Group photo
Author:
LARISSA238's Photo LARISSA238 SparkPoints: (85,451)
Fitness Minutes: (83,486)
Posts: 8,537
8/20/18 11:54 P

My SparkPage
Send Private Message
Reply
Karri, I want to be off meds, so my psych listens to me. It's just a weird thing trying to be off meds right now when I'm so depressed. I can't be on antidepressants, so I don't know what to do. It sounds like Hope is doing well! I'm glad :)

Deb, I'm doing okay. I got the Gene Sight testing done for free, since I'm low income. It can be income based, so if I were you I would look into it. It's nice that you enjoy summer... I hate it! I feel that the heat is so oppressive and it makes me depressed.

I'm exhausted. I got less than 6 hours of sleep last night and right now I just want to sleep. I'm going to go to sleep soon. it's early, but I'm so tired. I just hope I sleep tonight.

~Rissa, AKA Diane

5% Challenge, Cloverleafs Summer, Winter, Spring 2018 Challenge Leader
5% Challenge, Cloverleafs Fall, Summer, Spring, Winter 2017 Challenge Leader
5% Challenge, Cloverleafs Fall 2016, Member.
Pacific Time Zone

Co-Leader of the Living With Bipolar Team!

"Learning to Love Yourself is the Greatest Love of All" ~Whitney Houston


 current weight: 181.2 
191.7
188.325
184.95
181.575
178.2
CROUCHINGFLEA's Photo CROUCHINGFLEA SparkPoints: (87,466)
Fitness Minutes: (15,824)
Posts: 5,394
8/20/18 12:35 A

My SparkPage
Send Private Message
Reply
Deb, thanks, Hope is settling in well. Our training is going to be repetitive for a while as the trainer can't come over, all her dogs have kennel cough and that would be very bad for my puppy. She hasn't even done video training with me, which has me thinking that maybe she'll take a little off of the training fee for September. But training is going great! We have one we are having problems with and that is my fault for not going over it enough, so I'm fixing that.



~ Karri
But I will sing of your strength, in the morning I will sing of your love; for you are my fortress, my refuge in times of trouble. ~Psalms 59-16


 current weight: 219.0 
270
235
200
165
130
DEBTEVELDAHL's Photo DEBTEVELDAHL Posts: 15,059
8/19/18 9:07 A

My SparkPage
Send Private Message
Reply
Hi all,

I hope that you are all enjoying your summer. Around here school will begin again on the 27th of August. We always got until after Labor Day off, but things do change. I hope that those of you who have kids are ready to go school wise. We are finalizing our preparations now. Micah is not looking forward to going back to school. He will be in the second grade and he is growing so fast. I can't believe that this baby I was allowed to cut the cord for when he was born, is already in the second grade now. They grow faster and faster. My kids grew fast, but it seems that the grand kids are growing even faster. So, next week Micah goes back to classes and Grandma goes back to the gym, where I have been away too long. I am sad to see summer go. I enjoy the summer so much more than I enjoy the rest of the year, but it will be great to get back to basics at the gym. I can see the holidays looming in the background. They are coming up again and it is my least favorite time of the year. I am always depressed during the holidays. The end of summer and beginning of fall, always make me sad. It will be time to use my therapy light again soon.

Larissa, you sound as if you've been doing pretty well. So sorry that incident with Dennis happened. How much does gene testing cost if you don't mind my asking? I don't know much about the process, maybe you could explain it. My therapist hasn't mentioned gene testing, so this is a new topic for me. I guess that I have been out of the loop or my therapist has. Good for you running to work off excess steam. It is good for you.

Karri, Hope sounds as if she has settled into your household well. Is the training going well ? Sorry to hear of your knee problems. I hope that you are able to get the shots that you need soon. There is little worse than knee problems.

Hi Angie ! Welcome back !!

