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Amanda, our middle school is grades 5-8. Most inductees are from 6th grade but the sponsor made the statement that this was the largest number of new inductees she's has since the first induction at the middle school. Usually it's a dozen kids. We have a bunch of smart ones. Our 6th grade is 216 kids at last count. 81 is a big ole chunk of them.

Thank you about the picture. People forget that at one time makeup and hair was my job. I choose not to wear it often, but it's nice to surprise people when I do.

Well we got my mom's paperwork sent off for her Wolverine Tube pension. It starts May 1st. She lost their marriage license so we had to make a trip to the courthouse and get a new copy so we could send it with the pension stuff. We got her glasses ordered. I gave her her tv, internet, and phone options. Her. Husband isn't listening to the proposed offer of splitting some of the costs of streaming services to keep everyones cost down... And that's why I gave it to her now. So we have time to get him to understand it's not just about "plugging it in right here." I may have to call my own family summit to get it across to him.

MIL is mad at the doctor she saw yesterday. He told her nothing she's complaining with is operable. It's osteoarthritis. He told her PT 3 times per week and her loss of muscle from inactivity is part of her problem. Then he found out (we all found out at the same time) her primary care told her exactly the same thing last week and wrote the prescription... So pain management doctor is not happy with her for wasting his time. This was her 3rd visit in 18 months that yielded the exact same result.





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Alex, how did today go? emoticon on your food successes. emoticon with Eva's suggestions about making small changes, like choosing a healthy food first, and letting portion control come later. Good luck!
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Eva, is the school 6-8? That is weird that almost all the inductees are in the same grade, unless most students get inducted in 6th, and older grades are new students this year? I had meant to say something about your new profile pic looking glamorous; didn't realize it was the makeup. You look great!
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Amanda, I've always been calm for the most part but when I need to be I'm scrappy. Brenna is a lot like me. I think that's why I know how to navigate her through choppy waters so well.

Seriously I had 2 boyfriends in school. The first was into martial arts and boxing. So I really do have a mean right hook. He taught me proper form and all that stuff. The second was an artist and a musician that was originally from California. I sang with his band when their frontman would flake out on them. I wasn't great (I'm no rock singer, but I do okay with country. It's the accent.), but I knew the songs. I didn't always have stage fright as I do now.

Alex, I hope you feel better this morning and can skip extra meds for pain.

I think you need baby steps. I think swapping your binge foods from highly processed carb loads to a healthier option is a really good step. And then maybe you can get to the root of why you binge in the first place. That may take a long time.

Induction wasn't as long as I expected. They inducted 86 new members. 81 of them were from 6th grade. emoticon

Miss Brenna got her junior pin and her certificate. I have to get a frame today.



I adulted! Hence the new profile pic. I'm teaching Brenna to apply her own makeup. Specifically, eye makeup. Well the easy way to teach her is to let her mirror me. Apparently my affection for red lipstick is embarrassing. emoticon



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Eva: It sounds like a really nice trip, and i hope that both you and your family have lots of fun! I'm glad you understand the idea of small changes :) I've done more one on one therapy than group therapy but both have taught me a -lot-! THe Beta membership has a whole induction? Really cool!

Started work on the normal time, after having taken my normal meds. I started out with face pain and it stayed, and at about 10.30 I took half of an oxycodone pill I still had from that ear infection. Thanks to that I was able to finish the hwole day of work and I wasn't even loopy. After work we went to get zucchini so I could have that instead of pasta for dinner, which worked really well, though the stuff is -expensive-! I've been following my eating plan very well for 4 days now, I hope I can keep on it. On March 5 I'll talk about it with the therapist to make a plan. It seems the most important thing for me is to have alternatives to eat when I want to eat something carby or sugary, and I do binge on the low carb foods too but they're healthier for me and don't make me sick. Maybe it's not binging but just eating a larger amount than I normally do.

Went to the fish store, I have eggs I want to hatch and I needed food for them. I got a snail to help with that, so hopefully I can hatch them on Saturday. Tomorrow is another day working from home and if I need it I'll use half an oxy again.

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Alex, so glad you could work the whole day and the new meds reduced the pain. emoticon also that partial improvements help pave the way to people's mindsets changing. School integration didn't get rid of racism, but it helped expose more people to other groups and was a step toward greater tolerance and understanding. (I can't help thinking of Remember the Titans, one of my favorite movies, and how much a lot of people's attitudes changed in a single year--though by no means everyone's.)

Ooh, that vacation sounds like a great way to celebrate! And it's cool that Brenna and Anna have made up; hopefully the new rules will help prevent future blowups. Never realized you were a boxing fan, Eva! emoticon emoticon Have fun at the induction. emoticon

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Amanda, I'm sorry about the leg cramps. Your legs might not be your legs, it may be your back. I have that happen to me on the right side on occasion. I hope your PT exercises help.

Vacation -- Brenna's birthday is April 18th. She asked to skip the party and spend one night at the Gaylord Hotel in Nashville. It's a tall order. To save money we are going for an overnight March 31-April 1st. That's during spring break. It also happens to be that the rooms are $100 per night cheaper on a Tuesday, Wednesday or Thursday. So we check in on Tuesday and check out on Wednesday. It's a huge hotel. And it's set up for kids to have a good time with the atrium and the gigantic indoor pool plus a gaming room. Since this is for her birthday I offered to let her take a friend. She chose Anna, the cousin. And yes she's the one we had the texting issue with. The girls have made up and there are new rules in place on both sides. Cousins fight when they are this close in age. Mostly over text. At least Brenna didn't deck Anna like I did my cousin Natalie at the same age.

If anyone ever asks I still have a mean right hook...

Alex, I understand now. I just figured with the trips to the dentist they would have noticed.

I understand you on laws and small changes leading to overall reform. It's like I know gun control laws won't fix the mental health problem behind mass shootings, BUT they will buy time until we can find a better solution. You're just saying that even a small change is better than no change at all. And I agree with you.

Thank you both for how I'm handling mom's needs. I guess I did learn something in all those years of group therapy, how to help individuals deal with change in a nonaggressive way.

We're having an early dinner tonight. We have to leave here about 5:30 for Brenna's Beta induction. Mom's coming to ride with us, so we take up the least amount of car space possible. I'm assuming Jim's mother is riding with Rhonda and Anna. Anna is being inducted as well.



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Eva: The cheek infection does not show, my cheek is very lightly swollen and you can't see it if you don't know me, only my colleague friend and Tom have recognized it. It also doesn't show if you look into my mouth, it is only noticeable if you put pressure on it. I am glad the girls are getting together well again, and to go out for that trip should be fun! dancing is great exercise! I really miss it. When I want to make a decision I do the same as you did for your mom, I write it all down in a list. Then sometimes I give it plus and minus points. Your new rain coat sounds really nice!

Amanda: Glad that PT felt useful to you, and that you got some exercises to do. And yay for the pain being less! I hope you'll have a good rest tonight!

Worked in the office today, and I managed the whole day! The day began with face pain and the new med brought it down a whole lot! I did work on the minutes for that committee instead of my normal work because i was way behind on it and it was due today. I emailed her that it would be a day late so I can look at it one last time tomorrow morning with a fresh eye.

Tom and me went to eat at a really nice Teriyaki place, I had chicken and stir fry veggies, no rice, which is pretty low carb (except for the Teriyaki sauce). After we went to the frozen yogurt place next door and they have sugar free soft serve, which is my favorite kind of ice cream. With strawberries and blueberries. When we got home I took care of the fish and watched two episodes of Babylon 5.

After that we got to discussing politics and I found out that both guys think that a law that improves a discriminated against group's situation a bit but not all the way, is worse to them than not having it at all. That would require a total revolution for each change, from 100 percent one way one day and 100 percent the other way the next. I don't think that's feasible. We had no hard words but I feel kind of attacked, which is silly, but it felt like two against one. I really am convinced that partial improvements are good though, I don't think anything can ever change fully from one day to the next. Maybe it's laws and rules they are particularly against, for example they say the 'don't ask don't tell' rule was worse than there was before, when I thought it was incremental but somewhat positive change, better than what came before, even if it was not even close to the wished for end result. Now young people, in much larger amounts than previous generations, are willing to accept gay marriage. So there has been advancement and now the time is ripe for bigger changes.

Oh well, that's what I thought, anyways. I am using the mouth wash the endodontist gave me and it -hurts- so I guess it's working. It's time to go to bed now, I hope everyone will have a good Thursday!

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Alex, I'm so glad your endodontist took the time to try to figure out what was going on with you! Hope you get relief soon! Fingers crossed.

Eva, good you are getting a coat that fits better & in a color you like, and Brenna inherits your other one. It's so nice you know how to offer info to your mom in a way that supports her without triggering her issues. That can be a tricky balance. So happy she has a partner who is easier to get along with. Is Anna the cousin she had the texting issues with? I didn't quite get the vacation plans--is she going with the 3 of you? Sharing a hotel room?

Left mid-day to allow for getting back home, having breakfast & getting to the clinic. Got there nice and early, so got to sit and read in a delightful library book. She did a bunch of testing for strength, then had me perform a strength or stretching move, then asked if I felt better, worse or the same. I couldn't always tell. It would have helped to tune in with first with the understanding I would be comparing how I felt at different times, to try to get a sense of baseline to compare to.

She said we would be figuring out if flexion or extension suited me better. Turns out that even though I was most aware of pain in bending forward, I actually prefer the flexion moves over the extension ones. So I got a series of those that she printed out for me to perform several times daily. I mentioned that could be hard with working full time (and I don't want to give up my twice daily cardio sessions on the bike). I was thrilled when pain was minor enough this morning not to take any pain meds (until after PT!) and to finally have some speed on the bike again, "traveling" over 2 miles in my 10 minutes, which I hadn't done since the back pain began.

I did have some surprise almost cramps in different spots on both legs during the PT. And I sat and relaxed with my book for an extended period after I got home, to rise which incited some pretty agonizing cramping in the usual left leg. That was disturbing and disappointing. I hadn't suffered any cramping in many weeks. I'm tired and want to get to sleep earlier tonight. I didn't make it as early as I had hoped last night--I was too close to the end of the most recent Novel of the Others, Wild Country, and had to finish it. Loved it all over again!

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Amanda, wow. What. A. Day. Technology must be going crazy at the workplace. Jim's dispatch system went down last Thursday. It might be back up today. I hope it works right this morning. I look forward to what your PT says.

Alex, I hope your feeling better this morning. Wonder what caused the cheek infection and why no one has just looked before now...

The girls are right as rain. They never fight for long. As a matter of fact, they are talking about our trip to the Gaylord during spring break. Anna is going with us. It will be more fun for Brenna to have someone her age there and I just can not bring myself to be trapped in a hotel room with the best friend that's not a family member. She's sweet, but I think she would get on my nerves.

Yesterday was quiet. I needed that quiet. I did some yoga and some dancing. I always forget what a fun cardio workout dancing can be until I turn on the music. I took the time to type up the information for my mom about her tv, phone, and internet choices, so she doesn't feel like she's being bullied into anything or this is her "the only option." She doesn't admit that she has emotional issues from abusive marriages but I see it. She gets overwhelmed by money decisions, because even if they didn't contribute there certainly were violent when she made "the wrong" decision. Which by the way was rarely wrong, but was often just a way to cut back expenses. Her current husband isn't like that, but that doesn't mean she doesn't still have that old fear sitting in her stomach. So I try to help her not feel trapped in financial decisions. I've set it up in a way so she can take the sheet home, discuss it with James Ray, who will say, "Whatever you think we should do as long as I can watch TV I'm cool."

I ordered myself a new raincoat yesterday. Brenna claimed mine I got for Christmas. It's a little small anyway. I think it might be mislabeled. Anyway, I went for a wine red. I believe in my "old age" I'm embracing the fact that shades of red are my best colors.

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Amanda: So glad you got some nice clothes and other things! And you used the rest of the day to the max! How interesting, a mystery call problem, on the other hand I hope it was nice not having that man calls? Sorry you missed the bus and that you were so tired.

Eva: Watching that movie sounds like lots of fun! Is Anna going to spend time with Brenna or is that fight still having an effect?

Work went ok today, did 6.75 hours, my normal Tuesday is 7 hours. I had a root canal after, no pain at all. What did happen was that the dentist heared of my possible trigeminal neuralgia and he was pulling on my cheek on that side to move it away from the tooth, and it hurt like anything! He poked and prodded a little more and said I had a cheek infection, even if it wasn't totally swollen (it is a little swollen). He gave me an antibacterial mouth rinse to try, hoping to avoid a fourth course of antibiotics in two months.

When I got home the problems with face pain and dizziness and the weird taste in my mouth and nausea were wayyy worse then before, so that dentist is probably right. I had gone to my normal dentist before and she just tapped the teeth a little and told me there was nothing, but he is an endodontist and actually spent at least 15 mins before starting the root canal to try and find what was going on. So I really hope that's it! I also hope that I'll feel better tomorrow so I can work, because like this I can't.

Had a good low carb day except for three frozen and then toasted waffles in the morning. I need to make some low carb pancakes and/or waffles and freeze them, that would solve this. For the rest it was good, I did have ice cream for dinner instead of soup but it was very soothing and it was sugarfree frozen yogurt. I had berries in mine and peanuts which is all low carb. When we got home I took care of the fish while Tom was lying down. He asked me several times if I really wouldn't be upset if he layed down, and sometimes I would have been but today I was nice, I guess :) After taking care of the fish while Tom was lying down, he got up and we watched one Babylon 5 episode. I am going to bed very soon after writing this, I want to get more sleep and hope I feel better tomorrow!

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You are such a good auntie, Eva!

Hope work went well, and less itching, Alex. Wishing you luck with your carbs!

I had a heck of a day! Since it was the day after a holiday, everyone showed up, though one was late and one left early. I had taken 8 calls in the first 30-60 minutes, then I realized other unit members had taken multiple calls while my phone didn't ring, though my status said Available. I logged out and in of Skype a couple times, restarted my computer, later shut it all the way down and started back up. Nothing fixed it, although any one of these has resolved such issues in the past. Called the Help Desk, but they couldn't solve it, so they created a ticket and sent it to the Telecom group. I finally heard from them, did a bunch of the same things with no change. I asked for an update ~ 12:30, got a call ~ 12:45 and spent around an hour trying a bunch of techy stuff, but I was confused and hungry and headachy, and we finally stopped so I could go to lunch almost an hour late.

Lo and behold, when I logged in after lunch (at almost 3:00), I finally started getting calls! I sent an email thanking the Telecom lady I worked with, but she said she hadn't done anything while I was at lunch. So nobody knows what the problem was or how it fixed itself! Slow elevator going down, stopped on almost every floor, waited for a bus that ended up really crowded to go my 2 stops, missed my regular bus, and stood in the dry but increasing cold for 12 minutes for the later bus. Walk up the hill--even after 6--wasn't all the way dark. But so tired when I got home. Tomorrow I leave at lunchtime (after just half a day) to get home, have lunch and get to my PT appt. Want to turn in early tonight!

Hope y'all had a better day than I did, and that we all have a great tomorrow!

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I'm beautiful and capable of being the best me I can,
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Alex, I have to play the remind game with Jim sometimes. Particularly if it's just a stop by a Redbox to return a disc.

Glad you are back to low carb. You'll have to let me know if you see a difference in the itching.

I hope you have a good day!

Amanda, I'm so glad you and Mary had a good day shopping and playing games! It sounds like you racked up at JCP.

Brenna and I watched "To All the Boys I Loved Before" and it's the sequel "To All The Boys: P.S. I Still Love You." It's a teenage rom-com. I watched the first one while they were at the daddy/daughter dance. The second just released on Netflix on the 12th. It's sweet, about a girl that's kinda shy that wrote love letters to the boys she had a crush on. Little sister thought it was time she has a boyfriend so she mailed the 5 letters. They are based on the books by Jenny Han by the same names. Anyway we would pause for her to paint and me to do the next laundry step, then come back and watch more of the movies while the paint and the laundry dried. She has her coin bank parts done, for the most part. Next, she gets to put them all together. Cue the hot glue gun.

Today my SIL, Rhonda, has a check-up with her heart doctor in Nashville. It's going to rain, so I'm going to pick up the 11-year-old nieve, Anna, so she doesn't get drenched walking home from the bus stop. Rhonda will only be about 3:30 getting home. Anna would be fine home alone for 15 minutes, but I don't see a reason for her to treck home in the pouring rain. There's a fair chance I'll pick her up on Friday as well. My MIL has her appointment in Nashville as well.








