SparkPeople Unexpected Angels Team Messageboard Mourning the death of a precious child is a lifetime journey and one that you never need to take alone. Join us for support on that journey while you work towards a healthy lifestyle as well. SparkPeople Unexpected Angels Team Messageboard Is this team still active? I have been away from SparkPeople for several years, but when I first discovered it in 2008, this team saved my life. And, I'm not exaggerating. If not my life, then most assuredly my sanity. My 21-year-old daughter had died in 2006, and I was not handling it very well. <BR> <BR> Even though I started using SparkPeople for weight loss support, being able to talk to people who knew exactly what I was going through was priceless. Really. I'm sorry to see that it doesn't seem to be very ... Sat, 26 Sep 2020 15:28:53 EST three sons murdered I've noticed everyone has lost a child,or infant. well my children were adults. My son Archie was 25 when he was murdered on October 31 1999. Then on February 20 ,2005, my sons TC and Chaoe were murdered..They were together . They say that time heals everything,I am finding that to be an untruth.It is very hard for me to talk about this. As i am writing about this I am getting very emotional. Thu, 18 Jun 2015 07:52:39 EST Hello. I have been trying to find a team for people who have lost a child. Not necessarily an infant, although that is such a hard thing to bear. But, an older child or adult child. <BR> <BR> My name is Katherine. I'm 53. I am single (divorced for 14 years).. My only child, a son of age 22, died by apparent suicide on August 18, 2012, just 2 days after starting his final semester in college. I was already being treated for anxiety and depression, as well as chronic migraine, fibromyalgia, a... Mon, 21 Oct 2013 21:46:35 EST Grief and Health (crossposted) How did your grief affect your health? <BR> Have any of you experienced insomnia, self medication (alcohol, drugs, etc.), illness, lack of energy, food cravings, or a change in appetite, or another physiological symptom related to your loved one's death? <BR> <BR> What happened to you, and what do you do to help keep your grief from de-railing your efforts to live a healthy life? <BR> ----------------------------------------<BR>-------------------------------- <BR> ***OK, so the reason I'm ... Sat, 8 Jun 2013 19:02:06 EST Lets just chat !!!!!! Lets just chat, <BR> How are you feelling today? Sat, 2 Feb 2013 15:57:22 EST What are the stages of grief? I recently lost a son,and i don't know th e stages of grief. i do knw that there is 9. Tue, 28 Aug 2012 20:05:16 EST Hello everyone Pretty much read my spark page and you will see who I am and if you are in Joplin it would be nice to have a close spark buddie, but I need help no matter what. Thu, 26 Jul 2012 21:02:37 EST Surviving the anniversary Well, May 7 has come and gone, 2 years down. The day was different, we (DH and I) kept busy. We had a visit from Kris's best friend and another good friend. We had dinner at home together and the four of us went to the cemetary for a visit. Actually, my plan was not to go to the cemetary that day but we went, it is just an empty feeling there. We came back and shared some happy memories. All in all we survived that day. <BR> Sun, 20 May 2012 09:03:38 EST Our Bodies are a Gift “I’ve learned through God’s Word that the body He gave me is good. It’s not perfect, nor will it ever be on this side of eternity. But my body is a gift, a good gift for which I can be thankful. Being faithful in taking care of this gift and walking according to God’s plan gives me renewed strength to keep a healthy view of my body.”- Lysa Terkeurst <BR> <BR> I love this thought from Made to Crave…our bodies are a gift, all of us have been given a WONDERFUL gift, and this is attitude I am g... Wed, 28 Mar 2012 09:12:34 EST Must Read...Made to Crave by Lysa Terkeurst I have contemplated reading this book for a long time. I am so glad that I finally did, and here's the rest of the story. <BR> <BR> <link><BR>urnal_individual.asp?blog_id=4805258 </link> Mon, 26 Mar 2012 10:08:00 EST Let's Get Rejuvenated! Of all the groups on Sparkpeople, this is the one I relate to best because no one but us can understand what we have been through, and our loss is as much a part of us as our challenges with weight. Most of my sparkfriends are from this group. I hate to see us, as a group, lose our momentum. So how about it, Ladies...and Gents, how about a bit more posting. <BR> <BR> I for one have lost 14 pounds. I have felt really focused. In fact, it seemed that I was the one teacher today who was ... Mon, 12 Mar 2012 18:59:47 EST SIDS Report I saw on Sparkpeople a report about SIDS. It said that baby boys who have a certain mutation are more likely to die of SIDS. Althought that part of the article was informative when they go into the part about what you should do to reduce SIDS I start to see RED. Before they found out that my son died of a viral infection the coroner believed my son had died of SIDS. I read what I could on SIDS to try and make sense of why my baby died. I have come to the conclusion that some of the thing... Fri, 24 Feb 2012 14:03:11 EST Gone I have been gone quite a long time. I am back now ready to fight this weight and learn to live again. We just celebrated Traci's 17th birthday. All I can say is WOW where did the time go. February 29th will be the 8th Heaven-anniverary. I just have to say I HATE LEAP YEAR!! So much has changed since I was here last. September of 2010 I moved back into the house Traci died in, had a hysterectomy, quit smoking, and gained 70 more pounds. There are also a lot of changes happening as well. March ... Sun, 22 Jan 2012 03:39:18 EST Looking for someone Hi everyone, <BR> I'm looking for someone who once had a poem on here that began: <BR> <BR> "Like a flower opening after a storm, <BR> they slowly begin to remember <BR> the one they lost <BR> in a different way..." <BR> <BR> I haven't been on SP for a while and I want to ask this person if I might share her poem on my facebook page for my sons angel date- Jan 15th... Tue, 10 Jan 2012 23:25:49 EST January Chat We all need each other's support. This team has helped me more than any other method I have tried (counseling, anti-depressives, seclusion) to grieve. To be able to TALK about our children without judgement or repression. <BR> <BR> Christmas was over and I was at a New Year's party...I was feeling okay, better than I had in a month. Then a commercial for Walt Disney World came on and instantly I was crying. "I never got to take Mindy to Disney World." Anyone else at that party would thi... Sun, 1 Jan 2012 09:44:21 EST Touched by an Angel The information below is from a "kindness event" I've created on Facebook in honor of my son. I'd love to have you join us. <BR> <BR> <BR> <BR> This kindness event is open to everyone and it is my hope that it will spread locally and globally. Please feel free to invite your friends, family and co-workers to join as well. <BR> <BR> SIx years ago I lost my oldest son in a traffic accident on December 28th. Sean was on his way home from work when he drifted onto the soft shoulder of the hi... Wed, 30 Nov 2011 12:52:53 EST Sept chat Is anyone on this team interested in joining in on a daily chat? We can chat about just anything we want. Maybe this way we can get to know each other better. My name is J and I live near Tampa Florida. I am the mother of 3 grown children, with my daughter Nicole being my angel. It has only been 4 months (tomorrow) so I am not really in a good place yet, but I am trying. I had lost 20 pounds before her illness but gained a little over 12 pounds since she died with emotional eating, which I h... Wed, 31 Aug 2011 15:51:20 EST Dedication... A butterfly lights beside us like a sunbeam <BR> And for a brief moment it's glory and beauty <BR> belong to our world, <BR> but then it flies on again.; <BR> And though we wish it could have stayed, <BR> We feel so lucky to have seen it. <BR> <BR> To all of those who have went before us and left their beauty behind in our lives ! <BR> <BR> <em>88</em> Wed, 24 Aug 2011 14:43:27 EST Cookies & Iced Tea My daughter Nicole made the best cookies ever. She had finally taught me that they are done when they are said to be done and that I don't have to leave them in for another minute (and therefore make them too crispy). We lost Nicole in a car accident when she was 17 on 11/9/08. I made cookies for the first time since then this week. Now I can't remember...was it on the 9th or the 10th that I baked? Either way, it means lot to me! I shared the cookies and only ate a few. The baking matt... Fri, 12 Aug 2011 16:02:39 EST Starting on SparkPeople on Day of Walk to Remember Hello. Today is my first day here. I had started a similar program a few years back ,but there was no real feedback. This may work...if I work it (OA)! <BR> <BR> Today was the Compassionate Friends Walk to Remember in MN. As I was not there, another parent carried the name of my daughter, Nicole, and others while he/she walked. I am hoping to walk in a future year. This site will allow me to get in shape to do all the walking I want in honor of my daughter. I lost Nicole 2 and 3/4 ye... Sun, 17 Jul 2011 16:32:14 EST Kyle, 1991-1994 Hello, <BR> <BR> My name is Susan, and my angel's name is Kyle. He died in 1994. He was a very premature baby,and spent nearly his entire first year in intensive care. It's a long story, but he managed to beat just about all of his medical problems - then was diagnosed with a rare form of liver cancer when he was 3.5 years old. He died three weeks later and would have just turned 20 years old in June. I still think of him and miss him all the time. <BR> <BR> Thanks for creating and su... Sun, 3 Jul 2011 19:36:40 EST New Here My name is Dena and I lost one of my twin daughters 3 years ago this last December 14th. She was 2 months old when we lost her. Olivia and her sister Hannah were 16 weeks early due to problems with the pregnancy on Olivia's end. She weighed 12 oz. when she was born. Hannah was the first one to get sick and she developed NEC (Necrotizing Enterocolitis) they air lifted her 2 hours away to a children's hospital and managed to save her and 65 cm of small bowel. Once we got Hannah on the mend, we ... Tue, 22 Feb 2011 23:21:12 EST Milestone birthday I am battling a hard birthday this year. I mean every year is hard but this one is a bit different. My angel Traci would be 16 on January 19. I should be taking her out to get her DL or fighting with her about boyfriends. Or if she was like me helping her take care of her child. I was a 15 when I had her. She was 9 when she passed away. I have started eating more and my other daughter Sami pointed it out to me. So I decided to make an event on facebook for her 16th birthday. I have asked all ... Sat, 15 Jan 2011 23:52:25 EST Too young to die Hi, Im the mother of 7 adult children and 19 grandchildren. My 26 year old daughter passed away just 15 short weeks ago from Kidney failure. <BR> <BR> She was placed on dialysis 2 years ago when she went into renal failure. I contacted