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I got want to do it and do this for me. My mind is in battle and my body is at war. I'm in battle with myself and if I can over come myself than I can over come it all and do it one day at a time, let it go and get one step closer to my goal.


















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I got want to do it and do this for me. My mind is in battle and my body is at war. I'm in battle with myself and if I can over come myself than I can over come it all and do it one day at a time, let it go and get one step closer to my goal.


















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I got want to do it and do this for me. My mind is in battle and my body is at war. I'm in battle with myself and if I can over come myself than I can over come it all and do it one day at a time, let it go and get one step closer to my goal.


















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I got want to do it and do this for me. My mind is in battle and my body is at war. I'm in battle with myself and if I can over come myself than I can over come it all and do it one day at a time, let it go and get one step closer to my goal.


















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I'm feeling a bit too anxious as always. It's so tiring to be that anxious about minor things all the time. But overall I'm ok today

I arise in the morning torn between a desire to improve the world and a desire to enjoy the world. This makes it hard to plan the day.
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I'm feeling quite good. Just had a great lunch and will not eat again until dinner. emoticon

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MissPigeon, you are fantastic. As a fellow recovering bulimic, I know what an incredible feat a week of b/p freedom is.

Today I feel tired. And frustrated with myself. I seem to be hungry ALL THE TIME, but I don't know if it's real physical hunger or just haywire emotions.

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Today is one week binge/purge free for me :)

If I were following my SP calorie guide, I'd probably be over the limit for the day - I could have made some lower calorie choices throughout the day to be a bit healthier. Considering I managed to fight off the BINGE BINGE BINGE voice in my head every time I was faced with a food opportunity today (and omg - there were MANY), I'm pretty happy emoticon

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And exhausted, didn't sleep last night.

Attempting to make a permenant positive change.


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Lost.
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At the start of new day and new journey. The feeling I get from exercise out weighs the emptiness and loneliness of ED.

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Tired but happy... my ponytail is giving me a headache. I'd better take it out. (I just realized after like an hour of aching what the cause is... Sigh. Some days...)


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Broke up with my boyfriend today because my ED was hurting our relationship.
Went to the gym and restricting my eating again.
I can't help it!

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Another great day! No binging. great progress with my counsellor and bonding with my sister. no time alone in my room (the key to all my success)

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I feel amaaazing! First day in weeks, all because I was actually in control of my day, my actions, my food. I think planning my day the night before helped immensely so i didn't have any 'down time' that i could watch TV in my room (and end up zoning out and eating). I exercised, socialised, prepared my food for the day and did NOT spend time in my room. emoticon

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what happened after breakfats that changed things? what did you have for breakfast? and did you exercise in the morning? I find if i start my day with anything with sugar in it (muesli, jam on toast, etc.) i'm screwed for the rest of the day! Also exercise in the morning makes me focused and gives me that positive endorphin buzz to get me throught the morning :)

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I am still struggling and the only time I did ok was with breakfast.

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I am struggling with my eating and gettting rid of the anxiety.

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Guilty today. I binged last night :(

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Now we shouldjournal and do deep breathing....Ok here I go....this too will pass 'they' say!

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I am struggling with all the work and wanting to get myself under control, but I do not see that as happening.

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emoticon very stressed .. doing some self-flogging

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I am overwhelmed and frustrated.

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I am with another cold, but I am also just starting to settle down. There has been an attepted murder in walking distance and the victom was a neighbor of mine. This just recently happened.

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This morning= emoticon emoticon emoticon
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I am with a bad cold and started coughing stuff up some. I came close to binging, but was talked out of it by an OA leader.

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I went shopping today. It comfirmed why I don't go shopping much. I hate the way I feel in the changing room just wishing the I was smaller. I ended up buying two black cardigans, then stuffed my face with food. Reading others peoples comments helps me realise I am not alone and we all have hangups.

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I am feeling overwhelmed and like I want to eat.

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I am with another cold and emotional. I am doing the breathing, but it is not working for me.

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Trying to stay positive.

When I look at the world I'm a pessimist. When I look at people I'm an optimist -Carl Rogers

Little girls are cute and small only to adults. To one another they are not cute. They are life-sized. ~Margaret Atwood


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I went to the doctor today about a UTI and he wanted to check in about all this ED business. And so I learned I gained 3 pounds. The amount of stress and intense anger and almost rage I felt for hours after hearing this was incredible. I tried to release some of it by blasting beyonce and rihanna who are full bodied beautiful women, and also by screaming at the top of my lungs in the car. I think it helped. When I got home from the appointment I couldn't imagine eating a full meal so I had flax seeds with peanut butter and maple syrup which fulfilled my nutrition needs. It also took me about 30 minutes to eat just 2 tbsp of the stuff because in order to receive the nutritional benefits of the flaxseeds you have to chew and break open each and every one. Gave me something to do and kept me from both bingeing and restricting. I really need to see a therapist...haha.

"The happiness of credulity is a cheap and dangerous quality." -G.B. Shaw

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I am with a sore throat and coughing. Someone I know had just recently died. I have also been to the point that since I stopped with candies I do not feel like doing anything.

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I have been somewhat nervous. I have not binged, but there has been an indecent on campus as well as an issue with my grandmother. My campus is not in a bad neighborhood, but there was a guy that the university police caught and he came on campus with a gun in his hand. My grandmother is taking off and yelling at my step-dad. Some people did not call the police, but they had to bring her back home and thought that we must be neglecting her.


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11/1/11 10:56 P

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I've felt fat, stressed out, anxious, and ugly all day. I obviously used food when I had time to try and calm myself, but that only makes it worse. The only thing that calmed me down and brightened my mood was going into one of my jobs and working with some truly compassionate and hilarious people.

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Scared that i will binge today. It's Halloween... the nightmare of all binges.

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stressed, not as sick but I am still with it, frustrated, overwhelmed, anxious, fell like eating.

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I feel weak.

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emoticon This is me trying to stay awake. I'm fighting a cold or something so I feel like I want to sleep all day. It's also cloudy and rainy outside so I just want a cup of hot tea, a fuzzy blanket, and a good book.

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I feel sad: the old man across the street died
I feel frustrated: I'm supposed to take the boys I watch to the pool...They don't listen at home or at the park... Going to the pool will be embarrassing... And I don't know how to swim. And pools are gross. And I am still not comfortable in a swimsuit.
I feel anxious: Not sure why. I only know I'm anxious because I find it hard to eat and sit. I've been standing and eating. Normally a binge behavior... I guess I'm anxious because for the past two days I've only been eating during the day because I know I need to...It's at night/in the middle of the night that I've been feeling like I'm starving...

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I will live a balanced lifestyle focused on becoming my best self. I will achieve this by overcoming my disordered eating, living a fit & healthy life, becoming financially independent, & building & maintaining solid relationships. During this process I will practice patience, acceptance & self love.
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