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1/8/18 6:35 P

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135 is my goal too. I am at 150 now. Following my eating program, recording all my food, and getting 10K steps 5 days a week. I need to add strength training next.

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1/7/18 9:50 P

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Tired.
Sad.
Unmotivated.
Bingeing.
I am going to wake up to a better tomorrow.


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1/4/18 3:15 P

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167 today = a couple of pounds closer to 135!
The scale made me happy today which is kind of a sad statement. Why do I rely on it to determine my mood, my happiness, my worth? I have considered throwing it away but then I gain weight. I really need it as a tool but I shouldn't rely on it to set my outlook for the day. That shouldn't change.
Wake up grateful for what you have and continue on. The number on the scale is only a reflection of one of many things you are trying to accomplish.

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1/3/18 7:28 P

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Doing better today- although the day is not yet over!
I am seriously strength training which I have never done to this extent. It is usually combined with a run or HIIT so it has been more for toning and injury prevention.
After todays back, chest and biceps session, my biceps felt HUGE. They still feel swollen. Now I have had tired muscles in the past but have never had this feeling like they are "swollen". I am interested to see where this type of lifting takes me.
My husband always says things happen for a reason- maybe this is why I am having the knee issues and having to lay off of running and HIIT?
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1/2/18 6:28 P

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Thanks Becky- It's always awesome to have someone cheering you on!!
I am coming off of 3 bad food days with renewed positivity. I want this so bad i can feel what it will be like. I am not quitting. I am not letting the next year pass by again and be sitting here in January of 2019 vowing to "get it done this time".
No more.
No excuses.
No more letting myself binge. I thought a lot about this in particular last night. Why do I binge? It has nothing to do with being bullied about my weight, or having gone through a bad breakup- all of which I and most of the female population have gone through. I do it because it tastes good, it stops me from fighting the urge and because, most importantly, I let myself. It's just easier to. It's easier than having to fight the urge, to explain to the person offering me food for the umpteenth time that I don't want it (sooooo... you're on a diet- smirk), or to say no to a special treat at Dairy Queen when my husband and I are in town (which inevitably leads to a binge when we get home because I have already let it happen so why not keep going?).
I have to learn to let the urge pass- sit still, close my eyes and reflect on it. I have learned this technique from the book "Brain Over Binge" and I have yet to use it. Why? Because it's just been easier to give in.
No More giving in.

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1/1/18 12:50 A

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sounds awesome
There are days that just ......well just are....not good not bad.
I have found that if I just live the day, & not over think it..I do alot better...
I am at 169. Myself & go back and forth , up & down...
This year will be Great..
Have a great year...
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Remember if you head towards nothing, that's where you will be.!!

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12/31/17 2:06 P

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Holding steady at 169 this New Year’s Eve.
I have decided not to make the 2018 a year of ‘the new me’ as I have in the past.
Me is not so bad- great family, wonderful job and good health. I am in decent shape- just carrying a little extra baggage, weight wise and spiritually.
So 2018 will be a year of improving me.
Going to try out some new ways of coping with my binge/starve cycle and improve my relationship with food.
The rest should fall into place.
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12/31/17 1:30 P

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I know it's hard, one day at a time, I have started over & over again as well...one step at a time & you will find yourself where you want to be...
It's going to be ok... you can do this... remember to breathe ...count to 10. If needed
& try again.....

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12/30/17 11:21 A

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Down 3 pounds

169 this morning- goodbye water weight but I'll take it.
I am already starting to worry about New Year's Eve. I know that I will have some cocktails and this inevitably leads to a carb overload. Only I so don't want that to happen... but I have said that a thousand times before. I hate worrying about food all of the time. ALL... OF... THE... TIME. Since I was 14 years old. What triggered it? Part of it was my mom- I know, if it's not one thing it's your mother. She was very critical of her girls' appearance. I know she meant well, but all 3 of us suffer from food related issues as a result. Then there were some boyfriend comments later on which really led to the starvation phase. Then the job, the kids and the yo-yoing. I am trying to dig my way out but I have buried myself so deep that it sometimes feels impossible.
But it's not, so I will carry on...



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12/29/17 10:31 A

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172 pounds.
The heaviest I have been in forever.
I am really disappointed with myself.
I am so angry that I have allowed myself to be one of the ones that has to “start over”.
Today is not my day one- I have had so many of those.
Not sure what I want to call it other than I refuse to go backwards.

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