Chit Chat

Haven’t heard anything in a while.

Things here are busy but going well. The puppy keeps us hopping.

Hi Monaka,
Have you heard anything from Carl or Mark?
I keep thinking about them and hoping everything is good with them.
I hope all is well with you and your family and your new puppy.

Oh, he is beautiful.
I am still sick. Going to doctors today.

On Friday we welcomed Teddy to our family

Ditto that.

Prayers to Mark and you that all goes well.
You are doing good,Carl. Keep up the good work.

Hi All!

Got the call from the hospital today!

Mark and I have to be at the hospital by 5:00AM. I have to give him an enema before we go, and of course we're going to need to get to bed way early.

Radiation and chemo therapy start next week (Sept 23 & 24). Radiation 5 days per week and chemo only once weekly (Tuesdays).

I had a very good 18 month review in Bariatric - holding at 7% Body Fat! Continue to hold strong muscle mass and can now lift 130 pounds without effort EVEN THOUGH I only weigh 179! They aren't worried that I dropped below the 180 lower limit, now that they see my muscle mass numbers and blood work. Keep BMI in the "BLUE" range though.

Wheeeeee!

Hi Angela,
I am sorry to hear about your father. I am happy you are taking it so well. Don't feel too guilty, the road goes both ways.
I am so happy to hear you are doing so well. Keep up the good work.
I bet you will keep doing better and better especially waiting for the boyfriend to move back. You deserve to be happy.
Please stay in touch and am sending hugs and prayers your way.
and

Hey all, i think im back here now on the site. Been dealing with a lot with my health and my pain has been so severe. 2 months ago got the call my biological dad died. He stood up and died. That morning ( i found out in the afternoon) I told myself i need to email him and tell him ive forgiven him and i want to try to have a normal relationship with him. We hadent talked in 2 1/2 years... I am filled with guilt and regret right now. I am still losing weight and eating healthy 90 percent of the time. I am on a lot more insulin, ever since this spring when i got bronchitis and then a sinus infection my pancrease took a hit, im on over 100 units a day between lantus and admelog and it used to be about 30 today a day. BUT my sugars are for the most part really good! Even on my birthday a couple weeks ago i did good with having cake! Also on my birthday my parents had to put Molly (one of their dogs) down and i am very close to their dogs i am by them all the time and i am their dog sitter when they go out of town. She had breast cancer the lumps showed up 2 months ago 2 weeks before putting her dog she out of her normal loving self bit my dog bad it bled a lot, then the day before she was put down she attacked one of the pregnant dogs, shes ok they had not had their haircuts yet so just got her hair thank God! The vet said her cancer had to be the fast spreading kind and gone to her brain already affecting how she acts. Plus she no longer wanted to do anything but lay in her bed or by me. When i was there she wanted me. My depression has been gone since early February never been stable this long except some depression on and off since my bio dad died but thats normal grief im doing a lot better now. My therapy is cut down to every other week this time is 3 weeks my therapist was gone 2 weeks and i am doing just fine i will be done with the DBT program and therapy in December and i been in therapy all my life! Feels amazing! A lot of bad has happened but im handing it like someone who doesnt have chronic depression and other issues! I also need a hystectomy but my Dr really wants me to lose another 50 lbs first. I am working on it he said im doing great! We are hoping next summer i will have it! My boyfriend is moving here soon (did you guys know about him?) i can not wait! I am sorry this is so long its been awhile! My cravings food wise lately are fruit mainly melons and berries and tomatoes! Also found i love laughing cow cheese on ritz toasted chips when im craving something salty and crunchy and dont even need a full serving to fill up! No eating disorder issues in about a year now YAY! I have a healthy relationship with food for the first time in my adult life! I am doing a lot more cooking and baking and just having the baked stuff in moderation and give most away! I am also giving a friend cooking lessons every week and its been fun she wants to learn healthy meals to cook and shes doing great! I hope everyone else is doing well as well! I just need my health to improve. Please keep me in your prayers, they thought i had ovarian cancer, now its looking less likely just need a few more tests. So far everything is coming back normal for someone with PCOS and endrometroysis! Still need a hysterectomy i have precancer in my uterus.

