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I am so excited to see the scale moving down. Thank you, Spark, for being a place I can say it out loud. I've done this so many times. Trying really hard to keep this streak going. It's not easy.
I am listening to my body when it indicates hungry or full. Today my niece made blueberry muffins and banana muffins, the kind with the yummy crispy tops. She kept asking if I had one yet. I had a banana muffin with coffee at noon when I got hungry. Perhaps not the healthiest choice but I was hungry and I didn't want to hurt her feelings. I will eat a more balanaced meal later today when I am hungry again.
Each day I have a little less pain in the right shoulder.
I am on a roll with eating better. That greatly affects mobility and flexibility. Slightly empty works best for me. I am paying attention to hungry and comfortably full, trying to live somewhere between the two. Winging it rarely works for me. When I start feeling hungry, it helps to know that I will be having a meal soon. I can wait when I have something to look forward to eating. I am not trying to white-knuckle through hunger.
Motivation ebbs and flows. It runs high for awhile. Then comes a period when I feel adrift. That's when I really pay attention to when and how I am eating, and resist falling into munching for all the wrong reasons. Re-focus. Motivation comes back as I stay the course.
Weight loss has been slower than I like, but as IndyGirl reminded me, 2 pounds a week is commendable and healthy. I can't control what the scale says but I can control calorie input. For now, I've put aside stressing over the scale and just record what is. I still like to weight each morning at the same time and record it so I can see what is happening and I can accept little fluctuations or no-loss periods without panic.
Yesterday was my annual mammogram appointment. Long walk through the buildings to reach the department. The technician was very kind and gentle. I cried when I had to put my left arm on top of the machine. Surprisingly, when the technician put my right arm across the top of the machine, there was no pain. That was a surprise since that arm usually hurts the most.
We had lunch at a buffet restaurant. I made up my mind ahead of time that I would eat what I wanted from the salad section before having anything else. Their dessert section rarely has anything I like so I don't even go there.
After a lovely big plate from the salad section, I created a plate from the meat-vegetable section. I hate being wasteful so try not to take more than I can eat.
Only ate 1/4 when I felt myself approaching too-full so stopped.
When I got out of the car at homr, I experienced severe pain in my right shoulder and cried all the way into the house and up the 13 steps. I stayed in the recliner and fell asleep under my snuggly fleece blanket.
Got up for awhile. At 9:30 PM back to sleep in the recliner until 1 AM. Then got up and worked on the computer until my shower at 6 AM. Back for another nap in the recliner after the shower. Awake at 11 AM. Worked on the computer. Had a banana and coffee.
Brother and his wife are back from their winter in Arizona. They stopped by for a visit.
Lunch/dinner was bacon, eggs, and coffee.
Working on the computer. Visiting Spark People.
One of the articles I read was about arthritis, written by a doctor. More articles on pain. One recommended finding a support group with others with chronic pain who could empathize. They also recommended staying positive so I don't want a group that just whines. I checked out the 2-page list of Spark support groups for pain. They all seemed inactive, some more than others, entries back 3-8 years ago. I don't want to waste my time on inactive groups. Already did that. No luck with finding a group but I'll look again another time, maybe from a different angle like arthritis groups, etc.Or groups that focus on being positive.
The articles recommended eating foods that alleviate inflammation. I'll check that on web later. Some mentioned here were leafy greens, foods high in omega 3 fatty acids, low-sugar fruits, and soy products. AVOID nightshade vegetables, dairy, citrus fruits, high fat red meats, and caffeine. I know from experience that sugar badly effects arthritis. Years ago one lady told me she found relief by giving up potatoes. Potatoes are my go-to food when I can't get anything down but maybe I need to research that more. I don't eat them too often, maybe once a week.
Several times I've mentioned looking for exercise I can do with arthritis (and extremely limited mobility). Still need to do that. Maybe some chair exercise. Most seem to focus on lower body. I've had hip replacements. I need something I can do with painful shoulders and arms.
Last night I heard that still small voice (God?) saying to stretch forth my arm. So I've been stretching it out (with support, like a chair arm or counter top or table), instead of holding it bent at the waist in a protective mode. I usually try to stretch it out at intervals to keep it from locking in one position.
I try not to over indulge in tears because that resolves nothing and only makes me feel worse. I try to find inspiration and be positive. I read or quote positive Scripture or other sayings. I pray frequently. I trust in God.
I need to revisit medications with my family doctor but I only go there when I need a script renewed (like once a year if possible). He does not want me taking anything but Tylenol which is totally ineffective and not worth the bother. Celebrex and Motrin work to a degree but they can cause heart attack and stroke or damage kidney. He does not want me taking them. I am a different person when I take them, younger acting and more like my normal self. I do not know this old, pain-riddled, inactive person I am becoming because of health issues.
As far as weight goes, I am on a roll. I have a very long way to go but I'm focusing on the first ten pounds, then the next, and the next...trying to move down one decade on the scale at a time.
I am blessed. I do have a lot of good in my life.
Edited by: ANNIESADVENTURE at: 4/19/2018 (16:23)
I'm on a downward trend, losing pounds again. That's a good feeling. Down 10 pounds since April 7.
Mammogram tomorrow. Every year I say I will weigh less when I go for these regular appointments. It didn't happen this time. Still weigh what I did this time last year. Maybe it will be better next year.
Flooding in my yard is going down a little. Sump pumps still running regularly. Major flooding along the lake. Layer of snow this morning. Snowed off and on today.
I joined IndyGirls Lose 15 by July team on Facebook. I need something to jump start me. She is an encouragement. She encourages you to add healthy foods so the unhealthy will eventually fall by the wayside. It's a positive approach, looking at what you can have instead of what you can't have.
I lost 4 pounds this week, and she gently let me know it's better to keep it around 2 per week for lasting change. She's right. I'm a yo-yo so I gain and lose erratically. I'll see how it goes. I'm putting pressure on myself because I've gained so much weight the last few years that I am in a danger zone healthwise. That's why I'm trying to lose it as quickly as possible. How is that working for me? It's not.
Easter and my birthday both fell in the first half of April. That meant more weight gain. I'm ready to do something about it.
Edited by: ANNIESADVENTURE at: 4/16/2018 (00:47)
Today is Easter. I ate too much. Had ham and mashed potatoes for lunch, then leftover ham and mashed potatoes for supper. Way over on calories. I didn't eat much from the Easter basket. Yay for that.
I drank coffee and water. No pop today.
Reminder to self: I do not like feeling like this. Solidly full. I like feeling empty, clothes loose.
A featured article on the Start page is aout the signs that you are losing weight too quickly. I don't think there is such a thing. Even when I had cancer and lose 40+ pounds the first month, it was because I couldn't keep anything down so quit eating. Everything upset my stomach. Unfortunately, once they got the nausea under control, I ate too much.
I have a small glass turtle on my desk (along with a miniature Energizer bunny) to remind myself that any progress is good...if I can maintain what I lose. So far, I have not done that. Still a yo-yo. This is not working.
Re-thinking it all now. Low carb works best for me but not practical since I do not have access to the right food. The best I can do now it log everything and stay within the calorie range. I need to do a better job at that.
Edited by: ANNIESADVENTURE at: 4/2/2018 (00:12)
This is the third day for logging my food. I do better when I log.
I'm down 1.8 pounds since yesterday morning. Only down 4 pounds for the year. That makes me sad because it was much more. I'm a yo-yo. Why can't I stay the course?
Sis isn't feeling well. She has a breathing problem all the time. This seems to be a sinus infection. Messing with her ears and equilibrium. Pounding headache. Stuffed up head.
She's my caregiver. I depend on her to help me bathe and dress each morning and wrap my legs. I am so blessed to have her and her daughter living with me.
Beth INDYGIRL is one of my friends on Facebook. She has a weight loss group there. She is such an encouragement. Because her posts pop up periodically throughout the day while I'm on FB, it keeps healthy living at the top of my thoughts. She also offers counseling sessions. Not sure if that would help. The bottom line is that I need to do the work. No one else can do it for me.
