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8/23/17 4:33 P

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Cherie, Adjusting meds before you have a hold on your drinking problem probably won't help much. Alcohol can really mess with your sleeping. I've taken Klonopin, too; it is meant to be temporary for anxiety, but lots of doctors use it on a regular basis. I stay away from Depakote because of my pre-diabetes; I've been taking Lamotrigine for several years now. Of all the things I've changed in the past 5 years, that is one that has stayed.

I'm very stressed with selling my house and paying for two places right now (budget?--yikes!!!). My son turns 14 soon, and I haven't gotten him anything yet. Don't know.....thinking of taking him somewhere just the two of us for something.....

I was out in the field today--beautiful weather.

Blessings to all!
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Cherie, Depakote can be good for mania and sleep if that's what you need. I think you meant 0.5 mg Klonopin, since 5 mg is a HUGE dose! If you are on 0.5, then maybe try 1 mg? I was up to 3 mg Klonopin when I started to taper.. It's a hard thing to get off of, but I'm sleeping a lot better now that I'm off it. It messes with your REM sleep so you don't get as good of sleep as you would normally. Just a thought! I know you are dealing with a lot with your alcohol use... Just think of going to AA. It's a baby step, but I think you think it's a problem and you want to stop? I don't know, but I know 12 step meetings can be helpful. I'm going to my CoDA meeting tonight and meeting a friend for her first time!

Deb, I'm doing okay. My computer has been freaking out like crazy, so doing the CL stuff is hard. But I'm doing better with it. I like spreadsheets and numbers, so it's not hard for me. I just like to relax during the IBC's... I don't lead, and just post weights so I don't get out of the habit. I'm doing okay with weight loss... I started around 230 and last Saturday I was at 226.6 (which is a 2 year low for me). I'm happy with it, but at the same time since my computer is freaking out it's a lot of responsibility that I can't deal with.

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I'm hanging in there. Yesterday was my last day of my PHP, so no more going to groups and stuff until my new therapist calls me back. I was worried about the co-pay of $30 per session, but luckily Medi-Cal covers it! I am thinking about changing health insurance companies when October comes... I don't like this one. I can't see a lot of doctors, I can't get my Depo shot (still no... I've been waiting since APRIL!!!) and so it's just a lot of pain. I want to go back to my old psych and therapist... I really liked them and I need to get the finances worked out and try and go back. I really liked them, had a good schedule and everything. But it's hard to deal with insurances. I have been stressing a lot lately.. I slept for over 11 hours last night, despite being pissed at my computer again.

I think the only thing I'm happy about is that I don't have to wake up at 7:15 am anymore. I liked the partial program, but waking up that early was really hard. And there was this guy in group who was insane... Like, he thought he was God and that he could do anything he wanted without regard to the consequences. I know he was there for help, but I feel like he needed one on one time instead of taking up all the group time. I had a lot of issues with it, but it was also really helpful. I learned a lot of coping skills, and I am learning to forgive myself, be kinder, and love myself more. I even wrote a song, which I'm going to record when it's done and post it here so y'all can hear it! I have the chorus down, so I might start with that. I don't want to forget it.

I know I'm saying a lot, but it's just been bottled up inside of me since I haven't been able to do anything on my computer!

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I had to take Depakote for a long time until I realized it was no longer effective for me. I just stopped taking it - weaned myself off of it and my psychiatrist was fine with it. It's a mood stabilizer and it can cause weight gain. It will help to mellow you out if you are manic or elevated. I believe when I first started those they did make me extraordinarily tired, so I slept. That is a temporary side effect. It will mellow you out though. A lot depends on your dosage too.I never noticed if I was sleeping better while on it. I would go on the internet and look up information on Depakote. You can see the contraindications and possible side effects and it should explain what the drug is, what it's done and how it works. I did this a good time ago, so some things may have changed by now. I hope that it works out for you. I will be keeping you in my thoughts and prayers that it is a good medication for you and brings you the relief that you need.

Julie, I hope that you are feeling better. IBS is no joke and the condition is hard to live with. When you have an episode it is so painful. Sending prayers your way too.

