and organizing files, which will likely be a March focus, one that will need lots of time given boxes or papers to sort in various places. But with the month only 1/4 gone, I'm really pleased with my progress. It might seem silly to others, but this timer session (babysteps) approach *totally* works for me! I'm going to brush my teeth, do some reading and take a nap, before moving on to the second half of my day!
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I was reading with my afternoon coffee, totally into the next Others novel, but with the coffee consumed, had the thought "I could do a timer session or 2 right now." And there was an immediate response from a young-sounding part of "Oh goodie! Let's get more done!" It makes a total difference when I don't try to shame or should or push myself, but break big jobs into these little bitty, easy to accomplish pieces.

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But change outside can only come when deep inside I know:
I'm beautiful and capable of being the best me I can,
And I love myself just the way I am."

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Sending serious healing energy your way! emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon (covering my bases) emoticon I took a day off last week when my energy plummeted, and I felt like I was fighting something. Rest was exactly what I needed, and I felt better after relaxing with reading, napping, and lots of tea!
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When I caught up with my statistics at work, I did some purging of papers in my work storage area. Bringing home lots of scratch paper--old application materials printed on one side that I don't need, so reuse by printing on the blank side, plus a few things to keep. Love my organizing!

I had decided against Chinese today, since I still have leftovers, so ran down to a nearby Mexican grill--only to find out they closed on 1/31! Dang. I hadn't been in some months, but had been in the mood for their taco salad. Decided to walk over to Tat's Deli instead, wondering just how long the line would be. (I've learned to avoid going on Fridays, cuz it's popular, and you can spend 10 minutes waiting to get your order in!) But amazingly, I walked right up and ordered! There was a little line when I finished, but I was able to hustle back to work and finish my large chopped salad before my hour was up!

And though cold and windy, it was dry at lunch. Then the sun came out in the afternoon, which was really welcome! I didn't bother switching my shoes for boots like I do on all the rainy days, but between 4:30, when I last looked out the window, and 5:00 it started raining--which I discovered when I left the building! So I started digging to the bottom of my rolling tote while waiting for the bus, and switched footwear while riding the 2 stops to my southbound transfer point. Since I had to stand out in the windy rain, and my umbrella could only keep part of me dry, I was really glad for the extra coverage!

Blessed Be, Amanda

"I love myself the way I am, and still I want to grow;
But change outside can only come when deep inside I know:
I'm beautiful and capable of being the best me I can,
And I love myself just the way I am."

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Wow, what a day! :)

Mine started off pretty well. Went to the copy store, which happens to have a Harry Potter Wizards Unite fortress in their parking lot, so I finished some challenges there. Then got to the social security office just as it opened and got in and out fairly quickly, considering I was about the 15th person in line.

Been back home and working since then.
... while all that feels pretty good, I feel a little weird physically, like I'm trying to come down with something. Wish me luck that I don't.

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emoticon Cynthia. I am proud of myself for staying consistent. emoticon

I had a couple of panicked minutes this morning as I was leaving for work, and I couldn't lock my door. Sometimes it starts sticking and I have to push or pull or lift on the door to get it to house right, but I had no problems until it just wouldn't go! I finally locked it by just twisting the knob from inside--which never feels secure to me, but I had to go to work. I ran down the hill, sprinting when the signal changed to walk, just making it across the last big intersection. Luckily the rains had slowed the bus, so it was later than I was, since I didn't get there until after the usual pick-up time.

I called from the bus and then from work, leaving messages for the management office explaining what happened, and asking if maintenance could look at it today, please. When I called again after lunch (first 2 early morning calls were before they open at 9), I was told they would get to it today. Sure enough, key worked like a charm when I got home. They were about to close, so I gave a quick call with a big " emoticon emoticon " to them and to maintenance.

Kept up with my usual evening routines-- emoticon Running out of steam now, but I want to do a little more reading before bed. Goodnight & sweet dreams, all! emoticon emoticon

Blessed Be, Amanda

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But change outside can only come when deep inside I know:
I'm beautiful and capable of being the best me I can,
And I love myself just the way I am."

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emoticon Amanda on keeping up making progress!! I know how easy it would've been to just put hands up in the air and blow it off. emoticon pressing on!

