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UGH I want to make cookies and eat the whole batch
Wednesday, June 29, 2011      6 comments

I hate that I want junk food. It gives me this intense sugar rush only to have a crash and want more junk. Today I ate a 100 calorie cookie that I let my son get for helping my parents move. Well In the package there are about 10 of them. I ate ... Read more
Friday, June 24, 2011      2 comments

Sometimes we feel we need a reward for doing the right things or following our plan for a period of time. Well today I have decided that I will not reward myself with what I like to do unless I follow my plan for the next three weeks to a T. Sta... Read more
Tuesday, June 21, 2011      3 comments

I have never been a water drinker. For four months last summer I drank nothing but water and tea. I started drinking pop again and went down hill with the water. Well I have found a way I love water... In a insulated straw cup with tons of ice. ... Read more
Saturday, June 11, 2011      2 comments

This year I am not waiting till the new year to make resolutions. I am starting NOW. Here are my Resolutions.... 1.) Be happier. Smile more. See the silly side of things. 2.) Don't take life for granted. Go... see... do. everyt... Read more
On top of the world
Sunday, May 22, 2011      2 comments

I feel amazing today. Smaller than I have felt in a long time. I went out yesterday and got my nails and toes done for our Vacation. We are going to Michigan for two weeks. We have funeral and a memorial to go to. I just feel really good like I ... Read more
Feeling like I have failed
Sunday, May 15, 2011      6 comments

I feel like I have failed yet again. Falling off track time and again. I continue to pick myself back up. There is something wrong though. I am emotional and cry. I am so afraid of being that big girl again. I look in the mirror and that is all ... Read more
Why am I so hard on myself?
Friday, April 22, 2011      7 comments

I have been beating myself up over tons of things. I am pmsing and bloated. I feel like crap and feel really fat. Two days in a row this week I ate whatever I wanted to. Pushed myself to feel sick both times. I know all the chemicals make me fee... Read more
thank you/ being accountable
Wednesday, April 20, 2011      4 comments

First off I would like to say thank you to all my friends. You are simply amazing. Second I am going to hold myself accountable. Today I went overboard with lunch. I ate myself until I felt sick. I made the wrong choices. For lunch today I... Read more
sparkpeople motivator?
Sunday, April 17, 2011      11 comments

I want to be a motivator. I am putting in all the work I can to motivate my friends through ups and downs. I am wondering how many votes it takes... I post sparkpeople on facebook so everyone can follow my journey. To date I am down 85 pou... Read more
crap crap and more crap
Wednesday, March 30, 2011      3 comments

Lets start this off by saying. That yes this is a vent blog again. I am sorry. I just feel like crap. I havent worked out REALLY sweating working out since last Tuesday. I feel like crap about myself and about my life. I got offered ... Read more
feeling worthless...
Thursday, March 17, 2011      7 comments

I have fallen off track. 5 out of 7 days this week I have binged. I have went over my calorie counts and just didnt log it. I am tired and I feel like crap. I do not want to do my workouts. I hate myself and my life at this point. There c... Read more
FINALLY before pics of me at almost 300 pounds.... (picture heavy)
Friday, February 25, 2011      6 comments

Before I had kids. I was about 230-240 in this picture. Just found out I was pregnant with my old... Read more
binge eating, I am having a rough month.
Tuesday, February 22, 2011      2 comments

First off let me start by saying that I am sorry for all the "poor me" blogs lately. I am not being the most stable person.... I deserve better than this and that is what I am giving myself from now on... That being said.... Alright I do... Read more
Feeling like a failure
Saturday, February 19, 2011      2 comments

Recently I got a new scale... I didnt like the new number that was on there but I accepted it. Granted every scale was different. Well after having a conversation with my mom and dad about it I decided to take the scale back to the store and go ... Read more
I REFUSE to let my weight define me!
Sunday, February 13, 2011      3 comments

Ok so I went out and got a scale today. Previously I was using the WII board to weigh me. I went up three pounds on it. On top of not losing crap in the last two weeks. GET THIS..... I am a size 10 now and not a 12. I havent done measurements ye... Read more

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