Thank you

Monaca,
I am so sorry to hear about your stepfather. We had a friend who passed away recently that said the was ready and wasn't taking any more meds.
I know I am late in telling you how sorry I am for your loss but it is never too late for sending hugs and prayers.

My morning view

The boys fishing


I don’t know why they are sideways.

Edited by: MONAKIN314 at: 7/3/2019 (21:21)

Thank you.
Losing Tucker was very hard. Vacation was great cause it got me away from the empty house. I didn’t realize how much I talk to him until he isn’t there to talk to.

My stepfather decided that he no longer wishes to do dialysis and passed away on Saturday. He is now with my mother again and at peace. Six years of dialysis three days a week was just too much. My uncle is handling all the arrangements and stuff so I don’t need to travel until later in the summer for the service and interment.

It has been a rough few weeks but I know that they are both no longer suffering, which makes it more bearable.

Monaca,
I am so sorry for your loss. It is so very hard to lose our pets since they are part of our family.
I do hope you have a good vacation. I hope you can share some pics with us.
I always wanted to go to Maine since I read my first Stephen King book.
Happy to hear your step father is a bit better,
Hope you all heal soon.


Edited by: IMEMINE1 at: 7/3/2019 (19:43)

Just wanted to let you that it was a tough weekend here. Friday night we said goodbye to Tucker. After 15 yrs of having a constant companion and walking buddy, the house seems really empty.

I am working dealing with the grief and getting on a new routine. Not sure what do with myself in the mornings now that I don’t have to get breakfast together, fight over pills, or go out for potty walks. And I feel weird about walking without my partner.

On a more pleasant note we are getting ready to leave for a week at a lake front house in Maine. We are leaving Saturday stopping in CT before heading to ME. It will be a much needed break from all the personal and work stress of the few weeks.

Also my step-father is doing better. He is off the breathing tube and breathing on his own again. They can now start to determine how much damage was done to the brain and other organs from skipping so many dialysis sessions. He is still in ICU but making great improvements. They pulls over 12 liters of fluid off him before there was signs of improvement.

We are on the final week of getting them out. The 17th is lockout day. Monday at 9:00.
I can't believe they are still not attempting to move. It is driving me crazy.
I hope this Monday goes well and it is over.

I was just wondering how your new place was going.

Hopefully you can get rid of the bad renters easily. It never goes good when law enforcement has to get involved.

Hello and good morning,
We are still here in the old house since we have to get the bottom tenants evicted this Monday if they are not out before then. It has been a frustrating 60 some days.
Keep us in your prayers that go before they have to be escorted out by the sheriff or constable.
It has been so hard on us going back and forth these past months to take care of horses and live out of a box because your belongings are between houses.
Plus my poor son is paying the whole mortgage since they haven't given 1 cent for rent.
Such lowlifes.
Anyway, I hoe you have a great day.


Edited by: IMEMINE1 at: 5/30/2019 (11:36)

Hello everyone! Yesterday I finally got outside to get some work done in the yard. Weeded and put done mulch from about 10AM till 3:30PM with a few breaks. I am so sore this morning. But the yard looks so much better.

Hi ,
We are finally going to star moving stuff to the house and this will be the first time I physically see it.
Wish us luck.

Just take one step at a time. It will all work out.

Hi everyone,
Just checking in.
Our one tenant should be out by the 15th and we can start the moving process. A lot to do with 2 horses and setting up their pasture and getting them over there plus their run in shed.
I don't have a horse trailer so we will have to hire one plus a big truck to move their shed.
Needless to say I get anxiety attacks just thinking about it.
Have a great weekend.
{{HUGS}}
Donna

Hi everyone,
I am sorry that I have been MIA this week but we have been busy with a few things this week.
My son closed on a house and we will be moving ion possibly a few weeks as he bought one that has a rental for us.
We will be busy as we have horses to set up and move with us.
We also have a great friend who passed away last night from cancer. He has been sick for awhile.
I also quit my deli job and am a bit depressed about not working.
On the upside, my DH and I took a 4 and half mile walk yesterday (which is why I think I am down to 104.0).
We have a lot to do today but wanted to check in.


