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2/28/14 1:21 P

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Ruthie Im sure your bag will turn our well. I know what you mean about the cold. Roses, just try to stay warm.

Geo and I need to go to the store but I don't know if he is up for it. He's in a lot of pain

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Well, 60s today, supposed to be in the 50s tonight. Too cold for me. I have been trying to watch the calories, but not sure how I am doing. Too chicken to weigh myself. Can't wait for the warmer weather and I will start walking every day again. I know, 60 isn't bad, but to me it is too chilly to be comfortable. I am NOT into being cold. The crocheting project is coming along well. I am making my own pattern, so we will see how it works out. I think I can do it right. It will only be a shopping bag anyway, so screw-ups are acceptable. emoticon

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Supposed to be in the high 30s to low 40s today. The wind is blowing also. That makes it that much colder. Larissa, hope you get to feeling better. I know about those migraines and they are not fun.

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It's in the 70's here. I went to volunteer today and saw a doctor for my rash on my face. He recommended me to my primary doctor to get an MRI done because I've been getting a lot of migraines. Hopefully it comes out okay.

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54 here now, supposed to be 40 tonight......... hummmm do I cover the plants? nah, don't want to go out to the cold. Well, on my way to some TV series and working on my crochet shopping bag... emoticon

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It is in the 50s here today. Sorry I have been away for so long. Had the flu in January and my back went out in February. Still in a lot of pain. Start a new job in March at Lowe's. Hope my back is better by then.

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Larissa - are you still coming up to your Mother's? Hope you get out of your funk. Everything here is same 'ol same 'ol. Rained all day yesterday, never stopped and now it feels like it is getting cold again. ugh...........

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I'm going to try going for a walk tomorrow... I've been sick, but getting better. I might go with my buddy Lisa and walk the bike paths. I just need to get out of this funk. I went downtown today and got my new bus pass, and luckily the guy said he could re-take my picture since the one I had on my old bus pass was horrible. So I got my new bus pass with my new picture! I'm just glad that's taken care of until December.

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2/25/14 9:36 A

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Where is everyone? I guess they are down for the count........... doing okay - crocheting away and enjoying it, although my hands are sore. Need to walk today - it looks nice out and it looks like it will be warm.

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2/22/14 8:02 P

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I've just been sick and having a pity party. I did manage to lose some weight (down to 220.4.. so close to my goal of under 220 for the month) because I've barely been eating. I just have trouble swallowing hard foods. But it's getting easier and I need to start getting nutrition instead of bland foods (chicken, rice, and gelato lol). I just have to push myself to eat more.

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Sorry to have been away/MIA for a while. Between 10 days of having company (and recovering from that) plus a very busy work schedule, I've been taking advantage of down time when I can. To much stress/pressure can send me into a depression and I've been there way to much lately.

Mood has been pretty good the last few days. Hopefully the added bump of wellbutrin to 400mg is doing the trick. Though, the endless days of rain isn't doing much to help, LoL! We get an extra treat of thunder with our rain this morning. Thunder doesn't happen much here due to the height of the mountains.

In the middle of a 5 day run of work. Hopefully the guests will have been kind by leaving places in good shape. I'm not much in the mood to clean up after piglets, LoL!

Okay, better head off to get ready to do my job. Have the best day you can have!

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Well, had a good day. Went to the drs but they had rescheduled me for April and never called me! Well, so I went to breakfast. Then to Jax (30 miles away) to get my new lenses for my glasses and then went to see my girlfriend there. We had dinner and long talks. Just got home - now time for bed! Take care all............ it was a good day.

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I should be good by the time I get to my mom's.... if I don't feel better tomorrow I will go to the doctor. My sore throat is acting up again and I'm coughing. I had canned chicken noodle soup for dinner. I hope to be better soon!

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So sorry Larissa - feel better before your time to go to your mom's.......

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Im sick, whiny and complaing

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Well, another day. The weather was nice yesterday, but I just didn't feel like walking. If it is nice today I think I will just throw myself out the door and get 'er done!
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Have decided to try crocheting again. I have done it in the past but have gotten frustrated with not being able to do a good job with it. But, I need something new to do so am going to give it a shot. So, off to Hobby Lobby today to get some supplies. I have signed up for a class on Craftsy.com. Looks like fun. I watched the first class this morning. Let's see if I can do it!

Anyway, got up super early this morning (7:30)! Will probably pass out for a nap later on. I let my CPAP humidifier chamber run out of water and there was a funny smell that woke me up. Bad girl!

