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9/16/10 6:55 P

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Hello TRILLIANTOO~

I am coming in late on this thread.

I have come to realize that we can only work on our-selves. In the past I allow my thoughts to turn to frustration, anger, criticisms, and judgments.
Once I recognized what I disliked in the people that affected my life negatively, I then knew it was me and not them. I saw in them what I disliked in my-self. Once I treated my disagreeable qualities within myself. I surrounded those negative beings about me with a white light, in this act I released these people on a different plain. They no longer affected me that particular way again, as I had a handle on myself and no longer fell under their control or their traps.
When you feel negativity or control from someone remember they are afraid of being alone and likely other emotions that I can not tune into at this moment. Bless them and your self. Anything that is negative said turn it around into a positive thought. You will both grow and learn from this undertaking.

Moreover pay attention to what is happening around you in the moment your in, whether they be negative or positive. What are the conditions? What is the noise level? What type of noise are you hearing?

When you become more skilled at reading what the effects are around you, you will be able to change your environment by turning on happy, light, easy music that can sooth the tensions of all around you.
If it is dark open up the house and/or turn on the lights.

Use sage and lavender and cleanse every room of the house. Sprinkle sage outside and inside the entry' to your house and by your bedroom door. Get some sage oil and dab it on your forehead.
Cleanse your body and fast for one day. Take a walk.
Sit in the park and breath in and out nice deep cleansing breaths. The stress and pain of the assaults your mind and body are far more distressful and painful than what you are experiencing physically.Believe it. By removing yourself from the situation you are actually helping your body to heal.
Remaining in the situation and doing nothing will affect your body, spirit, and mind.
Remember change can ultimately only be achieved by us, and our positive view of life and those around us.

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Thanks - I have some adrenal support products so I'll try that.

Mostly my BF and my Mom are controlling, and slightly to fully abusive (emotional, mental, physical in the past) so there is a GREAT deal of external craziness I have to put up with just in general.

And they're very negative, depressed, depressing and angry people - so I don't like being around them.

I'm in chronic pain from an injury (herniated disc), which is made worse every day by furnture that isn't comfortable for me, plus having to lift heavy things (I have to call my "office" my dad's boat which means carrying lots of heavy thins long distances and liftin them up and down into the boat then reversing the process, not to mention in and out of the car).

Plus carrying a cat.

And that doesnt' take into account I can eat and sleep at my BF's house, but not work - and I can't eat or sleep much at all at Mom's house and get some work done - I can get work done at Dad's boat, but can't sleep there (and eating is tricky).

My life is just crazy.



In all honesty when I first wrote, the boat was a weekend thing - now I can go every day (I jsut ucan only sleep there a couple nights a week).

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1/28/10 9:01 P

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Trilliantoo,

This may not help, but have you had your adrenals checked? Adrenal fatigue will cause chronic pain and an inability to cope with noise and chaos. A 4X a day saliva cortisol test can tell you whether you have adrenal fatigue. You can order it yourself through CanaryClub.com. The real challenge is finding a doctor who knows how to treat it.

Now, I'm not saying that there is anything wrong with wanting quiet time to get yourself ready for the day. I actually get around 20 to 30 minutes to myself in the morning and I like to set myself for the day, too. If I wasn't so busy kidding myself that thinking was the solution, I would take more time to shut down the distracting thoughts and get quiet to hear the answers!

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I KoW WE ARE NOT CRAZY its them. but sometimes when you put your gift on hold it seems to diasappear. And I also truly agree that at this pointin your life you really have to put your own airmask on first otherwise if you don't save yourself you can save others. Just know that I am sending all the thoughts I can your way and hope this situation resolves itself sooner rather than later

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1/28/10 8:28 P

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Thanks - THEM WHO ARE CRAZY. I am not crazy THEY are crazy.


So normally I go for walks and stuff but with it being winter and it's cold and there is rain and hail I've TRIED to walk but it has been detrimental not beneficial to my overall process.

It normally does not rain for 21 days / 3 weeks in a row (with hail and hurricane force winds, and yeah, I can't find sweats or thermal underwear or anything like that) so I'm expecting I can walk more.

I am trying a few more things ... I think mostly I just need to be alone. In the shower today I was thinking how I used to spend 45 minutes in the shower each morning, and that was the ONLY time I was free ... free of pain, free of stress, free of psychic chaos ....

Anyway ... thanks .. I KNOW I'm not crazy, but somtimes it helps to hear support like that from others (many people say "get a job!" which I can't phgsycally do or "get disabilitiy!" which I've tried for years and cannot yet get, or "move out!" OK yeah ... to where exactly? Cuz I stil want to eat and all that.

It is REALLY nice to talk to other people who get the whole gamut of it: physical, body, mental, emotional, psychic, past life, etc.

I need support from that perspective.

I want my own home.

I don't want to live in "crazy" anymore. I've done that 4 years ... isn't that enough torture????????



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How did I miss this??? Or if I read it in a senior moment lol why didn't I reply???

You are not crazy, it is THEM who are crazy who don't get to that quiet place. They are afraid to see or really listen to their angels.

