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Monkeyshortz:
You are way too hard on yourself! Maybe you need some downtime if you have been working so hard at your job all week. I am feeling a bit blue too, but I am going to follow my own cue and take it easy, maybe do a bit of yard work. The busy week will be here soon enough! But I don't have to binge or indulge! It's all int he head; ourattitudes about ourselves. Listen to what you are saying about yourself; the messages you are giving. Remember that you are a bright and active person most of the time, and there will be times that you will need some rest!

Have a good one!
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Hey all,
I am in a really bad mood right now. I know exactly why...I haven't worked out in a few days and my eating hasn't been stellar.

I am feeling lazy and depressed. I feel like for the past year or so I have just been surviving and doing so half heartedly. I have thrown so much effort into school, teaching, and work, that everything else (inlcuding my healthy efforts) are just getting sub-par attention. I want to devote more time and energy to me and being healthy, but I feel like there isn't enough left over after everything else to do so. I just feel like I am my usual downward spiral. I have done this many times and in the past there has been no stopping it. I feel like no matter what I do, my mentality won't be changing and I am doomed to gain it all back.

I know I can do this--it is just going to take extra, extra effort on my part. If I could focus and put more energy into me for the next few weeks, I know I could get my momentum back. I am sick of floating through life surviving...I want to thrive! I want to be the best person I can be! Right now, I have that "Its too hard to dig myself out feeling" and want to give up. I know that I can't let myself do that. So for the next few weeks I really, really want to focus on me! Everything else should go to the back burner!!!

A few of you have suggested not worrying about counting calories until I get my eating under control. I feel like this is good advice, but how do I do this without losing sight of my weightloss goals. Usually when I stop tracking, part of me gets this "free for all" mentality and even though I'm not binging, I still manage to put on weight. How do I get rid of this type of mentality???????

Sorry, I know this post is a bit of a downer!! THanks for all who read it and your support!!!

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Day 14 - binge-free!

Good afternoon, sparkers!

I only put in about 2500 steps yesterday....
It's an amazing sunny day today. I am pushing myself to get out and rake the front yard...I was going to go for a walk and saw that there were so many people on the boardwalk that it would not be something I would enjoy today. I read all morning, which was different for me.

My foodplan is in place and I will do something physical today!

Ta, Reggie

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Cannie - Congrats for 21 days!!! I always feel happy to see someone complete one.... emoticon emoticon

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Working on sane eating day #9! Still working on some 4 day wins. I can do anything for 4 days!

Current 4 day wins:
"Add 10 minutes bicycle interval training" 4 day win - Daily reward is time to do a kiigami. Reward will be to buy $5 lotto tickets.
Thursday - emoticon
Friday - emoticon
Saturday - emoticon
Sunday -

"Make a plan" 4 day win - Daily reward is time to do pop bubblewrap. or burn a candle. Reward will be to buy $5 lotto tickets. The plan can change if I notify my DH or a food I plan is not available for some reason (I have to be able to change it, but with considerable thought.)
Wednesday - emoticon
Thursday - emoticon
Friday - emoticon
Saturday - okay, but not stellar.. Add a day.
Sunay -
--------------- completed ---------------

--------------- rewards I still get ---------
New red jacket.
buy two iTunes songs
new pair of pants and shirt
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I'm not going to eat anything else this evening.

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First, I want to congratulate Cannie for making 21 days, that is emoticon !!!

Junemonkey, Keep up the emoticon work! You are doing amazing!

Kitty and others on multiple streaks, emoticon !!!

I have just made 16 days BF, yesterday and am working on 17, today... emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

Let's make today count!!

Nothing tastes as good as being healthy feels.

Love begins within.

Namaste

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4/10/11 8:38 A

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I have been busy and haven't posted in a few days. I am beginning day 8 today. I did not track calories yesterday but all went well. I have a very busy week next week! I will pack my lunch bag of healthy foods on days I will be working late days along with my jug of water and I will track my calories. I will do my best to visit SP every day because it keeps me focused. I will get up just a little bit earlier and walk before work each morning.

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Hooray for Cannie!!!! Congrats on the 21 days! emoticon

Letstart- great job on making it through those triggers! Thats a huge accomplishment!

