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8/8/13 4:45 P

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All illnesses affect us emotionally (I think), but the key is BP is a chemical imbalance...When I worked on the med/surg psyche unit we demanded our patients behave appropriately...like no cussing because you feel like it or striking out, yelling, etc...it does help with control...and since you live in the world you are the controller of you...with no one to tell you how to behave...
I guess your co worker are too busy with their own lives and this world we live in now is like that...so you have to do the controlling and be your own boss of your mental health...it is more important that your boss understands what it is, but you cannot "lead a horse to water and make him drink." Hopefully, he might look it up privately...
Just take a deep breath and do what you do best at work...and its good that everyone has the same standard...that actually makes you special...it says you can do the work we require of you so now go and do it...
hope this helps...I know its hard...I went through it...being BP and taking care of BP patients helped me be more compassionate, but the world is not that way...

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8/8/13 12:19 A

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I would love to give a short workshop to my coworkers about bp. Since I told them I am bp, I want them to know what that means for me and also to give them a general overview. I even suggested it to my boss, but was ignored. That has pretty much been the response from everyone I work with. It is like my bp doesn't even exist even though I struggle, sometimes obviously, with it everyday. A little compassion or recognition would be nice. But, like most people, they don't get it, hence the desire to do a workshop.

Maybe it isn't a big deal to them, which in that case, I'm in a good situation.I don't know what they are thinking, but I suppose I can go by how they treat me. Most of my co-workers seem to treat me well. My boss on the other hand didn't treat me well, but then started to treat me better. It coincided with me getting better.

The belief in my workplace is that despite your disability you will be evaluated on performance just as everyone and that you will be disciplined as anyone else would. I understand that and it makes sense, and by law they probably have to treat employees that way. That said, isn't there a little bit of room in there for understanding that bp affects everything we do, that we may not always have control over our behaviors and emotions?

I realize that we are always ultimately responsible for our behaviors and emotions. This sucks though when the control factor is in question.

Just thinking out loud. :)

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7/18/13 9:07 P

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Yes, that is a very large group...if it were a smaller work group it would work...My Mom used to say "Do the thing you fear and the death of fear is certain." I don't think that works all the time...I guess I just have a very big mouth when it comes to things like this and that was not me years ago as I kept my depressions and hypomanias a secret and never went to a psyche doctor...Now I am more open...but then again...I am not working...I do have MS and my co workers knew that something was wrong. I knew it was MS long before I was officially diagnosed...Finally diagnosed and I just let everyone know...about the MS and about the BiPolar...I told my daughters and my DH...and my BFF...I know it can be done...it just takes knowing a way to do it that makes you feel comfortable and satisfied...you have to take care of your emotional state so do the best you can...

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7/18/13 7:39 A

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I work for a very large company, with about 20 people in my division. I don't work closely with all of them so it's basically only my superiors that know and about three other colleagues. Although I know that I should probably educate them, I also don't know if I have the guts to do it. And, where would I even start? I think it will leave me feeling too exposed, as in general I don't like sharing my personal life at work

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7/17/13 9:27 P

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I don't know where you work...if it is a small office or a big one...or much about your boss, but if you say everyone knows you are bipolar because you were hospitalized for it...now is the time to educate your co-workers...I know it is done at schools when some child looks or acts kind of weird and the parents come into the classroom and explain to the children why "Johnnie" acts the way he does...

As a nurse and a bipolar person (who kept it a secret from family and co workers) I have compassion for your situation. I do stand up for myself now and I try to educate people as much as possible to this disease. It is a (disease) disorder of the brain as gallbladder stones are a disease (disorder) of the gallbladder...only when people start acting strangely or are snippy, nasty or anything out of society's ordinary behavioral patterns...society wants to get rid of them (so to speak). Our job now is to educate our society so that they understand and can have some compassion for your situation...how would I do this? Hmmmm....if I worked in a small company I would go to my boss and ask if I could hold a short work shop...30 minutes at the most...and lay it out on the table to your co-workers...If they are good people they will understand...if they don't ...get another job if you can and be upfront...these people are not worth working for...

Bipolar disorder is treated with drugs and psychotherapy and sometimes with ECT...Carrie Fisher has ECT every 6 weeks (or so she said) and she feels it "clears out all the cobwebs." Many people fear ECT, but it is done much differently from the past...some people say it works and others say it only made them confused... Something to look at...

I hope you get a handle on your situation...mine is only a suggestion...I worked on an acute medical surgical unit for 2 1/2 years...so I do know what bipolar is all about...did I mention I am one of us? emoticon Try the best you can...

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7/17/13 3:12 P

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Thanks for the advise and support. I know it's definitely been stress. The bad thing is that when your doing well no one congratulates you on that, because then you're just being 'normal'. And they think it's hard for them to have to deal with this illness they don't understand, but they forget that your the one dealing with it every second of every day. Seeing my psych doc next week as soon as he has an opening and will try those vitamins

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7/17/13 1:50 P

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First off, you are doing the best you can. People that don't have this illness usually don't get it. This is an illness not a character flaw. OK, so you got some honest feedback. It hurts when we've done our best but somehow it feels like its not good enough. You are still a worthy and worthwhile person. Check with your Psych to see if your meds need adjusting. Could also be lifestyle messing things up. Stress and lack of sleep. I am sure you've been handling things a lot better then you think you have. Give yourself a pat on the back. Being / having bipolar can really suck sometimes. Good luck

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WJansen, Trying taking B-100 complex 3 times a day. Capsules. They worked for me for yrs. Hope this helps. Cherie

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I am sorry you are having to go through this. I am not sure I can offer advice for this situation as there really isn't anything you can do being bipolar. I hope that others are able to help you.

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A colleague of mine who I also consider to be a friend called me in to a meeting today. If been under some pressure with interviews for promotions and so issues with my boss. Basically she told me that I've become very self-involved, aggressive and irritable. When she said it I knew she was right. At work they know that I am bipolar because I had to be hospitalised last year. Apparently everyone is tip-toeing around me afraid that at any moment I'm going to explode as I am constantly over reacting. She also said that no one knows when I'm having a normal reaction or when it's me being unstable. Even though I know she is right, it still hurts a lot to hear, especially since I am really trying hard to be self aware and work on my reactions and behaviour. It makes me feel really isolated because now I'm scared to say anything about anything and have to keep up the farce that I am all happy all the time even though now I just feel deflated and like crying all the time. I myself don't even know when my reactions are reasonable or not. They don't understand that this is something I have to deal with and try to navigate in all areas of my life every day, and it's exhausting. On top of that now I just want to eat my feelings. I should probably go see my psychiatrist and or psychologist but my medical aid is exhausted. I just want to curl up in bed and stay there forever. I'm so tired of trying to navigate all of this

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