The one thing that would help is having a cook to prepare the healthy meals I should have every day. I eat what others make. When we did Nutrisystem it was easier to stay on course because the food was pre-packaged in individual servings.
Edited by: ANNIESADVENTURE at: 3/31/2018 (12:33)
A Spark friend posted this in a blog I read today. I am reposting the link here so I can find it to read again and again and spend time thinking and writing on the steps and what I've received from reading the article. I don't agree 100% with Oprah and Chopra, but the article has some good points to consider and can't be dismissed out of hand.
It's been a couple months since I wrote here. I've not made a lot of progress this year. Down less than 10 pounds so far. That beats gaining!
I haven't been feeling well. That's scary because I don't know how serious it is.
My appetite has slowed down this week. I will try to stay on this track and build on it. I'm logging nutrition. That always helps me be more mindful of all those little bites.
You would think I would lose a lot of weight since I have trouble feeding myself with arms that don't work properly. The hardest part is raising a glass to my mouth or even holding onto the glass.Straws are wonderful inventions.
Yes, I feed myself. Sometimes someone has to help cut up the food or spoon the food from the serving dish unto my plate since that is painful for me to do. How did I get this old this fast? It was only a few years ago I was caring for my parents and working a full time job.
I have trouble cooking for the same reason. Movement is painful. The pain lessens when I hold perfectly still. That leads to less mobility so I must use joints that hurt. I remind myself that it is only pain. There's really no reason I can't USE the joint. Pain makes me draw back, so if I can embrace the pain, we can get past this. Keep moving.
Today I visited a Hashimoto thyroiditis group on this site because I have Hashimotos. Reading some of the comments made me wonder about a connection between autoimmune diseases and pain.
Golly tomolly horrible day. On top of the usual chronic pain, the pain in my shoulders has been escalating the last three days. Today was the worst. Slow movement. Only stops hurting when I stay perfectly still and don't move. Spent more time than I like in the recliner. I will not let pain control my life. It's only pain. I can still do movement. That means I have to learn to ignore the pain and do the movement. Stop crying so much!
The weight is not budging this month. Only a fool would delude themselves into thinking this is working.
I'd love a salad with fresh veggies. Lettuce recall because of contamination.
Blech, no wonder I felt sick tonight. Over 3000 calories today. What was I thinking? I wasn't thinking about it at all.
Breakfast was ok. Thin rye toast with honey, egg nog before dental appointment.
Lunch was McDonald's: McChicken and double cheeseburger. No fries, shake or anything else.Still over 900 calories.
Dinner was prepared by my niece: Brats with hot dog chili sauce, Mac and Cheese and Mtn Dew. Grandkids were here while their parents worked so this was a quick meal. Grandkids had weiners instead of brats. Felt too sick to eat much of this. Probably a good thing. Switched to just drinking ice water after that.
Edited by: ANNIESADVENTURE at: 1/17/2018 (23:47)
Since the entry 11/17/17, Dentist removed crown and worked on tooth. Then a new crown. Still didn't eliminate pain so had a root canal through the new crown. Then back to dentist for a permanent filling in new crown. Before the happened, the bridge on the other side on my mouth came off. Have an appointment this week for impression, then later a new crown.
It's been an expensive few months with all the dental work! Plus taxes and house insurance and car insurance for the year. Two people who frequently ask me for financial help are both facing eviction. I help where I can but they are going to have to make the changes they need to make to get back on their feet. I just can't help as much as they need. I like helping people but I don't have it now. I was surprised to realize that I really do like helping, even when I used to feel resentment that they always ask for money. We have not done them any favors by cleaning up their messes and not making them stand on their own feet.
We kept Christmas fairly simple.Holiday is over. Tree is down. Christmas cards are here on my desk, awaiting answers for some who wrote letters.
November and December my weight climbed. Not really losing this month. Just wavering up and down on the scale, a few pounds in either direction. Still under the BIG weight I mark in red when I weighed it. The 30 pounds I lost is now down to 10 total. I'm having trouble even caring enough to do something about it. I know mobility is easier when I weigh less. Why do I wait until there's a crisis? Then I try to lose ALL of it at once.That never works.
IndyGirl Beth D. is a friend on Facebook.Seeing all her posts is needling me into moving again.
I gave up spinning the wheel here. It's too discouraging because missing one day makes us start over. Can't let it be so important so I'm ignoring the wheel for now.
Chronic pain is worsening. I've started on small doses of over the counter pain meds twice a day. Most pain medications don't work, and Doc doesn't want me to use the only over the counter med that works because it damages the liver or kidney or something. It doesn't totally take away the pain, but it makes it a little more bearable. How can sitting hurt so much? Laying down hurts. Sitting in the recliner hurts. Standing hurts. I get some relief each time I move, until the pain message reaches my brain. I also get more pain when I move the parts where the arthritis is most centered right now, like shoulders, arms, legs, back. If I can hold perfectly still, it lets up. That's not good for arthritis. Not using those joints will make them worse.
So here it is, almost 4 in the morning. I've been up a few hours. Thinking about going back to bed and trying to sleep again, until the pain makes me get up.
Edited by: ANNIESADVENTURE at: 1/15/2018 (03:48)
No candy, no chips, no pop. No candy, no chips, no pop. No candy, no chips, no pop. It worked well in October and it will work in November. No candy, no chips, no pop!
I try doing moderation in all things, which allows for those three things. BUT frequently, chips and pop are a substitute for a real meal when I can't find anything to eat. NOT A GOOD CHOICE! And candy just packs too many calories in each bar.
Not a good start to the day. I've cried my quota for today. Ready to move on, now that I'm on the verge of a headache. I don't understand why life is so hard. I don't understand why I have to live with chronic pain. I will not complain. I will move on.
Day started bad when I opened the bag my niece picked up at the pharmacy. Doctor has prescribed a new med for anti inflammation and arthritis pain. The pharmacy gave me something for seizures and neuropathy. I don't have seizures, and this isn't for my neuropathy. I can live with the neuropathy. It's more annoying than painful. This prescription is for arthritis pain and inflammation. I checked online to see if this was a generic med to replace the one the doctor ordered. I don't think so. It doesn't look like it has the same effect.
They also failed to fill one of the scripts. It may be over the counter, but they still should have included it when my niece picked up the order.
If I could still drive, I would have gone to the pharmacy to talk to them. Now I'll have to wait until I go out next week for my lab work and an appointment. I'm afraid it will get more screwed up than it already is.
I tried to call the pharmacy. Something happened to their phones. The check out cashier said it switched to restrictions mode so they can't send or receive calls from the pharmacy right now.
It is 2:30 PM and so far I've eaten nothing (except my meds and vitamin). I know I should eat breakfast but by the time I shower and do my morning things, I fall asleep in the recliner for a couple of hours. Then it's too late for breakfast.
Breakfast: hamburger patty or steak cooked in olive oil, bell pepper, onion, 2 oz Cheddar cheese
Morning snack: 1 stalk celery, 1 oz mozzarella cheese
Lunch: ham or pork chop, baby spinach, avocado, ranch dressing
Afternoon snack: tomato
Supper: chicken, baby spinach, bell pepper, tomato, ranch dressing
Just checked the fridge. We have onion, cheese, celery, ham, tomato. We rarely have salad greens since I can't do the shopping anymore. Sis heard me grumbling and was going to run to the store for lettuce. She doesn't get around much better than I do. She said I didn't put it on the list. It doesn't matter what I put on the list. It gets marked off the list anyway. I get tired of making a fuss to get anything I want. My niece does the shopping for us.
Someone put ham in the crockpot. Should be ready by supper. I can make it till then. I need to lose these pounds anyway. I won't starve.
Feeling really out of sorts and cranky today. Good thing most people don't read my journal entries. It's time to surf blogs and get my dose of encouragement and cheer for the day. When I support and encourage others, I encourage myself. Turning this day around right now.