Its Day 52 here. Heading out to PA (a 2.5-3 hour drive) to see Grandma for an hour or so and then driving back. I'll be out there for 4 days starting Thurs, but she wants to see me and the DBF so we go. We've been together for over 6 years and Grandma wants us to be married so badly - she loves him! I'll bet she's going to play a big card today to try to get him to propose. I think he knows it, too. She's a riot.


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Day 2 complete and binge free.

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Happy 21 days binge-freee, Cannie! emoticon emoticon emoticon

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Day One - was a success. My stomach is actually feeling that "hungry" feeling (which it definitely is not used to!) lol

Celebrating everyone's successes today! Congrats.

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This is day 2 for me. My food choices were not great today but I didn't binge. I had family in town and we went out to eat. Both are triggers for me but I was able to resist. I need to get better at tracking my food but I'm still happy I was able to resist a binge. Congrats to everyone who is on a streak, and good luck to everyone who is being challenged.


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Good luck, Cannie, I'm sure you'll do great

Nothing tastes as good as being healthy feels.

Love begins within.

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Well, it just has to be said - I HAVE 21 DAYS BINGE FREE! Okay, it scares me to type it, and esp. to type it all "braggy" in big letters, but it is true. Tonight I am going to a big birthday celebration for my 90 year old mother. I am bound and determined to focus on her, and the other family members there, with food as the secondary rather than primary attraction. I have eaten a good, protein-heavy breakfast, and I have a sensible lunch planned. I hiked for over an hour this morning with a friend so I have some endorphins on my side. I plan to inconspicuously step out of the room (the party is being held at an Italian restaurant) to breathe and pray if the food, the family, the whole dynamic gets to be a little too much for my newly "non-bingey" self. I also plan not to bring attention to what I am eating, or not eating, or my weight loss, or the excess weight I still carry with me. It's not about me - it is in honor of my mother who is a paragon of moderation (I definitely got ahold of the "I want more" type DNA from my father's side). Good, bad, or lovely - I will be reporting back to all of you. I read each and every one of your messages even if I don't comment on them. I am feeling a bit self-focused since this will be a bit of a test. Take care everyone! emoticon

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Starting over again. One day down!

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I am back.....AGAIN!!

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Hey Shannon, Welcome backll

Sorry everyone, but I am working like crazy (yesterday 18 hours) and hardly anytime to write anything! Hang in there!

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Working on sane eating day #8! Still working on some 4 day wins. I can do anything for 4 days!

Current 4 day wins:
"Add 10 minutes bicycle interval training" 4 day win - Daily reward is time to do a kiigami. Reward will be to buy $5 lotto tickets.
Thursday - emoticon
Friday - emoticon
Saturday -
Sunday -

"Make a plan" 4 day win - Daily reward is time to do pop bubblewrap. or burn a candle. Reward will be to buy $5 lotto tickets. The plan can change if I notify my DH or a food I plan is not available for some reason (I have to be able to change it, but with considerable thought.)
Wednesday - emoticon
Thursday - emoticon
Friday - emoticon
Saturday -
--------------- completed ---------------

--------------- rewards I still get ---------
New red jacket.
buy two iTunes songs
new pair of pants and shirt
$10 lotto ticket
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Day 13 - binge-free!

Good morning, sparkers!

While I did not put a lot of steps on yesterday, I did manage to do two hours of seam-filling. There is lots more to do, tho, so that ought to keep me busy. Next week, I am volunteering for our east coast music awards, which takes place over a 5 day period. I will be working three mornings in the sponsor section.

This morning, I am walking to a women's discussion group so I am pleased to get my walking in first thing.

As for the counting, I have said before that I prefer to see my binge-free existence as a cyclical event. I believe I am on my third or fourth streak, and indeed have many steaks in the past few years, but I always go back to Day1 because it keeps me humble and I find going past the 21-day cycle rather daunting. It also dispels any competitive notions in me. I think that keeping it simple for me is to just keep repeating the cycle, plodding along and not putting pressure on myself about time goals other than my goal for weightloss and binge-free living. The other thing is that when I fall, or slip, (which sometimes happens) I am slipping in the context of a 21-day-cylce and not a 500 day one. It just seems less risky for me emotionally. This seems to work for me (most of the time!) I love Jolie's little expression: Anyone can do anything for 4 days.! Well, it's the same for 21 days, right? But when I start factoring in ad infinitum, it is overwhelming.

