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Heather, ((hugs)). It sounds like you have a lot going on... I hope that everything works out for the best. Have fun on your trip! Take lots of extra lithium with you! I'm looking for work, too, so hopefully we can find something!

Karri, mixed states are bad. If you have to go to the hospital, then go, if not try and get to your pdoc asap. Panic attacks are the worst! When I get them, I feel like I can't breathe and like I'm having a heart attack. Thanks for the congrats!

Deb, a few of the Clovers made their 5%, and a couple way more. One lost 7%, and one 8%!! I lost 3.84% so that's pretty good. I'm sleeping pretty good again. I take Trazadone, but Topamax is what really helps me sleep. It's a mood stabilizer, but I also use it for migraines. Have fun at the gym! I love gyms, but I can't afford a membership, so I have to just run outside.

My date went okay.. She had some things that I wasn't too keen on in a girlfriend, so I think that we are just going to be friends. I keep feeling tired, even though I'm sleeping more. I need to nap a lot. I think it's the depression. I have a lot going on right now, so I have to be okay. I just had a talk with my friend, and I think she's projecting on me. I just need to think things through. *sigh* I wish that things were easier.

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Good evening ladies,

Heather, Oh I'm so sorry that you are having issues with your medications and that you are gaining weight again. I hope that that straightens out again for you soon. I hate it when they have to change up my meds and I have to start taking something new. I see from looking at the side effects of rexulti that weight gain can be one of them. Too many antidepressants have that effect. I'm so sorry that you are having these issues. It must be very frustrating to put so much money into your home, just to turn around and sell it. I hope that you have a wonderful time on your vacation. Where are you going? It must be some place neat if you have to have a passport. Enjoy your free time. It sounds as if you will be searching for a job when you get home. Part time jobs are around I'm sure that you will find something. It would help if your meds started to function correctly, though. It's good that you are going in to see your pdoc before you go on vacation. Have an amazing time.

Karri,

Anxiety issues are some of the worst ! The necklace sounds like a tremendous idea. How cool to have your essential oils on your person for aromatherapy. That would help me out for sure. I love lavender. Keep up the good work on staving off the anxiety attacks. Do you think that they will change or give you a new medication to help out with that? Two weeks is a long time when you are trying so hard to hold it together. Whatever you are doing you are doing right, but if you really need to go to the ER, go. How's that puppy, Hope doing? Are the training sessions going well? I am so glad that you got a lab. They are happy dogs most of the time and not that hard to train. They are smart. Mischievous though.

Rissa, Congratulations on that 4%. That is nothing to be ashamed of. We had several people make their 5% this time. Lots of people almost made it too. I was surprised how many were able to make goal weight though. We don't usually have that kind of success rate. It was weird. I hope that you are feeling better and less tired. Are you sleeping well again or are you still having trouble? They have just given me Ambien for sleep two times a week. The insurance company won't pay for more than 7 pills a month. I don't think that I will become addicted on 7 pills a month. She thinks that if I can get into the habit of sleeping a couple of times a week, that we can train me to sleep most nights. We'll see.

School starts tomorrow for Micah and I get my days back. Off to the gym early in the morning right after he gets on the bus. I can't wait to get back to the treadmill and walking in a controlled environment. I want to use the weight machines this time. I will ask a trainer to show me how to use a machine a day, so that at the end of an exercise week for me I will know how to use 5 machines. Or maybe I will have to do one every other day if it is complicated. I haven't figured it all out yet, but I will be doing some strength training this next week. I will be getting out of the house and the real weather is going to be nice for the most part this week. We've had some light rain today, but we are looking at sunshine and the mid 70's for the next ten days or so. I will miss not having Micah at home all day, but I will get my free time back and I need that. I hope that you are all having a great weekend and get a terrific start to your new week. Sending positive energy and emoticon for all who need them. Take care and God bless, Deb emoticon

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Deb, of course you can use my idea! I'd love it if you did emoticon It's really helping me remember to take care of myself and what I should to if I get anxious or have a panic attack, I just open my notebook to that page and there we go! I also got a necklace that is an essential oil diffuser. Just got it in the mail today, they are pretty cheap on Amazon, the lavender really relaxes me.