Edited by: ANNIESADVENTURE at: 11/16/2017 (15:00)
Went to the doctor today for annual visit to renew prescriptions. He ordered yearly labs. It's a walk in office. I didn't know the hours changed from 8AM to 9Am so I was there super early. Since it's twenty mile drive, I waited.
Some of us went out to lunch. Sis' birthday today so I planned to treat her. She hates birthdays and doesn't like anyone to make a big deal so she snapped my head off and left me in tears. She's is in a bad mood today. She is tired and not feeling well.
I had a fairly healthy lunch: broccoli, carrots, salmon. It was so colorful and delicious. Coffee drink was higher in calories but I only had one.
I am cold and tired and hungry and feel sorry for myself because I hate being even one of those things, let alone all three at the same time, plus dealing with chronic pain that messes up everything I try to do, even sitting or sleeping.
To top that, my tooth started hurting last night. During the last cleaning, the dentist said he thinks something is going on under the crown (possible decay) so I have an appointment for this Thursday (2 days from now) to have that taken care of. I called today to see if I could come in today. No opening. Do I have Motrin? Of course. Motrin 800 mg makes me happy. So I will be happy the next two days. Happy, happy, happy.
Weight is coming back down after moving up at the end of October and beginning of November. Maybe not being able to eat (because of the toothache) will be a blessing. Does that qualify as a Non Scale Victory?
My mind is exploring everything I can possibly eat that won't make the toothache worse. Nothing sweet. No fruit or juice. Maybe eggs, if I can find the energy to cook this morning. Or maybe I will take a nap instead. I save a lot of calories by napping when I feel like eating.
Edited by: ANNIESADVENTURE at: 11/7/2017 (11:14)
November is not off to the start I wanted but I won't give up. Drawing that proverbial line in the sand. Not perfection, but persistence and forward progress. I have done this before and I will do it again. Back to what I was doing the first half of October with smashing results.Still have almost two months till the end of the year. Wouldn't it be great to hit the next big milestone before setting New Year goals?
Several doctor appointments coming up and I really want to lose more pounds. My family doctor for annual check up and prescription renewal. The oncologist for check up and hopefully another good report. I have several appointments with the dentist to replace a crown, which is the only one that doesn't ask my weight when I check in.
Disappointing myself is a bad feeling. I have not been trying. I have let chips, pop, and candy back into my daily intake, along with other desserts. I have overdone the calories too many days. Carbs are high. Back to where I was in September. I do not want to feel like this. I like to live my days in a way that I will go to bed happy when I review the day. I want to look forward to weigh in. I want to get into the new clothes I bought. I want to feel lighter and be more flexible. I want to improve mobility. I want to handle the chronic pain better. Sugar affects arthritis. Excess pounds make mobility more painful. I need higher energy level. I want to feel good again. I want to feel like my younger self.
October was a good month. On Nov 1 I weigh 31 pounds less than I weighed on Oct 1. Good work for a month. I had great momentum going the first part of October, but lost steam during the second half, wavering up and down over the same few pounds on the scale.
I love New Beginnings. New Years is the biggest New Beginning. The first day of each month is another New Beginning.
October is past and cannot be changed. November is fresh and new. While the pounds lost are accumulative, I put October in the rear view mirror. I view November as a complete 30-day unit, make or break it. New victories. Hopefully not too many failures. I can make November what I want it to be.
Biggest eating pitfalls will be Thanksgiving and the start of Christmas goodies.
I don't see Thanksgiving as being that much of a problem.It is one day out of the month. I don't like being stuffed so won't over eat. We may have pumpkin pie which is not a problem for me. Not tempted to overeat any of it.
Christmas goodies could be another story if I let them be. I control what I eat. Moderation in all things, including Christmas goodies.
My goal for November is to continue no chips, pop and candy. It worked quite well for October until the last week. Not saying I can't flex...but everyday without chips, pop, or candy will be considered a Big-Star Success day. My body will thank me.
My other November goal is to stay within the 1200-1400 calorie limit each day.
Edited by: ANNIESADVENTURE at: 11/1/2017 (17:33)
Another good day, in a strange kind of way. Any day I take pain pills is a good day. Doesn't happen often since Doc doesn't want me to use them anymore. Hopefully when I see him next week he can come up with a better solution to help with the chronic daily pain I live with. It gets worse as the weather gets colder.
I have my potassium level checked every two weeks, so I started today at the lab.
Then to lighting store for 24V bulbs for the post yard light.
Met up with family for lunch. Steak and baked potato. So full!
Home for a nap.
Cosmetologist will be here later for waxing.
Yesterday my niece's 53 year old BIL was taken to the hospital because he felt weak. Had emergency surgery for heart blockage, with less than 10% chance he would survive. He didn't. There is a lot happening now as family grieve together.
thanks. enjoy reading.
I copied this list from a blog by HEALTHYANDFIT27. I wanted to keep a copy in case hers gets deleted or I can't find it. I need to think about this and add to it and make it personal. Maybe change it from just busting a binge but busting anytime I want to eat when I am not hungry. I don't usually binge anymore but I do make stupid food choices when I want to eat for no valid reason. This is where I have been the last couple of weeks. October was off to a dynamic start. I was strong. Weight and inches were dropping. Then I started slacking, feeling less motivated, eating when I wasn't hungry. Nothing major. No binges. Just not the greatest food choices. I ate because someone was cooking and said the meal was ready. I ate when it didn't always taste good to me. I wobbled on how I wanted to proceed. So I've regained about 5 pounds, after wobbling up and down on the scale for more than a week. I do not want to do this. Going back to my strong place where I started this month. Thinking about this list because I see some of the recent pitfalls listed here. Back to mindful eating, eating less, saying No to offers of food that I don't want.
MY PLAN TO BUST A BINGE
1. My binges usually occur because I am tired. Logic and thinking is impaired when I am tired. Go to bed! If I need to wind down do some brain games online or watch some mindless television (there is a lot to choose from here!).
2. Remind myself of what I have eaten already today. Look at my tracker. My binges are not a result of hunger but a reaction to stress or a compulsion (want) to binge.
3. Take a bubble bath. I love to do this! A bubble bath is an indulgence for me!
4. The compulsion want to binge: Why on earth would I want to? I feel horrible after I binge. Binging effects my thinking: I lack clarity and my decision making is poor. It wreaks havoc on my cholesterol levels and blood sugar levels and if I eat high sodium foods my blood pressure goes up.
5. I risk weight gain and not stepping on the scale. Ignorance is not bliss!
6. The food I binge on effects my mental health in a not good way, I feel more negative and the lens through which I view my world is not one of optimism.
7. When I binge I risk not stopping. Is a binge worth this risk? I have more weight to lose and do not want a regain of what I have lost. Lost weight is not found weight!
8. Distract myself with physical activity, de-clutter or house clean.
9. Weight gain means clothes that do not fit. Is a binge worth this? I love my clothes and do not wish to purchase larger sizes!
10. Read this list when the urge to binge occurs. This is my first step. I need a quick go to, that I can implement immediately.
Edited by: ANNIESADVENTURE at: 10/29/2017 (10:26)
Yesterday morning was a happy kind of start to the day, hours spent surfing Spark blogs and leaving comments. Encouraging others and being encouraged.
I read a blog about the difference between wanting it to happen and making it happen. There is strength is just saying, MAKE IT HAPPEN. I am adopting that saying.
Another slogan the same blogger used was calling the colder weather THE WHINING SEASON. So appropriate. I don't tolerate cold. I hurt everywhere when it gets cold. The cold dampness penetrates my bones. I turn into the Tin Man, stiff and rusty and creaky. Everything hurts. The only relief is to hold perfectly still and don't move. That's the exact opposite of what we should be doing. With arthritis, we need to move more, not less. Movement hurts. Staying perfectly still provides momentary respite from pain. So I shall think of this as the Whining Season and keep moving.