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Had a fun day with sister! She came up and we got to the mall nice and early, found some great sales at Penney's. Got 4 tops and 2 pants for $143, saved $162 in discounts, for less than $24 per piece, including tax. I'm so happy to have some nice new things to wear! I was tired of wearing the same things over and over. 3 of the tops have colors and patterns that are different for me, which is also fun.

We also took advantage of Claire's B3G3F sale, including Valentines socks and earrings at 75% off. Then we went to Barnes and Nobles and used our 25% coupons. Then to Taco Bell for their power bowl lunch to go, which we brought back to my place to eat and play games. She got away early enough to have time to do more chores, and I had time to nap!

I did Amy's beginner bodyweight workout this morning, which I handled fine. It's gentle, and the first one of hers I ever tried. I've done some timer sessions, continuing sorting papers, and prepping coffee: mixing flavored beans (Cookiedoodle for regular, Pecan Praline for decaf) with espresso or decaf Italian roast.
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Eva: I have started low carb again yesterday and did pretty well today. It seems to help a lot with the gas, no effect on the itching so far but maybe that will still come, it's only been two days. I know I'm addicted to sweets, and they tend to help me feel very good for about 15 minutes, and after that I'm all miserable. I agree, it sounds so sad :( It's good that Jim had at least tried to give you something special for Valentine's day, even if it didn't work out. I also usually have to let a lot slide under 'he tried'. Sounds like it was a really nice sunny day! I agree with you helping Brenna making a hole in a bottle, I wouldn't trust myself with that!

I slept in very late, then Tom and me went shopping, he completely had forgotten about one store I needed to go to and drove right past, I swallowed my irritation about it and we're going tomorrow. Also cooked chili meat to go in the crock pot on Fridays, and did a lot of prep and laundry. Did water changes on two more fish tanks (the fry tank needs to be cleaned every day). We also watched two Babylon 5 episodes. The show has five seasons and I think it's very good but you have to like SciFi.

Tomorrow I work from home, and it's my short day, so that should be good!

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Amanda, I'm glad to see your back is on the mend! I was going to ask this morning. You sound like you had a nice and productive weekend. I'm glad you enjoyed your time with Mary.

I agree Dewayne Johnson showed his ability by portraying Grandpa Eddie. And I like that we saw that crotchety old men have a softer side, you just have to find it. I agree with you on Akwafina. I really wish she would have gotten more screen time. I watched when she hosted SNL, she's a fun actress. I loved you could see her physical stature change between Grandpa Eddie and Spencer.

Alex, I'm sorry your itching and hurting again! Do you think the itching might be associated with your carb intake? I'm just curious. I have a friend that isn't allergic to wheat, according to allergy testing, but if she has too much she breaks out. An intolerance won't pop as an allergy in allergy testing (this is something I explain to her every time she gets a rash...) but it doesn't mean that you're not uncomfortable. Just give it some thought.

I have no idea if a short-tailed possum is rare, but they are from South America. The ones I saw at the expo had to be kept on a tiny leash. It was just weird and sad to me. The Marmosets are "harvested" from thier mothers when their fur comes in. I listened to the breeder tell someone about it.

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Well, Jim came home from filling his car up with gas yesterday with a flower bouquet and a sack of dark chocolate Hershey's nuggets. Apparently, he ordered flowers but they were never delivered Friday, so flowers on Sunday was his attempt to smooth things over. I'm assuming that's who he was giving an earful on the phone to Saturday morning just before we left for the movies. So while I did get my feelings hurt, it wasn't all his fault that it appeared he did nothing for Valentine's day. I still think he could have at least sacked up the book, but I will let it go. Mostly because it falls under "well he tried." I let a lot of things go under "Well he/she tried."

Saturday morning I purchased tickets for the Masked Singer National Tour. It's coming to the Ryman in Nashville this summer. Brenna has never been to a concert. This is a venue where she can have the experience and it be clean entertainment. Jim and I talked about it. He hasn't been to a concert since 1991(Garth Brooks) and I haven't been to one since 1996 (Law of Nature).

Yesterday afternoon we spent in the back yard hanging out and playing ladder ball. It was really nice to have a day in the sunshine. The yard is still too wet for me to get out the lawnmower and do the winter clean up. I'll get stuck. But it was a good day to go out and start making plans to pull down the deck to replace with a patio.

Brenna is out of school today. We plan to watch movies and work on her 4-H project. She doesn't really need help with anything except cutting a hole in a bottle. I'm not really comfortable with her using a utility knife with something that will roll out from under her. I'm not in the mood for a trip to the ER for stitches today.



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Amanda: yeah adjusting holidays makes sense, I tend to feel I have to do it on the same day when it's generally silly, Tom won't mind a bit. I'm so glad you got so much done again! I'm glad you are being careful with your back and that it had results, and you're getting better! -Thirteen- timer sessions is amazing, so much!

I woke up around noon and it took until 2 or so for Tom to be ready to go do the shopping. I think I'm getting a cold, I was sneezing a lot, sniffling and my body is hurting everywhere. I had some DayTime syrup and will be taking NightTime when I go to bed. I managed not to eat cinnamon buns with the rest but had some slices of low carb bread with cheese and peanut butter. For our Sunday fast food lunch Tom had subway and I had a lettuce wrap burger and sugarfree iced coffee, at Carl Jr, really cool because the coffee everywhere else is made out of a package and has lots of sugar. I put sweetener in mine, I do like sweet just not the carbs! Unfortunately after getting food and gas Tom collapsed and needed to go home. We were going to nap and after that see if he was up for doing more or if I should drive myself. So, we had 2 hours or so of a nap (I need at least 1.5 to 2 hours if I nap, I think it has to do with me needing a full cycle of REM sleep to be able to wake up easily again instead of groggy and upset, and I dream while napping and remember it).

Tom still wasn't up for the rest of the shopping when we woke up so I went myself, which worked out fine even if I had to drive in the dark. I can drive when it rains or in the dark but I will not do it in the dark when it rains, I can hardly see anything in that situation. I got my frozen Atkins dinner at the store there and some other stuffs, creams and more ice bags to help with itching and low carb foods. When I got home Tom and Kevin watched wrestling, they both like it a lot and it's great to see Tom animated and interested. I took care of cleaning fish tanks, though I still have to do the big one tomorrow, and after that putter around some to put a few things away that needed to be given away or put somewhere out of the way, and Kevin wouldn't know where. Now that those are gone Kevin is taking over the dishwasher and putting stuff away, that will be a huge help! Oh and I did laundry. The sneezing and congestion was gone but I am still hurting everywhere, especially my joints, and I keep being nauseous as I've been since the ear infection. I wonder if that caused it or if it's something else.

Tomorrow is still a day off, and I have given up on the idea of working on the bedroom, with the cold that it feels like I have I really am not up for it. We have a few more shops to go to tomorrow as well, so there will be little time left anyways, and I -really- need time to make chili meat for Fridays.

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Alex, I'm really sorry it's been such a rough couple of days for you! I never mind putting off holiday celebrations to work out better, like with planning fun treats for tomorrow with Mary, sort of a Valentine treat for myself, as the movie Saturday was.

Today got around late, but had another productive day! Did my first workout with Amy since last weekend, as I've been careful with my back. This was just a short standing abs with no weight. A few of the moves have the option of using a light dumbbell, which I usually do, but not this morning. I was careful, and it did OK. I took a naproxen capsule this morning before exercising, and the back has been pretty good today. I'm definitely recovering--Hurray!
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Eva: I'm sorry that Valentine's day could not have been better, Butters trying to eat the flowers is funny! I would also have been upset if my partner could not even wrap the gift without a good reason. MIL being so upset about her central heat going out when she's had it so long.. I guess she has no idea how long things last. I hope the movie was fun! A restaurant like CHeddar's if you all can get what you want is very nice, Tom and me sometimes have trouble. That exotic pet expo sounds sad, that much money for a pet? That's crazy. And I agree, the Short tailed possums and Marmosets should be in the wild, though are short tailed possums rare? I'm not sure I'd want a possum for a pet!

Amanda: Glad you got your appointment member. Tamara sounds really nice. I really liked the Mr Rogers movie, it was very sweet and thoughtful. It sounds like Saturday you got a lot done and still had nice things too!

Did not have the focus yesterday to write and didn't realize I hadn't written Friday either. Friday was all right at work, but it exhausted me and though I'd had a few days relatively face pain free it came back pretty badly in the afternoon. So it was exhausting to finish work, and when I was done instead of going out to Valentine's dinner we decided to have a Valentine's nap instead. After the nap I did have to wake up to take care of the fish but that was ok. I think the medication I had for the face pain that stopped working gave me itching again, it's been really bad. And then I used an icebag I didn't realize I'd used when I had the leg infection and infected myself again! It's just a few spots with rash but it's so frustrating! Now I have to be careful of that and the itch is still driving me crazy, making it hard to sleep, again!! Needless to say the icebag went into the trash.

Saturday called my parents, everyone is doing well, and then we went to the Chinese place and then shopping. The face pain was still there but I didn't want to go all the way 30 mins out to get the meds on Saturday when we were going to eat there that evening for the meal we had planned to have yesterday. So until 5.30 we puttered around the house, and I got some cleanup done. Then at 5.30 we went to get the meds and then we went to Red Robin's for burgers. I really enjoyed it, when we got home I took care of the fish and cleaned some more, but when I tried to go to sleep not only was the itch driving me totally bonkers, I also had so much gas I had to sit up to be able to let it leave my body. I didn't sleep until 3 AM or so. Thank Goddess I have the day off today, I got up an hour ago, at 12. I am not eating carbs today, I am suspecting that is part of what created the problem. The other part could be the new med for face pain, I hope not! Today me and Tom will go shopping, I'm going to do laundry and some food prep and try to relax a bit.

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Yes, I loved the new Jumanji movie! I thought Dwayne did a great job of playing Grandpa Eddie instead of the nerdy kid. And seeing Danny's softer side--we all know he can play crotchety, feisty or grumpy--was sweet. I wish Awkwafina had more screen time--I loved her in Crazy Rich Asians. And Bethany's surprise avatar and Fridge in the Jack Black body were awesome as well. I thought the villain was weak, but the casting/acting and thrills were top-notch. Hoping Mary and I can see it before it leaves the big screen.

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Amanda, it sounds like you had a nice productive day!

It makes me happy that people see how you gently break news to clients. I think a congratulations is an awesome opener. It puts pride in their corner, hopefully.

I'd like to see the new Little Women but I may wait for DVD and rent it from the Redbox. Same thing for the Mr. Rogers movie.

Jumanji was funny. I thought when Grandpa Eddie and his friend Milo dropped into their character avatars it was hilarious. They kept trying out their joints. I thought"I feel you on those good knees!"

We ate at Cheddar's. We can all get what we want there so it's a good choice. That key West chicken and shrimp is always a favorite of mine.

We also went to the exotic pet expo. There's a parrot rescue that sets up taking donations for the rescue but adopts the birds out there as well. We like to donate. They had dogs there going for $3500 or more and someone was selling short tailed possums and Marmosets. The latter made me a little sad. Those wild creatures should be in their native habitat or a zoo/reserve, if that habitat was destroyed. And the dogs I was thinking about how that's the adoption fee for 30 animals... Needless to say, I did not buy a pet.

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Did a couple loads of laundry, then had my yummy leftovers. Enjoyed the Little Women movie, though the jumping back and forth in the timeline was a bit confusing. Very good performances. Saw some exciting previews, including the live action Mulan by Disney, plus a couple of great commercials--one a funny and eye-opening one about all the things you can do with bleach, by Clorox, and then a touching one I thought was a movie preview at first with all these people talking about what a wonderful husband, son, friend, coworker this man is, and when we finally see him, it's seconds before he's hit by a car--but the accident never happens; it was a Honda add about safety with a mention of all the people who are affected by car accidents who aren't in them. Surprising how emotionally powerful it was!

Too late for a nap or coffee with caffeine. Talked to sister to make plans for playing together on Monday, then put in some timer sessions, alternating between putting away laundry & bedroom cleaning with desk work. I rearranged things and have a large working surface, cleared the front so I can sit there and work now. I'm so happy with my progress!

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My first Valentine's Day success was getting my PT appt made for next Wed. The second wonderful thing was meeting the new unit member, Tamara, whose name I have seen on old patient messages from the Downtown dental clinic where she used to work. She is really nice and getting settled in next to me. I have offered to share any of the resources I've developed, and she told me she liked how I handled a caller who no longer qualified to be seen by us, since she now has private insurance. (It's not the first time I've congratulated a former patient on "graduating from Public Health"; I've had a couple who were pretty upset they couldn't keep going to places where they knew and liked the office and dental staff.) 3rd was transferring both Chinese dishes to tall containers with snug lids (what I've gotten a bowl of hot & sour soup in, so it doesn't leak), so the sauce didn't end up all over the bag like it does with the regular to go cartons.

This weekend I'll be doing some fun and nurturing--as well as productive (a different kind of nurturing)--activities. Did laundry today, ate yummy Chinese leftovers (at least 2 more meals worth), joined another local theater & just bought a ticket for a matinee of Little Women. Watched the preview for Just Mercy, which looks amazing, but they only had night showings of that one. This theater has some older titles that aren't at the mall cineplex; I may see the Tom Hanks/Mr Rogers movie there too. Also want to buy some clothes, maybe books or a game; will do some looking today and some shopping with Mary either Sun or Mon, plus lunch and game playing with her.

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Alex, numbers don't always give me a headache. It's just a lot of them. To be fair I probably would have gotten a headache anyway.

What a nice surprise, finding babies!

I hope you feel better.

Well my Valentine's day was just so so. Brenna started the day with a tweenage attitude, but she turned it around. I got a big hug and smile last night for the little llama and dove chocolates. I got her a small daisy mix too. Jim liked his candy, a Ghiradelli mix, and an electric hammer drill he had been looking at. My mom sent me flowers. Butters tried to eat all the flowers! Daisy's and carnations are not toxic to cats but mine is a pretty bouquet. Jim gave me the book that I ordered myself (he had put it in the cart and failed to hit the button), and I had to package it up myself... MIL called. Her central heat went out. Our guy went out. The unit was 23 years old and had to be replaced. She's having a cow even though she has plenty in her emergency fund to cover it. At least she knows where the money is coming from. We had to take a small loan. A normal unit lasts about 10 years. She got lucky. They were putting it in last night as an emergency install. So my Valentine's was so-so. I have to admit it hurt my feelings that I had to sack up my own Valentine gift from Jim. It had been here for over a week. It's not like he didn't have time.

Going out to enjoy an early movie, then a late lunch/early supper. We've got to run into the craft store for Caticorn making material. I have everything but a ball for the head in the craft drawer.



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I hope everyone had a great Valentine's Day!

Eva: TOm was amused that it was a preying mantis, I had mixed up locusts with my description so they didn't add up for either species! That picture of the gorilla Brenna made is awesome! Sorry that numbers give you a headache, I guess I'm lucky I can deal with them since they're my job.. I hiope your headache gets better. I got a do-it-yourself nightguard and it works for me, and mine was even about $10 instead of $40. I hope the shopping went smoothly and the cooking too!

Manage to work the whole day, though at 2.30 the face pain started up again, though I'd been basically pain free before that. But I managed to hang in there. We were supposed to go after work to get my meds and then eat out but I had a huge headache and face pain and Tom felt overwhelmed with the idea of so many people. So we decided to have a Valentine's day nap instead (which was nice and cozy) and go out to dinner tomorrow (and get my meds before that, that particular pharmacy (not near us) is open until 6 pm tomorrow.

Woke up at 8, took care of the fish. I have another baby fish! I tried to get the suction cups back in the filter where they had come out of, and put them together with super glue (which is safe for aquaria) but it was a disaster and took an hour. And right before that I had promised Tom I would make him food when I got done. Tom was nice and only reminded me gently after that hour of struggling was done. My abusive ex would have yelled at me so much! It would be better if Tom could make his own food when he's overwhelmed but that's just not in the cards right now.

This will be a three-day weekend, I'm so glad it's finally there! I'll do my normal things Saturday and Sunday and on Monday I've planned to spend equal time relaxing and making a little dent in the small wall of boxes in our bedroom from when I was hauling everything out of the mess/front/Kevin's room. It would be nice if I could reach my dresser that I've kind of blocked! Luckily I had enough clothes out there but I'd like something different after 1.5 months of cycling the same ones and washing every few days :)

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Happy Valentine's Day, friends!