the kidney foundation to find out what I needed to do in order to be tested as a donor for my daughter. This is where I found out that I needed to loose all my weight and bring my BMI within normal range. I started working very hard on loosing my weight, by... Tue, 4 Jan 2011 16:30:51 EST Holiday Help Topic #9 - 11 "Talk about your deceased loved one. Tell a favorite story, give a toast, write a poem, play his or her favorite song, or make a favorite food. Such an act will help you express the importance of the deceased, and then perhaps you and other family members will be able to appreciate the holidays with an even deeper and more meaningful significance." <BR> <BR> <BR> "Write a letter to your loved one, recalling several memories you have of the holidays in which this person played an important p... Fri, 17 Dec 2010 19:28:59 EST A bit about my angel, Sarah! I am just going to post the link for my daughters story. I am sure many of you know how tiring it is to type it all out.. And as you type you are reliving it.. Still today I feel that way. AND my Angel has been gone for 9 years now as of Nov. 22. <BR> I am finally coming to sparkpeople to try and get control of my life again. I have felt so guilty and think that is a big part of my weight gain. You see before my daughter died I was obsessed with getting a gastric bypass. I did get it. I ha... Wed, 15 Dec 2010 17:56:25 EST Holiday Help Topic #8 "Lower your expectations and the pressures you put on yourself. You do not have to celebrate the holidays in exactly the same way you did before. Plan your day, keeping it simple. Allow yourself time to face the hard reality of your loved one's death (in a manageable dose) if you think you can do so this year. For some of you, celebrating the holiday according to family tradition may be a comforting coping strategy. If it is not, take a <BR> break this year." <BR> <BR> Are you seeing a them... Tue, 7 Dec 2010 06:04:56 EST Holiday Help Topic #7 - "If you accept a holiday invitation to someone's home, give yourself some leeway. Be up front with them when you accept the invitation, letting them know that you will try to participate, but that you may well excuse yourself at some point. We suggest that you not host an event during the first year after a death. As a guest, you can leave when you want to or even cancel at the last minute. As a backup plan, you might also wish to consider making alternative plans that may feel more comfort... Mon, 6 Dec 2010 07:26:37 EST Holiday Help Topic #5 & #6 - Death puts things into perspective. Since the death of your child, many of the routine things that you used to care about may now mean almost nothing at all. Some of the festivities and all of the hubbub might seem utterly ridiculous. Reassure yourself that eventually you can come to a new and deeper understanding of each special day and how you will handle it. <BR> <BR> - Talk with others about the reality that your loved one has died and that therefore your life (and your celebrations) ... Sun, 5 Dec 2010 13:16:11 EST Holiday Help Topic #3 & #4 "Think back to how you celebrated the holidays. What was your role in the celebration? How might that be different now that your loved one has died? Begin to consider how you might want to handle your traditional ways of celebrating this day following his or her death." <BR> <BR> "Siblings are grieving too, and the holidays are also difficult for them. Listen to what is important to them, and then see if you can incorporate their hopes or wishes into the holidays without completely giving up... Sun, 28 Nov 2010 15:50:17 EST Holiday Help Topic #2 "If you have to shop, and it seems a daunting task, do so online instead of going into the stores. You may also ship items to a loved one if you are not spending the holidays together. If you simply cannot shop, let others know that you will not be exchanging gifts this year." <BR> <BR> <BR> The first Christmas after my son died (keep in mind Christmas falls 3 days before his angel-versary date) it was all I could do to even consider gifts. Hubby and I ended up at the mall on Christmas Ev... Thu, 25 Nov 2010 20:33:08 EST Holiday Help Topic #1 "Take care of yourself physically. Holidays can be <BR> physically draining, especially if this is your first or second experience with a holiday since the deathof your loved one. Respect your mind and your <BR> body. Failing to take care of yourself physically <BR> will only add to your fatigue and frustration." <BR> <BR> <BR> From personal experience I can say that the waves of grief are much more difficult to ride when you are exhausted. It is absolutely vital that you rest as well as y... Wed, 24 Nov 2010 15:06:29 EST Me and My Angels... Hi! I'm new to this Team. My name is Stephanie and I'm a Mommy to 3 Angels in Heaven. Hunter was born and passed May 4th 2002, Landen was born and passed May 4th 2007 and Azrielle was born March 16th 2008 and passed March 18th 2008. I miss my babies each and everyday :( Fri, 24 Sep 2010 15:03:32 EST My little Angel It has been 2.5 months since we lost our little girl. She was 9 yrs old. She was sick for 5 years and no one could even begin to know what was wrong. I still wake up hoping to see her big huge smile stairing at me. She was my reason to get up each day. Then I remebered someone telling me about SP. and here I am trying to stay busy. That is all I can do for right now. Fri, 6 Aug 2010 10:57:44 EST She was a Beautiful Flower... In memory of my beautiful daughter, Larissa Lenae Beisner, 12/11/89 to 07/31/2010. <BR> <BR> Please read my tribute to her today... <BR> <link><BR>urnal_individual.asp?blog_id=3488145 </link> Sat, 31 Jul 2010 10:44:08 EST Look for signs My unexpected angel is my 30-year old son, Steven. Unfortunately, he chose to be an angel. This makes my grief even harder. There is the feeling of guilt and hundreds of "what if's". I withdrew into myself seeking answers that weren't there. I looked up toward the heavens and yelled at him, asking why. <BR> <BR> A friend of mine owns a kayaking tour company. She convinced me that going out with her would be good for me. Whatever. She finally drug me out to where she launches her kaya... Thu, 8 Jul 2010 11:18:20 EST Double Rainbow Yesterday on my way home from dinner I was given a double rainbow. I look at this as a sign from my son Joshua and my mom who passed recently. Somewhere Over the Rainbow is where I believe Joshua remains while we are apart. <BR> <em>437</em> <em>51</em> <BR> <BR> Have a peaceful day! Sun, 9 May 2010 07:11:05 EST Shalom from Israel Shalom, <BR> <BR> My name is Noa and I am an ex-pat living in the North of Israel. My 4.5 year old daughter Ayala passed away from a rare childhood cancer Neuroblastoma two years ago. <BR> <BR> I have an older 10 year old boy and a year old who was a birthday present after immediately after the one year memorial of Ayala's death. Thank you God. <BR> <BR> I am a psychic healer and therefore have the pleasure of channeling my daughter which happens mostly in work. <BR> <BR> I am tryin... Sun, 9 May 2010 04:44:19 EST Messages from Michael My 11 wk old son Michael died in 1973 from SIDS. I've been in 2 Compassionate Friends groups; I've heard stories about parents getting 'signs' from their children after their death. I've been envious of these parents as I hadn't been fortunate to have been so lucky. Or maybe I just didn't notice. <BR> <BR> While attending a meeting in another city, a bereaved Mom told me her story: after her son died, she began to find dimes in places where they wouldn't ordinarily be. On the microwave, on t... Tue, 16 Mar 2010 17:58:31 EST Still feeling empty Hello gang, <BR> Yesterday was three months since my little girl passed. I was feeling better about things, and suddenly I am not sleeping again, and feel down right crappy. I feel so empty and alone and just don't know what to do. Does anybody have any advice? Fri, 5 Mar 2010 12:31:51 EST What is a butterflysong? This is the rest of the story..... <BR> <BR> <link><BR>urnal_individual.asp?blog_id=2929697 </link> <BR> <em>88</em> Fri, 26 Feb 2010 05:58:12 EST Reunited With You Do not believe that I'm dead and gone <BR> I want you to know that in spirit I live on <BR> Never weep when you gaze at that one empty chair <BR> Don't you know that quite often I come and sit there <BR> I still know when you're ill <BR> Or when you have a bad day <BR> I am only a whisper or a heartbeat away <BR> For I still walk where you walk <BR> I still hold your hand <BR> My footprints aren't there when you walk through the sand <BR> But my voice can be heard in the sound of the sea <BR>... Wed, 17 Feb 2010 08:51:33 EST Like A Flower Like a flower opening after a storm, <BR> they slowly begin to remember <BR> the one they lost <BR> in a different way... <BR> <BR> The laughter, <BR> the irrepressible spirit, <BR> the generous heart, <BR> the way their smile made them feel, <BR> the encouragement they gave <BR> even as their own dreams were dying. <BR> <BR> And in time, they fill the pit <BR> with other memories <BR> the only memories that really matter. <BR> <BR> We will still cry. <BR> We will always cry.... Sat, 6 Feb 2010 11:32:37 EST Visitor From Heaven A visitor from Heaven <BR> If only for a while <BR> A gift of love to be returned <BR> We think of you and smile <BR> <BR> A visitor from Heaven <BR> Accompanied by grace <BR> Reminding of a better love <BR> And of a better place <BR> <BR> With aching hearts and empty arms <BR> We send you with a name <BR> It hurts so much to let you go <BR> But we’re so glad you came <BR> We’re so glad you came <BR> <BR> A visitor from Heaven <BR> If only for a day <BR> We thank Him for the time He gave <... Sat, 6 Feb 2010 11:30:45 EST We, too, are Angels We are like angels with just one wing. We can only fly by embracing each other. <BR> <BR> -Anon <em>90</em> Fri, 5 Feb 2010 09:20:08 EST post year milestones here coco has been gone for a whole year its heartbreaking but i can do this for her. Wed, 6 Jan 2010 15:33:50 EST Looking for some ideas... Sean's 26th birthday is Thursday. This will be the 3rd one we've marked that he hasn't been physically with us. In the past I've just kept my head down and did my best to power through the day without a breakdown. This year I want to change that. This may sound odd but I want to celebrate Sean's birthday by celebrating his life. I want to do something fun, something that would make both of us smile but not something flashy. If he were here we'd probably go out to Mexican for dinner. It... Tue, 8 Dec 2009 11:15:15 EST Rewarding Ourselves Below are some ideas I "borrowed" from an article here on SP. What ideas do you have to add to this list of ways to reward ourselves for our great work? <BR> <BR> REWARD ROSTER CHOOSE YOUR FAVORITES AND USE THEM LIBERALLY <BR> Compliment yourself. Write down what you would say to anyone else who accomplished what you did. <BR> Create an actual plaque or trophy. <BR> Give yourself badges of honor for different levels of accomplishment. <BR> Take a vacation or weekend getaway. <BR> Take ... Thu, 3 Dec 2009 09:46:45 EST December Week 1-2 