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(((hugs Cats)))

I lost my father when I was 13 (October 4th, 1996). If you want to send me a Spark Mail, I'm here for you! He was my world, too.

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I'm not in a good space right now. Eighteen years ago today I lost my father who was my world so today I'm basically hibernating.

I wanted to check in with everyone, though.


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So... this is my back after the first session. Visible, my 2 original fairies I had done at 18, the unicorn on my neck I had done at 19. I'll either need to hunt down pictures of the other 4 or take new ones,

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I am out of the hospital and hanging out at my parents' house while I heal up till I have the all clear to drive in two weeks from Tuesday. Been sleeping a lot, followed by playing video games and Netflix. Not in too much pain, nothing really worse than I put up with every month (unless I am up too long and overdo myself). Not even needing the strong pain meds as of yet! I guess I must have a pain tolerance or something ;)

The grandparents at the house are only sort of driving me nuts since I have very little contact with them during the day. They are worried about me and drove 850 miles south to see the family so I can understand why they want to see me more. I plan to spend a little more time today downstairs with them. Not thrilled with the stairs, but it is what makes sense.

Till they get home: more Netflix and something to eat.
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Heather, are you out of the hospital? I'm glad your surgery went well, and that the insurance approved it! The stress probably sucked, but it's over with!

Audrey, I want to see your tattoos! I have 2, but I have to get one removed. I got one in memory of my dad, and when I told my mom that, she told me to get one removed in her memory. So when I get the money, I'm getting the other one removed. I didn't like it as much anyways. One day I will take a picture of them!

Cats, feel better!!

I'm a bit hypomanic. I signed up to do my marathon training! If anyone wants to donate, it's here: online.ccfa.org/goto/DianeY

I cut off my ex yesterday. I was paying his phone bill, but I stopped and switched phone companies to save money. It's a load off my back! I feel kinda bad, but at the same time it's a huge relief. After everything he did, he doesn't deserve any more special treatment from me. He wanted to know what changed, why I didn't want to be friends anymore. Well, I told him I wasn't going to tell him. I'm not going to play his games. He knows. I've told him so many times what he did, his anger and all of that.... if he doesn't know by now, then he's never going to know. So that was that. He's cut off, and I don't ever want to have to talk to him again!

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Hi everyone,

Just popping in to say good night to everyone. I'm going to bed early as I am trying to fight off being sick.

Have a wonderful night!
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Heather, I'm happy the surgery went well. Happy Healing!

Diane, I love the purple hair. I'm thinking about going purple myself, but I'm having trouble convincing my mom to do it for me.

I'm exhausted today! I don't think I've been getting enough sleep. Colt is teething and everyone in the house has a cold to some degree so everyone's pretty miserable. I get my new tattoo tomorrow!!! Or at least the start of it. When I was 5 I told my mom I wanted a dragon tattoo, and now, i'm finally getting it. And just when I thought I was getting to the end of what I wanted permanently displayed on my body, I think I may also now want a Cookie Monster on my calf. But that one is for the future, after the dragon, and after I get the little man's hand print on my hip.

I baked my Easter Bread yesterday. 6 loaves! 4 for each of the family households, 1 for my tattoo artist, and because each batch makes 2 loaves, my cousin will get the extra.

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At the very last second (well, within a half hour of check-in) my insurance finally approved my hysterectomy yesterday. Talk about an anxious wait! So now I am getting moving at the hospital this morning and going to my parents' house once discharged. Started estrogen replacement yesterday and so far no hot flashes, so I am happy!

After the doc got into surgery he found quite a bit of endometriosis in my pelvis, which explains some of the problems I had. So he got rid of what he could and I have a little more to heal up from, but it won't be a problem again for a while (if it comes back at all).

They gave me this cool little pump with anesthetic that goes directly to the source! It will be a bother to drag around for the next couple of days...but well worth the lower pain levels. Still having to take other pain meds, but I think I am far more comfortable than I would be without the magic ball.

After all the stress of trying to get this done I am finally on the other side of surgery. Now I 'just' have to heal up! Not looking forward to the stairs up to my room at my parents house, but at least I have a nest up there so I don't have to go up and down for snacks and drinks.

I guess I should get on the nurses about my morning meds and see about getting the geek out of the hospital!
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LARISSA238 I love your hair! Purple is my favorite color.

If nothing ever changed there'd be no butterflies.
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Thanks, Cats! (What's your name, by the way? You can call me Rissa or Diane, either way it's cool). I hate getting up early, too. I might wear this pink flow-y shirt with a skirt, depending if I can make it!

