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3/18/13 9:39 P

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My husband has been pretty good considering. This is hard on a spouse to deal with. I always expected him to fix me and he can't. I have to fix myself. He has never experienced trauma like I have and he tries really hard to understand and be here for me but he can only take so much of the mood swings before he backs off then that pisses me off even more. I have HUGE abandonment issues. Always have and probably always will. I just hope someone can help me. Now I have to try to find another Psychiatrist that will actually care and listen. It's so hard to find them but I need one quick.

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3/18/13 9:35 P

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Ya'll are so right. I decided against weaning off my meds. I halved them last night but this morning knew that I wasn't willing to do that to myself again. I've also decided against the clinical trial thing. I'm sorry but I don't want a Psychiatrist taking me off of my meds that I've been on for years to "test" this new med to get it approved with the FDA. I think not. Not good for me at all.

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3/18/13 9:34 P

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I have a bit of a complication with my Bipolar II...I have MS...and Pseudo Bulbar Affect...that is when you laugh or cry inappropriately or too much or go from one to another without rhyme or reason. The doctors don't know what came first...Bipolar or MS...I tend to think it was the MS that intensified the chemical imbalance...I take Cymbalta...and I thank goodness that there are drugs like Cymbalta out there to help. It takes a doctor...a good one...to try and balance out these chemicals...I go to a Psychiatrist because I take so many other meds that I needed someone who knew the interactionns between psychotropic drugs and regular drugs...not to mention the stress at home...my DH just does not get it....He never understood anything...not a bad person...but when you are 20 and getting married you know nothing...and diagnosing the MS took years...I was 60...things leveled out thankfully...
I can also tell you that as you enter menopause you will see a relief of many of the symptoms as hormones do play a part....
Everyone needs to feel good about themselves...remember that you are a good person and trying to live life...

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To sin by silence makes cowards of men...Abraham Lincoln

Give unto others as you would have others give unto you...

There is a reason and a purpose to everything in life...


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3/18/13 8:07 P

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EWYLIE12-
I agree with ESMERELDA1220! Therapy & dealing with your issues is really important, don't put it off,
And don't stop taking your meds or divide them in half without talking to your Dr first!
I didn't mean for you to do that. I'm not a Dr. I just said I hate being drugged, which is in reference to my being clean & sober for 16 years. When I first got clean & sober I was on Risperadal, Klonipin, Wellbutrin & Prozac.
I'm on Lexapro & Elavil, which is working for me now.
Also, talking with someone & working with someone does help emoticon
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3/18/13 7:19 P

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You need to deal with the traumas in your life...they are extremely severe and I surely can understand why you need the help...I caution you on weaning yourself off of your meds. Let your Psychiatrist know you do not want to be drugged up, but let him or her help you wean off..this is one of the worst possible thing a patient can do...stop taking the their meds without speaking with the doctor...Therapy is so important. it helps you cope with the past and start to make changes to cope...but don't think it will "fix" you...You are a good person...so get the help...

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To sin by silence makes cowards of men...Abraham Lincoln

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3/17/13 10:24 P

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Aww thann you, debbie! I halfed my celexa and buspar tonight. Im tired of it. Im switching to natural, more therapeutic ways.. at least try to. Ill just keep doing this smaller dose unless i think theres a difference. I didnt walk today and i feel it emotionally so ill make sure i do tomorrow.

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3/17/13 9:43 P

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I wish you well with your appointment & being able to talk about your experiences.
I know it's hard when it's your first appointment, but hopefully it will go well & then it will be time for the next appointment.
I too, don't like being doped up!
I'm not a Dr so I'm not able to tell anyone what's right for them
What helps me is to write down the stuff/experiences that's bothering me. And have notes about what YOU want to discuss & tell the DR that.
The Dr will have the usual sets of questions & time goes fast! I wish the best & hope the Dr is a good fit for you.
You'll be in my thoughts & prayers!
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3/17/13 8:22 P

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Yea.. I had a HORRIBLE experience with my last counselor and never went back. She for some reason broke my life down in 5 year increments and once I got to my daughters dad.. I started having panic attacks and horrible nightmares. That's just not how you handle people like me. That's why I opted for a Psychiatrist this time instead of a counselor. I'm gonna make it really clear that I'm not there to be doped up and that I need to be able to trust him to counsel me and not just switch me from drug to drug. I've done it that way for way too long but at the end of the day, it's still in my brain and hasn't been dealt with. The older I get, the harder it is to put it off.

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3/17/13 7:04 P

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Good luck with your psychiatrist. I know that therapy is very important from my experience. Just be honest with your psychiatrist. Congrads on exercising.

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3/17/13 5:05 P

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Hey girls.. i was just sitting here reading the thread about all the different meds were all on. Im on celexa, buspar and wellbutrin. I have an appt with a Paychiatrist for the first time in my life this week and im terrified. I think for me, being on meds have just made it easier to not deal with my issues. I have a traumatic past and i dont like tLking about it. Ive never dealt with se,ual abuse, rape, domestic violence that killed my unborn twins and loads of other things. Ive found this week that walking helps me.. breathe. If that makes sense. I gonna wean myself off of celexa. And i dont even tKe my wellbutrin. My sex drive is completely dead. I know its the medication. Im kinda excited about starting the process of dealing with my hurts. I know it will fix me. Even tho we try to forget things.. our brain still remembers and until we deal with the issues in a healthy way, well for me at least, it will never get better.

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