Happy October Chat

Our insurance company is getting my pills from yet another company. Every time they switch companies they are suppose to be the same pills but they are all formulated different. Which means I have to figure out the best time of day to take them. Don't get me wrong I am so glad we have insurance. I just wish they would stay with one company.

Looks like I will be going back up to South Dakota somewhere in late November/early December. I already paid for the licence so it bugs me to not bag a deer. Not to mention that it is an excuse for a road trip. It is a good thing that my dad and I get along and that the dog LOVES car rids--the longer the better.

I am now back to losing. I weighed in at 207 this morning. I can't wait till 200 pounds so that I can go on a mini-vacation down at the hot springs about an hour south of home. Seven more pounds...five or six weeks most likely. I am so wanting the weight falling off would fall a little faster than it has been. I find various items around the house to add up to what I have lost. I found a giant hole saw that hangs out in my workshop--22 lbs. I hefted it and then realized how much I have lost, but I can put down the saw, I can't put down the excess weight so easily.

The brainz have been quieting down to be in a normal brains state. I have been toying with hypomania for the last few days, but so far nothing to bad, just the minor increase in getting things done. I was off of my meds for a day and that might have caused the mania. Back on the meds now and doing well.

Keep in sight of the goals everyone, no matter how insignificant they may seem!

I'm doing better.. I was on the bus today with my music playing and this song comes on that made me remember the plane ride home from Miami. I'm so full of love for him!

I think I'm scared to lose weight I have not gotten under 230 or over 239. My therapist and I are going to talk about it.

I'm about to go and try being productive. Gotta get some housekeeping done. I also need to get the kids to cooperate. It really bothers me that they have such a disrespect to authority. I alk them to help clean up their toys, keep their hands to themselves, and use their "inside voices". Anytime I ask, they do the complete opposite.

Hi Everybody,

I hope that you all wake up with a SMILE and that you do GREAT things today !! I have been doing well and am going to have knee surgery in December. I can still walk though and I am doing what I can do exercise wise. I am up to 35 minutes from the original 10 that I started out doing. My sling comes off this next week and I am really happy about that. I can't wait!!!

Audreye, Wow !! I am so sorry that the kids' beds didn't work out for you and them. I know it is hard to sleep with children. I did that too,upon occasion, and mine slept corner to opposite corner on the bed, so that they were catercorner and they would kick my ribs or my back all night. It was very uncomfortable and I can certainly see how your back is hurting so. I hope that you get the relief that you need on Thursday.

Hmattax,

I hate it when my meds are not working right ! I've experienced that twitching and shaking and it is very hard to do anything when that happens. I hope that the tweaking of your meds goes well for you. I would think that it would hamper you in almost everything that you do. You bow hunt. I have always admired those who use bow and arrows. You must be very skilled at it. I hope that your "rope burn" heals soon. I bet that hurt a lot. There is not much you can do for that sort of injury, except maybe put some neosporin on it to keep it from infection and to keep your neck flexible. Wishing you a speedy recovery!!! Sending you positive energy and (((HUGS)))! Take care and God bless, Deb

I think "busy" might be an understatement.

Kids are getting new new beds Thursday since the last ones didn't work out. Fingers crossed they sleep in them. I'm in so much pain from being squished in a bed with 3 other people it's ridiculous. It's definitely not helping my mood at all.

We've been tweaking my medications to stop some of the nasty side effects. I had major twitches and uncontrollable movements. In comes benztropine. It works.

Lowering my lorazepam dosage to get rid of some brain fog and word finding issues. Still having some of my speech lost--very problematic since I write and edit papers for a living. But I know that the med is my rock and I can't go without it for more than twelve hours--if I am late on my meds I can guarantee it is this med that is keeping the crazy down. I learned this early on in treatment.

This last week we lowered down the lithium dosage as well. The twitches are now gone completely. I am supposed to call the doc tomorrow and give her an update to see what we need to tweak or if tweaking is necessary.

I am going to try to update my blog today and see if the words come in an intelligible manner. I am not holding out much hope given how flaky my brain has been.