Challenge Sorry for the delay in getting our challenges posted. Swine Flu found me and quite literally took me off of my feet. If you have the opportunity to be vaccinated I HIGHLY recommend it. You don't want this flu. It's a rough one! <BR> <BR> December is an especially difficult month for me as Sean's birthday and angel day both fall this month. With that in mind I'm going to offer a two-prong challenge - <BR> <BR> 1 - List 3 daily grattitudes here or on your blog <BR> <BR> 2 - Share at lea... Wed, 2 Dec 2009 11:08:43 EST Newbie... Hey everyone! I'm a 23 year old mother to three girls (2 living). I am recovering from 3 major abdominal surgeries and joined spark people and a gym to help with the healing process. I just joined here yesterday and am pretty sure I'm getting addicted already. :) Mon, 30 Nov 2009 01:57:19 EST November Week 4 Challenge Sorry for the delay in getting this out to you all. I was out of town walking in the San Diego Breast Cancer 3 Day. Had a wonderful time but definitely did not forget you! <BR> <BR> We are going to wrap up this month by combining all three of our previous challenges. If that seems daunting then I'm going to suggest you stick with Week 2's challenge only. <BR> <BR> Week 1 - 15 extra minutes of movement <BR> Week 2 - 3 gratitudes each day <BR> Week 3 - 10 minutes of quiet "me" time <BR> <... Tue, 24 Nov 2009 21:25:04 EST November Week 3 Challenge It's been really nice to see several of you stopping in to share your gratitudes over the last week. It's a habit I personally fall back to when I find myself struggling on this grief journey or even just in general. Please feel free to continue posting your gratitudes here or on your blog. We can even make it a permanent sticky topic here if you'd like. Let me know... <BR> <BR> Thanksgiving and the holiday season in general can be very difficult for many people, let alone those of us gr... Sun, 15 Nov 2009 11:50:56 EST November Week 2 Challenge The members of this team have faced one of life's biggest challenges - the death of a child. Regardless of our relationship with that child or the circumstances of their passing we never, ever wanted to be part of this club. It's the kind of experience that literally has no words to describe it. We know that. We've lived it. And we continue to learn how to live gracefully with that challenge. We've lost so much and yet we are here. <BR> <BR> This week our challenge is to recognize that... Sat, 7 Nov 2009 13:00:02 EST November Week 1 Challenge This month we are going to focus on one thing each week to help keep us motivated through the holidays. <BR> <BR> Week 1 - Find 15 minutes each day that were previously spent still and Move It, Move It! <BR> <BR> That might mean not hitting the snooze button and instead jumping out of bed to do a quick Spark Exercise video. Maybe it means that the first 15 minutes of your favorite evening show will be spent doing crunches or pushups or even dumbbell curls with a can of corn! Perhaps it ... Mon, 2 Nov 2009 09:55:55 EST October "Mini" Challenge We're going to start ourselves back into team challenges slowly this month. I don't know about you but there are days that slow is all I'm up to! <BR> <BR> Choose just one of the following goals (or pick your own goal) and stick with it PERFECTLY for 3 days. When you successfully complete that one you can choose another one or stick with the one that you have - it's up to you. <BR> <BR> If you don't meet your goal on any given day, you start over with Day One. <BR> <BR> Some examples to... Wed, 30 Sep 2009 12:29:27 EST On a Scale of 1 to 10... This thread is a place to stop in daily to let us know how you are doing. <BR> <BR> On a scale of 1 to 10 with 10 being perfect where do you land today? You rating can be in regard to your health, your grief journey, your mood, whatever strikes you. Just share it with us so we can support you and celebrate with you! Wed, 30 Sep 2009 12:23:26 EST R.I.P. Michael Today is the 3-year anniversary of my nephew, Michael's, death. We miss him terribly. Tue, 15 Sep 2009 14:06:05 EST August "Quick Start" Challenge 3, 5 or 7 day-Quick Start-Challenge <BR> <BR> Choose 2,3, or more of the following goals (or pick your own goals) and stick with them PERFECTLY for either 3, 5 or 7 days. <BR> <BR> If you don't meet your chosen goals on any given day, you start over with Day One. If you want to challenge yourself with more than 3 goals, that even better. <BR> <BR> Some examples to pick from or make your own. <BR> <BR> Water: 8 or more cups a day <BR> Nutrition: 5 or more freggies <BR> Exercise: 30 m... Mon, 3 Aug 2009 10:11:30 EST Kyla I lost my first born child, Kyla on Oct 8, 2002 to an accidental pool drowning. She was in a coma till her passing on Oct 24,2002. Hard to believe she would be 9 yrs old this July 25th. Sat, 23 May 2009 17:04:33 EST Help Ok all I am having a conflict with myself. We go to the Gym on Mondays, Tuesdays, Wed, and Thursday. Take Friday and Sunday off. On Saturday I walk 4 miles. The problem I am having is the gym has a scale and I get on it at the beginning of every work out. I do see results. I am still dropping weight. But I am scared that it will stop. What is the best way to track your weight loss? Wed, 22 Apr 2009 22:34:41 EST April Challenge How far can you go in April? <BR> <BR> Post a mileage goal here for the month and then check in with us daily to see how you do. Doesn't matter how you get your miles - bike, walking, running, elliptical, whatever. <BR> <BR> Post your goal and then your daily progess here! <BR> <BR> My goal 125 miles - 60 running/65 other Wed, 1 Apr 2009 20:21:12 EST The loss of my Daughter and Grandaughter I recently lost my Daughter and Grandaughter, She was 21 yrs old and neally 8mths pregnant. Im trying my best but i cant do this, I have other kids to be strong for but i dont seem to be able to. Im asking people in the same situation if it ever gets any better, Thank you Mon, 30 Mar 2009 07:08:28 EST i am falling apart and dying inside i can't get on track i can't stop crying i can't stop thinking about chloe. i almost grabbed her from the coffin and ran out with her. i don't know what to do. i am destroyed. i can't get my life together. please help me! i want my chloe back. i was robbed. two years! all that and all i got was two years! over half her life i watched her suffer and i couldn't fix it. god i'm losing it. please tell me how to go on. because i really don't think i can. Sun, 29 Mar 2009 03:20:38 EST March 15 - 21 "Roll Your Own" Challenge The name of this weeks challenge comes from my hubby's poker games. Basically they call a "Roll Your Own" when the dealer gets to make up the rules. That's what you are going to do this week! <BR> <BR> Rather than picking a challenge for you, I'm going to have you pick the one thing that you really want to focus on this week. Once you've decided, post it here and then report back on your progress each day. <BR> <BR> Some ideas: <BR> ~Organize that "catch-all" spot at home <BR> ~Finish a ... Mon, 16 Mar 2009 04:31:33 EST March 9 - 15 Cardio Challenge I liked last week's cardio challenge so let's keep it running for one more week! <BR> <BR> Take a look at your schedule and post your goal for minutes spent doing cardio this week here. Come back daily and report how you're doing! <BR> <BR> My goal - 300 cardio minutes by Sunday. <BR> <BR> Penny <BR> Mon, 9 Mar 2009 11:05:50 EST March 9 - 15 Non Cardio Challenge Continuing our focus on Nutrition this month... <BR> <BR> Last week we tracked our daily calories. This week we're going to take it a step further and track your choice of carbs, protein or fat. Pick the one you struggle the most with (in my case carbs) post your ranges and then report in with us here daily. <BR> <BR> Looking forward to great participation! <BR> <BR> Penny Mon, 9 Mar 2009 11:03:05 EST Group Chat HERE Want to connect with your teammates? Have something on your mind? Want to celebrate a success? Having a bad day and just need to get it out? This is the place to do all that and more. Stop in as often as you are able and just say hi. This is a safe place to share. Mon, 2 Mar 2009 13:32:52 EST March 2-8 Non Cardio Challenge This month we are going to focus on Nutrition. Part of that is holding ourselves accountable for the fuel we choose to eat. <BR> <BR> So... <BR> <BR> This week your challenge it to eat within your calorie range as calculated by SparkPeople (or another source that you are comfortable with). Begin by posting your range here and then report back daily to let us know how you did the day before. <BR> <BR> My range is 1370 - 1720 calories. My goal is to eat 1370 - 1500 on non workout days, 15... Mon, 2 Mar 2009 13:27:00 EST March 2-8 Cardio Challenge We're going back to weekly challenges - less overwhelming I think and if you miss one there's always next week to try again! <BR> <BR> So... <BR> <BR> This week will be all about cardio minutes. Take a look at your schedule and post your goal for minutes spent doing cardio this week here. Come back daily and report how you're doing! <BR> <BR> My goal - 300 cardio minutes by Sunday. <BR> <BR> Penny Mon, 2 Mar 2009 13:25:29 EST February 2-8 Non Cardio Challenge Reposted under March 2-8 title Mon, 2 Mar 2009 13:22:17 EST February 2-8 Cardio Challenge Reposted under March title Mon, 2 Mar 2009 13:15:58 EST Jokes here!! Recently a new study has found that smiling and positive attitude improve your health! your (clean) jokes here! Enjoy! <BR> <BR> <BR> Teacher: <BR> Maria please point to America on the map. <BR> <BR> Maria: <BR> This is it. <BR> <BR> Teacher: <BR> Well done. Now class, who found America? <BR> <BR> Class: <BR> Maria did Thu, 12 Feb 2009 05:57:47 EST 1 year this week ...and I'm such a mess. Sunday, Feb 8th will be 1 year. I feel like I've been preparing for this all year, but I'm miserable anyway. Any suggestions? Mon, 2 Feb 2009 10:56:54 EST HI I know it's a while since I posted here, but I just wanted everyone to know that I finally had my Gastric Bypass last Tuesday and am doing well post-operatively. Mon, 2 Feb 2009 05:21:08 EST February Cardio Challenge Let's try a monthly challenge this time around. We had good participation and some great successes with last weeks mileage challenge so let's see if we can stretch it into a whole month! Along the way I'll post some daily challenges to keep us on our toes as well. <BR> <BR> So... <BR> <BR> How far can you go in February? <BR> <BR> Post a mileage goal here for the month and then check in with us daily to see how you do. Doesn't matter how you get your miles - bike, walking, running, elli... Mon, 2 Feb 2009 04:00:07 EST January 25-31 Non Cardio Challenge Don't know about you, but I'm getting tired of eating the same things every week! <BR> <BR> Your challenge this week is to either find and prepare a recipe on then give us a review here OR to share one of your favorite healthy recipes with us here. <BR> <BR> Can't wait to get some new yummy ideas! Sun, 25 Jan 2009 17:27:55 EST January 25-31 Cardio Challenge How far can you go? <BR> <BR> This week let's see how far you can go during your cardio! Post a