Not Much To Say Today
Sunday, September 20, 2009      0 comments

Sitting here thinking of what earth shattering epiphany I can blog today and I got nothing. I am still fat, still eating badly, still feeling like crap, and so tired. We are spending the day at MIL's house today. Fun, fun, fun.... Read more
DeNile not just a river in Egypt
Thursday, September 17, 2009      2 comments

So today was a busy day but I started out by looking at other blogs here on Sparks. One in particular caught my interest. This woman just came right out and said "I am fat" and spoke directly to her oglers, mockers, and lookers of disgust in her... Read more
Another Day, Another Blog Entry
Wednesday, September 16, 2009      2 comments

Again answers. Just more questions. I went grocery shopping for Ryan so that he could have all of the tools available to succeed at becoming healthier. So why is it so much easier to help him than it is to help myself? The new seaso... Read more
Why am I Killing Myself Slowly Each and Every Day?
Tuesday, September 15, 2009      0 comments

I don't know is the answer. I have so many things that should be motivating me to be healthier and yet every day I am binging on whatever I can find. I've written this sh*t before over and over again. Past attempts at blog entries will show it. ... Read more
Learning From Mistakes
Friday, May 05, 2006      0 comments

I have been so out of control for the past two days and my goal says: If faced with a mistake, failure or tough situation, think of two lessons to learn from the experience. 1. I am hurting myself. I am holding in my feelings and stuffing th... Read more
I Really Want To Get It Right
Sunday, April 30, 2006      0 comments

That's the truth. I want to find the combination that is going to feel right and doable this time. Here I am at the end of April already and my loss has been a whopping 7 pounds. I know, I know. Start each day with optimism and a positive attitu... Read more
Foraging for Reasons
Thursday, April 27, 2006      0 comments

I'm supposed to make an affirmation each day about why I will succeed at weight loss. Very simply today, my reason is because I just won't give up. I keep searching for reasons or alternatives that will somehow help me get it right. If at first ... Read more
I Am More Than My Weight
Tuesday, April 25, 2006      0 comments

Ok, so based on my last journal entry I decided to try to be happier and more positive. I set some new spark goals to help me do so. Two of them involve using this journal as a creative outlet and affirm why I can achieve my goals. This is not e... Read more
Been a While
Sunday, April 23, 2006      0 comments

I haven't been here to journal in a while. I suppose I need to catch up with myself a little. I made it through my trip to see my parents. I must say that I was somewhat disappointed in myself. I did do the walking with my Dad as I thought. Plus... Read more
Gray Areas
Tuesday, March 28, 2006      0 comments

I copied and pasted the following from a post I'd written earlier today. It expresses my sentiments for the day best. Yesterday, hmmm. It went ok. I'm going to just give it an ok. I was conscious of needing to watch the calories because of my ... Read more
Not Great But Different
Monday, March 27, 2006      0 comments

I seem to always be hanging by a thread with my plan. I try to eat right every day and have been making great choices, much better than at any other hanging by a thread with my plan time. I also haven't dropped the exercise thing which really wo... Read more
Another Wasted Weigh In Day
Saturday, March 25, 2006      0 comments

Well, another weigh in day is here and I gained two pounds. Part of me feels like I have just wasted an entire week of my life because I didn't lose weight. This makes my goals further away from me. How can I want something so bad and not do eve... Read more
Day Before Weigh In
Friday, March 24, 2006      0 comments

Well here it is the day before weigh in. I took a peek and it isn't good which is right because I wasn't good. I ate badly this week and it is showing. I wll be good today and drink tons of water to try to offset the damage a little but I will s... Read more
Coming Around Slowly
Wednesday, March 22, 2006      0 comments

I went to sleep last night vowing to not let my emotions get in the way of my goals for today. I got up this morning and got myself moving. I decided to go for the fasting bloodwork that I had been putting off simply because I'm afraid there wil... Read more
Just Another Day
Tuesday, March 21, 2006      0 comments

Went to the high end of my range with one high cal snack last night. Otherwise I would have had a fine day. I got everything but the sweep and mop done yesterday. My boys actually did it because every time they fight they get chores. As long as ... Read more

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