Doc has to find me some pain med that I'm not allergic to and that won't cause damage to my body, like heart attack, stroke, liver or kidney damage. I seem to be allergic to every narcotic I've ever tried so I avoid those. I cry every day when I am alone because I hurt.
I feel so good and optimistic and quite like my old carefree self when I take the NSAIDs (maximum dose) that Doc does not want me to take because long term use can damage kidney or liver. I need something I can take everyday.
I read the suggestions at the Arthritis Foundation yesterday about which foods to eat and which to avoid. The Inflammation Diet.
I have osteoarthritis everywhere, not RA. I've had my hips replaced so those work quite well. Can't have more surgery right now because of health issues.
I am hoping things will improve if I get my weight down. I am WAY overweight. My next goals are to move into a lower century on the scale, and to get back to my Spark starting weight. Then I will aim for the next mid-century mark on the scale and set new goals after that.
Edited by: ANNIESADVENTURE at: 10/28/2017 (17:04)
Saturday. Morning is always spent at home as family drops in.
For lunch we had tacos, assemble yourself variety. Ground beef or fish, chopped fresh tomatoes, onions, cooked fresh corn off the cob, green peppers, lettuce, different kinds of salsa and other saucy toppings, all wrapped in a flour tortilla.
I opted for the larger size tortilla because I don't like things falling out when I'm eating. I went with fish and minimal saucy toppings, adding fresh veggies. Still came in over 600 calories. The biggest culprits were the tortilla, fish, and sauce, each over 100 calories or more. My beverage was ice water. Kept munching on sliced pepper.
I read an interesting blog on Whole 30, giving an overview of the program and showing her favorite brands and food to use during the 30 days. She gave some quick tips for busy moms.
Another friend is fond of that program so I've been inquisitive. I reached the conclusion it is not for me. I don't like a lot of rules. It's silly to have to start over with Day one if you make the tiniest of mistakes and eat something your shouldn't, like a food with a forbidden additive that you didn't know it had.
If I could do a plan, it would be low carb because that works for me. As I've stated a number of times, it is impossible to do any rigid food plan when I can't get to the store to buy my own groceries and don't have the energy to prepare my own meals most of the time.
So I will stick with moderation and staying under the calorie limit. It works for me.
It works for me when I do it! I have to add that because I am in a weaker place the last few days. I have had chips and pop which I had been avoiding. The error is in not making a regular meal when I am hungry. Waiting until I am too hungry allows quick foods to fill that gap. Reasoning that it's ok if the calories add up right to stay within the limits. No, it's not ok. My weight is going up and down around that same decade point for a week now. I think it's moving down for a couple days. Then it bounces back up. I want to get back on track and move down. I hurt too much with the extra weight and the colder, damp weather. Making me irritable. I don't want to do this anymore.
Edited by: ANNIESADVENTURE at: 10/28/2017 (16:47)
After being on Spark 11 years, I received my first Popular Blog award. Not sure how that happened since there were only two comments on it. Maybe a mistake?
Weight is bouncing up again. I don't like that. Back to hovering around the same decade marker. Today is official Spark weigh in for me, and my weight bounced above the decade marker after being below for a few days.
I was over on calories yesterday. Choices were not good.
Lunch was a homemade cheeseburger.
Supper was BBQ chips, 20 ounce coke, jello cup, cookie, cheese, and beef Summer Sausage. Yikes.
I've been avoiding chips, pop, and candy. Why now? I am so close to the end of the month (my goal). It was a choice. My choice to eat them. I knew what I was doing.
Back to plan. I am absolutely, definitely NOT regaining all my weight! Me, scurrying back to my strong place and I'm not coming out again.
If I have energy this morning, I will shred and wash some lettuce and bag it for salads. I like salads with crunchy things added, like veggies. I am learning to like vinaigrette dressings instead of creamy ones. I even thought I would try some raspberry balsamic vinegar for a change.
Edited by: ANNIESADVENTURE at: 10/27/2017 (05:30)
Wednesday. Missed a few days here. Couldn't decide whether to do a blog or make another entry here.
It's been a good day. It's a pain meds day because I had a dental appointment. Doc doesn't want me to use the pain meds every day so I only use them when I have an appointment or am going out that day. Most days are spent at home now, especially since I'm not driving anymore.
Had my teeth cleaned this morning. Mostly good until Doc checked closer and said there may be decay under a crown so we will have to remove it and check. That will happen in November. After that I will have a new crown. There goes another thousand dollars. I've been having trouble with food getting caught by that crown and floss the daylights out of it every time I eat. Even after it's bleeding, I still feel like there's food caught there. I use string floss and soft picks. It will be good to have it fixed.
Bad part is that I pay the six-month property tax in December, and all the insurances (house, car, etc) are due in January, so I really don't need a thousand dollar dental bill at this time of year. Oh well, is there ever a good time for it?
After the dentist, we ate breakfast at Bob Evans. Since it was 10:30, we were surprised how busy they were. The waitress said it's like that every Wednesday. She speculated that it's because seniors get paid on Wednesdays. The a tour bus pulled in with a load of seniors casino-bound, coming from Cleveland and going to Soaring Eagle in Michigan.
I ate most of my calories for the day at breakfast. It will work out. I am NOT hungry now. I will probably have a fruit jello cup for supper and come in below my calorie limit. It is so important to eat something satisfying to keep the munchie monster tucked away in the closet. I love low carb but have to be sure to eat protein or something that satisfies. This morning was NOT low carb.
I like the Community Feed here on Spark. The before & after pictures, the one or two lines posted about how far people have come on there journey, are inspiring to me. Before I only saw my circle of friends, going through the motions but not really finding lasting success. I have surrounded myself with people just like me. That is not good, people. Once in awhile I would come across someone here who actually lost their weight and were keeping it off. I would think, why not me? I've been here longer. I've lost hundreds of pounds. The old scale goes up and down regularly, just like clockwork. I can count on it. Well, I don't like that old pattern. I don't want to do that anymore. I am paying too high a price for carrying these extra pounds. How many more chances does a person get?
I read somewhere here on Spark that someone lost her weight by staying within her calorie range. No bells and whistles. No big program. No turning her life upside down. Just stayed within her calorie range. Well, heck, I can do that.
That's exactly what I did starting October 1st this year. The Nutrition Tracker here is easy to use. It does all the work, calculating the results for me, showing how many calories I've consumed, how many I have left for the day.
It is now 25 days later and I have lost 35 pounds. The pounds flew off at first. Then I hit a plateau. For a few days I went up and down over the same 2 pounds. It finally got scary, making me wonder if that was as far as I would get. It can't stop there! I am carrying an unhealthy amount of weight still. I started panicking, wondering what I needed to change. Maybe it was the food combination, maybe it was too carb-heavy, maybe the calories should be higher in the morning and lighter in the evening, maybe I should try intermittent fasting, maybe, maybe, maybe! Maybe my body needed a rest from losing, after losing way more than usual in a short amount of time. I know that is not sustainable. It's not something I planned. I stayed under the calorie limit, and my body decided how many pounds to lose...or not.
After four or five days the pounds started moving again, slowly. So I will keep on with the original plan of eating moderately and staying under the calorie limit. I will try to put my calories earlier in the day and none after supper. I try not to eat after supper because I do not want to let the late night snacking monster out of the closet.
I try not to look at how far I have to go. I focus and how far I've come, and only look ahead to the next couple of goals. Last night it hit me how far I have to go. I had a momentary meltdown. How did I get this big? It happened after my first hip replacement in 2004 and all the health issues and life changes I've had since then. Each change brought on more pounds. I gave up on myself. That's the truth. I gave up on me. Oh, I would try to lose weight. Lose a little, gain a lot. I didn't quit trying. But there were periods of calorie overload.
For my health's sake, I have to lose this weight. It will affect more than my health, but that is my driving force right now. God grant me enough time to do what I need to do.
