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1/21/16 9:50 P

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You know, personally, I think it is something we all struggle with. I wanted to loose weight primarily for health. I had gestational diabetes (diabetes when pregnant) which means I have a high chance of getting it as I age. I wanted to decrease those chances as much as could. Body image wise, I am actually more unhappy with my body then I was then. I only saw myself as a bit fat then, now I am thin, but clothes off, I still have a stomach and some saggy skin, etc. So we all need to improve our body image and make sure we are loosing weight for health and life improvement reasons, not body image.

And the more we tend to slap ourselves when we mess up our diet, the more we tend to give it up in the long run I think. For me, I need to accept when I mess up, so I can get back up and do better the next time. Sorry, I think I am meandering here.

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1/20/16 3:17 P

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My name is Ali and I just joined. My weight loss goal is to weigh less than 150lbs. I currently weight 220 pounds and I'm extremely embarrassed about it. I'm afraid to go out in public because I always think that people will make fun of me for being so fat. I suffer from major depression and ptsd (part of my trauma history is connected to body-image issues, which is a major barrier in my weight loss journey).
I'm looking for support around weight-loss with the added challenge of mental illness, and people who struggle with this too.

I feel like I'm fighting myself in my head with "Body acceptance! I shouldn't lose weight just to feel like I deserve to take up space. Being overweight doesn't make me a bad person" VS. "I have to lose weight in order for my life to continue. People treat me differently now than when they did when I was thin and I hate it. I can't be happy unless I'm skinny"
I'm trying to find a grey area between those thoughts, which is hard because I typically only get one message or the other.
Has anyone here found a good balance between self-acceptance and trying to lose weight?

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