Over my last hunt (about two weeks ago) I headed out to go archery deer hunting later in the month and one of the twitches had bad timing and caused me to not place my arrow shot well. Bad shot that meant I couldn't track him.

A fluke accident with my crossbow caused a string around my neck to get wrapped around the bow string. I didn't see it until after I was doubled over and panicking about the bow. My dad, who was with me at the time, saw what happened and was worried about me. I have a nasty rope burn on my neck (looks like a bad run-in with a curling iron). Grr. Now I don't leave the rope around my neck while shooting anymore. Fun Fun. No really, the trip was fun short of trying to break my bow/neck.
I am headed out just before Thanksgiving to try again, this time with less twitches to deal with.

Hi everybody,

I see that everyone has been pretty busy this month.

Larrisa, You are a strong woman! Things will improve for you soon, I'm sure!

Justpeachyga,,How are your medication adjustments coming along ? You are a stronger woman than I am for home schooling your kids. I admire you for that. We didn't have that option when my kids were in school. You just went to a private or public school. I think that I could have helped my son out more if I had home schooled him. KUDOS to you for all your effort. I hope your stress eases up and that you are not in a downward spiral.

Audreye, How are you doing? I hope that you are meeting all of your goals. Having small children often is time consuming. I think that you are still in the 5% Fall Challenge. Good luck to you.

I have been recuperating from an accident we had earlier this month. I am getting better everyday and that has occupied much of my time. I wish you all a really successful week. Sending positive energy and hugs to all that need them! Take care and God bless, Deb

I try and push Geo away when I'm down. Luckily he knows this and no matter what I throw at him he stays. Well, if we can't get along (we have been having a lot of problems lately) then in October (when our lease is up.. we just renewed) then we will go out separate ways. I'm really hoping that's not going to happen. I love him and we have been together for 11 years... I don't want it to end. But I have to get my disorder under control or I will lose him forever.

It's been awhile since I've posted. I've doing okay just trying to adjust to things with my medications and our new homeschool routine. Been pretty stressed but it's starting to settle down. I'm in a down swing it appears to my husband (although I feel up too). He says I always want to go to marriage counseling when I'm in a down swing. I think he is right. Is anyone else like that?

I was talking to a friend who has been through a lot of different places (ALF, nursing home and such) and she said to try and keep my mom home as much as possible since once she gets into one of those places she will get depressed.

I was telling Geo that I wanted him to stop stretching and dancing in my recliner because he is breaking it, and if he broke it I would make him replace it. He got insulted and then wouldn't talk to me for a bit, then kept on asking vague questions and get annoyed that it wasn't the right answer. Like Geo: Why do you want to walk with me?" Me: "I feel it makes us bond." Geo "How does it make us bond? and more like that. But we got things okay. He didn't want to give me any of his lenses (you can't work a camera without a lens) and he said no. He said that he didn't want me uses his lenses in case I break one, but I told him if I did break one I would buy him a new one. *sigh* He's coming up on his birthday and he always gets depressed on his birthday. But that's his issue. I can comfort him and do nice things for him, but it's not my job to keep him happy.

You are strong! And it is your life! Live ot to the fullest!

Perhaps in regards to your mother, you may be able to receive help from the department of health and human services or the department of aging?

I have a brother and sister, and they never talk to my mom. So getting help from them is going to be hard. Her idiot husband wants her to die in his house, and not in a hospital. She still has many years in her, but she's not getting the treatment she needs.I'm going to look into getting her some help with her Medicare for a nurse to come to her place every now and then.

I feel like a huge weight has been lifted off me. I was talking to my therapist about Geo and his yelling at me and she said I'm not a little girl who can't do anything, that I am a strong woman and I have nothing to worry about, since he doesn't hit me (not even once. he's paranoid about not hurting me). Just let him go on and then when it's over talk about what the problem was. But that idea- I'm not helpless- really got me thinking. It's MY life, and I choose what I want to do with it.

You have siblings, right Diane? Cooker with them and arrange an intervention. If you can outnumber him, it might convince him. Though he may be resentful at first, I'm sure soon he'll see it's for the best.