To post part of this in a blog or not? It's more personal than what I usually post. There will be those naysayers who will say I've lost too much too fast. Hey, when you need to do this NOW, you do what you have to do. I didn't decide how many pounds to lose each week. My body did that once I gave it the opportunity. I don't want anyone raining on my parade. I am finally doing what I need to do. Let me enjoy the rewards.
Edited by: ANNIESADVENTURE at: 10/25/2017 (13:23)
Sunday. My day was different from routine. Had my shower at 3AM. Went to bed after that.
After church, my niece made lunch. Sweet potato, tomato, ring sausage.
Supper was on my own. Ring sausage and jello fruit cup.
Came in under the calorie limit.
It's been an inward struggle tonight with wanting to snack. Still no chips, pop, or candy, woohoo! Tomorrow I will be glad I stuck to my plan.
Wish the scale would budge. Still hovering over the same couple pound, up and down. It's especially unpleasant because it's right at the turning point of being in the new decade on the scale, then back up to the old decade, then back down. I want out of this decade! Persistence. I will not give up.
I think I've hit a mini plateau, being the same weight or just about the same weight for the last few days. I am optimistically calling it a MINI plateau.
I wrote a blog last week , based on the video by Chris Downey that I heard on Spark Coach. He talked about in a world without a scale, how can you tell how well you are doing? Here are some of his points:
Sometimes you are going to do everything right, and the scale isn't going to move. Find other things to motivate you
- Do you feel excited about trying something new?
- Do you have new pep in your step? Do you find activities that once were tiring are easier now?
- Do your clothes fit differently?
- Is your overall health improving?
- Do you feel more positive and energetic? That is a natural by-product of getting healthier.
- Do your skin, hair, and nails look healthier? They can be affected by increased water consumption.
- Do you look forward to working out now?
- Do you crave healthier food and water?
SNOOPYLINKOS added another indicator is "do I feel better, do I look better and with this one, do others notice?"
People have been indoctrinated to think the scale is bad. They will tell us we shouldn't weigh every day because we will get discouraged. That's like telling me not to check my bank balance every day because I will get discouraged. Nonsense! I like to know exactly where I stand.
Am I disappointed when the scale doesn't reward me? In a low key way, yes. If I persist in eating under the calorie range, the scale will eventually catch up so it's not such a big thing that I will quit and throw away all I've achieved.
Am I disappointed when I have those days when I lack pep in the step and things are harder to do again? I live with chronic pain. These last four days (which coincidentally correspond with the plateau) have been horrible. I hurt. I struggle to get up again after experiencing the joy of improved mobility for awhile. I grieve and I cry for those I've lost. It's been a tough few days.
My clothes felt looser. Now I'm not noticing any change. Am I disappointed? Yes. The only thing I see that looks different is that the neck of my dress seems larger and sloppier, sliding off towards one shoulder, drooping lower in the front. I haven't lost enough to move to a smaller size yet. Yes, I have clothes in many sizes here because of my yo-yo weight and inches history.
Do I feel more positive and energetic? Yes and no. I know I am commited to stay the course even when the rewards are few. Enthusiasm wanes when there are few desired results. I haven't lost the feeling of hope that doing this gives me. I never want to go back into that slough of despond where I have given up on myself, like I did for way too long on this journey. I have lost 32 pounds this month. I was bound to hit a plateau as my body rests. It will move again.
The second part of that question: No, I am not feeling as energetic as I did. I will keep moving and stay with the program. I feel more energetic on days I take the pain medication. However doctor does not want me to take it at all. I have to talk about that at my next appointment. Winter makes the pain worse as my body morphs into the tin man and every move hurts. At present I only take the pain med if I know it's going to be a big day, like when I have appointments or run errands. If it's a stay-home day, I don't take them.
Do my skin, hair and nails look healthier? Nothing I can notice. I am drinking water, the same as I always do. Nothing new there. Grooming is a regular part of my daily routine.
Do I crave healthier food and prefer water? Yes. As I've said many times, satisfying this is not easy since I am no longer the cook or grocery shopper. I eat what is prepared. I think this may be part of the fluctuation in my weight loss. I stay under the calorie limit, but...if my diet is higher in carbs, the loss will be less. I will feel more uncomfortable. That may be why I have hit this mini plateau right now.
Is it discouraging when no one notices what I am doing? They have not noticed that I lost weight. They have noticed some of what I am doing.
My niece made ribs for lunch today. As she was wrapping up some of the food to take to my nephew's family, I overheard her say, "With the way auntie eats, this one portion will last her at least two days." She noticed I eat less. I stop when full.
She continues to leave chocolates by my recliner. She never did that before this month. She's done it several times now. I quietly move it to the candy bowl or drawer later since I am doing NO CHIPS, NO POP, NO CANDY right now.
She just came back from delivering the food to my nephew and also visiting her niece's family. She brought donuts. She offered me one of my favorites, an apple fritter. I was reading so I thanked her but said I didn't want to get my book sticky so I didn't want it right now.
It is sweet of her to think of me. I've been wanting them to do that for a long time. They usually don't ask if I need anything so this is welcome.
Am I disappointed that no one has noticed I've lost weight? Yes. I won't tell people what I'm doing because I want their comments to be genuine. I think of those unsought compliments/comments as little gems. I record them in my journal when they happen. Hasn't happened in a long time because I haven't been losing weight regularly in a long time. While I am down 32 pounds for this month, I am only down 13 pounds from my Jan 1 weight this year. That tells you had badly I've done this year!
I will persist. Eventually it will all fall into place. The weight and inches will start moving. The energy level will increase. People will notice.
JENNYNAG posted this in the Community Feed this afternoon: After almost 3 months completely off task, I'm back on it again. Walked over 100,000 steps since Monday - back out in natures gym! Never EVER be put off by a bad spell, if you want it bad enough - you'll do it!
Never EVER be put off by a bad spell. If you want it bad enough, you'll do it!
I hear you, Jenny!
Edited by: ANNIESADVENTURE at: 10/21/2017 (18:02)
Down 1.2 pounds this morning from what I weighed yesterday. Down 32 pounds for October.
For the first time this month, the scale went up Thursday morning from what I weighed Wednesday morning. Not bad, to only happen once this month.
So I'm back into the lower decade on the scale again. Let's see if I can hang on to it this time. As IndyGirl says, Lose, maintain, Don't regain.
From today's Spark Coach visit
"Your motivation is contagious! Share some of your positive energy with others on the Staying Motivated Message Board."
I wrote a new blog about non scale victories, inspired by today's little video by Chris SPARKGUY.
"Today, imagine that your biggest trigger food is sitting on the kitchen counter. Watch yourself pick it up and toss it in the trash without even considering eating it. How does it feel to be in total control over your trigger food? What small steps can you take today to put you more in control of your food cravings?"
I do this all the time. Sometimes I throw it out. Sometimes I move it out of sight.
If something doesn't taste good (even if it is a special treat), I throw it out. My tastes are changing. I don't have to finish it while my brain grapples with the loss of something that once brought pleasure.
My biggest control mechanism right now is my strong will. I have decided to forego chips, pop, and candy now. I have decided to stay under the calorie limit. Have I been tempted? Of course. It does get easier because my brain has adjusted to this new reality. I am also trying to eat more regularly and not wait until I am super hungry. I have menu items in mind for the day so I'm not eating whatever I can find. I don't keep eating when what I just ate didn't satisfy.
I am conquering late night munching by just saying no, and telling myself I will eat again tomorrow.
Down 2.6 pounds today from what I weighed yesterday. Down 32 pounds for the month of October. I dropped into a new decade on the scale this morning!
Lunch at a restaurant. Seafood plate (2 deep fried cod, 2 fried breaded shrimp, 5 breaded scallops), rice, grilled zucchini/squash/onion/pepper, and garden salad. Tartar sauce, cocktail sauce, and honey mustard salad dressing. A little over 1000 calories for the day.
Edited by: ANNIESADVENTURE at: 10/18/2017 (20:17)
Down 0.8 pounds today from what I weighed yesterday morning. Down over 29 pounds this month.