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Hi I hope that you are feeling better too. You asked what others do when depression hits. I have to get out of the house and walk. I force myself to go to the grocery store, so that I am around people. I try to be aware that this is only temporary , so that I don't get down too low. If I can't get out of bed in the morning I call my psychiatrist and have a phone therapy session and make an appointment to come in on site. I also ask for a medication reevaluation and review. I force myself to the gym. I like to use the elliptical until I can't move anymore. I also like the recumbent bike and rowing machine. How's it going with the 5% Challenge for the Clovers? We are doing well, but I am happy that we will get a break soon. I will do the In Between Challenge, but it is more relaxed.You are the CL and you have the hard job. All those figures every day must be difficult to keep up on. I admire the CL's. Since I am doing WL and ML I have been busy. I know that you are too. Good Luck and congratulations on completing the Challenge this Saturday.

We are getting ready for school for Micah. It begins next Wednesday. It has been hectic. This last weekend was "school shopping" weekend. Jeni is lucky. She works at Kaiser Permanente and they get passes to places like Columbia Sports wear and Adidas for employee discounts which are often up to 75%. off. The employee store is fantastic. So, they've gotten all of Micah's coats and shoes for this year. This weekend will be clothes shopping and school supplies. Pretty boring stuff. But once he's back in school, I get my days back, so that I can go to the gym easily, get my counseling appointment privately with out interruption and run errands without having to drag a six year old Autistic child along for the day. We are lucky. Micah is high functioning and normally isn't a problem. However he does have his moments. He talks, is smart, rides his scooter, and is loving and warm. He functions just like a normal six year old and will go to school in the regular class and not just special education classes. So he really is not hard to watch. I am one of his few companions during the summer time, so I try to get him to the park daily to socialize with other kids. Right now his mother and he are occupied every day with something and that gives me a little free time. I hope that you have a great rest of the week and a wonderful weekend with family and friends. Stay hydrated - it seems as if it is unseasonably hot everywhere. Take care and Goc bless, Deb emoticon

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I don't have a cutting problem but I do have a drinking problem daily.
My husband doesn't know, I've been sneaking it. I'm having a hard time to stop.

My nietime meds are screwd up. I tried a Belsora, 2 pills 25$ can't affors. tried the company still to expensive, insurance won't pay. Klonipin, 5 mg don't help at nite. so she is going to put me on depacote. Anyone with experience with it? I don't remember how it felt except weight gain. I'm fat enuff.

I hope eeryone is doing better!

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I have IBS with both...it alternates. My anxiety has a lot to do with it, too, I think.

As for when I'm depressed, sometimes reading a good book helps. Talking to my mom actually helps me; she's been patient and supportive recently (though we have had a rough road, too). I think of my kids--two reasons I keep going sometimes. Thinking of my ex, and even my current partner, can sometimes make things worse. I try and make a gratitude list when I'm feeling okay, so I can look at it when I'm depressed. Journaling and writing poetry is good for me. Writing letters and NOT sending them.

I've read that thinking of yourself in the third person helps with feelings. "Julie is anxious today, and thinking that E is comparing her to his ex". Remembering that feelings aren't facts isn't easy with me. I seem to be intense.

Hope things look up!
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*hugs Julie*

I'm sorry you aren't feeling well! It seems that you know what you need to be doing. It's hard to do what we should (I know I have that problem as well!), but it's a good thing. I'm doing a lot better with my stomach now. I started on Viberzi (but I have to stop since my insurance won't cover it anymore), which helped with my IBS-D. I need to figure out something else to do since I can't take it. Is your IBS either -D or -C? Just wondering.

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I'm doing good now. I had a lot of issues this morning and last night... I'm not too sure what triggered the depression, but it was pretty bad. I wasn't suicidal, but I was really down. I have been thinking about my mom a lot lately, and a bit about my ex. I did have a good? dream with my ex where I was annoyed by things he would always do, then in the dream he tried to kiss me and I said no. I woke up feeling like I still loved him, but I didn't want to go back. So I'm making progress on that area. I listened to some of my Mom's old voicemails that she left me, and that could have triggered my depression today. But that was a couple of days ago. I started going down last night, so I called an old friend and we talked for a while. It was nice, and I went to sleep feeling a bit better. Then when I woke up this morning I was down again. I went to my PHP, and we talked a bit about it, and getting out of the house and interacting with people made me feel better.

When you guys are depressed, what helps you feel better? I would love to learn more tricks!

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Kids can actually be a lot of help AND fun. When my kids go to my parents on a "kid-away", they are expected to help out as well as benefit in the play. It is rewarding for all. I remember when we went to my grandparents' as a kid, we'd help out too, especially when they got older. It builds values. I can relate to the "partner sitting on his a$$ when the kids are here" aspect...when my kids come to visit, my partner does the same thing!!!