Edited by: IMEMINE1 at: 3/21/2019 (09:46)

Sorry to hear you have been struggling so much. That is a scary situation, hopefully they can figure it out soon

I am struggling physically the last month to 6 weeks was even in the ER this past sunday for 5 hours on ivs due to dehydration and migraines the dehydration from my lasix. We are struggling to find the right balance for the psuedotumor. Investigating other meds because lasix does dry me out TOO much i got 2 liters and STILL was dehydrated when i saw the Dr the next day with a blood pressure of only 108/58 which im ALWAYS high not low. Having other health issues and more pain than normal as well and all this is causing my depression to be bad. I really need encouragement right now! I hope everyone is doing well.

Be Careful out there.

Sow and sleet are here today.
Be careful everyone.

Hi everyone,
Happy weekend. This wee my steps were good in the beginning and went down a few days but yesterday I made sure they were 10 K.
I hope to do more today. I do have work this afternoon so it is a lot of standing not walking, but I still am going to try my best.
Wish me luck.

Hi everyone,
Sorry I wasn't on here but no cable since Saturday.
I wrote a blog on my page all about it. I didn't want to bore you guys here.

Let's keep moving and tracking our steps.

Hi everyone.
It is a sunny day here in Bernville. It is cold and crisp and hopefully will stay like this all week.
Yesterday I was outside all day walking and helping Bill getting some wood for his stove in the garage.
I enjoyed being outside and I really need to get out there more.
I do have work today bur I am off tomorrow and hopefully I can at least spend time out there.
Have a great Monday everyone.

Woke up to about half inch of ice this morning in Michigan. Hope it is better in the valley

The sun is out and it does seem warmer.

Have a great week.
It is sooo cold here today.
I cannot wait for Spring.

Happy Sunday,
I fell short of steps this week only tracking 53,510 which is 16,490 short of my weekly goal.
This week I hope to get my goal plus. We will see.
Gotta get up and move it!!!
Have a great Sunday everyone.

Good morning,
That's a lot on your plate. Things take so much out of our life and time and before we know it we say where did it all go and for what.
I hope we find contentment.

Hang in there. Working every weekend gets old really quick. I finally broke down and told my boss I can only travel one week each month and prefer more than a week notice. Tuesday I fly back to Michigan and get back at like 1030 Friday night. They told me on Wednesday morning. With all the travel I am falling behind on my regular work and my personal life is suffering.

Hi all,
Monaka, I am looking for anything. Right now I am working in Boyers in the deli and it has been every single weekend.(I finally got this Sunday off and next Saturday off) only after I told them I am looking for another job.
I am low on steps this month and if I hope to make the 70,000 steps this week I have to get in about 17 K today.
So I am going to give it a try.
Have a great Friday everyone.

What type of job are you hunting for?

Hi everyone. I am job hunting. Wish me luck.

Happy Monday everyone,
Let's have a healthy week.

Good job eating healthy especially while fighting with depression! Exciting to have your boyfriend moving closer. Long distance relationships are so hard. Hopefully they can get your pain in line.

I have been fighting a head cold all year, if it doesn’t clear up soon I am going to have to go to the doctor. I don’t like to go to the doctor for a cold but this is getting old.

I had my annual physical a few weeks ago, even though my weight is up all my lab work came back good except my cholesterol was a little high. Time to get back in line with my eating will help my weight and my cholesterol. I have been home since the Friday before Christmas but travel starts back up after next week. I already have gold level with Hilton, going for diamond this year.

Hope everyone is doing good!

Hi all,
Hi Angela. I am glad to hear you are eating healthy. Sorry to hear about the pain in your hip and your depression. My DH has depression a lot and I know sometimes I get frustrated with him although I know it isn't his fault.
I am happy to hear your love is moving closer, maybe that will up your mood a bit, I hope.
Keep in touch and keep eating those fruits and veggies.

