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Deborah, it would be great for your son to move closer! It sounds like you and him have an amazing bond! I know that my mom and I got closer, too, when I got older. I would take the train for 8 hours each way, to stay with her for a week. I would do that every 2-3 months, whenever I could afford it. I miss her a lot. I want to cry... She passed away last January.

I'm doing okay... I don't know if I got manipulated into doing something or not. This guy I know was getting kicked out of his place tonight and needed a place to stay. So I said he could sleep in one of the chairs in my living room. He and I aren't that close, but he's been over my place before and we talk every now and then. It's just a one (or maybe two, depending on if he needs it again in a couple days) time thing. He didn't ask me to stay, I offered. I don't know if I'm being too nice or what. I just know that he's outside in his car, making private phone calls, while I'm in here. I have to go to bed soon, so I'm going to go out there and tell him that. I mean, it's okay. I guess. I don't know. I just am trying to be a good friend. There is no way he's sleeping in my room, that's for sure!! He's staying in the living room while Richard watches TV, and I'm going to lock my door. I mean, I trust the guy for the most part, but I just lock the door sometimes when I don't feel fully safe. Okay, I'm going to end this and get ready to go to bed.

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Before our son was born there were fights with hub's children, one even yelled at me that she hated me and wanted me to go back to Texas. After he was born things seemed to settle down and his children for a while were civil to me...several years actually. Things really started going South when we moved them from the East Coast to Central Texas (out in the woods)...they hated it and made it clear they still hated me and even more so now that they had been uprooted and moved to MY hometown. This was all before I was diagnosed with Bi-polar disorder. The bad times I had leading up to my diagnosis only made matters worse and they are very unforgiving about it all. One used to bash me on FB for all her friends and hub's family to see, that hurt me more than anything. But, in the last year that has stopped (for now--until something happens to set her off again) and things seem to be at least tolerable on both sides. As long as my hubs and son love me I can deal with the girls BS. My son takes every opportunity to contact me via FB while he has his down-time at work or when he is home. So, staying connected with him is pretty easy, I just would like for him to live closer so I could actually see and hug him on a regular basis. He is planning a move to a town closer to us after he gets done with his IT courses...about an hour away instead of 3...that will be lovely!!
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Deb, I know how it feels to have weird sleep! I have been getting less and less sleep, but my psych said not to worry unless I get under 6. I've been going from 10 to 9 to 8, now to under 8. I fall asleep fine, but I wake up in the middle of the night and at like 8 am and can't fall back asleep. I don't want to be on any more sleeping pills (I take Trazadone, too)

Deborah, I have a great relationship with my stepdad. I guess I'm lucky. He's amazing! My brother and I are both close to him, so we are very lucky. My father passed away when I was 13, and I've known Richard (my stepdad) since I was like 4 or 5, so I've known him almost all my life. I wish that you and your stepchildren can get close like Richard and I one day!

I'm doing okay. I'm still mixed. I'm up one second, down the next. I was dancing in my chair a while ago, then I'm not. I need to do 165 steps in 3 minutes according to my FitBit, but I don't want to get up. Oh well... It's not going to be a perfect step day anyways. I can live with that. I was doing a lot of yard work today, sweeping, planting more plants (I had to transplant a rose, then plant 6 small cucumbers and 6 different peppers), cleaning, feeding the roses (all 21 big and 3 tea roses), etc. So I should be tired, I guess. I'm just trying to get through today. I'm mixed, for sure.

But I know what car I want! A 2002 Kia Spectra. It's not the best car, but it's good enough for me. I was having my coffee this morning, and it just came to me- that this Kia is the one for me. I don't know why, but it happened. I trust my gut more than anything else, so as long as the transmission is fine (I'm taking it to a mechanic, or taking a mechanic with me), I'm getting that car when I get my license! My test is May 8th, so if you pray, pray for me!

