Since you have come here for help, all is not lost dear. Some don't agree, but I feel to some people food is a real addiction. Like all addictions you must have support and places like Over eaters Anonymous might work for you. You must seek professional help as soon as possible. Do you have family or close friends you can tell about this? Have you ever joined a group like Weight Watchers or TOPS (take off pounds successfully). These are sometimes enough support to change your attitude about yourself and life. You can't do this alone right now. I hope you will get the help you need.
If Not Now, When!
Pounds lost: 6.0