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1) earliest or most vivid memory of compulsive eating behavior?

In high school I used to eat my lunch in the bathroom stall. I was so afraid of the "porky pig" comments that I got in the lunch room. I couldn't eat anything in front of other people because I didn't want anyone to know what I ate and how much.

2) How long have you been in OA (or is Sparks your only contact with the program)?

Several weeks. I can't always make it to meetings because of my schedule. Another member suggested using the OA telephone meetings she's had success with them.

3) What is your personal definition of abstinence?

Sticking to my planned meals. Not eating anything that was not on my plan or that I did not personally pack (e.g., lunch, snacks such as fruit or raw veggies). Not eating refined flour products like bread, pasta, etc.

4) Name one miracle of positive change recovery has brought you so far.

Admitting that I was powerless was an immense relief. My whole life was spinning out of control -- not just my eating -- and the more I tried to fix it or change it, the worse it got. Letting go of what I couldn't control brought me a lot of peace.

5) Which slogan or saying (OA or not) inspired you?

I use the Serenity Prayer daily: God, grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, the courage to change the things I can, and the wisdom to know the difference.

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1) earliest or most vivid memory of compulsive eating behavior? - sneaking anything (including canned tuna) into bed to eat it without any family seeing me
probably around the age of 8 or so

2) How long have you been in OA (or is Sparks your only contact with the program)? - Sparks is it. No OA groups in my area.
Sparks is all I have cant find a group here
3) What is your personal definition of abstinence? Not sure yet, but it must include not binging or eating to the bottom of the packae.
hmm not sure what you need but I can tell you I eat it all when I binge and more ..
4) Name one miracle of positive change recovery has brought you so far. - hmm Im still working on it ..

5) Which slogan or saying (OA or not) inspired you? Just for today - or right now - just for the next few minutes I am just starting ..


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1) What is your earliest or most vivid memory of compulsive eating behavior?
I was sexually molested for years on most days from age 6 to 11. At age 11, one was traded up for a younger girl. I had started to go through puberty and I felt my body going out of my control. This is where the issues with food began. For me, I stopped eating. I was so ashamed for giving in and having something to eat. At this time, my goal was to eat zero to 200 calories a day. Some days I would feel so starving I would eat over the 200, going as high as 500. As punishment I would add to my daily calories, calories I had not actually eaten, as punishment for not being in control.
I am almost 5'9". I got down to 109lbs on the doctor's scale with clothes on including my heaviest tennis shoes. I felt so disappointed I was intervened on before I got to my goal of 100lbs. I remember my side hurting all the time.
2) How long have you been in OA (or is Sparks your only contact with the program)?
In my late twenties, I switched from food to alcohol. I have been a sober member of AA since March 24, 2009. I have not had to take another drink since then. However. My weight climbed due to succumbing to all the candy in the rooms of AA. I have gained about 20 lbs since getting sober. I have not been to any OA meetings and do not plan to since I am way over-committed in AA. My AA sponcer tells me all the time to say no to more AA commitments. Last thing I need to add to my recovery schedule is OA meetings. 12 steps are 12 steps.
3) What is your personal definition of abstinence?
Not sure about the no sugar and no flour idea, those ingredients are in everything. Seriously? And don't go there with the coffee. Remember I am an AA. No way on the the coffee. It's all I have. I don't drink, don't smoke, stay hungry most of the time, all I have is coffee.
I am a distance runner, plus avid weight lifter, plus have a very physical job, so my plan is to let myself get truly hungry 3 times a day, wait at least 15 minutes to make sure, then eat within my planned foods, stopping when I feel comfortable and not full or over full.

4) Name one miracle of positive change recovery has brought you so far.
Looking at myself in the mirror and saying "I am worthy" and meaning it.


5) Which slogan or saying (OA or not) inspired you?
"Think, think, think". Impulse decision got me in this place. The big book, page 87, invites us to "pause". I heard the acronym PAD, which stands for Pause, Ask, Do. Works every time.

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1) What is your earliest or most vivid memory of compulsive eating behavior?
I dont remember a specific one but when I was 8-9; stealing food they would hide from me and eating whole boxes of stuff (because my family thought I was fat and had to stop eating, granted, I was "chunky" but not really fat). I dont remember obsessing about food before that. I dont remember it as loving food but as feeling different and deprived, feeling that if I ate that food taht would make me be "normal' and not the fat kid that is not allowed to eat that food. Ironically, after eating it, it would make me feel guilty and even more different. The story of my disease is a story of challenging and rebellion. (disclaimer: i am not blaming my family for my disease, just establishing the facts; it also makes me think this disease is more socially widespread that we think - i know they did their best and they thought they were helping)

2) How long have you been in OA (or is Sparks your only contact with the program)?
3 years this week (my 3 year abstinence anniversary is January 18th)

3) What is your personal definition of abstinence?
No bingeing/no purging. The food plan is a tool to achieve that.

4) Name one miracle of positive change recovery has brought you so far.
There have been many, like my page title says: weight loss is great but the true miracle is no bingeing (and not obsessing, most of of the time at least). Having said that, losing 140 lbs is a HUGE miracle and I am the most grateful for it!

5) Which slogan or saying (OA or not) inspired you?
I have 2 main ones: "one day at a time" or "just for today" and "my weight is not my business, it is HP's business"

"The recovering woman needs to recognize that her obsession with food and fat does not define who she is. [...] It is something she has learned to use to help her deal with with the emotional distress of being different or feeling misunderstood, unaccepted or overwhelmed"
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1) What is your earliest or most vivid memory of compulsive eating behavior? I remember my Mom putting me on my first diet when I was twelve years old, and I rebelled by hiding and eating junk food.

2) How long have you been in OA (or is Sparks your only contact with the program)? I took part in my first online meeting today.

3) What is your personal definition of abstinence? Staying away from food and bad eating habits that harm me physically and emotionally.

4) Name one miracle of positive change recovery has brought you so far. The desire to put myself first for a change. I normally take care of everyone else besides myself, but that's going to change.

5) Which slogan or saying (OA or not) inspired you? If it is to be, it's up to me.

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1. Earliest memory of compulsive eating - bingeing on fruits, vegetables and candy as a child, probably about 11 or 12 years old

2. How long in OA - since 1986

3. Personal abstinence. - 3 moderate meals, 2 protein healthy snacks daily, no or low sugar, no or low salt, healthy fats only, no fried foods, no fast foods no sodas

4. Miracle of positive change recovery has brought - less stress, eating healthy, weight loss.

Really AA - The Serenity Prayer
5. OA slogans that have inspired me - One day at a time; Just for today

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JUST FOR TODAY, ONE DAY AT A TIME

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For God so loved the world, that he gave his only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in him should not perish, but have everlasting life.

"If the only prayer you ever say in your life is thank you, it will be enough" - Meister Eckhart


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1. I was not heavy in younger years. I quit smoking and started eating instead!
2. Since 2008.
3. It is to not binge...eat healthy & appropriate portions.
4. Helping others.
5. The Serenity Prayer

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1) What is your earliest or most vivid memory of compulsive eating behavior?

I remember overeating the first time I visited my Dad at his house with his new girlfriend half way across the country. I guess that was one of the first times I didn't know what to so with my emotions.

2) How long have you been in OA (or is Sparks your only contact with the program)?

I am going to my second meeting tonight

3) What is your personal definition of abstinence?

I guess I am not sure but I think it is eating what I planned to eat and not eating between planned meals when I am not hungry.

4) Name one miracle of positive change recovery has brought you so far.

Thinking about the people I met last week helped me get through this week.

5) Which slogan or saying (OA or not) inspired you?

Thine, not my, will be done.
I also like personal affirmations that remind me of the reasons I want to be healthy.

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Hi everyone,

I was a colicky baby, fussy about what I ate according to my parents, also craved and ate junk food early on in my life, such as in childhood.

Currently, I am just re-entering the program but I have been an OA participant, Lifeline rep., occasional group leader before. I started working the 3rd step and had 90 days abstinence.

My definition of abstinence is to follow my meal plan ( contacting sponsor about changes are okay ) but refraining from unhealthy behaviors.

Well, it has brought me a connection with special people and great recovery before :)

Let go and let God, progress not perfection, keep it simple, one moment at a time.

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What is your earliest or most vivid memory of compulsive eating behavior
Probably third or fourth grade I gained a lot of weight because I constantly overate. Then I helped cook meals during harvest and tasted while I cooked and cooked unhealthy food like fried foods, sweets, and food with sauces. Id eat the leftovers while clearing the table.

How long have you been in OA (or is Sparks your only contact with the program)?
I was in OA in the 1990s for a couple of years and just recently went back6 weeks ago. Same thing with SP. I started like 2005 and did well for awhile and left. Then I started again in 2009 for a few months.


What is your personal definition of abstinence? Not binge eating and following a food plan that is healthy.


Name one miracle of positive change recovery has brought you so far. Im really newly back to OA and SP, but I have been sticking to the 3 meals plus one snack and not eating between meals.


Which slogan or saying (OA or not) inspired you? Let go and let God.


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1) What is your earliest or most vivid memory of compulsive eating behavior? I remember being 8 or 9 and being in my bedroom with my bag of Halloween candy. It suddenly hit me that I didn't need to ask my mom's permission to eat as much candy as I wanted. I could sneak it and eat it all and she would never know. So I did!

How long have you been in OA (or is Sparks your only contact with the program)? I have been in AA for almost 2 years now but have realized that I might need an OA program as well. I am just now starting to read about how OA works and might check out some face meetings in my area.

What is your personal definition of abstinence? The idea of abstinence with food is new to me. To start, my definition would involve not binging or starving myself. And to stick to my daily calorie range. I don't quite have a plan yet.