Rissa, congrats on the 4%!! WooHoo! And Good luck on your date!!

Heather, I'm so sorry to hear you are gaining, and having a hard time. I was there last year, and it made me feel like giving up. Don't give up, keep pushing and you will get through this! Also it could be some of your meds making you gain weight.

My p-doc appt is in two weeks, but not sure I can make it that long. My anxiety attacks are worse, I almost asked DH to take me to the hospital with one I had a few days ago. It was that bad. I don't want to go in the hospital again. I'm manic right now as well, but it is a weird manic. I'd say it was a mixed state, but I'm not sure.

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Been a while since I was on. Still gaining the dang weight. Just shy of 200 again after hitting 180 last year. Between hormones and some interesting bipolar moments it has been a roller coaster of 'FUn'.

My doc started me on Rexulti last month, which was supposed to replace the Geodon that messes with my vision horribly. Instead I have gone down the rabbit hole with depression mixed in with a hefty dose of irrationality. It has finally gotten to where I am having to take a rescue dose of Lithium tonight to make sure that I don't even think about being stupid. I see her on Thursday, but I am leaving on a trip for two and a half weeks on Tuesday next.

Had a scare with getting my mother's passport for the trip. Made an emergency road trip to El Paso to the closest passport agency to us to get it fixed. Crisis averted.

Found out that my neighbors had a stolen vehicle recovered from their property. Been pretty shaken up about that, especially knowing how drugs tend to flow through the lot. I need to get a car club lock for my truck's steering wheel before I leave, just to give me peace of mind that it won't join the other cars being run through there.

I have been looking for jobs again. Applying will happen after I get back into town from my vacation. Even more openings have disappeared in the last month. I just put more money into my house so I am not thrilled with the idea of moving. I like my house, just not my neighbors or the lack of employment. Of course, a hefty dose of the employment problem is my own incapability of working over 20 hours a week.

But I know that my dog and my family love me. The trip will be good. Things will work out.

Till then. Come on and hurry up. lithium.
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Deb: I didn't lose my 5%, but I lost over 4%, so I'm happy. I was about 2 pounds away from my goal, but I lost over 7. I broke my diet today, but that's okay. I ate some Mexican sweet bread and coffee with sweet mocha creamer. Sugar is good, but I didn't really miss it, lol.

And I'm setting up a date as we speak! I'm so happy! She seems nice, so it's great :D I don't know what I'm going to wear yet.. I was cold last night, so I don't know about my date dresses. Eeek I have a date! Yay!!

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Good morning ladies !!

Karri, I like the sound of a "survival guide". It makes sense to set one up as you work your way through your program. What a great idea. Mind if I steal it? I'm glad that you and Hope are doing well. I'm sorry that you are depressed. Are the kids back in school? Our kids go back on Monday the 27th. A latte sounds good to me. I hope that your appointment went well and that Hope didn't miss you too much while you were gone.

Larissa, Sorry that you were awakened so rudely. I hate it when my phone goes off with all kinds of Facebook notifications and other stuff, when I am trying to sleep. That can go on all night depending on when your friends get off and get to bed. Food seems like a good idea to me right now too. I had breakfast for dinner last night and it hasn't really stuck with me, so I am hungry this morning too. How did you fare during the 5% Challenge? Did you make your 5%? I am in maintenance, so I don't have a 5% goal to lose. Although, if I don't reign it in I could gain five pounds in a hurry. I am doing the In Between Challenge this time, to keep myself on track. I let myself bypass the last one and I had a heck of a time with binging while we were on break last Challenge cycle. I hope that you feel less depressed and better once you have eaten and taken a nap. It must be nice to be able to sleep during the day. I have always had a problem with that, since I was a kid. Have a great In Between cycle !! Feel better. Sending positive energy and emoticon take care and God bless, Deb emoticon