I've been eating too many starches lately, not enough veggies. I'm stress eating, I know. My IBD/IBS is acting up; heart palpitations, tired, not sleeping well. I have stomach aches almost every morning that don't let me take my meds or eat until at least 10 AM (and I get up at 7), so things aren't as good as they could be. But I'm still working and still going, so things could be worse, too.

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Last time grandboy was here, hubs "assumed the position" on the couch and basically checked out. This time I told him if I saw him on FB or turning the TV on, I'd call him out on it....and I did several times. The 8 year old was more help to me than hubs, though. Whatever!

Okay, pain meds are starting to kick in... 😪

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*hugs Carol*

That sucks! I hope that you get better soon! How is it having an 8 year old and being hurt? I'm sure that limits what you can do!

I was in the ER Friday... I was in so much pain! I literally almost passed out from pain. The world went very dark grey, almost black, so I knew I needed help. They couldn't figure out what was causing the pain (I thought it was gallstones, but my gallbladder was fine), so they gave me a ton of medicines and numbed the pain and sent me home. I've been drinking a lot of clear "soda"- sparking water, water, and Powerade. I haven't been losing weight, and that bugs me. Mentally I'm doing good... Okay, maybe not. There is an ant on my screen and I don't know if it's real or not. It's not... I think I need to eat even more with my Latuda... I try and eat the 350 calories but it's so hard for me to eat in the morning! I just drink my bulletproof coffee for about 300 calories. I need more coconut oil and butter in there lol!

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Ouch! Here is hoping that you heal up as quickly as possible. Watch out for those curbs--they bite.
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Well, bad news....
I was out with Dad, sister and niece for lunch and while we were walking and talking, I didn't see a curb. Yup, I went down, hard. Spent nearly 4 hours in Urgent Care, x-rays alone took an hour, I'm really banged up. Only broken bone is my finger. Going to an orthopedist Monday - the jury is out on damage to tendons & ligaments in my right fooy, ankle, knee and shoulder. Good news is my left ankle is only badly sprained and all other left sided joints are fine.
Talk about a full body slam.
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Carol, you don't need me to tell you to restart Keto... It's good! I haven't weighed in a bit since I'm on new IBS meds and have only pooped once since Saturday, but I know I feel a lot different now that I'm doing it!

Deb, I do like Keto! It's hard getting used to LCHF, since I can't eat a lot of the carbs I want, and then have trouble eating enough fat, but at the same time it's really no issue. I lost over 5 pounds in a week (but I had gone off the diet so I went from 228.6 in the Challenge to 236... then I went back on it and got down to 228.8) so I was the Top Loser for the Week! I still need to get back on track... I've been eating too many carbs in general (well, I don't know for sure... It's hard to tell sometimes. I think Starbucks messed up my drink) so I don't know if I'm going to gain weight the next time I weigh in on Saturday. I hope not!


I was really depressed the other night and didn't post... I just felt like crap and that I didn't matter. I wasn't a danger to myself so I didn't go to the hospital. But I felt better on Tuesday. I went to the dentist which wasn't too bad, then I went with a friend to the mall. We had a good time! I ended up walking almost 5 miles over the day! Yesterday I was tired, so I didn't do much. I did go to my CoDA meeting, which was really good. I learn so much every time I go. For those who don't know, CoDA is Co-Dependents Anonymous. It's for people who are trying to have healthy relationships in every aspect of their life, both romantic and family. I really believe if it wasn't for CoDA I'd be back in Miami with my emotionally abusive ex. It's been a few roller-coaster days, but it's been good!

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Guess things are as good for me as possible. It's been raining here a lot so hubs gets rained out or mudded out from work. Which means we are sending much more time together. Which means I'm aggravated quite frequently. I swear he stopped maturing at the age of 13....which may be the way most men are, who knows.

I'm really struggling to get back on the LCHF or Keto program. Yes, I'm still taking the exogenous ketones and absolutely feel a difference in my mood, energy, sleep and appetite suppression. I just can't seem to get the starchy carbs and sugar out of my system. We have the grandboy this weekend so I should feed he and hubs all the carbs I have in the house. I hate to toss out food, but I think anything that is open/partially eaten should be tossed Sunday night; donate the unopened food and start fresh first thing Monday morning by making a meal plan, grocery list for the week along with prepping snacks.