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Hi Deborah,

I have a special relationship with my son too. He is and always has been the light of my life. I have two kids, but they are both so different that it is easy to love them both for their different specialness. Step kids are hard sometimes. I have had step kids too, and my ex husband used to treat my kids differently than he did his. It was not a very optimal situation for my kids, but my step kids lived with their Mom and she and I had a really good relationship. So, I was lucky in that respect. It is so hard to be away from loved ones. I know that you can remember the good times that you had with him, until he returns at Christmas time. I would love to hear more about him. You have been blessed with your son and the love emoticon that you both share. Take care and God bless, Deb emoticon

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Son is back home now, and I actually don't feel as bad as I have in the past. We have two daughters, but, they are my husband's from his previous marriage (his wife passed away). They do not consider me as anything other than their dad's wife. So my connection to my son is very important and special. Ha came at the right time to fill-in the need I was having after marrying my hubs and his kids not really accepting me.
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Good morning,

Heather, I am so sorry that you are having problems after your hysterectomy. I hope that you recover soon and can look for that job online or otherwise. Do you think that you can work from home? There are lots of companies that use online employees to act as customer service reps. Perhaps the resource that Larissa gave to you has something like that available. Also in your area if you have a large clinic or hospital you might want to see if you could apply for a customer service job. My daughter started out in the phone pool and has worked her way up to Float now for several departments and covers for the receptionists who call in every day. Phone banks also let people work from home after a year. She works for a major hospital. Phone banks are easy jobs and require little training, but pay really well in some areas like the medical field. I don't know your experience or qualifications, but perhaps something like that could help you out. I hope that you recuperate soon.

Larissa, mixed episodes can wear you to a frazzle. I can commiserate with you. I've had trouble posting every day lately, I've been so sketchy. Hopefully you will feel better soon and be right back to posting as you do normally. Sometimes it is just not the right time to engage in communication when you don't feel right.

I have nothing at all planned for the weekend and I have no idea what my daughter and grandson might be doing either. Right now everyone is asleep. It is 6:31 am and I am online because I simply can't sleep. I am coming off my Trazadone, and had no idea that my sleep patterns would be so messed up. But I hope that they will straighten out soon. I am edging up into another mania. I can feel it coming on. I hope that it will be a mild one. There is little that I can do to stop it, but I can exercise to control the jitteries. Try to have a wonderful weekend !! Take care and God bless, Deb emoticon

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((hugs Heather)) It will get better, just know it! Why can't you find a job online? I don't know if it works in your state, but here we have www.skipthedrive.com . It was recommended to me, so it might work for you, too.

I'll try and type more when I can. I'm brain dead right now. I don't know what's going on with me. I was in a mixed episode, now I'm just brain dead. I'm tired.

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Still healing up after my hysterectomy and starting to run into problems. I have rheumatoid arthritis and it is starting to flare--expected after surgery, but no fun.

Then there is the lovely brains. I have been fighting anxiety every day, especially at night, and relying on Xanax to get to sleep. Not a big dose, but it drives me nuts to have to rely on it. I am solidly in a mixed state right now with big drops into depression when I try to find a job.

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I am not disabled by SSD standards, but I am not good enough to get any job that I can find within 90 miles or online. (Moving is not an option right now). I am worried that a Medicaid work requirement will show up in my state before I can get a job. Feeling pretty worthless right now.

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Hi Deborah,

Your visit with your son sounds as if it were so great !! I miss my kids too. You never stop being a mother, no matter how far away they are. You have a super relationship and it sounds as if you keep in touch quite often. Is he your only child? I hope that you can pass the time enjoyably until he returns to visit again. Christmas may sound like it is a long time from now, but these days for me at least, time passes so quickly that before you know it he will be home again. Sending you positive energy and emoticon Take care and God bless, Deb emoticon

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((hugs Deborah)) I hope you can be back with your son soon! Time passes faster than you know it! I'm glad you and him have such a good relationship! Just think of the good times :)

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Our visit with our son is winding down and my depression is winding up. I love having him here with me, his hugs are the best medicine. It will take me days to get over him being back home, but, I can at least talk to him on FB, Pokemon games, and Runescape. These are my connection avenues to my son while he is home or even at work. So it keeps me going till the next time I get to physically see him. He will be going with us in December to Galveston for Christmas so I am really looking forward to that!!
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Rissa, that is so cool. Congratulations on making that milestone !!. It is so exciting when we can see physical proof that our efforts are working !! Have a great evening too!! Deb emoticon

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Deb, that's great to hear! I'm glad that Spring is there and you aren't manic!

I made it to Onederland!!! I'm so happy!! I posted it in another thread, but yeah! I was 198.2, then 198.4, so I'm there!! Woohoo!!

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Helloooooo everyone !!

It's a beautiful day in this neighborhood today. There is a medium breeze outside and it is in the middle 70's. It doesn't get better than this. I'd say that here in Oregon we have finally entered the Spring phase of our weather cycles. We are now having some bright days, instead of constant rain. I can take the rain if we have down periods with sun and brightness. These past couple of days have been so stellar. I am just happy with no mania, thank goodness !! I have not used my therapy light in two days. It is wonderful. Of course, it will all go away soon and the rain will return. but I will have had my sun break and that will make it okay.