I am just getting Micah ready for school this weekend. They will begin again on Monday and I will have my mornings free again. It's back to the gym for me. I will stay there now until next summer. I need to work on my strength training. I can use the machines now at the gym to help with that. I haven't been sleeping very well either. The doctor has given me Ambien to help with that, however I hesitate to take anything, because I like natural sleep as much as is possible. She told me that I can take one if I wake up in the middle of the night and can't get back to sleep. That is a relief, because I hate staring at my walls trying to relax to get to sleep again. I am taking Melatonin too. That helps you stay asleep supposedly, so we will see. It doesn't help with falling asleep, but it does with staying asleep. I am looking forward to having my days back with school starting now. I will miss Micah during the day, but I will be able to make appointments and such without having to drag him with me. I hope that you all have a wonderful weekend !! Take care and God bless, Deb emoticon

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Karri, a survival guide seems like a good idea. I wish I could turn to something like that when I got depressed, but I just don't feel like I have the strength. And I don't know what I would do! I just curl up in bed and can't move. It gets bad, but I just take a nap and when I wake up I feel better and can function. I feel like I need one right now, but not for depression, just because I'm tired.

Yeah, I had another night of bad sleep. I was up before 7 am because my phone started going off with stupid messages. I think I'm going to eat something really quick (figure out something), then take a nap. I'm hungry, so food seems like a good idea, then a nap.

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Realized yesterday that I am depressed. I don't know when it started, but I was so depressed yesterday that, other than to take care of my pup and pick up the kids, I sat in my chair all day. I got a latte today to cheer me up, I should not, but it will also give me energy to go to my appointment in the next city over. I can't take Hope, and I wish I could, this morning in car line she could tell I was upset and moved as close to me as she could and put her head in my lap.

I'm writing a 'survival guide' for myself. It will change a lot and over time will hopefully become something I can refer to whenever I'm in need of help. For example I have one page just labeled 'anxiety' (needs a better name...) and all the things I could think of to do for when I have anxiety are on that page. I know it will grow, this is just a first draft. I'm also writing my current goals, and those change frequently as I learn what works and does not work for me, so I imagine I'll need a new book before long, lol.

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Karri, I want to be off meds, so my psych listens to me. It's just a weird thing trying to be off meds right now when I'm so depressed. I can't be on antidepressants, so I don't know what to do. It sounds like Hope is doing well! I'm glad :)

Deb, I'm doing okay. I got the Gene Sight testing done for free, since I'm low income. It can be income based, so if I were you I would look into it. It's nice that you enjoy summer... I hate it! I feel that the heat is so oppressive and it makes me depressed.

I'm exhausted. I got less than 6 hours of sleep last night and right now I just want to sleep. I'm going to go to sleep soon. it's early, but I'm so tired. I just hope I sleep tonight.

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Deb, thanks, Hope is settling in well. Our training is going to be repetitive for a while as the trainer can't come over, all her dogs have kennel cough and that would be very bad for my puppy. She hasn't even done video training with me, which has me thinking that maybe she'll take a little off of the training fee for September. But training is going great! We have one we are having problems with and that is my fault for not going over it enough, so I'm fixing that.



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Hi all,

I hope that you are all enjoying your summer. Around here school will begin again on the 27th of August. We always got until after Labor Day off, but things do change. I hope that those of you who have kids are ready to go school wise. We are finalizing our preparations now. Micah is not looking forward to going back to school. He will be in the second grade and he is growing so fast. I can't believe that this baby I was allowed to cut the cord for when he was born, is already in the second grade now. They grow faster and faster. My kids grew fast, but it seems that the grand kids are growing even faster. So, next week Micah goes back to classes and Grandma goes back to the gym, where I have been away too long. I am sad to see summer go. I enjoy the summer so much more than I enjoy the rest of the year, but it will be great to get back to basics at the gym. I can see the holidays looming in the background. They are coming up again and it is my least favorite time of the year. I am always depressed during the holidays. The end of summer and beginning of fall, always make me sad. It will be time to use my therapy light again soon.