Tuesday I start PT for my hip and elbow. I'd almost rather just have xrays done and not waste time and money on PT, but that's what my FNP wants to do....it's the first time I've frowned on her plan of action, but oh well.

Tomorrow I have family plans and then have to figure out what to do with an (almost) 8 year old boy for the weekend.

Check ya'll later!

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I don't think I get to see the eclipse--even though I live in Nebraska. My family farm is in the path, though....so my dad is taking my son to see it. It's on his bucket list....lol.

Things are chaotic but I'm trying to remember to not freak out.....especially when I can't control things I'm worrying about...or that they are way in the future.

Thinking of considering another mood stabilizer. I'm way too sensitive and roller-coaster-y. Yep. Just made up a word.

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Heya everybody,
Been keeping busy by canning 70lbs of nectarines and 60lbs of peaches. Oi. Only the pears left for this year and that will be a few months before those come in. I love the results of canning even if doing it is a bit of a pain.

Also been keeping busy writing a new book. Just got done with another round of edits on book one so it is time to try and find an agent to take a look at it and hopefully get it published. Book two is a sequel, so I am hoping to get the first one published without having to resort to a pay-to-publish system. I want that coveted print book publishing with actual royalties. Getting paid to write would be a nice thing.

About had a heart attack yesterday when I checked the mail--jury duty. Now that would normally be fine, but I have a vacation scheduled for the 15th (the day of the duty) through the 23rd. I am going up to Nebraska and see the eclipse at Carhenge with my mom. I cussed and worried and fretted all last night while I waited for the email to come in telling me if I was excused or not. Just got the notice: I am excused! YAY! One less worry to deal with. So now I am gathering together all the things we will need for camping out (mom and I are camping since there are no hotels within four hundred miles from the eclipse) and for the trip in general. Definitely keeping me busy.

So yeah. Busy! Hoping that the brainz hold together for the trip. Still fighting the anxiety, but the rest seems to have solidified back to a new normal. I can handle the anxiety with meds, but try not to. Sometimes there is just no fighting it and I give in and medicate.

Anyway, here is hoping for good things for you all and that everyone traveling for the eclipse stays safe!
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Audrey, my now 14 year old was diagnosed with ODD, so I definitely feel for you. But she seems to have grown out of it over the past few years, so have hope!!

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Hi all,

Audrey I had never heard of ODD, until you mentioned it. I looked it up and it sounds like it is not very fun to have to deal with, since behaviors are all negative. I'll bet it is hard to work with the disorder, because of her young age. Cognitive and Dialectic behavior therapy has been and continues to be important in my disorder. I find the tools that I have learned are useful and work. It does sound like you are very busy !! I loved dance lessons when I had Jeni in them. The kids were so CUTE dancing around in their tutus. Dance is a great way to teach kids to learn to follow directions and to learn responsibility. .Be careful and don't try to spread yourself too thin. Taking time for you, especially when you have a new baby, is paramount.

Diane, you sound as if you are doing so much better since your hospital visit. The weight loss that you have sustained is amazing. So, the KETO Diet is the LCHF Diet. Thanks for the info on it. I have several of my 5% ers using the LCHF Diet and they all seem to love it. How's the Challenge going for you? Did you get a medical excuse for when you were in the hospital or did you have to temporarily drop off the Team? I hope that you were able to get a medical excuse, because you seem to love leading the CLOVERLEAF's. With your KETO diet it sounds like you will be able to lose your 5% this Challenge with no problem. Did they put you on new medication to help you manage your symptoms? I hope that you continue to improve. I have trouble sleeping and eating in the heat. Since we are having these outrageous temperatures here on the West Coast, that is a big thing. I find myself eating a lot more cold things like lots of salads and cold breakfast food. I hate heating up the kitchen in the summer time by cooking lots of big meals that no one will eat because of the high temperature outside. We don't have A/C, so I have several fans going in the living areas, but it is really, really hot despite the air movement. It looks like there will be no respite from the heat this coming week. Our temperatures are supposed to be in the mid to high nineties for the entire week. I'm sure that California is going to be hotter than Oregon this week too.