Off I go into the day. Ta, Reggie .

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I finished out 15 days yesterday... emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

After having eaten quite enough last night, I wanted more and felt like binging but instead told myself I could have what I was craving tomorrow if I still wanted it. I like being able to push those cravings out further and allowing the food, just not right at the time while I am not hungry. I really have to watch getting too full as it kind of sends me over the edge and into the thinking that I already overdid it so what's a little more...that mindset is changing as I proved last night. It is hard but I know I can do it with the tools I have learned...

Anyway, I wish everyone a great day and an even better weekend!

Edited by: HIPPIECHIC68 at: 4/9/2011 (07:50)
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Am about to begin day 1 - will keep you posted!

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Day 51! I'm aiming for 100 days binge free. I need to think of a major prize if I reach that goal.

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Day 18 complete. emoticon

Six years of maintaining a 20% weightloss and counting.
*To seek happiness, identifying the Self with the body, is like trying to cross a river on the back of a crocodile." Ramana Maharshi
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oh and Chance - I don't really have much advice other than not worrying about calories at all. Just trying not to binge and tracking whatever you eat, good, bad or ugly. I reward myself just for tracking. I don't reward myself for staying in range. It seems to happen more often than not anyway.

Some people like to start at Day 1 after a successful 21day streak. I find that posting the total number makes me feel less likely to want to engage in any behavior that would force me to come here and say Day 1 after just having posted Day 50.

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Well, I made it. Totally over my allotted calories, but I didn't lose control and that's what's important.

Grandma's on the decline, so we're headed out there on Sunday for the day. Then its back to work for a few days and then I can go out there Thu-Sun to take over caregiver duties. This is really tough. But one day at a time. I feel like I'm pre-greiving. God bless hospice, though!

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Congratulations to everyone on a streak!!!!!

I'm on day five of binge free!!!!!! YAY!

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Happy Friday team! Thanks for the warm welcome back :)

Day 1 here. I'm happy to be committed to something again.

Got some bad news about my dad's health this morning, and I'm trying to remind myself that I'm doing what I can to help. My dad needs another procedure, and they had a social worker to talk to my parents about "conserving assets." Supposedly the social worker asked about how nearby their children live, which makes me feel guilty, like I should be there to help more. But I go up every weekend I can and I need to stop driving myself crazy. What's happening is not my fault, and I need to help what I can and accept what I can't.

Cannie - congrats on 19 days - that's awesome!! Great job stopping to think/read blogs after that snack.

June Monkey - WOW, 50 days is fantastic! Any quick advice? :)

Oohlala - I agree with you about getting "sane" eating under control rather than counting calories. But I know how Monkey feels because I'm thinking about an upcoming event (10 year high school reunion). I change my mind everyday about whether I should be following a plan or just trying to eat sanely/intuitively.

Hippie - Love your flower count! I might steal the idea if I get a good streak and find an image I love :)

Reggie - that roof work doesn't sound fun, but good idea with the music!

LetsStart - welcome!!

Ruu - good for you for coming here & recommitting!






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Resistance is *not* futile, Junemonkey... emoticon

Nothing tastes as good as being healthy feels.

Love begins within.

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Oh wow, I am really feeling the urge today, and I don't know why!

I had some toast, I'm online, I'm planning to try a nap in a few minutes even though I have some work to do. I'm just in a bad mood and I don't know why. Ack!

Just need to try to distract myself until it passes. It will pass. It will pass. It will pass :)

Man, I need to buddy up with someone who will text message when it gets nutty like this. Anyone game?


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I have to start over again. Last night was an actual binge even though it was over within an hour or so. I just have to remind myself that I didn't actually eat enough to gain a lot of weight. When I was honest with myself and put it on the tracker it was double what I usually eat in a day, but would only amount to less than a half a pound of excess calories.

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Hi there, I just introduced myself to the team. I'm actually rejoining. I remember this challenge really helping me prevent binges. So this is day one for me. Good luck everyone.

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Working on sane eating day #7! Still working on some 4 day wins. I can do anything for 4 days!