mileage goal here for the week and then check in with us daily to see how you do. Doesn't matter how you get your miles - bike, walking, running, elliptical, whatever. <BR> <BR> Post your goal and then your daily progess here! <BR> <BR> My goal 15 miles Sun, 25 Jan 2009 17:24:21 EST My Story Hi, I just discovered your team. I have been with sparkpeople for a bit, but did not explore too many teams. I am now branch out to ones I can relate to. I wish this wasn't one of them, but as you will see by my story it is. <BR> My Name is Carol I am a Mother of two very special boys. My second born son is now 14. He is a great kid who has been through a lot. Then there is my first born son, my angel, Michael, who will be forever 12 since August 28 2002 when he died of sudden heart failure... Sat, 24 Jan 2009 10:05:30 EST Yum or Yuck? Just something fun to play with! Each person replies with either a yum or yuck to the previous post and then adds their food item. <BR> <BR> I'll start with avocados....YUM! Fri, 16 Jan 2009 19:29:20 EST January 18 -24 Cardio/Strength Training Challenge I'll be offline this weekend so I'm posting next weeks challenges early. <BR> <BR> This week your challenge is to do something when you're doing nothing and tell us about it! That may mean that you do a set of crunches or pushups while watching TV, or that you walk around the block with your friend when you are visiting them, or that you dance while making dinner. Get creative and share your best ideas with the team! <BR> <BR> Good luck! <BR> <BR> Penny Fri, 16 Jan 2009 19:26:35 EST January 18 - 24 Non Cardio Challenge I'll be offline this weekend so thought I'd post next weeks challenges a bit early. <BR> <BR> This week we have a two part challenge. <BR> <BR> First - Blog on your SparkPage at least twice during the week. <BR> <BR> Second - Leave a comment on a two teammates blogs. <BR> <BR> Good luck! <BR> <BR> Penny Fri, 16 Jan 2009 19:22:13 EST January 11 - 18 non Cardio Challenge This one sounds easier than it really is... <BR> <BR> This week our challenge is to eat breakfast...every single day! <BR> <BR> Post your results here. <BR> Mon, 12 Jan 2009 00:17:39 EST January 11 - 18 Cardio Challenge This week we are going to go with a "choose your own" challenge. Take a look at your schedule for this week and choose either a cardio minutes or a cardio calories goal for the next week. Post your goal and your progress here. <BR> <BR> Looking forward to LOTS of participation! Mon, 12 Jan 2009 00:15:15 EST just passing this along.... Hey everyone!! Here's an awesome deal. A FREE download of Suze Orman's new book that Oprah had on her show. "Suze Orman's 2009 Action Plan" to get your finances in order. <BR> lfinance/pkgyourmoney/20081119_tows_bo <BR> okdownload <BR> <BR> If the link I posted doesn't work, just go to and you'll see a link for Suzie's free book. <BR> Help spread the word for the free download. It's only available until this Thursday, Jan. 15th. <BR... Sat, 10 Jan 2009 22:48:40 EST My intro.... Hi to all. We are all here as we have lost one or more of our precious children. The pain lessens but never goes away completely. I am here to talk whenever anyone needs someone. <BR> <BR> I am 38 and my angel Caitlyn would have been 18 in March. I still think of her almost daily. She was born a normal healthy baby(so we thought) until she was about 5 1/2 weeks and started turning blue. Took her to Dr., who sent her to our small hospital for xrays. In less than 2 hours we were on ou... Thu, 8 Jan 2009 21:24:46 EST January 4 - 10 Challenge For our non-workout challenge this week I'm challenging each of you to update your Spark Page. Add a new "now" photo, update your program, personal challenges, maybe even your background and colors. It's a whole new year so a whole new look just might be in order! If you need any help with negotiating the system or adding photos, drop me a note at and I'll do my best to help. <BR> <BR> When you are done, post here so we can visit your new and improved Spark Page! <BR> <B... Sun, 4 Jan 2009 13:36:26 EST January 4 - 10 Cardio Challenge It's time to get in the swing of things again. Get your calendars out right now and schedule your workouts this week in INK!! Taking care of yourself needs to be one of your first priorities! <BR> <BR> YOUR CHALLENGE - <BR> 240 activity minutes and/or 1600 cardio calories burned. That works out to roughly 4 60 minute workouts burning 400 calories each day. Sound easy? I love overachievers!! :-) <BR> <BR> Post your activity minutes and/or calories under this thread. Mine are below as an ... Sun, 4 Jan 2009 13:32:58 EST January 1-3 Workout Challenge New workout! <BR> <BR> Time to take a look at some of the wonderful video workouts here on SparkPeople and choose a new one to try as your very own between now and Saturday. Report back here which one you chose, why you did or didn't like it, and whether or not you'll be incorporating it into January's workout plan. <BR> <BR> Now I'm off to the video section.... <BR> <BR> Penny Wed, 31 Dec 2008 16:48:44 EST December 28 - 31 Cardio Challenge With the new year rapidly approaching I thought we'd wrap up this year with a quick mini cardio challenge for the rest of 2008. <BR> <BR> Challenge: <BR> <BR> 90 cardio minutes between now and midnight on the 31st. Doesn't matter how you get them in - 10 minutes at a time or all at once. Post your progress here. <BR> <BR> Here's mine - <BR> 12/28 - rest <BR> 12/29 <BR> 12/30 <BR> 12/31 <BR> <BR> ACHIEVED: 0 minutes <BR> GOAL 90 minutes <BR> <BR> Looking forward to seeing lots of par... Mon, 29 Dec 2008 12:51:38 EST Hello everyone... Im new to the group... Hi everyone, My name is Cindy and I'm 28 yrs old. Let me say first off I'm so sorry for everyone losses. Losing a child is the worst thing ever to have to go through. I'm here for anyone who needs to a shoulder to cry on, someone to scream at, or just want to talk. <BR> <BR> Well a little about me and my story... I am a proud step mom of a 12 yr old wonderful little girl, an 18 month old little boy who is my world and my 3 angel babies! <BR> <BR> My husband and I suffered our first loss o... Tue, 23 Dec 2008 13:14:08 EST My holiday PLAN... Here’s my plan – <BR> <BR> 12/24 & perfect Grandson’s bday – quick trip to the gym in the morning, skip the bday cake. <BR> <BR> Christmas – Exercise portion control during meals but don’t deny a taste of everything. <BR> <BR> 12/26 & 12/27 – Gym both days <BR> <BR> 12/28 (Sean’s angel-versary) – Take very good care of myself. Call best friend when emotional rather than eating. Limit alcohol to 2 drinks all day. No gym but a walk outside, weather permitting. <BR> <BR> 12/29-12/30 – ... Tue, 23 Dec 2008 12:15:21 EST December 21 Weekly Challenge - Holiday This challenge is a bit different. <BR> <BR> As much as some of us have probably tried to ignore it, there is a holiday this week. Holidays can be very challenging times for those of us that have angels we miss. So my challenge to each of you this week is to share a favorite holiday memory of your angel here with us. <BR> <BR> I'm looking forward to hearing from each of you. <BR> <BR> Penny - Sean's Mom Sun, 21 Dec 2008 20:28:46 EST December 21 Weekly Cardio Challenge Let's keep this one going for another week.... <BR> <BR> Staying active during the cold, dark month of December can be a challenge in itself let alone handling the holidays on top of it. So our challenge this week is to keep ourselves moving at least a little bit. Exercise will help improve your mood and give you a little extra help as the holidays approach. <BR> <BR> YOUR CHALLENGE - <BR> 240 activity minutes and/or 1600 cardio calories burned. That works out to roughly 4 60 minute worko... Sun, 21 Dec 2008 20:25:37 EST Birthdays To add your angels birthday to the group list, please post here. I'll update our list on a regular basis. Wed, 17 Dec 2008 00:20:48 EST Angel Birthdays - Updated 12/16/08 ***Please do not reply to this topic so that we can keep our angels birthdays easy to find. To add your angels birthday to this list please post a separate reply under "Birthdays".*** <BR> <BR> JANUARY BIRTHDAYS <BR> Hayden Austin Fisher <BR> 1/1/08-1/13/08 <BR> SRAMB23/GaMa Sue <BR> <BR> Jessie Anna Starnes <BR> 1/3/99-3/19/08 <BR> LISAROUSSEAU <BR> <BR> Shannon Marie <BR> 1/11/77-7/7/01 <BR> POOKIEBEAR69162 <BR> <BR> Kaylie Nicole Gunn <BR> 1/16/06-5/13/08 <BR> TGUNN8232/Tisha <BR> ... Wed, 17 Dec 2008 00:19:35 EST The (many) things that make us smile... Hi Team. I borrowed this game from another Team. Let's make a list of some of the things that bring a smile to our faces. <BR> <BR> I'll start... <BR> <BR> 1. The smile on my grandson's face when he made his first snow angel. <BR> <BR> <BR> (Don't forget to number them:-) Mon, 15 Dec 2008 19:42:31 EST December 15 Weekly Challenge Staying active during the cold, dark month of December can be a challenge in itself let alone handling the holidays on top of it. So our challenge this week is to keep ourselves moving at least a little bit. Exercise will help improve your mood and give you a little extra help as the holidays approach. <BR> <BR> YOUR CHALLENGE - <BR> 240 activity minutes and/or 1600 cardio calories burned. That works out to roughly 4 60 minute workouts burning 400 calories each day. Sound easy? I love... Mon, 15 Dec 2008 16:22:18 EST New To This Group My name is Kim, I am 36 years old and my husband and I have lost two sons and 6 other babies(pregnancies). I have a blood clotting disorder that causes complications when I become pregnant. Our first son, Joshua, was born at 24weeks5days. He lived for 7.5 months in Neonatal Intensive Care. We were there every day, which was hard because we also have 2 beautiful, healthy daughters at home. He died of "complications of prematurity" in 2004. In 2006 we became pregnant with our second son, ... Thu, 11 Dec 2008 21:36:50 EST Happy Birthday Catrina....Miss You Today would have been my daughters 14th birthday. I feel that I have done better, but the day still isn't over. <BR> <BR> I sat down and wrote her a letter as I do every year and then I went out to her grave and took her roses and a birthday balloon along with some sweets for her birthday. <BR> <BR> My husband and I sang to her, but it is so hard to get the song out without crying. <BR> <BR> I miss my sweet little girl. Sun, 30 Nov 2008 21:26:01 EST My Story, and my intro My name is Vanessa. I am 27, and to this date have lost two children. My son died when he was 10 days old of complications from birth. He had a twin, who lived until she was 15 months old.... <BR> <BR> Our story... <BR> <BR> I could deal with my son's death. Although it was hard, I lived and was okay with it. I had three beautiful girls remaining and had the funnest with my youngest baby girl. On June 4th, I had finished running errands, came home, put the car in park, left the engine runn... Fri, 28 Nov 2008 14:25:18 EST I Need Advice. My husband is in the Army, and the family that he stayed with when we were waiting for our housing just lost their 5 week old baby. I am in Boston, and they are in Colorado at this time, and going back to