Deborah, You certainly have a handsome son. I hope that you thoroughly enjoy your visit with him.

Cats, I have had dogs and cats together in a happy home. She is not in the puppy stage where she will chase a cat and the cat is older too. So you probably wouldn't have any problems that couldn't be solved by the cat removing itself from the area the dog can reach. That is unless there is barking at the cat, then I don't know what to do. If they are getting along fine, I would certainly keep the dog. She sounds lovely and it is so nice to give an older animal a home. They are much better in many ways than puppies. They don't chew and they don't have to be potty trained. They usually come that way. You can relax and enjoy an older dog, because all the work has been done for you. Good luck with the dog and I hope that you get her. She is lucky to have more than one person want her though, just in case it doesn't work out. You could contact the other party and see if they might have better luck.

Rissa, You do sound so much happier in LA, than you did in Florida. I am so glad that your play was enjoyable and you had a great time. You are doing a wonderful job with your program. Your walking is terrific. That is a lot of miles if you do that and/or more every day. I hope that you are enjoying the Spring 5% Challenge. Good luck to you this week. I hope that you get all of your stuff done today that you wanted to get done and that your day goes as planned.

Have a tremendous week, everyone !! Sending positive energy and emoticon to all that need them !! Take care and God bless, Deb emoticon

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Deborah, your son is a cutie!

Deb, it sounds like you are going to have a good party! Kids and their choices lol! I hope you come down from your mania slowly and not too bad! I don't like mania because I hate the crash!

Cats, I would love to keep the dog if I were you! If she likes you, and your cat gets long with her, I would try and see about getting more time with the dog! I would like to have a dog, too, to get a walking buddy, but Angela (my cat) is possessive and Richard (my stepdad) doesn't really want any more animals in the house. Just try and have more time with her, and see how it goes!

I had a good time at the play! It was good, and I had a good time. I'm just catching up with everything.... I've been running around like a chicken with my head cut off. But I did play bass and walk 7.5 miles today. It was slow, but I was walking more for mental clarity than for speed. I'm tired, too. I slept a lot last night, but I didn't sleep well on Saturday night, so I was making up for it. I hope I get a good night's sleep tonight, wake up on time (around 9 am) and then get my day started. I need to get stuff done, so I hope it's a good day!

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Took a short trip this weekend to get our youngest son, my baby boy!!!! He is here with us for the week and I am sooo dang happy. It has been over 6 months since I last saw him to hug him!

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Hi everyone and happy Friday!

Rissa, I love that dress! It looks great on you. I am glad you have been making so many positive changes in your life. A narcissist or two in your life can totally mess you up and make you not trust your own thoughts and actions. Been there and done that myself. It is hard to get back on an even keel after that. I'd say you are well on your way to an awesome new life.

Deborah, I always enjoy your pics. Hope your next trip comes soon and that you have a blast again then, too.

Deb, sounds like Micah is going to have very fun party. I know what you mean about limited resources. Things are getting tight already this month. I need to get back in the habit of planning my meals again because that really seemed to help.

This is a long post, I know. I have had a situation come up and I really could use everyone's input.

My neighbor, Ms. L, has been very ill in the hospital so her friends Jill, Gary and I have been helping to take care of her 10 year old Chihuahua mix. They bring in the mail, buy food for the dog and take it out a couple times during the day. I play with her in the afternoon and at night and take her out. I spend some time just petting her and talking to her. I know it has got to be a scary thing to have your mama gone.

I finally brought her over here yesterday for a few hours. My cat was wary of her at first but then they both decided to look at each other from a distance. They ended up falling asleep on different sides of the living room. I ended up falling asleep too, LOL.

Well, last night Ms. L's son called Jill, the other lady who was taking care of the dog and said he was bringing Ms. L back to her apartment and that she would be starting hospice care. They arrived late last night and got things set up.

I had mentioned to Jill how much I liked taking care of the dog. We had briefly talked about who would get the dog if Ms. L couldn't keep the dog any more. I said I figured her family would or another friend that the dog adores. Jill said she wasn't sure and that she personally wouldn't be able to take her. I said I would take the dog if nobody else did. I didn't want her going to a shelter at 10 when she could just move across the hall and live quietly with me. Jill said she had told Ms. L that the dog had bonded to me. Her family said last night they thought it would be best that the dog stay in New York because at her age moving would be very hard on her. There is another person that wants her as well so I won't know what's going on for a couple days.