Is there a way you can go outside to meditate away from them??? Just being bare feet on the Mother Earth helps clear out a lot of stuff.

Hope things get better soon for you. Hugs, Jetta

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BLESS YOU FOR SAYING THAT!

I've often not talked about my challenges with other metaphysical folks because I usually get the whole "listen to your guides" or "what did you do to create this" crap which isn't helpful.

To some point, yes, it is true, but as a human being I find it very valuable, if not critical, to talk to another human being about it, to explore the situation - if nothing else to de-stress, and de-fuse the situation, but sometimes some very wonderful information comes up as a result.

And I think, just like giving a reading, it's harder to read for yourself than someone else. So it can be harder to see how to "fix" the situation by yourself.

Just now I met and talked with someone for about 4 hours. A lot of tears, anger, and all kinds of words later, I feel much more empowered, much less stressed, and I have a couple options to pursue to address things.

It will NOT change my situation, nor my mother, but it WILL give me opportunities to do my work to generate income to move out.

Provided they work of course - the catch for me is 7 am to 10 am - I have to get out of the house and be somewhere those times, which is before the libraries and various other favorite hangouts open.

But I have things to try, and will try them starting Monday (tomorrow morning I leave to spend the weekend on Dad's boat ... crazy-maker free).



For your situation, I wish to come back to that, thoughts are percolating - I hope you understand right now I'm in a "put your own airmask on first before helping someone else" situation.




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oh how I can relate to the power thing. This is my house not his but because I am looking after his daughter but hehass custody I can't throuw him out. Any semblence of normality is difficult, If I try to meditate or listen for my angels I am told I am an irrational person and should be committed . Did we really choose this chart for our lives there must besomething there we are missing

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Thanks for that response about it being "almost impossible".

Many people tell me I'm giving her my power - but it it is just so amazingly impossible to figure out how to NOT give away the power when you're dependent on a crazy, irrational person.

Anyway, more I could say but I have to run, a friend is meeting me and I have to head out.



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I live in the insanity of my Mom's house Sunday night through Friday morning. Friday through Sunday night I'm alone on my Dad's boat.

If I'm not there, I'm in Los Angeles living perpetually (as in he never leaves the house) with my BF - a guy I really don't want to be with.

I've been unable to work for 8 years, and I'm FINALLY able to start actually accomplishing something, but the people around me, while they say they want me to succeed, constantly do things that completely get in my way of actually accomplishing anything. And beyond accomplishing nothing, I'm often so stressed I have to disconnect into a catatonic state.

I've been better about that, but I really want out of this and I'm struggling hard to try to find a way to actually work and accomplish things, plus take care of my body. I feel like a caged lion, constantly throwing my full body weight at the top, bottom, and sides of my condition to try to find a way out.

I cannot really have a rational conversation with the people I live with (mostly Mom & BF, Mom's tenants are cool), and negotiate things out so that both of us can get what they need.

Being a psychic/sensitive plus being in chronic pain, I'm always the "bad crazy one" because I have unusual needs compared to most other people.

And plus doing my business, I cannot afford to be around "stupid", "crazy", "depressed" or "irrational" as it negatively affects me, which negatively affects my ability to accomplish anything - which, indpendent of any outside craziness, is limited by my own physical limitations and pain.



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I understand that bit about trying to figure out what they are doing so you can live your life with some semblance of privacy. I have a bi-polar son who thinks meds are crazy so trying to get anything concrete out of him is difficult. Its easy to say just ignore them but when you need that quiet time it is almost impossible. Hopefully someone can give you some good ideas in the meantime talk to your angels and ask them for help

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Trilliantoo,

In looking at your pictures, do you live on a boat? I noticed the v-berth and aft berth titles. If so, I know what tight quarters that can be, as I did that once. If you could give us an idea of living arrangements and how many live there and the dynamics, possibly we could jump in and help?

Right now, in my own world, I am being pulled at by 4 different people in 4 different directions, with NO time for me and trust me.....................my nerves are shot.

So, let's get you some advice and try to ease your frustrations!!


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needing quiet time a couple times a day?

I'm an empahthic sensitive, psychic (though I have to turn that off in the majority of my living situations) AND I'm in chronic pain which affects my nervous system so light, cold, stress, etc. means pain.

I'm aware that I'm a bit more energetically "tender" than others, but I really NEED about 1 hour (2 is best) in the morning to, well, I just call it "get it together" to prepare for the day - I have that, I'm fine.

Today was weird in that everyone in the house was being abnormally active at an abnormal time - when trying to establish what one person in particular (the loudest and noisyest) planned to do for the next 2 hours (so I could figure out what I should do) she flipped out on me, and talked about how I need to create more noise in my own life ("You should play music, wear headphones!!) or stuff it ("wear earplugs!!") - when all I wanted to know was what SHE planned to do so *I* could make appropriate decisions around that.

Yes, I need to shift my living situation and I'm working on that.

But is there any way I might be able to try to commuicate this (verbally or energetically or with angels, etc.) so I can have some quiet, or negotiate some quiet, or simply find out her schedule without getting in a fight?

Fight-stress on top of noise-stress is really the last thing I need to be having in my daily life.



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