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3/26/17 9:28 A

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Hi there! I related to your isolating yourself from your family and not being the real you or letting them in completely. I have done that for years as well, not with cigarettes and wine (though I do love a glass of dry red when cooking supper) but with junk food, late at night when my family is sleeping. I broke out of the fog myself a while back and experienced great relief with a KETO lifestyle. I recently fell back into old habits but am wanting to bust out of them again and today is the day I get back to being serious about KETO and my health. Welcome and best of luck!

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3/7/17 3:59 P

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Thank you!

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3/3/17 7:42 P

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I'm adding my hi here. emoticon
I can relate to your story being a cardiac nurse myself.... not doing it now. Now I am at a crossroads since I'm done homeschooling my kids.
Congrats on the steps you have made so far and giving up the smoking and drinking.
What are you thinking??? low carb or more toward keto? In keto your main macro is fat and the carbs are usually below 30. That is something I would recommend, but it is up to you... of course, this team is called "Team Keto", but if you don't want to try that yet, or want to just get info, this is a good place. emoticon
Welcome...

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Hi Mrs and welcome!!! I had that oh my moment on october 29th. i wasnt prepared, i didnt plan..just woke up and said...enough. today is it..and i havent looked back.
looks like you have done a lot of hard work and thinking...and prepped well. congrats on stopping the smoking and drinking!! sounds to me like you are set for success!! I'm 58..and this is the first thing that i've been able to stick to, and know i'm in it for the long haul...
glad to have you with us!!
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3/3/17 1:30 P

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Intro: Hello,Team. A bit about how I got here: 10 yrs ago I dropped 60 lbs in 5 months with a nutritionist and trainer (plus I was in the military), after my last child was born. I felt great, I was full of energy for my family and job. I rode my bike to work every day, and got up early to hit the gym on the weekends....but it caused a lot of problems in my marriage. My spouse had some major insecurities about me being back to a 'normal' weight again after having 4 babies and being 'curvy' for years. He admitted that he was afraid other men would notice me, and I'd leave him.

We got out of the military and moved back to the States, and I caught him twice having affairs. We divorced soon after and I became deeply depressed. I started a very unhealthy spiral of drinking, smoking, and standing in front of the refrigerator inhaling every bit of food I could. I just stopped caring. After 3 years, I had gained back 40 lbs. During that time I married my childhood sweetheart and moved my family 10 hours away to start a new life for us. Gradually, I have gained more and more weight. Recently, I realized that I couldn't button my jeans, and my scrubs are getting tight.

7 years ago, I wore medium scrubs. Now I'm in an XL. I'm tall and "carry my weight well", but there's no longer any denying that it is well past time to get rid of all this sad baggage/weight I'm carrying around from a previous failed marriage, and failed attempt to be healthy. The truth is, I'm happier than I've ever been in my life, and I feel loved, cherished, and appreciated. This weight I'm hauling around isn't a reflection on my happiness inside, but it is literally dragging me down in more ways than one.

I look at myself in the mirror and in pictures, and I'm shocked at what I see. I feel beautiful and happy on the inside, but it makes me sad to see myself on the outside. I want my outside me to match how I feel on the inside, if that makes sense. But DAAMMMMN, I have NOT looked forward to the hard work I know I'm going to have to put into getting myself back on track towards a more healthy me.

I have been taking baby-steps since the beginning of the year. First, I got my eating on track. Not trying to lose weight, just slowly getting back into the swing of cooking low-carb, weaning myself and my family off the junk in our cabinets and not relying on eating out all the time. Then, I gave up the wine and cigarettes every night. Yikes, the amount of time I spent sitting on my butt, on the back porch, reading while drinking wine and smoking, is shameful and mind-boggling. Doubly shameful, because I'm a cardiac nurse. My spouse doesn't smoke, and rarely drinks (and I did it after my children were in bed), so I was isolating myself. Not good for health or healthy relationships!

I woke up last week and said to myself, I'M DONE. I don't want to be this person anymore. I don't want to keep feeling bad about myself, feeling bad for the wonderful person I'm married to, who loves me, and is only getting a small part of who I can be, because I'm too busy wrapping myself in safe, shameful pounds and habits that keep people from getting too close and possible hurting me. I'm worth more. My life is worth more. My marriage is worth more. Being healthy for my family, my spouse, my patients who rely on me, for MYSELF...that's all I care about. And *poof*, it's like that piece of me that died back when I got into shape and my husband left me for another woman? That piece of me is back, awake and eager to claim my health and happiness, and I'm not about to waste another day on things that happened before today.

If you're still here, thanks for hanging in there! I hope to become an active member of this group, and give and take support as needed. I know that tiptoeing towards 50 means things are a bit harder this time, but I'm super excited to have finally woken up from the self-induced fog I've been walking around in!


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