She is an adorable little dog, for sure! I have never owned a dog and my cat is 13 years old. Has anyone been through this? As I mentioned earlier things went okay when she stayed over here yesterday for about 7 hours. Nobody growled, hissed or snapped and I am hoping that would continue.

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Good morning !!

Larissa, that is a lovely dress you have for the performance !! Congratulations on losing 42 pounds this year !! I am so glad that you are so much happier now that Geo and you have gone your separate ways. I remember when you were really questioning your judgement and your ability to move forward and start a new life. Just look at what you have accomplished, since taking your life in your hands and changing it !! You are living the dream now, kiddo. I am so happy for you and your success !!

Deborah,

Your trip to the coast sounds wonderful. You take such great pictures !! I am looking forward to seeing your photos as soon as you take your trip. Have a great time when you go again !!


Well, I am still in good space. I am very grateful that my bipolar depression and mania is so well controlled now days. I haven't had much of a problem with depression. It has been the manias that have caused me grief in the past five years or so. I am just now gearing up for a manic episode again, though. I have had many in the past five years, but they don't affect my attitude too negatively these days. I am learning, at long last how to fight a manic episode and not have the outcome be dangerous or expensive for me. I hope that everyone is doing well right now and being successful with their programs and overcoming their problems. I am going grocery shopping today and have planned my meals for the coming week already. I have limited resources until the first of next month, so I have to be very careful with my purchases. I am looking forward to helping Jeni, my daughter, plan Micah's, my grandson, birthday party this next month. It is going to be a mushmash because he wants a Ghostbuster's cake and Transformer/Star Wars decorations. So, there is no theme really to the party unless you want to call it a superhero birthday celebration. It should be interesting. Have a great weekend coming up y'all. I am sending positive energy and emoticon to all that need them. Take care and God bless, Deb emoticon

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@LARISSA238 What a lovely dress!! You look smashing in it...you are gonna have a fun night!!
Congrats on doing better since the move. Sometimes we need to make big decisions like that to get ourselves back to a "normal" lifestyle.
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Deborah, I'm so excited for you!!

Today is my 1 year anniversary in LA! I'm so happy! I have been so much better since I moved here to LA, it's amazing! I was speaking in CoDA last night about how much progress I've made and all of that. It's crazy what a year can do! I've learned to love myself somehow, made friends, got rid of a narcissist ex, and lost over 42 pounds!

Tonight I'm going to The Pantages to see "Love Never Dies"- the sequel to "The Phantom of the Opera". My family and I are big Andrew Lloyd Weber fans, so this is going to be a nice celebration for us. It's going to be a nice night!

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Hubs changed his mind!! He is even looking at us going back next month!! And, staying at a hotel right on the beach and in the top floors so I can get a good view of the beach and the ships out at sea!! I am excited again!! I just got in my new colored camera filters and can't wait to see what kind of pictures I can get with them!
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Heather, I hope you come down from your approaching mania soon! And gently! I'm happy to hear that you are recovering well, at least! Did you realize the manic episode was coming on when you were buying all the clothes and stuff? I went to Marshall's yesterday and got too much stuff, but then I was depressed this morning, so I'm kinda mixed. Good luck on your job search! I want to start looking again soon.. I need money for my car that I'm going to be getting.


I'm tired... I walked over 8 miles today at once! My phone GPS said 8.62 miles! I'm pretty proud of myself! I was stressed out this morning over the whole car thing, and jobs, and all of that, but then I went for a walk. I knew I just had to get out the door, and I would be able to do it. I was trying for between 8-9 miles, so I did it! I'm going to be sore tomorrow!

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I am almost three weeks post-hysterectomy and feel pretty good--till I overdo myself and end up back in bed. Having to pace myself has been going less than well. I am only sore when I do too much--or when the dog jumped up and landed to heavy paws on my tender belly. He hid on the couch after I yelped. (He knows not to jump...unless he has been around my dad too long. Dad lets him do it.)

I am surprised how stable I am feeling. I was afraid that my meds would have to go through massive changes, but I am actually feeling good! I have to take .5mg of alprazolam most nights, though not all, but that is minor. I am on estrogen and mostly have the menopause under control, only a few hot flashes have come through. I am a little fuzzy headed, but I think that is mostly due to my body using up all its energy on healing. *EDIT* That fuzzy feeling? Oncoming manic episode. It is settling in as the hours go on. Dangit.*/EDIT*

I had to spend money today on a couple new pairs of pants. I am puffed up like I am pregnant and pressure on my middle is no fun. Nobody in town has any that fit and I don't have the energy to drive the 90 miles up to town to look at thrift shops (where very little fits my ...er... fluffy shape anyway). And of course I HAD to shop around to look at what else was for sale. Oops. I guess I won't be eating out for the next month to pay for the stuff (including a small replacement for my GIANT purse).