Why couldn't I make it? Well, my ankle is pretty messed up right now. I'm going to the doctor's to get it checked out. It's not broken, but it hurts a lot. I don't want to have to go to Urgent Care, but I might have to tomorrow. I don't have a ride, and it's all the way downtown.

So I'm just here. I kinda want to play my bass, but I don't have the time I want to devote to it since I have to leave in a little bit. I tried playing yesterday and it hurt my back the way I was sitting. I need my own bass with a strap so I can have better posture!

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How is everyone? I'm doing well mood-wise. I'm a bit nervous, because tomorrow is my neurology appointment and I always get like that ahead of time. She's such a cool person which makes it a lot better, LOL. It's the getting up so early that is brutal. I am so not perky in the morning. That's a gentle way to put it.

That color is terrific, 'Rissa! I love purple; purple and pink are my two favorite colors. She did a great job on it.

Angela is a little sugar and what a sweet face. Cats are so awesome. I'd be lost without my Stonie.

Have you figure out what you're going to wear Friday? emoticon







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I'm doing great! My friend Caryn did my hair yesterday... She bleached it and dyed it again, so it looks amazing!



Angela likes it, too!!



And I live in LA, so yeah, there's pretty much even a gay city (West Hollywood). I found out about this coffee shop from another lesbian (and there's an ad for them at the LGBT Center), and I had a blast! I'm going back on Friday. I'm looking for a date to a wedding, so if I can find a cute girl to dance with, then it's going to be great! Well, I did find a girl to dance with, but like I said, she's young lol. I might find someone else, I might not! We will see what happens!

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How's it going everyone?

Mood-wise I'm doing great; if I could kick this headache today I will be soooo happy!

You have to watch out for the 49 year olds. We're devious, LOL!

I was not aware of such a thing as a LGBTQ coffee shop. That's a lot more positive place to hang out than a bar, that's for sure. Glad you had a fun time!


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Gay coffee shops are a thing? I've only been to gay bars... and they have a bad habit of making their drinks too strong.

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((hugs Heather)) just breathe! How did it go? I hope it went well! I'm still going through drama with my health insurance company trying to get them to pay for my therapy and psych from last year, so I can feel your pain. Just know that it will work out.

Cats, how are you doing today? Thanks for posting all those quotes on the Team Wall!

I'm doing good! I had a good night last night... I went out to this gay coffee shop and was dancing with some girls. There's this girl I was dancing with and had a good time, but she's young. I mean, she's 11 years younger and I'm 35! I didn't find out until I got home and checked out her Facebook page. Most of the girls there were young, but there were a couple older than me (one was 49). I don't want to cradle rob, but she was a lot of fun to dance with. I guess I will just see how things go next week and see if she wants to dance again.

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‘Rissa,
I’m so glad it went well with your friend! Good for you for making yourself a priority and realizing what you need to do to stay stable.

URBANAUDREYE,
I don’t know about the solar flares but I know for a fact that the full moon does affect Alzheimer’s patients. Mine tended to be more restless.

HMKITTEN,
I get this picture of you bellydancing around the house while you vacuum, LOL.

I worked in insurance paying claims, doing inbound call center at an insurance company, and some light billing/pre-collections. If I could say a few things:

1. Always assume any expensive test, medication, specialist or surgery requires a referral and/or a pre-authorization. You did well to make sure you got a name on who was spoken with! It’s a good idea to ask that a copy of the approved auth be sent to you. Some insurance companies, like Excellus (my insurer) have them online as well.

2. Always ask for the reason, in writing, of why you were denied and on what they based that decision. Sometimes it as simple as they were missing a form from the doctor, they never got the medical records from the doctor, didn’t have ALL the medical records they needed or perhaps they were lost along the way. It does happen sometimes and it's an easy thing to fix!

3. Always file an appeal if you are denied. It is a pretty simple process and many times if you provide enough documented info they will reverse the denial.

Hope everyone is having a nice night!


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I went through a similar situation with my cyst removal earlier this year. Nobody told me it requited a referral from my PCP.

Just breath. Have faith that it's going to work out alright.

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I got a call from the hospital this morning to check me in for surgery on Tuesday. They said that the operation had not been authorized by my insurance yet! I called the doctor's office and they said something to the tune of, "the insurance said we didn't need a prior auth, but now they want it. Oops." Luckily they had written down who they talked to about the authorization two months ago so that the insurance is now expediting the request. Of course that means that if there are any hiccups in the works (like being sent back for clarification which almost always happens in these things) then I am likely to have to reschedule.