Name one miracle of positive change recovery has brought you so far. I have learned how to be a good person and to do the right thing. Also, I have learned that I can have standards and values

Which slogan or saying (OA or not) inspired you? I love the promises. The fear of people and economic insecurity will leave us...........sometimes quickly, sometimes slowly

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1) What is your earliest or most vivid memory of compulsive eating behavior? I don't know that I can remember that far back. Too much of the time I was so worried about everyone that I was doing it and not even thinking about it.

2) How long have you been in OA (or is Sparks your only contact with the program)? I actually started w/ Sparkpeople several years ago and did great initially, but have decided something was missing. I went to my first online meeting Thursday and tried to go to a face to face last week but with summer, no one was there.

3) What is your personal definition of abstinence? At this point, it is tracking my meals on SP and doing 3 meals and two snacks a day, staying in my calorie range and no additional snacking. .

4) Name one miracle of positive change recovery has brought you so far. I am fortunate to be part of another 12 step program and I feel truly blessed. Now that I have finally admitted that I have a problem with eating...lets just say I will let go and let God!

5) Which slogan or saying (OA or not) inspired you? One day at a time, sometimes just 5 minutes will have to do.

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1) What is your earliest or most vivid memory of compulsive eating behavior?
I think as a kid... I know by the age of 12 I was sneaking food and hiding it... everything and anything I could

2) How long have you been in OA (or is Sparks your only contact with the program)?
This is my only contact and for about 10 minutes... they don't have groups in my area

3) What is your personal definition of abstinence?
Self control. When choosing to eat... eating proper meals and proper snacks...

4) Name one miracle of positive change recovery has brought you so far.
Feeling like there is something positive in my life and I am not just an ugly fat girl who can't do anything.

5) Which slogan or saying (OA or not) inspired you?
I don't have one

May you always dance to the music that lives in your heart. Be you and be beautiful!


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1) What is your earliest or most vivid memory of compulsive eating behavior?
I was 6. I was left alot by my parents becasue theyboth chose to work. My great granmother, who cared for me got cancer. I remember being so bored out of my mind that I would just eat and sneak food to fill the love void in my life. The more people said, "Nicki you don't need anymore" or "look at those spare tires" the more I ate and the more I felt I needed.

2) How long have you been in OA (or is Sparks your only contact with the program)?
1 day working it and reading and contemplating for a few months.

3) What is your personal definition of abstinence?
Not eating between 3 organized meals a day. And only drinking water or unsweetend tea in between those 3 meals.

4) Name one miracle of positive change recovery has brought you so far.
The fact that I don't want to die anymore. I want to find ways to live and stop harming myself.

5) Which slogan or saying (OA or not) inspired you?
It works if you work it, so work it cause your worth it!




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1)Earliest memory of compulsive eating: eating my Easter candy up too fast -- vowing to make it last, but I had to taste the next one.
2) How long in OA: first meeting was in July, 2007; but, I could only go that month to every OA meeting I was taken to, because when I returned home, there were no OA meetings in the area. I am tempted to ask someone in AA if I could go to their meeting, but I hardly ever get out of the house (chronic illness) and I feel shy to ask
3) My personal definition of Abstinence: staying away from white flour and sugar -- getting back on food plan I learned when I first went to OA (the food plan was given me by a nutritionist
4)Name one memory of postive change recovery has brought you so far: I have hope I will be able to change with support from this group.
5) Which slogan or saying inspired you? All things are possible with God.



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What is your earliest or most vivid memory of compulsive earthing? When I was a teenager I hid in the closet and ate an entire bag of potato chips

How long have you been in OA? Sparks is my only contact with the program, however several years ago a friend gave me the book, He Did Deliver Me From Bondage, by Collleen Harrison. that was my first contact with the 12-step program, it was life changing. I then started using the lds addiction recovery program online, I lost weight. Then some life changing stressors came into my life, and I returned to compulsive eating. I am now ready to commit myself to the program


What is my definition of abstinence? Eating three healthy meals with modest portions, two healthy snacks and stay within my calorie range.

Name one positive change recovery has brought you so far? I am not as hungry between meals as I thought I would be


Which slogan or saying (OA or not) inspired you? I can do all things with God

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1) What is your earliest or most vivid memory of compulsive eating behavior?
I remember stealing change out of my folks' cars in the garage so I could buy junk, and snitching junk behind my mother's back in the kitchen, while I was in elementary school. A few years later I was stealing change to buy OTC diet pills.
2) How long have you been in OA (or is Sparks your only contact with the program)?
More than 15 years ago I was abstinent in OA but gave it up to attend NA when I uncovered wanting to go back to using drugs. My weight loss had been very quick and jarring, so for lots of reasons I didn't go back to OA til I was ready, about 3 weeks ago. But I've been in NA the whole time, so I didn't give up on the 12 steps. I just didn't want to stop eating, until about a year ago. I used spark but tried to go it alone until recently.
3) What is your personal definition of abstinence?
This may change, but right now it's 5 small meals spread evenly over the day, in a calorie range designed to have me losing about a pound and a half a week, with no compulsive eating behaviors/triggers. I've been abstinent since 3/9/12 using a food sponsor, who has me limiting weighing to once a month.
4) Name one miracle of positive change recovery has brought you so far.
I'm trusting my higher power will take care of me no matter what my weight. Most of the time :)
5) Which slogan or saying (OA or not) inspired you?
One day at a time. Realizing it's a "we" thing.

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Hi, all!


1) What is your earliest or most vivid memory of compulsive eating behavior?
My mother used to buy boxes of a certain snack cake that I was crazy about, but we weren't allowed to have them any old time, she doled them out. I once ate three of them and stuffed the wrappers between my mattresses and acted all innocent when she asked who ate them. I think I was about 6.

2) How long have you been in OA (or is Sparks your only contact with the program)?
I came into OA in March of 1995. I was so relieved to finally understand that I wasn't alone, I had the disease of addiction and I wasn't just some horrible slacker that had no willpower. I lost about 97 pounds, but wasn't abstinent for longer than 70 days at a time because I was resistant to giving up alcohol despite my obvious sugar problem. In fact I only slipped on alcohol. I also found myself ratcheting up my recreational drug use (I felt entitled since I wasn't drinking). This behavior led me to bottom out pretty quickly and I surrendered and went into the rooms of AA. I'd still go to OA meetings, but my main recovery became AA and slowly slowly slowly the food behavior started up again. I've been trying to do it "my way" for years and nothing has really helped. I know the truth, that I am a compulsive overeater and no human aid can help me. I am powerless and need a spiritual intervention and the program.


3) What is your personal definition of abstinence?
Three-five small meals a day with protein at every meal, maybe one snack. No refined sugar, no white flour, one day at a time.

4) Name one miracle of positive change recovery has brought you so far.
I learned that my happiness inside does not depend on what my body looks like on the outside.

5) Which slogan or saying (OA or not) inspired you?
Let Go, Let God and of course, One Day At A Time.

"I myself am made entirely of flaws, stitched together with good intentions." - Augusten Burroughs

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1) What is your earliest or most vivid memory of compulsive eating behavior?

2) How long have you been in OA (or is Sparks your only contact with the program)?

3) What is your personal definition of abstinence?

4) Name one miracle of positive change recovery has brought you so far.

5) Which slogan or saying (OA or not) inspired you?

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1. I remember being screamed at for eating 2 cans of raviolis, because I hid the other can so no one would know. They found it...I was 5.

2, 4 years

3. not eating between meals, not eating anything on my triggers list, not eating white flour, sugar, or caffeine.

4. Abstinence and sanity I never thought was possible!!!!!!!!

5. "This Too Shall Pass"


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1) What is your earliest or most vivid memory of compulsive eating behavior?

When I was at secondary (high) shool. At the end of lunch the lunch lady would bring round any left over food (burgers, fries, basically anything left) and give it our for free. I sat there and ate 15 burgers and 4 fries and I still could have eaten more.

2) How long have you been in OA (or is Sparks your only contact with the program)?

This is my first day in Sparks OA group

3) What is your personal definition of abstinence?

Only eating at certain times. I have put in place a system of trying to stick to 2 - 3 meals per day and if I'm hungry only eating fruit

4) Name one miracle of positive change recovery has brought you so far.

Trusting myself. I tend to put the blame on anything else but myself and I also put myself down constantly. I sat back just before Christmas and thought "you know you can do this, you have done it before, so whats the problem"... I'm the problem... simple as that really.

5) Which slogan or saying (OA or not) inspired you?

You can do it!


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1) What is your earliest or most vivid memory of compulsive eating behavior?

I asked for a bowl of raw chocolate chip cookie dough for my birthday when I was about seven. When I was twelve, I ate so much (led by a compulsive overeating live-in family friend) that I have a clear memory of being in physical pain afterwards.

2) How long have you been in OA (or is Sparks your only contact with the program)?

I Went to OA meetings for about five years when I was in my twenties, and it gave me enough sanity to quit the extreme daily binge-ing and purging I was doing. Now I'm in my fifties and have been going to meetings for about three months.

3) What is your personal definition of abstinence?

Serenity around what I eat. No compulsive eating.

4) Name one miracle of positive change recovery has brought you so far.

That the bulimia stopped. ~~!!!~~ And this past three months, I feel my inner self shifting toward health and serenity. Amazing.

5) Which slogan or saying (OA or not) inspired you?

KEEP COMING BACK!


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1. As a teen I would come home from school and eat a giant bowl of ice cream with crushed cookies, loads of syrup, whipped cream, and everything else I could fit on top.
2. I guess one day
3. Eating just what I need to have a healthy body that functions as I want it to.
4. Nothing yet, since I just started.
5. There are plenty of obstacles in your way. Do not allow yourself to become on of them.

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Earliest memory of compulsive overeating: I remember sneaking food into my room or the bathroom to eat. I would then wrap the wrappers in toilet paper and throw it into the garbage so my parents wouldn't know how much I was eating.

2) How long have you been in OA? I have been in and out of OA since October 2007. I am currently working the steps again.

3) Personal definition of abstinence: 3 moderate meals a day with nothing in between, no trigger food

4) Miracle or positive change of recovery: I don't feel insane around food. I am slowly losing weight without obsession.