Amanda, what a day. I'm sorry about the commute home being so messed up. Hopefully, today will be better! I'm glad you got your referral and I hope all goes smoothly.

It's awesome that you're giving them something to talk about! I have a theory no matter what people are going to talk about you, but it's always fantastic when it's something nice and uplifting.

Alex, I'm glad to hear you are feeling better. And I'm so glad Kevin is working out to be such a good housemate. I know it's a big help to you.

You can tell Tom his locust was actually an albino praying mantis. LOL

This is the picture Brenna entered into the photo contest. She took it at the St. Louis Zoo. She's still getting use to her camera and I still have to help her with the software end of things, but she has a pretty good natural talent.


My TMJ goes along with anxiety more than the weather. But I had a headache for about 3 days. That's enough to trigger my TMJ, considering it was "numbers" induced (I'm running a lot of numbers for my mom plus tax season). I clench my teeth at night when I'm not feeling well or have anxiety. I need a new night guard I guess. But insurance doesn't cover it and it's pretty expensive. I'm considering getting a DIY one and seeing if I can make it work. It's $40 vs $600 or more. I'm okay this morning. Most of this anxiety right now has no pinpointed source, unless you count a 3-day headache. I'm much better this morning. Just a bit sore in my neck and scalp. And that's par for the course for me for a mild migraine. That might not be mild to you, but a sever migraine causes me to blackout.

I'm off to do the shopping this morning. I am making my lasagna for dinner, then chocolate chip cookies for dessert. Tomorrow we are going to see Jumanji, The Next Level and going out for a late lunch/early dinner. But tonight we snuggle up on the sofa, watch Masked Singer (I already know who was reveled... stupid news feed spoilers) and maybe watching Disney Zombies at 7.





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Eva: Ah I've not seen Saving Mr Banks but yes, if the smoking would make the movie immediately R they had no choice. That really makes no sense to me, we are okay with horrible violence in movies for PG 13 and not sex or smoking? I can think up which of those would have the worst influence on children! I would send you an ark to help you escape the rain but I don't have one laying around :) It sounds really frustrating, I am glad you have so many options in your toolbox to deal with it. Does the TMJ bother you as well when the weather changes? I hope your MIL behaves herself :/ You are so kind, mentoring all kinds of women, I remember you had another woman you were helping because she did not know much about women's things. I'll admit my mother never had 'the talk' with me or even told me about menstruating, but she did leave a book on my bed (without saying anything) so at least I had the knowledge before my first time. And yay for Brenna's photos! I remember that gorgeous insect photo she made, that looked professional! I forgot what the insect was called and describing it to Tom didn't help, he guessed locust but that's not what it was.. :/ one of the joys of being second language.

Amanda: I'm glad you got the referral and I hope you don't have long to wait? The two times I went I could get in really easily because of cancelled appointments, often the next day, but getting the follow up was really slow. I am glad you had some breathing time at work today, and I'm so glad the pain improved a bit. I'm so sorry that the door is still a problem :( At least Ian's solution worked, that is great!! Oh wow you got really nice feedback, a feather in your (already pretty feathered) hat! emoticon Sorry that your trip home was such a disaster.

Worked all day today, at about 2.30 our tax system went down and it took half an hour to get back up, so I worked on some of my minutes. For the rest for once I had a bit of flow with work instead of constant pain. The face pain has gone down so much, it's amazing, and I might not even need the meds I asked the doctor for 10 days ago when it was still hurting so bad (she seems to work only two days a week and I think her other team members thought it was best up to her, and then I took days to get to the pharmacy and when I got there they didn't have it, I have to go to the other pharmacy tomorrow.)

Tom didn't feel good and I was very tired when I was done with work at 4.45, so we both went to lie down and I slept for 2 hours. He just reads in bed, he can't sleep without medications. He doesn't mind that I do sleep, he finds it comfortable even if I'm there lying like a log! :D That's why I'm still up. I limited myself to one episode of Babylon 5 instead of the 2 we often do, it just keeps me from going to bed on time with everything else. Took care of the fish, did some cleaning up of things Kevin had washed, took the last to be washed things from the sink to run a final dishwasher before he takes over.

Because yes, he agreed to take over the dishwasher stuff, which was a whole lot more with three people instead of two! (we used to reuse forks and knives wayyy too long and use paper plates over a clean normal plate, and Kevin is a lot neater than us :) ). And he's gathering the soda bottles so they get recycled, I do recycling as a kind of religious service but he drinks a lot of soda and that was a lot of extra work too, so I'm glad he took that on as well. I got us a BottleDrop account so he can just corral the bottles into their bags and we can drop them off and get most of the deposits back (as far as I'm concerned he can keep them, gives him a little cash, and he keeps giving me back coins he finds when I told them whoever finds 'floor money' gets to keep it). He's so conscientious I don't have to remind him of promises, this is so wonderful!

Tomorrow is work from home, hopefully the system will stay up and I can keep being in flow for longer and not throw out like when it went down.

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Yes, I did get the referral, and forwarded the info to my work email so I can call during the day and get an appt made. How nice that you are fostering a supportive and safe relationship with Mr. Charlie's DIL. I know she appreciates it. Too funny about Disney! Eagerly awaiting contest results for Miss Brenna!
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Only one person out today, and thankfully everyone but me was there yesterday. So I finished the last Infolinx checks from Friday, and started in on Monday. Back was still sore in the morning, ended up taking a second dose, but improved by afternoon. Door wasn't fixed yet, still slamming occasionally (which kept me tense and on edge constantly). Ian talked to different people, and finally got 2 big pieces of butcher paper and made BIG signs saying STOP! DOOR IS BROKEN--DO NOT USE! Facilities has been notified. He taped this across the door and handle on both sides. Got a bunch of extra steps going down the hall to cut over to the other side of the building to reach the restroom or take the elevator, but *so* much quieter! What a relief!!

Heard something really nice from a lady I know by sight, but had not learned her name. She said people are saying really good things about me. I didn't know what she could mean, so asked "Like what?" I figured out she was talking about WIC when she mentioned I asked really good questions and put in really good notes, and the Bellevue staff had mentioned me by name at their meeting. I was totally surprised, but very pleased!

Briefly described the afternoon commute saga in my new status: Bad pm commute: my bus arrived & left early, so waited 15 min in the rain. Then an accident had us stopped, finally got onto an alternate route, home ~ 40 min late. At least back is better! I was tired when I got home, taking a break from most everything, will try to get to bed in next half hour or so. Have a great Friday, Spark buddies!

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Amanda, I hope that PT referral comes in soon. You know I believe in all the therapies. The best part is remembering the exercises so you can do them at home and keep the injury at bay if it's ongoing and if it's not, well you have it in your pocket for next time.

Alex, the R rating became the new norm for smoking just a few years ago. I'm pretty sure the only reason I know it is because of Tom Hanks playing Walt Disney in "Saving Mr. Banks" not too long ago. Walt Disney was a chain smoker. They had to leave that out of the movie to get a G or PG rating. That's why Tom hanks always points with 2 fingers. It's a nod to Walt Disney being a smoker. Fun Fact: Disney has digitally removed the cigarettes from all of their official Walt Disney archival photos.

I hope you figure out about the misfit. Maybe app permissions when you set it up?

I'll be glad when all this rain has moved on. I think I need an ark. I have to wear muck boots in the back yard. We have a cold front moving in so I'm fighting the joint and muscle issues that flare when the weather shifts with very gentle yoga, a heating pad, a tube of aspercream, and ibuprofen. If the ibuprofen lets me down I'll use that stronger anti-inflammatory, but at the moment it seems to be doing the job. At least my TMJ is behaving itself!

I go at 9:30 this morning and cut my MIL's hair unless she calls it off. She probably won't. She's in an excellent mood since she's had 3 doctor's appointments in 2 weeks and a third coming up next week.

I found out Mr. Charlie, my neighbor, daughter in law is suffering from an ovarian cyst. She contacted me about it. Bless her. I know the pain. I've had more female issues than Carter's has little liver pills. I'm just glad she feels she can talk to me about it and I can help her to know what to expect. It seems like I'm her new Mrs. Jan. When she needs "momma advice" she's sending me a text. She also sends me cat pictures and asks about my family. She's a sweet girl. We've has similar abuse scenarios so I know it'shard for her to trust. I think that she knows my story helps her feel comfortable talking to me about what's going on with her, that and I don't judge.

Oh! I forgot to share, Brenna has entered a 4-H photo contest! She took an excellent picture of a gorilla at the St. Louis zoo that she entered. Next month's contest is to build a piggy bank from mostly found or upcycled materials. She plans to make a caticorn. That's a cat with a unicorn horn.




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Eva: Wow I did not know that just a cigarette can change it to R. Yes I agree, it's the daily things that really matter, those small touches. But the nice thing about Valentine's day is you are super aware of it for one day. I hope you had quiet!!

Amanda: I'm so sorry you're in pain! I hope PT will help, it always did me if I finally gave in and went. You're smart to do it early! I'm glad the pain was manageable, I always feel so helpless and hopeless when no pill will really touch it. I hope your work day will go smoothly!

Worked in the office today, there were donuts and it was not a good day for abstaining. I ate more than I wanted. I do minutes for a committee here and they were working on wording for a new procedure and the HR guy who would put it all together had the wonderful habit of summarizing the decision after each paragraph. So I didn't have to keep up with the discussion just with what he said at the end! It will help save me so much time!

During lunch I did go to WW and had gained some. Somehow my Misfit tracker that I got automatically communicated with the WW app?? That really freaks me out, I never set that up! They have the same email address for both WW and Misfit programs but that shouldn't be enough for them to communicate?? I'll have to look into that.

We got home pretty late, Tom wanted me to run into Winco for a chicken for him. Then I watched more tv than I wanted before taking care of the fish. Tomorrow and Friday I work from home, which will be much easier. Still to bed late!

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I really don't know what I did. I've been exercising as usual through the weekend, and never felt any pain during a routine. I know I did a couple longer and more challenging workouts Sat & Sun. But I may have done something while carrying groceries out of the hatchback, up the stairs and into the apartment--I was never aware of what may have brought on the soreness. It's mainly when I bend or lean forward. So I talked to the advice nurse, got a bunch of ideas, and sent a message to my PCP asking for a referral for PT.

Took a couple naps today, so even though I wasn't sick, I guess yesterday had been stressful enough that my body wanted extra recovery periods. Tried your elevated leg suggestion, Eva, plus a toning move the advice nurse recommended of laying on my back, knees bent & feet on the floor, then tightening the core while pressing the lower back into the floor and holding that for a slow count of 10 or longer. Just one naproxen capsule in the morning (got up at regular time to call in) & one mid-afternoon, with pain present but manageable. So I plan to go back to work tomorrow, just being careful. Hope everyone is doing well!

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Paula, Bless you and your DH. I'm glad he finally stopped the meds but I'm so sorry it ended in a hospital visit. Hopefully, you can catch up on your sleep soon.

Amanda, what happened to your back? I know how back pain is. If you can take your naproxen and set you a timer for 20 minutes to lay on the floor with your legs elevated on the seat of a chair or the couch. It decompresses the spine and helps with the most low back pain regardless of the cause.

Alex, did you know that a person smoking now gets a movie rated R? The rest of the movie can be clean as a whistle but one cigarette and it goes from PG to R, just like that. So I'm bad to check the reason it's rated that with the parent guide on IMDB.

I hope you get a plan in place you can stick to. And I think your therapist's idea of positive affirmations is a good idea. A minute with a mirror saying "I am worth more than a binge on (insert treat)," could be helpful. It's worth a try anyway.

I feel like your daily gestures of "I love you" is more important than one big gesture once per year. It's refilling a cup of coffee without being asked. Or replacing their bar of soap because they forgot to do it themselves. And paying attention. I cook every day. Cooking known favorites is a gesture of love. Jim insists on treating me and Brenna to a nice meal and a movie or something of that nature. I insist on using good reason for the timing. I happen to know that my gift is the 50th installment in my favorite book series. I mentioned it was coming out in early February. He put it on pre-order when I mentioned it. His is a corded hammer drill. He had to borrow one recently for polishing his headlights and mentioned wanting one to wax the cars with this summer. I figure it was worth the investment. See I have learned nothing from rom-coms LOL.

If you don't have a significant other I think it's important to treat yourself to something you like. My Valentine to myself used to be a trip to Borrums Drug Store in my home town. If my single girlfriends could come that was even more fun. I bought myself a slug burger and a coke float, blended. It was a childhood indulgence and I enjoyed giving myself that gift each year.

Today I do the bills. I think I'll also be taking most of the day in radio silence. I want the quiet...




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Eva: I had given up on putting even one carby treat into the plan because only if I stayed completely away from sugar did the cravings from hell go down. But I haven't been there in over a year or more and it's no use trying to avoid any higher-carb foods so I think it might be good to revisit the one treat a day idea. It also means planning my food better though, and right now even just dinner (because it's frozen meals) is high carb, let alone treats. I have to think about that one. Cool that Jim registered to vote!!! In this household everyone is extremely on the left side, but Tyler is more of an enigma. I can see why you don't want to go out on Valentine's day, it makes total sense :) Just having microwave meals on that day just doesn't appeal, even if I don't mind every other day (mostly). I'm sorry you couldn't eFile Mr Charlie's taxes! That is always a pain. And the amount of information they want for a transcript is horrendous, they even want to check a credit account you own. If you have it sent to you they want a little less, but then it takes two weeks to get it in the mail. It's nice that you can help your mom by taking notes, and kudos for standing up to MIL and have her adjust to you instead of you to her!!

Paula: Oh I'm so sorry! Those pills clearly were wrong but if a Doctor tells you it's not a problem I would also have found it difficult to just ignore that opinion. I'm glad you could get an ambulance and that it got sorted out. I hope you didn't have to work on 2 or 3 hours of sleep? I'd have had to take sickleave for the entire week! (we can also use it if partner or children are sick). With all of that I think the Valentine's day plan you have is ideal.

Amanda: I'm so sorry that you were understaffed again. For Oregon if people do not have FMLA they are not allowed to take LWOP. I am sorry it was so bad with the back pain, and that the door to the elevator lobby kept crashing. Do I remember right you had PTSD or have had it? That must have been horrible!! I'd jump out of my skin every time it happened!

Was able to work my shift, which was from 8 to 2.45 so not too long, after that Tom and me went to see the 1917 movie. It's R rated but that is because it's relatively historical, and there were quite a few dead bodies. It was a good story, and not too many jump scares, just one or two where it fitted, I really dislike movies with one jumpscare after the other. The previews were all of horror movies (because it was an R-rated movie) so I was thinking 'what in heaven's name has Tom brought me to?' but the movie was historical and very well done. The story was impressive and Tom said the costumes and the situations were correct, and the actress who played a Belgian french speaking woman really spoke that language fluently or was a native speaker.

I did have to process a while after it and read silly emails. A lot of the scenes are still with me. After doing that for about an hour I took care of the fish. I had made that big bowl with lid with 4 mm air hose connected to it to be able to clean the tiny fry tank, but the lid had a piece right in the middle, not even where I cut the holes, break out because of the pressure it's under when I suck a vacuum through the mouth piece to get the water to come down in the tube that's in the tank. So now it's useless, and I had to clean the 2.5 gallon fry tank with the big one I use on the bigger tank, and I was very glad I managed not to suck up any of the babyfish. I'm going to need a 1 gallon or so bowl with a lid that can withstand holding over a vacuum, maybe a 1 gallon rubbermaid one, I believe their lids are not hard plastic but softer, more pliable, which would do better with a vacuum. It's not cheap but I have no idea what else.

Tomorrow I work at the office, luckily I'm more on time to bed for once!

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Paula, I'm glad DH finally stopped the pills that had such bad side effects! Hope you can get caught up on your sleep! emoticon

Alex, it's great that 3 are eating for just a little more than 2 were. And emoticon that you could work the whole day.

emoticon Eva on making MIL fit into your schedule. emoticon people can go way overboard on the status symbols of holidays rather than the meaning or genuine expressions of feelings.