So now I am sitting here in a constant anxiety attack that started about an hour after my phone call with them at two-ish. I have dosed myself up with meds and have been trying to meditate/focus/calm myself in any way I can and so far just keep spiraling instead of getting leveled. How the heck do you miss something like that!

It is going to be a long weekend until I figure out if I am indeed going into surgery. I sure hope I am since I have everything lined up and my mom took off work so that she could be home with me! ARG!!!

ahem.

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So I saw an article where the recent solar flares may cause people to see an influx of anxiety. It said the 16th through 26th. Truth or bunk? To be completely honest, I have been feeling more anxious than usual. But is it solar flares or the impending holiday? Or all the screaming children?

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Cats, I love your username by the way! Two of my favorite things! Good idea to not go shopping when you don't get a lot of sleep!

I'm doing okay. I made my amends with my friend and she acted like it was no big deal. I'm trying to work on getting my CoDA Step Study group together.... It's been in transition for a while, but I hope it settles soon. CoDA, therapy and meds are the backbone of my recovery. I have to go to sleep in a bit since I have to be up early for therapy tomorrow.. hopefully everything works out well with my ride!

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It's a good Sunday overall.. I didn't sleep well so no shopping today. I am hoping to get out tomorrow and see something besides these four walls. I start feeling close in and disconnected after awhile.

Hope everyone is doing alright.

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Rissa, isn't it kinda sad when you're surprised about getting a good therapist? LOL! I'm glad for you. emoticon

Working through the steps is never easy, just necessary. Good for you! emoticon

I'm fighting off being sick. Not sure if it could be a cold trying to gain a foothold or just bad MS-related fatigue. I just have no energy. I'm going to do what I can and put my feet up a lot.


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Therapy went better than expected... it's weird having a therapist who actually cares! He asked me to call him the next time I get a PTSD trigger, even if it happens on a weekend. It's nice, but weird.

I'm on Step 9 in CoDA, making amends. I have a big one to do today if she lets me... *sigh* I'm just praying to my Higher Power that it goes well!

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Rissa, that's hard when that happens. Hope your therapy went well.

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Cats, not only am I feeling a bit hypomanic, I'm PMSing... Not a good combo! I was trying to play the bass, which I normally have patience with and I got really frustrated with and had to put it down. I'm going to clean my kitchen and put the food away, then go to bed. I have therapy in the morning, so I have something to talk about!

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Hi!

Is anyone else feeling the time change? I am really affected by the amount of sleep I get and I feel awful.

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I've been doing well, thanks, Audrey! I'm glad to hear that you are doing well on your own, even if the kids are getting in your way. I'm also happy that you have a new computer! That's always exciting. I don't know what to tell you about the girls and the little man... there's not much that can be done from here.

I'm doing good... I'm just watching some wrestling, then I'm going to play the bass some and have some fun. I was supposed to have a jam session, but it got cancelled as far as I know. One of the guys isn't responding, so I don't know what's going on. *sigh* Drama, that's what's going on. Okay, I can deal with this. I'm working it out now. One person doesn't like the other anymore... She's not going to like me for a while once I do my 9th step with her, but she will forgive me and get over it (that's the way we are). I'm working my CoDA steps, and I'm doing a lot better now! I even have a sponsee. I'm learning a lot, and it's helping my mental health as well. Just trying to relinquish control over things is a huge help!!

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Thanks Diane, for getting the chat going!! My computer bit the dust early this year and it's been nearly impossible checking in from my phone has been nearly impossible. Thankfully, the tax return came in this week so I was able to get a new computer. Still adjusting to it, but I think I like it. It's a bigger screen than my last one which is a little awkward.

The little man is officially on the move. He's able to crawl from one end of the house to the other in a matter of seconds. It's stressful to say the least. The girls are still pretty adamant about not cleaning up after themselves, so there's only about a million choking hazards all over.

If I can take the kids out of the equation, I've been pretty well balanced. It's just a matter of the girls knowing how to push all my buttons and the little man running me ragged.

I hope everyone is doing well!

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((Hugs Deborah)) It could just be your brain chemicals, not anything on the outside. Just let him know that. Sometimes, it's nothing that you have control over. Just keep pushing, one day at a time, one second at a time if you have to. The only thing that matters sometimes is getting through it!

