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feeling sorry for myself
Thursday, November 06, 2014      9 comments

I am feeling really sorry for myself. I know I shouldnt do it, but man its just hitting me. I am 25 years old, and I feel like I am being frozen in my own body. My ankles hurt. My knee has been killing me and I can barely walk up the stairs some... Read more
appointment news!
Wednesday, November 05, 2014      9 comments

well the doc thinks its very possible that I have Lyme. He ran a test that takes 2 1/2 BUSINESS WEEKS so my follow up is Dec 5th. He believes there is something going on and will figure it out. Im thankful to finally have a doctor that doesnt th... Read more
tomorrow is only a day away!
Monday, November 03, 2014      7 comments

OMG emoticon Tomorrow is my 2nd opinion appointment with a Lyme Literate Doc and I am beyond excited. Bad n... Read more
you should read this
Wednesday, October 29, 2014      4 comments

many of my emoticon are dealing with health issues similar to mine. I have been doing extensive research to figu... Read more
levelheaded
Wednesday, October 29, 2014      10 comments

well, TOM is packing up, preparing to leave THANKFULLY. As my hormones regulate, everything seems to be going back to "normal". My headache is significantly less even with a weather change and I dont have that massive pressure built up behind my... Read more
scared
Tuesday, October 28, 2014      14 comments

Thank you all for reading my blogs and sending kind, supportive messages. I am scared. That seems to be the main emotion that I can pinpoint. I am so scared about my appointment next week that it is all I can think about. What if they final... Read more
countdown!
Monday, October 27, 2014      10 comments

I am counting down the days until I see my new doctor for a second opinion. Last week was absolute h-e-doublehockeysticks. I had 4 anxiety attacks, suicidal thoughts, headaches and pain all over. Friday morning I got my period for the 2nd time t... Read more
a girls only blog
Friday, October 24, 2014      5 comments

okay ladies I need advice! This week has been awful. I've had 4 anxiety attacks this week. I have been depressed, thinking very bad bad thoughts and overall lazy. My fibro pain is terrible and all over. My memory sucks and I cannot seem to ... Read more
healing
Monday, October 20, 2014      14 comments

All I want to do is heal. I want to move forward. I do not want to keep re-living the past & pain that comes with it. But my parents refuse to let me forget that 6 months ago, I cancelled my wedding. I wasnt ready for several reasons a... Read more
taken for granted
Thursday, October 16, 2014      9 comments

I never realized how many things I had taken for granted. Even how many things I still take for granted in my life. Today I realized how used to my limitations I have gotten and its made me thankful and sad all at once. Bending to do laund... Read more
happy birthday to me!
Friday, October 10, 2014      13 comments

I am 25 years old today! I am so blessed and thankful to be surrounded by so many wonderful people in my life wishing me a happy birthday! hope you all have a wonderful weekend!... Read more
flipped switch
Thursday, October 09, 2014      6 comments

I swear my mood and emotions are controlled by a switch that I have yet to find. I woke up today and felt rested. FINALLY! The sun is shining, my mood is positive. I feel this cloud of overall happiness surrounding me. No, I am defin... Read more
time to be realistic
Monday, October 06, 2014      11 comments

I had a moment this weekend and realized there are some truths I have to accept and move on from. There is no magical pill to cure me, relieve me of my symptoms and pain and allow me to be the girl I used to be. That being said, its time I... Read more
got to the root of my emotions
Wednesday, October 01, 2014      15 comments

Last night I had a major breakdown and finally said outloud what I have been burying deep inside. I am scared. I am scared to live the rest of my life in this pain. I am scared to try to have and rasie a family knowing even picking up and h... Read more
fibro flare
Tuesday, September 30, 2014      2 comments

I feel like crap. I apologize that the majority of my blogs are of me complaining, but I just feel so awful I need to get it out. I yawned and rolled over last night and my neck had such an intense spasm I felt paralyzed. I couldn't move my neck... Read more

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