I'm not sure if 3 of my coworkers have any leave, or using FMLA, or LWOP. But it happened again today. The lead Paulina, who had scheduled yesterday off (she's the other person with leave to her name, so far as I know), was there today, but just the 2 of us until Ian came in from his MRI at 2:30. My lower back was *really* hurting. I finally took a second naproxen gel cap (they are supposed to last 8-12 hours and usually work fine, but never controlled the pain this morning. She had planned to take lunch at 12:30 (we both usually go at 1, but she only takes a half hour), but when I ran over to say I was making a quick restroom run before she left, she said she was just starting to register a new family with SEVEN kids, so I should go then. Added onto all this was the door to the elevator lobby which started randomly slamming shut with a crash--only occasionally--when people went in or out. This door is only a few feet from my desk, so it was driving me nuts! So after Ian started taking calls and the queue actually caught up briefly, I decided I had reached my limit, and left at 3. I suspect I'll be staying home to rest the back and recover.

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A really bad week last week as DH was placed on new pain relief meds and he had some bad side effects plus his pain ramped up a lot.
Virtually sleepless nights I had a whole 3 hours one night and 2 hours most other nights as he was so bad. I had naps in the day to keep going.
Having phoned the Dr to tell them what was happening he was told the effects last a few days and should settle down. They did not and he was so bad one night I called the 111 service we have to get advice.
They advised an ambulance and sent for one for us, thankfully they arrived quickly. A night in hospital got things sorted out and the pills he was given were stopped.
Now he is almost back to normal, honestly I knew the pills should have been stopped but he went with the Dr's advice and carried on taking them.
Still it has worked out in the end but unpleasant for him and for me.
Lots of rest and early nights to catch up with sleep is in order.

Valentines day will be a meal at home and a film we want to watch, nothing romantic we usually go for sci-fi, fantasy, mystery or horror sometimes even a cartoon film depending on our mood.

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Amanda, I hate you keep having no shows. Is everyone in the unit staying sick? Or using vacation days?

I'm glad to see the sun returning and very glad you aren't walking in full dark anymore.

I may not have ever said how much I've lost. It's a number I'm proud of but I'm more proud of the effort to keep it off.

Alex, as a diabetic I know you try to keep your carbs low. I'm the one that figures the daily meals for Jim to control his diabetes since I'm the one that cooks. Have you ever figured in you a daily sugar treat? I wonder if sometimes you suffer from "I can't have it syndrome." I do. So does Jim. If I tell myself food is off-limits that is the only dang food I want. It doesn't matter what it is. With the exception of peanuts. My kid's saftey isn't worth any snack. I know you binge for emotional reasons, but I wonder if it will take the shine off sugar if you actually figure in regular treats as part of your daily plan? I have to figure in some sort of treat Jim enjoys into his plan so that he doesn't sneak off and eat something that runs his sky-high.

I'm glad you have someone to talk politics with. I'm still undecided about who to vote for in the primaries. On a happy note, Jim actually registered to vote! He's 46 and this will be his first trip to the poles. We have another blue dot in the house!

I cook on Valentine's day because I hate long lines. I can not see the romance in waiting 2 hours for the same table I can get in 10 minutes on February 15th. And I'm not paying $80 per plate for the luxury of making reservations when I can wait a day and get a good meal for 3 people that costs half of that.

I'm not sure if I'm unromantic or sensible LOL.

All I know so far, Brenna has requested my giant chocolate chip cookies, alamode, for dessert LOL.

Well, I've hit a snag with Charlie's taxes. The AGI on their returns is not what matches the AGI in the IRS system. I'm not asking him to give the IRS the list of information they require for the transcript to find out what the IRS has as their AGI. I'm going to print and mail the dang things off. He owes a little anyway so it won't make a difference in the timing of a refund.

Mom doesn't want me to go to the doctor, but afterward, she is wanting me to help her with some phonecalls for her retirement accounts. She puts it on speaker and I take notes.

Thursday I go give MIL a haircut. Tomorrow she has a routine echo. Next Friday she goes to see her pain management doctor in Nashville. I expect her to come back from that appointment angry, just like she did 6 months ago. She wants surgery again (I don't know why anyone wants surgery off the bat if they can use non-invasive techniques to control an issue), but he told her 6 months ago she doesn't meet the criteria for another bone spur removal in her neck. When he mentions anything non-invasive she acts like she didn't hear him. She wanted that haircut done today, but instead of me rushing around I put her off until Thursday. I'm a bit proud of myself for making her fit my schedule.





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Eva: I guess we don't use enough veggies, which makes sense :) Right now I would buy loads of microwave meals if they would fit, but with three people having the little top freezer on top of the fridge and a small standing one that comes about 3/4 yard high are both completely full! I don't often go to Trader Joe's, except during the Xmas season for things like stollen and lady fingers for Charlotte cake, and if I need a nice looking box of chocolate or candy for not too much money. Otherwise we don't normally go. I agree, no diet plan is one size fits all, for me if I can manage to stay without sugar low carb is by far the best choice for me, but I've been in a year of pain and bad sleeping now, apart from the fibro and stuff I already had, the most I had lost in the last 10 years was to get from 325 to 270, so about 55 pounds, but right after Xmas I was back at the 325 again. Now I'm at about 315, give or take a bit. I hope you can stave off sciatica, that was really bad pain! I remember I could not walk for more than 1 minute, if it was bad 30 seconds. I hope Mr Charlie's taxes and maybe a visit to the doctor with your mom will go smoothly! I don't cook on Valentine's day, I don't like cooking so we go out :) Looking forward to it.

Amanda: it's late again, but i'll be in bed at 9.30 :) Wow you really get healthy food at Costco! I had $80 a week for us to eat with, now it's $90 for the three of us, Kevin is very cheap, he doesn't eat much and what he eats is maybe $3 a day, if that. And he pays a lot of stuff for himself. This does not include lunches for Tom, which I give him money for so he gets out of the house, or fast food once or twice a week. (Inevitably I'm not up for cooking sometimes and we are out of microwave meals or are just sick of them). I haven't cooked much since the worst problems began a bit after Thanksgiving. Wow, I'm so sorry there was -another- day that almost no one showed up. I'm glad it was clear, that is really nice :)

Managed to work the whole day today, even while in the office. I did eat sugary stuff, I did not feel good and it always seems to help until I get the guilt. At 4.45 Tyler picked me up, and we discussed politics. He is very interesting, bases a lot of his choices on things like anti-abortion, but at the same time he is also very liberal and is for example in fevor of Andrew Yang's universal income or agrees with Medicare for All. I enjoy the different viewpoint he gives me and he enjoys mine. He and his wife and me and Tom are going to go out to dinner sometimes together, no cooking so that if Tom has to cancel an hour beforehand we can. He said as long as we can give an hour warning it would be fine, so that's cool.

Then I took care of the big tank, which I hadn't gotten to yesterday, and restarted some of my live food cultures. Now it's 9.30 and it's late again! Tomorrow I work from home and in the afternoon (I took off some time for it) Tom and me are going to 1917, he loves history of WWI so it should be nice for him, and I'm interested. Hope everyone will have a good Tuesday!

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Hope work went OK, Alex, and that you can get to bed a little earlier. I've had to work on making little changes to routines to have fewer late nights, and streamline the getting to bed process. Sometimes it's doing things earlier and not leaving it until bedtime.

I'm sure they will appreciate your VDay meal, Eva. I'm not sure I had known how much you lost in all. 80 pounds is impressive! I actually can't get too many things at Costco, what with living in a 1-bedroom apartment with no extra freezer space. What really makes the membership worth it is how much I save on gas & glasses, Kirkland supplements like their glucosamine with chondroitin. I get their 4-packs of salads for work lunches (4 for $9.99), berries, tomatoes for salads, sometimes the 6-pack of yellow/orange/red peppers, mushrooms I can chop and freeze, Canadian bacon or sausages I freeze, and flavored syrup to add to coffee or seltzer. Other than that it's just occasional purchases. I often get out at under $50, and pretty much always under $100 unless I'm renewing or getting printer ink cartridges for $90.

At 7:58 I ran over to tell Karen I was the only person in the unit. Ian showed up right around 8 and hopped on phones, one person came at ~ 8:10 and another around 10. There was a phone queue all day long. Those days get tiring, when there's no break before another call comes. But it was clear today--even through the commute! In fact it was the first time this winter that it wasn't dark when I got off the bus in Tukwila. The sun had set, but the sky wasn't dark yet. It's been so overcast and rainy lately that I still had my flashlight on last week as I walked up the hill, but not this evening!
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Good Morning!

Amanda, Dumplin is on DVD but the other one isn't as of yet. If I see it I'll let you know. Netflix has a month-long trial. You could always try before you buy.

Alex, I hope you are feeling better this morning.

Thank you both about Brenna. Saturday I saw a peek at the woman she's going to become.

We don't have a Costo here, but I do bulk buying at Sams Club. I usually only have to go once per month, but I imagine as many salads as you fix, Amanda, the bulk veggies are well worth the trip. I hit up the frozen veggies often and separate into smaller portions for my family. But that's the joy of a deep freezer.

I wish someone would put in a Trader Joes here! I have to drive over 100 miles to get to a TJs!!

When I reached my goal I had lost 80 lbs in total. Remember half of that was baby weight. I have 10 lbs that keep creeping around in the cooler months or when I get an injury, but mostly I've kept it off. I call it a win that I've had the same size clothes long enough that my MIL remembers my size. I don't track food regularly. Usually just after the holidays to see where I'm at and that's a mental trick so I'll step back from the cookie jar since the holidays bring so many sweets. And it works for me. No diet plan is one size fits all. No exercise plan or home organization plan is either. But sometimes I like trying a method just to see if it will work for me.

This morning my yoga was directed at my sciatica. This morning is weekly chores. Tomorrow Mom goes to the doctor. I'm not sure if she wants me to go with her or not. Then later this week I work on Mr. Charlie's taxes.

Valentine's is Friday. I always cook the day of a special meal they have requested and make a dessert. I don't know the meal yet, but I'm making a red velvet cake later this week. Whew I'm busy this week!

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Amanda: WOW 65 pounds is amazing, and I can imagine that it works without tracking too. It does help me but that certainly doesn't mean it works for everyone. I do need to start that up again once all these health issues are under control, but before that it's nu use. I can imagine Costco is a royal pain in the weekend, when we still had a card we went out of our way not to go on a weekend day, but it's hard if you work full time! We stopped because we ended up with these huge amounts of food that we didn't get through on time, I'm surprised it works for a single person. Restart sounds like a very interesting book. How nice to be that much closer to an OO for your desk!

Got up at 9, which was not much extra sleep because of going to bed at midnight last night. Tom and me went shopping, I had eaten a lot of the candy for the Valentine baskets when I was feeling so bad and I had nothing in the house, so I had to buy it again :/ I feel kind of frustrated about myself but hitting myself afterwards does not help. And it is very hard to follow the plan that needs 45 mins to follow it when I'm working. I have to think up something else for when I'm working, something that will help me feel that I'm supporting myself without food that doesn't take more than a few minutes. I wish I could get through my brain that the food is not supporting me in the long run but I've had times when I could really see that sugar helped me get through a bad day, and Tom admitted he's seen it too. BUt it's really not what I should be doing!

Afterwards we had a long nap, I filled up our weekly pill boxes, then read about politics (never a very nice subject). FInally I took care of the fish, and now I'm focusing on going to bed at least at or before 9.30! I need to have that under control a bit better too. Pain is very hard to deal with when there is no willpower left for other healthy things. Tomorrow I work in the office, I hope it will go well.

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Alex, isn't it interesting how different tools and approaches work for different people? I really don't like hearing people claim "you must do it THIS way to get results." A lot of people say food tracking is the ONLY way to lose weight, but I can't and won't do it. I lost 65 pounds without it and have done a pretty good job maintaining for several years. So it's fine that you and I have different approaches to battling clutter/getting organized. It's all about find the path that works for us!

By the time I had coffee & did my morning reading, did a long ST & cardio HIIT workout with Amy (& J Zook), a couple little timer sessions, washed my hair & wrote out a shopping list, it was later than I planned to get started, so I skipped Costco. (It can be hard to find parking in the lot, with really long lines, and hard to get out of the lot, too, if I don't leave by 11.) Went straight to Target where I found some, not all, of what I wanted. Then over to Burien to Safeway and Trader Joe's. Didn't need to swing by the library today--kind of rare for me, but then I'm rereading my own copies of The Others series at home, and I have 2 juvenile fiction books for bus & work. The current one is very good--The Unteachables by Gordon Korman, who wrote the excellent Restart a couple of years ago, about the bully who falls off the roof and becomes a much nicer person when he has amnesia.

Had a late nap, so afternoon coffee was mostly decaf. I've done several more timer sessions, mostly caught up with the new mail from this week & logged today's spending. More work to be done on the desk, but it's looking so much clearer, which makes it a nicer place to work. Need to prep a couple days' of salad extras when I make tonight's dinner salad. Hoping to get some Valentines in the mail, too. Hope your week starts out great!

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Eva: I have a higher dose through my doctor, and there is no step up from using that naproxen plus tylenol. I've been given topical lidocaine patch for backpain because there was no step up and they were not going to prescribe oxycodone. When my facial pain and ear pain was so bad the doctor prescribed me a tiny bit of oxycodone. BY the way I have weird reactions to Vicodin, it makes the walls move and stuff and doesn't do much more for pain than Tylenol.

The pictures are wonderful and Brenna's dress is amazing! I can imagine it's a real double feeling watching them go, Brenna is growing up so fast! That dress fits her so well. I absolutely loved Dumplin, so cute! I think for a special occasion darker lipstick is beautiful. I completely agree that how messy the house is, for me pushes me in a good or bad mood. Kevin has been cleaning up a lot and it has made a -huge- difference.

Amanda: I wish my young parts would want the house to look good, all they seem interested in is toys and candy. I admire that you are able to stay at the timer sessions all the time, I am just too tired after work sometimes to even cook, let alone clean up. That's why I do cleaning when I have days off apart from the weekends I use for prepping, and that means doing big projects or I'd get very little done, and for me pushing through helps me feel that I'm accomplishing a lot and I want to see it finished.

Stayed up so late that before I knew it it was so late there really was not time to write anymore, so I'm doing it now. The day was quiet, called my parents, my father had forgotten and was not available but my mother was. No worrisome happenings, so that was good. Then we had Chinese and went to Winco for food shopping. I needed a riding cart, I'm having a lot of pain. After a nap and then laundry and taking care of fishies, and watching one Babylon five episode.

Today I am planning to go shopping with Tom (and get gas) prepping a bit more and making chili meat. It is probably too much for a nap.

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Those movies sound really good! I wonder if they are on DVD & I could get them from my library. Or now that I can afford it, maybe I'll look into paying for Netflix. The first movie (last night's) reminds me of the story in Letters to Juliet. Did you see that? Sweet, with Vanessa Redgrave and Franco Nero, who made such a beautiful couple in Camelot. (I'm pretty sure they coupled up in real life also.)

I think you are completely right about my parts. When things had gotten so bad with my state job, and through the anxiety of being temporary with the county, my journaling was very formal--2 pages following a particular pattern, with almost no parts work. I think it was a kind of self-protection. But now, emoticon , I feel safe and secure, and my parts are coming out to play, which is quite wonderful. They can be an entertaining bunch! And I have parts that really do like making plans. I'm clear, too, that I'm making space in my life for new things--hopefully a new relationship!

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Amanda, they were home by 9. The dance is over at 8:30. Last night I watched a little rom-com on Netflix, "To All the Boys I've Loved Before." It's a coming of age movie. The middle sister writes love letters to boys she has had a crush on. There are 5. Youngest sister decided to mail them to help the middle sister get a boyfriend. All this while the oldest sister has moved to Scotland to go to college. It's cute. It's clean. Brenna could watch it if she wanted too.

Last year I watched "Dumplin". Now that one was an empowering story for girls that don't look like everyone else. Dumpin is the daughter of a former beauty queen. Dumplin ends up entering the pageant her mom is over as a protest. She's joined by other girls that don't fit the mold. They form a wonderful friendship. If you like Dolly Parton songs and drag queens (they have a hand in getting the girls pageant ready and I love it) you'll love Dumplin.

That's what I general do, watch a movie no one cares to watch but me. Dumplin was good enough that I talked my pair into watching it with me and they were not disappointed.

I really hope they make Puddin, the sequel to Dumplin.

I told you Brenna chose clothes she doesn't usually pick, but they really suit her. I did her hair and make up. I made her nervous with that dark lipstick. I usually have her stick to light colors. After she put it on she was pleased with the results. She's outgrowing light pink.

I'm happy you have found the joy in organization. You know that is when you know your doing it right for you. When there is real joy.