I'm scared for my mom. She choked on something and her husband had to give her the Heimlich. Combine that with her falling, with her husband going wherever and leaving her behind. He says he doesn't want her to go into a home, but it's really time, I think. Her home is not safe for her. *sigh* If I start this, it's going to turn into a war.

We spent the weekend at Dorney Park this past weekend. Good times. I'm a little bruised because I managed to get my arm stuck in the seat of the one ride.

Today, and apparently for the next few days, I'm helping my mom clean the windows in the church rectory. Bit are there a lot if windows. We did 10 today. Only about 40 more to go.

*hugs* I hope by now the bruises are fading. When I went fishing with my mom's husband I kept falling on the rocks and I had a nasty set of bruises. I also fell into the water a couple times. Finally I can get back to normal. I've been in a couple car accidents, but nothing huge. You sound like it was a really bad one *hugs* Let us know how you are doing!

When did I miss this car accident?? I hope all will heal well and quickly!

Hi,
Just recuperating from the accident and trying to keep up with the 5% Fall Challenge. I refuse to let this car thing get me down. We are having a lazy Saturday.Despite alll of us wearing leg braces, casts or slings and we are feeling much better going into this week, The healing takes time. My counselor has been sick for my last two appointments. I have one for this next Wednesday. Hopefully Todd will be much better. I hope that it is nothing serious, because he's had to cancel a couple of times in the past two months due to illness. I'm hoping that it is nothing serious or chronic. Have a wonderful weekend all !! Make this week count !! Sending positive energy and hugs to all that need them. Take care and God bless, Deb

Hi!

Good Luck! I'm from a month, to 6 wks, now I see her in 2 mo. Wow. But she lets me text her if I have to.
I need to write in my journal!
Didn't have some drinks last nite with my hunny, yum.

Have a good weekend

Cherie

I saw my therapist Tuesday. Things have been going well at the past few appointments, so we're stretching it to 4 weeks this time. I feel like everytime we do that something always comes up, so wish me luck!

Hi all!

Its nice out today.
Saw psych yesterday, she was surprised that I'm doing as well as as I am, not very depressed, crying etc. She has me on the right combo of meds. She did increase ambien from 5mg to 10 while I'm going thru this shoulder thing, and increase cymbalta, which also helps with pain. This is taking a lot out of me, i usually nap and sleep at nite restlessly after 4:00 am. I'm hurting by then, if I get up to pee, I'll take 2 advils, usually I can go back to sleep.

My meds come to about 100-120$ not bad, but it is when you don't have it, We charged it. That doesn't include my hunnys.

Thx guys for your support.

Cherie

I know the feeling of all the meds coming due at once. We have that as well. Times 4 people. Mine are all $20 or less because they're generics, but Xena's one inhaler is $50, and hubby has a couple tier twos. All and all, it's about $200 a month. And that's not including our "as neededs" that aren't filled every month.

*hugs Cherie* Things will get better. You just have to let your body rest and focus on healing. I hope you find one thing to make you smile.

Hi all!

It was my b-day on the 2nd, ate good, since I had my shoulder surgery, I have to eat what my husband makes. He has been great with me. I'm fustrated cause I can't do hardly anything! On my b-day had a couple glasses of wine. I enjoyed it.

We have been so broke, all my meds come towards the end of the month, its not a whole lot, but its money we don't have. Honey used everything in the freezer and pantry! Good thing I had sides.

On top of shoulder surgery, my front teeth came out of my dentures and I can't wear a bra yet, This is a long road, dang. trying to be ok. The worst is not being able to sleep very well, that is one of our worst things to go thru.

Nuff said...

Cherie

I'm home from my mom's and when I got on the scale yesterday and found out I was 239 pounds! When I left I was 235 on the same scale. I did have a good time there. I'm back down to 237.4 and going to have to fight against junk food when Geo and I go see The Blair Witch Project later on today.

A new day, and a new month!

I've got more of the cleaning/painting going on. Grandpa has the heat on. I went from being a little chilly to sweating my arse off.