On my own this morning. Sis is visiting a friend with stage 4 pancreatic cancer, rapidly declining.
Lunch was pork steak, baked potato with margarine and sour cream, and 3 bean salad. Over 900 calories.
No one made supper. Since I was so high on calories for lunch, I didn't bother making anything later. I wasn't hungry.
I was low on protein, potassium, calcium, and fiber. I seem to run low consistently in those areas. I take potassium three times a day so I'm not too worried about that, and get my levels checked every 2 weeks.
No pop, chips, or candy today.
I am more than 3/4 of the way through Shauna Reid's book, The Adventures of DietGirl. At this point in the book, she had gone from 350 to 190. She moved from Australia to Scotland and got married. She ran a 5k charity run.
Edited by: ANNIESADVENTURE at: 10/18/2017 (06:15)
Down 1.6 pounds since I weighed yesterday morning. It has slowed some, now taking a week to lose 10 pounds. That's good. Three pounds to go to drop down into the next decade on the scale. Maybe that will happen this week.
It's been sandwiches today. Not low carb.
Lunch was a ham and lettuce sandwich and 3 bean salad.
Supper was grilled cheese on rye with tomato soup.
Didn't make it to a 1200 calories today. I don't want to go too low on calories so my body hangs on to the pounds (thinking it's a famine).
It's almost time for bed and I'm not hungry. I'll eat tomorrow.
No pop, chips,or candy. Chalk up another good day for me. I'm glad I moved the candy my niece had put near my recliner over to the candy dish across the room!
My niece and a friend left for Kentucky today to visit my niece's daughter's family. They'll be back in a couple days.
Edited by: ANNIESADVENTURE at: 10/16/2017 (23:28)
Up 0.2 pounds this morning from what I weighed yesterday. I was withing calorie range yesterday. I ate more than this when we went to Red Lobster and lost 2 pounds the next morning. I think it's WHAT I ate, not how much. Yesterday I allowed in some foods I hadn't eaten this month. See entry below this one. I will avoid them for the present.
It doesn't discourage me. Just makes me buckle down a little harder and stick with the plan.I am losing this weight.
Lunch today was 2 slices of spiral sliced ham, 1 serving of mixed veggies, and 1 slice of leftover onion pizza. I am full! Later I wish I hadn't eaten the pizza. Calories were around 400 which is reasonable for a meal.
I waited to see if anyone was making something for supper. If you've been reading my entries here, you know that too many times after I get something to eat, someone else starts making supper or brings food home. I can't eat another meal an hour or two apart. I get too full.
I was so hungry while waiting for everyone to get home but so proud of myself that I stayed out of the chips and candy. I finally made myself a green pepper sandwich. Delicious. Love the snap and crunch of crispy vegetables.
Came in low on calories. For the first time in forever, I came in lower in sodium, in the middle of the goal range! Someday I have to work on getting fiber up where it should be. It's always low but I'm still regular. I never meet the Spark goal for Fiber.
I expect a loss when I weigh tomorrow. It's been a good day.
Edited by: ANNIESADVENTURE at: 10/15/2017 (23:35)
Down 1.2 pounds since yesterday. Down 27.2 pounds since Oct 1. See, I can have pizza and still lose weight.
Family was here for lunch. I had succotash, ham, and fresh green pepper strips.
Snack was 8 kettle cooked chips.
Supper was succotash, fish sticks with tartar sauce, and 1 Reeces peanut butter cup.
Still within calorie range, just a little over 1200 calories.
I let in two snack foods that I haven't had for awhile: chips and chocolate. I must be on guard about that. It doesn't hurt in moderation. However my goal this month is to get a really good start, leaving behind those kind of foods. I didn't think it through until just now. It was a one time thing.I will stick with my resolve to avoid chips, pop, and chocolate the rest of the month.
I'm pushing to a healthier weight by the end of the year so I may renew that plan and avoid them the rest of the year. While I'm practicing moderation, I know I cannot eat like I used to or even like many others eat. I was thinking of mother's saying that she got from a book, "Others may, you may not." Got that right.
I like where I am right now. I feel good. I can't look at how much I weigh because it's too high. It's not even my lowest weight this year. I have to concentrate on pounds lost and how I feel and how mobility is improving by inches. Long ways to go but I am making good progress now, and I am not going to wreck it. Progress, not perfection. That's not an excuse to be sloppy. I will continue to do what I've been doing: stay under calorie limit!
I had asked my niece if she would pick me up some chocolates when she got the Halloween candy. A few days later 3 fun size Snickers bars appeared on the table beside my recliner. While it has upset me in the past when she changes what I ordered (getting what she thinks is best for me), this time I wasn't upset. I figured it was more of the same, and for once we were on the same page since I am really putting effort into my weight loss now.
Today she came in when I was sitting at my desk and asked if I had another candy jar (beside the one on my desk with hard candies). She had a large,opened bag of chocolate mini candy bars. I said I usually put them in a plastic baggie and keep them in the desk drawer. So she filled a sandwich bag for me.
I don't think it will be a problem because I still have most of the full size Hershey candy bars she got me a couple months ago. Many times I only want one bite of chocolate, not a full bar.
I am in a strong place right now so they won't tempt me. They may even end up in the family candy jar that sits in the middle of the dining room table. Visitors like that. If they know us, they feel free to help themselves.
Edited by: ANNIESADVENTURE at: 10/14/2017 (21:42)
Chicken salad sandwich for lunch.
Pizza and a jello fruit cup for supper.
Came in under calories for the day. Yay!
Higher carbs. I'm living dangerously.
Edited by: ANNIESADVENTURE at: 10/13/2017 (23:20)
Today's Spark Coach visualization:
Imagine stepping on the scale to find that your weight hasn't budged. Instead of immediately reacting with self-hatred and disgust, you remain calm and focus on the positive. What other accomplishments can you be proud of? Use this exercise to prepare yourself to handle this situation in the future.
Geez, has someone been reading my journal entries here? The scale is my guilty little pleasure. I look forward to weighing each morning when I get up. It's a pat on the back, you are doing good! I don't weigh more than once a day.
Likewise, I am a tiny bit disappointed when it doesn't say that. To define what I mean by "doing good": it means I've lost weight since the last weigh-in. It can mean I stayed the same and didn't gain when I have the sinking feeling that I should have gained.
I am trying to get past feeling disappointed when it's a fraction of a pound lost, like when I lost 0.2 one day this week. It happens. It's reality. There may be times when it will go up even when I feel I've done well with eating.
The problem is mental.
Beth Donovan (IndyGirl) wrote a recent blog about why she chose not to have weight loss surgery. She was attending the classes for it and heard the people who had the surgery saying they still fight with wanting to eat when they shouldn't, when they aren't hungry. She thought why should she have surgery to feel that way when she already feels that way. She took a step back to analyze what was going on and came to the conclusion the problem is in the brain, not the fork. That's where the work has to be done to conquer our emotional eating. So true. Our biggest struggles are mental.
Today's question from Spark Coach is this: What other accomplishments can I be proud of besides the scale?
1. I stay under the calorie limit.
2. I get enough sleep.
3. I move more.
4. I get my feet up as ordered by the doctor. Love those afternoon naps.
5. My mobility is improving. It gets a tiny bit easier to get up from sitting position (though I have a long ways to go there).
6. My clothes feel looser.
7. I am not giving in to the late night munchies.
8. I do not feel stuffed and uncomfortable.
9. I am not wasting money on unplanned snacking or high calorie meals.
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I just read some of my previous entries here. On May 29, 2017, I had the same question from Spark Coach. Very interesting. Are we re-cycling questions? Are they wasting my money? Ha.
Edited by: ANNIESADVENTURE at: 10/13/2017 (18:00)
What a lovely surprise this morning. Down 2 more pounds today from what I weighed yesterday. With all the carbs I ate yesterday, I did not expect that.
Down 26 pounds in 12 days. This is so exciting.
My response to external things that I had no control over made my day miserable yesterday. I am not going to do that again. I can't control things what happen but I can control my response.