5) Which slogan or saying inspired you? "Don't quit before the miracle happens!"


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1) What is your earliest or most vivid memory of compulsive eating behavior? When i was 7 or so and went to grocery with my mom then came home and ate all the sweet cereal in one sitting so siblings wouldnt get any.


2) How long have you been in OA I have been a member off and on for almost 5 years. At times i get the program when i am working it like i should then for some reason i seem to give up.


3) What is your personal definition of abstinence? To not compulsively overeat

4) Name one miracle of positive change recovery has brought you so far. When i work the program I have the tools to deal with stress in a healthy way instead of eating.

5) Which slogan or saying (OA or not) inspired you? So many... KISS keep it simple sweetie.( I can make ANYTHING difficult)
HALT Am I too hungry, angry , lonely or tired


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1) What is your earliest or most vivid memory of compulsive eating behavior? Eating sugar, spoonfuls and cubes of it. Don't really know how old I was, but I think it was around 10-11. Had gone through some things with my stepdad and my mom and I were bouncing around. But I don't know if the sugar eating started before that or not.


2) How long have you been in OA (or is Sparks your only contact with the program)? I've been participating in online meetings through The Recovery Group off and on since the end of June 2011. Went to a couple of face to face meetings about 18-20 years ago, but none since. I can't really get to the ones in my city due to logistics.


3) What is your personal definition of abstinence? Still working on that one. For now, it's not eating to the point of bloating/discomfort.

4) Name one miracle of positive change recovery has brought you so far. As long as I stay focused on my HP and working the steps, the symptoms of the depression and fibromyalgia I've lived with my entire adult life are greatly diminished and my ability to cope with stressors is better.

5) Which slogan or saying (OA or not) inspired you? I can do all things through [HP] who strengthens me.

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Learning to live and love life one day at a time! humaninrecovery.wordpress.com/about/


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1) What is your earliest or most vivid memory of compulsive eating behavior?
I had a pretty difficult childhood and so, I would keep a stash of food in my room and secretly eat whenever things got too stressful.

2) How long have you been in OA (or is Sparks your only contact with the program)?
I started in program in 2001 and stayed until 2008. I'm thinking about returning to the rooms again.

3) What is your personal definition of abstinence?
I don't have one at the moment. I'm still trying to figure out how to incorporate program back into my life once again.

4) Name one miracle of positive change recovery has brought you so far.
My marriage. When I first met my husband, I was very angry and naive when it came to being in a relationship that didn't have "drama". I had a lot of growing up to do, and he was incredibly patient. We have been together since 2003 and married in 2008.

5) Which slogan or saying (OA or not) inspired you?
Step 0 - Put the food down! Even if I do nothing else in the course of the day, I know that food will no longer solve the issue.


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12/13/11 5:54 P

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1) Earliest memory of compulsive overeating: I remember being very drawn to a plate of sweets in my kindergarten teacher's class: they were for moms visiting the class, but I still remember them. Many memories of sneaking cookies out of the kitchen, eating other food hidden in my room.

2) How long have you been in OA? I've been in OA since May 2009.

3) Personal definition of abstinence: No white flour, sugar, or fried foods.

4) Miracle or positive change of recovery: I have not eaten sugar in almost two years. I can have sugary items in my house without eating them all up, which I have NEVER been able to do before. I've also maintained a weight loss of about twenty-five pounds for over a year.

5) Which slogan or saying inspired you? One day at a time.


Grateful to be on the path to recovery from compulsive eating--one day at a time.


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1) Earliest memory of compulsive overeating: I was pretty young. I would steal cookies cakes and candys and take thenm to my room and eat them all up.

2) How long have you been in OA? I've been in OA since August 2009.

3) Personal definition of abstinence: 3 weighed and measured meals, no inbetweens, no flour or sugar.

4) Miracle or positive change of recovery: I have energy now to live. .

5) Which slogan or saying inspired you? You can do anything for just one day.

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1) What is your earliest or most vivid memory of compulsive eating behavior?
I remember taking boxes of frosting mix, or brownie batter, mixing it up in my bedroom and eating it all. 3 or 4 apples at a time, Buying boxes of snack cakes and eating them one after another every night. Anything I ate was in it's entirety, the whole package. My mom has said my behavior towards food changed at 10.

2) How long have you been in OA (or is Sparks your only contact with the program)?
I went to my first f2f meeting last Saturday.

3) What is your personal definition of abstinence?
Not binging on anything, healthy or unhealthy.

4) Name one miracle of positive change recovery has brought you so far.
Because of OA I know I'm not the only one.

5) Which slogan or saying (OA or not) inspired you?
we can do together what we couldn't do alone!

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1. earliest or most vivid memory of compulsive eating behavior? -

Jr. High. I went to a school that none of my friends from elementary went to - I felt so alone. In 7th grade I thought I had met some new friends, but they all turned their backs on me. I started "working" at the lunch line at school, where we got free meals up to $2.50 - I would routinely take more than that. Yes, I would steal food. When I could no longer work at the lunch line (limited to 1 semester), I began stealing money from my parents to buy food. I would eat all crap. Amazingly I did not gain weight - I was growing like a weed and had a good metabolism. Of course that did not last.

2. How long have you been in OA (or is Sparks your only contact with the program)? -
I am attending my first meeting tomorrow.

3) What is your personal definition of abstinence? A period without binge eating.

4) Name one miracle of positive change recovery has brought you so far. Just starting on this journey. I hope to get a lot out of this, but mostly, I hope to get to know myself.

5) Which slogan or saying (OA or not) inspired you? Our greatest weakness lies in giving up. The most certain way to succeed is always to try just one more time.



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1. earliest or most vivid memory of compulsive eating behavior? -

I was about five years old. I remember being angry at my mother for some reason. I was sitting at the dinner table,she left the room and I grabbed the food in my plate with both hands- balled it up and crammed it into my mouth.

2. How long have you been in OA (or is Sparks your only contact with the program)? -
I am only on SparkPeople OA.

3) What is your personal definition of abstinence? Staying away from something for a certain period of time.

4) Name one miracle of positive change recovery has brought you so far. - ????

5) Which slogan or saying (OA or not) inspired you? Just for the next few minutes.




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1) Earliest memory of compulsive overeating: I was about 10 yrs. old and visiting relatives out of state. An aunt I had just met scolded me for eating too many potato chips out of the bowl.

2) How long have you been in OA? I've been abstinent since 07/23/11. I have a sponsor and attend local meetings as needed.

3) Personal definition of abstinence: 3 weighed and measured meals, no inbetweens, no flour or sugar.

4) Miracle or positive change of recovery: I look in the mirror and feel pretty again.

5) Which slogan or saying inspired you? "Death was interrupted by abstinence."

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My name is Lisa Jayne and I'm an overeater.

1) What is your earliest or most vivid memory of compulsive eating behavior?

I remember being 6 or so and eating entire heads of lettuce while watching TV. I remember after moving into town, I was an emotional eater. I used to steal candy bars from the town grocer. Taunting made me eat more and more.

2) How long have you been in OA (or is Sparks your only contact with the program)?

Sparks is my only contact.

3) What is your personal definition of abstinence?

Doing without. I've been without chocolate for 7 years. Finding out what foods drive my insanity and stop the madness.

4) Name one miracle of positive change recovery has brought you so far.

I figured out that I do have a problem. That I need to take drastic steps in order to be a healthy person.

5) Which slogan or saying (OA or not) inspired you?

Do the best that you can to be the best that you can.
Strive to be better than mediocre, because you are exceptional.

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Hi Zoe here, complusive overeater, new to Sparkpeople, been with OA about 6 months, but still trying to find my balance with OA...
1. First memory of complusive eating???
well I know about 10-12 years old, I hid food in my bedroom, or when parents were gone would raid the cupboards..
2. How long withn OA???
about 6 months
3. My defination of abstiance is...
staying in control, no binges, and eating healthy
4. name 1 mirarcle...
so far no mirarcles for me
5. which slogan has inspired you?
ODAT and your not alone

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Hey all, I'm Debbie. Thought I'd introduce myself through these questions:

1) What is your earliest or most vivid memory of compulsive eating behavior?
--My early memories all blend together but I can say that as a child in grade school I would graze basically every time I would walk through or near the kitchen. It was especially difficult when we kept cake frosting in the house (which was often) and I'd hide it in the back of the fridge and grab a swipe every so often. Or a handful of crackers, or chips, or whatever I could get easily - but I always kept it hidden from others.

2) How long have you been in OA (or is Sparks your only contact with the program)?
--I went to my first online meeting on August 14, 2011, and my first live meeting on August 27, 2011. I played around with OA readings and meditations since about May of 2011, but I would not consider myself a real part of OA until August 27, 2011.

3) What is your personal definition of abstinence?
--I have not yet created a plan of eating... but for me, abstinence is sticking to my guns all day and avoiding trigger foods. Even though I haven't worked with a sponsor to create a PoE, I have been considering my calorie range through SP and a small list of behaviors to avoid as abstinent. No cake icing, which developed into a huge emotional experience for me, no eating emotionally, no matter what the food is, no grazing, and no eating more than I intend to out of boredom or in that blackout-type stage of doing it and not realizing it until the food's all gone. I also avoid certain settings as part of this definition also: no buffets, and no eating pizza by myself unless it is a true individual portion. I stay inside a calorie range of 1200-1550, but with the exception of trigger foods, I eat what I want.

4) Name one miracle of positive change recovery has brought you so far.
--Self-confidence... at least, greatly improved over what it was before. I've also reached a huge weight milestone (finally under 200# for the first time in 10 years!) but I started my weight-loss journey before I started my recovery.

5) Which slogan or saying (OA or not) inspired you?
--"one day at a time" and "progress not perfection" are hugely inspirational for me.