Just checking in with you guys. I am still losing but more slowly. Having a lot of issues with my left hip but the Nsaid cream is helping some. Brucitis my Dr thinks. Depression is really bad especially after 4 pm. Waiting to hear back from my shrink on that. Trying to stick to at least eating healthy, hard to do much walking when it makes you almost pass out from pain if you walk much or even stand long. Good news is my boyfriend is saving up to move to my town so its not a 4 hour apart long distance relationship anymore. We know each other RL not just online used to live in the same town. I am very much in love right now :D

I was happy to see the son today even though I have to work 1 to 5 today.
I made 16K yesterday. I really had to push it but it felt great.
I hope you all have a wonderful day.
I just love seeing the

Good morning,
I have been a bit under the weather this week and have not kept up the 10 K steps a day BUT I
am determined today to make up for it with doing 16K or more today.
It is raining AGAIN!
Have a great day and happy weekend.

Happy New Years!!

Wishing everyone a safe and Happy New Year's eve.

Happy Sunday everyone. Enjoy your day.

Hello all,
Let's get ready for the new year.
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Edited by: IMEMINE1 at: 12/28/2018 (12:47)

Thanks Monaka.

Hope it clears up quickly!

I went to the doctors Tuesday and they said to keep on doing what I am doing and if it gets worse call.
So far the itching is driving me crazy. Not a lot of pain.
Have a great day

Oh that’s is horrible.

Good morning and happy weekend.
I had to go to the doctors and I was right, Shingles for Christmas.

Good morning. I am really moving today. I did a 15 minute walk first thing this morning and some strength videos and I am going to be putting my 2 storm windows in upstairs plus some heavy cleaning.
I do hope you are having a great Tuesday.

Good evening,
We were gone all day today so I wanted to check in.
I see we are now 38 today. So confusing.
Angela, I do hope all goes well with you. My goodness, the things we have to go through.
Monika, 10 doz. cookies.
Carl, I hope you and Mark are ok.
Miss your posts.

Thought i should post an update. Everything is going well diet wise but having to watch exercise amounts right now due to an awful pain flare and i just found out why my head and neck are nonstop pain and pressure. I have psuedotumor cerebri. I will copy past the defination for you guys.

Pseudotumor cerebri (SOO-doe-too-mur SER-uh-bry) occurs when the pressure inside your skull (intracranial pressure) increases for no obvious reason.

Symptoms mimic those of a brain tumor, but no tumor is present
When no underlying cause for the increased intracranial pressure can be discovered, pseudotumor cerebri may also be called idiopathic intracranial hypertension.

The increased intracranial pressure associated with pseudotumor cerebri can cause swelling of the optic nerve and result in vision loss. Medications often can reduce this pressure, but in some cases, surgery is necessary.

Symptoms
Pseudotumor cerebri signs and symptoms may include:

Moderate to severe headaches that may originate behind your eyes and worsen with eye movement
Ringing in the ears that pulses in time with your heartbeat (pulsatile tinnitus)
Nausea, vomiting or dizziness
Blurred or dimmed vision
Brief episodes of blindness, lasting only a few seconds and affecting one or both eyes (visual obscurations)
Difficulty seeing to the side
Double vision (diplopia)
Seeing light flashes (photopsia)
Neck, shoulder or back pain

That is from the mayo clinic site. I have every single symptom and i am very glad my Migraine specialist found out i have it. We started with prednizone and after 6 days no help with it after the 10 day course we switch to high dose lasix (oh yay) and potassium if that failed i would need a spinal tap and brain shunt so praying so hard that does NOT happen! Other than my head and my pain levels i been really good im on a new antidepressant about 6 weeks now, trintellix and its been amazing from about a week in! You guys are always in my thoughts and prayers along this journey!

I am in Tennessee this week. Today was rough. I had a 6AM flight from ABE, so I had to get up at 3:30 to get to airport. Just made my connection in Charlotte. Then straight from the airport in Chattanooga to a class about 30 min from the airport. It is going to be an early night.

