love lost
Thursday, July 30, 2015      22 comments

remembering loss. Me and both Joe's got married on feb 14.1977 and 1996,and also again on june 3 2013. Today, as opposed to the past when I pathetically drank away my blues...I can face them. Be sad if I need to be, without falling apart. Be... Read more
domestic viloence
Tuesday, July 28, 2015      25 comments

domestic violence After I left DV I was so relieved and so happy I wasn't killed. Now I almost wish he did kill me because the agony keeps getting worse. I mean like being suicidal and in terms that each day I discover another way in which DV... Read more
feeling overwhelmed
Sunday, June 21, 2015      19 comments

feeling overwhelmed I'm so tired today! Tired of trying so hard, to keep moving forward, to think the right things, to not miss...ect ect! My life is lonely. Nobody looks at me and says I love you. How do I keep going through this everyday?... Read more
Thursday, June 18, 2015      23 comments

I GOT OUT ALIVE: "Why did you stay?" It's my least favorite question. No matter how nicely someone askes me, with their tilted head and sad eyes, it still sounds derogatory. It's my fault. Yes I stayed, more times than I can count. I stayed af... Read more
still fighting
Tuesday, June 09, 2015      20 comments

still fighting !!!!! At the end of the day when I crawl into bed and all the lights go out, my thoughts can finally rise to the surface. Yes I’m a little bruised, slightly broken, and permanently scarred but I’m still here, I’m still fighting, I... Read more
goodbye heartache
Saturday, June 06, 2015      19 comments

goodbye heartache!!!!!! I feel compelled to share it with the rest of you, in the hopes that you will see that there is life beyond heartbreak. I truly pray that it will help. TRIGGER WARNING: I once fell madly in love with a man who hurt me ve... Read more
Friday, June 05, 2015      9 comments

⁀‵⁀,) .`⋎´ ¸.•°*”˜˜”*°•. ... ¸.•°*”˜˜”*°•. ...•°*”˜˜”*°• live today,Don't depend too much on anyone in this world. Because even your shadow leaves you when you're in darkness. People hurt you, God will heal you. People humiliate yo... Read more
Wednesday, May 27, 2015      21 comments

So I called my husband and got the answering machine.I told him I want to move back home and work things out and that he has til June 3rd our anniversary to get a hold of me and if he does not then I am Done and will close that chapter of my lif... Read more
just sad
Sunday, May 24, 2015      23 comments

i am trying really hard,im going to counselling n on meds n keeping busy,it just seems nothing is working and my family is laughing at my heart ache and depression and thinks it's funny and a big joke!!!!!... Read more
Friday, May 22, 2015      13 comments

I just called and talked to my husband,i'm not sure if i feel better or worse? there were things i wanted to say but couldn't because i did not want him to hang up,there were things i asked for that are mine he says hes keeping ,other things he ... Read more
be happy
Friday, May 01, 2015      12 comments

trying not to let my depression demons get me...but it is really hard.though i wanted to just sit home and cry.i went out and had a good time.i know that not isolating is one of the important things in dealing with it..this will pass eventually.... Read more
pain and loss
Sunday, April 26, 2015      15 comments

PAIN AND LOSS Really struggling tonight. Bawling my eyes out. Just want someone to hold but I have no one. I've been in a toxic abusive marriage and I'm still totally in love with him. I don't know what is wrong with me, I'm living in a room .... Read more
Thursday, April 23, 2015      11 comments

i have not had a 5 dollar bill since feb,as my assistance from the state and government is pending!!!! i cant pay my rent ,get meds or buy my own toilet paper.its so degrading to me and my family says oh dont whine!!!! like geeeze,i just want to... Read more
Thursday, April 23, 2015      8 comments

The Real Me : I am feeling angry and full of rage this morning.Now that I left my abuser no one in the real world outside of these groups wants to hear my Voice now that I got me back!!!!! Not even my therapist! Everyone wants me to pretend I'm ... Read more
Wednesday, April 22, 2015      6 comments

feeling frustrated: this is really bothering me so i need advise please.I live with my landlady and she does my trash.she only has a trashcan in the kitchen very small like the bathroom kind!!!I have that much trash to fill it ever two days an... Read more

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