I have a theory that your surroundings often reflect your emotional state. You are happy in your job. You find joy in helping people and in supportive management. You've found comfort in your career position. You feel secure with your income. Maybe your younger part is taking pride in helping your surroundings reflect your better emotional state.

I know I'm weird. It's probably some sort of OCD that makes me think that way.



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What a handsome couple! I like Jim's tie, and Brenna's dress, makeup, bracelet and shoes make her look so grown up and sophisticated! I get that it's a smiles and tears moment, a mixture of pride and a little grieving.

emoticon for the support! I was reading with my afternoon coffee, totally into the next Others novel, but with the coffee consumed, had the thought "I could do a timer session or 2 right now." And there was an immediate response from a young-sounding part of "Oh goodie! Let's get more done!" It makes a total difference when I don't try to shame or should or push myself, but break big jobs into these little bitty, easy to accomplish pieces.

So what do you do while Jim and Brenna are boogying the night away? emoticon How late do they stay out? Do you wait up for them?

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And they're off! She looks so grown up. It breaks my heart and makes me proud both at the same time.







Amanda, I'm so proud of you. That's big that you can see the desk top. That timer is really the answer for you.

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No forgiveness needed, my friend. Multiple posts are fun! As will be the glamor pix of your pair!

I'm so pleased. I slept in till about 6:30 this morning, and finished my wonderful book with my morning coffee. (I've just started rereading the fantastic urban fantasy series about The Others by Anne Bishop, starting with Written in Red, an amazing series debut novel!) I did a couple timer sessions, sent some goodies with a brief message to inactive BBs. I've sent different messages and goodies to more active team members. It's all part of the BBs turning 9 this week (and me having more energy, now that the job hunt is done!).

Then I did a nice long & challenging cardio HIIT workout with Amy. I added a new comment on the YouTube page for 35 Minute Fat Blasting Cardio Challenge HIIT Workout www.youtube.com/watch?v=XoH-
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which I shared on the Success thread. Then I made a nice big breakfast w/ Chinese leftovers (from last week, which is why I opted for a salad for lunch yesterday). A few more timer sessions, and I've reached desktop! I'm so pleased; I thought it would take a lot longer. I have lots of follow up work, especially filing, and also actions to take, but I've purged plenty of mail and papers to recycle, pages with a blank side to reuse (mainly in the printer or for shopping lists) or supplies to put away.

With clearing the desk and dealing with mail 2 of my major focuses for February, I may be able to morph it into purging and organizing files, which will likely be a March focus, one that will need lots of time given boxes or papers to sort in various places. But with the month only 1/4 gone, I'm really pleased with my progress. It might seem silly to others, but this timer session (babysteps) approach *totally* works for me! I'm going to brush my teeth, do some reading and take a nap, before moving on to the second half of my day!
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Amanda, I do not envy your commute in funky weather.

Alex, Naproxen is an anti-inflammatory. It's an NSAID (non-steroidal anti-inflammatory drug). Your body may have become immune to the effects of the naproxen. If your using over the counter the doctor can give you a stronger naproxen by prescription, or a drug like Mobic or celebrex (those are brand names both have generics) Talk to your doctor about maybe prescribing you something that's a step up, if the naproxen just isn't working anymore.

This morning we are off to go look for shirts that come down to mid thigh on Brenna for PE days. Then back here to get ready for the Daddy-Daughter dance.

You'll have to forgive my doing extra posts. I'll be back when the dancing duo is gone to show pictures of my pretty pair!! emoticon



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Eva: I am taking the max dose of Naproxen daily, not sure if that's an anti-inflammatory? And yes now that you explain it having your MIL only focus on her children makes sense then. It sounds like it's the best way not to upset the whole balance and not having a big fight. And if the splint will make the wrist weaker int he long term it makes total sense not to use it, except for the few months that the weather is giving you trouble like that. I hope the daddy daughter dance will go great! Looking forward to seeing the pictures!

Amanda: Thank you for your prayers. Cool that you can reuse the application materials as scratch paper! Pity about the taco salad, I've been thinking about adding it to my roster of weekly foods, it's low carb and one of my favorites. Good that it was so fast when you went to Tat's :) Glad the weather was so nice there, until 5! It was nice here too but when we went to get the mail and some food at 7.30 it was storming. I'm glad you were able to get your boots on before you had to get out of the bus again!

Worked the whole day today, did not have a whole lot of pain but enough to make it hard to focus, I did 22 returns when I normally have to do 40, though a few were written objections which take quite a bit longer. I really need to get that back up! I wrote an email to my doctor, explaining what I told you yesterday about the red skin on my knuckles and the nausea. Curious what she'll say. We watched some Babylon 5, and went to the store for a short bit and the mail so I could get my 'mini microscope' that I had ordered on eBay for around $10. It has a magnification of 100x.

I wanted it because I want to hatch my eggs and the baby fish need tiny tiny food called infusoria, which is like tiny algae and copepods and rotifiers that you can't see with the naked eye. I had a jar I was trying to grow it in but when I used the magnifier on it I didn't see a thing, and when I looked at some vinegar eels they were very visible, so it failed. Now I'm very frustrated and I can't wait too long to hatch them because the're already in the dry box longer than I wanted. I will try to start another culture tomorrow with organic vegetable matter for it, but I hope it will work quickly! Otherwise I can always use egg yolk but that makes a royal mess...

Tomorrow I talk to my parents and then Chinese lunch and shopping.

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emoticon Praying hard for pain relief for you, Alex!

Eagerly awaiting pix of your dancing duo, Eva! emoticon emoticon

When I caught up with my statistics at work, I did some purging of papers in my work storage area. Bringing home lots of scratch paper--old application materials printed on one side that I don't need, so reuse by printing on the blank side, plus a few things to keep. Love my organizing!

I had decided against Chinese today, since I still have leftovers, so ran down to a nearby Mexican grill--only to find out they closed on 1/31! Dang. I hadn't been in some months, but had been in the mood for their taco salad. Decided to walk over to Tat's Deli instead, wondering just how long the line would be. (I've learned to avoid going on Fridays, cuz it's popular, and you can spend 10 minutes waiting to get your order in!) But amazingly, I walked right up and ordered! There was a little line when I finished, but I was able to hustle back to work and finish my large chopped salad before my hour was up!

And though cold and windy, it was dry at lunch. Then the sun came out in the afternoon, which was really welcome! I didn't bother switching my shoes for boots like I do on all the rainy days, but between 4:30, when I last looked out the window, and 5:00 it started raining--which I discovered when I left the building! So I started digging to the bottom of my rolling tote while waiting for the bus, and switched footwear while riding the 2 stops to my southbound transfer point. Since I had to stand out in the windy rain, and my umbrella could only keep part of me dry, I was really glad for the extra coverage!

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Amanda, I hate a sticky door. We've had to adjust the plate for our locks for the same reason in the past. I'm glad patience got it fixed and you were out the door on time!

Alex, I'm sorry your hurting. Have you discussed with your doctor a prescription anti-inflammatory? I have a prescription for diclofenac. I don't take it all the time, but it's there if I need it. A friend has Mobic and another has a stronger Naproxen. The pain your not sure is real could be deferred from somewhere else. It's like feeling a toothache in your hand.

I'm the one who told MIL to keep it to her children. She did not bequeath individual items. She said she wanted her assets distributed equally among her 3 children, and if for some reason they could not inherit the child's part will go to her biological grandchild(ren). She also has a provision that sentimental items will be marked and distributed as marked. For example, she's going to put Jim's name on the casket flag from my FIL's funeral. There's a teapot she's sending to me and a ceramic Christmas tree is going to one SIL. So I'm there, just not by name.

This was a clean way for her to make sure that the shop that belonged to her father and the house stays in the family, at least for a while. There are 2 step grandkids, both teens, that have been less than friendly with the family over the last 2 years. She does not intend for them to inherit directly from her. So the way to do that, without there being a big fight, is to do as I instructed her. That means leaving me and her son-in-law out of it. I was just making sure her wishes were honored.

To be fair I've been supposed to wear this splint all the time for almost 18 years now. But it gets in my way and will eventually make the wrist weaker. I've avoid stuff that hard on the wrists this week, but it's the weather. Anyway, I wear it when my arthritis flares for more than a day or 2 and nothing calms it down properly. So when Aspercreme and an NSAID fail me I drag it out. The diclofenac is like Advil's cousin on steroids. It's actually for the discs in my back but happens to address the issue with my wrist since it's mostly for joint inflammation. If the weather would settle I'd be fine and this thing could live in the drawer like it has for the last 10 months.

I'm off to do the shopping today. Tomorrow is the daddy-daughter dance. You can be sure your ladies will get pictures of my pair. They are wearing purple this year. Brenna's dress if far more subtle than in years past, but it fits her current style.







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Eva: I haven't brought the food division idea up yet, I will over the weekend and let you know. Urgh you had to write a will for her? I think I'd be upset if I was left out completely out of a parent in law's will, I would want a mention that they realize I am part of the family. It doesn't have to be money but just a mention. It sounds like once it's notarized it will be all ready! From what you tell us I think helping your mom with a budget is right up your alley! I'm sorry you have trouble with your arthritis, I can only imagine a little bit how much paint that would be.

Amanda: Oh not being able to lock the door is a terrible pain! We have a 'sticky door' too, so I know how that goes, and it's so frustrating! Great that your apartment complex is so quick about maintenance requests! My old complex they would maybe take three days to come. I'm so impressed those routines are working so well for you!!

Today the face pain was back full bore, and I also have pain in my joints (and the middle knuckle of my fingers are red and a tiny bit swollen on both sides) and a non-face pain headache (I can tell the difference now) and some pain, of which I'm not sure if it's 'real', on the left side of my face in my jaw... And I felt feverish but the thermometer showed a quite normal temp..

I couldn't manage after 9.30 AM so I wrote the boss that I needed to stop working and I might get back to work later in the day. I went to bed and slept on straight until 1, and then got back to work. So I only used 3 hours of leave (half an hour of lunch). But I have pain everywhere and it's a lot worse than the fibro which was bad, and is going straight through max doses of Naproxen and Tylenol. We watched some Babylon five and after that I was able to connect my Misfit to their app, which had worked fine at first and then stopped working. It's working again now, I hope for longer!

If I feel like this tomorrow I might go to urgent care.

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Alex, hurray for working a full day and creating space! emoticon on both counts! emoticon

Eva, glad you finished MIL's will and feel confident about being able to help your mom trim her budget. emoticon emoticon about the wrist pain; hope you do OK with the splint.

I had a couple of panicked minutes this morning as I was leaving for work, and I couldn't lock my door. Sometimes it starts sticking and I have to push or pull or lift on the door to get it to house right, but I had no problems until it just wouldn't go! I finally locked it by just twisting the knob from inside--which never feels secure to me, but I had to go to work. I ran down the hill, sprinting when the signal changed to walk, just making it across the last big intersection. Luckily the rains had slowed the bus, so it was later than I was, since I didn't get there until after the usual pick-up time.

I called from the bus and then from work, leaving messages for the management office explaining what happened, and asking if maintenance could look at it today, please. When I called again after lunch (first 2 early morning calls were before they open at 9), I was told they would get to it today. Sure enough, key worked like a charm when I got home. They were about to close, so I gave a quick call with a big " emoticon emoticon " to them and to maintenance.

Kept up with my usual evening routines-- emoticon Running out of steam now, but I want to do a little more reading before bed. Goodnight & sweet dreams, all! emoticon emoticon

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Amanda, sometimes it's just environmental shifts that make us feel off or aggressive.it might not be you, but just something in the air, so to speak. I know around here it's all about the politics. Even if it's not being discussed there's a weird vibe in the air.

Alex, I hope that your pain stays managed. Do you have a follow-up appointment with a doctor after the MRI?

Simple meals for Kevin's night to cook might be best. I hope they take to the idea.

Well, yesterday ended up with me at my mother in laws writing a will. I never should have told them I made it through Wills and Estates in college. Anyway, it's done. But I have a feeling my married sister in law may not be pleased. She only included biological children and grandchildren. All that's left is for her to get it notarized. I made sure it's all in her handwriting since she chose to fill out a form rather than go to a lawyer. It's legal here as long as it's notarized. It can be on just a sheet of notebook paper as long as it's been notarized.

Next on the agenda for parents, my mother has asked me to help her do a budget to live on after she retires. So she's getting me a list of bills and the average cost so I can see what I can do to whittle down her monthly expenses. It won't be hard, but she's wanting to drop her landline, and without a decent cell plan, that just won't work. She's also asking me to help her cut back on cable and internet. I'm going to have to take a look at what she has vs what she needs/wants and go from there. This is an old game for me. Jim and I have already done it.

Today I may treck up and pick up Mr. Charlie's taxes. He's ready for that to be done. He got in his final paperwork.

Arthritis in my right wrist is bothering me today. I have on this stupid splint. I'm not sure which is more annoying, the splint or the discomfort when I take it off. But it won't hinder me for anything but cooking and dishes, so I'll wear it, annoyed or not. Jim keeps reminding me if I'm supposed to wear it every day. And I keep reminding him he's supposed to walk a mile every day. So pot stop calling the kettle black...






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Eva: you are probably right about the therapist spouting Bible quotes because most clients are churchgoers, Salem is, especially compared to Portland, very right-wing and very Christian. Your idea about cooking sounds really good! Kevin is currently cooking once a week and not a low carb meal, and he's not a great cook (I'm teaching him some though) but maybe we can do scrambled eggs he could make once a week,t hat should be doable even if we add a bit of meat or bacon. That would be nice and low carb and Tom can have toast with it for carbs. When I got my Misfit I did a whole load of research, unfortunately right now it is not syncing and I am emailing with tech support. I am glad your Mom's taxes are done!! It's good he thought about it before Valentine's! I made baskets, and we'll go out to dinner, we're not buying each other gifts, not really enough money to do something nice and if we need something not so expensive we already have it.

Amanda: I agree that first chapter of 'You Can Heal Your Life' sounds like the reason I have problems with the ideas that you can manifest things, I agree it can look a lot like 'blaming the victim', and I think that manifesting things consciously with the goal to do so is something humans don't have very much experience with as a species and that we do most of it unconsciously, which ends up being negative things. So I do believe focusing on making it work can help but that there is still a very significant chance that you won't manifest anything good, but it might stop the focus of your unconscious to manifest horrible things! Not sure how to explain it, but I think some of the ideas are good, but that people don't have so much control that they can be blamed for what they manifest, and other people's free will is also often involved. I can so admire that you were still doing all the things you have made your new habits, while you were being irritated, and managed to move your mood! You're doing so incredibly well!

Tom got me to work at 8, and I managed to be there until 5! Had a WW meeting, gained 0.4 pounds over 2 weeks, I'll take it! I got the outcome of the MRI right before it was time to leave. There was nothing visible on it except a sign that my ear was already starting to build fluid again even though there is an ear tube. Sounds like the ear tube won't be able to come out any time soon. She did say that it was still very possible for me to have Trigeminal Neuralgia, I was worried about hearing again that it's all in my head. But an MRI to find proof of Trigeminal Neuralgia needs to have special magnification, focus on the ear/just below and to the side, and have injected contrast. This MRI had none of those three, but I don't think I want to spend another $100 on that second type when I already spent $100 to find out that at least, phew, I didn't have anything dangerous.

Tom and me went to Love Love Teriyaki and I had veggies and chicken, and too much teriyaki sauce I added myself, too much sugar and sooo good! Then we got home and watched some tv, and I was able to take care of the fish and to get stuff organized in our cupboards so that a lot of stuff that first was in other places now is corralled in there, including some pans, several stacks of cheap tupperware-like containers, my coffee grinder and a basket with all the lids. Then I was able to move other stuff away so now the stove is empty instead of only the first two burners. Now it's time to go to bed, and -again- I'm late, but tomorrow I can sleep in for 1/2 hour and I work from home, that will help.

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Alex, like Eva said, I like Louise Hay's affirmations a lot--although I don't agree with everything she says. I love You Can Heal Your Life (especially the colorfully illustrated gift edition), but I recommend people skip the first chapter "What I Believe" that does talk about how our thoughts create our reality, which I think gets perilously close to "blaming the victim" for the bad things that happen. I have had positive results with her affirmations, and some of them resonate strongly with me. emoticon it sounds like you've got a good therapist. I like that he's open to your spiritual path & that he's strongly encouraging you make self-care a priority!