I come home on Friday. And I am hosting a Chris party on Saturday and have a cookie swap on Sunday for which I need to bake 10 dozen cookies.

And today i received a message that the table I ordered for my kitchen was out of stock and the order canceled. And now nothing is on sale like it was last weekend. So annoying.

Happy December everyone.

First off, did we really jump to 19th place?

Anyway, I am going to post December's steps and I do hope you all join me. It is for fun and motivation to keep us moving this December for a healthy and happy month.

Happy Sunday everyone.

Hi everyone,
I did get a chromebook awhile ago and am doing my best to learn the ups and downs with it.
We went to my Dh's eye doctor yesterday and I had one of the doctors check my eye. (I had really injured it with the handle of a rake a few days ago) and she said I dodged the bullet this time.
It has detatched from the back and it is causing me to see floaters and wonderful things. If it stays the same I will go to my regular appointment in December.
So I am hoping it stays the same.
Bill still doesn't see out of his eye. It's been 3 years. Last time he went he got the shots in his eye, so we have to wait and see what happens.
Have a good weekend everyone.

Hi,
Computer is ßtill down. I am hoping my son can fix it.
I think my dizzy head is getting a bit better. I I am not sure if is considered vertigo or something else. I think it is sinuses.
I am getting a colonoscopy on the 31st. Happy Halloween?
I can't wait till its over and done
Hope that everything is going well with everyone.
Enjoy the weekend.

Hope everything is okay!

Hi everyone,
I am finally going to get this dizzy head of mine checked out tomorrow.
I will let you know how it goes.

Hi Carl,
It really does help you "think" and it is really a lot of common sense practice.
It kind of reminds me of things I did when I quit smoking years ago.
(I had to keep telling myself "I am a non smoker" and kept breathing deeply whenever I got the urge.)
It's a good book. I am doing the whole thing this time. I hope you join the team if you didn't already.
I just went down to one job myself so I hope I have more "quality and me" time.
I am so happy you posted. You are an interesting person and I do love your blogs.
Tell Mark we send our love.

Hi Team!

I know I haven't been on much recently, but I do follow the chat and do the team bonus spins daily. I only post if I get more than 3! I'm working two jobs which puts free time at a premium!

I just started reading Beck Diet Solution & the Workbook. I'm now down to 191 and a waist of 38" - so I'm looking at working on the "fat" between the ears - getting my head on right for long term successful healthy thinner living. I haven't been this size since 1976!

Anybody have any experience with using this approach AND WANT TO SHARE IT?

Have a great day! Carl

Good morning,
I have been busy with working 2 jobs so I haven't been on a lot lately.
I hope you both are feeling better.
It has been raining here so much lately the ground is a mess. I have today and tomorrow off (from 1 job anyway) and it is dreary out there.
I have 12 more days to go with the cleaning job and that can't be done quick enough.
I have a lot of cleaning to do so there is actually never a day off.
Have a great day everyone.

Monica i really hope you find your new normal and things calm down a bit for you. It is so hard losing people you love and so much added stress :(