Edited by: ANNIESADVENTURE at: 10/13/2017 (15:31)
Not feeling good about today. Still within calorie limit but higher than I like. The really bad part is too many carbs.
One slice of zucchini bread for breakfast.
Lunch was prepared by a family member. She asked if leftovers were okay. I try not to make a fuss and eat what is prepared, choosing the best of my options of what is served. The warmed up leftovers were pasta, squash, and fried potatoes and onions. On top of that, she served me two franks which I chose to eat without buns.
We use small plates. They are large for a salad plate but small for a dinner plate. My portions were small enough to fit on the plate. No second helpings.
Supper was a jello fruit cup.
It was a miserable day. I let other things bother me way more than they should have. Then eating like this made me feel sluggish and sabotaged.
We'll see what the scale says tomorrow. Hopefully I will stay the same weight as today.
Down 24 pounds in 11 days. Amazing what can happen when I stay under the calorie limit.It sounds like a lot in too short a time period, but I have a lot of lose so it comes off easier at this end. It will slow down as I get closer to a healthier weight.
More of the same. I am happy to see the weight go down. Loss was 0.2 this morning from Monday's weight. I said I would celebrate every loss, no matter how small. I do not want to see the scale go back up, no matter how small. Today is the test to see if I mean what I say.
Deep down inside I'm a tiny bit disappointed to only see 0.2 of a pound. It makes me feel insecure, like maybe I'm not doing everything I should be doing. My head knows this weight will not fall off overnight. I wish I lost as fast as I gain. Sometimes my losses are jackrabbit fast, then slows down until I give up. Not this time.
I have a little glass tortoise on my desk to remind me slow will take me where I want to go. I started this journey in 2004. If I had stuck with slow, I would have been at a healthy weight years ago. Slow is good. Slow is okay. Embrace the slow and steady. Learn to love slow weight loss.
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I'm a little confused about the calories listed in the tracker for the Bob Evans veggie omelet. The calories listed are the same if the Sparker posted "Bob Evans veggie omelet," or "Bob Evans veggie omelet no jelly," or "Bob Evans veggie omelet with fruit cup and wheat toast with jelly." Not possible. I'm thinking they mean the complete veggie omelet breakfast, not just the omelet alone.
I would rather overestimate calories so it works to my advantage, but there is a lot of difference in calories with just an omelet or a complete meal of omelet, fruit cup and toast. I'm still under calories for the day so I'll let it slide.
I warmed up the rest of the Bob Evans omelet for breakfast.
Family was here for lunch so we had homemade waffles. I didn't want one but decided to not make a fuss and eat what was served. I had one omelet (four squares) with a little butter and syrup and a cup of milk.
Dinner was one chicken breast prepared in the slow cooker.
That's under 1200 calories for the day.
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I am inspired by the short postings on the Community Feed. So many people are actually losing weight. They're not just talking about it. They're not on the lose and regain roller coaster. They post before and after pictures. They tell how much weight they've lost in a specific period. This is so DO-ABLE!
My before and after pictures would be the reverse of what they should be. I've lost and gained so much more weight since I've been here. I want to be a winner, too. I want to look back in a month, two months, six months, a year, and say this is what I have lost. I want to see pictures of me looking healthier.
Why has this not happened? For a smart cookie, this should have been easy.
I can do this. I will do this. I am doing this. No wavering this time. Stay focused. Keep plodding forward. Persistence, not perfection.
Eat real food. Stay under the calorie limit. Move more. Get enough sleep.
Edited by: ANNIESADVENTURE at: 10/10/2017 (22:28)
We ate at Bob Evans today. I had the veggie omelet with rye toast, sausage links and a caramel mocha. No potatoes. I brought most of the omelet home to have another time.
I hadn't planned on having the caramel mocha but the waitress automatically brought it because I've ordered it so many times. I am still under my calories for the day. Everything in moderation.
I am so excited about my weight loss. I know, it's the honeymoon period as I renewed my resolve and commitment October 1 after three bad weeks of gaining.
In 8 days I have lost over 19 pounds. As you can see from my entries here, I am still eating real food, but I am watching total calories.
A short while ago a successful Sparker posted that her success was the result of watching calories, and stopping each day when she reached the limit. She was enjoying the food she ate. It makes sense to me. I can do that, and I am doing that!
We had a fun night out. Companionable conversation, delicious food. Took pain pills earlier so that always makes a better day. The restaurant was so busy but the waits to be seated and waiting between courses wasn't too bad. Our wonderful waitress had only been on the job one week. She was grateful that we were so nice.
I changed my planned menu for last night. My niece told me I needed to forget about calories for one night. I can't do that but I did flex a lot!
I didn't eat breakfast or lunch so I would have all the calories for Unlimited Shrimp night at Red Lobster.
Red Lobster Minute Maid light lemonade, 30 calories
2 Cheddar Bay biscuits, 150 calories each
Garden salad with vinaigrette on the side, around 70 calories
Tomato mozzarella Caprese, 120 calories
Shrimp linguine, 670 calories
Shrimp Scampi, 470 calories
Coconut shrimp bites, no calories listed on the web site so I estimated calories.
Nashville hot shrimp, 390 calories
Unlimited Shrimp portions are smaller than their regular entrees because they expect we will order more than one of the small servings.
I used very little of the vinaigrette. I didn't finish the linguine. I shared the different shrimp dishes with others at the table but still counted the full amount of calories in the tracker since I ate most of it. I would rather overestimate calories than delude myself by understating calories.
Way over on total calories for the day. Carbs were only 52, and I think that is what saved me. None of this was heavy. A fairly light meal for that amount of food.
This morning I was down 2.4 pounds from what I weighed yesterday morning. I am down 16.6 pounds from what I weighed Oct 1 (one week ago today).
I am in a strong place right now. I realize the weight won't always come off this fast. I'm trying to look at the big picture and be satisfied with single pounds so I won't be disappointed. Each pound moves me closer to a healthier weight. I can feel it in my mobility already. Still a long way to go! I will stay on this path.
Edited by: ANNIESADVENTURE at: 10/8/2017 (15:45)
I gained weight during the last trip up north in Sept (like I usually do every month). Thank goodness the trips are done until April after we get past the winter weather. I also continued to gain AFTER I got home. My weight is dangerously close to my highest weight. That severely affects mobility and physical pain.
I jumped back on plan on Sunday, Oct 1. Today is Friday, Oct 6. I've lost 13 pounds in 5 days, just by watching my calories.
Tomorrow we plan to go to Red Lobster. On their web site it appears that it is still shrimp fest. I look forward to that each year. However, they have changed their choices. The shrimp scampi is the only one that looks good to me. One helping in over 400 calories. So I think my choices will be:
Tomato mozzarella caprese 120 calories
Salmon New Orleans half portion 680 calories
Broccoli 45 calories
I get one more side. They don't list their sides on the online menu so I will wait to see what options they have after we get there.
My niece is disappointed because she was counting on trying one of everybody's shrimp (from shrimp fest option). I do get one skewer of shrimp with the salmon that I will share.
We went out for breakfast. Had a late lunch/dinner at home.
It's been a good day. I live with chronic pain, frequently intense pain that brings tears and limit motion. There are a couple of medications that work for me but regular use can bring scary side effects. Why don't they tell you how common those side effects are? I can almost live a normal life (without tears) when I use them. For now, I won't use Celebrex at all because it can result in heart attack or stroke. The other one (NSAID) I use sparingly because it can damage the kidney. Fluid retention is a side effect. I already fight that, taking water pill, using compression wraps on my legs, and elevating feet every day. But when I use that medication (anti-inflammatory, and blocks pain messages to brain), I have a better day.
I once told the nurse it must have uppers in it. She said no, that's how it feels when you don't have pain! I feel lighter, hopeful, able to do so much more when I take the medication.