Kudos to you for helping family and Mr. Charlie with taxes, Eva. And yes, kudos also on the large part you've played in cultivating Brenna's good head and good heart.

I don't know where my irritation came from this afternoon, as I was walking home from the bus stop. While I was tempted to blow everything off, I sliced a Pink Lady apple (yesterday's was Ambrosia--really good!), made my tea, did my meditation, and did timer sessions with cleaning, desk sorting, and Spark goodie giving. I felt much better for having made progress!

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Amanda, your timer sessions will have your desk clear before you know it.

I'm glad you are getting 2 new people to the unit! I'm sure it will be nice for you to catch up with the man you shadowed in the early days, and I'm sure Ian will like the new balance in the mix.

Alex, thank you! I've made a note on the taxes so I'll make sure to check the right boxes. You are correct, he has no dependents.

I'm glad you found a therapist and you seem to mesh well. If he's like most he just defaults to the Bible quotes because most of his clients are probably churchgoers. Amanda uses Louise Hay affirmations from time to time along with some of her other self-help methods. About cooking when you get back to feeling yourself, maybe you can split the work with Kevin while he's there and have a set amount each of you cooks in a week, plus microwave meals. You tend to eat out once per week. That would put you to 6 at home meals per week, 2 for you, 2 for Kevin, and then microwave meals on days that are "Tom's day to cook" . Give it some thought. It might work for you and give your budget wiggle room.

I 've had both a misfit and a Fitbit in the past. I liked both. I've also considered a jawbone. I haven't bought anything yet. I think I'm going to have to do a fair amount of research. But I know Fitbit does hold up to its warranty policy. I think that's why I'm leaning that direction.

Thank you about Brenna. I have a surprisingly level headed 11-year old. I think it means I'm doing my job well!

Mom's taxes are complete and the IRS accepted the e-return. Now we wait! Today I pay bills and shop for Jim Valentine's gift. We are practical people. I think in 15 years I've gotten flowers twice. This year he has a book. It came in the mail yesterday. At least he shopped ahead this year! Usually, he runs to the store the day of and brings home floppy PJs with pockets. He needs a new corded drill, so I'll be looking at that.

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Eva: For a deceased spouse in the year they died, you file as Married filing Joint as the survived spouse with the deceased spouse, and you mark on the return that the person deceased that year. The year they died Mr Charlie can take any things like IRA subtractions (most likely thing she might have) the same way as if she was alive. The 2020 year Mr Charlie would likely need to file as Single or Head of Household if he has a qualifying dependent for head of household, which can be an adult relative. I assume he does not have a qualifying dependent child under 18, if so there is a special status 'Widower with a qualifying child' which would allow him to file as if he was Married Filing Joint for two more years, but he'd have to have a child living at home with him. I hope this made sense!

Your Brenna is so smart, it's hard to remember sometimes how young she still is! She's doing great! I am also glad you've slept so well recently! I had a fitbit and liked it, but I lost it 10 days ago or so (it was a One and they need to stay in their clip otherwise they fall and the clip is not very good for that). Now I have a $13 Misfit Flash which does the same thing, it does everything I wanted it to do (insertable battery instead of rechargeable, shows time, wearable as a pendant, syncs with Sparkpeople, somewhat water resistant) and it was really cheap! It's older, from 2014, but still supported (not sure how much longer). I got really lucky too, I saw the guy selling them for so cheap because he had lucked into some for low cost, normally new ones are about $25, a bit down or up. But Fitbit is pretty good and syncs with Sparkpeople too, including the food entered in Sparkpeople syncs with the Fitbit app and the Fitbit steps sync with Sparkpeople, so it's win-win all around, just a bit too high cost for me.

Amanda: We got new mattresses last year and it helps me sleep sooo much better! I'm glad Epic was doing better, and it sounds like your new two colleagues will be helpful! And nice that you alreazdy know one-of them and think well of him. Yay for some timer sessions! My therapist this morning suggested I don't just do timer sessions for cleaning (which I don't because I prefer working an hour on something, focus on it once and have it done with) but for doing self-care, like being creative, for say 15 mins first thing in the day so you already have some 'positive me-time' under your belt before starting a hectic day with lots of demands.

So I had therapy at 7.30, which went well. I think he liked helping me because he went 10 minutes over time, and therapists never forget about the time. I had put enough extra time on my leave request that it is not a problem. He said my anti binge plan was very ambitious and that it would probably help to choose one thing at a time, and not the whole list at first. We also thought over that though reading Dailykos about politics (liberal news site) is distracting, it is not something that helps me feel good so I should not be using that, probably, to stave off a binge. Also he talked about being 'aligned with your purpose' and it was surprisingly New Age for a therapist who I can tell is Christian. He gave me a Bible quote about manifesting what you focus your thoughts on the most (you will reap what you sow) and when I told him I was Wiccan he did respect that and did not talk with Bible quotes anymore but with Louise Hay.

I've always felt somewhat uncomfortable with Louise Hay because it felt to me like that train of thought can end up making people blame you for health challenges, but I don't think she means it that way, but it still worries me. But self-compassion is always better than the opposite, and he gave me the idea of doing affirmations. I feel really dumb when saying something to myself in the mirror that I really don't believe, but Tom said he wants to help me by saying good things about me to me before we sleep. I would like to try that, and I really like that Tom is expanding his positive role a bit. Because Clay (the therapist) and me also talked about overextending and there is a lot going on for me with that, as a caregiver. I have to start focusing a lot more on me, to prevent these health problems, which I cannot blame on Tom but I'm sure it has not helped. I had already stopped cooking when the pain was so bad, and he did not complain at all, I am just worried he's going to expect me to go back to it when I'm all healed and maybe I shouldn't. There are lots of Atkins frozen meals so I don't necessarily have to cook to eat low carb (which I really need), it's just more expensive to eat from the microwave.

After that I worked for 6 hours. I was exhausted for not sleeping enough last night (7 hours, wayyy too little for me, with chronic fatigue) and in my 30 mins lunch break I napped, and it helped enough to be able to finish at 3. WE were going to see 1917 but Tom had a credenza and said he couldn't do it, and instead I came along to help him get his blood pressure checked. He hasn't had his ADHD meds in months because the last time he was at the doctor that time, it was high, so the psychiatrist could not prescribe them until he had done a better blood pressure check. And I kept trying to remind him and forgetting and he kept forgetting and it's been since before Christmas! It will be good if he gets his ADHD meds again, I'm sure.

After that went to nap again, got up at 7.30 which is why I'm still up at almost 11. Took care of the fish. I want to hatch the eggs I gathered from the clown killifish because I was only able to get a pair, and I am hoping for 4 for my tank, but I need to have food for them, which starts out of organic material which you leave in a glass jar in a sunny windowsill for 5 or so days. But mine is not growing the small watery beasties that it is supposed to create, I have a 45 magnification glass and it does not show, so I need to wait :( Otherwise I'm all ready!

Tomorrow I work from the office, it will be taco day maybe I'll be able to get a taco salad. One of the low carb foods I love the most.

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Alex, so wonderful you could work through the whole day! emoticon emoticon

Eva, yep, that's one smart cookie you're raising! emoticon emoticon How nice you've been sleeping better. emoticon My new bed & mattress (from 2-3 years ago?) & my frequent mantra and tapping routines have me sleeping really well. I get up 1 or more times a night to pee, but I can always drop right back off.

Epic did better today, just a very brief problem this afternoon, so I was able to catch up on a bunch of statistics. I've heard the 2 people who are being hired to join our unit, who both have a lot of Epic experience, so they'll get up to speed quickly. They've both worked at dental clinics, so may need training on family planning and WIC (especially the new Cascades system for the latter), but will bring a wealth of knowledge. One of them is a fellow I shadowed in those early, early days as I was just learning my job. He was nice, informative and has always been helpful and ready to answer questions. He'll also bring some new energy to our currently all-female unit, so Ian won't feel so outnumbered! emoticon

Did a few timer sessions tonight, including my first ones on the desk. It's piled high and will take many sessions to clear the clutter, but I'm excited to have begun, if just barely! emoticon Have a Wonderful Wednesday, my friends!

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Amanda, your day sounds like a colossal pain. I hope today your software runs as it's supposed to do.

Alex, I hope all goes well with Tom's BP check. His anxiety must be through the roof. Does his ADHD escalate it? I hope Therapy goes well and maybe the therapist will help you add to your list.

If I get in over my head with anyone I'll send you that spark mail. Thank you for offering! Most of it appears straight forward with the exception of filing for a deceased spouse.

Brenna enjoyed her first meeting for Beta. They elected next year's officers. She told me "I didn't know any of them very well so I listened to the speeches and voted for the candidate that sounded most prepared." Good strategy kiddo!

Practiced yoga this morning. It's going to rain today so I'll either get in a second practice with Adrienne or do an indoor walk. It depends on how I feel when I'm done with my mother's taxes.

I've slept really hard for the last couple of nights. I'm not complaining but I've actually made it all the way to my alarm and only woken up once in the night. I hope this particular streak continues! I've been considering getting a Fitbit again just to monitor my sleep patterns.











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Eva: I'm glad to hear fitness video makers do often look at their feedback, that makes it worth it. I'm used to doing Valentine's only for lovers in the Netherlands which is why I was a little nervous, but Tom said it was fine. My MRI results will take 5 to 7 days. So glad volunteering went well, I hope she enjoyed it too! That's supposed to be the good part about volunteering, helping others makes you feel better :) Everyone should have chocolate-dipped strawberries for tailgate food! They're the best! I hope all those taxes go smoothly. If you have any questions about federal tax returns, feel free to send me a Sparkmail! And I hope the cleaning house went well.

Amanda: Wow that sounds like a major pain, having to send people home or calling to have to reschedule must make people pretty upset and having to calm them down was probably not easy. I wonder why so many users wanted to go online today? Glad that WIC worked! And you are so doing really well with your meditations and timer sessions! I love apples, mostly Gala's and Fuji's, maybe I should go to TJs and try to get some different ones! It's the only high carb thing I'll have even on a good low carb day, I feel I need some fruit somewhere and berries are so expensive!

Was able to work the whole day today! Had a very complicated caller and spent 2 hours figuring out her account!! I'll have to try and call her back tomorrow and try to explain what I figured out, which is not going to make her happy (she was upset about the amount she had owed and why after amending her return she only got so little back).

At 4.45 my friend T, who I did ride shares with when I was still working in the office 5 days a week, took me home. It was nice hearing how he was doing, he is the only person from Salem that I now know apart from Kevin and Tom as a friend, though he moved about 30 mins away recently, not in Salem. He invited me and Tom to dinner sometimes, I have to figure out how to make it work with that Tom can't tell often ahead of time if he'll be able to do something like that.. It's going to be hard to plan around. Maybe suggest a cheapish restaurant we'll pay for so no one has to cook and then be told we're not coming or cook here and have Tom have what he calls a credenza (I know it's some kind of closet but he uses it to mean 'a huge crisis' which happens about 2 days a week, so yeah, that's hard.

After that I wanted to do some shopping and Tom had a 'credenza' and couldn't manage to take me. So I left when it was twilight and when it got darker I realized Tom had not left the headlights on during the day as he normally does, and I had no idea how to turn them on. Called him to ask him how to put them on but it made little sense, so I was able to turn on the brights (those were easy to find) as well as the foglights, which made the icon that I thought was the brights but was not,, and he had me come home. He drove me to the stores with the right lights on! And showed me how to turn them on. Urgh, I need to make notes!

Now it's way late for bed, again. I have therapy tomorrow at 7.30 AM and made my list what to do to prevent binges though it's not as many ideas as I'd have liked. At 9 AM or before I'll start work and it's my short day, normally I stop at 3.30 but tom and me were going to 1917 (he's hugely interested in WWI history) but we agreed today that he was not doing well enough for that. Instead we're going to get him to get his bloodpressure checked which has been waiting for 2 or 3 months now and he's not been able to do it before! And he can't get his ADHD meds without having a good bloodpressure, it was high last time. So I hope that goes smoothly.

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Friday our main scheduling system, Epic, wouldn't load for the first hour, so we couldn't look up patients, make appointments or confirm the date or time they were scheduled for. Well today, it was after 11 before any of us could log on--clinics too, so they couldn't check in, or pull up patient records for providers, ending up sending a bunch of people home & calling people to say "We have to reschedule your appt, but we can't do that right now." Then once we could finally get in, everything was excruciatingly slow, like a minute for each link to work, when it's normally instantaneous. As an email explained, thousands of users all along the West Coast were trying to get on at the same time. It finally settled down and speeded up, but it was pretty frustrating for ~ half the day. At least WIC uses a different system, so we could register clients and make appts for them. It was nice to be able to help some callers! At first we were saying "call back in an hour" then the message became "call back this afternoon"!

Did my (new) normal after work: meditate, make tea,do a few timer sessions. Today I added having an apple for a snack. I got singles of several varieties at TJ's, and tried the Kiku today. It was nice. I'm thinking I may read a little and try to get to bed a little on the early side. Wishing everyone a Terrific Tuesday!

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Amanda, I find that they usually do read the comments to know what viewers want to see. If you happen to be in a Facebook group of their they ask you to give constructive criticism. Many of them sell programs on their websites. The freebies you get reflect the workout in the newest program. The comments help her build future workouts and programs.

I'm sorry you lost your laundry card. What a pain. But I'm glad you took it all in stride as a reminder of your joy in your organization.

I love Burts Bees body lotion! I got some in my Christmas "beauty bag" the last 2 years.

Alex: I'm sure Kevin won't take your gifts the wrong way. We often give friends Valentine pick me ups. And I know he's not a girl but Galentines is a big deal, where you celebrate with your friends.

When will you get your MRI results?

I lost my bet. But volunteering went well. So 3 hours down just 7 hours to go. Brenna has her first club meeting this morning.

Yesterday was family fun making football food. Well sort of. I doubt most tailgate parties have chocolate-dipped strawberries as tailgate food.

This morning's yoga session as a simple set of sun salutations. I think I'm going to keep this up through February.

This week I do taxes for my mom and probably Mr. Charlie, my neighbor, if he has all his information in. Today I clean house.







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Eva: I like Babylon 5 a lot, I watched a few episodes here and there in the past but getting everything in order is quite good! Urgh cats are a pain with that! (waking people up early). I'm lucky that Emily tends to just gently lay her paw on my face and that is all she does, and if I ignore it because I'm asleep or pretend to be asleep she goes back to waiting and does it again about half an hour later. But I normally feed her between 6.30 and 7 and if I sleep in to 11 she becomes quite insistent! I'm glad you found so many safe treats without peanuts! I also got some stuff for valentine goodie bags for all three of us (Tom doesn't think Kevin would get the wrong idea). I hope the basketball game was fun. I don't know Mary Higgins Clark, though I might remember titles of books.

Amanda: Sorry you've been having so much trouble with Amy's workouts! I htink you give really good feedback and I hope Amy uses it! Sounds like you were able to do a lot on Saturday! Not finding your card and then realizing you have to get back to get a $5 bill instead of $10 is so frustrating! I hope you can find the motivation with this to focus on your goal.

Had an MRI today, first went to get gas and shop at Walmart and the Dollar Store. I found three pants at Walmart for $7 each! And a tshirt for $5. One of them is a pair of fake leather pants, Tom says they look very good (he likes that kind of stuff). They all fit perfectly and normally pants for me are 20 or more! Got some Valentine basket stuff at the Dollar Store but forgot to get the white plastic box I need to use for hatching my fish eggs that I gathered, so I might have to go in after work tomorrow.

The MRI went perfectly, I'm not claustrophobic so it was easy. After that we watched more Babylon 5, I did laundry and prep for the week, and started on my list for therapy Tuesday morning of things I want to do to prevent binging. Took care of the fish and now it's time for bed! Tomorrow working from the office, I hope it goes better than Friday!