Current 4 day wins:
"Add 10 minutes bicycle interval training" 4 day win - Daily reward is time to do a kiigami. Reward will be to buy $5 lotto tickets.
Thursday - emoticon
Friday -
Saturday -
Sunday -

"Make a plan" 4 day win - Daily reward is time to do pop bubblewrap. or burn a candle. Reward will be to buy $5 lotto tickets. The plan can change if I notify my DH or a food I plan is not available for some reason (I have to be able to change it, but with considerable thought.)
Wednesday - emoticon
Thursday - emoticon
Friday -
Saturday -
--------------- completed ---------------

--------------- rewards I still get ---------
New red jacket.
buy two iTunes songs
new pair of pants and shirt
$10 lotto ticket
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Kitty, you are right. It *is* exercise...when I painted my bedroom last weekend over 3 days, I counted it as mine. Lots of shoulder work, last weekend, lol.

Nothing tastes as good as being healthy feels.

Love begins within.

Namaste

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Day 12 - binge-free!

Good morning, sparkers!

Despite my best intentions, I was a lazy lump yesterday. About 1300 steps! I did not walk. I was sleep-deprived and cranky all day. I did not binge but I sure as heck could have very easily. Funny how when I get into that dark mindset, I imagine that I am eating tons of food, when in fact, it was only in the 1500 range. When I get to feeling out of sorts, or like nothing is going my way, or that I just keep dropping things in the kitchen, my instinct is to eat to comfort myself. I did drive to my mothers' to pick up some salads she had bought for us. That was my only outing.

I think I am procrastinating terribly at having to get up the ladder and do seam-filling on the ceiling. I dumped my friend who was supposedly helping with this when I realized that we are now into year 2 of the reno and he had committed 22 hours over the past 6 months to making my project a priority. I was spending an awful lot of time waiting on him to show up. And one day I just got fed up with it and said that I didn't want him to work on the project anymore. (He was probably breathing a sign of relief!) I had to see the writing on the wall! Or maybe that should be the seam-filler NOT on the wall!

So now that I have taken the reins back and am not waiting around for Prince Charming to show up and rescue me from my plight, I have to get up on the damn ladder, and I think I am resentful about it, but I know that I just have to not be p--ssed off about it, is all! I have to accept it, put on some loud 70s music, and do it! And it is exercise, right?

Off into the day I go. Have a good one, folks.
Ta, Reggie

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Yesterday make 14 days... emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

I agree with Oolala about not restricting calories while learning not to binge.

Have a great day, all!
Peace, love and light

Nothing tastes as good as being healthy feels.

Love begins within.

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Day 50!

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Shannon, of course we remember you! Wow, a lot on your plate. (ha ha) It's funny how life can upset the apple cart, yet everything actually goes better when our eating is not disordered. A lesson to be learned over and over.

Monkey, I didn't know you were aiming for your Spark range. I know you have a wedding coming up, but I think it will actually end up being faster to get your eating sane if you don't worry too much about calories. Once your eating is sane, you can fuss with calories, but until then, think instead of having vegetables and fruit at your meals and then eating only enough of the dense stuff- meat, starches, fats- to make it seem like a meal. but make sure you have some dense stuff! I know I will sometimes have a fantasy that I want a big, fast food burger and fries for lunch, but I will have already brought my normal lunch. When I do eat my lunch, since I always include something a little rich-today it was little Greek dolmades (80% fat) that I cut up and mixed in with my regular fare, plus I poured over the lemony sauce. Scrumptious! And when I finished I thought I wouldn't have actually enjoyed the burger any more and would have felt a lot heavier. And remember to have a beginning and end to your eating events so that there are definite gaps between them. These things alone may be all you need if you are being honest about how hungry you are.

My, aren't I preachy.

What a shame about that young man, Reggie. It's still very strange for me to see how many people I've outlived. I don't mean at all to be morbid about it, but I am definitely getting closer to the time I could go. I'm trying to think who I just read about who died at 59. I'm 57! Then again, my mother was 7 weeks shy of 90 when she died, and I saw yesterday a video of a 100-yr-old man skiing! and competing! against Methuselah, I guess.