I am doing nothing this weekend - other than chores. Jeni took Micah to the neighborhood Parks and Recreation pool last night. They had dinner out with friends, while I took a looooong nap at home. I pretty much transitioned from nap to bedtime, as soon as they got back. I really needed the sleep, since I am not sleeping well at night due to the heat. It was slightly cooler yesterday than it has been, so I was able to nap peacefully. I was sweaty when I woke up, but that seems to be a semi permanent side effect of the high heat. It is very, very nice to relax on the weekends, when Jeni is home to take care of Micah herself. Today, I will watch movies and eat my COSTCO popcorn. We went to COSTCO for groceries yesterday afternoon. Now we are all stocked up for the next two weeks or so, other than milk. I hope that you all have a wonderful weekend !! Take care and God bless, Deb emoticon

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Deb, I'm glad you are doing better! Keto is a weird diet in the way that it's low carb, moderate protein and high fat. I know it seems weird to eat a ton of fat on purpose, but it really does work! I'm down to 230.0 today, down from 235.0 on Tuesday. It's nicknamed the "keto woosh" since you drop weight like crazy when you first start it. It's slowing down a lot... I lost 2.2 pounds the first day, then the last 3 pounds over 3 days. I know I'm going to slow down a lot, since my previous low before I went IP was 228.6 and I know I'm not going to woosh below that. If you want more information, I can find some resources for you. I'm in a special group on Facebook called "Women on Keto", and they have tons of good advice and recipes.

Audrey, now that Xena is a bit older they can maybe focus on her? You guys need more than just coping strategies to deal with her. I don't know what's going on with her, but she needs her own help. Things might be busy for you right now, but you do need to work on putting yourself first. You aren't going to be able to be the best parent you can be if you are struggling with your bipolar. It's hard, but being selfish can be a good thing! You need help right now, and if you need it, then get it! Maybe figure out something to cut out before you stress yourself out too much? I know when I first moved here to LA I stressed myself out by doing too much when I had done nothing in Miami, and then I ended up in the hospital for that and other reasons. I'm just worried about you!

I'm doing better today. It's a lot cooler and I kinda slept. I did talk to my GP about my shot, but he said there's nothing he can do. I wish I could just get it! It's been a long struggle to get it covered by insurance, and if I can't get it by the end of the month I'm changing insurances. It just doesn't make sense to stay with an insurance that can't cover a basic medication! Yes, it's birth control, but at the same time I'm 34 and I need it! I've been on Medicare for years and never had a problem... Just one more thing added to my pile. But now that it's a bit cooler I'm sleeping better. I did have some issues falling asleep last night since my paranoia was acting up, but it's a lot better now. I think that I need to eat something for breakfast with my Latuda instead of just Bulletproof Coffee. Now I'm on Celebrex and Viberzi, too, and you need to eat with those too. I just have trouble eating! I don't get hungry. I have tons of food, that's not the issue, it's just that I can't eat more than a bit at a time without being full. I guess it's a good thing most of the time, but I'm eating less than 300 calories with my Latuda instead of the 350 that you are supposed to. *sigh* Food is hard for me right now!

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Colt certainly does have a lot of hair! The girls did as well, but this little guy is like a hairy little beast. Yes, Deb, he is my first boy. I've heard from so many people that boys are easier! Xena is 6 right now. She was previously diagnosed with ODD when she was 4. We did behavioral therapy then and things calmed down for a while. But I hated her sessions because they basically only talked with me and Rob and talked about coping strategies. I've got my own therapist for that... they really needed to be addressing her and not us. Hopefully after this eval, that will happen. As for my therapist, While I could get in sooner than 3 weeks if need be, I'm just going to leave it at that right now. The next couple of weeks are crazy busy for me the way it is. We have dance class 3 nights next week, the following week is Xena's eval, some testing for the hubby, and then the girls' dance recital. If I need anything in the meantime, I can either call and get in sooner, or message her on facebook.

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Hi Everyone,

Hi Audrey, your little guy is adorable. Is he your first boy? They are so much easier than little girls, I think. At least my son was for me. He was just so much less overly emotional and drama queen like. Jeni was difficult for me to deal with. It sounds like you feel so much better now that you've had the baby, but you are still dealing with the difficult issues. How old is Xena ? It must be very difficult to deal with possible childhood mental illness, but at least whatever her diagnosis becomes, you are getting her into help early. It is great that you are actively seeing your therapist too. Your therapist can help you cope with three kids and with Xena's psychiatric problem. I agree with Diane that you should be proactive in seeing your therapist, especially while the baby is so new and you have special behaviors at home. Postpartum depression can get to anyone, just like mental illness. You are familiar with the signs and symptoms of depression though and you can work through anything that you can recognize. It's very good to see you back. I am just getting over cataract surgery, dealing with vision problems and eye infections. It has been very difficult to post when I can barely see anything. It put me into a fair depression too. I have been futzing around with this vision stuff for several months now and it is finally coming to an end. I am ecstatic !!