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I don't know where my irritation came from this afternoon, as I was walking home from the bus stop. While I was tempted to blow everything off, I sliced a Pink Lady apple (yesterday's was Ambrosia--really good!), made my tea, did my meditation, and did timer sessions with cleaning, desk sorting, and Spark goodie giving. I felt much better for having made progress!

Blessed Be, Amanda

"I love myself the way I am, and still I want to grow;
But change outside can only come when deep inside I know:
I'm beautiful and capable of being the best me I can,
And I love myself just the way I am."

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Epic did better today, just a very brief problem this afternoon, so I was able to catch up on a bunch of statistics. I've heard the 2 people who are being hired to join our unit, who both have a lot of Epic experience, so they'll get up to speed quickly. They've both worked at dental clinics, so may need training on family planning and WIC (especially the new Cascades system for the latter), but will bring a wealth of knowledge. One of them is a fellow I shadowed in those early, early days as I was just learning my job. He was nice, informative and has always been helpful and ready to answer questions. He'll also bring some new energy to our currently all-female unit, so Ian won't feel so outnumbered! emoticon

Did a few timer sessions tonight, including my first ones on the desk. It's piled high and will take many sessions to clear the clutter, but I'm excited to have begun, if just barely! emoticon Have a Wonderful Wednesday, my friends!

Blessed Be, Amanda

"I love myself the way I am, and still I want to grow;
But change outside can only come when deep inside I know:
I'm beautiful and capable of being the best me I can,
And I love myself just the way I am."

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And emoticon to you on being cigarette free for 12 years! emoticon emoticon Same for your 4 years of sobriety. Doesn't it feel great to know you've accomplished something so important to nurturing for your health and well-being? emoticon emoticon There is nothing wrong with tooting our own horns! emoticon

Sorry about the mandated mess--sad to be pushed into creating a bunch of clutter. I imagine I would be anxiously wanting to sort and organize, yet wanting to clear the mess as soon as possible too. Remember, whatever you choose to do doesn't need to be done perfectly. Just do something to make it better and ease the stress on you.

Friday our main scheduling system, Epic, wouldn't load for the first hour, so we couldn't look up patients, make appointments or confirm the date or time they were scheduled for. Well today, it was after 11 before any of us could log on--clinics too, so they couldn't check in, or pull up patient records for providers, ending up sending a bunch of people home & calling people to say "We have to reschedule your appt, but we can't do that right now." Then once we could finally get in, everything was excruciatingly slow, like a minute for each link to work, when it's normally instantaneous. As an email explained, thousands of users all along the West Coast were trying to get on at the same time. It finally settled down and speeded up, but it was pretty frustrating for ~ half the day. At least WIC uses a different system, so we could register clients and make appts for them. It was nice to be able to help some callers! At first we were saying "call back in an hour" then the message became "call back this afternoon"!

Did my (new) normal after work: meditate, make tea,do a few timer sessions. Today I added having an apple for a snack. I got singles of several varieties at TJ's, and tried the Kiku today. It was nice. I'm thinking I may read a little and try to get to bed a little on the early side. Wishing everyone a Terrific Tuesday!

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Blessed Be, Amanda

"I love myself the way I am, and still I want to grow;
But change outside can only come when deep inside I know:
I'm beautiful and capable of being the best me I can,
And I love myself just the way I am."

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2/3/20 1:10 P

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Amanda~ emoticon emoticon on 10 years of sobriety!! emoticon emoticon

I smiled about your comments on YouTube videos. I am glad you wrote about your experience.I hope she reads your comments and improved her videos. I'm sorry about your mishap at the laundry. I've done the same thing. It drives me crazy that it will only take a fiver to buy a new card. I hope you like the new Burts bees products that you got. St. Patrick's day is my Best friend 's holiday. The items you purchased sound fun.

I'm going crazy today...I had to empty all my closets so that the sprinkler heads could be changed. J helped with some of it. But STUFF is Everywhere!! emoticon
It looks like I just moved in. I'm crabby. J was going to help me out things back, but now he's watching YouTube videos in my living room instead. Ugh. I've been stress eating most of the late morning and early afternoon. When I was a smoker, this would be a time that I would smoke. But no way am I going to smoke. February 29th is 12 years without a cigarette. I'm so much healthier.

January 29th I celebrated 4 years of sobriety. I'm ever so grateful.

