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Day 9 - binge-free!

Good morning, sparkers!
My friend is sending me her copy of God Food and Love, or whatever the latest Gineen Roth book is called. She says she thought of me the whole time she was reading it. I read Roth years ago, just after she had her chocolate chip cookie dough revelation. I know she advocates not recording food and letting go, but when I do that, I eat a lot! So, there has got to be a happy medium.

I have a to do list with 21 items on it. I decided that rather than tear the main floor apartwith sanding and painting just prior to Emma going back to school that I would "chill" with that plan, and wait until she is out of the house during the days, rather than impose chaos at this point. I still have 20 other items to deal with!

I am really working on not being fearful. As soon as I recognize that my thoughts are leading me down that path, I consciously choose to shift gears and go another way. I use prayer, affirmation, diversion, anything! to not go there. I have this engulfing financial insecurity, but I know that my bills are covered today, that my options are limitless, that I have never gone hungry, and that I have always had a roof over my head. So, I am trying to leave myself open to the possibilities. I doubt if my family mediation business is going to suddenly become busy...I will keep at it, because it is a great way to subsidize income in retirement down the road, but I am also leaving myself open to other options. The business I was toying with is losing momentum quickly. I don't think I have in me what it takes to do cold-call selling, even if the product is good. I know my limitations.

Anyway, this is all interesting stuff and an interesting process to go through. I keep coming back to Tolle's idea that there should only be one of 3 states of being at any given time: Acceptance, Enjoyment, or Enthusiasm. I lean towards acceptance more than the other two, but I would like to balance it more.

I'm going for a walk with only one dog this morning, because I don't have the patience to supervise them today. My foodplan is in place, and I am open to a good day.

Have a great day, folks.
Ta, Reggie

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8/31/10 6:39 A

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Jol1 ~ hey, we're at the same place in our streak! It's day 20 for me too! Let's do this LOL!

Reggie ~ welcome back home. Sounds like a nice vacation. I envy where you live. That part of Canada is one of my very favorite places :).

Have a great day everyone!
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Working on Day #20!

New 4DW -- Do 200 stairs per day in addition to regular routine.
Monday -- emoticon
Tuesday --
Wednesday --
Thursday --

Daily reward is to do a kirigami, 4 day reward is TBD.

New 4DW --
Tuesday, Wednesday, Thursday -- Have a deficit and don't eat from meetings at work
Friday -- start of vacation...no challenge except don't binge
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Daily reward - burn a candle

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Order a movie I've been wanting to see.
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I will not eat anything else this evening.

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Day 15 BF emoticon

Nine years of maintaining a 20% weightloss and counting.
*To seek happiness, identifying the Self with the body, is like trying to cross a river on the back of a crocodile." Ramana Maharshi
*The No S Diet saved me from my emotional eating defeats.
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*Get to the next meal hungry!
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8/30/10 7:45 P

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Day 8 - binge-free!

Good evening, sparkers!

I made it back with my Emma,who had a great week at camp and seems to be pumped for getting back to school and seeing friends. She was delighted with her transformed bedroom.

I walked on the beach a lot at the cottage, even ran once. I ate too many calories, but had good healthy meals, in good portion sizes. It was the desserts that took me over -- altho I went for low fat desserts mainly. In any case, I had a 2863 deficit this week and a 2900 something deficit last week, so I have to get with it. On the one hand, great that there was a deficit at all! But I usually have to have a greater deficit that these numbers to be feeling healthy.

Will write more later. I just spend a long time filling in my food plan for the last 4 days to get an accurate deficit number.

Yeah Kristina! On a great weekend with hubby, and on Day 18!

Jolikey: The irony is that I ate cucs from my garden every day this weekend and I bought a watermelon, which was deliciious, so I laughed when I read what you nutritionist suggested. Sounds interesting, the change-up!

Oolala: Salsa! Boy, I bet you burn a lot of calories doing that dance!

Nighty-night, folks.
Ta, Reggie

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Monkey, when you write your post, there should be three rectangular boxes above the text: one for spelling, one for adding links, and on for adding the little icons, called emoticons. Click on the last one and browse through the pages of possibilities.