Today I started exploring the internet for other options. I was looking especially for natural supplements but I got sidetracked when I saw an arthritis diet. It's really just a healthy way to eat: fruits, vegetables (especially greens), nuts, seeds, beans, olive oil, green tea. Oatmeal, brown and wild rice, beans, barley, quinoa, peas, lentils. Brussel sprouts, cabbage, and broccoli slow the progress of OA and destruction of cartilage. Garlic, onions, leeks. Cherries are the best fruit. Red and purple fruits like strawberries, raspberries, blueberries, and blackberries. Calcium rich foods. Green leafy vegetables. Shellfish, tuna, salmon, and mackeral, cheese, and egg yolk.
Avoid beef, pork,lamb, most seafood, meat based broths and gravies, sugar sweetened drinks and foods with fructose, alcohol (especially beer).
We don't get enough vitamin D from food sources so another source is sunshine. Our bodies can make 10,000 u of vitamin D in just 15 minutes of unprotected exposure to sunshine. I have two medications that warn against exposure to direct sunshine. Small amounts don't seem to bother me but when I used to work on the flower beds, I would start feeling nauseous and wondered why.
So much more to research, especially for what I started looking for today. What did we do before the internet?
Edited by: ANNIESADVENTURE at: 9/4/2017 (20:52)
Here's the facts, Jack. I've been here since 2006 and am officially down 26 pounds. That's a little over 2 pounds a year.
Truth is that I weight 76 pounds more than my Spark starting weight. I changed my ticker to reflect my highest weight in the 12 years I've been here. That means I was 88 pounds over my Spark starting weight at one point during the last 12 years.
I joined in 2006 because I gained weight during a year long recovery from major surgery in 2004. Every surgery or illness since then has seen more weight increase. Having cancer in 2015 was the only time I lost while ill.
I've lost hundreds of pounds. Been on the lose-regain merry-go-round forever. Can't keep the pounds off. Getting harder to stay on track. I won't give up. I stay here and keep trying.
My little breakfast (made by my niece) packed a ton of calories. Small portions. Still should be ok calorie wise for the day. Still have a little over 500 calories left. We usually only eat one or two meals, then get what we want when we want it. That part I can control.
Down almost 3 pounds since yesterday. Love it. Back to what I weighed when I came home from up north earlier this month. We'll be going back up north in 8 days so I would like to drop a few more pounds. I only gained 3 pounds last time on vacation. That's good for me. Eating restaurant meals for the week adds pounds. I did good last time because I chose salmon and lots of salads. Breakfast can be heavy but if I avoid the carbs I do all right. I wish breakfast could be what I want, like I eat at home. Home meals don't come with bread and fries and things I don't need. If I could pick the meat and vegetables out of the restaurant meals and leave everything else. However, since they still charge me for it, I feel I have to take it, even if I have them put it in a box for later. I simply don't need those extra calories. My frugal penny pinching self is going to pay for them and throw them out, even thought it goes against my upbringing and rules I live by.
This week I've done well not to eat at night, except ice water and a few hard candies to suck on. I've thought about it but decided I could wait to eat until the next morning. I think that is why the pounds are going down again.
I'm reading Diet Girl's book. She followed Weight Watchers. I don't like points. Too complicated for me. I'd rather enter the food here and look at the calories. SP does all the work. However, the book is inspiring me to stay the course. She was big like me, lost the pounds slowly, stayed consistent. In the book, she just reached the 200s. Major milestone from where she started.
Her sister was following the plan with her. They lived together so that made it easier. Planned the menu together.Shopped together and ate together. That's what I like about menu plans. I just follow the plan, don't have to think about it. It's hard to go to the kitchen and try to make something from whatever I can find. Never can find anything I really want to eat. Don't have the energy to make something from scratch. I've used cheese for protein. I need protein for satiety. Sliced tomatoes or cherry tomatoes are easy. Fruit is easy. If I make tuna, ham, or chicken salad, then I'm tempted to use bread or crackers. That's not a bad option if I go by calories. It's a bad option when I aim for lower carbs.
Edited by: ANNIESADVENTURE at: 8/30/2017 (11:29)
Thank you, ANAH_ACE for visiting and leaving a comment. I see the cherries on your profile picture. This is a good time of year for fresh cherries. I am really enjoying them.
I heard someone say recently that he sets goals for the year, for the month, for the week, for each day. That intrigues me. Need to be more goal focused, especially day by day, hour by hour if necessary. Yep, I like that idea. Goals move us forward to where we want to be.
Congratulation on your weight loss!
sophrosyne (n.) a healthy state of mind, characterized by self-control, moderation, and a deep awareness of one's true self, and resulting in true happiness.
Slippery roller coaster. Down a couple pounds, up a few more pounds. I know what to do to stop this. Stay within calorie limit!
We ate lunch out yesterday. That usually puts me over on calories. I had what I wanted. Salad, fish, broccoli, onion rings, coffee. I only ate 3 onion rings out of 7 on the plate. I brought most of the broccoli (plus Sis' serving too) home and had that topped with cheese for supper.
Restaurants pack so many calories into even ordinary food. I need to conquer this. Vacation coming up Thursday. Restaurant meals every day. I gain weight every vacation, then spend two weeks after I get home taking it back off. Since we go up north every month, this is not a good practice. It frustrates me.
Edited by: ANNIESADVENTURE at: 8/8/2017 (05:07)
Another twist the last week or so. I go up a few pounds or ounces for a couple days, then have a nice drop...eating the same way the whole time.Is this the new pattern? It's hard to see any gain after I finally drop into a new decade on the scale, then wham, back into the old decade the next morning. I'd rather stay the same or only lose ounces at a time rather than go back into an old decade that I'm trying to leave forever. Gripe, gripe. We don't always get it our way. Still celebrating that the general progression is a downward trend. Love, love, love it.
I'm in a good place weight wise, happy to have been losing steadily. That said, the last few days I am at a teetering point, higher in calories, allowing munching that I was not doing before. This is a dangerous time. Time to make that decision again that I AM doing this and stop allowing distractions. Put the blinders on. Keep on with what I was doing. Ramp up the motivation and will power. Repeat healthy behaviors again and again. Don't let this slip away.
I've had several good days. I like feeling lighter. I like moving better. It's easier to get up with each pound I lose.
Thursday I felt the best I have in a long time. I moved so much better. I got up from chairs on the first try. I wondered if it was the result of the recent weight loss or if the pain medication I took that morning. I only take the medication when I am going somewhere or will have an active day (which is rarely).
Thursday was my second appointment this go-round at the Wound Care Center. Legs are less swollen. They reapplied the triple wraps. I love the cotton batting they put on first...so soft. She said it's like what quilters use.
I am so doing this! It's fun when the scales move and the inches fall off.
Down 18 pounds for July (some water weight from abnormal water retention). Good.
Down 12 pounds for 2017. Not so good because it should be more if I got off this lose-regain rollercoaster and hung on to every loss. But it's still 12 pounds that I didn't regain and am no longer carrying.
Down 40 pounds from my highest weight. That's reason to celebrate.
I am currently on a roll. That started after I got back from vacation July 19. My weight had shot up 10 pounds during the 5 days of vacation (water retention, legs swelling). I lost a little over 20 pounds in 13 days (from July 19 to the end of the month). Some of it was losing the excess fluid. Some of it was sheer hard work.
I'm trying to be more strict with eating. That is hard to maintain. Mother had a saying, "Others may, you may not." That about it sums it up. I hear others snacking throughout the day and night. I can't do that. Late nights will always be a problem area for me. I keep my ice water with me and if I need anything, have a hard candy to suck.
I REALLY have to do this for my health's sake. Every pound lost improves mobility. Hitting the milestones (going down on the scale and in size) is an emotional load-lifter, sun peeping through the clouds. Having a rare day now and then when I feel thinner, taller, and lighter makes me remember how it used to be before I gained weight with every life change and medical issue.
I may never be the person I used to be but I can be the best for this age and time in my life. Who knows? Maybe it will even be better than before!
Edited by: ANNIESADVENTURE at: 8/2/2017 (14:05)