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Today has been a day filled with a sadness that has consumed me. I don't know the origin of this sadness, but it is draining me. I have not eaten much today and I know that plays a small part in how I feel. Plus, the weather has turned gloomy. But, I woke up feeling this way today and it has only gotten worse. I know from my past it could take days to get out of this and all the while my hubs is frustrated with me because I lake the willpower to get things done around the house.
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Heather, try not to worry too much... it just makes things worse. ((hugs)) lol about the CPAP for dogs (and I loved the alliteration!). You need to worry about taking care of you right now, so don't worry about what your family is going to go through. They will understand. Have fun playing video games and Netflix! It might not seem productive, but it's fun and that's what you need right now.

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I'm doing okay. I need to get my bass out and play a bit... Just maybe 15 minutes, but something to get my fingers used to it. I also have to cook, and I'm watching wrestling right now. Just trying to have some fun in my day!

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Time for a novel.
I still have three weeks to go till the hysterectomy and I am starting to freak out--but not because of the surgery. My grandparents are coming in and staying at my parents as well over Easter and the house is a wreck. Every time they come in it somehow ends up my responsibility to clean up the house. So now I am trying to get two houses in order over the next few weeks while keeping track of the normal stuff that needs to get done. Not stressed about the surgery, but definitely stressed about recovery. I am not looking forward to the pain. My doc thinks that because I used to be on pain meds that I must have been addicted to them. Never mind the fact that I stopped them cold turkey after my rheumatoid arthritis went into remission with no problems. So ibuprofen will be my friend, even if my stomach has other opinions. Definitely also not looking forward to getting the darn hormones smoothed out since they directly affect my bipolar. I feel sorry for what my family may have to go through for a couple weeks!

This will be the first week that I will have a full eight days at my own house in months. I need to spend some time here, in my personal space, to get my brain back in order...though I haven't managed to get much done since I got home over the weekend. So far I have managed to eat, sleep, watch Netflix, and play video games--not exactly the healthiest of times. At least the food was healthy!

Still sore from helping a friend move furniture over the weekend. I am the friend with a truck, so I get to help with schlepping. I used muscles that I had long since forgotten about! At least I got moving, a far cry from the past month or so. The dog hasn't seen his leash in months, but luckily he loves his ball even more than walks so he is staying healthy (and still snoring up a storm on the couch--he really needs a CPAP). Won't be doing much heavy lifting after the end of the month. Interesting way to get out of helping schlep stuff ;)

So for now I will focus on actually getting some things done around the house before my dad gets into town for a dinner visit. And maybe forcing the dog out of his somnolent sonata to vacuum off the couch.
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Carol, I'm so happy that you will have a decent place to live again!! I am getting myself back on my feet again, and I should be able to order some Pruvit stuff from you. I've been recommending my friends who do Keto to you, too! I don't know if any of them ordered, but I've been trying to send some people your way. I know you need the money, and I think that ketones can be good for people! I would do them if I could afford them :) Don't get overwhelmed... Just take it one minute at a time if you have to. I wish I could come over and help.. I've moved so many times in my life I've gotten used to it. I'm so happy you are getting out of there!!! ((hugs))

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Happy March 4th!

Hubs has been home and underfoot all weekend looooong!! He's been clingy and whining (I'm cold, I'm hot, I'm hungry, I'm bored, my neck hurts, I'm dehydrated andreaches for a Dr Pepper, etc, etc). When he's around I can't seem to get anything accomplished because I'm busy playing babysitter to a 54 year old man who grumps about everything! It really does work much better for us when he works 65+ hours a week and I see him for 2 hours or so every evening and every other Sunday, LoL.

I found an "old lady" exercise group - it's basically chair zumba, who am I kidding? It's fun, gets me out of the house MWF. There's a spa of sorts that has a sauna, a weird body pod thing you can get in and the bed vibrates and yup, makes you sweat more and the last thing is an aqua massage. Kind of a soft bed that has a water wave that runs from head to toe....very relaxing. Can't say I like the sauna to much...BORING!! I thought the pod thing might be to claustrophobic, but it's not and they put moisturizers in the steamer so it's even good for my skin, LoL. On the days I go, I drink a gallon +++ of water to keep hydrated.