Yesterday I went out to lunch with my good friend. It did me well to get out and it brightened my friend's day...which brightens my day by knowing that I helped make her day better.

I went to an online AA step study meeting. I really enjoyed it. A lot of great experience strength and hope we're shared.

I'll get out of my funk. No worries.

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Ran errands yesterday, strangely had longer checkout lines in Target than Costco! (Not enough checkers.) Didn't find the Burt's Bees Vitamin E Oil with lemon I like, so got a couple new BB items to try--hand cream and face oil. They're pricey, but I can afford it. I also got some silly but fun St. Patty's accessories--earrings and hair ties--not pricey, but it's so nice to be able to spend on just for fun things, after so many years of trying to only get what I needed or what was on sale. Got a nap and did a number of timer sessions, both cleaning & sorting. Vacuumed for the first time in too long, which makes everything look so much better! So productive & satisfying Saturday.
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Had an upset this morning, all of my own making. Went to take laundry down & found my laundry card was not in the bag with detergent, stain remover & dryer sheets--where it should always be. Checked on the couch by the computer where I sometimes set it until I log in what I used on my spending spreadsheet (even though I'm caught up except for Fri & Sat). Looked a bunch of places, couldn't find, so went to buy a new one. Turns out I couldn't use my $10 bill; they will only take a $5 for a new card which costs $2, since you get a balance of $3. So I had to tote the basket back to the apartment, go in & get a new bill out of my billfold, then to the machine to get a card, then down to the laundry room. I'm so much better at putting things away--but somehow I didn't manage it last weekend, and I paid the price. Trying to turn disappointment and aggravation into a stronger determination to put this--and other things--in their proper places when I'm done with them!
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Blessed Be, Amanda

"I love myself the way I am, and still I want to grow;
But change outside can only come when deep inside I know:
I'm beautiful and capable of being the best me I can,
And I love myself just the way I am."

[by Jai Josefs in his amazing song I Love Myself the Way I Am]

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I'm feeling proud of myself. I wanted a challenging workout, so did a new one (from 1 week ago, that I actually tried once already) that's 30 minutes HIIT with weights. The majority I liked a lot, but again the end was less satisfying, in fact 2 things I didn't like--one atypical for Amy, but the second a problem I've had before. I have no idea if she ever reads the comments posted on YouTube (almost everything I see, and I don't spend time reading them all, is a variation on Thanks & Loved it), or if anyone will understand or agree, but I shared this:

"Tried it again, still loving the standing section & seeing which weights work best for different moves to challenge muscles but protect joints. Modified floor movements, but what struck me as unusual was your comment about not needing water. I've always appreciated your hydration reminders and example (unlike other trainers), so was startled by any intimation that water is for wusses, since I'm sweating & sipping whenever I can. It also hit me today that it troubles me at the end of workouts when you've said this is the last move, but then add something else. By this point my joints are starting to ache & my muscles are trembling, & my safety issues get triggered. I'd much rather know that there is more to come, so I can pace and protect myself. (Yeah, survivor issues can suck sometimes.)"

Blessed Be, Amanda

"I love myself the way I am, and still I want to grow;
But change outside can only come when deep inside I know:
I'm beautiful and capable of being the best me I can,
And I love myself just the way I am."

[by Jai Josefs in his amazing song I Love Myself the Way I Am]

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Well that was disappointing! On top of leaving my cell phone at work, I just tried a new to me workout by Amy from 3 years ago that didn't follow the usual pattern of activity-short rest-activity-short rest. There was no resting, and when I started gasping and feeling shaky I stopped, found the workout on YouTube and added this comment: I love most of your workouts, but with no rest between moves, I got dizzy and nauseous, and had to quit at the 17-minute mark. I'm used to your 45 seconds of activity then 15 of active rest, or even 50 and 10, but not one move after another with no break.

The other comments I saw were "Loved it" & "Great" while I'm thinking "Hated it" even if I didn't say that. To each her own, right?

Blessed Be, Amanda

"I love myself the way I am, and still I want to grow;
But change outside can only come when deep inside I know:
I'm beautiful and capable of being the best me I can,
And I love myself just the way I am."

[by Jai Josefs in his amazing song I Love Myself the Way I Am]

Co-leader of the Babysteps Brigade (BBs), A Gathering of Goddesses (GGs), Survivors of Abuse (SAssies) teams.


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