Fairy tales are more than true; not because they tell us that dragons exist, but because they tell us that dragons can be beaten.
-- G.K. Chesterton

You are never too old to set a new goal or dream a new dream.
-- C.S. Lewis

Live as if you were to die tomorrow. Learn as if you were to live forever.
-- Ghandi

The trouble is, you think you have time.
-Buddha


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1) earliest or most vivid memory of compulsive eating behavior?
I wanted to stop eating ice cream and just kept eating it anyhow. I was sick and sad of that food but I just kept on eating it.

2) How long have you been in OA (or is Sparks your only contact with the program)? I've been back in OA for about a month, but was attended meetings regularly for about five years when I was in my twenties. (I'm in my 50's now.)

3) What is your personal definition of abstinence? Serenity around food. For me, this is only possible when I stay away from white carbs.

4) Name one miracle of positive change recovery has brought you so far. The ability to "turn it over" to God, which opens the door for all kinds of amazing things ~:-).

5) Which slogan or saying (OA or not) inspired you? JUST FOR TODAY. Couldn't live without that one.


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Hi everyone, my name is Nae' & I'm a compulsive overeater, sugar & food addict.
I'm soooooo very happy to have found this group on here !!

1) What is your earliest or most vivid memory of compulsive eating behavior?
Not sure of my age (boogie-man stage) so hiding under the basement stairs & eating in the dark. My compulsion to overeat must have been scarier than the boogie-man.

2) How long have you been in OA (or is Sparks your only contact with the program)?
My younger sister introduced me to OA a year ago, July. We started attending different meetings so we could better understand what was going on.

3) What is your personal definition of abstinence?
For me, abstinence is a daily struggle. Some days it's harder, some days it's easier. I do my best to take things one day at a time...sometimes, one meal at a time.

4) Name one miracle of positive change recovery has brought you so far.
Becoming aware of my compulsion to overeat is the real miracle for me right now.

5) Which slogan or saying (OA or not) inspired you?
"Just For Today"

Sending everyone my best wishes !



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1. what is your earlies or most vivid memory of compulsive eating behavior?

I can remember when I was growing up, my mother use to have cakes in a closet for my dad's lunch. I would snick and eat not just one cake, but many cakes and then hide the paper wrapers so she wouldn't find them. When I was growing up my mother use to try to put me on diets and I would cry and just keep binge eat when she was not around to see me. I am like that today. I binge eat when people isn't around to see me. I don't know why this is. But I feel ashamed when I do that.

2. how long have you been in OA (or sparks your only contact with the program?)

Spark is the only contact with OA I have. I would like to go to a class to see If if would like it, but a meeting is to far for me to travel to, The closes meet is around 75 miles one way to go.
I was hope this team group could help me get back on the journey to weight loss. really need it.

what is your personal definition of abstinence?

To reframe from eating between meals if not hungry. Not eating food, when your not hungry. Learning to stop when you feel satisfied and don't need to eat more. Learning to cope with feeling in different ways than eating. I know when I am having a emotional eating binge and I know when I feel satisfied, but the STOPING IS MY PROBLEM. If t tastes good, I continue to eat.

Name one miracle of positive change recovery has brought you so far.

I have lost 200 pounds and I know I can do it. It is just staying that way and going on down. I am here to change my habits of eating and binging, and seek support from others.

Which slogan or saying (oa or not) inspires you?

Look forward and never look back.

If at first you dont succeed try and try again.



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1) What is your earliest or most vivid memory of compulsive eating behavior?

I guess my most vivid memory of my compulsive eating was my turning point a couple a weeks ago. I was eating and I was so full it hurt. For some reason I could not stop. It was a moment for me where I knew I needed some help. I was physically hurting myself. I was embarassed and discouraged that I could not make myself do what "I" wanted!!! Insanity!

2) How long have you been in OA (or is Sparks your only contact with the program)?

I have ordered the literature and have been readng it. I have not gone to a meeting yet, but that is my next step.

3) What is your personal definition of abstinence?

I have decided my definition of abstinence is refraining from unwanted, unneeded food. I have a few trigger foods (one main one) and absolute abstinence from it will be needed. I know when I'm actually hungry and when I am being compulsive... I have to live by this and let my higher power help me have the persistance and strength to live up to the goals I have made for myself.

4) Name one miracle of positive change recovery has brought you so far.

I just have such a different attitude about my life. I am going through a lot of changes and trials right now and this chance at recovery has made me realize that I can make a difference for me!

5) Which slogan or saying (OA or not) inspired you?

I don't know. I just want to be free of this trial and am ready to put the time in!

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My most vivid memory of compulsive over eating behaviour?
When my parents had gone out for the evening I was feeling quite alone so I ate a box of Mac and cheese, of course with lots of cheese and margarine, a whole loaf of bread toasted with margarine, I vomited (thinking good now there is more room) I then ate a box of cookies at which time my aunt came for a visit stopping me from going on. This was not a one time thing.

I have not been to OA for some years but have been a member of SP since around March.

For today I would say that my personal definition of abstinence is knowing what my food triggers are and staying away from them. As well as recognizing good choices regarding my eating.

Eating, or the promise of eating, no longer controls what I do. The desperation to get to the next time to eat (breakfast, lunch, supper and snacks)

Everyday brings a different slogan that talks to me. Today is "know yourself - be honest"

Jane

I do not have to do things perfectly for God's approval

Christian Theology is relecting on and articulating the God centred life and beliefs that Christians share as followers of Jesus Christ, and it is done in order that God may be glorified in all that Christians are and do "Soli Deo Gloria"



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1) What is your earliest or most vivid memory of compulsive eating behavior?

I am not really sure. I have a very addictive personality and I have replaced other addictions in my life with food. I am really trying to control this addiction instead of just replace it with something else which is what I have always done. I have bounced from one addiction to another for a long time. I know that when I 'diet' it is miserable because of my 'need' to eat. It can take over to the point that I am completely out of control. Just the other day I ate so much that I could not breath. This is a ridiculous behavior that I just don't understand. I have difficulty understanding why I can't just stop.

2) How long have you been in OA (or is Sparks your only contact with the program)?

Sparks is my only contact with this program. I am going to look into some of the literature and look for a group in my area.

3) What is your personal definition of abstinence?

I am going to plan what I eat at night for the day before. Abstinence is staying on that plan 100%.

4) Name one miracle of positive change recovery has brought you so far.

I am not sure I can answer this question right now. I know that I am feeling a little better about myself since I have decided to try Weight Watchers and start making a plan for myself.

5) Which slogan or saying (OA or not) inspired you?

I love the Serenity Prayer


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1) What is your earliest or most vivid memory of compulsive eating behavior? I am anorexic so my issues with food are about restricting and not binging. My first memory with food is running away from life's problems by not eating. Also, feeling weak, and light headed from staving myself. My eating disorder began because of child abuse. In my family your value and worth came from how pretty you looked. And to be pretty was to be thin. I was very thin, and my Mom felt bad and unworthy because of it. She used to stave me, give me food I hated, and tell me I was not worthy of food. So, my first memories are of fights and control struggles with her, and feeling light headed and weak from not eating.

2) How long have you been in OA (or is Sparks your only contact with the program)? I went to my first meeting in February of 2007. I dropped out in June of 2007. And came back mid September of 2010.

3) What is your personal definition of abstinence? Still working on this. My definition is to not engage in behaviors that create my ED. So, eating all of my food on my meal plan at the right times is part of it. Also, working my OA program. I'm still figuring out what that means. Going to meetings, doing reading a writing work, reading OA/AA books, having a sponsor, and maybe working the OA/H.O.W.. program or regular OA using the H.O.W. Questions. Doing step work is a part of it, as is following a meal plan, and calling 3 members of the program, and my sponsor daily. I also go to meetings.

4) Name one miracle of positive change recovery has brought you so far. Hope, growth, recovery from past abuse, freedom, true love, restored health, and the chance and hope to have 3 babies in the next few years, sanity, and living my life full of my goals and dreams in action.

5) Which slogan or saying (OA or not) inspired you? I think of my mate and the children we will have, being able to write, think, go back to school, and live my dreams. Just do it! What action can I do right now that is a step toward recovery. Also, that unless the food gets into my mouth I am not eating and am therefore dying.
Peace and Love,
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1) What is your earliest or most vivid memory of compulsive eating behavior? Having my best friend over and frying up tortillas, putting cinnamon and sugar on them then dipping them in honey and eating them until I was sick. I think we were 13. I'm sure there are others before that but that's the most vivid memory.

2) How long have you been in OA (or is Spark your only contact with the program)? For 5 days

3) What is your personal definition of abstinence?
I'm not sure yet what it will be. Right now my goal with my sponsor is to log everything I eat, stay within about 1200-1500 calories, eat 3 meals, 2 snacks and don't binge.


4) Name one miracle of positive change recovery has brought you so far.
Not feeling like the only freak in the room

5) Which slogan or saying (OA or not) inspired you?
One day at a time and Easy Does It - have to take myself less seriously!



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1) What is your earliest or most vivid memory of compulsive eating behavior?
Eating potato chips -- loved them. Also a dessert item one of my Aunts made -- I couldn't stop. And even before I can remember -- the family talks about something I did at my Grandma's -- I would take fig bars and line them up on the bathtub on napkins and go in there and eat -- why they let a kid do that I don't know.


2) How long have you been in OA (or is Spark your only contact with the program)?
I started in about 1990 and was active for years -- I've been away for 8 or 9 years.

3) What is your personal definition of abstinence?
I'm just recently back and have not redefined my abstinence -- my abstinence used to be no added sugar and 3 meals a day nothing in between. I don't know what will be determined -- but I have blood sugar issues now and probably will have planned snacks.

4) Name one miracle of positive change recovery has brought you so far.
mmmm .... well just from getting back -- starting to let go


5) Which slogan or saying (OA or not) inspired you?
Together we can do what we could never do alone. &

IF I FAIL TO PLAN I PLAN TO FAIL


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1) What is your earliest or most vivid memory of compulsive eating behavior?
Eating a whole bag of oranges!!! I loved to read as a little kid, and I read, ate, read, ate. I wish it had REMAINED oranges, but I have eaten whole bags of some other things since then that were not good for me AT ALL!


