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This thread is closed !! Please do not post !! Thank you, Deb

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Hi Larissa,

I am so sorry to hear about your Mom and your Step Dad !! It sounds as if it is a good idea that you and your siblings get home to see your Mom and help her with her health problems. I know how hard it is when terminal people want to die at home. I don't blame her for that, but it really is hard on the family. My Mom had breast cancer and it spread to her ribs, spine, then to her brain. She technically died from brain cancer, but we had her home too. It was hard on all of us, but those were her wishes and we couldn't deny her that right. She had hospice come to the house and administer her pain meds which had to be given in shot form and monitor her progress. I hope that they have the same service available for your Mom. The hospice people were very caring and compassionate. The nurse was great !! My Mom passed peacefully in her sleep one night and we were all glad that we'd kept her home because that was where she was most comfortable. It is so hard to lose a parent anytime. I feel so badly that you have to go through this, because it is so hard to see them suffer every day. Dealing with it all is so stressful, no wonder you are stressed out !! At least your siblings will be there to help you and your Mom. I am so very sorry that you have to deal with all this. You have my prayers and you definitely will be in my thoughts !! Have a safe trip !! Take care and God bless, Deb emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

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I'm so stressed out... First I find out that Geo wants to split (which I agree with for the most part), then I find out my mom is going into hospice, then her husband tells me that he doesn't think she will last more than a month... then I call her and tell her I am coming to see her on the 28th (this Saturday) and she says she will try and hold on until then. My brother and sister are coming on the 31st so all her kids will be with her for my birthday (Feb 3rd). Then I find out my stepdad had a mini stroke. Even though he and my mom split when I was 17 (and I'm about to be 34) I am still close to him. When I leave Geo, I am going to move back to L.A. and move into my stepdad's house. When he passes, I will still be allowed to live in the house rent-free while my brother owns the house (so he pays all the property taxes and for repairs). I was in the E.R. last Sunday and they couldn't figure out why my migraine didn't go away. I was first given Reglan, Benadryl, and Toridol at the same time then when my migraine didn't go away, they gave me morphine. I was still in a bit of pain, but it wasn't too bad. They sent me home, saying I had a urinary tract infection and said that was causing my pain. I'm still in pain now and it's Thursday, Just so much is going on I don't know what to do. I'm depressed but not suicidal. I'm scared to see my mom since she is so weak she can hardly walk and now she is incontinent. This is why her husband doesn't think she has much longer. She doesn't want to go to a home or hospital, she wants to die at home. *sigh*

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Hi everybody,

I just got done reading some of my articles in BP Magazine and I thought that you might be interested in some of the articles. They are short, but have great information in them, especially if you haven't gotten your BP under control or if you have a new diagnosis. I will post the articles below :

www.bphope.com/hope-harmony-headline
s-
reality-check-recognizing-changes-inR>-your-behavior/


www.bphope.com/mind-over-mood-mixed-
me
ntal-messages/


This one is about Bipolar and Relationships. It mentions CBT as being an effective treatment for those with Bipolar which is a great treatment. It is helping me manage my manic episodes and helps me deal better with all people - friends, relatives and those that I run into during the day - like my doctor or the grocery store cashier, etc.

www.bphope.com/relationships-and-the
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ipolar-trap/



This last article is from NAMI giving more detailed information about CBT, DBT and some other therapies in better terms. CBT is mentioned in the above articles and I can highly recommend CBT as a terrific therapy. I can't tell you how much it has helped me !!

www.nami.org/Learn-More/Treatment/Ps
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hotherapy


I hope that you find these articles helpful and informative. Take care and God bless, Deb

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1/22/17 11:21 A

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Larissa, I hope that your break is as smooth as it can be. Sometimes it is for the better.

Just got back from a spur of the moment trip north to South Dakota to visit my grandfather, who just turned 85, and my grandmother, who just fell down the stairs and was feeling pretty frustrated and down.

Driving in 50mph winds stinks. 0 degree weather is cold. Family (without the news on) is great. Only minor political and racial digs from the grandparents and I did not take the bait and start to argue. I dun good.

Food wise I did really well...till night came and I started to munch. The road trip up and back involved some fast food, but I kept it to reasonable amounts by getting kid's meals.

And I am STILL stuck at 200 lbs. ARG! I am back home with just me and the dog and no evil desserts calling to me like there are at my parents' house.

One problem: I am getting Lasik done next Wednesday and will be in the house until I can reliably drive--probably only two days or so. It will be really hard to munch while in mandatory rest mode though!