Well, off to a new week............. Pulmonary dr on Thursday. I HAVE to make that apt to the eye dr to check on my eyes. I haven't been in 2 years and am overdue. Not good because 2 of my sisters have early glaucoma. I have to make sure I get early treatment if I develop it.

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I love when insurance kicks in and makes everything $0. I had to wait 2 years to get Medicare and I'm a lot more stable now. Almost a year since my last inpatient visit. I don't want to break that streak. I was doing good until Geo invited Heather to come stay with us for 2 weeks. I can't stand not having full attention and so I'm going to my mom's to avoid her. She doesn't know why I'm up there, but at least I will be able to control the drama up there and help my mom move.

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Hey guys - sorry I have been away for a few days. No real reason, just been busy with other things. Still cold out and I am bummed about it. I just don't enjoy walking when it is below 65. The sun is out, but still chilly. Right now it is 44. burrrrrr for Florida. I know, if you live up North that is summer weather (as my brother-in-law in NY said), but it is still cold to me.

The situation with the psych's is this: There are quite a few Psych's up in Jacksonville, which is about 30 miles away, which is doable if I had to, but they either are 80 years old, a foreigner (who, sorry, I don't like going to - especially for psych issues) or if I feel like they would be a good dr for me, are not on my insurance. So, no choices. He has quite a monopoly going. But it could be worse, he could have a terrible office staff and therapists and he could be a bad dr. But he is none of these and he is a good dr, just lacking in professional decorum. I guess I should be more verbal with my feelings about his not focusing on me when we are together. Oh well, I do get the most optimal mix of meds, and a great counselor who I go through in the office, so that is something to be greatful for.

Talking of meds, I got my refill of psych meds and I guess the coverage changed on Jan 1, because my co-pay for seroquel generic was 0! I was having to pay $65 for the med. Yeah!

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I have Medicare and I'm very happy with it. It took me 2 years on disability to qualify. I had Medicaid before, but I had a $700 a MONTH deductible. Now everything is free. I would go to my psych and tell him to put me on cheap meds because I couldn't afford them otherwise.

I'm supposed to be going to see my mom on Saturday.... I hope I'm over this cold by then.

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Between health care coverage and availability some places are like psych deserts! I read that starting in June of 2014 in a lot of states, coverage will be available (financially) to a lot more people who now have spend downs etc. but if there aren't even the psych providers available I have to wonder what those people will do or where they will go.

When I went to see my therapist last week there was a bit of a scare in the waiting room. A woman waiting for a group had either a stroke or a seizure. EMS came and I really felt badly for her because of everything that was going on in such a public place. They didn't know if the medication she was on was what was causing it etc. and it was a bit chaotic etc. and I still feel a bit shaky watching how everything unfolded. I hope she is okay.

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Ruthie, that's horrible! I would hate to be stuck with a bad doctor with no other options. I choose my insurance based on my doctor. I just go with the insurance he covers. I like my new therapist.. she's so nice! I was having trouble with the whole Heather situation and I happened to see her in the cafeteria eating alone, so I asked to join her. She talked to me about the situation and she helped me see it better. This was on HER lunch break. She is really good, too.. I've only seen her a couple of times, but I trust. her. I will be sad when I go to my mom's and I can't see her for a while.

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Well, up and at 'em again today. I have to go shopping for a new tiered plant stand. The one I have is all rusted out and done for. I was going to scrub the rust off and repaint it, but it will probably cost more than just buying a new one. We will see. I think the old one is done, done, done, but my son thinks it can be salvaged.......... hmmmm project of the day.

And........ my psych dr is a good one as far as managing my meds, and I always have my therapist if I have to really talk to someone, and that therapist is in the same office as my dr so it works really well. The dr is also the only one available to me. I tried finding another dr when I was in the hospital a year and more ago, and found out there is no one else I can see in our area! Can you believe that? I was shocked!

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Funny about your pdoc! YOU have to teach him how he should act w/a patient. Incredible. So how much does he owe you!

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Hey everyone - guess it has been a few days since I posted. I did send out spark goodies today - hopefully I remembered everyone. Things are going okay. I went to the psych dr yesterday and really opened up to him. He was like, wow! I have been seeing him for 3 years but usually just tell him things are okay, or not okay. I don't get to talk much because he talks the whole time about everyone else! I am too nice to say shut it and let me talk about ME! So, he talks. But yesterday I talked and when he tried to side track, I just reeled him in again. Guess that is what I should have done before, or he was just in a mood to listen for a change. Anyway....... that opened up a bunch of anxiety and bad memories for me and when I got out I was like "aggggggggggggggghhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!
!!!!!!!" and went therapy shopping. It turned out okay. Talked to my sister last evening and got things out.