Do your best to have food that's easy to pack and take to your teaching gig. Hard boil some eggs, get good high-fiber bread, some natural peanut butter, use a crock pot, etc., or find some prepared foods that are reasonable. I buy a pork chile verde at Costco that has only about 25% fat. It's about $1.50 a serving and I mix it with vegetables and have it with a tortilla. Fast, tasty, reasonably "healthy." I keep some frozen green veggies around as well as raw cabbage, carrots, green peppers, pea pods, etc--things that are pretty easy to wash and take in chunks or pieces. It may take a bit to get into the habit of having it all around, but life will go better if you have what you need for these stressful times. emoticon

Nine years of maintaining a 20% weightloss and counting.
*To seek happiness, identifying the Self with the body, is like trying to cross a river on the back of a crocodile." Ramana Maharshi
*The No S Diet saved me from my emotional eating defeats.
10 years and counting! nosdiet.com/
*Get to the next meal hungry!
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Day one and a Monday.....Going to really set some reachable goals

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Oh, silly question. Can someone tell me how to get those little icons in their posts?

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8/30/10 11:42 A

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Happy Monday everyone!
Its weird, at night I dread getting up in the morning at 5 to go workout. But once I am done and on my way through the morning, I feel fabulous!
Anyways, this weekend was pretty good! No binges!! Yesterday was the first Sunday in like two months that I haven't binged. I did go over my calories on both Saturday and Sunday, but that's okay because I had a major accomplishment!
Saturday morning my parents had an engagement party for my fiance and I. I ate too much, but it was more out of indulging myself than binging. But, I did have a few bloody marys...alcohol that early in the morning is not good! I had a headache all day!

I do have some bad news though. I am afraid to get on the scale because I know my weight is up. My clothes are fitting a bit tighter! This new schedule of mine is throwing me for a loop! However, I am determined to be successful! I will not put all that weight back on! I just can't let that happen! I am just going to have to keep going until I beat this! I just need to find a plan that works for me!

Bethany-way to go on the weightloss! I am so proud of you!! Keep it up.

MTTOP-starting is always very hard, but once you get past the first couple days it becomes easier. Just keep trying!!



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8/30/10 11:04 A

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and again - day 1

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Working on Day #19!

New 4DW --
Friday -- 3 meals + 1 fruit/veg snack, have a deficit and don't eat from meetings at work emoticon
Saturday, Sunday -- 3 meals + 2 snacks, have a deficit (even if very small) emoticon emoticon
Monday -- 3 meals + 1 fruit/veg snack, have a deficit and don't eat from meetings at work
Daily reward is to burn a candle, 4 day reward is to buy 5 lotto tickets.

Exercise 4DW -- Add 200 stairs (or stair stepping) per day in addition to my regular routine.
Thursday -- emoticon
Friday -- emoticon
Saturday -- emoticon
Sunday -- emoticon

New 4DW -- Do 200 stairs per day in addition to regular routine.
Monday --
Tuesday --
Wednesday --
Thursday --

Daily reward is to do a kirigami, 4 day reward is TBD.

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Remaining rewards
Order a movie I've been wanting to see.
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I will post here today:
I will not eat anything more until after 11 am.
I will not eat anything more until after 4 pm.

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Today I finally lost the weight that I regained during the last binge.

So everytime a thought of it, I just repeated in the back of my mind, "I will not binge"

Made it thru day 9. Could not do this with out all of your support. Thank you!!!



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Day 14 BF.

So, Jol1, you could drink your shake as part of a meal, actually, and still have an ounce or two of animal protein, If you eat that, along with some starch and vegetable at a meal. The "avoid" list sounds like, except for the nuts, things that are processed with a lot of salt. And there are plenty of alternatives to those things to have at enjoyable meals. You're right, not an impossible feat. I'm excited for you! I think your many successful BF days are going to stand you in good stead in this effort. You've already learned that certain limits are more than tolerable, even pleasurable.

Smeyers, give yourself credit for your many days of being BF recently. 21 in a row is a nice number, but it's arbitrary. Two 10-days stints in 25 days is pretty good, too. 24 days of being BF in a month would be good, too. Eventually, these habits will take over. You're doing great!