New York for the funeral. I want to reach out to the mom to letter her know that I am here for her, but I don't know what to say. I want to offer as much support as I can. I have been through something similar in the past with a friend who had a still born, but I just don't know what to ... Fri, 21 Nov 2008 07:34:34 EST The days are getting more difficult. I just joined this team tonight and here's my story. I lost my only daughter on May 3 of this year to suicide. The 6 month anniversary of her death is approaching quickly. She was 43yrs old, but like a child in so many ways. She was involved in a motorcycle accident in 2001 resulting in a head injury, fibromyalgia, and chronic back pain. With years of seeing doctors, therapists and psychiatrists along with all the medication changes and procedures that go with it, life was difficult for he... Mon, 27 Oct 2008 23:27:38 EST New to the team I lost my only child 09/09/2007, as a result of a motorcycle accident. My beautiful son died from blunt force trauma. Tony side swipped another vehicle and was crushed when his motorcycle flipped. It is so difficult to care about living let alone trying to maintain a healthy diet and exercise. However, I joined sparkPeople before he died and I need to try do something I used to do. I need to pretend that everything is normal. Sun, 26 Oct 2008 21:21:54 EST Need your advice Sorry I have been missing for awhile. Kinda went into a small depression. Back in July I found another doctor that was closer to home and I met with her and she told me that with me developing preclampsia at an early stage of pregnancy that I can't have any kids. But she wanted to get my records from Louisville and have another meeting. <BR> <BR> I just met with her last week and my aunt went with me since she remembers everything. And she told me that if I were to become pregnant that i... Mon, 13 Oct 2008 10:50:13 EST Finding your happy weight Saw this on another message board, and figured I should share! <BR> <BR> Found this article in Self magazine and thought we might like to do it. <BR> <BR> Grab a tape measure and calculator. Multiply your height in inches by itself, then by 0.031. That is your body weight at a body mass index of 22, in the middle of the healthy range, so it's a good place to start. But there are many different factors that can contribute to your happy weight. So keep calculating. <BR> <BR> Multiply the ... Sun, 12 Oct 2008 09:28:58 EST Where is everyone? Hello everyone. I've been really down this weekend. I've been sick and haven't felt like moving. It's been really quite on the message boards this weekend. I hope everyone is doing well and enjoying the cooler weather.-Traci <BR> Sun, 28 Sep 2008 22:38:50 EST Today I feel .............. Today started off ok. <BR> <BR> As I was leaving the gym I ran into a friend of my son which I hadn't seen in years! <BR> <BR> Today, all the emotions I've been so cleverly hiding gushed out of me and my heart was in pain. <BR> <BR> Today I felt I should spend more time with the children I have here on this Earth. So I said the heck with ballet lesson or homework and I took them to the movies. <BR> <BR> Wouldn't you know that I run into a big group of my late son's friends there and th... Thu, 25 Sep 2008 01:26:03 EST glad to see this group! Hi my name is Sylvia,I lost my 1st born,Brian in 1989,he was 9 yrs old. He died in his sleep after having a heart attack. He had C.P. Its been all these yrs and I still miss him so much...I have two surviving children who are my angels on earth,they are my reason for still being here. It was a very rough time when I lost my baby,and still is very hard @ times.I'm so sorry so many of you have had to go through this same pain,its amazing to sit and read the stories,in my personal life I know no... Tue, 23 Sep 2008 05:46:00 EST new to the team Hi, my name is Jenn. Bronto is my buddy on a challenge in another team and I saw this group on her page and thought I would check it out. My son was born at 24 weeks and only lived for about 54 minutes. He would have been 4 this year if he would have lived. I have had 2 miscarriages since then (the most recent in October last year) and we finally decided to give up because it was just too painful. <BR> <BR> I do have a 9 year old daughter that is spoiled rotten ;) and a wonderful husban... Wed, 17 Sep 2008 22:03:33 EST Two years today It's been two years today that my nephew passed away due to complications caused by antibiotics and subsequently ARDS. Yesterday, my mother had a memorial dinner in honor of him so we could get together. There isn't a day that goes by that we don't think about Mike. Mon, 15 Sep 2008 06:38:34 EST I fell off the wagon So I was doing so well and then I dont know what happened. I was down to 196 and then I lost control or felt as so. I am now back to 204 and am ready to get back to where I was. I can't stand being like this. <BR> I hope you all welcome me back. Sun, 14 Sep 2008 16:47:13 EST Poor Kitty I accidently backed over one of our kittens this afternoon. She was a really sweet little orange tabby. I cried so hard. I haven't really cried like that since my son died. I have shed a tear or two from time to time but not uncontrollable sobbing. I think I really needed it though, I felt.... almost cleansed... afterward. Thu, 11 Sep 2008 00:48:47 EST Introduction I just found out that I need to intorduce myself to each group that I join. I have found several but this is the one that is closest to my heart and took it as well. <BR> <BR> You can go to my site and get additional information so I don't go into details here (for those who don't like to read)... <BR> <BR> I have gained 100 lbs since my 19 year old daughter was killed... I have so many issues I can't fix them... I am doing my best to live with the preventable tragedy, but found that there ... Thu, 4 Sep 2008 00:44:31 EST New to Sparkpeople and to this forum Hello. My son Zane was born with Tetralogy of Fallot with Pulmonary Atresia and died when he was 2 months old. That was 5 years ago. I also have 2 daughters, they were 4 and 6(almost 7) when he passed away. We have dealt with his death fairly well. I probably won't spend a lot of time here, as I have moved passed the point of always needing to talk about it. But it's nice to know there is a place I can come when I do need to talk, where everyone else has felt the same pain and understands. Mon, 1 Sep 2008 20:48:16 EST Hi. I'm new My is Traci and I live in a small town in Arkansas. My nineteen year old daughter Amber was killed by a drunk driver on April 30, 2005. I have seventeen year old twins and am married. I am looking for the kind of support only the people that know this kind of loss can provide. I have been diagnosed with PTSD and Fibromyalgia. I take several medications which have caused me to gain weight, as if I weren't gaining enough with the anxiety and depression alone. I look forward to hearing from some... Mon, 1 Sep 2008 11:21:04 EST ALL PARENTS MUST READ THIS Ive been trying to think of a way to get this msg out and I guess this will be my way. I am posting this in every place I can. <BR> <BR> On Dec 18,2006 my son Zachary was killed in a gas explosion, he was 14. I am not writing this for your sympathy, but to let you know of the dangers out there that we dont even know exist. <BR> <BR> My son and his friend were taking a short cut through someones pasture to get to town, my son wanted to come home. They walked up on 2 tank batteries,definit... Wed, 13 Aug 2008 20:26:31 EST Hi. I'm new Hi my name is Tisha and I am 25. I lost my 2 year old daughter, Kaylie, on May 13, 2008. She was diagnosed with leukemia in September of 2006 when she was 8 months old. She went through chemotherapy for a year and beat her cancer. She was out of treatment for 4 months when she developed a severe allergic reaction to an antibiotic she was taking because her immune system was still suppressed. The antibiotic was supposed to prevent her from getting pneumonia. The reaction was so bad that she wa... Wed, 13 Aug 2008 07:44:43 EST Hi, I'm New Hi. I joined SparkPeople about a year-and-a-half ago, posted once, but life was a little crazy and a lot fell through the cracks. I didn't post again. <BR> <BR> Then my 24-yr-old son Daniel died in June 2007 and since then much has changed: relocation, new job, trainings, and many other transitions as a result of his passing. <BR> <BR> I am trying to create my new "normal," realizing "normal" must be redefined. I am trying to take better care of myself, prioritize my exercising, and t... Sun, 3 Aug 2008 22:43:47 EST Help me Help my daughter and son in law Its been almost 8 months since my precious grandson became my precious grandangel and we are all still having our difficulties getting past his loss. My daughter is really having a difficult time. She says she is having 'flashbacks' of the baby and of her pregnancy and is having a really difficult time moving past his death. He died because he was born with only his left ventrical functioning and he also had some of his cerebellum missing, so it was a blessing that he did not have to suffe... Thu, 31 Jul 2008 11:41:56 EST Sharing My Story Hi all, <BR> I just joined tonight and thought I would say HI. I'm Mimi, mom to 5 living children and 3 angels. My living children are: Bethany 20, Lauryn 18, Maurra 12, Garrett 7 and Nathan 6. My 3 precious angels are Niccolas Nathaniel who I miscarried at 17 weeks July 8, 91. Faith Hope ended up being carried outside of my uterus and I had to go through the Methotrexate injections so my body would break the cells down for re-absorption and I lost her Oct 13, 99 and right after Faith I ... Tue, 22 Jul 2008 21:34:34 EST God's Gift ! My name is Samantha, I just joined Spark people and I have been reading your stories and all I can say is wow, I am not the only one. I would like to tell you my story. My husband and I got married in April of 2004, by May we found out that we were going to have a new baby, we already had a 4 year old little girl named Kourtney so I wanted a boy. I started having complications from the beginning, but by October my Doctor told me something was wrong with the baby, he was not swallowing so my b... Sat, 19 Jul 2008 02:52:47 EST Saying hi and offering support Hi I am newly active to SP and want to let you know I am here for you if you need a shoulder to cry on. <BR> <BR> I have lost two children to SIDS. Mandalynne 2 months 1 week in July 1989 and Robert 4 months and 19 days in February 1991. <BR> <BR> If you ever need me I am here. Wed, 16 Jul 2008 23:59:28 EST summer months seem to be the hardest for me. we do so much in the summertime, its so hard knwoing my son isnt here with me to enjoy it. he would be 8 years old this summer, plus my 5 year old, we would have SO much fun! its hard.. just sucks.. <BR> <BR> sorry had to get that off my chest. Tue, 8 Jul 2008 09:20:37 EST my story I have read most of the stories, but it's hard to read. I have to stop so I am not a blubbering fool all day :) <BR> <BR> I am Sheri, 30 yrs old, live in Maine. I am mom to an angel boy in Heaven and an angel boy on