Larissa, you sound as if you've been doing pretty well. So sorry that incident with Dennis happened. How much does gene testing cost if you don't mind my asking? I don't know much about the process, maybe you could explain it. My therapist hasn't mentioned gene testing, so this is a new topic for me. I guess that I have been out of the loop or my therapist has. Good for you running to work off excess steam. It is good for you.

Karri, Hope sounds as if she has settled into your household well. Is the training going well ? Sorry to hear of your knee problems. I hope that you are able to get the shots that you need soon. There is little worse than knee problems.

Hi Angie ! Welcome back !!

Have a terrific blessed Sunday with family and friends. Sending positive energy and emoticon to all that need them ! Take care and God bless, Deb emoticon

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Your psych doc should listen to you and how you are doing. I finally found one that listens to me and my concerns (hence getting off the one that causes weight gain).

I have not done the gene testing yet, but my therapist wants me to very badly.

My anxiety is not as high, maybe a 5, but I can feel it bubbling just beneath the surface, waiting. I had a good morning, I went back to bed after breakfast and Hope slept on my stomach (she tried to sleep on my head!). Then she insisted on sitting in my lap for about 20 minutes, so relaxing (when she is not biting!). We ran out of pigs ears and chewies and I can't get more till Tuesday, for a teething puppy, that is a problem!

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Karri, I hope you feel better soon! When I start a med, I always choose one that works with my genes (Gene Sight testing) and that doesn't cause weight gain. I do my research! But that's me.

I'm on a good combo of meds.. my psych wants me off them, my general doctor wants me on more. I don't know what to do! I did that general "How are you feeling today" questionnaire when I had my physical and I scored low for me (moderate depression) instead of my normal horribly depressed, and I was happy. My (g) doc wanted me to be lower, and to talk to my psych. I was happy that I was just an 11 instead of a 20 (higher numbers are higher depression). But I'm doing better, I think.

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Hate it when men do that! It is one of the reasons I have not been able to lose weight all these years, because of men like that. But I'm in a better state of mind about it now and the weight is coming off.

The ortho doctor had to start me off on steroid shots because of insurance, if this doesn't work then I can get the shots he wants to give me, and he is positive the steroid shots won't work. Honestly it feels a little better, but not much.

Went to psych doc today. Slowly getting me off of one med that causes weight gain - not what I need while trying to lose weight! But had to up my anxiety meds. Seeing him in a month to see how I'm doing with that.

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((hugs Karri)) Yeah, I get it about not being able to release anger. I had to go for a run today to get it out. I'm still a bit miffed, but I'm getting over it slowly. I would show you guys the song, but it's just me saying "Dennis is an a--hole, Dennis is a f---ing a---hole" over and over again lol!

So what happened was, Dennis, the plumber, came over to fix a pipe in my bathroom. He worked on it for a while, and had to pull a pipe out of the wall and replace it. It wasn't "hard" work, but it was still work. At the end, as he was leaving my stepdad Richard asked how much he owed Dennis. Dennis said something along the lines of that he's a long time customer, and that he does work all the time and it's on the house. At the end, he said "Her smile was enough". I was wearing a tank top and shorts, since it was almost 100 degrees. I know he didn't mean my smile. Even Richard said I used my sex appeal to get it for free. I was pissed. I still kinda am, but I'm getting over it. Like I said, I actually had to *run* to get over it. Not for very long, since I can't run, but I did jog and run for a bit. Mostly walk, but I did do an 18 minute mile when my "normal" lately is 20. So it was a lot faster. I felt better, but I'm tired now and I have to rest. I want to go for another one, but I'm not sure yet.



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LOL, I like that, a hushed angry song, that sounds so like me, I never let my anger out full strength.. or really at all. I'm sorry to hear you were objectified, that sucks.