Have a terrific blessed Sunday with family and friends. Sending positive energy and emoticon to all that need them ! Take care and God bless, Deb emoticon

Great works are performed not by strength but by perseverance - Samuel Johnson
Deb
PST - Pacific Standard Time - West Coast
Portland, Or
Co leader of the Dealing with Depression team
ML/WL co leader of the Rowdy Rebels Summer Challenge 2018
Co leader of the Living with Bipolar Disorder


 current weight: 118.6 
145
138.25
131.5
124.75
118
CROUCHINGFLEA's Photo CROUCHINGFLEA SparkPoints: (87,466)
Fitness Minutes: (15,824)
Posts: 5,394
8/18/18 12:46 P

My SparkPage
Send Private Message
Reply
Your psych doc should listen to you and how you are doing. I finally found one that listens to me and my concerns (hence getting off the one that causes weight gain).

I have not done the gene testing yet, but my therapist wants me to very badly.

My anxiety is not as high, maybe a 5, but I can feel it bubbling just beneath the surface, waiting. I had a good morning, I went back to bed after breakfast and Hope slept on my stomach (she tried to sleep on my head!). Then she insisted on sitting in my lap for about 20 minutes, so relaxing (when she is not biting!). We ran out of pigs ears and chewies and I can't get more till Tuesday, for a teething puppy, that is a problem!

~ Karri
But I will sing of your strength, in the morning I will sing of your love; for you are my fortress, my refuge in times of trouble. ~Psalms 59-16


 current weight: 219.0 
270
235
200
165
130
LARISSA238's Photo LARISSA238 SparkPoints: (85,451)
Fitness Minutes: (83,486)
Posts: 8,537
8/18/18 1:24 A

My SparkPage
Send Private Message
Reply
Karri, I hope you feel better soon! When I start a med, I always choose one that works with my genes (Gene Sight testing) and that doesn't cause weight gain. I do my research! But that's me.

I'm on a good combo of meds.. my psych wants me off them, my general doctor wants me on more. I don't know what to do! I did that general "How are you feeling today" questionnaire when I had my physical and I scored low for me (moderate depression) instead of my normal horribly depressed, and I was happy. My (g) doc wanted me to be lower, and to talk to my psych. I was happy that I was just an 11 instead of a 20 (higher numbers are higher depression). But I'm doing better, I think.

~Rissa, AKA Diane

5% Challenge, Cloverleafs Summer, Winter, Spring 2018 Challenge Leader
5% Challenge, Cloverleafs Fall, Summer, Spring, Winter 2017 Challenge Leader
5% Challenge, Cloverleafs Fall 2016, Member.
Pacific Time Zone

Co-Leader of the Living With Bipolar Team!

"Learning to Love Yourself is the Greatest Love of All" ~Whitney Houston


 current weight: 181.2 
191.7
188.325
184.95
181.575
178.2
CROUCHINGFLEA's Photo CROUCHINGFLEA SparkPoints: (87,466)
Fitness Minutes: (15,824)
Posts: 5,394
8/15/18 4:45 P

My SparkPage
Send Private Message
Reply
Hate it when men do that! It is one of the reasons I have not been able to lose weight all these years, because of men like that. But I'm in a better state of mind about it now and the weight is coming off.

The ortho doctor had to start me off on steroid shots because of insurance, if this doesn't work then I can get the shots he wants to give me, and he is positive the steroid shots won't work. Honestly it feels a little better, but not much.

Went to psych doc today. Slowly getting me off of one med that causes weight gain - not what I need while trying to lose weight! But had to up my anxiety meds. Seeing him in a month to see how I'm doing with that.

~ Karri
But I will sing of your strength, in the morning I will sing of your love; for you are my fortress, my refuge in times of trouble. ~Psalms 59-16


 current weight: 219.0 
270
235
200
165
130
LARISSA238's Photo LARISSA238 SparkPoints: (85,451)
Fitness Minutes: (83,486)
Posts: 8,537
8/10/18 8:42 P

My SparkPage
Send Private Message
Reply
((hugs Karri)) Yeah, I get it about not being able to release anger. I had to go for a run today to get it out. I'm still a bit miffed, but I'm getting over it slowly. I would show you guys the song, but it's just me saying "Dennis is an a--hole, Dennis is a f---ing a---hole" over and over again lol!