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Welcome back Shannon. Sorry to hear about your friend, Reggie - that is heartbreaking. Monkeyshortz, your plan sounds so sensible - you are young and strong and need that fuel! Snapdragon, I can so relate to the "at home mama" drama, or lack thereof, that can lead to boredom eating. I just blogged about this very thing a couple days ago. Oolala - I found your post to be fascinating, and really gave me some "food for thought", as it were. I had an interesting experience last night. I have been binge free for 19 days. I took a rest day from exercising yesterday, and, not coincidentally, had eaten under my calorie range according to the SP tracker. I went for a snack, one I had just purchased and had not eaten before, and then realized I had grabbed the wrong thing at the store and this had a bit more sugar than I wanted. I decided to eat it anyway since it was small, and I had the calories to spend. Then, I felt the urge start to rev up - I ate it quickly, I cleaned the container of every speck of food, and I started to rationalize having another. Instead, I decided to read a few blogs on SP. Each and every blog I read was written by someone who had "fallen off the wagon" or relapsed or re-gained or whatever term they used. That was enough to short-circuit the binge thoughts. I have a feeling that is a lesson I will be putting to use again. I appreciate people sharing their struggles and allowing me to tag along with their learning process.Take care all.

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hi Shannon, sorry about your tough time. "its not how many times you fall, but how many times you get back up again that really matters."
I have been known to eat brown sugar out of the bag myself. I think the fact that I stay home all day with my kids has a huge part in my weight, and eating problems....I find it hard to occupy my mind with things that are more exciting than folding more laundry or doing the dishes. It can be done though.

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Hey Shannon! Welcome back. Sorry to hear that you have had a rough time. This is the place to be, and you will get back on track lickity-split. Don't forget to post! Show up and everything else will fall into place..Ta, Reggie .. emoticon emoticon

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Hi team!

I used to post on here fairly regularly, and it's nice to see some friendly, familiar faces! (Hi Monkey, Oolala, Reggie, Jol1key!) I don't know why I stopped posting, but I think I need to be here now. I had a small binge this morning ("work from home Thursdays" are tough for me!), so Day 1 will be tomorrow, but I will not binge for the rest of today. I tracked everything (which is unusual since I haven't been tracking much lately), and the binge was under 400 calories. It was definitely a binge though because I was eating compulsively and eating weird stuff, like brown sugar out of the bag :( So glad I tracked and realized it wasn't that bad, so rather than thinking "today is already ruined," I can move on and have an overall healthy day.

Update on my life: I've been doing well, but had a tough Fall. My dad was diagnosed with brain cancer and had a tumor removed. He's doing well on chemo, but the surgery caused changes to his personality (he's kind of nasty now), and the whole situation is sad. I also started grad school last Fall for speech pathology and I'm still at my accounting job. Full time work + full time school = stressed out, sedentary, depressed Shannon. My husband was also working abroad at the time, so ate all my feelings, and I'm now 15-20 pounds heavier than last Summer. But I need to get a grip because life is going alright right now, but I've kept the bad fitness & eating habits. I signed up for a marathon this fall and I'm hoping the structure of the training program (which starts in July) will help keep me on track.

Whew, sorry I'm writing a novel here. I'll be back in a bit to try to catch up on how everyone's doing! I will not binge for the rest of the day. I will stop and think "am I hungry" before eating.

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Oolala - I'm not sure I technically agree with the term extinction burst used for binge eating, I think maybe it works more as far as giving into cravings. I think what I'm at risk for now is what they call spontaneous recovery - which is a little burst somewhere along the maintenance portion. That's all technicalities, but the idea is the same - keep muscling through, because if you give in, you may reinforce a worse version of the original behavior.

One thing that I do know, is that in order to prevent (or minimize) extinction bursts - and the risk of reinforcing the behavior at a higher level, you have to have strong alternative replacement behavior in place. So, if you binge eat for comfort, you need other comfort behaviors to use instead, because its not like the need for comfort goes away. Right now napping or listening to jazz helps me. If you binge eat to escape, then you might want to start giving yourself permission to play word games or read trashy novels as a replacement.

The Beck plan is based on some of the same principles, although they aren't labeled as such, and I find that it makes a lot of sense to me. Doesn't make it easy, just makes it make sense :)



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Working on sane eating day #6! Still working on some 4 day wins. I can do anything for 4 days!