Well, my weekend was a bit wilder than last, but it could have been a lot worse. I've gone up a little over a pound, but I know it's mostly water weight. I am even more determined because I saw my friend and I'm pretty sure I have a good chance of winning my salsa lessons. I have one more week and I'm going to experiment with being a little more strict with my eating, trying to go with only one cup of coffee a day and a little smaller portions of meat, starch, and fat, but still plenty of bulk. Plus a lot of floor exercise for my thighs. Wish me luck! emoticon

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Nine years of maintaining a 20% weightloss and counting.
*To seek happiness, identifying the Self with the body, is like trying to cross a river on the back of a crocodile." Ramana Maharshi
*The No S Diet saved me from my emotional eating defeats.
10 years and counting! nosdiet.com/
*Get to the next meal hungry!
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Hi all,

Well, since the initial shock that my new nutritionist wanted to change a lot of things, I've decided to embrace it. So far she has asked and I have done the following:

1) "All your previous history is just that" she said, "please try the following". I interpreted that yesterday that she didn't understand everything I've dealt with the last 45 years (or more) such as binging and vomiting and chewing and spitting. But guess what??? She's actually right. Why not be reborn today and try some of the things she recommends?
2) She says I can eat anything, but her list of "foods to avoid" are: any restaurant soup or canned soup (homemade okay), crackers, chips, nuts, cheese, cured meats, pickles, olives. She will reintroduce some of these in the next few weeks.
3) Eat cucumber and watermelon everyday. She showed that the portion of watermelon should be about 100 to 150 grams.
4) ***Interesting*** Since I exercise in the morning usually, I should do it before my breakfast, not after.
5) Record food and weight daily
6) Drink 1 or 2 EAS - AdvantEdge carb control shake a day. They are high in protein (17 g) and low in carbs and only 110 calories each.

So that's not so bad really, is it (I'm talking to my scared wild child internal personality)... emoticon

Have a great evening everyone! I just finished my cucumber and waiting for in-laws to have a late dinner out. I will choose not to have soup..!!

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8/29/10 8:58 P

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I've just completed Day 18, binge free! It's been a long time since I've gone this long and it feels great! We had a wonderful weekend with DH at home. He left again this afternoon around 5:00 for the 4 hour drive back. This week is busy with all of our fall kids' activities starting up.

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Wow just trying to get a start is the hardest. I will try again.

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Working on Day #18!

New 4DW --
Friday -- 3 meals + 1 fruit/veg snack, have a deficit and don't eat from meetings at work emoticon
Saturday, Sunday -- 3 meals + 2 snacks, have a deficit (even if very small) emoticon
Monday -- 3 meals + 1 fruit/veg snack, have a deficit and don't eat from meetings at work
Daily reward is to burn a candle, 4 day reward is to buy 5 lotto tickets.

Exercise 4DW -- Add 200 stairs (or stair stepping) per day in addition to my regular routine.
Thursday -- emoticon
Friday -- emoticon
Saturday -- emoticon
Sunday --

Daily reward is to do a kirigami, 4 day reward a flower on my SP profile and computer desktop.

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Remaining rewards
Order a movie I've been wanting to see.
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I will post here today:
I'm not going to eat anything more until after 1 pm.
I will not eat anything else this evening.

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Day 2
has just ended. I'm proud of myself. I ate well. I handled my emotions pretty well. I am de-cluttering my room. (An untidy room depresses me to no extent)
I'm really excited about this 21 day streak!! :D
I just need to stay on track for 19 more days.
I should probably stop using zombie-like short sentences now but I'm kind of swamped with work and this is all I can manage.
I hope everyone else is doing just as well, if not more!!

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Smeyers, good for you to get right back on that wagon. Everyone makes mistakes, it's what you learn from it and how you move on that counts!

Good news for me, I reached my second weight loss goal today! First goal was 165, and today I met my 160 lb goal. I'm very excited, and I'm also a bit puzzled. I reached this goal on a week that I didn't exercise as much (this shot in my leg still has me off balance mentally and physically), but most importantly, this has been a high calorie week for me. I'm eating a few hundred more than normal. I think this is a sign for me to increase my intake to higher than what it has been, but I'll do it mindfully. I also will take time to remind myself consciously that consistency adds up in nutrition and exercise.

I'm thankful for this b/c I know for every pound of weight off my body, I'm taking pressure and stress away from my right hip joint, which makes it easier for me to move throughout the day and exercise. The cosmetic effects are just an added bonus when you keep that your major focus!

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I tried - I failed - day 1 - I try again

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Welcome to our team Bee!

Today is day 8. Yippi!!!