Home front has been better. I guess the last time Janet talked to me about the coffee I shut her up with a calm but firm response. She has left me alone since and I feel good about that. If she messes with my stuff I am just going to tell her to put it back the way she found it! I am feeling better about the situation with her. She is a nice person, but geeeeeshhhhh!

Anyway, glad to hear you all are doing well. I was busy today, washing, cleaning, cleaned the turtle tank - always a 3 hour chore........ ugh Glad that is over with. Sore now. Well, off to bed to read my book. Ancestry.com is down and so no genealogy tonight.

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Hello, Everyone!! I've been reading all the posts since I've been out of the loop--Mayo Clinic for a week; more medical tests (my social life is docs, therapists--head & physical) & trying to reschedule all of the above when husband decides on the spur of the moment we need to take a trip to AZ to warm up.

I don't travel well. Lots of anxiety, no sleep night before & usually includes tears! So now I'm just staying put for an extra week & he flies back to Midwest & snow after 4 days so I have 12 days or so in AZ. Once I kept extending my return so he had to fly out to "fetch" me & says I can only stay an extra week as he is lonely w/out me, but we see each other about a whole 2.5 hours after he gets off work as he gets home at 7:00 p.m. & gets up really early to play tennis before work at 6:00 EVERY DAY (7:00 a.m. on weekends!).

But I do like being alone. Just about to take a solo 1.5 hour hike. Wish you were here Ruthie & all you having to put up w/rain & dreary weather.

Happy Belated Birthday, Larissa!

Sounds like you all are doing well despite some stressful situations that life is handing you (Oh, Ruthie, I would be so anxious about the girlfriend situation). Hope your son is aware of situation & takes charge & have girlfriend treat you w/respect, friendliness, & be more mindful of her actions & words. If your son doesn't recognize situation, I hope you can communicate it to him for the purpose of having a more happy & cohesive household. That would benefit all. Tension in a household is not good.

Well, I'd better get to that hike before I get wrapped up in reading all the posts!

Take good care, All.

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Carol, can you put your phone in your pocket? less chance of it getting banged by something.

I'm happy... I'm down to 221.2. I know we shouldn't judge the scale, but I am really happy with how my body is progressing. I feel sexy!

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KAUAI-CAROLANN - I hope you don't have to get a new phone. Hopefully it was just a glitch...how stressful when you have an oncall job to factor in and wondering if you are getting all your notifications!

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FloridayFairy - yeah, I know what you mean about days blending together. On one hand, it is great to keep the drama low and that is a big stabilizing thing for BP I have read. I have been reading that PTSD can also impact BP because of connections made in the brain that are triggered when things get...un boring. We may be like the 'hummingbirds' as far as sensitivities when it comes to unboring! =D

Now that I will be getting SS, I want to start putting a little aside for holidays and birthdays each month. I understand it is a struggle but I hope that you get the chance to travel someday like you want to.

I am going to recap the SS experience just in case someone needs the information for the future to help someone else. Last fall I received contact from a company that works with my insurance company (Anthem). I think it had to do with my medical expenses related to BP. They initiated the process in October/November time frame but other than that, I haven't had much contact with them. The insurance company pays their fee and I am assuming that eventually I will now be moved to state insurance but IDK what that time frame will look like. I am hoping to get more information in the future about that aspect of things. I had a call from disability determination at the end of January indicating a decision had been made, but yes, things did seem to move pretty quickly from what I was expecting. I had applied 2 years ago but was denied and never appealed. I don't remember a lot about that time frame but I think it took considerably longer then. They said I will have my first check on March 1 but I am cautiously optimistic there. I am looking forward to paying some debt down.

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Wow MOTHERWORT you got approved fast! Weren't you the one a few weeks ago who was thinking about applying? Yeah for you!

Well, back again. No changes for me. My life is pretty boring and I like it that way. One day just blends into the next. I can't believe I am 60 already-life just flies by. But I have many, many good memories from my past that I can't complain that things are very simple now without much excitement. One thing I would like to be able to do is to travel, and go on a cruise......... but not much of that on my horizon. I just don't have the money and no one to go with me. Oh, well. It is a struggle just to save up the money for my annual trip to NY. Time to start saving for that now as well. Still paying off Christmas bills too.

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Today wasn't to bad a day. Sleepy for the most part, but worked and tried my best to get through the lethargy.