So what happened was, Dennis, the plumber, came over to fix a pipe in my bathroom. He worked on it for a while, and had to pull a pipe out of the wall and replace it. It wasn't "hard" work, but it was still work. At the end, as he was leaving my stepdad Richard asked how much he owed Dennis. Dennis said something along the lines of that he's a long time customer, and that he does work all the time and it's on the house. At the end, he said "Her smile was enough". I was wearing a tank top and shorts, since it was almost 100 degrees. I know he didn't mean my smile. Even Richard said I used my sex appeal to get it for free. I was pissed. I still kinda am, but I'm getting over it. Like I said, I actually had to *run* to get over it. Not for very long, since I can't run, but I did jog and run for a bit. Mostly walk, but I did do an 18 minute mile when my "normal" lately is 20. So it was a lot faster. I felt better, but I'm tired now and I have to rest. I want to go for another one, but I'm not sure yet.



~Rissa, AKA Diane

5% Challenge, Cloverleafs Summer, Winter, Spring 2018 Challenge Leader
5% Challenge, Cloverleafs Fall, Summer, Spring, Winter 2017 Challenge Leader
5% Challenge, Cloverleafs Fall 2016, Member.
Pacific Time Zone

Co-Leader of the Living With Bipolar Team!

"Learning to Love Yourself is the Greatest Love of All" ~Whitney Houston


 current weight: 181.2 
191.7
188.325
184.95
181.575
178.2
CROUCHINGFLEA's Photo CROUCHINGFLEA SparkPoints: (87,466)
Fitness Minutes: (15,824)
Posts: 5,394
8/10/18 9:13 A

My SparkPage
Send Private Message
Reply
LOL, I like that, a hushed angry song, that sounds so like me, I never let my anger out full strength.. or really at all. I'm sorry to hear you were objectified, that sucks.

I didn't know you played bass! My DH does too! Awesome!

I'm still not doing good. Tooth is abscessed, so antibiotics and referral for a root canal. Knee is really bad arthritis so shots for 5-6 weeks, insurance must okay first. I'm having problems doing core exercises, forgot that I have a hernia, so I'm going to ask the bariatric doc today if I've lost enough to get it taken out. I hope so. Anxiety is pretty high, I'm making it by sheer force of will, and I'm running out of that!

I did another training video for documenting Hope's training, and put it on my channel on youtube.

Hope y'all have a good day, I'll update on what the doc says this afternoon if I can remember!

~ Karri
But I will sing of your strength, in the morning I will sing of your love; for you are my fortress, my refuge in times of trouble. ~Psalms 59-16


 current weight: 219.0 
270
235
200
165
130
LARISSA238's Photo LARISSA238 SparkPoints: (85,451)
Fitness Minutes: (83,486)
Posts: 8,537
8/9/18 4:21 P

My SparkPage
Send Private Message
Reply
((hugs Karri)) Feel better soon! I see you posted in the middle of the night, so rest up!

I'm okay. I was objectified yesterday, so I'm trying to get over it. I might rest, but I have the air on so I'm not depressed. I even wrote an angry song on my bass just to get the anger out, but I couldn't yell because it was one of Richard's friends. So it's a hushed angry song lol. I'm just trying to get over it.

~Rissa, AKA Diane

5% Challenge, Cloverleafs Summer, Winter, Spring 2018 Challenge Leader
5% Challenge, Cloverleafs Fall, Summer, Spring, Winter 2017 Challenge Leader
5% Challenge, Cloverleafs Fall 2016, Member.
Pacific Time Zone

Co-Leader of the Living With Bipolar Team!

"Learning to Love Yourself is the Greatest Love of All" ~Whitney Houston


 current weight: 181.2 
191.7
188.325
184.95
181.575
178.2
CROUCHINGFLEA's Photo CROUCHINGFLEA SparkPoints: (87,466)
Fitness Minutes: (15,824)
Posts: 5,394
8/9/18 5:47 A

My SparkPage
Send Private Message
Reply
Rissa, I'm glad to hear you are feeling better! I hope you get feeling all the way better soon!

I had an awful day yesterday. Started with not getting enough sleep, and when I finally fell asleep I had forgotten my phone, which has my alarm on it. So I woke up 40 minutes late. I despise being late, and that got my anxiety going. Went to ortho and he wants to do a series of shots on my knee, but it has to be okayed by insurance, so I have to deal with my knee pain for a while. Then I don't know what happened. If it was the traffic, or what, but I had a panic attack on the way home. The trainer came over and I messaged my DH. My anxiety stayed high, like I was about to have a panic attack at any moment. So DH came home early and got the kids for me. The trainer made training simple, even though we learned 3 more commands, they were all simple and left a little early.