Today is moms surprise birthday party i am throwing her, i am at their house mom *daughter-napped* me Wednesday night and i been here since which makes things easier really for the party, i have everything in the fridge in the garage and hidden in the closet in the spare bedroom mom calls my room she made it just for me when my husband had his car accident. I am doing MOSTLY healthy snack foods at the party lots of fruit and veggies but then also found a shrimp dip recipe for chips like the one they made in the 80s that every household bought mom LOVED it! We both been dieting but today we will both be off LOL Then also go salsa and chips and a reg french onion chip dip and then the cake. Well mom wanted brownies for her bday cake she said yesterday not knowing of the party or cake we ordered LOL SO i made double chocolate brownies last night so she thinks thats her cake LOL Her actual bday is tomorrow (66) i put 21 on her cake LOL and paw prints she raises dogs and they are her babies. Dad asked her to go out lunch today (so i can have my friend sneak in wiht the cake and help me decorate and set up and get people in here) and will take her shopping for a bit too. Its a beautiful day out which is good so their 5 and my 1 dog can be outside for the party so they arent jumping on everyone, they are teddy bears (shih tzu/bichon frise) and wont get out the door. Will only be in the 60s and sunny but they have shade and the porch to go on and will have food and water :) Good for them to get fresh air anyways. I am excited and nervous, My back is out i tripped over moms roomba last night (was cleaning the house for her) and fell hard against the bed and threw my back out, plus my physical therapy(torture lol) has me very sore lately she went too far this week and i been sore since Tuesdays appointment so she went much easier Thursday. Also found out even after 4 miscarriages before my husband died that is, i can have a healthy baby one day when i decide too. They think i have endometriosis and will know next week for sure. Already have PCOS so ugh. BUT still possible to have a full term baby :) Best news ever and she said im only 34 i have another 11 years to have a healthy pregnancy. I haven't dated since my husband died 12-9-12.

Wow! You do have a lot going on.

I have been busy too. I just realized that the third quarter is 2/3 of the way finish and I am no where I need to be to finish my goals for the year. Losing the month of July has thrown off my whole year. So for the next couple of months work is going to be super busy. I have several weeks of travel between now and the end of the year and a few trainings to complete. I think that I am going to request an intern for next summer to help get things under control. This week I have been cleaning up my office and shredding a lot of old papers. Once I can get things organized I think I can actually work on things rather than just going from emergency project to emergency project.

As far a Sparking goes, I haven't been putting in the time or effort to make it work. Last 5% challenge I ended up gaining weight rather than losing and I am back up to 182 lbs. this morning. So I am going to be working on focusing on organizing my personal life as well as my work life.

The other week I had my first ever ocular migraine. That was a big red light telling me I need to stop and reprioritize things. Since losing my Mom and my Father-in-law, my stress level has been through the roof making sure that my Dad and Mother-in-law have what they need. Last night I sat down to actually read for a little bit and that went out the window when my Dad called needing help with pension paperwork. Something has to give and til now it has been my diet and exercise. I feel tired all the time and the treadmill is really missing me. So I am trying to figure out how to find a new normal.

Okay I am done complaining. Thanks for "listening"

Hey all, sorry haven't been on in awhile, been very busy! Between dealing with my pain and non stop migraines, i am busy with my AA meetings, working with my sponsor, Mental health appointments, graduate DBT group is starting up soon, im doing Physical Therapy again ( been using my cane on and off again so was time to go back) and never stopping until my migraine made me a few days ago and ended up in the ER 2 nights ago i could not keep water in me even from my migraine. Doing much better now and off for a busy busy day and shopping for moms surprise birthday party im throwing Saturday, dad told me when i came up with the idea hell pay for the food and decorations if i do all the planning on my own other than him taking me shopping since i cant drive! Sounds good to me! Mom will be 66 on Sunday but she doesn't look or act it which is a good thing! I am dealing with some depression but its where i can push thru it and do not want them upping meds anymore right now, they did 4 months ago and we are STILL trying to get my blood sugars under control, but seeing as i was waking up near 400 3 months ago and today was 150 we are doing much better! I have been approved to get the freestyle libre continuous glucose monitor and doing an insulin pump once my sugars are stable, Excited to get the freestyle libre i cant wait! No more poking my fingers! I hope everyone is doing well, i am still losing weight well yay!

Happy September 1st everyone.

Happy September 1st everyone.

I hope everyone has a great weekend.

Happy Sunday everyone.

Good morning everyone,
I have started my new job (in the Deli) a few miles from my house and I gave notice to my cleaning job at the school's administration bldg. (I gave a date of 9/27/18. This will give them time to find someone or I told him if someone wants to start sooner that is fine with me,too)
I hope you all have a great day.

We have more rain than we know what to do with. No flooding though here so far. I hope.

Hope everyone is okay with all this rain. I saw multiple cars stuck in the flood water today. It can stop raining here at anytime.