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what you say and do matters
Tuesday, March 31, 2020      7 comments

I didn’t want to write this blog, but I had to let my emotions out. I posted a picture on Sunday that was taken back in January. I’m wearing a cute hat, that I was too afraid to buy but my friends talked me into it. I’ve always loved hats, but... Read more
Sunday, March 29, 2020      5 comments

My anxiety has been high since COVID19 hit the US. My county has been set to shelter in place. I’m an essential worker and still go into work on my same weekly schedule. It’s been stressful. So I’m trying to focus on positive phrases. I am res... Read more
I bought a treadmill
Saturday, March 28, 2020      10 comments

The last 24 yrs of my life have been a struggle because of my weight. I’m 30 now, and I can remember being as young as 6 when I realized I was bigger than other girls. In elementary school, when I would hang out at friends houses for sleepovers,... Read more
a body is not a destination
Friday, February 28, 2020      9 comments

A body is not a destination. A body is not a destination. A body is not a destination. This statement is so powerful to me. I wish I knew, really knew, the truth of this when I was younger. I would imagine how my life could be with my per... Read more
it’s OK
Tuesday, February 25, 2020      6 comments

For the people struggling, it’s OK. For the people who feel like a failure, it’s OK. For the people trying and trying, it’s OK. Stop being so hard on yourself. it’s OK! Stop feeling like you have to lose 10lbs in a month. Stop trying to ha... Read more
what are you carrying?
Monday, February 24, 2020      6 comments

What are you carrying that you can let go of? Today, I panicked because in the lighting in my living room, my face was darker than my neck. This is a cardinal rule, a makeup no-no. My husband told me I’m beautiful and I look fine and he thinks... Read more
but, I want it now
Sunday, February 23, 2020      6 comments

In a world of instant gratification, weight loss is hard. And, loving ourselves is hard. We expect immediate results because it’s what we want. We expect to be able to look in the mirror and magically not hate what we see. We want it, and we w... Read more
Friday, February 21, 2020      6 comments

I remember it vividly. I was so angry with my body. I hated all the extraness that hung on me. I wanted to grab a knife and slice the excess off. I wanted to pull the fat off my body. I cried violently, hating myself. It’s taken a while, bu... Read more
a shopping experience
Monday, January 20, 2020      5 comments

I went shopping with three friends this past weekend. My one friend is a 20/22, I am a 16/18, another friend is an 8/10 and the other is a 4/6. My friend who is an 8/10 kept grabbing L/XL because she is so used to baggy clothes. We kept throwi... Read more
radical thinking
Saturday, January 11, 2020      6 comments

I went to a cooking class tonight with my husband. The menu was divine yet simple; manly meals with beer pairings (which is why it was super easy to talk hubby into). We enjoyed grilled chicken tequila burgers, a peppered beef stew, bacon mac & ... Read more
have you seen this movie?
Monday, January 06, 2020      7 comments

I recently watched Brittany Runs A Marathon. Have you seen it? If not, spoilers ahead! I loved the movie for a few reasons: 1) you don’t need fancy gym clothes to run or walk 2) you don’t need an expensive gym membership - just get outside ... Read more
new year & my goals
Sunday, January 05, 2020      5 comments

A new year. For some it’s another year to finally reach the goal for the perfect figure always eating clean meals, becoming obsessive and in times withdrawn, so hyper-focused on the goal; the dream. Sorry but I’m over that. My goal is to cha... Read more
Wednesday, December 04, 2019      5 comments

Please excuse me as I vent. The other day a coworker told me how her friend made a bold change recently. This friend had made a decision last year that if by this time next year they weren’t happy that they would leave their partner and move t... Read more
how to lose weight when you don’t want to actively lose weight
Tuesday, December 03, 2019      9 comments

Did you read the title of my blog and go, huh??! I have recently become very aware of my double chin in pictures. Part of me hates it and the other part of me questions, but why do I hate it? The same goes for the rest of my body. I know I’ve... Read more
change is hard for me
Monday, December 02, 2019      11 comments

I have been in my new home for 11 days, and today is my 5th day at a new job. I always thought that moving would be exciting. I was constantly annoyed at my old job and I was ready to leave. And yet, now I am struggling with all of the change.... Read more

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