Hope did really good, we went and sacked out as soon as the trainer left. I had another panic attack after I woke up. Then trying to sleep last night, Hope was sleeping fine, but my toothache was acting up so I could not sleep! I finally went to sleep around three in the morning, and I get up at 0445!! Hope slept on top of me for about half the time which was very comforting.

I'm having coffee and some of it managed to get on my bad tooth, so it is hurting pretty bad again. At least my dental appt is later today!! Waited a whole week for it!

I'm hoping today is better. I'm going to clean out the tub and take an epsom salt and lavander bath later. Till then I have some lavendar essential oil (the only essential oil I have) and I'll put some of it under my nose so I can smell it. It doe have a calming effect. I'll also see if Hope will be good for a while so I can paint some today, or get out the chalk or oil pastels. I'm not good at it, but it is still soothing to do it.

Hope your day today goes well!

~ Karri
But I will sing of your strength, in the morning I will sing of your love; for you are my fortress, my refuge in times of trouble. ~Psalms 59-16


 current weight: 219.0 
270
235
200
165
130
LARISSA238's Photo LARISSA238 SparkPoints: (85,451)
Fitness Minutes: (83,486)
Posts: 8,537
8/5/18 10:15 P

My SparkPage
Send Private Message
Reply
Karri, how funny!

I'm feeling a bit better, but not at the same time. I don't know if I'll make it to therapy tomorrow. I will text my therapist in a bit to see how I'm feeling. I will try and go, but I don't want to get him sick. Whatever I have is mild, though. It's mostly in my head now (headache) than anything else. I'm happy I didn't get another kitty. I almost did, since there was a case of animal hoarding and they were having a huge discount. I can't resist a sale, but I have to think of Angela and I, too. I'm not ready for one, and it's too hot to keep one in the bathroom right now. So no kitten for me, yet. Maybe in a bit, once it cools off and I feel more stable. And I can afford it.

~Rissa, AKA Diane

5% Challenge, Cloverleafs Summer, Winter, Spring 2018 Challenge Leader
5% Challenge, Cloverleafs Fall, Summer, Spring, Winter 2017 Challenge Leader
5% Challenge, Cloverleafs Fall 2016, Member.
Pacific Time Zone

Co-Leader of the Living With Bipolar Team!

"Learning to Love Yourself is the Greatest Love of All" ~Whitney Houston


 current weight: 181.2 
191.7
188.325
184.95
181.575
178.2
CROUCHINGFLEA's Photo CROUCHINGFLEA SparkPoints: (87,466)
Fitness Minutes: (15,824)
Posts: 5,394
8/5/18 4:47 P

My SparkPage
Send Private Message
Reply
emoticon Angie!

Rissa, I hope you are feeling better soon!

Here is a cute for you, my Golden puppy (service dog in-training) started on hot dogs (all beef) today for training. I gave her a larger piece (I cut them up really small) for her first one and she had to take it in the other room, drop it, lick it, sniff it, and then gobble it down and come back for more, lol! It made training harder than I expected because she was so distracted by the treats!

I'm doing better-ish today, I'm hoping that I can get out of this funk, this week is going to be crazy busy and I'm wanting to get to work on house work, which I have been lax on. Trying to get the kids to clean their rooms and get their clothes clean for the week as well today.



~ Karri
But I will sing of your strength, in the morning I will sing of your love; for you are my fortress, my refuge in times of trouble. ~Psalms 59-16


 current weight: 219.0 
270
235
200
165
130
LARISSA238's Photo LARISSA238 SparkPoints: (85,451)
Fitness Minutes: (83,486)
Posts: 8,537
8/5/18 4:19 P

My SparkPage
Send Private Message
Reply
Audrey, thanks!

Karri, I had a day like that yesterday, too. Angela was keeping me up the other night, then I didn't sleep well. I tried to nap, but just couldn't. I hope you slept last night like I did! But then I woke up with a cold!