2) How long have you been in OA (or is Spark your only contact with the program)?
On and off ( mostly off) since 1996 but I do belong to another fellowship.

3) What is your personal definition of abstinence?
I am using the grey sheet.

4) Name one miracle of positive change recovery has brought you so far.
More serenity, tools for living, OA friends.


5) Which slogan or saying (OA or not) inspired you?
Live and let live.




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1) What is your earliest or most vivid memory of compulsive eating behavior?
I remember stealing food from my mom's friend's cupboard when I was three years old.
2) I can into OA in 1988 for the first time and loved it. I left the program in 1992 and now I'm back at my top weight ever! Glad to be serene first and foremost!

3) What is your personal definition of abstinence?
No binge foods, weight everyday, and meals must have a beginning and an end (I'm a grazer.)

4) Name one miracle of positive change recovery has brought you so far.
Patience! I'm more patient with people and myself! Serenity!!!
5) Which slogan or saying (OA or not) inspired you?
Replace "fear" with "faith" in my life!



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1) What is your earliest or most vivid memory of compulsive eating behavior?

Actually, it wasn't me I remember, it was my mother. I remember watching her eat and eat and eat and I think I learned to use food as a drug from her. We were forced to clean our plate etc...so when it began for me a very blurry. I guess there was abuse linked to food too. I do remember eating a bag of pretzels about 20 years ago and not stopping even though I was sick.

2) How long have you been in OA

I joined this online group last night. Haven't been to a meeting yet.

3) What is your personal definition of abstinence?

I am not sure. I don't know anything of OA or AA. Big learning curve here for me. Good news is it'll probably take all my spare time (less time to munch :) I did take the goal so I am thinking it is just about not binging????

4) Name one miracle of positive change recovery has brought you so far.

Finding this place.

5) Which slogan or saying (OA or not) inspired you?

Not sure on this one yet.

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Hi, my name is Gayle, and I'm a compulsive overeater...

1) What is your earliest or most vivid memory of compulsive eating behavior? I remember being 5 or 6, and getting up super early on weekend mornings when my parents were still asleep and raiding the cupboards. I remember piling peanut butter and jelly into a cup and just eating them mixed out of a cup. Sometimes I would go back for more and know that I wasn't going to get into trouble for it.

2) How long have you been in OA (or is Sparks your only contact with the program)?
Spark is my only contact with the program as of yet. I plan on getting information on the phone meetings.
3) What is your personal definition of abstinence?
Eating small meals through the day that are for fuel for my body and not going over my calorie limit for a day.

4) Name one miracle of positive change recovery has brought you so far.
I am just starting today, but I believe that today one positive change I can claim already is knowing already that I am not as alone as I felt.

5) Which slogan or saying (OA or not) inspired you?
Let go, and let God.

Don't ever be someone's slogan, for you are poetry.
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Hi, my name is lou jean and I'm a compulsive overeater and food addict.

1) What is your earliest or most vivid memory of compulsive eating behavior? when I was little I was always over weight and my mom would let me set with her and the adults under the table while thy set around drinking coffee and sharing their life's my Mom would give me Big pieces of cake and all the cookies i could eat.


2) How long have you been in OA (or is Sparks your only contact with the program)?
this is my only contact to the program have been a member of the team for a while just have not done the program lately starting all over

3) What is your personal definition of abstinence?
making a meal plan and sticking to it


4) Name one miracle of positive change recovery has brought you so far.
I think more before I eat about the food I am putting in my mouth. I dont just shovel it in and I always start over each day

5) Which slogan or saying (OA or not) inspired you?
Let go, and let God.



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Hi, my name is Beth, and I'm a compulsive overeater and food addict.

1) What is your earliest or most vivid memory of compulsive eating behavior? My Mom prepared a lunch for us to bring to school each day. She kept a variety package of assorted snacks in the pantry and included one each day. When I was about 7 or 8 I got into the pantry and ate every bag of the lunch snacks.

2) How long have you been in OA (or is Sparks your only contact with the program)?
For the past week I have participated in telephone meetings. I hope to attend a F2F meeting later this evening.

3) What is your personal definition of abstinence?
For now I am keeping my food diary, making healthy food choices and using portion control.

4) Name one miracle of positive change recovery has brought you so far.
Last week, twice in one week, there were birthday celebrations in our office complete with cake and ice cream. By the grace of God I abstained both times.

5) Which slogan or saying (OA or not) inspired you?
Let go, and let God.

"For as a woman thinks within herself, so she is." Proverbs 23:7 (a)

I can do all things through Christ--including being fit and healthy!

Remember G.I W (God is Watching)

Life Verse: "For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord, plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future." Jeremiah 29:11


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5/1/11 10:26 P

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1) What is your earliest or most vivid memory of compulsive eating behavior?
I remember when Girl Scout Cookies came in (I was about 8) and selling over a thousand boxes. I would sneak them from the garage and sit and eat a whole pack.

2) How long have you been in OA (or is Spark your only contact with the program)?
Since 2-10-11

3) What is your personal definition of abstinence?
Staying within my calories, eating three meals a day, eating two snacks per day, No binging. No Caffeine.

4) Name one miracle of positive change recovery has brought you so far.
I am finally starting to realize I am worth it. I am worth being healthy. I am worth doing the work on myself. I am worth the rewards and blessing along the way. I am in this to win this, to win my life back, my health back.

5) Which slogan or saying (OA or not) inspired you?
Nothing tastes as good as abstinence feels.

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1) What is your earliest or most vivid memory of compulsive eating behavior? My most vivid memory was I was left home alone when my parents worked in our family restaurant, my sister was off in college & bored watching tv. stuffed my lonely feelings. In late teens used laxatives & my 30's after both my parents passed( 10 years apart) I was bulimic before they had a name. Binge & purge. Finally got a handle on things in therapy in my early 40's.

2) How long have you been in OA (or is Sparks your only contact with the program)? i have not been to an OA meeting in 20 + years. Needed OA & got a kick in my pants Sunday night from Ruby.

3) What is your personal definition of abstinence? Eating correctly weighing Measuring & writing it all down. Being diabetic(non insulin) I need to have healthy snacks. Again weighing measuring & making much healthier choices



4) Name one miracle of positive change recovery has brought you so far.
Giant Reality Check

5) Which slogan or saying (OA or not) inspired you?
One day at a time.





Its always something, to know youve done the most you could. But, dont leave off hoping, or its of no use doing anything. Hope, hope to the last! ~ Charles Dickens


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1) What is your earliest or most vivid memory of compulsive eating behavior?

I remember not wanting to share a bag of potato chips with my Mom; I remember thinking that if I gave her one or two, there'd be that much less for me. That's so pathetic and so not like me...now. I remember always having seconds of whatever meal was prepared and never feeling satisfied, even with that. I recall wanting to consume certain things, like ice cream, until it was GONE.

2) How long have you been in OA (or is Sparks your only contact with the program)?

My hubby and I attended a few OA meetings in our town, but the meeting time is impossible for us to make as my hubby doesn't get home until 7:00pm. I've joined in several online meetings and find them very useful. At present, SparkPeople is my only contact with the program...outside of reading material.

3) What is your personal definition of abstinence?

Eliminating sugar, flour, and processed/refined foods from my eating plan EVERY DAY. Eating only whole foods, every day. Eating only three meals a day with no in-between snacking or evening snacking.

4) Name one miracle of positive change recovery has brought you so far.

I managed to lose 38 lbs in 2010 by white-knuckling it, but that only works for so long. It was only today that I admitted (honestly and from my gut, not my brain) that I'm addicted to food and am powerless over it. Having surrendered to that is empowering by itself!

5) Which slogan or saying (OA or not) inspired you?

This quote:

"Do not let your fire go out, spark by irreplaceable spark. In the hopeless swamps of the not quite, the not yet, and the not at all, do not let the hero in your soul perish and leave only frustration for the life you deserved, but never have been able to reach. The world you desire can be won: it exists, it is real, it is possible, it is yours." - Ayn Rand

Victory will be mine. :-)

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1) What is your earliest or most vivid memory of compulsive eating behavior?
One of my most vivid memories is when friends came to visit with their 2 year old and, after they left, I looked in the garbage for the leftover cake that I had deliberately thrown out in the box so I could retrieve it later. As I reached for the cake, I realized that right next to it was a dirty diaper. It occurred to me that this was not normal behavior!
2) How long have you been in OA (or is Sparks your only contact with the program)?
I have been going to OA meetings 1-3 times a week for 22 years.
3) What is your personal definition of abstinence?
Avoiding my binge foods, staying on my food plan of 3 meals and 2 snacks and working the program to the best of my ability.
4) Name one miracle of positive change recovery has brought you so far.
There are so many, but learning to deal with resentment, anger and fear so that those things don't run my life is one of the best.
5) Which slogan or saying (OA or not) inspired you?
The Serenity Prayer.


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1) What is your earliest or most vivid memory of compulsive eating behavior?
Probably when my dad and I would have pizza night when I was a pre-teen. We would make three full-sized frozen pizzas, one of each type that we liked, and then split each in half,and we'd each have half of all three.

2) How long have you been in OA (or is Sparks your only contact with the program)?
I've been in OA for approximately a month.

3) What is your personal definition of abstinence?
Personal abstinence is sticking to my food plan, and on "free days" (the days I plan to go out to eat with friends), eating half of my plate and/or stopping when I'm full, before I'm physically uncomfortable.

4) Name one miracle of positive change recovery has brought you so far.
I can have a block of cheese in my house and not devour it in one sitting!

5) Which slogan or saying (OA or not) inspired you?
"Only for today." I am, when I'm not binging, and meticulous food planner. So, it's night to go shop for my weekly ingredients, and then just forget everything except for committing to my food plan today, and not worrying about the rest.