I didn't know you played bass! My DH does too! Awesome!

I'm still not doing good. Tooth is abscessed, so antibiotics and referral for a root canal. Knee is really bad arthritis so shots for 5-6 weeks, insurance must okay first. I'm having problems doing core exercises, forgot that I have a hernia, so I'm going to ask the bariatric doc today if I've lost enough to get it taken out. I hope so. Anxiety is pretty high, I'm making it by sheer force of will, and I'm running out of that!

I did another training video for documenting Hope's training, and put it on my channel on youtube.

Hope y'all have a good day, I'll update on what the doc says this afternoon if I can remember!

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((hugs Karri)) Feel better soon! I see you posted in the middle of the night, so rest up!

I'm okay. I was objectified yesterday, so I'm trying to get over it. I might rest, but I have the air on so I'm not depressed. I even wrote an angry song on my bass just to get the anger out, but I couldn't yell because it was one of Richard's friends. So it's a hushed angry song lol. I'm just trying to get over it.

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Rissa, I'm glad to hear you are feeling better! I hope you get feeling all the way better soon!

I had an awful day yesterday. Started with not getting enough sleep, and when I finally fell asleep I had forgotten my phone, which has my alarm on it. So I woke up 40 minutes late. I despise being late, and that got my anxiety going. Went to ortho and he wants to do a series of shots on my knee, but it has to be okayed by insurance, so I have to deal with my knee pain for a while. Then I don't know what happened. If it was the traffic, or what, but I had a panic attack on the way home. The trainer came over and I messaged my DH. My anxiety stayed high, like I was about to have a panic attack at any moment. So DH came home early and got the kids for me. The trainer made training simple, even though we learned 3 more commands, they were all simple and left a little early.

Hope did really good, we went and sacked out as soon as the trainer left. I had another panic attack after I woke up. Then trying to sleep last night, Hope was sleeping fine, but my toothache was acting up so I could not sleep! I finally went to sleep around three in the morning, and I get up at 0445!! Hope slept on top of me for about half the time which was very comforting.

I'm having coffee and some of it managed to get on my bad tooth, so it is hurting pretty bad again. At least my dental appt is later today!! Waited a whole week for it!

I'm hoping today is better. I'm going to clean out the tub and take an epsom salt and lavander bath later. Till then I have some lavendar essential oil (the only essential oil I have) and I'll put some of it under my nose so I can smell it. It doe have a calming effect. I'll also see if Hope will be good for a while so I can paint some today, or get out the chalk or oil pastels. I'm not good at it, but it is still soothing to do it.

Hope your day today goes well!

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Karri, how funny!

I'm feeling a bit better, but not at the same time. I don't know if I'll make it to therapy tomorrow. I will text my therapist in a bit to see how I'm feeling. I will try and go, but I don't want to get him sick. Whatever I have is mild, though. It's mostly in my head now (headache) than anything else. I'm happy I didn't get another kitty. I almost did, since there was a case of animal hoarding and they were having a huge discount. I can't resist a sale, but I have to think of Angela and I, too. I'm not ready for one, and it's too hot to keep one in the bathroom right now. So no kitten for me, yet. Maybe in a bit, once it cools off and I feel more stable. And I can afford it.

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emoticon Angie!

Rissa, I hope you are feeling better soon!

Here is a cute for you, my Golden puppy (service dog in-training) started on hot dogs (all beef) today for training. I gave her a larger piece (I cut them up really small) for her first one and she had to take it in the other room, drop it, lick it, sniff it, and then gobble it down and come back for more, lol! It made training harder than I expected because she was so distracted by the treats!

I'm doing better-ish today, I'm hoping that I can get out of this funk, this week is going to be crazy busy and I'm wanting to get to work on house work, which I have been lax on. Trying to get the kids to clean their rooms and get their clothes clean for the week as well today.



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Audrey, thanks!

Karri, I had a day like that yesterday, too. Angela was keeping me up the other night, then I didn't sleep well. I tried to nap, but just couldn't. I hope you slept last night like I did! But then I woke up with a cold!