Earth. <BR> <BR> found out I was pregnant just before Christmas in 99, what a awy to break in the new 2k new years :)I was excited but scared, being only 23. I was due on my birthday in August. There was a lot that happened in the month of April. My sons father, his best frien... Mon, 23 Jun 2008 08:47:03 EST One Ton Sparkteam! Hi pals :) I'm apart of a sparkteam where our goal is to loose one ton of weight every 4 months as a team. The whole sparkteam is divided into smaller teams that compete against each other in a friendly way. There are weekly challenges that we use for the competitions and every little bit counts! If you are interested in joining we are going public for the next week :) Do come and check us out! <BR> <BR> <link><BR>ndividual.asp?gid=16129 </link> Sun, 22 Jun 2008 13:39:40 EST Hello everyone :) Just thought I would check in with this group. I'm apart of another group that consumes most of my time when i'm at the computer. I was hoping that I was pregnant this past month (some signs seems to tell me I was) but AF came to visit. I'm okay with it though, it's our first month trying after loosing Kaitlin, I don't think I'm in a hurry, even though I bought an over the counter ovulation kit for this next cycle ;) <BR> <BR> How is everyone else doing? Thu, 5 Jun 2008 11:32:47 EST Am I pregnant? I know that you dont know but I just need advice, I dont really have any women around that I can ask. March 14 I had my daughter, I bled for two weeks. Right on schedule, 4 weeks later I had my period. Well its almost June and I havent had a real period this month. Yesterday was the 5-8th day of being late and I noticed light spotting. On the 4-7th day I tested and it was negative. My breasts are larger but do not feel tender as they do usually when I get my period. I have minimal cramping wh... Sat, 24 May 2008 10:04:00 EST Hoping to find somewhere to belong Let me introduce myself. My name is Stacy and I have 3 active kids. Two boys 8 and 7 then I have a little girl 6. My little angel soars above us 08/12/04-08/14/04. <BR> When we found out I was preggers for the fourth time it was a surprise. But we were so delighted. My pregnancy was normal though we moved to a new town in my eighth month. That was hard being away from friends (our families already lived hours away). <BR> We nicknamed the baby Cubby cuz we were tired of people calling the ... Wed, 21 May 2008 22:41:49 EST When to try again... I lost my daughter in March and since then have been topsy-turvy about trying again. My husband says he's not ready. At times I do want to, then I see a baby girl and I bawl and think that maybe its not time..I do want to be healthy before trying again so I told my hubby maybe when I get to my goal? he says "I dunno.." then we are being restationed in California in 2010... I turn 21 this year...I know that its a personal decision but what are other views in this? I dont want to "force" it but... Tue, 13 May 2008 20:39:33 EST Letters to Heaven Hi, I am Christina and i am new to sp. I am the mommy of an angel in Heaven. Her name is Lilly Faith. When I was 22 weeks I started having heavy discharge, freaked out I went to the hospital. I was 3 cm dilated. I have an incompetent cervix. Once the weight of the uterus gets too heavy, the cervix opens. I had no pain, or anything. I laid in the hospital for a week with a leak in my water bag and they were hoping that we could hold off my water breaking all the way. I wound up getting Chorio.... Sun, 11 May 2008 21:58:50 EST Hi I am ... Rachel! I just wanted to introduce myself. My doctor gave me this site yesterday and I checked it out immediatley. I think this site and great and I pray that I can give and receive plenty of support. <BR> I lost my beautiful daughter, Lincoln, 2 years ago when she was just 3. She was my life and still is. She is mine and my husband's only child and we miss her sooooo much. Thu, 8 May 2008 16:29:25 EST Strange Coincidence I just have to share this... <BR> <BR> Today is Seth's birthday, he would have been three. I'm doing my first 8k today in his memory. I've never done anything like this, so I'm mostly walking it today. <BR> <BR> Yesterday, I made a goal to eventually run a 5k straight through. I started the Couch to 5k program, which is nine weeks, and found the next 5k after that date here in San Diego, and signed up as a "runner." I told my mom the date, July 13, and she burst into tears because it'... Sun, 4 May 2008 06:58:38 EST Birthday, Mom's Day, Coming Up This Sunday is his third birthday, next week mother's day. I'm taking the time off from work, since we are doing a children's show, and I think it would be too difficult to see so many kids on those days. I also recently, in the last week, had a breakup of a relationship, so now I can't focus on anything else, I just have to face it. For some reason this year since harder than last year. I feel like I haven't been able to have a happy mother's day for years. I had one where he was health... Wed, 30 Apr 2008 21:57:56 EST I finaly bought it!!! It has been a year and a half since I lost by precious twins, Austina nd Benjamin. I have been wanting to get a vase to put out so I can put flowers on the grave. But over the last year, well, it has been a whirl wind of emotions and money problems. <BR> <BR> But last month I finally ordered a vase and it is by their grave. I put some Spring-y flowers along with 2 Blue roses for them. <BR> <BR> It is going to be hard this year, because last year my mom took us to Holiday World, theme par... Tue, 29 Apr 2008 13:30:33 EST Kaitlin's Message So today is/was my due date for Kaitlin. I didn't think it would bother me much and for the most part i've gotten through it okay. I was on my way to a job interview and I was listening to a list of songs that i've made about her. I call it my easy listening since they are calming now for me to listen to. And on the way a song that has never really bothered me played and it really hit me hard from some unknown reason. I had been driving for about 15 minutes at the point it played. Somewhere t... Thu, 24 Apr 2008 16:29:28 EST Hello Hi I have been a member of SP since August and have just found this sight. My name is Pat and I lost as son at the age of 8 months to HLHS. (He would be 18 now his name is Ricky.) I found out I was going to have another son while I was in the hospital with Ricky and almost lost him too. I thank God everyday that I did not and he is now 17. Tue, 22 Apr 2008 20:20:26 EST Hello - New here Hi all, my name is Penny, and I have just joined spark points. Searching around the teams I found this one, and had to join. <BR> We lost our first son - James, in 2005 at the age of 20 months. He was our little angel and made me so happy. <BR> We had a second son in 2006 and now he is fast approaching the age that James went into hospital - we don't know if he has the same thing - so I am quite on egg shells at the moment. <BR> My worst regret - seeing all you other folks that have had t... Mon, 14 Apr 2008 20:35:33 EST Memorial Today It was December 18 that my grandson has his surgery up at Akron Children's Hospital .. he was doing so well but by 2:15 he crashed (his blood pressure bottomed out) and he never could make it back. He was pronounsed at 5:10pm. That's about the time hubby picked me up at work (it was the night of our work holiday party) and we drove the hour to Akron. <BR> <BR> This afternoon (Sunday, April 6) the hospital is having a memorial service at 3pm so in a few hours we will be going back to the ... Sun, 6 Apr 2008 09:58:07 EST A brief introduction Hello everyone, I feel wierd saying that I am so happy to have found this team, but if you are here, you know exactly what I mean when I say that. What I mean is that the loss of a child is the loneliest feeling and often is seems that no matter how well meaning supporters can be, it is often only those that has sadly experienced the same sad loss can truly feel what you are feeling, understand the pain. This is the only place that will understand why I am still a mother on mother's day, eve... Thu, 3 Apr 2008 02:00:27 EST Having a hard time this anniversary The day after Easter will be 7 years since my baby daughter, Destiny, was born and died. I am not sure why I am having such a hard time right now but for the last week I am walking around nearly in tears most of the time. Night before last, I woke up in the middle of the night and ended up in the floor of an empty room of my house clutching some clothes that were meant for her just bawling my eyes out. I miss her so much and it stiil seems so unfair that she isn't with me. I trust God and I k... Sat, 22 Mar 2008 10:11:58 EST "Logan's Call" For those of you who may not have heard this radio exchange from a few months ago, I thought it would be a good thing to share today, Good Friday. A young man shares his sorrow as his calf had to be put down. . .for those of us who've lost a beloved one, it is a good reminder that God is there, and most importantly, UNDERSTANDS, because He lost His son, too. <BR> <BR> <link> </link> <BR> <BR> Fri, 21 Mar 2008 10:24:39 EST "Team" question. . . Ladies (at least I think you're all ladies--my apologies to any men), since joining this team 2 weeks ago, I have been getting messages that say "So-And-So Just Joined Children With Wings." But when I go to the site, I don't see any new posts. Can people join without posting? Do they? Should we, like, write the newcomer a private message? <BR> <BR> I cannot express enough how much this has helped me. The counselor I have been seeing even noticed a difference. I want to extend a welco... Wed, 5 Mar 2008 20:48:51 EST i'm back hey everyone i am back sorry i have been away for so long things have been hectic in my life and hopefully things will calm down Sat, 1 Mar 2008 12:55:31 EST Will the hurt get easier I hae been having a hard tim ethe past couple of days. One of closest friend's mother died over the weekend and she is surrounding herself with guilt and questions. And all of a sudden Austin and Benjamin were brought up. And I just cried and cried. When I come back to work I was talkling with my boss and I started the crying thing again...twice. <BR> <BR> Then I was filled with everything I felt, after the meds wore off in the hospital. I am taking it one day at a time but...ugh. <BR> ... Wed, 20 Feb 2008 14:10:40 EST Hello... My name is Debbie and I've just joined the SparkTeam! I was very surprised to find this group, and also very relieved. Our oldest son would've turned 25 on February 17th. Sadly, he was killed while on duty in Iraq on December 4th, 2006. It has been a definite struggle for me. Prior to losing him, I had lost 55 lbs and was doing/feeling great! My MS was under control, and it was a great feeling! Unfortunately, I began to feed my depression this past year, and have since gained about 40 lbs bac... Tue, 19 Feb 2008 13:19:21 EST Hi - My story Hello my name is Lynn. I know I haven't said too much yet but my thoughts and my prayers have been with everyone here. Before I tell my story about I need to give a little background info first. My mother and I