In a couple weeks I will be starting back up the job search. I am optimistic that I can do a 40 hour work week now that I am not guaranteed to be insane for two weeks of the month. Not positive that my body can handle it though. But the only way to find out is to try I guess. First I have to find a job in town in the first place.

I hope that you all are as stress-free as possible! Now it's past time to figure out what I can heat up for dinner and make another cup of tea.
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Deborah, that sucks! Maybe explain to him that next time you go, that you will go to sleep really early the night before, take your meds early and be more awake? I have to be up at 8 am tomorrow, so I'm going to be going to sleep in a little bit (10:30) instead of my normal time. Still, I think the two of you should have a talk. I know if I was that hurt, I would want to make my feelings known, especially if it was something I was really looking forward to in the future.

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We are back from our beach vacation. While there we had a lovely time, but the ride home was a disaster. My hubs always likes to leave at daybreak, but, my bi-polar med makes me sleepy for over ten hours...so waking me too early leaves me groggy. He expected me to keep my eyes open on the drive and read the highway signs and tell him which way to go. I managed to keep my eyes open, but, could not process what I was seeing quick enough and he yelled at me and told me we were never going again. So the whole ride home, 4.5 hours, was in total silence and even when we got home it was the cold-shoulder treatment. Today things are better, but, I will be going to Wal-Mart on my own in the morning just to get out of the house and get some "me" time. Sure hope he was not serious about us not going again, I depended on these trips to keep my spirits up and my moods in check.
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Deb, you can always check in if thing are going well! Thanks for the encouragement! I love spices... my favorites I always use are ones that I can't get at the stores. One is a salad seasoning I don't know where it came from, but it's running out (oh no!!) and the other one I use on steaks is my brother's rub. He custom-makes it from scratch with his own recipe, so I don't know what's in it, but it's amazing! I'm having some tonight on my steak!

Cats, I don't have a date yet! I met some girls last night, but nothing big. I'm trying to get out there, but nothing's happening. Oh well. I think Judy just won't work out, but that's just the way it's going to be. I'm trying, but maybe it's just not my time. Or the right girl isn't coming yet. I just have to keep looking!

I'm doing okay today. I cleaned my room like crazy looking for some paperwork for my taxes (going to try and do them tonight.. I don't have to, but I just want to try for the first time in 5 years just to see), then went to the 12-Step store to get a card for a friend and some CoDA stuff. I'm about to turn a year in CoDA, and I speak on Tuesday. I'm excited! People think it's weird that I'm in a 12-step when I don't do drugs or drink, but I really do have a problem! I just cut my ex off my phone bill that I was paying for him when I didn't "have" to for a year! There's a long story behind my codependency, but I'm going to save that for another time. I have to work on my taxes. I'm a bit hypomanic, but doing okay.

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Audrey, that sounds tough. I hope things clear up for you soon.

‘Rissa, you are really kicking butt. Can’t wait to hear how things go on your date.

Deb, I hear you on the spices. When I moved here I basically started from scratch on my spices. If I lived closer to you I would buy in bulk and split them with you! Indian groceries have good prices on some kinds like turmeric and coriander. Mexican grocery stores have chilis and spices pretty cheap, too. One great place online to get them that is on your coast is San Francisco Herb. They also have other things like dried vegetables, fragrance oil, etc.

Today was different than usual. Normally I get together with my sweetie on Sundays but we did it today because there is an ice storm warning just north of here along Lake Ontario. If it shifts a few miles south we will get it. I stocked up on groceries, charged my cell phone and I’m going find the flashlight.

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Hi everybody,

Sorry that I have been a stranger lately, but things are going well in my life. I haven't had to worry or complain about anything recently.

Audrey, I am sorry about your Aunt. My grandmother used to take care of my two kids when they were very young. She could drive me batty with her treatment of the kids and her child rearing attitudes. She was pretty old fashioned. It was a real trip. She would panic over nothing and she had trouble controlling them when she watched them.