Signed up to take the Texas CHL class on April 15th. Been talking about doing that for 2 years and it was a buy one, get one free so Hubs daughter is going to go along with.
So funny, we went to a local farmer's market to get some corn relish and ended up at a gun show buying elk jerky and signing up for the CHL class. Then we went to a flea market of sorts and I found a couple old tea cups made in Occupied Japan to add to my collection. On the odd occasion he has a day off and we aren't already committed to doing something, we set out with no plan and wander wherever the wind takes us....gun show, elk jerky, CHL class and antique tea cups, to funny.

Harvey still sucks!!!!! His step Mom owns the condo we live in and the remod progress came to a screeching halt the end of October. Can't tell you how tired I am of doing dishes in the bath tub, not having a kitchen and seeing boxes piled everywhere in the condo filled with our belongings. It's so very, very depressing. I'm a "nester" and have felt discombobulated for months. She, the step Mom, told us at the beginning of the year that she was tired of dealing with the condo (lady, try living in it for the last 6 months) and she was going to put it on the market January 01, 2019. Kind enough to let us know so far in advance and we are indeed grateful that she's given us a break when it came to paying rent, as well she should. Hubs and I talked and while it took a lot of nudging on my part, he is in agreement that it wouldn't be a good investment to buy the place and have since been looking for a small rental house. Interestingly enough, I quickly found one we love and we've been worrying about what to tell the step Mom.....never fear!!!! She informed us that she didn't want to wait and was going to put it on the market in May/June. Awesome! I hate to tell her she's going to have to invest at least another 10K to get the place sellable.

We can begin moving things into the duplex on Wednesday even though our lease doesn't officially start until 15th March. OMG, to have a kitchen with counter tops, a sink and running water!!!! PLUS it has a gas stove! A fire place! A two car garage! A big fenced in back yard for the fur babies to run in, a huge deck and flower beds just waiting for us to fill with plants. The process of moving is a PITA but the efforts will get us out of this place. Hubs is back to working his insane hours tomorrow, so the bulk of it will be up to me, sigh. LoL, we still haven't told the step mother. The new place is going to make finances really tight, but I'm hoping to grow my Pruvit business. We should be getting a good tax refund and be able to pay off my Nissan, his last hospital bill and hopefully a small balance on a credit card.....THAT will ease our finances greatly.

I have a very, very long list of things to do and am going to try not to get overwhelmed. When that happens, NOTHING happens and there's no time for that!!

Okay, signing off!

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Karri, I hope that things turn out well for your health! I need to find those lists of coping skills and start posting them again! It was helping me focus on them, but it got overwhelming to look at this huge list to post. Good for you for keeping up with yours!

Angie, when you are sick you need your sleep! ((hugs)) Just take some time, and get better! Fingers crossed that it's not a sign of depression. Get to the gym when you are well again.

Deborah, it happens to the best of us! Tomorrow is a new day. You reminded me, actually- I need to get the rest of my steps in, somehow. Thanks for that! Don't let one little setback get you down, just keep pushing to the next day.

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If y'all can't tell. I'm doing really well. Not really manic, but well. I went to my CoDA meeting today, walked there.. I might be getting a sponsee! She and I talked today, and we seemed to click. I didn't want to overwhelm her, so I just let her go with a bit of stuff. I don't know... I feel really clear. Maybe I am manic... I'm not sure. My thoughts aren't fast, but they are random. I keep trying to meet someone on Bumble... I found this one girl who seems nice, but right now I'm still looking. I need to go to bed early tonight to see my therapist tomorrow. He's pretty cool. I need to figure out what I need from him... I know I want DBT, so I'm going to ask him for that. We did an intake and it went well. I didn't go much into my past since we were just talking about the recent stuff that I've been through... It's been a crazy 10 and a half months! But good.. a lot of good.

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Depression eating got me today. Now I am feeling the after effects and it is making me feel worse. Nothing really particular happened today to make me feel more depressed than normal, except now that I've eaten my way thru a totally loaded frito pie and the headache has started that I'm dealing with, I just want to go to sleep for the rest of the day. I've even lost my motivation to walk to up my pedometer readings...ugh.
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Still sleeping way too much. I didn't make it to the gym this week. Have been sick the last couple weeks, but finally made it to my therapy appointment this week.

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Hi all!

I've been up and down a lot this past two months, but am happy to say that I am doing good for right now. I've been doing my coping skills daily and it makes a huge difference. Plus I've been getting out of the house a lot more than usual. I made a new friend and we meet once a week to hang out and to do a Bible study.

I'm waiting on several doctor-related things, and have lots going on with my health. I feel like this could not be happening to me, I used to be really healthy. Guess I need a reality check.



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This is the chat for March! Join us!!

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