have not gotten along since I was 12 years old. She has done things to underhand me and bring me down my whole life. I deal with her though because of my girls. My girls really love her and to them she is pretty good most of the time. Ok Lenea was born 5/3/88 and was a straight ... Sat, 16 Feb 2008 19:36:12 EST Proud Nana Hi everyone ... thought I'd check out this board. I (we) lost our grandson Harley Ray on Dec. 18, 2007. He had heart surgery at Akron Children's hospital but wasn't strong enough to make it through. I'm grateful we have his 2 yr old sister to love and spoil - he's a definate Godsend to not only us but to his parent's as well (my youngest son and his wife). <BR> <BR> Sher/Ohio Thu, 14 Feb 2008 19:10:13 EST Hi, new member here, need a little support. Okay so I added my childrens birthdays to the list and I wrote there story in the detail thing so I won't go into it here, but tomorrow is the 3 yr anniversary of my daughters death and I'm not handling it very well. This last week I can't sleep and I've been eating everything (not that I care to much about that at the moment). I've been crying constantly when no one is around. I just don't want to feel so alone. Wed, 13 Feb 2008 06:19:17 EST Hi-glad I found you My son passed away a year and a half ago, and though I am slowly getting stronger, It's nice to meet other people who are closer to understanding where I'm coming from. The holidays were easier (though not easy) than last year, but I still have really bad days. <BR> <BR> The other day a woman and I were talking on a bench at school (I'm a returning student, 29), and she asked me if I have kids. I said no, and she said "well, don't you want any?" I told her, not right now, and she kept push... Tue, 5 Feb 2008 06:51:18 EST Hello Not as often now, but sometimes I still go to my daughter's grave. She would be turning twelve in June had she not passed away before her birth. <BR> It is still hard to live with, and difficult to understand. But, I have another daughter who is alive and healthy. She will be 11 in March. <BR> I am glad to find this team. Sat, 2 Feb 2008 13:50:04 EST Just wanted to say hi. Hi, I am Jan. I just stumbled upon this team, and it has brought a flood of memories back. It has been 11 years since my son committed suicide not quite 2 weeks after his 21st birthday. Anyway, I just wanted to give my intro. Fri, 1 Feb 2008 02:08:28 EST hello Hello my name is Lynn. I'm a mom of 2 girls, Caitie my little girl (12 years old) and my Angel, Lenea who will remain 18 years old forever but would be turning 20 this year. I've been sitting back for a couple of days reading all the post here and crying my way through them all. I agree with and understand the aggravation of hearing someone who honestly has no clue what it feels like to lose a child say that they understand what your going through. At work I keep a picture of my daughter on ... Wed, 30 Jan 2008 22:02:26 EST Let me introduce myself A sad hi to everyone here. On March 24, 2001, I joined the parent's club that no one would willingly choose to be a member of. That is the group of parents who have had a child predecease them. My third child and first beautiful daughter was born alive at almost 21 weeks gestation. She was laid in our arms and we held her until she passed. I had felt bad for a couple of days but thought i was catching a virus. In truth, I was experiencing incompetent cervix and as my cervix had started to ope... Fri, 25 Jan 2008 21:03:32 EST Had a hard time yesterday I was watching GMA or something and they were talking about how drinking caffine is being linked to miscarriages. <BR> <BR> Now I know I had the twin to twin transfusion. And they were in trouble from the start, but I had went to dinner with my husband's dad and I was drinking sweet tea. It hurt me and I was so bummed. When my husband got home I broke down and he told me they were in trouble from the start. <BR> <BR> But it still got to me. <BR> Just wanted to share. <BR> <BR> Shannon... Tue, 22 Jan 2008 12:03:41 EST I wanted to share..... It has been a year and a half since I lost my beautiful boys. So my mother had a necklace engraved with their picture. I wear it all the time. And just discovered that her and my aunt made a scrapbook for me. She showed it to me and my husband and we both lost it. She still has a few things to add but I thought that was a neat idea. <BR> <BR> Hope you all don't think I am a sick person for that. <BR> <BR> Shannon Fri, 11 Jan 2008 20:19:41 EST Knowing I am not Alone Hello... it is comforting to know there is a place I can go where others feel as I do. I have a daughter who is 7 and an angel. My son would have recently celebrated his 5th birthday. I lost him to SIDS when he was only 4 months old. (12/30/02 - 5/1/03) My family has not been able to understand my grief and have always tried to tell me how to deal with it. His father and I have not really talked since 9/03. The only people I have had to talk to about are ones with childern and I don't want to... Mon, 7 Jan 2008 23:30:37 EST Introducing myself! Hello, I just found out about and joined sp. It will be nice to have people who I can talk with! I am 50 years old. I have one biological son in college who is 19 and 3 adopted children age 8, 5 & 6. My oldest child died at the age of 21 from Leukemia. He was a healthy active college student and in nine months was gone. He died 1/16/04. I know it has been almost 4 years but I grieve for him everyday. ONly others who have lost a child know that a piece of your soul is missing...I strugg... Sun, 6 Jan 2008 17:52:37 EST My Angels, have birthdays too close at times. My daughter Brandie Alexnadria was born on February 18, 1990 and went to be with the Lord on September 28, 1996. I waited a long time to have another child and I had a son on February 15, 2007. I am having a party for Isaiah on the 16th of February (something that I did not do for Brandie's first). I am in a new marriage and my husband is understanding (as much as he can be). Please assist me with support as I celebrate my son's birthday on the 16th and my daughter's on the 18th.... I know... Sun, 6 Jan 2008 01:03:23 EST Welcome to all new members <BR> Hello and Welcome <BR> <BR> + * JUST * + . <BR> + . . * + . + * . * + <BR> * . + *SPRINKLING.* + . <BR> + . . * + . + * . * + . <BR> + , *YOU. + * <BR> + . . * + . + * . * + .* <BR> . * * + . * WITH.* . <BR> . * + * * + . *+ * <BR> + . HUGS . & . * . + * . <BR> . * + * * + . *+ * <BR> * + .* SMILES * + . + <BR> + . . * + . + * . * + <BR> . * + * * + . *+ <BR> <BR> We're happy to have you with us. <BR> <BR> .•*´¨ ) ¸.•*¨) -:¦:- <BR> (¸.•´(¸ ;.•Gwynn.•*¨)&#9829; <BR> <B... Fri, 28 Dec 2007 18:58:29 EST check this out! Introducing SparkAmerica <BR> <link>Introducing SparkAmerica </link> Thu, 27 Dec 2007 21:24:34 EST Tips foe Dealing with Loss during the Holidays All, <BR> I found this on The Compassionate Friends site and wanted to share. If you find something else you think might be helpful for the group, feel free to post it here. <BR> 1. Emotions need relief and should not be stuffed inside just so others will not be <BR> uncomfortable. Give yourself permission to cry, be sad, laugh, or have fun. <BR> 2. Do not overextend yourself by trying to host a party, or even attend a party or gathering, <BR> just because you have done so in the past. Other... Wed, 19 Dec 2007 11:10:44 EST My Story I just joined this SparkTeam because I wonder if the inability to lose the weight I gained as a result of two back to back pregnancies and my lack of motivation regarding personal appearance/fitness could be due to losing my son five years ago. If yes, then I need the support of others in my position who are also looking to lose weight, regain that motivation and find themselves again. I was divorced with two kids and finally met the man of my dreams. So we get married and decide to have chil... Thu, 6 Dec 2007 16:04:26 EST The holidays can be tough .... Elle299 posted this in one of the other threads: <BR> <BR> ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ <BR> <BR> The holidays can be tough for those of us who have lost loved ones. Here is a place to remember them and share your love for them with others. <BR> <BR> <BR> IN MEMORY OF MY SON: SEAN DAVID <BR> <BR> I lost my Son 13 years ago. I believe that the following is something he would write. I still miss him everyday, but his memory is a light that never fades. <BR> <BR> <BR> To My D... Sun, 2 Dec 2007 18:50:17 EST Life.. Hi all, <BR> <BR> I just wanted to introduce myself quickly. My name is Kathy and i'm 27. I live in Ohio with my fiancee, Jason. I have 2 children Mia and Isabella. Mia is 3 and Isabella died May 2003 at the age of 16 months to Unexplained Causes during a nap. It's also known as SUDC (Sudden Unexplained Death In Childhood) <BR> <BR> If you'd like to learn more about Bella you can view her webpages <BR> <BR> <BR> ... Tue, 27 Nov 2007 21:01:52 EST Bad week This week seems to be getting worse each day... <em>39</em> This Friday would have been our stepsons birthday and the closer it gets to that day the worse I feel. We are suppose to go over to my dad's house Friday evening for our Thanksgiving get together and I am just not sure if I am going to feel up to it or not... Hubby and I have decided that on Thursday we are going to go out somewhere to eat and then we are going to go see a movie... Neither one of us want to spend Thanksgiving day h... Wed, 21 Nov 2007 11:57:13 EST Hello My name is Tabitha and I have just recently joined SP and some other teams and found this one through another and thought I would love to be a member here also. <BR> <BR> I am Mommy to an Angel in heaven and two on earth. Andy is 16, Sasha is 11 and my reason for joining, Christopher would be 14. He was born on November 29th, 1992 and passed away November 30th, 1992. <BR> <BR> We found out when I was 8 months pregnant our baby had a major birth defect called anencephaly, it is in the same ... Mon, 22 Oct 2007 00:15:24 EST A Poem by me dedicated to all of you In Loving Memory <BR> of all of our little <BR> ones and not so little <BR> one....... <BR> <BR> I saw your sweet one's spirit lord, <BR> very late last night, <BR> I was looking at the heavens, <BR> and praying with all my might. <BR> I prayed for peace for their families, <BR> and for strength and courage too, <BR> I asked for their sweet spirit, <BR> to keep on shining through. <BR> I asked the lord to light their way, <BR> to keep them in his heart, <BR> To show us that their ... Thu, 4 Oct 2007 00:52:29 EST Just needing to share with you all I know I have not been on here as much as I should. I am really struggling with home life right now. My husband lost his job that I thought was secure back in May. He is now working again but not making that much money and we are struggling with bills. <BR> <BR> Well after he lost the job his mind has just shut down or something and I am not sure how to discribe it. But he does alot of walking and talking in his sleep. And honestly we fight every weekend. And he does not recall half ... Wed, 3 Oct 2007 11:46:05 EST ~~ List of Birthdays ~~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ <BR> <BR> Below is the list so far of the BIRTHDAYS of our sweet loved ones (by month/day) for anyone who wants to keep track and put in reminders ... <BR> <BR> ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ <BR> <BR> 0122 ~~ Ashley Renee <BR> January 22, 1990 - August 16, 1990 (Sally / ChattieChick) <BR> <BR> 0207 ~~ Carlie Eileen Shelton <BR> February 7, 2000 - April 24, 2000 (Amanda Shelton / AMANDAMOMOF3) <BR> <BR> 0214 ~~ Aaron James Sissel (MamaJo) <BR> February... Thu, 27 Sep 2007 16:32:44 EST Not a good weekend This past weekend was not a good one around here. My husband decided that it was time for us to start going through our stepsons room and decide what we were going to do with everything. We spent most of the day Saturday working on it and part of Sunday. We stil have a little more to do. It is so hard. We donated his clothes to the clothes closet at our church, so I know those items will be put to good use. I am not sure what we are going to do with some of the other stuff, but for now it is ... Tue, 25 Sep 2007 11:15:30 EST ~~ List of Anniversaries ~~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ <BR> <BR> Below is the list so far of the anniversaries of <BR> the days we lost our sweet loved ones (by month/day) <BR> for anyone who wants to keep track and put in reminders ... <BR> <BR> ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ <BR> <BR> 0102 ~~ Miranda Joyce-Marie <BR> June 1, 1986 - January 2, 1992 (Amaya / Sittin' on my Lala) <BR> <BR> 0205 ~~ Jordan Elizabeth Bowering <BR> December 11, 2000 - February 5, 2002 (Teri / TBowering) <BR> <BR> 0322 ~~ Kristen Le... Sat, 22 Sep 2007 21:37:24 EST Calander I was asked if ther was any way to put a calander on this page so that we all know if a birthdate or anniversary is coming. I have sent an e-mail to the help desk, and hopefully they will be getting back to us soon. In the meantime, there is nothing posted for September. If you do have a date in September, please let me know and I will get something started. We do have some in October, I should have an answer by then; if not, we'll just figure something out on our own. Let me know if anyone h... Fri, 7 Sep 2007 02:46:15 EST i hate scales well i have been reading the scale wrong the whole time GRRRRR. so yeah i am only 176lbs right now i hate dial scales i am soooo blonde :) but that means i have to work extra hard now. Wed, 29 Aug 2007 11:47:32 EST New I just found this site about a week ago and today joined children with wings. Just figured out how to post right I think , lol. I have 2 angles, Christopher and Ashley. Christopher was born in Dec. of 1987, and Ashley was born Jan. in 1990. August 16th 1990, changed my life forever. I was only married for 2 years, almost 3 , when a gas stove blew up . My husband was burned over 52% of his body with 3rd degree burns. I am here to try and help other people deal with their greif, and to also ... Thu, 23 Aug 2007 02:15:04 EST I NEED to vent! Please forgive me, but I desperately need to vent somewhere, and I think perhaps you ladies will understand best how I am feeling. <BR> I have 2 living children, ages 4 1/2 and 3. I have them enrolled at a YMCA day camp. My nanny went to pick them up from camp today and she arrived early. They were outside on the lawn by the parking lot, which is unusual for the preschool camp, but since this is the last week of camp and there are less kids, all of the camp groups are combined (which I thi... Wed, 22 Aug 2007 23:07:42 EST Fasting I need prayers for the next few days to weeks. I don't know how long I will be on this fast. It is a fast for the Lord in petition for things to workout financially. Please keep me in your prayers, I've only fasted once and I want's able to do it, but this time I have support. <BR> Any suggestions for success? Tue, 21 Aug 2007 13:19:08 EST Newbie here Hi everyone i am new here to the team my name is vannessa. i have two earth angels Connor and Gabrielle and my angel in Heaven Emmah she would have been one month old today. She was stillborn at 28weeks we don't know what caused her death. but when she was born she was so beautiful so perfect. <BR> <BR> I have a myspace page to see photos of my kids <BR> i have a slide show of my emmah and other pics of me and the kids and hubby can't wait to meet everyone here Tue, 14 Aug 2007 19:12:45 EST Any other SIDS mom here? My name is Amanda and I am 29. My husband and I had boy/girl twins on February 7th, 2000. Our daughter Carlie died of SIDS April 25th, 2000. Since then we have had another little girl and she will be 5 Nov 2nd. I look forward to meeting you all, not just the SIDS moms, and wish you all did not have a reason to be here.... <BR> <BR> Amanda Fri, 10 Aug 2007 17:31:48 EST New Hi Everyone <BR> <BR> My name is Whitney and I have 2 angels I never got to meet in heaven. <BR> The first pregnancy I had when I was 16. I was so young and so scared not sure of what my life was going to turn out to be. My mom took me to the dr to see how far along I was, I knew I missed 2 periods so there was no doubt I was pregnant. The dr did an ultrasound and said that the baby wasn't attached to the wall and though he saw a faint heartbeat he didn't think the pregnancy would last. ... Fri, 10 Aug 2007 15:26:09 EST Celebrating Our Angels In the time since my nephew passed my sister and brother-in-law have turned part of their yard into a memorial garden. I bought a sign that says "Jameson's Garden" they have lined it with beautiful trees and plants, many of which people gave to them for the garden, and put in an arbor over the gate. There's a trellace with grape vines growing up it and solar powered lanterns that flicker like their lit with candles. It's beautiful. My sister is also starting a lending library for families... Wed, 8 Aug 2007 23:59:09 EST Hello. Hi. I already told my story on another thread but in short I lost my nephew a year ago last Sunday. Wed, 8 Aug 2007 23:42:05 EST Challenges I wanted to get a weekly challenge going. If you have any ideas about a good challange, just let us know. They don't have to be physical challenges, or even deal with your diet. I know it is late in the week, but I wanted to get this started. I think it will really help get some of us going. <BR> Let's go! <BR> Nadine <em>104</em> Wed, 8 Aug 2007 00:57:23 EST Help, oh God please, help ... I told you before about my 19 year old grandson Dallas who passed away on July 12th. <BR> We just got a phone call from his mom that her 14 year old son Navarone, Dallas' younger brother, is in the hospital. He tried to end his life and is in a coma at the Pediatric ICU in Tacoma, Washington. <BR> He could not cope with the loss of his brother and his mom being totally focussed on the loss of Dallas. <BR> He is still alive, he is not yet lost, but how will he survive? <BR> Tue, 7 Aug 2007 20:54:55 EST Quotes that inspire I came across some quotes today that truly inspired me regarding this journey I'm one. I will share one or two in this thread and I encourage other to post some of their favorite motivational quotes so that others can enjoy! Tue, 7 Aug 2007 14:32:26 EST Birthdays or anniversarys of children I thought it would be good to have dates available. This will give the team the ability to see who is getting ready to have an anniversary or birthday so that we can be a greater support when it is needed. <BR> If you don't want to post here, that is fine, it is just an option. <BR> <BR> Nadine Fri, 3 Aug 2007 04:01:47 EST Cheating myself and my other children You know how sometimes when people are overweight they ten to avoid mirrors and cameras? Well, I've done that for a long time and I came to a revelation last night... <BR> I'm cheating my other children out of memories. OK-let me explain... <BR> With Nicole, I was young and she was my first born. I have all these pictures of me and her together doing this and doing that. I only had her on this earth for 3 months and 6 days. My other kids are now 13 and 11 and I don't have nearly as many ... Thu, 2 Aug 2007 16:11:45 EST A Poem I found in a Magazine IF TEARS COULD BUILD A STAIRWAY... <BR> <BR> If tears could build a stairway, <BR> and memories a lane, <BR> I would walk right up to Heaven, <BR> and bring you home again. <BR> <BR> No farewell words were spoken, <BR> no time to say "goodbye". <BR> You were gone before I knew it, <BR> and only God knows why. <BR> <BR> My heart still aches with sadness, <BR> and secret tears still flow. <BR> What it meant to love you- <BR> no one will ever know. <BR> <BR> But now I know you want me <BR> ... Wed, 1 Aug 2007 15:28:21 EST A Poem When God Calls Little Children <BR> <BR> <BR> When God calls little children to dwell with Him above, <BR> <BR> We mortals sometimes question the wisdom of His love. <BR> <BR> For no heartache compares with the death of one small child <BR> <BR> Who does so much to make our world seem wonderful and mild. <BR> <BR> Perhaps God tires of calling the aged to His fold <BR> <BR> So He picks a little rosebud before it can grow old. <BR> <BR> God knows how much we need them, so He takes but a... Tue, 31 Jul 2007 18:14:06 EST Ok, some happy news! Well, this is my fourth day here. The first three days of logging my food intake, I went over on my calories. Today, I made it! I didn't get enough protein, and I went a little over in fat, but I made it in the calorie range!!!! Woo hoo! <em>244</em> Thu, 26 Jul 2007 21:53:24 EST Not just weight loss support We are here for a common goal and that is to lose weight and be more healthy but for some of us, we have to overcome certain things in our lives that cause us to over eat. I am a very emotional eater. After the death of my daughter several years ago, I went for days without eating to days that I couldn't put food down. I want anyone who reads this to know that as a team, we can overcome. We can overcome our weight issues but so much more than that. We can help each other deal with the is... Wed, 18 Jul 2007 16:19:38 EST A POEM I Remember That Day <BR> <BR> I remember that day, <BR> it started like all the rest, <BR> What can I say? <BR> I wasn't at my best. <BR> I remember that day, <BR> the hot summer sun, <BR> You just wanted to play, <BR> you wanted to have fun. <BR> I remember that day, <BR> the yelling and fighting and crying, <BR> "Help me dear Lord," I pray, <BR> "don't let my son be dying!" <BR> I remember that day, <BR> my pulse beating wild, <BR> With help on the way, <BR> "Please God, where is my child... Tue, 17 Jul 2007 06:16:39 EST Detailed Story of Incedent On July 2, 2001, I awoke from a nap to find myself in the middle of a nightmare that I couldn't get out of. My house was full of thick, black smoke and is was coming from behind my bedroom door. Fear grabbed hold of me as I remembered my children were in there. I ran in and grabbed them up out of bed. I ran towards the front door yelling at my oldest that the house was on fire. I put the younger two on the ground outside and went back in for Bryce. I went to his room, he wasn't there. I looke... Tue, 17 Jul 2007 06:00:44 EST