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1/24/11 6:08 A

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1) What is your earliest or most vivid memory of compulsive eating behavior?
I remember being about 8 years old and eating 4-5 toast in one sitting.

2) How long have you been in OA (or is Spark your only contact with the program)?
Less than a year.

3) What is your personal definition of abstinence?
Staying within the allotted range and staying away from binge foods.

4) Name one miracle of positive change recovery has brought you so far.
I went 71 days with no binging this past year. I am going to conquer that number!

5) Which slogan or saying (OA or not) inspired you?
"Don't dig your grave with a knife and fork."

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#1 In my 40's

#2 Hopefully will be going to a meeting this week
#3 Not pigging out on something even if it's good for you,because your trying to fill aneed.
#4 I'm just starting on this roar.
#5 "I'M NOT WHERE I WANT TO BE,BUT THANK GOD I'M NOT WHERE I USE TO BE". JOYCE MEYER MINISTRIES emoticon

I'M NOT WHERE I WANT TO BE,BUT THANK GOD I'M NOT WHERE I USE TO BE.


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1) What is your earliest or most vivid memory of compulsive eating behavior?
When I was 7 or 8 years old I ate an entire large pizza to myself while my uncle was babysitting me. All I remember was that he thought it was hilarious and for some reason (?) was proud of me.

2) How long have you been in OA (or is Sparks your only contact with the program)?
Not officially in OA but I'm starting to read the literature and looking for a meeting.

3) What is your personal definition of abstinence?
Sticking to a preplanned meal plan and no binges.

4) Name one miracle of positive change recovery has brought you so far.
4 days without bingeing!!

5) Which slogan or saying (OA or not) inspired you?
One day at a time.

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1/4/11 9:05 P

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Gosh - it is hard to remember just one time it seemed like that was the norm growing up - it wasn't just one of anything, it was always clean your plate and sweets were always around to snack on.

2. Sparks is my only contact to OA but I am very active in the AA 12 step program and have been sober for over 3 years.

3. Avoidance of a substance, activity, or thought that I have no control over.

4)LIFE! Clarity and the ability to live. OK I know that is three but there are so many miracles since I have been in recovery that I get excited just thinking about them

5) Which slogan or saying (OA or not) inspired you?
I despised the sayings when I first came in the program, I did not understand how they even applied. I thought they were goofy, foolish and ridiculous! LOL One day at a time, just for today, its not all about you ..... the list went on. Today I have heard one that does not radiant a positive thought. My most favorite is probably - Keep Coming Back!

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Welcome back!

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1) What is your earliest or most vivid memory of compulsive eating behavior?

I've been a compulsive overeater for as long as I can remember. As a child, I vividly remember sneaking treats out of the freezer while my mom sat in the other room. I'd keep going back and going back, until they were almost gone & I felt guilty. I remember being 8 or 9 & eating most of a pizza, and my brother told me I was greedy, that the pizza was for everybody. I remember stealing the snack cakes my sister would hide in her bedroom.

2) How long have you been in OA (or is Sparks your only contact with the program)?

I originally found OA in January 2001, exactly 10 years ago. It took me a couple of weeks to get the courage to attend a meeting (I even sat in the parking lot the week before I finally went in!). I was so scared, but I'd reached rock bottom. I was 20 years old, very depressed and hopeless, and I knew I couldn't do it on my own. The first meeting I attended changed my life. I was "struck" abstinent that day. It remains one of the most profound days of my life. I can't adequately describe how it felt to finally be free. I didn't even care if I lost weight, as long as I could keep that feeling. Alas, the weight melted off, and I lost almost 100 lbs in a year.

Unfortunately, I relapsed about 16 months after starting. Life was spiraling out of control, and I turned to bulimia out of fear of regaining the weight. I decided to check myself into a treatment center before it got worse, which worked, thankfully. I also used that time to get therapy to deal with some of the more significant problems I couldn't overcome on my own.

The biggest downside is that I lost touch with OA. Not a day has gone by that I wished I could have back the abstinence that made me feel so free. I've regained the weight I lost over the last 8 years. I know I can't do this on my own. I need OA.


3) What is your personal definition of abstinence?

Abstinence, for me, is 3 meals a day with nothing in between, and when it gets hard, ask my higher power for help. This is how a member described her abstinence to me at the first meeting I attended. I've decided to amend it to include one snack per day, if needed. I don't want to get so strict that I get into disordered eating again like I had my first time around.

4) Name one miracle of positive change recovery has brought you so far.

Focusing on living one day at a time is giving me the freedom to forgive myself for relapsing so many years ago. I spent so many years wishing I could have the past back, that I wasn't living my life. I'm so grateful for this day.

5) Which slogan or saying (OA or not) inspired you?

"Now is the time to start; tomorrow is too late." It was printed in my OA journal, and it's a personal motto I strive to live by. Procrastination kills. Today is the only day I have, so I must not wait until "tomorrow." Tomorrow never comes. Live today.

Now is the time to start; tomorrow is too late


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1. My earliest memory of compulsive eating is from when I was in college. I was in the first apartment I ever had on my own, sitting in the living room, watching TV, eating salt & vinegar potato chips until my mouth was too chapped and painful for me to eat any more -- or until the bag ran out. I also remember eating a pint of ice cream a night -- basically, I'd eat the whole container in one sitting. I even joked about being addicted to those things, not understanding that I wasn't actually joking.

2. I started attending OA meetings about a year ago. I went regularly until April or May, when my new job started requiring me to work on meeting nights. I wasn't bingeing, so I didn't keep working the program after a while. And then I started again.

3. My personal definition of abstinence is not compulsively eating/bingeing. I know some foods are "yellow" or trigger foods for me, so I try to avoid them and am especially careful when I do have them, but I don't ban them entirely. Forbidding myself from something only serves to make the need (or compensation) stronger.

4. It's brought me recognition of what I'm doing and knowing that it's okay to ask for help/support. I also just realized, today, that one miracle is finding out, on Sunday, that a new classmate is in the Fellowship.

5. I don't know that any single saying has inspired me, but I've long believed in a lot of sayings that I've learned come from Fellowships: "easy does it," "one day at a time," "just for today" and "it works if you work it" come to mind the strongest.

Renee

"I belive in manicures. I believe in overdressing. I believe in primping at leisure and wearing lipstick. I believe in pink. I believe in kissing. I believe that happy girls are the prettiest girls. I believe that tomorrow is another day and I believe in miracles." -Audrey Hepburn


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#1 question ,i vagely remember approx age 10 eating until i was so stuffed all i could do was lie on the bed. emoticon

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1. What is your earliest or most vivid memory of compulsive eating behavior?
I remember coming home from school and having a snack, but I wouldn't have ONE snack, I'd have several and say things like "i just had chips and salsa - now I need an ice cream sandwich to cool my mouth off!" My dad frequently made the comment "you've been eating ever since I got home!" I figured it was okay - I was grazing... but I wasn't. I would eat a LOT for a LONG time. I started this probably about 7 years old.

2. How long have you been in OA (or is Sparks your only contact with the program)?
I tried to attend a meeting once - I sat in an empty church activity room for an hour and nobody showed up :) Other than that, this is actually my first experience with OA.

3. What is your personal definition of abstinence?
I'd have to say that for me, abstinence would be refraining from eating anything too "heavy". Once i get that stuffed feeling in my stomach I like it and I want to keep it. For my health and happiness, I need to eat lighter meals that won't give me that stuffed feeling, and allow me to be in better control of what I eat.

4. Name one miracle of positive change recovery has brought you so far.
I'm just starting out in recovery, but so far I like the feeling of hope. When I don't feel like I have any kind of plan to recovery, I don't feel like I have any hope, and it makes me very sad.

5. Which slogan or saying (OA or not) inspired you.
I'm going to have to use one of my own, actually... it's basically what's up on my profile. "Never regret a choice that you've made, because you obviously thought it was what you needed at the time." Without trying to live by this saying, I tend to live too much in the past. I worry about choices that I've made that affected how I feel today, instead of focusing on choices that I'm making now that will affect how I feel tomorrow.

Rediscovering hope... happiness... MYSELF. \o/


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1. What is your earliest or most vivid memory of compulsive eating behavior?
My earliest memory is getting caught with a box of sweets hiding behind furniture in our living room. I must have been 4-5 years old. I remember the shame and embarrassment I felt.

2. How long have you been in OA (or is Sparks your only contact with the program)?
I attended my first in person OA meeting on August 10, 2008. I have since lost 100 pounds, and gained back 20-30.

3. What is your personal definition of abstinence?
My definition of abstinence is refraining from binging and not having certain trigger foods. I have managed to completely avoid a few for over two years now but have let some others creep in during recent months. Today is day 2 of abstinence (this time around).

4. Name one miracle of positive change recovery has brought you so far.
I learned to like exercise and how good I can feel physically, emotionally and spiritually when I am abstinent.

5. Which slogan or saying (OA or not) inspired you.
"One day at a time" reminds me to take each moment as it comes. I also remember something a sponsor once said about can you not eat _____ (fill in the blank) just for now? And of course my answer was yes. When I think of not giving in to binging just for now, I am able to stay abstinent for extended periods.

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11/15/10 7:04 P

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Hi, I'm Laura.

1. My earliest memory is when I was about 12 - I took an entire 1/2 gallon of Butter Pecan Breyer's ice cream from my parents freezer in the garage (my mom would buy extras of everything during sales, and store in a second freezer in the garage) I brought it up to my bedroom and ate the whole thing while they were watching TV in another room. I learned that I could sneak food and no one would notice... so I did it over and over again - not always ice cream - sometimes crackers, cheese, candy... anything.

2. I'm going to attend my first OA meeting tomorrow night.

3. My personal definition of abstinence is to not sneak ANY food. It's so easy to... I do all the shopping and food prep - my husband has no idea what is in the house, and never knows when something is missing. I feel that step 10 will be the most helpful for me to stay honest with myself.