Angie, welcome back! I was wondering about you for a while! I did the Gene Sight testing last year, too, and I use the results every time I change meds. I find it to be so helpful! Although it didn't say anything about lithium for me, but I got a SUPER rare side effect from it!

I'm okay today... I have a cold! I don't know where I got it from. Maybe shopping? I got a haircut yesterday, too, so I could have picked it up from the salon. I feel like going for a walk, but I have a sore throat. I really want to go to my meeting today, but the last thing I should be doing is being in a room full of people! So I'm just going to stay home, drink some tea (which I'm *not* looking forward to when it's 94 degrees), and rest. Mentally I'm good. I had a rough day yesterday, but I'm better today!

~Rissa, AKA Diane

5% Challenge, Cloverleafs Summer, Winter, Spring 2018 Challenge Leader
5% Challenge, Cloverleafs Fall, Summer, Spring, Winter 2017 Challenge Leader
5% Challenge, Cloverleafs Fall 2016, Member.
Pacific Time Zone

Co-Leader of the Living With Bipolar Team!

"Learning to Love Yourself is the Greatest Love of All" ~Whitney Houston


 current weight: 181.2 
191.7
188.325
184.95
181.575
178.2
ANGIEN9's Photo ANGIEN9 Posts: 3,762
8/4/18 10:38 P

My SparkPage
Send Private Message
Reply
Hi Team,

I have been off SP for a long time. I don't remember how long. I am pre-diabetic again.

I had Genosite testing. It shows what medication works best for me and even that I would gain weight on Clozaril. May be pre-disposed to gain weight, but not this much!!!

Good to be on the team thread again.

Forgive me for just lurking. Will try to actually participate on the team starting today.

emoticon
Angie



~~Angie ~~
Just taking it one day at a time!!!



 current weight: 266.0 
267
242.75
218.5
194.25
170
CROUCHINGFLEA's Photo CROUCHINGFLEA SparkPoints: (87,466)
Fitness Minutes: (15,824)
Posts: 5,394
8/4/18 5:14 P

My SparkPage
Send Private Message
Reply
Deb, how wonderful to be spending time with family! I wish my in-laws would spend more time with my kiddos, they only live like 45 minutes away!

Rissa, sounds like you are doing great!

I'm really depressed today, but trying not to show it. I didn't get much sleep last night, so I took naps when my puppy slept. I don't want to go to church tomorrow, but I know I should, so I will. The kids enjoy it, and DH is playing bass, so I want to go see him play. I just want to sleep.

~ Karri
But I will sing of your strength, in the morning I will sing of your love; for you are my fortress, my refuge in times of trouble. ~Psalms 59-16


 current weight: 219.0 
270
235
200
165
130
URBANAUDREYE's Photo URBANAUDREYE SparkPoints: (129,279)
Fitness Minutes: (57,311)
Posts: 8,294
8/4/18 9:46 A

My SparkPage
Send Private Message
Reply
You're making awesome progress, Diane! emoticon

Audrey
NEPA - EST

My 5% goal

Current Weight 219
Target Weight 208
By When: March 3, 2018


Winter 5% Challenge Plan
MINIMUM 10 active minutes daily
Full Body strength training 3x a week
Only eat when hungry.
Drink that water!!!

EL for Winter 2018 5% Challenge Weight Warriors

Co-Leader of Living with Bipolar Disorder
Join Us!
www.sparkpeople.com/myspark/groups_i
ndividual.asp?gid=1831


Leader of Northeastern


 current weight: 211.0 
234
209.25
184.5
159.75
135
LARISSA238's Photo LARISSA238 SparkPoints: (85,451)
Fitness Minutes: (83,486)
Posts: 8,537
8/1/18 6:04 P

My SparkPage
Send Private Message
Reply
((hugs Audrey)) sounds bad!!! That really sucks. I can't complain!