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Ran errands yesterday, strangely had longer checkout lines in Target than Costco! (Not enough checkers.) Didn't find the Burt's Bees Vitamin E Oil with lemon I like, so got a couple new BB items to try--hand cream and face oil. They're pricey, but I can afford it. I also got some silly but fun St. Patty's accessories--earrings and hair ties--not pricey, but it's so nice to be able to spend on just for fun things, after so many years of trying to only get what I needed or what was on sale. Got a nap and did a number of timer sessions, both cleaning & sorting. Vacuumed for the first time in too long, which makes everything look so much better! So productive & satisfying Saturday.
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Had an upset this morning, all of my own making. Went to take laundry down & found my laundry card was not in the bag with detergent, stain remover & dryer sheets--where it should always be. Checked on the couch by the computer where I sometimes set it until I log in what I used on my spending spreadsheet (even though I'm caught up except for Fri & Sat). Looked a bunch of places, couldn't find, so went to buy a new one. Turns out I couldn't use my $10 bill; they will only take a $5 for a new card which costs $2, since you get a balance of $3. So I had to tote the basket back to the apartment, go in & get a new bill out of my billfold, then to the machine to get a card, then down to the laundry room. I'm so much better at putting things away--but somehow I didn't manage it last weekend, and I paid the price. Trying to turn disappointment and aggravation into a stronger determination to put this--and other things--in their proper places when I'm done with them!
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Yes, Imbolc Blessings! (I hadn't checked the dates & was thinking it would be tomorrow, so no plans yet emoticon )

Eva, I love the penny bet emoticon and the groundhog/football musings!
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Alex, hope you can resolve Satin's issues easily with the tree oil.
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I'm feeling proud of myself. I wanted a challenging workout, so did a new one (from 1 week ago, that I actually tried once already) that's 30 minutes HIIT with weights. The majority I liked a lot, but again the end was less satisfying, in fact 2 things I didn't like--one atypical for Amy, but the second a problem I've had before. I have no idea if she ever reads the comments posted on YouTube (almost everything I see, and I don't spend time reading them all, is a variation on Thanks & Loved it), or if anyone will understand or agree, but I shared this:

"Tried it again, still loving the standing section & seeing which weights work best for different moves to challenge muscles but protect joints. Modified floor movements, but what struck me as unusual was your comment about not needing water. I've always appreciated your hydration reminders and example (unlike other trainers), so was startled by any intimation that water is for wusses, since I'm sweating & sipping whenever I can. It also hit me today that it troubles me at the end of workouts when you've said this is the last move, but then add something else. By this point my joints are starting to ache & my muscles are trembling, & my safety issues get triggered. I'd much rather know that there is more to come, so I can pace and protect myself. (Yeah, survivor issues can suck sometimes.)"

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Amanda, I'm sorry you had a bad day. Hopefully, you won't need your cell before Monday.

I'm with you on needing active rest. I like most of Amy's videos but there are a few like the one you name, where I think she was aiming for the former P90X and Insanity crowds so it was intense all the way through.

I hope today is better.

Alex, I hope you have a good weekend. Maybe the rest will help the face pain subside.

I never really watched Babylon 5.

I'm doing much better today. Well if my hoard of cats would behave I'd be shy of awesome. They woke me up at 10 minutes til 5.

I made it through shopping yesterday and got in some exercise. I went through the Valentine aisle and finished Brenna's goody bag. I was kind of excited about the selection of safe treats this time. They had a few new to us things.

We're off to see Single A basketball this morning. Jimmy and I made a penny bet on who would win the top spot in the girl's tournament lol. We're watching 2 games. One for third place and then for the top seat. Brenna's school is out of the tournament so we don't really know much about the other teams.

I'm a little sad today, in the author's world people will be seriously mourning. Mary Higgins Clark passed. She was a favorite of mine in my early teens. She was 92.

Tomorrow is Superbowl and Groundhog day. I wonder if the quarterback sees his shadow of that means 6 more weeks of hearing about football emoticon



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Eva: I put all my sticky notes in a note program but yes, I know fibro fog still though not as badly as before. I'm so glad you are feeling better! I hope that your day went better, and I agree with your rant! I don't follow 'normal' news, we have no tv channels or newspaper, but what I've seen journalists tend to not focus on the important things, in my view, either.

Amanda: Sorry you left your cell phone at work, do you have to do without the phone all weekend? Pity that the workout was not having any rest between moves, it sounds like I'd not do well with it either! I'm glad you left a comment sharing your experience, I think that would be good feedback for her.

I was right that the manager would not be able to give me the time for travelling there but he did say how sorry he was I had to go through all that. I went to the class and worked some after I got back, but it had exhausted me and I had bad face pain and nausea. So at 2.15 I had to give up on working. When I take the meds they generally quite a while to work, and I even ate breakfast on top of them! I napped the whole afternoon.

When I got up we watched some Babylon 5 (Kevin is a huuuge fan and is going to run a game for Tom and me set in that universe) and I took care of the fish. it looks like Satin has a fin fungus so I added a little tea tree oil and salt to the clean water when I changed it, that should hopefully mean I won't need the antifungal I have for worse cases.

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Oh, Alex, what a pain! emoticon they made it so hard to attend the class!

Eva, glad you felt up to "real clothes" today! Continue getting better.

Well that was disappointing! On top of leaving my cell phone at work, I just tried a new to me workout by Amy from 3 years ago that didn't follow the usual pattern of activity-short rest-activity-short rest. There was no resting, and when I started gasping and feeling shaky I stopped, found the workout on YouTube and added this comment: I love most of your workouts, but with no rest between moves, I got dizzy and nauseous, and had to quit at the 17-minute mark. I'm used to your 45 seconds of activity then 15 of active rest, or even 50 and 10, but not one move after another with no break.

The other comments I saw were "Loved it" & "Great" while I'm thinking "Hated it" even if I didn't say that. To each her own, right?

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Amanda, I'm glad you had more energy by the end of the day. I checked, all the planets are direct. We all live in different locales of the US so I wouldn't put it off to environmental. Maybe it's Mother Earth having a hormonal shift!

Alex, good luck with your class today. I hope your supervisor gives you credit for travel time.

I know fibrofog. I have that when a flare goes on for an extended period of time. It's like a fog rolling in, slow but I can see it coming. That's why I need stock in 3M. I have sticky notes EVERYWHERE on my desk to remind me to do things. Plus I have prompts on my digital and physical calendars. Anyway, this wasn't fibro-fog. It's what I experience with anemia, but instead of gradual, it came on suddenly.

I'm feeling better. I'm not top-notch, but I don't feel like I've left half of me somewhere else. The issues I experienced Wednesday have subsided and I'm getting back to normal. I'm going to do my shopping today, as normal. I got up and put on "real clothes" as opposed to athletic pants. Sometimes that perks me on up.

I have a silly rant:

I've been keeping up with the impeachment hearings. The things being reported have me shaking my head. Why do I need to know if someone got chocolate milk instead of regular milk or water? The rules state they can only have milk or water, which I don't understand that either. Why do I need to know how long it takes Lindsey Grahmn to potty? (There was a big discussion as to what he was doing in the toilet for 20 minutes. Well, it's a toilet. I'm going to hazard a guess that the man is regular and took his Metamucil that morning.) And If Marsha Blackburn is going to read a book instead of listening to the arguments, and you're going to report on it, could someone at least tell me what she's reading? I might want to take a look at the synopsis myself.

I know, it's silly. I'm just shaking my head and what is considered newsworthy...





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Eva: I fell with the wheel straight in the middle of my back, just below the shoulder blades, and today I've been sore but not so much in pain I was not able to work. I was going to give up an hour before the end of my shift due to face pain, but then I had to make urgent arrangements and ended up staying until the end. I am sorry you're having perimenopause escalation symptoms,t hat's really the worst :( I remember foggy-brained from when I was new to fibro, it got less bad later, and it was very very frustrating. I hope it's going to be over soon!

Amanda: Thank you for the well wishes. Sorry you've been so tired and sleep was not enough. I think it was very smart to just take the time you needed and make sure you don't get it worse! And good that you still got some stuff done, and even a workout on a sort-of sick day!

So, I started work at the normal time and it went all right until about 2.30 when the face pain started to come back. I was going to stop an hour before I would be done, but just as I was about to tell the manager, I got a surprise email that I am required to take a class tomorrow in a place that is 'ADA accessible' because their horribly steep and high ramp is ADA compliant, but that does not mean it's accessible to me. So I had to go call the building and arrange for their other option which is for someone driving to let me off in the nextdoor underground parking structure (where you can't park without permit) and then have someone from the building come there and accompany me through the doors and to the elevator and back to their 'open', non-locked out area, to take that class, and then 1.5 hours later back. And I can't walk from DOR to the underground parking garage the way I'm now. So Tom is going to have to take me there and come back for me, a major pain!

I hope the boss will give me the travel time as work time because I wouldn't have had to do it if it was not for my disabilities and health, but I don't think he's allowed to. Oh well. So I managed until 4.45 PM when I could log out. Tomorrow I'm starting from home, it is my normal from home day and otherwise Tom will have to drive four times instead of twice. He'll take me back home to work after the class. After the shift I went to lie in bed, the face pain was pretty bad but I didn't want to take another pill in between the morning and night ones without permission from my doctor. So, I emailed her just before writing this.

I took care of the fish, and found a fourth fry! I'm going to have to start asking my fish store if they'll take home grown ember tetra. I can't handle that many in just a 10 gallon tank and I have no room for a bigger tank or a second tank, the small extra ones I have for Satin and the other fry are taking up all other available space. Otherwise maybe I'll offer some for 'free to a good home', though you can never really tell if it's going to be a good home with aquaria. But it's the same with other animals, you can never tell.

Now it's time for bed, and I hope the whole class and trip to it tomorrow goes smoothly.

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So weird that we were all really low on energy at the same time, if for different reasons. I hope both of you continue to improve.

As I mentioned in my status, although I slept over 8 hours (when my norm even on vacation is 6.5 to 7), I woke up tired, wanting to go back to sleep, so I called in sick. I've been resting, reading, drinking lots of tea and seltzer, finally began perking up a little by late afternoon, and when I laid down for another nap, couldn't get to sleep. So I kept taking it easy, did a couple of timer sessions, made a call on a minor financial account that had to be during east coast business hours, and just did Amy's 13-minute dumbbell standing abs workout.

It felt like I brushed up against something that could have made me sick if I hadn't heeded the signals, and let myself rest and replenish energy. I don't think I'll have a problem going in tomorrow. So I'm pretty happy that I got a little bit done (dining table is looking better!), and took good care of myself.

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Amanda, sometimes a book is emotionally exhausting. That's all there is to it. I'm hoping you rested.

Alex, I'm sorry your hurting. sounds like you hit your tail bone. I hope you were able to make it into work today.

I took it easy yesterday. I did a short stretch today, but I'm still feeling very off so another day of rest for me. I'm foggy-brained, but not light-headed like yesterday. I haven't been like this in a very long time. Since I was in high school. So I did what girls do, I called my mom and described what's happening since some of it is new for me. Well, it's just perimenopause escalating. She did pretty much the same thing. So while I don't like it by any means (no woman does) at least I have a fair idea of what's going on and know how to handle myself from this point forward.



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I didn't mention it because I thought it was not going to be a big deal, but yesterday struggling with the ice maker line while sitting I fell backwards on my small wheelchair wheel. Even though I was sitting and all I had to do when I fell backwards was to sit back up I couldn't, Tom had to come over and pull me off it. Then after writing I could not sleep when the pain started, and at 4 AM I called my boss's work number that I had to call in sick. Today I've slept and slept and slept, so now I'm still awake at almost 11. Didn't do very much, in a lot of pain, though it's starting to get a little better now.

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I'm really glad you are taking care of you, Eva! emoticon emoticon And I'm glad you are saying "No" to MIL emoticon (OK, that's not you, that's fantasy me emoticon ). Funny it's kind of the same with me . . .

Not sure why, but I think I need the night off. Had all kinds of plans when I journaled this morning, but now that I've finished the next-to-last Jane Yellowrock book, Dark Queen with the blood duel between the European & American vampires finally ended & Jane dying of magical cancer (I was 2 chapters from the end when my bus arrived at my home stop, so I had to keep going once I got here), I just have no energy for all of it. It just feels like I need to listen to my body & let it be okay to rest.

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Amanda, It sounds like you had an excellent day yesterday! I'm really proud of how you've made your goals. I hope you are finding comfort in the routine.

Alex, I know what a pain it is to think you have it and then you don't. I hope you have an icemaker by tonight.

To be fair, the only reason I have all my documents is we are paperless on just about everything. And the HSA sens stuff out ASAP. I found, as a result, that being paperless also means that I get my documents a week early. So I'm saving trees and getting stuff done. Win-win.

I'll have to do my mother and my neighbor's taxes plus help SIL, Rhonda, complete hers in the near future. They all have a few documents still out.

I still refuse to do my MIL's. She was really ugly about it all last year. If I'm doing you a favor, don't be ugly.

Today I'm paying bills and writing out the Goddess of the Month to be posted probably tomorrow and getting together the team challenge and newsletter. I plan for the challenge and the goddess threads to kind of go together. I'm hoping it will be fun for February.

I skipped this morning's yoga session. I admit I'm not feeling great. It's my TOM and I'm pretty sure that my iron pill isn't keeping up since I'm craving red meat and chocolate. So today, aside from the bills and regular family duties like dinner and laundry, it will be a kind of self-care day for me. I enjoy research and writing. I can keep my feet propped up while I do it.

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Not able to write much. Just spent hours trying to get the ice maker line to work. I had the line connected but hten it turned out that the tee piece was leaking. And there is no way to try it out before you connect the line. It's easy enough to try again, saw off the leaking tee piece, and get another tee piece and the 1/4 inch connector nut and stuff for it, but after hours of work it's SO FRUSTRATING. And really really really late for bed.

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Alex, so glad the meds are helping and you were able to work longer! And that you didn't miss the appt, they could take you late. Also very cool that your boss is understanding about your health issues and the impact that has on your productivity.

Eva, I'm impressed you are ready for taxes! In one of my timer sessions this evening I began a file for the mail that pertains to taxes. I'm not sure I've got everything yet, though.

Yes, today was *so* much better! Not only were all 5 of us there, but we had an all-staff meeting in the morning, so calls went to the sites from 8 until 10:30. Since they let us out before 10, I got to do a longer workout than usual--both weights and the bike. And whereas my bike speed and distance has been falling off for a while, yesterday even falling under 2 miles in 10 minutes, today both sessions were high energy, and I biked over 2.25 miles both times!
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Then, because it was surprisingly sunny at lunch, I decided to got to Tat's Deli today instead of tomorrow for my favorite chopped salad with turkey Tat'strami (made in house) with grilled mushrooms. With their thick, creamy balsamic dressing, garbanzos, shaved carrots and tomato slices over romaine, and at less than $10 for a large salad, it's a healthy choice and a great deal for lunch in Seattle!
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I was able to do some catching up on yesterday's calls, and only took a little over 20 today, instead of 42 like yesterday! I'm getting into some good evening routines around charging my phone (which used to be only occasionally), meditating, timer sessions, prepping for the next day. Now that I've made a preliminary sort through the huge pile of mail that had built up, I began clearing the dining table--a goal for January. I may not finish it in the next few days, but I'm making good progress, which I love. Feeling pretty satisfied. Hope you are too!

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I'm beautiful and capable of being the best me I can,
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Amanda, I'm so sorry you had such a bad Monday. I hope today is better and you come home less stressed.

I often doze off during meditation. I think it's the body has felt so much stress than when it releases we can't help it.

Alex, I'm glad your doctor gave you the meds you need. I hope your February reviews will reflect your improving health.

Good luck with the sink.

We haven't seen Mr. Rogers Movie, but I really want to.


Yesterday went almost normal! Brenna forgot her lunch box. Because there's ball tournaments staff was there a little later so I ran back and helped her search. Lunchbox was found in her 4th core class.

I need to check later today to see if my house tax information is available, and the stuff from the bank. I do everything paperlessly so I have to check. Everything else is here. If all are available I get to start doing the taxes.

I've paid attention for the last week or so and my time that I use in the morning for Yoga to tell me how long I've been practicing shaves a minute or 2 off what it's posting here. I'm not sure if I'm going to leave it or find a new timer and manually log it in. Walks it is doing accurately. So I really don't know what the deal is and I can not cherry-pick what it adds to Spark activity and what it doesn't...



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Eva: Good that your stepdad won't have much work left laying the tile and setting the toilet. That subwoofer sounds like quite a lot of work! Even if you could do things while sitting on it. And a nice cat perch! I hope Brenna does well on her first volunteering.

Amanda: I'm so sorry that you had such a hard day, with only 2 people of five!! And then a total of 2 out of 7!! I've never had it that bad even when I was working phones in the past. I am so impressed that you again meditated, exercised and did a timer session. Half-snoozing during that meditation makes total sense after such a day. I would never have such determination!