My phone is getting funky. It was in my purse and some how was restarted bumping around in there. With in 15 minutes the sound it makes when I get a text started pinging like crazy. 22 missed text messages. About 30 minutes later it started pinging again and 17 voice mails. Not a good situation since I'm basically on call 24/7 and people need a fast response.
Bizarre!

Have a good Sunday!

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Finally got in to see the Psychiatrist. He's still really pushing lithium (for the depression) but also says there's no real scientific proof it works for BP2 depression......so why push it if he's certain that I'm BP2?
So instead he increased the Wellbutrin from 300mg to 450mg and if need be, add some more Abilify to settle down any hypomania. After months of being depressed......I'd welcome a mild round of hypomania. Mild, nothing wild.

Had a day of errands and forgot to get fuel and keys copied for 1 condo and 1 house. Guess I have another list of things to do now.

At least I have seven days of work ahead of me. Things really brighten up when there's work to be done.

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I didn't do anything today. Just sat and slept

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Larissa - that soup sounds so good. Glad that you got some sleep and volunteer hours + exercise in...pretty darn good day I would say! =D

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I am trying to read through all the days I missed. I hope everyone is hanging in there. It has been so cold and not able to get out much...I can feel the black dog of depression gnawing at my ankle trying to drag me down.

Good news today though has given me a bit of hope (my social security was approved and should start next month). I will be able to help take some financial stress off of my husband and have some more choices...and better health care. We will still struggle and need to be careful, but it won't be as bad. And bad = stress = more difficult time mentally...such a horrible cycle. Maybe 2014 has some hope.

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I'm doing okay... I said this in the mood thread that I've been scheduled for 8 phone interviews and not a single call back.

Other than that, it's been a pretty good day. I got some sleep in, went to volunteer and got some walking done. I made some broccoli cheese soup for lunch and it was good. I'm going to have the leftovers and a pork chop for dinner. Then tomorrow, Zumba!

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kind of blah today.......... didn't sleep well. Walked yesterday - will go later today...... that's about it!

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I talked to my brother yesterday.. he sent the text to my old number and not my new one, so I never got it. He needs to delete that number off his phone.. he does that all the time (text the old number) so it's just my sister that didn't call. I'm trying to not let it get me down, but it's hard. I want to go for a walk later with Lisa... My body aches, but I need to get out there and walk at least.

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I'm so sorry - go for a walk you will feel better

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I'm kinda sad... neither my brother or my sister even texted me for my birthday "(

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well, here is another day. The weather is cloudy and foggy but I went for a walk anyway. Yeah! Went to sleep early last night and up late this morning. I was tired. Weighed myself BAD IDEA! Definitely have got to get in a healthier routine! Have a great day all......

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Thanks, Carol!

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Today is my birthday! I turned 31 today. A couple days of indulgence with exercise and I should be okay on my weight. I did a mile walk today with my friend Lisa. Just something short and sweet. I had cake for breakfast. I got myself a small cake so I'm not tempted to eat a lot and binge.

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Hey everyone! Well, here it is Monday again. The sun is actually shining and I think the temp is good. Time to grab the sneakers and get out of here! Not much else going on. Reading a new book - Out of Oz: The Final Volume in the Wicked Years. I have read all the others - and this one is just as good! I recommend it highly!

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I've been going out to eat a lot again... I need to reign it in. Yesterday we went to a Japanese buffet, and today Taco Bell. Tomorrow I'm going out with my friend Kenia and we are probably going to go out to eat, too. Then on Monday (my birthday) I'm going out to eat again. I need to watch what I eat so I don't gain a ton of weight. I got my cake already... a small chocolate cake. I didn't want anything big since that would mean I would have to eat a lot.

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One more long day and then I get to relax for a moment. There's plenty of things to do on "my list" and sure would rather just go spend money (I hear ya Ruthie). So far no spending for me, but it's hard to hold back when there's a world of stuff on Amazon, LoL.

Off to work now.

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Well, up and at 'em. Supposed to get warmer today, but it is 54 right now and looks like it will rain. I have been putting off going to the store for 5 days now (I won't leave the house unless I have to walk the dogs). It is just too nasty out for me. Please, let it warm up today I really need to get out and run some errands. Afraid I am going manic maybe. Shopping on-line a lot. Was on JTV the other day and put 3 items on a wishlist. Jewelry is NOT something I should be looking at! Also bought a set of Old Country Roses (fine bone china from Royal Doulton) that I needed. I have lost three cups to a setting of 4 that I have that are the old ones that were still made in China (back in 1965). They are hard to come by and I just said the )**&*(& with it. Not that I am planning on using my china any time in the near future........ $50 GONE! I need to be saving $ to buy new lenses for my glasses and also start saving for my annual trip to NY, and paying off my Xmass bills - not buying china! grrrrrrrrr but it feels good to buy....... that has always been a way of self-medicating for me. Some of you may remember my posts about me and shopping in the past. My post bankruptcy status has changed because it has been 5 years since so I have a few store cards and just signed up for the Paypal credit line (because they offered $10 off by signing up - I did that with the china). another grrrrrrrrrr emoticon

