I just read your post. Sorry to hear that you're struggling. Please don't feel ashamed and don't let shame stop you from seeking support.... You never set out to make poor choices did you? Weight loss / weight control is very hard and even harder if you deal with depression. Be kind to yourself.
You comment about endless clouds sparked a thought. I have noticed that my mood is soooo much worse on cloudy days this winter.
One thing that helps is to get outside during the daylight. A short walk can be tremendously helpful.
Depression is insidious. Many diseases help you get better. If you sprain your ankle, the pain helps you remember not to put weight on it. When you have the flu, the fatigue helps you to rest. When you are dehydrated, the thirst reminds you to drink. But when you are depressed, you want to do all the wrong things - eat junk food, lie around on the house, avoid other people, when the things that help are eating healthy, doing outdoor exercise, and connecting with other humans.
Posting here is you asking for help - you are taking action to make your situation better. Rant all you want. People will reach out to help you.
"There's treasure everywhere." Hobbes, in Calvin and Hobbes
Yes, I have bouts of depression as well. I always try to focus on the positive and have affirmations to help me along the way. Some examples are: even small steps forward are moving towards your goal I need to turn Can't into can
Struggling and depression are the hardest things to go through, I have been in a very similar place several times. I wish I had some great words of wisdom but unfortunately I don't. Just do your best and get yourself moving. I brighter days will come.
I was depressed a few years ago. I had brain surgery, came out a different person. Well 90% the same, but 10% different.
I lost my spending inhibitions. My emotions were a mess. My judgement was bad. I'm lucky I have all my fingers. I got depressed because I had lost the old me. Where did he go?
I struggled with finding a new place. I looked the same, but inside I was different, and I knew it. I just wanted to lay in bed all day. I couldn't wait for bed time, but dreaded the next day.
How did j get out of that? Just by getting out of the house and doing things. Anything. Going to the gym is one such thing. It's important for you to do that. Seeing other people. Talking, even if just small talk,
Thanks for your helpful advice and support. The irony is the best medicine for my depression has always been exercise! Just need to remember how good I feel after I work out! Small steps, day by day. Will have to not be so hard on myself. The stuff I say to myself about myself, I would never dare say to anyone. Funny how much compassion I have for others, but little for myself.
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We've all been in your shoes. You can't beat yourself up because you're not exercising or eating right. That was the past. You can't change the past, but you can influence and change the future.
If you know you don't want to live this way, you don't have to do a lot to restart. As I tell all new members,"don't look at good health with an all or nothing mentality". if the only healthy thing you did today was drink 8 glasses of water, that's still a step in the right direction.
Are you getting help for your depression ? Are you talking to a therapist or you doctor ? You could have the best intentions to want to do the right thing, but the depression makes you do something else. If you haven't talked to your doctor in a while, start there. set up an appointment. get a full physical. talk about your depression. if you're on meds, ask for a new prescription.
Will you talk to your doctor about how you've been feeling ? You've reached out to us, now it's time to reach out to your doctor.
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Depression and the effects can be a very debilitating and can be like a merry-go-round, but without the 'merry'.
I am quite concerned by some comments you have made, and one is that you have difficulty in asking for help.
I understand the disappointments having some impact on this, but you really NEED to ask for help to properly overcome the depression. Your Dr is the first person you need to talk to. If he/she doesn't listen, get another Dr. I have suffered from extreme depression and can quite honestly say that talking to my Dr was the best thing I could do. I was put on medication which reduced the severity. Without that conversation, I doubt very much I would be here now. He helped me heaps. I was also referred to a Psychologist and she helped me immensely, too.
Because of some things that happened to me, which actually lead to my depression, I had become very untrusting of all health professionals (except my GP) - even tho' I had worked among them for many years. I had to learn to trust again, and it took time, but I trusted his judgement and the various people he referred me to.
One thing my Psychologist told me was to 'avoid avoidance'. She said that when you actively avoid something that you KNOW needs to be done or places that you need to go, then all it does is make the effects and anxiety worse. You are actually feeding into it. Her prescription for me with regard to that was to regularly go to a cafe for a coffee, and preferably the same cafe and around the same time of day. The reason for this was that the staff would get to know me as a regular and greet me and talk to me more as a friend rather than just a customer. I began to notice that there were others who would regularly be there, too, and in time it became easy to talk to them. It kinda became an event to look forward to.
Having said that, I am NOT saying that this example applies to you, but rather how 'avoiding avoidance' can benefit you.
Nutrition is another very important aspect of mental health. Without a good balanced diet, you are not feeding your body enough to deal with these things. Some foods that can be particularly helpful are nuts - especially walnuts - leafy green veges, and oily fish.
By learning to eat more healthily you will likely find that the way you feel about yourself will improve, as will your weight and health.
The same with exercise. Regular exercise can help improve depression, and will also improve your overall health. I get the bulk of my exercise by putting my groceries and laundry away one at a time (because of skeletal issues and fatigue related to a head injury)
Don't ever be ashamed over what has been, because that can't be undone, but you can start to make gradual choices to improve your health, and then you will be very proud of what you have managed to achieve.
In summary, here is what I suggest:
* Make an urgent appointment with your Dr, and among other things, ask for a referral to a Therapist. Your Dr will also be able to do a full medical to see if something like hypothyroidism or PCOS could be impacting on your weight and emotional wellbeing.
* Gradually improve your nutrition.
* Start with baby steps for your exercise. A walk around the block will help to clear out the fog in your brain, too.
Really stuck in the past year Low motivation I used to be good at having a routine with the gym- but I lost this routine and have found it hard to get back I am in a chicken and egg situation with my physical fitness and depression Both affect each other I have had difficulty asking for help as I have had a lot of disappointments in my life My nutrition is poor I am feeling overwhelmed and stuck in my weight and health I hate being fat This self-loathing is crippling me
I am not sure why I am ranting I don’t really have a question Maybe I am just letting my feelings out I have been avoiding SP for months Too ashamed at my poor choices to be accountable
Sigh Looking for a silver lining when the clouds seem endless