4. Looking forward to being able to answer this question as my journey to recovery unfolds.

5. "Nobody can go back and start a new beginning, but anyone can start today and make a new ending." To me, this means that I need to get over the guilt of my past binges, I can only change the path ahead of me.

:) Laura

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Hi I'm Lisa COE/Food Addict.
1) My earliest/most vivid memory of this behavior was the when the "Jurassic Park Meal" came out at McDonald's. I was maybe 13 or 14 and my mom took me and a friend to eat and that was what we ordered. Pretty sure I ate the whole thing!

2) I have been going to at least 1 f2f meeting per week for 7 months.
3) My personal definition of abstinence is no greasy fried fast food, such as McDonald's and Burger King, these places and this kind of food is a huge trigger for me!

4) I have received the gift of getting closer to my higher power and realizing I am His creation! I have also received the gift of awareness. I am now able to track my foods and look at exactly how much food I put into my body. I

5) If you do what you've always done, you'll get what you've always gotten.


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I'm Shawnna,

1) My earliest memory of this behavior was the summer after my high school graduation. I took 5 laxatives in a day while. I had felt very guilty for the way I had eaten before then and so I did that.

2) I have never been to any kind of meeting, but I want to. I am not sure with my school a& softball schedule that I can make it to a F2F meeting. I am also a little confused by how to do the internet meetings. So right now Sparks is my only contact.

3) My personal definition of abstinence would include many things. First it would mean not binging, or overeating(Stopping when I'm full & not eating for any reason other than hunger). Second it would mean not purging(not over exercising, throwing up, or taking laxatives). I would also love to go one day without my whole life revolving around when I will eat, what I will eat, and how many calories it is).

4) Not on that road yet, but I am very excited to have those positive experiences.

5) But we define ourselves by the choices we have made. We are, in fact, the sum total of our choices.

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Hi, I'm Luna and I'm not yet ready to say that I'm a COE.

Before I get started I just wanted to thank everyone for sharing their experiences. It means a lot to not feel alone with all this.

1) What is your earliest or most vivid memory of compulsive eating behavior?
As a kid I was skinny and did loads of sports and had no worry about food. When my peers started worrying about weight and food I felt shame at naturally eating much more than my peers and deciding to eat when I was alone instead of with other people. Other experiences: Sitting around a table and deciding that 'that food right there' was mine, ownership of common food. Not wanting to share if I bought (and still.. buy) cake/sweets.

2) How long have you been in OA (or is Sparks your only contact with the program)?
I went to my first OA meeting yesterday after months of considering. It was a very strong feeling to be with others who share my abnormal relationship to food.

3) What is your personal definition of abstinence?
I don't know yet, but an initial stab at it might look like this: Not eating compulsively when alone, not consciously mindlessly eating while I've occupied my mind with something else, not obsessing about food, not depriving myself of wholesome&healthy food by binging on triggers.

4) Name one miracle of positive change recovery has brought you so far.
I'm looking forward to experiencing them.

5) Which slogan or saying (OA or not) inspired you?
"To avoid situations in which you might make mistakes may be the biggest mistake of all."
"If you always do what you've always done, you'll always get what you've always got."

Edited by: LUNALIFE at: 11/5/2010 (11:45)
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Hi everyone, my name is Sarah and I am addicted to food.

1) What is your earliest or most vivid memory of compulsive eating behavior?
I have been a compulsive eater for as long as I can remember...my earliest memory of it is when I was perhaps 9 years old.

2) How long have you been in OA (or is Sparks your only contact with the program)?
I suppose technically, I've been in it for 14 years. I was taken to my first meeting when I was 9, but did not truly, actively make it work for me until this past year.

3) What is your personal definition of abstinence?
Not bingeing and avoiding trigger foods.

4) Name one miracle of positive change recovery has brought you so far.
I was able to help someone I love by introducing them to the world of 12-steps and they are now on a journey of their own.

5) Which slogan or saying (OA or not) inspired you?
Good Orderly Direction.

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1) What is your earliest or most vivid memory of compulsive eating behavior?
When I hit puberty. I began using snacking as a way of self-medicating and numbing myself to the brokeness of my family life.

2) How long have you been in OA (or is Sparks your only contact with the program)?
I just went to my first OA meeting a week ago, and I'm sticking with it. I've been in eating disorder treatment for 3 years, and along the way I used Rapha's 12 step book to overcoming ED, which is based on the AA (and subsequently OA) 12 step program.

3) What is your personal definition of abstinence?
Not doing the disordered stuff. :)

I've never really thought about it until today, but after reading in one of my OA pamphlets about the 3-0-1 eating plan, I think that's what I'm going to adopt. In other words, abstinence means eating 3 healthy meals a day, nothing in between, and taking it one day at a time.

4) Name one miracle of positive change recovery has brought you so far.
Since leaving the skeletal world of anorexia, my period has returned, I am not cold all the time, and my brain feels like it's functioning (instead of feeling cloudy all the time).

5) Which slogan or saying (OA or not) inspired you?
"Just for today."

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1) What is your earliest or most vivid memory of compulsive eating behavior?

As a teenager I would hide money from my paycheck so my parents wouldn't take it and I would buy boxes of little debbie snacks from the gas station next door. Sometimes I'd eat a whole box at once.

2) How long have you been in OA (or is Sparks your only contact with the program)?

Sparks is my first and only contact with the program, and today is my first day.

3) What is your personal definition of abstinence?

I've only ever associated abstinence with not having sex. I guess to me it would me giving something up - whether it's short or long term

4) Name one miracle of positive change recovery has brought you so far.

Will have to get back to you on this.

5) Which slogan or saying (OA or not) inspired you?

The whole idea is personal commitment.. that one will never again, under any circumstances, do anything that is less than totally excellent.

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I'm Maureen and I'm a compulsive over-eater.

1) What is your earliest and most vivid memory of compulsive eating behavior? I was on a trip with a boyfriend. We were traveling with a group of people and so there was a "welcome" basket in the hotel room. I was in pain (from a chronic back injury) and I had just had a difficult confrontation with another member of the group. We returned to the hotel room, and I started inhaling the contents of the basket. My boyfriend put his hands on my shoulders and turned me to face him and asked "what ARE you doing?" I hadn't even realized I was eating until that moment.

2) How long have you been in OA (or is Sparks your only contact with the program) I started going to OA F2F meetings about two months ago.

3) What is your personal definition of abstinence?
3 meals /1 snack per day. 4 hours between meals/snack. Max: 150 g carbs/day

4) Name one miracle or positive change recovery has brought to you so far. Day 8 without a binge.

5) Which slogan or saying (OA or not) inspired you? "Just for Today". OMG, I can't DO this for the rest of my life, it's too overwhelming. But I'm pretty sure I can do this just for today.



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Hi, I'm Beth and a COE.

1) What is your earliest or most vivid memory of compulsive eating behavior? I can't really pinpoint a certain age or time, but I always remember my family fighting. Not sure if it was fighting really but it was very loud and hard discussion (as it was always put). It usually happened right around the time we would eat. It would get so bad and I remember my grandmother saying "hungry people are testy people" So lets eat so we won't fight. My family was always yelling so we were always eating.

2) How long have you been in OA (or is Sparks your only contact with the program)? I am been in OA for almost a year. I have only gone to 2 F2F meeting, several online meetings and now I have found this group.

3) What is your personal definition of abstinence? To me I think abstinence is not having the thing that you are trying to recover from. It's hard because I am trying to recover from food.

4) Name one miracle of positive change recovery has brought you so far. Honestly, I can't think of anything.

5) Which slogan or saying (OA or not) inspired you? I heard a saying that I truly love, you have to put oil in the lamp for it to burn.

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1) What is your earliest or most vivid memory of compulsive eating behavior?

Just before I joined OA my 13-year daughter had made some French Fries for the family. I had to leave the house before the fries were ready. I came back several hours later and asked her whether there were any fries left over. At first she looked awkward and would not reply. When I insisted that she answer me she said that there had been leftover fries and that she had put them "somewhere". On my inistence she revealed to me that she had not wanted me to eat them and so she had wrapped them up in a brown paper bag and put them at the very top of the kitchen trash can. I was in the kitchen at the time with my daughter, and three sons of 17, 16 and 18 years old. In front of them all I immediately took the brown paper bag containing the fries from the trash can and swallowed the fries cold. I do not believe that I will ever forget the insanity of that moment. That's what brought me into OA.

2) How long have you been in OA?

I joined OA and began attending a weekly f2f meeting in April '09

3) What is your personal definition of abstinence?

Following a food plan of three meals a day, weighed and measured, no flour, sugar, sweetener, caffeine and no food between meals - staying with my food plan guidelines EVERY day - no "free days". Thanks to a Power greater than myself I am abstinent one-day-at-a-time since May 2nd 2009.

4) Name one miracle of positive change recovery has brought you so far.

I have reached my goal weight of 137 lbs, 88 lbs down from my all-time high of 225lbs. But the miracle of recovery is that working a spiritual program of "Thy Will (not mine) be done" has changed me much more than my weight loss. My daily reprieve from stress, anger and frustration is absolutely life-changing and nothing short of a miracle. This is not something that I could have done. This is my first-hand experience of a Power greater than myself.

5) Which slogan or saying (OA or not) inspired you?

First Things First.

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1) What is your earliest or most vivid memory of compulsive eating behavior?

I remember hiding my white chocolate bunny between my mattresses so I could eat some when I wanted. Or getting plate after plate of my favorite foods at a buffet even after I was full.

2) How long have you been in OA (or is Sparks your only contact with the program)?

This is my first direct contact with OA, although I have been involved with Alanon for about 10 years, so I am familiar with the steps and slogans

3) What is your personal definition of abstinence?

Not overdoing so that I feel guilty - staying within my nutrition guidelines EVERY day - no "free days"

4) Name one miracle of positive change recovery has brought you so far.

