Friday, December 20, 2013      2 comments

I gotta get my life together. Lord, help me.... Read more
Insert Clever Blog Title Here... Teehee!
Friday, May 10, 2013      5 comments

OKAY. So, here's what's new with me. --I am officially a college graduate with a youth ministry degree. (and nope... haven't found a job for that yet haha) --I lost a dear friend of mine on the 27th of April. Josias Rodriguez die... Read more
Going Wrong but Going On
Thursday, April 11, 2013      1 comments

So. I fell. Hard. I have gone back and forth when it comes to being motivated for weight loss. I've watched Jillian Michaels' show, "Losing It" on YouTube for awhile now. So much emotional pain has driven their needs for food and satisfacti... Read more
Where'd I go?
Sunday, December 30, 2012      7 comments

I miss you so! Seems like it's been forever... since I've been gone. (sung badly to the tune of an old song) I miss you guys... I need SparkPeople back in my unhealthy, unfit, unmotivated life. Lord Jesus, help me!... Read more
Desperate times call for drastic measures!
Wednesday, September 26, 2012      3 comments

I am a food addict... but only when I have the money to be one. Over the summer? I was good! I didn't have money and I didn't have a car or access TO a car to run out for food runs... But school has started, the boyfriend gave me a ... Read more
VICTORIES come in small packages!
Saturday, August 25, 2012      4 comments

When I say small packages, I mean “I realized my shirts feel a little looser and my pants don’t squeeze so tightly.” my scale is at home and I don't have one for my own personal use) … but I know my clothes are fitting a little better, and tha... Read more
I am 21 years old and I am a WOMAN!
Saturday, August 11, 2012      5 comments

So, random fact about Monica: I'm an adult trapped in a teenager's mind. Hard to explain. But, basically, I have borderline personality disorder. (Don't look it up... you'll think I'm crazy). I struggle daily with negative thinking ab... Read more
If the zipper won't come up...
Tuesday, July 31, 2012      9 comments

I was at my Aunt’s tonight trying on my bridesmaid dress for my friend Rachel’s wedding when my aunt said something that hurt. Really bad. It was so simple, yet it so pr... Read more
The results!
Tuesday, July 24, 2012      6 comments

So, basically I have three problems. --Possible blockage in the heart. (was referred to a cardiologist... appointment to be set up soon) --hypothyroid problem. I am now on a medication for that. --High cholesterol. I am on a low-chole... Read more
Today is the day.
Tuesday, July 24, 2012      2 comments

The doctor's office called yesterday. They wanted me to come in two weeks early to go over the test results from the blood tests and heart monitor. So, in about two hours, I will know what's going on... I'm crazy nervous. Trusting in Go... Read more
Just slap my wrist and call me MIA!
Thursday, July 19, 2012      5 comments

Yeah, lame entry title... but it fits! I need a slap on the wrist for my actions lately! I have worked out very little and given in to cravings quite often. And I've been MIA from SparkPeople for awhile now ;) Here's an update... I fin... Read more
Any progress is still progress!
Thursday, June 14, 2012      1 comments

My last few blogs have been about the depression I have been facing and about having to find motivation to lose weight. While it has been a CHALLENGE, I am pushing forward as much as I can :) Yesterday got kind of rough because of a "fig... Read more
Gotta Start Somewhere.
Sunday, June 10, 2012      3 comments

I realize what's going on. I'm not sure how it wasn't obvious before, especially as I wrote my last blog. I feel like I might be slipping back into depression. It wasn't obvious until my break down today. My break down that came out of the b... Read more
Satisfaction Guaranteed?
Saturday, June 09, 2012      1 comments

Lately, I have not been happy with myself. Both mentally and physically, I have just been unsatisfied. I can't stop beating myself up mentally through negative thinking and physically I can't stop stuffing my face with food that will "comfort ... Read more
All I Can Be
Monday, June 04, 2012      2 comments

The day I couldn't bend over to tie my shoes was the day I realized how disgusting I felt. Then, I found out I weighed more than my mother. These two events are the reason I am on SP blogging right now. I realized I was at my top weight ever ... Read more