Got in some exercise yesterday and today, so that is a good start. I am up and down mental wise, but as of late it has been more up than down. Hard to think that a year ago I was suicidal. Big difference.
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I have been going through hell. Geo and I are pretty much over, after over 11 and a half years. We just are not in love with each other anymore. It's both of us, not one of us calling it quits. We are going to stay together until our lease is up in October, and I'm going to try and save money to move back to LA. My mother's Parkinson's is getting worse and worse... her husband is taking her to the hospital tomorrow since she is so weak she can't even get out of bed. I'm dealing with a lot of stress and mood swings, depression, and increased appetite. I haven't been gaining much weight, but I haven't been exercising and eating way more than normal. I don't know why. I see my psych tomorrow and I'm going to ask her about my food and moods, to see if there is something we can do. I go to see my mom on the 28th, and will be there until Feb 4th. My brother and sister are coming out too, for my birthday on the 3rd. That's a bit of stress for me, since I feel like I'm not accomplishing anything in my life. I got in contact with an old friend the other night and I am thinking about pursuing a relationship with him in the future, once I am more stable and able to make rational decisions, as well as give me some time to heal from the pain I feel about Geo. When I met him he had no self esteem and no future, and now he says he wants to leave me because he deserves better, and wants to get into professional photography. I asked him what changed him, to make him get out of the depression he was in for most of his life, and when I wanted him to say me, instead he said his friend Heather. I can't tell you how much that hurt. I have been here by his side, and she is in Oregon and not with him and he picks her over me. He said after October, that's it. He doesn't care if he has to live in his truck alone, he doesn't want to be with me anymore. That really hurt too, I have been going through so much, and most of it alone since I don't have friends anymore. I don't have anyone here, and I don't have anyone on the phone. I'm starting with a new therapist next week and I hope I like her. I need some support and insight into my life. I'm just so down I don't know what to do. Don't worry about me. If I feel like I am a danger to myself I am not against going to the hospital. It might even be a relief after having to put up with Geo. I don't know. There are a lot of unknowns in my life right now. Any support would be appreciated.

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The trip up to SD is a go. No real weather to speak of for the weekend. Not worried about the drive up, just about dealing with the grandparents. Here is hoping that they keep the verbal abuse to a minimum, especially to my mom. May we have a safe trip!
-H

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Last week I pretty much shut out the world and laid in bed all week. Friday week ago (30th) I found out quite by accident last minute that we were going to have an old friend stay with us for the New Year's weekend. Last minute as in....I found out at 3pm that company would get to the house around 5pm. I'm not a slob by any stretch of the imagination, but the house was certainly not "company ready" nor were the sheets in the guest bedroom clean and I sure didn't have anything decent planned for dinner. I ran like a crazy woman cleaning up, went grocery shopping and came up with dinner for four in about 3 hours. THEN I find out quite by accident again that hubs invited his daughter, grandson and SIL for dinner. Gah! Figure out how to make dinner for 4 turn into dinner for 7.....gah! Obviously my husband sucks at communicating, LoL!
Anyway, we had his family Christmas on the 31st, company staying the weekend and by the time Monday morning came around and it was time to start a new week, I was over fake smiling, playing hostess with the mostess and pretending to be happy when I was really depressed. So I stayed in bed - for the week.
Okay, that's over and I lost a week, but this is a new one. Up at 6am, showered and doing my morning routine as per the usual. Dinner menu for the week is planned, grocery shopping list is made, went through & set up bills to be paid this week. I'm feeling accomplished. There's still 15 things on my list of things to do, but they aren't going anywhere and will still be there tomorrow (and the next day) and I'm not putting any pressure on myself to do get them done in a hurry. Baby steps for Auntie Carol.

I used to handle stress so well, or at least I thought I did. Maybe not.

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I am feeling wonderful today. I got a decent night's sleep after having a lot of trouble falling asleep. I paid my bills and have some money left over (yay!) and I'm going to try to sell my car to this woman for $400 when the junkyards are offering me $150. Geo got a car (truck) for Christmas and we need the money from selling my car to get his car registered. It's a good truck and should last us a while. I'm going to start saving money to move in October. I don't know if Geo and I will still be together, but I want to get out of Miami, and so does he. We both want to move to Oregon and if we break up he will go south and I will go north. I don't want to go back to LA where my family is because it's expensive there and I don't want to intrude on anyone's space. I want my own space, and Oregon is cheaper to live in. I just have to save money to move all my stuff cross-country (again). Geo and I are working on our issues and we have been getting better. I don't want to lose him. He is just sick of me treating him like crap when I'm in one of my delusions. I'm trying to get stable for myself, but I still feel like I'm doing it for him and not me. I am reminded of a song that says "When are you going to get up and fight.... for yourself". It's going to be a hard fight but I know that I can recover and get these mental illnesses under control. I'm working on a book called "Pathways to Recovery" and it's been a big help in improving my self esteem and hope. That's why I feel so good today. I wrote out the recovery pledge and wrote in big letters the last part of the pledge- "I HAVE A TOMORROW" and I'm going to tape it to my wall so I can see it when I wake up and start the day out right.

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That is so wonderful to hear.

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I had a decent New Year's eve and day. I have been getting headaches (not migraines, because I get those too) and sleeping off and on. I feel great today... I hope everyone has a safe and happy New Year!

~Rissa, AKA Diane

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