Current 4 day wins:
"Add 10 minutes bicycle interval training" 4 day win - Daily reward is time to do a kiigami. Reward will be to buy $5 lotto tickets.
Thursday -
Friday -
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"Make a plan" 4 day win - Daily reward is time to do pop bubblewrap. or burn a candle. Reward will be to buy $5 lotto tickets. The plan can change if I notify my DH or a food I plan is not available for some reason (I have to be able to change it, but with considerable thought.)
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NEW - "5 Quickfire, pushups, situps, stability ball and get at least 10000 steps Saturday, Sunday, and 6000 steps Monday, Tuesday" Saturday through Tuesday 4 day win - Daily reward is time to do a kiigami. Reward will be the top to go with my new pants (these are rewards because I don't "need" them, but they're pretty).
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Monday - 5300 steps and just didn't get to the QF....add a day
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New red jacket.
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Hey guys,
I think I am back to day 1 again. Yesterday, I just ate a ton at work. I just couldn't stay away from the potato chips! My binge was small, but the same behaviors were there!

I have come up with a new plan for myself that I would like to try. I adjusted my calorie ranges (offset by more exercise). I was in the 1200-1500 range. I know this should be feasibly easy, but I am struggling with it. Might as well take a step or two back and focus on getting some success under my belt then to keep on struggling. Plus, working out more will be great! I am also going to try eating a bit more at breakfast. I am usually starving by lunch because I don't eat enough and feel it would be healthier to eat more then and less at night. We will see!
I'm also feeling a bit guilty because I didn't get my run in yesterday. My ankles were really sore (not sure why) and felt that I should take a day off. I know I made the smart choice, but I still feel bad!

Well, back to work! I have alot to get done today and not alot of time to do it in!!



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That's fantastic! Working through your feelings IS the part of the process of resisting because you are doing something else besides eating, as well as learning possibly not to get as upset in teh future. Don't you think it's actually more of dealing with the thoughts that bring up the feelings? All the self-blame or catastrophisizing or thinking the problems will never end (they don't) that are all so upsetting. Dealing with all the thoughts that work me up has helped me a lot, too. And sometimes just plain ol' diverting does, esp, when I have a problem that can't be solved in the short term. But the first step is stopping eating long enough to actually do some of the other things.

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*To seek happiness, identifying the Self with the body, is like trying to cross a river on the back of a crocodile." Ramana Maharshi
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For various reasons, I have binged with food my entire life - mostly to numb anxiety.
Since January, I've been working through my feelings, instead of numbing them - which is neither pretty or neat. It's excrutiatingly difficult sometimes, but for whatever reason, I have not binged since the middle of Janurary. DH and my sister have been invaluable in this process and I am grateful and humbled by their support and listening skills.

Keep on keepin' on, my SP friends!



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I feel like I have constant extinction bursts!!!!! Made it through day three however some funny stuff around dinner time (when I am most vulnerable). I get the same sensation I felt going through smoking withdrawls!!!!

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So, Junemonkey, do you think you still have some extinction bursts ahead of you? I would imagine that with a habit like overeating, and assuming that someone had practiced the habit for years, it would take a while before they weren't coming up...much.

Six years of maintaining a 20% weightloss and counting.
*To seek happiness, identifying the Self with the body, is like trying to cross a river on the back of a crocodile." Ramana Maharshi
*The No S Diet saved me from my emotional eating defeats.
8 years and counting! nosdiet.com/
*Get to the next meal hungry!
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Day 11 - binge-free!

Good morning, sparkers!

I walked 9481 steps yesterday and had a reasonably smooth and productive day to boot. I learned last evening that a 27-year old man I knew, (he actually helped me move last year!) and who was struggling with addictions, died in his sleep on Tuesday night, probably of a drug-indued seizure. A bright lad, who had his whole life in front of him. This addictive behavior is deadly. I have to remind myself of that everyday. I also have to remind myself that I am modeling behavior for my children. I have done a good job in some respects; not so good in others, but the point is that I must be embracing healthy living on a daily basis.

I am going to walk today, just because. Have a good one, folks.

My foodplan is in place, and I will point my face to the sun.

Ta, Reggie


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Oolala - I actually have a master's degree in behavior analysis (the field that encompasses the extinction burst, operant conditioning etc.) so I enjoyed the article. Funny though, how what you can intellectually realize doesn't always translate to your own practice. I liken trying to put yourself on a behavior plan to trying to give yourself a haircut. There are parts of your own life (and head) you just can't see.

That having been said, when I do trainings for people just getting into my field I use weightloss as a real-life example of many of the processes we discuss, because just about everyone can relate.

Oh, and its day 49!

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