Deb, I loved to read when I was young! I don't remember how young I was when I learned how to read- I just always remember always knowing how to read (even at age 4). When do your students go back to school? My CoDA sponsor is a teacher, and she's back in the classroom next Thursday to get ready

I'm doing good. Like I said above, I can't complain. I'm feeling good, I think I got good sleep last night, and I have an appointment at the LGBT center tomorrow. It worked out well! I went there this morning to avoid street cleaning, parked in Hollywood for free, walked in and got my parking stamped, got my appointment for tomorrow and then walked a bit to a Coffee Bean and Tea Leaf and had a free tea. I did my CoDA steps for a bit, texted Sandra but she didn't want to hang out (she lives right in the heart of Hollywood), and then went home. It's hot, but it's bearable. It's in the low 90's, but the heat index is in the 100's. It's weird what I can get used to. Angela is dealing okay. I think she might be getting sick, but I feel bad turning the air on with the Flex Power going on. People here are losing power with all the draining of power. I'm staying hydrated, drinking tons of cold drinks.

Oh, and time for a progress picture!



~Rissa, AKA Diane

5% Challenge, Cloverleafs Summer, Winter, Spring 2018 Challenge Leader
5% Challenge, Cloverleafs Fall, Summer, Spring, Winter 2017 Challenge Leader
5% Challenge, Cloverleafs Fall 2016, Member.
Pacific Time Zone

Co-Leader of the Living With Bipolar Team!

"Learning to Love Yourself is the Greatest Love of All" ~Whitney Houston


 current weight: 181.2 
191.7
188.325
184.95
181.575
178.2
DEBTEVELDAHL's Photo DEBTEVELDAHL Posts: 15,059
8/1/18 11:13 A

My SparkPage
Send Private Message
Reply
Happy August Audrey !! So sorry to hear that you are having a challenging week. emoticon How exciting for your daughter to have closing ceremonies from her Scholar's Summer academy. I'll bet you are proud.

Micah and I are now reading our Bob books. There is only a month left before the kids go back to school and we want him to be ready. I am working with him on reading and writing and my daughter is working on math. We want him to be in good shape, when school begins. We have had a great summer so far. This weekend we are going to my son's house to stay the night on Saturday and be with my other two grandsons for some family time. I am really looking forward to the visit. I think that we may be barbecuing on Sunday. I hope that you all have a wonderful start to the month and that you are all in good space. Sending positive energy and emoticon to all. Take care and God bless, Deb emoticon

Great works are performed not by strength but by perseverance - Samuel Johnson
Deb
PST - Pacific Standard Time - West Coast
Portland, Or
Co leader of the Dealing with Depression team
ML/WL co leader of the Rowdy Rebels Summer Challenge 2018
Co leader of the Living with Bipolar Disorder


 current weight: 118.6 
145
138.25
131.5
124.75
118
URBANAUDREYE's Photo URBANAUDREYE SparkPoints: (129,279)
Fitness Minutes: (57,311)
Posts: 8,294
8/1/18 9:47 A

My SparkPage
Send Private Message
Reply
Happy August!

One month left of summer vacation for the kids. Tomorrow is closing ceremony for Xena's Summer Scholars' Academy program she's been attending.

I've been having a lot of "Murphy's Law" days that are getting me a bit down. Last week it was car issues. Yesterday it was randomness... nearly passed out driving home from lab work, a watermelon I kept forgetting was in my kitchen apparently built up enough molding pressure that it exploded all over my kitchen, and then (excuse the TMI) I managed to pee over the rim of the toilet and all over my pants. Hopefully today will be a better day.

Audrey
NEPA - EST

My 5% goal

Current Weight 219
Target Weight 208
By When: March 3, 2018


Winter 5% Challenge Plan
MINIMUM 10 active minutes daily
Full Body strength training 3x a week
Only eat when hungry.
Drink that water!!!

EL for Winter 2018 5% Challenge Weight Warriors

Co-Leader of Living with Bipolar Disorder
Join Us!
www.sparkpeople.com/myspark/groups_i
ndividual.asp?gid=1831


Leader of Northeastern


 current weight: 211.0 
234
209.25
184.5
159.75
135
Page: 1 of (1)  

Report Innappropriate Post

Other Living with Bipolar Disorder General Team Discussion Forum Posts

Topics:
Last Post:
12/22/2017 10:14:16 AM
12/30/2017 8:30:02 AM
6/4/2017 8:23:25 PM
7/1/2017 11:21:54 AM
7/31/2017 2:30:59 PM



Thread URL: https://www.sparkpeople.com/myspark/team_messageboard_thread.asp?board=0x1831x69769672

Review our Community Guidelines