I literally have no strength...
Saturday, May 02, 2015      0 comments

Uh oh. I know my seventy pound weight loss, while great, could have been better if I'd actually been exercising. As far as excuses go, I think living and working in the Amazon rain forest will suffice for why I wasn't doing a zumba routine. But... Read more
Fell of the spark wagon, but lost 70 lbs. LOL.
Wednesday, April 29, 2015      0 comments

What a difference a year makes. I kind of gave up there. But I followed through on my plans to go travelling and spent four months working and living in the Amazon rain forest. No mirrors, no scales, no processed food. I came back to the ... Read more
Why is the third day so hard?
Friday, May 23, 2014      2 comments

Day 3 med free and on my vlcd. For some reason the third day of reducing calories is usually when disaster strikes and I binge. I'm just going to take it easy, drink tons of water and go to bed early. Which means I should probably put down my co... Read more
Center for Medical Weight Loss? Meh
Thursday, May 22, 2014      0 comments

Well the weight loss doctor was triggering but all around unhelpful. If anyone is thinking of trying "center for medical weight loss, CMWL" here's my opinion. They charge $49 for the first visit and during that visit they try to convince you to ... Read more
Day 1 med free
Wednesday, May 21, 2014      2 comments

I know the meds are still in my system and will be for a while. I think the half life are two weeks for one and a month for the other, so I guess I won't feel too bad yet. I actually feel pretty hopeful today. Instead of my morning shot of pills... Read more
Going of meds...again
Tuesday, May 20, 2014      3 comments

I've gone back and forth with anti depressants and abilify and I think it's that time again to step back. The effects are minuscule yet the weight gain is astronomical. So if I weigh the benefits, I have to conclude that it's time to let them go... Read more
Subconsciously staying fat?
Saturday, May 17, 2014      2 comments

I don't even know if I can call it subconscious anymore. I'm all too conscious of the fact that staying fat has given me an excuse not to live my life. I get to hide away and not participate because if I'm honest, the depression makes me not wan... Read more
strength training
Tuesday, October 01, 2013      4 comments

I went to the gym yesterday and I'm about to go now again. I did a free personal training session. I wish I had the money to hire one all the time. It was informative and surprisingly fun. My trainer has a great personality and was very motivati... Read more
The gym
Saturday, September 28, 2013      6 comments

I've been letting myself slack off on my exercise by telling myself that it's diet that's most important. I modified my diet and lost 8 lbs this week. I know it's water weight, but it's encouraging. But I might have lost 10 if I added in some ex... Read more
Wednesday, September 25, 2013      5 comments

I can't believe I haven't been on in three months. Well, the abilify experiment failed. I didn't lose weight and my depression got as bad as it gets. So I'm back on it. I can no longer blame this on medicine, I can only blame myself. But I'd rat... Read more
Goodbye Abilify
Saturday, June 08, 2013      3 comments

It's been I think three or four days since I stopped taking the abilify. I lost 4 lbs overnight, and then 1 lb today so 5 lbs. It was definitely contributing to my weight gain. My appetite has decreased and so far that's the only withdrawal symp... Read more
The better of two evils?
Tuesday, June 04, 2013      2 comments

I've decided to stop taking one of my anti depressants. Abilify. I didn't realize how many people gained weight on it. I can't say for sure that it's the reason I steadily gained 20 lbs but I think it's a factor. I've quit cold turkey. So far th... Read more
Starting over
Friday, May 24, 2013      5 comments

Well the depression hit and it hit big time. I gained 20 lbs and am just now coming out of it and joining the world again. Today I said I'd just track my food to get an idea of how much I've been eating. It's barely 4pm and I'm over 2000 calorie... Read more
Day 3 again
Monday, March 04, 2013      0 comments

I made it five days fasting. Then pms hit and I threw it out the window. But I rebounded pretty quickly, only wasted a day. So now it's day 3. Again. Feeling ok. Had some coffee. But later might be a bit of a challenge because I have to start pr... Read more
Day 4
Thursday, February 28, 2013      2 comments

170. That's better. I've been hanging out in the 170s for far to long. Hopefully tomorrow I'll enter 160 ville. Feeling ok. Day 3 is usually the worst for me during a fast. But to be honest day 4 and 5 aren't much better. I'm not thinking about ... Read more

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