Angie, welcome back! I was wondering about you for a while! I did the Gene Sight testing last year, too, and I use the results every time I change meds. I find it to be so helpful! Although it didn't say anything about lithium for me, but I got a SUPER rare side effect from it!

I'm okay today... I have a cold! I don't know where I got it from. Maybe shopping? I got a haircut yesterday, too, so I could have picked it up from the salon. I feel like going for a walk, but I have a sore throat. I really want to go to my meeting today, but the last thing I should be doing is being in a room full of people! So I'm just going to stay home, drink some tea (which I'm *not* looking forward to when it's 94 degrees), and rest. Mentally I'm good. I had a rough day yesterday, but I'm better today!

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Hi Team,

I have been off SP for a long time. I don't remember how long. I am pre-diabetic again.

I had Genosite testing. It shows what medication works best for me and even that I would gain weight on Clozaril. May be pre-disposed to gain weight, but not this much!!!

Good to be on the team thread again.

Forgive me for just lurking. Will try to actually participate on the team starting today.

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Deb, how wonderful to be spending time with family! I wish my in-laws would spend more time with my kiddos, they only live like 45 minutes away!

Rissa, sounds like you are doing great!

I'm really depressed today, but trying not to show it. I didn't get much sleep last night, so I took naps when my puppy slept. I don't want to go to church tomorrow, but I know I should, so I will. The kids enjoy it, and DH is playing bass, so I want to go see him play. I just want to sleep.

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You're making awesome progress, Diane! emoticon

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((hugs Audrey)) sounds bad!!! That really sucks. I can't complain!

Deb, I loved to read when I was young! I don't remember how young I was when I learned how to read- I just always remember always knowing how to read (even at age 4). When do your students go back to school? My CoDA sponsor is a teacher, and she's back in the classroom next Thursday to get ready

I'm doing good. Like I said above, I can't complain. I'm feeling good, I think I got good sleep last night, and I have an appointment at the LGBT center tomorrow. It worked out well! I went there this morning to avoid street cleaning, parked in Hollywood for free, walked in and got my parking stamped, got my appointment for tomorrow and then walked a bit to a Coffee Bean and Tea Leaf and had a free tea. I did my CoDA steps for a bit, texted Sandra but she didn't want to hang out (she lives right in the heart of Hollywood), and then went home. It's hot, but it's bearable. It's in the low 90's, but the heat index is in the 100's. It's weird what I can get used to. Angela is dealing okay. I think she might be getting sick, but I feel bad turning the air on with the Flex Power going on. People here are losing power with all the draining of power. I'm staying hydrated, drinking tons of cold drinks.

Oh, and time for a progress picture!



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Happy August Audrey !! So sorry to hear that you are having a challenging week. emoticon How exciting for your daughter to have closing ceremonies from her Scholar's Summer academy. I'll bet you are proud.

Micah and I are now reading our Bob books. There is only a month left before the kids go back to school and we want him to be ready. I am working with him on reading and writing and my daughter is working on math. We want him to be in good shape, when school begins. We have had a great summer so far. This weekend we are going to my son's house to stay the night on Saturday and be with my other two grandsons for some family time. I am really looking forward to the visit. I think that we may be barbecuing on Sunday. I hope that you all have a wonderful start to the month and that you are all in good space. Sending positive energy and emoticon to all. Take care and God bless, Deb emoticon

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Happy August!

One month left of summer vacation for the kids. Tomorrow is closing ceremony for Xena's Summer Scholars' Academy program she's been attending.

I've been having a lot of "Murphy's Law" days that are getting me a bit down. Last week it was car issues. Yesterday it was randomness... nearly passed out driving home from lab work, a watermelon I kept forgetting was in my kitchen apparently built up enough molding pressure that it exploded all over my kitchen, and then (excuse the TMI) I managed to pee over the rim of the toilet and all over my pants. Hopefully today will be a better day.

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