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Hi Binge-Free Teammates,

I thought I would jump in and start counting to defeat the "middle of the process" blahs. I am working my program. My new routines are on track. Now I am at that place where the newness has worn off. This is when a binge usually sneaks in to counter the boredom.

I hope I am heading it off by joining up with you.

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Day 13 BF. No binge today, but I think I will avoid the scale for the next few days. We went for a long bike ride - 18mi - this morning and then went to an amish community and bought a table for the front room. When I am not emotionally eating I am emotionally shopping. Expensive, but fewer calories. We had lunch there which was great. Not large portions, but homemade blueberry pie and homemade ice cream YUM!!

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Why would a protein shake be preferable to chewing some food? Are you a vegetarian? You could comprome and incorporate a suggestion for one meal a day. But she can't mean a protein drink as a meal replacement, can she? Oh, heavens! Then again, if it's your health... what do I know.

I guess I have to try out that thinner peace thing. In the past, so many suggestions like that haven't worked and I think I've worked up a phobia. I was at a meeting on procrastination once where we were taught to use EFT. I felt much worse afterwards, so I'm often afraid to even try things because I don't like finding out that I have such resistance. It makes me feel like I'm a lost cause. emoticon

Nine years of maintaining a 20% weightloss and counting.
*To seek happiness, identifying the Self with the body, is like trying to cross a river on the back of a crocodile." Ramana Maharshi
*The No S Diet saved me from my emotional eating defeats.
10 years and counting! nosdiet.com/
*Get to the next meal hungry!
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Oolala, I've done quite a few of her exercises, like finding "thinner peace" which was a great one! Also, I can now relax at any time by just squeezing my little finger!! emoticon Really!!

But mostly I latched onto the idea of 4 days instead of infinity and that has freed me a lot. Also, hey!, the concepts of rewards!!! Wow, I actually look forward to burning my candle, and other things besides food.

Back from my new nutritionist and I'm feeling scared because she wants me to change things!!! She doesn't know the progress I've made, even though I try to tell her. She wants me to drink protein shakes for god's sake!!! I tried (and am trying) to keep an open mind. I had to go to her because my regular receptionist is bed-ridden with her last few months of pregnancy.

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Jol, did you do a lot of the other activities (or do you now) that Beck instructs on in The Four-Day Win? I've been listening to it again (audio version), and was reminded of them. I wish I had gotten the paper version, since there are so many of those exercises to use as little boosters, and listening in the car puts a damper on that. Maybe I'll check out her website to see what's available. Do you feel that the work she recommends has helped diminish your desire to binge, or something else?

I'm feeling pretty good about this weekend. I'm going to declare that last weekend's consistent moderate eating broke the spell of overeating on Saturdays. Unfortunately, my plans for today fell through, and having too much open time has been an issue. However, I saw that there is a free dance festival being held in our huge municipal park. I'm thinking of bringing my school work and even some little table and setting up camp there. I've got great eats to take with me, and there might even be some food booths with ethnic food.

The two performances I went to this week were interesting because of the audiences. Thursday night was The Wiz. Okay, I don't mean to be mean to point it out because I know down deep many of those people were suffering, but I couldn't believe how many really fat people there were in one small audience. I think there were fewer than 150 patrons, and at least 6 of them were over 250 lbs. easy--all women. People who I thought might not fit in the seat. I wanted to run up to them, take their hands, and say, is there anything I can do to help?

In contrast, the audience for the impersonator was almost uncharacteristically slim--and beautiful. I couldn't believe how many pretty women, many of them middle aged, there were. People looked to be between moderately thin and up to 30 lbs. overweight; perhaps one out of the audience of about 300 who was nearly as large as the heavy women at The Wiz. The show consisted of mostly local talent and many in the audience may have been there because they knew a performer, all of whom were dancers or gymnasts. So I think the audience, too, may have been more likely to be active, like the performers they knew. At the Wiz, it was mostly observers, I assume. It just reinforces one of the maxims of weight loss: you might have to make new friends so that you spend time with active people who are more naturally moderate in their food intake. Believe me, I'm trying to be one and to find the others! emoticon

Nine years of maintaining a 20% weightloss and counting.
*To seek happiness, identifying the Self with the body, is like trying to cross a river on the back of a crocodile." Ramana Maharshi
*The No S Diet saved me from my emotional eating defeats.
10 years and counting! nosdiet.com/
*Get to the next meal hungry!
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Working on Day #17!