Julie it sounds as if you are at your wit's end. Planning a wedding is stressful enough without having a bunch of other stuff to deal with too. It seems as if you've had a lot of awful things happen lately and you are under great stress. It sounds as if you could use a helping hand too. Let us know if there is anything that you need which we can help with. Hopefully, you can get into to see your therapist too.

Hi Dreamed, have you been away from Spark for long? It is very cathartic and inspiring to read about other's journeys and struggles. It sounds as if you are working on a plan for your program. Starting out with the Nutrition Tracker is a great idea. Charting is what keeps me on track, although I chart on Fitbit's website rather than the Sparkpeople now. I like their food database better. There is virtually nothing that I have not been able to find or count, since I began tracking on the site. The Sparkpeople Success Stories are very inspiring. I hope that you read and flourish !!

Diane, I hope that the heat begins to dissipate soon. It is driving me crazy. The temperatures here are topping off around 100 - 106. The Pacific Northwest is not used to all this crazy heat and neither am I. I prefer the heat to the cold and the rain, but this is a bit excessive. I am suffering with heat rash all day and just tearing up my skin by itching. I'm sorry that you have physical symptoms like being dizzy and not wanting to eat. Eating in the heat is difficult. It sure seems like the Keto Diet is working for you though. Just exactly what is it? I've heard of it before and I just don't remember hearing what it involves.

As stated, I am coming back into my own now that my vision problems are clearing up. On the home front all is well. Micah, the grandson that I watch for my daughter while she's at work, is doing well. With his Autism it can be quite a challenge dealing with him and his behaviors. So, fat this summer, we've only had one major meltdown in public or in private. Thank God for that. I hate it when people misunderstand when Micah goes off and they think that something suspicious is going on, instead of an Autistic meltdown. I had the police over at my house the other day when I took Micah to the library where it's cool. He didn't want to walk home and pitched a fit because we'd moved out of the shade on the way home. It is impossible to walk exclusively in the shade when outside, but he wanted me to carry him in the shade. He didn't want to leave the coolness of the shade and I guess that the library overstimulated him with all the other kids there at the time. I struggled to get him home and one of the people who lived along the way thought that he might be being abused. I opened the door about ten minutes after finally getting home and there were the police. They were very nice and had no problem with me or my explanation of what transpired after they met Micah and saw that there were no bruises and no sort of abuse going on. Micah just has to go to a quiet place with no stimulation to get over these meltdowns. Jeni, my daughter, went down to the police station as soon as she got home. She was less than happy that someone called the police over one of Micah's tantrums, but it was bound to happen. She found out that she can register him at the police station and if someone calls about him again, they can not react to the call because they will have Micah's official diagnosis on file at their office and they will know that he is autistic and that problems can develop from time to time. It is also for Micah's protection, just in case he gets separated from us, they will know who to go to and where he belongs. At any rate, the whole thing was resolved peacefully and for everyone's benefit, including for the people who called it in. Micah is fairly high functioning, so these meltdowns don't happen as frequently as he grows older and understands more communication wise. If he can be made to understand, then he is not hard to handle.

I hope that you all have a wonderful weekend and that things improve for all those in need right now. Take care and God bless, Deb emoticon

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Audrey, that sounds like quite a handful! I would say I can't imagine having a kid with mental illness, but I do want to adopt one. I don't know the background on the whole hearing voices thing, if she found out about it from somewhere else or just hears them on her own, but I agree- she does need help! And so do you! Try and get some time with your therapist. From what I hear, postpartum depression is quite common and can be really hard to deal with. I don't know what you are dealing with, but if you can get an appointment for less than 3 weeks time, then try. I'm just worried that you have too much on your plate and need some time, alone, with your therapist.

And your boy sure is a cutie!! He has a lot of hair for a baby!

