Ah! Where did my motivation go?
Friday, May 03, 2013      2 comments

My old habits are definitely not going gently into that good night. They're raging, all right. It didn't take long at all for them to take back over my life again without me even really noticing it. I guess the two things that caused it t... Read more
When Cravings Attack: A Worksheet
Wednesday, April 24, 2013      3 comments

I had this SUPER strong craving for a piece of cafeteria pizza today, shortly after I'd finished the lunch I'd brought from home. It was almost all-consuming. It was like this giant neon flashing sign in my brain. A terrifyingly powerful siren s... Read more
The Well Trodden Road
Tuesday, April 23, 2013      5 comments

One of my biggest mental obstacles that I've been mulling over lately is the plain, sad fact that I've done all this before. I've lost weight before. In fact, I've lost these _same exact pounds_ before. It really makes the process a lot less gl... Read more
Monday, April 22, 2013      3 comments

I live in the city, but there's a tiny little garden plot in front of my house. I'm just a renter but allowed to do whatever I want with the garden. And I never used to have any interest in gardening, but I love to cook with fresh veggies/herbs ... Read more
Mini goals for this week
Friday, April 19, 2013      3 comments

Just checking in with myself. Last week my mini goals were: - Cook 3 dinners and bring 4 lunches from home: check! - Tell the boyfriend about the diet: check! (It went totally fine, just like I knew it would, yay.) This week: - ... Read more
The dreaded salad bar: not an object of dread anymore
Wednesday, April 17, 2013      4 comments

I just discovered that this lunch place a block from my office has a really sweet salad bar. In addition to your usual standard salad bar staples, it has neat things like fresh raw kale, steamed lentils, feta cheese, even avocado. And along wit... Read more
Why I haven't told my boyfriend yet... and why I should
Tuesday, April 16, 2013      8 comments

So despite the fact that I live with my boyfriend and share everything with him... I haven't told him I'm on a diet/attempting to change my lifestyle yet. So far only SparkPeople and my doctor know about my weight loss/lifestyle goals -- even th... Read more
First victory: Feeling clean
Monday, April 15, 2013      5 comments

I haven't overeaten -- eaten to the point of feeling stuffed, or uncomfortably full -- in more than a week. I'm really proud of myself and loving how good it makes me feel. I'm trying to retrain myself to listen to my body's own hunger and... Read more
A blog about future blogs
Saturday, April 13, 2013      3 comments

I don't feel like I have anything particular to say right now, but I'm writing anyway, because I'm trying to blog once a day. Writing helps motivate me and it helps me figure out what I'm thinking/feeling. So I want to get in the habit of doing... Read more
Diet Soda: A Love Story
Friday, April 12, 2013      3 comments

I can't remember my first diet soda. It must have been when I was around 12 or 13, because that's when I first really started Caring About My Weight. Soon enough, anyway, that fizzy brown elixir became a staple in my life. It was bubbly. It was... Read more
Healthy habit mini-goals for the next week
Thursday, April 11, 2013      1 comments

Since I am pretty much just starting out on the path towards a healthier lifestyle... I need to cut myself some slack and give myself some breathing room. I don't want to let myself expect or hope for everything to change all at once -- that sud... Read more
Why dieting makes me miserable, or, An emotional eater's lament
Wednesday, April 10, 2013      1 comments

Ugh, dieting is such a ridiculous emotional roller coaster for me. One minute I'm feeling super motivated and positive -- I'm setting goals and genuinely enjoying a healthy salad for lunch -- and a few hours later, I'm low again. I'd ask w... Read more
It's goal time, baby
Wednesday, April 10, 2013      1 comments

Yesterday's reflective confessional has cleared my head, yay. So now I'm excited to start setting some real goals! I'm working off of the SMART goal setting worksheet here on SparkPeople. SPECIFIC: My goal is to: Lose 10 percent of... Read more
On starting out: Facing the ocean
Tuesday, April 09, 2013      0 comments

Starting is scary. I don’t see a clearly delineated path before me, with neat little milestones and a triumphal finish line at the end. Instead, I see a vast, formless ocean, and all I know is that I have to cross it, somehow. But I don’t know w... Read more