New 4DW --
Friday -- 3 meals + 1 fruit/veg snack, have a deficit and don't eat from meetings at work emoticon
Saturday, Sunday -- 3 meals + 2 snacks, have a deficit (even if very small)
Monday -- 3 meals + 1 fruit/veg snack, have a deficit and don't eat from meetings at work
Daily reward is to burn a candle, 4 day reward a flower on my SP profile and computer desktop

Exercise 4DW -- Add 200 stairs (or stair stepping) per day in addition to my regular routine.
Thursday -- emoticon
Friday -- emoticon
Saturday --
Sunday --

Daily reward is to do a kirigami, 4 day reward TBD.

--------- complete ----------
Remaining rewards
Order a movie I've been wanting to see.
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I will post here today:
I'm not going to eat anything else this evening.

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Bethany- hope that you feel better soon.

Today is day 7! Still working on loosing the extra pounds from the last binge. Have lost 1 pound, have 1.5 to go. Did pretty good today. Now when I feel stressed, I visualize myself buying donuts and I am not getting the same relief from the stress that I used to get. When I do eat, I really need to stop eating so fast. I am so used to sneaking food during binges that I seem to rush when I don't need to. Something to work on.

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So the nausea and weird stomach stuff has been better today, but still not 100%. I do not know what is going on, just can't figure it out. The stomach stuff could well be food related, but the nausea is totally out of place...I've wondered if it is a side effect of the cortisone shot. Meanwhile, update on the shot. My leg feels different.

totally different. I feel like my injured hip/leg lost 5 or 10 lbs. It feels lighter, but now it also feels weak. I can tell that the tendons feel weaker and a little worn. I almost feel off balance, just a little bit thrown for a loop. I think it will take another 1-2 days for the shot to take full affect.

Other than that, no binge eating, just eating whatever comes to my mind that I can whip up in a hurry. Mostly healthy, but sometimes odd.

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Smeyers, so glad the next level of details are worked out. Take care of yourself, too.

Forgot part of my lunch today. thankfully, there was a luncheon baby shower! I was able to supplement AND get two slices of cake for the weekend: fudge and red velvet. Can you believe it? I don't even want any now.

Guilty pleasure: I am going tonight to see a Michael Jackson impersonator! I hate all the fol de rol around him and the child molestation charges, but I just can't help myself; the guy was such a great dancer. I actually didn't pay much attention to him when he was alive, although it occurred to me once or twice that he might have been great to see live. However, I'm just too cheap for that. But tonight! My West African dance teacher is going, so this must be a good show. I'm having enough dinner so I won't be tempted to eat when I get home.I didn't eat enough last night and did have a bean burrito later, but I was legitimately hungry, so it was just another meal.

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SMeyer:
I just realized that your Dad had passed on. I am so sorry for your loss. Be especially gentle with yourself over the next little while, and during this difficult time. Courage! Ta, Reggie

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day 12 BF. My brother is flying from AZ on Mon and the services will be Tue.

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Happy Friday everyone!
So I have some good news and bad news. Last night was a mini binge. I did fine at work (snacked here and there) but had a tiny binge when I got home. But, I was able to stop myself. I know it is because I am stressed. Work has been really frustrating. People aren't doing their jobs and the other night a few of us confronted our manager. He seems to be doing better, BUT he is getting on everyone's case very hard core. I got snapped at twice last night for "not doing my job" even though I was doing what I was supposed to! One guy that I work with was also in a very bad mood. He wouldn't talk to anyone and it made me very, very uncomfortable! I hope things get better.
Ok, now for the good news! I did very well this morning at our breakfast. I had fruit and a breakfast burrito. The burrito probably wasn't the healthiest, but the other options were bagels and muffins. I went to grab a mini muffin, but saw the calories on the package. There are 100 in those little, one bite things! Can you believe it! I passed on those.
However, my binge yesterday stopped me from enjoying my breakfast this morning. I know that I need to eat breakfast and all my meals even if I screwed up. But there was a voice in my head telling me not to eat because I need to make up for it. I always ignore this voice, but it makes it hard to enjoy my food. I will have to follow oolala and many others advice...get to the next meal hungry! That is my goal today!

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Working on Day #16!