Larissa, congratulations on completing your 10 K run !! I it is an amazing accomplishment. emoticon emoticon

I am planning on making out a menu for the week, then a grocery list before going food shopping. Maybe I can avoid certain situations - sweets - for a full week. We will see. It is costing me mega to stock my cupboards with spices and condiments. I have forgotten how many spices are out there and just about every meal that I make asks for several different spices that I don't have. I am making up for lost time now. Things with the family are stable and everyone is happy right now, so no ongoing issues at the present time either. I am hoping to get to go across the Columbia River to see my son and his family in Vancouver, WA soon. I am trying to convince my daughter to go over on Sunday. I didn't get to see the kids before Easter, so I am chomping at the bit to see them now.

I hope that you are all faring well at this time. Have a sensational Saturday !! Sending positive energy and hugs to all that need them. Take care and God bless, Deb emoticon



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That sucks, Audrey! No wonder you rant about her! I would, too! ((hugs)) that maybe one day you can get out of there!

I'm tired! I walked over 8.75 miles yesterday! I couldn't do it all at once, since I was running errands, but I did 1.25, then 5.5, then 2 miles. Almost all on hills, about 33 flights of stairs worth! All those stairs were on the first 2 legs, too. The last 2 miles were flat. I walked to the doctor, then to the pharmacy and home, then to my CoDA meeting. I'm pretty tan now, too. I'm sure I will get more as the summer comes on and I start walking more, but it's nice to see some color on my skin instead of the white skin of winter.

I'm trying to get this girl to go on a date with me... Maybe it will work out, or maybe not. She's a workaholic, so that's a minus. But she and I aren't codependent, so that's a big plus! I found a couple girls I liked, but she's the one I want to date the most right now. We will see how it goes!

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My aunt is just a constant struggle. I left her with the kids for 20 minutes the other night and I basically came home to a mess. She's moody and irritable, and pretty financially irresponsible. Unfortunately, she lives next door and owns the house we're living in.


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Audrey, did I miss what's going on with your aunt? Or did you not post it here? I'm a bit tired, so I didn't check the posts. I'm glad you feel a bit better, but hope you feel really better soon!

Thanks to everyone for the congrats!! I knew I could do it! Now, onto the half, then the whole!

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Saw my therapist today. I basically spent 45 minutes venting about my aunt's irresponsibility. I feel mildly better though.

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I did it! 1:46:18 was my official time... I did it under the 2 hours I wanted to do it in, so I'm happy about that!



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Today was mixed.

Sundays are usually a very laid back day around here. We hang out here and watch TV or movies and relax. Half the good time is cracking on the shows and we egg each other on until we've laughed so hard we're tearing up. The cat sleeps on my lap but if I laugh too hard he gets mad and leaves.

I made a bunch of crappy food choices. I knew they weren't good when I made them. I've got to figure out better choices for Sundays. I ended up having all my calories for the day before supper!
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Yay! I bet you do great!
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I have my 10k on Sunday! I'm getting ready! I have my Powerade in the fridge, part of my bag packed. and I'm getting ready to go!

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I believe that people come in and out of our lives for different reasons. Some give the gift of love and friendship when they stay. Some people give us the gift of goodbye.

It is hard at times to know why people give the gift of goodbye. Many times it is their own issues and has nothing to do with you. You cannot make anyone stay in your life and you will go crazy trying to make them.

Keep peace within yourself by accepting their decision. Be loving to yourself while you heal.

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I think we all have that happen at some time or another. Try not to let it bother you too much.

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((hugs Mitzy))

I had something similar happen to me here, but I was the one getting mad at the person. It was a one-way friendship, so I had to let it go. I don't know what happened with you and your friend. but I'm here if you want to listen! If she is treating you bad, then it's probably for the best that it ended. In my situation, I moved on, and now I have a bunch more friends, real friends, that I can count on. If I had been giving all my energy to the other so-called friend, then I probably wouldn't have these new friends.

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Hello, I hope you all have had a good holiday.

I am feeling a bit down because a good friend I've known for some 17 years online is angry with me. We have always talked daily all throughout the day but she told me not to talk to her for a long long while. It was over something really stupid for her to get angry about. My husband and others who are aware of the situation tell me I've done nothing wrong. I don't think I deserve to be treated like this. Whatever is going on with her it's her own issues. I will feel down about it but I'll be fine. I'm not going to allow it to sink me into a deep hole. The meds I'm taking are working pretty good these days.

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Welcome to April!

I hope you all enjoyed your Easter, Passover, or even just your weekend.

This has been the first holiday for us in 5 years that nothing happened. I'll take that as a win.

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