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6/22/20 9:36 A

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MARYSLASTCHANCE - I truly hope things get better for you. I am working on making them better for me. I am going to cut back on my spending and save money. We are going to get past this. Yes we have to wear masks and stay 6 ft apart but things will get better. The rules other than the masks and distance are basic. If you are sick stay home. Well I think that should have already been happening. The flu kills people too. If you are sick you should be at home. Not out there spreading it. I am not a fan of the masks but I wear them to keep everyone else safe. I work with the public so I could be asymptomatic. I don't want my not wearing a mask to make someone really ill and possibly kill them.




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6/21/20 12:52 A

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This whole virus has affected us all in so many ways. I don't think life could ever be the same ever again. This is, indeed, a sad time. Even though I have been working the whole time. It just feels like I am living in this continuing nightmare. I can't even begin to imagine how you all feel. I guess I am thankful for what I have.. I volunteer for a local food shelf and it just breaks my heart. I would give anyone the shirt off of my back if needed. I am sure things will get better. I have faith and hope.

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6/19/20 12:36 P

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ANIMAL - I also was told not to report as of March 23rd. It was hard on me but I was able to get unemployment almost immediately. I was lucky. Though I am back to work full time we are not actually busy enough for me to be here full time. I sell car insurance and have sold 3 policies in 2 weeks. Before all this I was selling 3 to 4 policies a day. We have been seriously impacted by the corona virus and it stinks. My paychecks are part commission so I am not getting my fill pay right now.



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6/9/20 12:27 P

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Mary - You are right the last 6 months have been really hard. I myself have gained 12 pounds since all this started and I went off work in March. I started back to work May 15 and am still having trouble getting this weight off. I seem to have almost no control. I just eat it. My anxiety is at an all time high. It really stinks. I am trying an app called Headspace but you have to pay for it and I am limited on my money. I am trying the free trial version and I hope it helps. I need something to help me meditate and calm myself. I started seeing a therapist again to help me sort through my feeling and stress right now. I hope you are doing well and thank you for being an essential worker.



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6/2/20 7:05 P

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Oh my god!!

The last few months; this world has changed so much. It's hard to keep track of the day in and day outs. The first six months were stressful I wonder what the nest six months are going to be like. Out of all of that, we have seen good. Forget the rioting around the world. Forget about fighting. People are actually helping each other. Or maybe I am just an optimist. Maybe I see the good in all. I've been a front line worker since day one. Sometimes, being an "essential" worker is very stressful. It comes with being being fatigued in so many more ways then you can ever imagine. Mentally, physically, emotionally. You have people asking for help but telling your to stay away. You hands are so raw from the many time you use sanitizer on them. It's just insane. You work 13 or 14 hour days with a smile on your face just to have someone tell you that you being safe by not wearing a mask. It all drains on you. It's all good though. I go home. Take a shower. Go to sleep, go back the next day. It's not always that bad.

I couldn't imagine what it is like being on lockdown at home. It must be hell at times. Especially if you have busy children that always want your attention when you are trying to work. That must be hard to.

Now, as recent unfolds, we have the riots. Cities are being looted and burned. This is a terrible time. This is also the time we need to come together and become one. Stop being so ignorant. I'm just sick of all of this violence. Being from Minnesota, I felt enraged, but embarrassed at the same time. How can people hurt each other so much. I guess some do not have any moral compass for which they operate. No concern. Is the cops slogan. "To serve and protect" I see no protect when a death was occurring. I'm sorry. I'm just getting myself very emotional and really upset.

In the last few months I gained about ten pounds. Yucky. I just checked out. I had not motivation no emotional attachment to anything. It got to the point where I just didn't care. I went through the motions. I discussed my problems in my brain. I picked at them. At some chips and decided it was good. My light has fizzled out. I know it's in me. I know where it is. I just have to find it and run with it. Right now, I am not for running as I hurt all the time. I have become the queen of excuses. I just need to find my light.

Love and peace,
Mary

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