New 4DW --
Friday -- 3 meals + 1 fruit/veg snack, have a deficit and don't eat from meetings at work emoticon
Saturday, Sunday -- 3 meals + 2 snacks, have a deficit (even if very small)
Monday -- 3 meals + 1 fruit/veg snack, have a deficit and don't eat from meetings at work
Daily reward is to burn a candle, 4 day reward TBD

Exercise 4DW -- Add 200 stairs (or stair stepping) per day in addition to my regular routine.
Thursday -- emoticon
Friday -- emoticon
Saturday --
Sunday --

Daily reward is to do a kirigami, 4 day reward TBD.

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Buy 5 lotto tickets
Remaining rewards
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I will post here today:
I will not eat anything more until after 11 am.
I will not eat anything else this evening.

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Day 5 - binge-free!

Good morning, sparkers!

I am heading out this morning to pick up my mother on my way to retrieving my Emma at camp. We will spend the weekend at the cottage and take lots of walks on the beach.

I finished Eckhart Tolle's book yesterday and was impressed with what he refers to as the necessary elements of living: acceptance, enjoyment, and enthusiasm. I parrotted this to a friend on the phone last night. Tolle warns against constant complaining because he believes this is only our ego trying to take over our lives. Our ego is not all bad: it is what drives us to work and thrive and survive. But finding that quiet, still place is important, too. I hope to do some of that over the next few days.

So off I go into the day, trusting that it will all unfold as it should. My foodplan is in place and I look forward to being physcially active. Have a great weekend, folks!

Kristina: So exciting about the house! I recall what a joy it was to design and build a house. We had excellent carpentars and little hassle so we were very lucky that the experience was a good one. With technology being what it is, you can get glimpses often, even at a distance, with iphone or video, huh? Enjoy!

Ta, Reggie

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Bethany ~ I hope you feel better. I often get weird nausea out of nowhere. I know it can be a symptom of gall bladder issues. Did you happen to eat more fat than ususal?

Oolala ~ you're so right. We cannot shame ourselves into doing better. Just put the binge in the past and move forward.

Today is Day 16! My husband comes home tonight for the weekend and the kids and I are very excited to see him. He told me yesterday that he drove past our lot where our new house will be and they've staked the whole thing out. Looks like ground breaking will be very soon!!!

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Ughhh, I am NOT feeling good. Something WEIRD is going on w/ my tummy. I've been upset all day. I barely ate much at our work function... which is a welcome first for me. Had a little munchie when I got there, a very small serving of the main meal, and glass of wine w/ a little serving of dessert. Believe me, it wasnt much, but all I could think about the whole time was how upset my tummy was. Yet I was hungry. I hopethings go better tomorrow. The nauseau is gone, but the upset tummy is definitely there.

Hoping I feel good enough to hit the gym tomorrow.

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Please, let's be careful about trying to use shame and disgust with ourselves to control our behavior. It hasn't worked so far, right? Most of us haven't had nearly enough experiences of controlling our binge impulse to have any legitimate sense that we have done anything but what is reasonable in the situations we are in. However, it doesn't mean it's impossible to choose something different. Just try to notice how full you feel, not berating yourself, but noticing and thinking how good it would be to do something different next time. Start telling yourself, "I don't finish my children's food." Over and over. Many women don't do that, you know. They just don't do it. It's not a huge struggle. Say it to yourself as if it's already true. If you hate leaving it, bring little baggies with you and take it home. Doesn't matter what other people think. You're doing the right thing.

Monkey, just remember your one-plate rule for breakfast. I suggest filling half of it with fruit. Then have small portions of other food, but take only three of the items that look best and just a few bite-sizes of each. You really won't enjoy much more than that. Keep thinking about how comfortable you're going to feel when you're done and really savor each bite. End with coffee or tea round off and call it a day. STAY AWAY FROM THE FOOD AFTER YOU'VE SERVED YOURSELF! You can't eat more if you don't go back to the food table.