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I'm doing okay today. I'm hot again, which means sick to my stomach, hardly eating, dizzy and depressed. I'm just trying to hang in there. I might turn on the air conditioner tonight if I can't sleep again. I did sleep last night, which I really needed. I got dizzy today going out shopping and stuff, I had to sit on the floor of the grocery store for a couple seconds just to chill while Richard was looking at the soup on sale. I'm sweating right now... I need to talk to my doctor about my option with my birth control shot. He's just a GP, not an OB/GYN, but I still need to get something figured out. Doing Keto without my shot is putting me into menopause at the tender age of 34 (I'm not kidding!!) I get night sweats and hot flashes! I love doing my Keto diet, though... I was 235 pounds on Tuesday, and today I was 230.8! It's common at first to lose a lot of weight fast, and I've been drinking as much water as I can hold down (about 3/4-1 gallon a day) because of the heat. I guess my mood isn't too bad, just frustrated at things. I need to get my computer fixed... It literally took over 7 minutes today from when Windows loaded to when it connected to the internet... I have done virus scans, defragging, and updates. It's a new computer, so it really shouldn't be doing this! I wanted to throw it across the room for being slow.

Okay, I went, wrote my journal and did some deep breathing. I'm a bit calmer, but my computer still needs work, it's still hot and I'm still dizzy. BUT I'm not as angry as I was, I'm calmer. I'm going to go take a shower, brush my teeth, and get to bed! I need to be up at 8:45 tomorrow to go to my GP. It's not the 7:15 I've been doing, so it shouldn't be too bad.

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He's a cutie, isn't he?

Saw my therapist this morning. Not a really good session as I was half asleep. The girls were awake causing a ruckus until 1am and keeping little man awake. Scheduled again for 3 weeks. Also, had the girls with me today which kinda distracts from everything. Although it did mean I got more of an explanation as to how the window got broken. And then this afternoon I called pediatric psychiatry, so Xena is set up for her new eval. Did I mention she told me that "the voices" have been causing her misbehavior over the past several months? Yeah... Time to get her back to the psychiatrist for sure. I don't know if she's for real about it, or if it's a fabrication to get out of trouble, but I'm not dealing with that alone.

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i am deciding to turn over a new leaf. I have been reading the blogs and they have inspired me to do this. Initially with SparkPeople I went from 198 to 163. Then I moved and many things came up.; I am now 188. But like other SparkPeople I am going to try again. I will start but logging my food.and continuing reading SparkPeople posts. Thank you for the Spark!I

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Julie, just get through one minute at a time if you have to. When things get hard is when we truly shine (like the whole diamond analogy). Just know we are here for you! Don't mind about saying what's on your mind... I rant on here all the time! If there's anything we can do, please let us know!

Audrey, your boy is so cute! I want to see a bigger picture of him!

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I'm just trying to hang in there myself. I'm running on 4 hours of sleep... It didn't get below 75 yesterday so it was really hard to sleep. I don't know why, but heat makes me depressed, too. I was re-living trauma in my PHP today (Partial Hospitalization Program) and it was hard. I did finally manage to cry, though! I didn't cry a lot, but it was still better than all the repressed emotions that I've been struggling with for a long time. Going to the hospital was one of the best things that I have done in a long time. It felt like giving up at the time, but the alternative (OD) would really be giving up. I learned a lot, did a lot, and I "graduated" from PHP today to IOP (Intensive Outpatient Program) which is just 3 days a week instead of 5. Waking up at 7 am is really hard for me, so I'm just glad that I get to sleep in a bit more! I went camping with my family, and while it was fun, it was also hard. Tomorrow my goal is to sleep in past 9:30 am, which I haven't done in over a week and a half! That used to be "early" for me, so it's a total change! I need the sleep. I'm about to jump into the shower so I will be even cooler to sleep tonight (the low is supposed to be 72 instead of the 75+ last night). I really need the sleep!

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Sorry to hear of all your stress, Julie. emoticon

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I'm under extreme stress. Clients of mine have a weed in their field that can't be killed (a crop science thing....loss of thousands or millions of dollars for him), I'm selling my house that renters are trashing, have to kick them out, fix it in a month. I'm having heart palpitations, trying to set a date for my wedding. And a truck sent a huge rock flying into my windshield--HUGE crack!

Don't mean to whine, but I don't think I can take any more!

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Not going to lie... my August is already stressful. My girls smashed their bedroom window today. It's an old-school window, so it means having to replace the entire unit.

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Absolutely!

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Hi all, hope it was okay to create an August chat. Hopefully one of our lead/admin can put a sticky on this and unsticky the July.

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