Again, this is from Alanon, but as an adult child I tend to compare myself to others; I can now easily recognize and stop it when I do.

5) Which slogan or saying (OA or not) inspired you?

Progress, not perfection.

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1. What is your earliest or most vivid memory of compulsive eating behavior?
This is silly now, especially in light of how I can eat today, but the earliest shameful eating I remember is when I took a can of mushrooms and secretly ate the whole can. My mom came home from work and started dinner. I can recall the fear I felt when she opened the cupboard where the mushrooms were, and sure enough she started asking us kids what happened to them. I lied and said I didn't know. My mom didn't have a habit of over-reacting, and she certainly didn't abuse us. It's likely she would have thought it funny that I'd even want to eat such a thing. In other words, I would not have gotten into trouble if I told the truth, but oh my shame was heavy...
just want to add that I was probably 7 years old then.

2. How long have you been in OA (or is Sparks your only contact with the program)?
Three days...

3. What is your personal definition of abstinence?
Still trying to figure that one out. I think I'll start by keeping it simple and try to stick to 3 meals/1 snack a day. Breakfast will be hard, because normally I just drink coffee. Eliminating all in-between bites and snacks will be challenging too. I expect that as I progress thru the steps that my definition of abstinence will evolve. The idea of never, ever doing any more sugar or carbs or chocolate is pretty scary.

4. Name one miracle of positive change recovery has brought you so far.
First a tiny bit of willingness, and now a tiny bit of hope that maybe I don't have to live in pain, shame, despair or obesity forever. Maybe, just maybe, OA will make a difference in my life.

5. Which slogan or saying (OA or not) inspired you.
"One day at a time" doesn't necessarily inspire me, but it's the one that helps to keep me focused and willing

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1) What is your earliest or most vivid memory of compulsive eating behavior? my father bought this processed cheese snack, they almost looked like hard candy wrapped in plastic wrap. Anyway, I remember eating a lot of them and him catching me. I felt so ashamed by the look on his face.

2) How long have you been in OA (or is Sparks your only contact with the program)? Sparks is my only contact with the program.

3) What is your personal definition of abstinence?
i guess it is deciding what my eating plan will be and being faithful to it.

4) Name one miracle of positive change recovery has brought you so far. believing in myself

5) Which slogan or saying (OA or not) inspired you.
I'm not yet familiar with OA's sayings/slogans.

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1) What is your earliest or most vivid memory of compulsive eating behavior? I would eat a whole bag of chips that my mom let me pick out.

2) How long have you been in OA (or is Sparks your only contact with the program)? 5 days!

3) What is your personal definition of abstinence?
I need to ponder on this question. As of right now it's eating what is not on my food plan.

4) Name one miracle of positive change recovery has brought you so far. That i am abstinent today.

5) Which slogan or saying (OA or not) inspired you.
Definitely turning it to HP

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1) What is your earliest or most vivid memory of compulsive eating behavior? My dad used to leave me alone a lot when I was younger, I grew up with him, not my mom. While he was gone I would always find myself sitting in front of the TV by myself eating whatever food I could find, including a lot of junk food.

2) How long have you been in OA (or is Sparks your only contact with the program)? I have been to a few meetings, but have had some issues with not being able to really discuss the issues affecting me (or basically any of us at the meetings)

3) What is your personal definition of abstinence?
To me it means absolutely none of what you are addicted to.

4) Name one miracle of positive change recovery has brought you so far.
I started a pet sitting business, I love animals.
5) Which slogan or saying (OA or not) inspired you?
Not sure I have had any that truly inspired me

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1) What is your earliest or most vivid memory of compulsive eating behavior? Eating candy bars in the bathroom at school. I was probable in junior high at the time.

2) How long have you been in OA (or is Sparks your only contact with the program)?
I'm on day 3 in total.

3) What is your personal definition of abstinence?
Not eating in secret, not eating in the car, staying within my plan limits.

4) Name one miracle of positive change recovery has brought you so far.
Not feeling alone. That's been huge.

5) Which slogan or saying (OA or not) inspired you?
Too many to count.

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1) What is your earliest or most vivid memory of compulsive eating behavior? Not sure, but my sugar habit has been around as long as I can remember - my brother would have Halloween candy around for weeks, mine lasted a few days.

2) How long have you been in OA (or is Sparks your only contact with the program)?
Trying to get to an OA meeting this week but there are only 2, one is on my daughter's 16th bday.

3) What is your personal definition of abstinence?
Avoiding anything that causes me to binge...sweets are the primary culprit but any simple carbs (crackers, cereal, etc) can cause me to go out of control

4) Name one miracle of positive change recovery has brought you so far.
No recovery yet, but it's a miracle that I'm actually admitting that I have a problem

5) Which slogan or saying (OA or not) inspired you?
"Just for today"....I can only take this day by day, sometimes minute by minute.

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1) What is your earliest or most vivid memory of compulsive eating behavior?
In 10th grade eating a dozen candy bars while reading in bed.

2) How long have you been in OA (or is Sparks your only contact with the program)?
Just starting with OA through SP.

3) What is your personal definition of abstinence?
To avoid any food I have binged on in the past, to avoid eating in secret and to avoid eating rapidly.

4) Name one miracle of positive change recovery has brought you so far.
The miracle of wanting to be abstinent once again.

5) Which slogan or saying (OA or not) inspired you?
"No matter how far down the road you are, you're always the same distance from the ditch."


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1) What is your earliest or most vivid memory of compulsive eating behavior?
In 5th grade, my mom was downstairs and I ate several portions of the food she had made for us for dinner. I ate in secret, knowing if she caught me, she would be upset.

2) How long have you been in OA (or is Sparks your only contact with the program)?
Coming up on my one year anniversary

3) What is your personal definition of abstinence?
To not eat compulsively (eating in secret or outside of my meals/snacks that are planned) or purge (either with excercise, laxatives or throwing up)

4) Name one miracle of positive change recovery has brought you so far.
I'm not crazy. At least not as crazy as I was when I started. I can sit at a table with a bowl of sugary snacks in the middle, and actually listen to the conversations happening around me rather than focus on the sugary food.

5) Which slogan or saying (OA or not) inspired you?
I can only think of one right now, it is "I can't, God can, I think I'll let Him..."

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Hi, My name is Kate and I am over 300 +lbs and need help. I have been in OA since the 70's on and off and have lost and gained 3 times. Now to answer your questions.
(1) Middle school age about 13 or 14 but been overweight since 3 years of age.
(2 )On and off since the mid 70's
(3) Abstaining from eating compulsively, Not what your eating but how you are handling the food.
(4) Just knowing that there is a place like OA out there where we can go and feel comfortable talking about our compulsions
(5) Keep it simple and. Keep coming back, it works if you work it.

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1) What is your earliest or most vivid memory of compulsive eating behavior?

I can't really say; I don't remember ever not struggling with it.

2) How long have you been in OA (or is Sparks your only contact with the program)?

I went to one meeting a few months ago but felt too 'pushed' to feel comfortable returning. I keep telling myself I need to start participating in online meetings but I keep putting it off.

3) What is your personal definition of abstinence?

Refraining from an action.

4) Name one miracle of positive change recovery has brought you so far.

I'm not recovered, but just the realization that I have a problem has helped me to change the way I view my struggle.

5) Which slogan or saying (OA or not) inspired you?

I haven't discovered that yet.

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just joined, saw this OA and I'm psyched. I have no previous experience with OA whatsoever, however, I have several family members in AA, which has been a miracle for my family. My addiction apparently is food, but my problem is the same. I've always wondered about the OA program but never could find a chapter anywhere in my area. But this is great.

1. What is your earliest or most vivid memory of compulsive eating behavior?
I can't really recall. As a child my sister would save candy forever.... I never could, had to eat it right then. Yum, and loved it too! (like a lot, maybe too much).

2. How long have you been in OA (or is Sparks your only contact with the program)?
Sparks my only contact (see above)

3. What is your personal definition of abstinence?
To do without.

4. Name one miracle of positive change recovery has brought you so far. Me personally? Can't say I've experienced recovery yet - I am out of control. But my family has experienced miracle(S) following this concept so I believe it works wholeheartedly.

5. Which slogan or saying (OA or not) inspired you?
Sadly, can't think of a one at this moment, so apparently I haven't heard it yet. Inspire me.

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Hi, My name is Phyllis and I'm a grateful memeber of OA.

1) What is your earliest or most vivid memory of compulsive eating behavior?
I don't remember eating compulsively as a child, but in my 20's I'd go into the kitchen to eat snacks and not bring them out to share with company. I can still feel ashamed of those days, but shame is one of those emotions I get rid of as soon as I become aware. Mainly, when I eat compulsively, I eat so much I am totally miserable, actually in pain, can't move, can't keep my jeans fastened.

2) How long have you been in OA (or is Sparks your only contact with the program)?
I don't attend regular OA meetings, but I've been going off and on for 5-6 years.

3) What is your personal definition of abstinence?
No trigger foods or eating more than I had planned of any food.

4) Name one miracle of positive change recovery has brought you so far.
I can't say I have recovery, but today I have awareness.

5) Which slogan or saying (OA or not) inspired you?
The Serenity Prayer is probably most important to me. I heard an add-on in a meeting that really helped: God, grant me the serentiy to accept the things I cannot change THE PAST & OTHER PEOPLE, courage to change the things I can MYSELF, and wisdom to know the difference.

Thanks for letting me share.

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1) earliest or most vivid memory of compulsive eating behavior? - sneaking anything (including canned tuna) into bed to eat it without any family seeing me

2) How long have you been in OA (or is Sparks your only contact with the program)? - Sparks is it. No OA groups in my area.

3) What is your personal definition of abstinence? Not sure yet, but it must include not binging or eating to the bottom of the packae.

4) Name one miracle of positive change recovery has brought you so far. - Reiki

5) Which slogan or saying (OA or not) inspired you? Just for today - or right now - just for the next few minutes


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