I have to usher tonight, so I'm eating an early dinner. I may have a little more fat before I go. It irks me because they ask the ushers to be there 2 hours before the performance. It makes for a long night and a lot of it is doing nothing. But it will be fun to see The Wiz. I'm going to claim Day 11 BF. Hey, I passed the halfway mark! emoticon

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We had a potluck playgroup and there were 3 different quiches and cinnamon buns. I had little peices of each but then when my daughter didnt touch her plate, I ended up eating hers too. Shame on me. My belly hurts now. Salad for dinner and I should be ok.
Monkey~chew gum tomorrow so the food wont be so tempting? Good luck

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Oh, I forgot to mention...the school I am at does a staff breakfast every month and the first one is tomorrow. I am kind of nervous, I feel like I will be alright...I just don't want to get caught up in the moment of eating!!

Wish me luck!!

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Hey all,
I skipped the gym this morning. I am feeling bad about it, but I don't feel very well and was so tired. I think I needed a break! I think I have somewhat of a cold. I am not too happy about it...I don't feel bad enough to stay home, but I don't feel good enough to be productive...if that makes any sense!
I also am feeling a bit bad about lunch today...someone brought in cake and I had some. I didn't binge or anything, but I told myself since I was having cake, I shouldn't eat all of my lunch (I was going to skip the granola bar I brought. After I had the cake I ended up eating the bar as well. I am still within my calorie range and will be fine the rest of the day, but now my tummy doesn't feel to good. I just feel soo full!

Anyways, I hope you all have a good day!! Hopefully I will get on here tomorrow and be able to tell you that the cake at lunch doesn't lead to a binge later tonight!!

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Good morning all. I'm starting out day 4 already worried that it may be a rough day. My 2yo woke me up several times last night. My husband's lack of help getting the girls ready this morning has aggrevated the hell out of me. I have a playdate this morning then have to spend the afternoon cooking for my husbands work BBQ tomorrow. Can we say I'm being set up for failure already?? I did work out twice yesterday, once with my trainer than did Insanity workout last night and did pretty good with my calories. Give me strength today!

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day 11 BF

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Working on Day #15!

New 4DW --
Friday -- 3 meals + 1 fruit/veg snack, have a deficit and don't eat from meetings at work
Saturday, Sunday -- 3 meals + 2 snacks, have a deficit (even if very small)
Monday -- 3 meals + 1 fruit/veg snack, have a deficit and don't eat from meetings at work
Daily reward is to burn a candle, 4 day reward TBD

Exercise 4DW -- Add 200 stairs (or stair stepping) per day in addition to my regular routine.
Thursday -- 30 so far
Friday --
Saturday --
Sunday --

Daily reward is to do a kirigami, 4 day reward TBD.


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Saturday through Tuesday -
Saturday -- have deficit, any deficit and no binging. emoticon
Sunday -- Don't eat until after 10 am. Have a deficit, any deficit emoticon
Monday -- No-S + 1 fruit/fat snack (SP cobbler is okay - planned) -- not perfect, but I'm going to give it to myself! Also adding one day. emoticon
Tuesday -- No-S + 1 fruit/fat snack (SP cobbler is okay - planned) -- watch the seconds at dinner -- I ate the salad at work, but no dinner, so I'll give it to myself. emoticon
Wednesday -- 3 meals + 1 fruit/veg snack; don't eat from meetings at work emoticon

Daily reward is to burn a candle. 4 day reward is to buy 5 lotto tickets.

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Remaining rewards
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I will post here today:
I will not eat anything more until my snack at 4 pm.
I will not eat anything more this evening.

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Oolala, are you ready to laugh? So I said I was naughty yesterday. Well today I woke up 1 lb lighter on the scale! 161! Ha ha ha, despite eating fast food for breakfast and some sweet treats. Granted, it was all in moderation, but when you're not used to eating fast food, you just frankly feel naughty inside physically! I was miserable yesterday, tired, sluggish, headache, slighty wonky-feeling tummy. And last night and even this morning I've been SUPER nauseated!

I'm wondering if it might just be an effect from the cortisone shot.

Anyway, it's amazing how that Chikfila biscuit literally left me feeling stuffed like a Thanksgiving turkey! It instantly made me not feel well. I still feel icky this morning, but am eating bland food in hopes it'll sort itself out.

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Day 5 - binge-free!

Good morning, sparkers!

I have to get cracking and chair a meeting this morning so I am writing just prior to jumping into a fast shower.

I think we will delay the return to the cottage one day because it is quite rainy today. I need the rest anyway. I feel like a porter! I have been lugging pots, suitcases, dogs, birds, hamsters, and food for what seems like 24 hours! All good calorie burners, though!

