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eight month anniversary
Monday, July 28, 2014      1 comments

Today was the eighth month anniversary of my husband's sudden death. I went out today a meetup event today and signed up for a week trip to the British Virgin Islands. There is only one spot left, so I hope I get it. I miss Ken a lot, but I am s... Read more
Missing you tonight
Wednesday, July 16, 2014      1 comments

Sunday I won an award as the Alumni of the Year. I had to give a speech. It started with the people that I wanted to thank. Of course, I could have never made it through my landscape architecture program without your undying support. But I knew ... Read more
Life should be good-just venting today
Sunday, July 13, 2014      2 comments

I should be in a great mood. Last night I went to a big community party. I line danced and played 21 with fake money. Won many prizes. It was fun. But I miss my husband. He would have danced with me. Today I am winning an award at my colle... Read more
It's been 7 months of grief
Monday, June 30, 2014      3 comments

I would like to begin daily journals, but it is difficult to do anything lately. Seven months ago my life changed completely. Tonight I sat in the parking lot and cried, hoping no one would see me. I keep thinking this pain will stop some day. A... Read more
How is life after loss? Update over 5 months after his sudden death.
Wednesday, May 07, 2014      1 comments

It's amazing how the road of grief is not consistent. Emotionally the past few weeks have been tough. I think I am coming out of my initial numbness. I have not gone through any of his things yet. Can't get myself to do it. I was thinking about... Read more
Four months past the loss, where am I today?
Sunday, March 30, 2014      6 comments

March 27th it was 4 months since my husband died suddenly. I have experienced a range of emotions, often many each day. But it's getting a little easier. I just can't believe sometimes that he is gone. I have started taking better care of m... Read more
Looking at the present and the future, not just the sadness
Saturday, March 15, 2014      2 comments

While I miss my husband, Ken, with all of my heart, I also want to live not just survive. It has been almost 4 months since he passed away suddenly. I am through the shock pretty much, definitely grieving, but also working on my future. I ... Read more
March 13, 2014
Thursday, March 13, 2014      0 comments

My morning has been fairly uneventful, organizing the back yard, reviewing mileage for my taxes. I missed breakfast. Eating is a little better that in the past.... Read more
Eating away the pain
Wednesday, March 12, 2014      1 comments

Today I was busy, but started the day with careful eating. However, the evening was another story. Missing my husband, and the disbelief that he is really gone, that I will never see him again, seems more than I can bear. I turned to food, even ... Read more
Another sad day
Monday, March 10, 2014      5 comments

I had a pretty good day yesterday. A friend and I went to a concert at the beach in Dana Point. It was fun. Then I had dinner with my grandson and his girlfriend. But in the evening while I was preparing for a client meeting, I was reviewing pic... Read more
If I believe in my goals, I can influence reaching them
Saturday, March 08, 2014      1 comments

My trainer said that I could be at a healthy weight, I can be fit, I can be sexy even. First I have to believe that I can reach those goals. So here goes my affirmations: I will be a healthy weight within 12 months I will be fit, having a... Read more
Day 2 at the gym, good to be back.
Sunday, March 02, 2014      1 comments

Yesterday was my first real day back at the gym since my knee replacements and my husband's sudden death. I went once before, but... So today I went back. Yesterday I did 20 minutes on the elliptical, heartrate to 145, then 15 minutes on th... Read more
Trying to be Happy this March
Saturday, March 01, 2014      1 comments

While it has been 3 months and 2 days since my husband died suddenly, I have many things to be grateful for. I am much closer to my son than I have ever been in our lives. I have relationships with all of my children and grandchildren. I have 2 ... Read more
New Start, Day 1, missing my husband
Tuesday, February 25, 2014      2 comments

I finished my colonoscopy so can return to my normal eating. I woke up today with swollen fingers and knees, tired. I know yesterday was tough on my body, first fasting and taking the prep for the procedure, then "treating" (actually hurting mys... Read more
What a way to lose weight! Colonoscopy tomorrow, liquid diet today.
Sunday, February 23, 2014      1 comments

January 1 I weighed 235. Now I weigh 241.4. Going the wrong way this year. My excuse is losing my husband suddenly less than 3 months ago, and 2 knee replacements in the last 5 months, but I do not want to continue this trend. No more excuses. M... Read more

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