I started the day with a doctor's visit I was almost late for because I accidentally set the alarm an hour late, the time we had to leave not get up,and I didn't realize until after I had taken a shower.. So we hurried to the office and though I was 12 minutes late they still got me in. It was not my doctor but she set me up with a new prescription for Baclofen. After that I went to work and arrived at 11. I was able to work the whole day, and I got a performance review in the middle of it.

The boss said that though I barely made my quota he knew it was because I have been so ill (even though the quota is per hour, not a total per workweek or something) and that makes it hard to work very well even if you are working. And he said he had seen that I could do much better when I feel well and to not worry about this one, or the next one (this was Dec, next one will be Jan, both are and will be quite bad). But he was very clear to me to not worry about those two.

I worked until 4.45 but around 4.20 the face pain started to come back, so luckily I had most of the work day without. After work I went to pick up a tiny part at ACE to hopefully make connecting the ice maker line much easier (the ice maker is in our freezer, the line is already laid, it is a 1/4 inch brass pipe that goes to the freezer so I'm trying not to have to redo it.) Then I took care of the fish, and the last hour we three were sharing music videos of our favorite songs and raps. It was great, to hear new things and Tom's favorite version of his song, when I'd only heared the Blues Brothers' one (Mac the Knife from Bobby Darin). Now I'm really late for bed!! Tomorrow I work from home until 3 and then we three are going to the Mr Rogers movie together at six, belated for Kevin's birthday. (We ended up not being able to go on Kevin's birthday because I ended up in the emergency room).

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I was close to tears by the end of my shift, and again when I arrived home, just from the stress of the day. Mondays are often our heaviest call days, and 2 out of the 5 of us showed up: me and the lead. 3 called out, and we've been short 2 positions for months--the ones Ian interviewed for last week. Never once, all day long, was there a pause when another call wasn't waiting to come through as soon as I finished my after call work and reset my status as available. It was exhausting! I was not able to complete all the steps I should be doing with every call, which I'll have to play catch up on when we get more crew in.

Even though I half-snoozed through tonight's meditation (that's been happening for the last week or so), I did feel calmer afterward. And I just did a short 13-minute standing abs with dumbbell workout by Amy, and one timer session. I'm really hoping to get to bed early tonight and build those reserves back up! Here's hoping for a better Tuesday!

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Amanda, I loved Heathers the movie. I've never seen the musical. Wynona Ryder is one of my favorite actresses. As a matter of fact, she's what drew me in to watch Stranger Things on Netflix.

I'm glad you enjoyed your time with Mary and I'm glad you have a safe "back way" to get home. I often take the roads less traveled because it means less stress.

Alex, hopefully all is well with your meds. I also hope you can get your ice maker hooked back up, but agree it's better to have warm water than no warm water and no ice.

My stepdad is doing the floor install himself. They've spent a day and a half and are not done. He still has to lay the tile we gave them and set the toilet. But the wood is in place. It won't take long. The tile is very simple to install. All he needs is a utility knife.

Jim finished building his subwoofer. He actually listened to me about how to cover the wood and it does not look half bad without spending a fortune or using carpet for the cats to end up scratching on. I suggested using a dark grey or black 18 in industrial tile and some liquid nails so it will adhere properly, considering I've checked into how to mount these specific types of tiles horizontally. Now the worst thing they will do is use it to peep out the window and I can just dust it like a piece of furniture. I did have to help. I sat on that box half the day like a chicken on a nest to keep the pressure on the adhesive as recommended.

Brenna has her first volunteering time set for Saturday from 11:30 until 2:30 at the Blue Suede invitational. She will be working the concessions stand during the girls' basketball game. Her homeroom teacher is in charge so I figure this is a good way for her to get her feet wet. I'll have to give them credit, they offer a lot of time for the kids to get in their community service hours. Concessions are an easy 3 hours.







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Eva: yay for finding two bracelets!The agate one sounds like a wonderful Valentine's day gift. Having a PJ day now and then is wonderful, I used to do it more often but there just has been no time lately :( And you still did something! Urgh so sorry to hear about your mom and step dad's floor, that sounds like a huge pain to have to lay again. Nice that your stepdad was ok with it, is he going to do the laying work?

Amanda: Glad to hear the play was fun, and that you had a safe trip, to not use the I5. I am so impressed that you keep doing timer sessions and workouts! You really did keep your promise to your little one to focus on health and OOs again now that you are hired.

I do have the good news that the tap is working now, though I don't have the ice maker line set up yet, but we can at least run a dishwasher and we have hot and cold water now. I did go to Ace, Tom was not good enough to go in, they showed me a small tub of plumber's putty that was actually non-hardening, so I did not have to ruin the swiveler trying to use it, you can just remove it again. And that was good, because I had to do it again and again and again to find out how to use it. Putting a whole lot around the pipe did not work, it created a big water reservoir behind the putty and then started leaking within a few seconds. You have to press it in really hard and tight with a painting knife in the seams of where it leaks. I did that on the inside and the outside of the leaking swivel and it worked. My attempts to do it with our ice maker line was a huge fail, but I think I found a part that will help with that, that we'll get at Ace tomorrow after work. For now the T piece to add the ice maker line was not included, and without it it's water proof right now. We're running a dishwasher tonight.

We went to bed pretty late yesterday so slept pretty late this morning. Then TOm and me went to go shopping. While we were getting gas after it had been pumped the car would not turn on anymore. We asked the gas station employees if they could jump us. They said yes but they couldn't do it at the gas station, they had to do it at a parking spot a bit further away, and they would push us there. That meant the car had to be in Neutral and it was stuck on Park! Tom tried several minutes and then got it to move to N, and strangely enough the battery lights went on when he managed that. The guys got us pushed to the parking spot, and then Tom tried to turn the car back on and it did! That was totally bizarre. For the rest shopping went well.

When I got home I worked for hours on the tap, figuring out how to use the putty correctly. Tom and Kevin watched wrestling, this weekend was a big event. When I managed the tap I took care of the fish, so nice not to have to go into the bathroom for the warm water! And now getting ready for bed. Tomorrow I have an appointment with a doctor to talk about using the med for Trigeminal Neuralgia, hopefully it's ok, I had some pain today but wayyy not as bad as thursday, about half, and I think quite a bit of it was having to be in uncomfortable positions for the tap work so often the last days. Then it's off to work in the office!

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Alex, I'm thrilled the new meds are helping! emoticon emoticon emoticon And I'm impressed by how patient you are with Tom, and thankful for the help Kevin gives.

Eva, I'm fond of bracelets myself, especially stretch ones & not messing with clasps. Glad you found more than one for Brenna. Can't wait for the pix of her and Jim for the dance!
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Have a play with sister today down in Lakewood. It's currently not raining, but it's a long drive--45 minutes plus, depending on weather and conditions. I'll have my alternate route prepped for after the play, cuz if it's wet and dark, I don't want to drive I-5 where visibility is bad in heavy rains. Longer (by other highways) is preferable if I feel safer and less anxious.
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Lunch was yummy--a big salad with all sorts of veggies to order at Mod Pizza! emoticon emoticon And I got some helpful info about signing up for Medicare from dear sister who went through this already. It was great to learn I just have to register, but don't have to decide about plans yet, since I'm still working and covered by a health plan through my job.

The play was great! emoticon Heathers, the Musical emoticon I had never seen the 1989 film, so the story was new to me. It was a great ensemble, but couldn't make out all the lyrics. I will try to borrow the film (hope my library system has a copy), and see if I can find the lyrics somewhere. And I'm so please I decided to drive back by Highways 512 and 167. Clouds were patchy, but dark in places, and sure enough, I got rained on a number of times along the way. This "back way" just feels less stressful, and didn't take long, either! I think the distance is a bit more, but the speed stays more constant without the backups and bottlenecks that are typical on I-5. The first 30 of my 47 minute trip were before it started getting dark, but full dark hadn't quite arrived by 5:17 when I pulled into the complex lot.

Also pleased that I put in a few timer sessions before leaving and after returning, and did an intense (but always safe) favorite cardio HIIT workout by Amy this morning. I'll do a little prep for work tomorrow and read some more before bed.

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Amanda, just because you aren't mechanically inclined doesn't mean you can't learn. It's a shame your ex husband didn't see the value of swapping lessons. You're a quick study. Jim and I balance each other well enough. We are always willing to swap lessons. Though I will say my ex husband was not and I was more mechanically inclined than he was. And he wasn't willing to learn.

Alex, I'm glad it's all working well with Kevin. I hope your next report is about your sink being fixed.

I'm glad I live close to my mom. I don't know if I could deal with not being within driving distance.

Shopping went well! We found a bracelet. Well she found 2. I put the mixed agate up until Valentine's day. I'll get her a small box of her favorite chocolates to go with it.
I'm stocked up from Sam's. I won't have to go again for another couple of months.

I came home and admit I put on my PJs and didn't do much else. Well that's not true. I hemmed jeans for Brenna.

My mom and step dad are having to replace their bathroom floor. The toilet seal went bad. It took half the bathroom floor out with it. I'm glad I have supplies left from when we had to redo the kitchen floor. This morning she's coming to get some tile. I'm surprised my stepdad agreed. I'm trying to save her some money he doesn't usually care about saving money. So her bathroom will match my kitchen.

I hope you all have a wonderful Sunday!







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Eva: Yeah hearing that that teacher is stating non-traditional families are dysfunctional and traditional ones are not is something that children should really not be taught. The fear of QUILTBAG (LGBTQ) is so great in some places though that no one will stop teachers from spouting such discrimination. I am very glad that you are giving Brenna some better information. Very good information, what is unsafe in a family situation might help prevent some domestic violence, which is something most schools completely ignore. I am glad I live in Oregon where same sex marriage has been legal since 2014 and married and unmarried same sex couples are allowed to adopt. After all I come from the country that had the first legal same sex marriage (Netherlands) even if other countries said they were earlier by allowing it retro-actively.

Glad that your tech was so knowledgeable, I really hope that the boss Dustin listens! I hope all your shopping plans and finding the bracelet for Brenna go smoothly.

Amanda: I'm so sorry your ex made fun of you for not knowing mechanical stuff, that's clearly bad will on his part. I don't know much but am willing to find out, but if you feel intimidated then asking help, especially from the big box stores, is not very helpful sometimes. I feel I'm being patronized to sometimes. The people at ACE have always been awesome to me though. It sounds like you were pretty busy today! I agree, the last book of Harry Potter is awesome! And yay! for doing more timer sessions and a hard workout!

Woke up on time for my call to my parents. My mother is doing ok, my father had some health problems from the new meds and was told to take less of them, which would lower a lot of the very worrisome side effects like bleeding as if he's on blood thinners just from a little scrape, but it would also do less to treat his very dangerous condition :( They're both getting really old, i have to prepare myself for the inevitable to happen not too far from now. I wish I could see them one last time :( They were more worried about me with the trigeminal neuralgia than me about them, but the meds have been working great and I was pain free the entire day! Just a little nausea, nothing too bad.

After the call we went to have our favorite Chinese lunch, I was better and got cashew chicken instead of breaded, fried and sugary sauce drowned sweet and sour chicken (which I'll admit I like better). Tom was doing really badly so we took him home and then Kevin and me went shopping. It is so nice to have someone with you and so much help! And he gets very little money each month and still paid for quite a bit of food because he had money left at the end of the month. He impresses me.

After that I took a nap, when I got up Tom and Kevin were watching a weekend wrestling show, I took a few hours to do water changes and cleanings for all my fish tanks and to set up the containers in which I grow the worms and other live foods. Now it's wayyy late for bed! Tomorrow we do go to ACE, today when I got up they were watching wrestling and Tom was all upset that he had told me we could go because he didn't realize there would be wrestling, so though I was a bit irritated (but not very much) it was fine to hold it for a night, not like it can harm to wait half a day longer.

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Alex, I also hope you can get the tap fixed. I'm glad you have ACE with helpful people. I've had very poor luck getting any help from the big box stores, and since I feel intimidated (a leftover from my brief unhappy marriage to a fellow who liked to make fun of me for my lack of mechanical know-how--the one area where his knowledge surpassed mine, so of course he had to ridicule). I only go there if I have to. It's sad too, because there was a time when I really enjoyed figuring out how to do things.

Eva, I have no doubt you are doing a good job giving a different, more human/humane and tolerant/accepting/non-judging viewpoint to counter what she's being told in the class. I agree, it is tragic to deny kids in desperate need of stability and love the option of living with a devoted couple who happen to be the same gender.

Got my haircut today; had to call to confirm, since it's the first time I didn't get a reminder call. (I wonder if they left a message on the wrong number?!) Then I did a little shopping next door at a Fred Meyer which carries some of those salads I like, and more often has the Taylor Farms ones on sale, than my Safeway. Given the light rain, I drove the back way home, by way of Burien and my Safeway and TJ's for the rest of the week's groceries. Had a late nap, and finished the final book in the Harry Potter series with my mostly decaf coffee. I adore the revelations in Snape's memories, the scene between Dumbledore and Harry at "King's Cross Station," the fierceness of Molly Weasley battling Bellatrix, Kreacher leading the house elves to battle, Neville's heroism, Harry's explanation of wand magic and allegiance to Voldemort--and offer of redemption, and finally his exchange with little Albus Severus in the sweet epilogue.

I've put in a few timer sessions, did a new & very challenging (almost too much so--reviewed elsewhere) workout by Amy. May do a few more sessions after a dinner salad. (Gotta make up for snacking as I read!) Then off to bed, with plans for lunch and a play with Mary tomorrow! Fun, fun! Hope everyone is enjoying their weekend.

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I'm beautiful and capable of being the best me I can,
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Amanda, I had a discussion with her about the difference between a functional non-traditional family and a dysfunctional traditional family. She said she liked my thoughts on the subject better. I personally do not like the labeling of functional and dysfunctional to describe who lives in your house. I told her a functional family is one where everyone feels happy most of the time and feels safe. There are a lot of things that might make you not feel safe and we went over the list of what she and I both considered unsafe. I'm afraid there's going to be several blended families that take serious offense to this description since those blended families were considered dysfunctional. And this is why I'm glad I told her we would discuss anything from this class that gives her pause. I just didn't figure it would be this.

In this same line, I'm ticked off at my state. Tennessee is discriminating against same-sex couples for adoption and foster care. Because it's so much worse to be in a loving home with 2 parents that happen to be the same gender than to live in a group home with 20 other kids. Please. You probably head my eyes roll as I typed that.

Alex, I hope you get your sink fixed this weekend. Maybe ACE can help.

Well, the internet people came again. Mr. Charlie remarked I"m either important or a major pain because I got 2 techs yesterday. We have all new wiring (I helped run it! They needed a 3rd set of hands. I'll be expecting my 1099 form next year!) and a new modem. It's still not right. I listened to the tech, Steve, argue with their boss and the owner of my internet company, Dustin, for an hour that it was something off in the actual account plus he found noise on the line for the entire area. I listen to him rattle off numbers for 3 other houses and telling the owner, "It's in the whole node. It's an issue on our end. But this is what happens for Mrs. Kee when I'm on her personal account with my own computer versus what happens when I'm on the house account. It's us not them." The tech was ready to cuss. He use to work for AT&T in Memphis. I remember him from when we had AT&T DSL. He's smart.

I'm going to finish my coffee and grab a shower. I have to go to Sam's, Walmart, Kroger, and find a bracelet for Brenna. She wants a new bracelet instead of a corsage for the daddy-daughter dance. I'm kinda glad. The bracelet and the corsage will cost in the same price range and she'll wear the bracelet more than once.

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Too late to write much. Medication I got yesterday worked well and kept me from bad pain all day, worst was a level 4, instead of 8 or 9 like yesterday. Very frustrated with trying to make hte warm part of the tap work, tried lots of things, still no joy. Tomorrow Tom and me go to Ace Hardware to ask advice from people who really know their stuff instead of the big box DIY stores.

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Boy, do I disagree with the values in that sex ed course! My family may have been "traditional" in the sense of a heterosexual couple and their kids, but we were dysfunctional as can be! I would think more sexual abuse goes on in "traditional" families than non-traditional, as 2 same-gender parents, who are truly CHOOSING to be parents. (Grumble, grumble, boo, hiss!)

And yes, I loved the new trilogy and will keep it to reread. It was much less a typical romance; very urban fantasy, reminiscent of The Stand, but with much greater paranormal elements. I liked that it was the first time she had interracial couples and very non-traditional families of magical and non-magical beings as well as different gender-orientations (not just a single token gay character). As with her best books, it made me laugh and cry.

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