I so get what you are saying, Oolala, about lost loves. I think if I had not been reading Tolle at the time, I may have gone into a frump. But I have been rather "matter-of-fact" about it all. On one level, I wish my ex well, and I do hope he works out his life, and that he enjoys Sweden and his new relationship and surroundings. On the other hand, there is this simultaneous dialogue going on sometimes when I am interacting with him, even by email. It is the screaming dialogue. I know it is all ego. It is the "why didn't I get kissed "thank you" after a meal, as she does?" Why is it ok to tell her you love her, but it was not ok for me?" These are child-like reactions to a time when we were essentially different people in different circumstances. And the fact is, maybe he learned something from our marriage and is genuinely attempting to change. Who knows? I can't second-guess him.

Off to my day. My foodplan is in place and the journey continues. I am walking to my meeting...in the rain.

Ta, Reggie



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Day 15 binge-free! I'm being called to read a book to my daughter who woke up way too early, so I'll post more later :).

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Reggie, I once saw a Tracey Ulman skit in which one of the women in a group out to dinner sees her ex-boyfriend, who has finally published a novel, married a woman who looked just like her, and had a baby. When she wails to her friends that she can't believe he actually finished the novel, another one says, "Yeah, and having a baby. That's just a slap in the face!" What a perfect way to express how we all really feel in such a situation. All I can say is, give 'em 5 years. Anyway, glad you're back, keeping it real, here. Two days is pretty fast to get through eating over this. There is something so utterly primal about our feelings towards having a mate. I've seen once again how much my mind leaps to all the pleasant possibilities with this new man. We're doing this, we're going there, I'm seeing myself at social events feeling all vindicated for being so "choosy" as some friends have indicated--God golly, we've been on two dates! Even if he called me tomorrow and said he realized he just doesn't have the feelings needed to go on, I'd have to go through a withdrawal because of how much my mind has him involved in my life. Yet, I believe that is how happy married people get to live, and I believe so deeply that I deserve it that I am always very shocked when it doesn't work out. Anyway, I'm going on and on about me. I know it may seem like faint reward, but we admire you and like you SO MUCH! I wish I could fill your heart with contentment.

Hey, Bethany, if you want to think you've been naughty, who am I take guilt away from a girl? I've been caught in situations where I thought food was going to be available and it wasn't. got my fast food, ate slowly, didn't finish all they gave me, maintained weight. I know you want to lose, but you're probably fine and may have even shaken things up so that your calorie deficit works even better today!

Oh, Monkey, welcome to the life of a teacher! For awhile. I don't want to scare you to tell you how long, but don't feel bad if things feel nutty the whole year. Just don't eat over it! Wait, wait, wait for your meals. Things will go better.

Got to eat only a little over half of my lunch on Wed., but it was enough. Funny! It wasn't a big lunch. Enjoyed a regular dinner, heavy on the cantaloupe. My how I love this time of year! Day 10 BF. emoticon

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*To seek happiness, identifying the Self with the body, is like trying to cross a river on the back of a crocodile." Ramana Maharshi
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Boy have I been a naughty girl. I've not binged, but I've made some unhealthy food choices since yesterday. Intentionally. I didn't really have meal food in the house and didn't have time to go to the store, so I just ate fast food. For dinner last night, & breakfast this morning. I ate a late lunch, 6" sub and baked Lays chips which aren't horrible, but not as healthy as I normally eat, and I decided to eat a cookie at dinner.

I know I know, it's not a binge, it's just having made conscious unhealthy choices. And to tell you girls the truth, I feel like crap from the inside out! I just feel awful in my tummy. That Chik fil A biscuit this morning really did a number on me.

So Bethany, you've had your naughty fun, and it wasn't awesome. You can wake up tomorrow morning and have a wonderful day.

Monkey, she said that the routine she gave me takes her normally 45 mins, which is about how long it takes me. She said since the goal is to pyramid up in your weights for each additional set, you need to give your muscle enough of a rest to pick up that heavier weight in the next set. It's not like circuit training where you move through things quickly but w/ lighter weights. If you want to Sparkmail over your email address, I will email the spreadsheet I worked up based on what she wanted me to do.

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Good for you Kitty for getting back on track Sat. If I blow it at some point during the day its extremely hard for me to self correct. I usually punish myself by binging more till I"m sick. Horrible I know. Very happy you did it!!

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