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I had a good day today. I went out to eat with Geo at our favorite Japanese buffet and I was good. I only had 2 plates, and one of them was from the Hibachi grill. It just felt great to get out of the house. I know I could have volunteered, but I just didn't feel like it. I didn't go to Zumba either. I'm just slacking off this week and I shouldn't.. My birthday is Monday and I want to be able to enjoy myself.

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Another cool day here in the islands. Can't seem to get out of this funk that's been lurking around for what seems weeks. There's a part of me that wants to lay in bed for 4-5 days and do nothing - but my brain knows better.
Been eating like there's no tomorrow the last few days. Can't seem to get enough food or control impulses to eat. Good thing there's nothing "bad" in the house....but to much of a good thing is still not great.

Better get going out the door for another long day at work.

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Yeah Larissa! emoticon

I know what a struggle it is! Congrats!

Well, doing okay today. Feeling better. My health insurance nurse called yesterday and asked how I was feeling. I said depressed.... she started freaking out - asking did I have someone to talk to, ect ect. I just said, yes I have my psychiatrist and a therapist to talk to. I also have my many friends. I said, you know, you asked how I was feeling and I told you...... She meant well, but I didn't need her to freak out........... Just stating the facts.

anyway, like I said better today. I listed some of the gemstones I have on Ebay to see if I could maybe sell one or two. We will see. I have a fortune worth of gemstones, but you know, they are worth what you can get for them........ If no one will buy them they are worthless..... So they sit in a box and do me no good. Maybe if Armageddon comes I can use them for cash???

Have a good one all. Cold here AGAIN! Supposed to warm up some over the next couple of days.



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Just do what you think is best, Ruthie... if you can make it Janet's decision, then good. I don't know about having your son there, but I know you will make the right choice.

I binged yesterday and somehow lost weight! I ate like 500 extra calories and I dropped over a pound! I just might be able to make it out of the 220's by tomorrow!

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Well, feeling better today. Time heals all wounds. I have decided to wait and talk to both of them and just "clear the air" without making accusations put it on Janet's plate to state what her real problem is. It should work out better. Now to just get up the nerve to do it. Always hard for me. It is soooo cold outside! I thought it was going to warm up but no. Raining again. No walks today. I know walking would help my frame of mind, but I am not going to be cold doing it! Other than that same ol' same ol'. Stay warm all!

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Ruthie, you know I'm here for you. Have you written out what you want to tell Janet? It's a good time, since you are alone with her and therefore your son is out of the equation.

I was very lazy this morning. I woke up feeling good, and refused to go to the gym. I had no excuse, and my body wanted to go. But I just didn't want to. I need someone to call me to get my butt to the gym. It didn't help that my gym buddy didn't go either. We are going to head over there when there is a break in the rain. It's pouring outside. I didn't go volunteer because of that and just wanting a day to myself.

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I am having problems with my son's girlfriend (she lives with us). She just shows me no respect and acts like I am a child and that I have no say in what happens in the house. It is hard to explain the whole situation here. We had another incident yesterday. Needless to say today I just have a huge knot in my chest of anxiety. I am depressed too. I know I have to have a talk with Janet but I am dreading it and worrying that it will just cause more trouble. Larissa - good talking to you last night I really needed someone to talk to. I slept terrible and spent most of the night anxious and upset. I finally fell asleep - but am not good today. It also doesn't help that it is very cold here and dreary. Looks like Janet and I are alone for the day - Scott is off to work.

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Drama is never needed except perhaps in a soap opera. I'm glad you are seeing your therapist tomorrow, will put things in better perspective.

Been cooking in the kitchen today to get things prepped and cooked for an upcoming busy week. You know....if it's not there and ready to go, I'll turn straight to junk food.

Other than that, totally board.

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Ruthie, don't worry.. I didn't do it. I got halfway through applying for one and then I just broke down crying. I just couldn't do it. Money is really tight these days and I can't afford to support her. She did find a way to keep her car, which is good. I worry about her.

I'm down today... just not feeling it. I see my therapist tomorrow, so I can talk to her about everything that's going on. Just so much unneeded drama.

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