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Tuesday, April 26, 2011      9 comments

I am crazy. My half dose of my meds is making me nuts to the point that I fear I have to stay on them. This sucks. I'm not happy... Read more
Sunday, April 24, 2011      17 comments

done. again. I am done saying, I give up or I cant do this. I am done acting like there is nothing more I can do. I put the bad foods in my mouth. I open the pantry door to snack. I whip out the $1 bill for the 250 calorie bag of chips... Read more
thank you all
Thursday, April 21, 2011      18 comments

It only takes the smallest spark to create a fire. And you Sparkfriends, lit a spark in me and it is catching on. ***Thank you MAMADWARF, you are amazing*** Anyone here listen to country?? Well after a long depressing day, I laid in ... Read more
Thursday, April 21, 2011      35 comments

I broke out of the 170's Into the 180's I give up. I am done.... Read more
Wednesday, April 20, 2011      9 comments

I am obsessed. I am miserable. I am going to count EVERY calorie. I am going to hardcore work out EVERY day. I am going to ditch plans to make sure I stick to it. I need to. My medicine withdraw is making me emotional and I just need to be a siz... Read more
oh hey waistline i found ya!
Saturday, April 16, 2011      11 comments

Its only been 1 week of a half dose of my medication and I weigh 174 I am down 4 lbs in 5 days. I am SUPER SUPER EXCITED!!! Wait, look :) Seeing and feel... Read more
Wednesday, April 13, 2011      4 comments

Today something strange happened. My stomach growled! I hadnt realized that it hasnt done that in a long time! I usually eat at times because thats how my life is scheduled but I was super excited to have that feeling of hunger!! Maybe... Read more
support & reality
Tuesday, April 12, 2011      10 comments

So, I am happy that many Sparkfriends are wishing me luck while I ween off my meds. Others seem to make me feel wary about it. And my mother tells me that I need to not expect to lose weight once I go off the pills. I just know I have somet... Read more
arghhhhh!!! (&& no, I am not a pirate)
Monday, April 11, 2011      12 comments

So I have been doing a TON of research and I believe my weight gain, and difficulty losing weight is directly linked to my anxiety/depression medication. While I am so thankful it was there for me the past few months, I am no longer suicid... Read more
hmmmmm, I am one strange bird.
Saturday, April 09, 2011      9 comments

I am a walking contradiction. People who know me say that it is the funniest, strangest quality about me. I dont believe in perfection and yet it is something I constantly search for and try to achieve. I dont expect much out of people... Read more
Wednesday, April 06, 2011      7 comments

I have no motivation. I am stressed. I am tired. I am burned out. I am limited on fight in me. I am done. I am wanting to give up. I want to see my body lose weight. I want the number on the scale to go down. I want to stop hav... Read more
complaining helps.
Monday, April 04, 2011      8 comments

If stress is the cause, I will get it. Case in point: I have a stye. A wonderful, painful, red, sore stye. Did ya know it is caused from stress? FABULOUS as if the daily anxiety attacks werent enough. Why is it that after I blog I imme... Read more
oucchhhhh burn.
Sunday, April 03, 2011      7 comments

I am burned out. I have been run-run-run, stress-stress-stress and today while instructing my Zumba class, I had an anxiety attack and almost passed out. I was panicking and luckily another instructor was in class so she took over. I ... Read more
this is my life.
Tuesday, March 29, 2011      15 comments

I wanted to eat clean. But, it is too tough for me to do. So I am going back to just making conscious decisions to eat healthy. Now I reach for the organic macaroni and cheese instead of Kraft. Still delicious and way more nutritious. Micro... Read more
talk talk talk blah blah blah
Monday, March 28, 2011      7 comments

I keep saying I want to be healthy and lose weight. But what did I do today? I didnt workout and I ate complete CRAP all day long. Awesome Jess, no wonder you are still overweight. ***Now to add in my bitchin I live in two pl... Read more

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