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Soul Crushing
Friday, June 02, 2017      2 comments

Today is rough. I cried through my run, well today it was a walk. I had no energy for a run. It's been almost a year since my husband's quadruple by-pass. He is angry, explosive, irritable, depressed and almost to the point of suicidal. This i... Read more
Staying focused within the storm
Sunday, April 16, 2017      4 comments

Stress, lawyers, waiting and waiting, and finally a full week after he left us our littlest man was returned. For now. We have a court hearing on the 21st. I am aware that we are in for a long haul. I fear leaving him "alone" with anyone... Read more
Working out while your heart breaks
Wednesday, April 12, 2017      3 comments

A week ago my grandson's birth father picked him up from our home, (since littlest man lives here) and has not returned him. We have filed an emergency custody order against both our daughter and this man. He has no legal rights to the boy and ... Read more
I'm Still Standing
Sunday, March 19, 2017      4 comments

I have not written in a very long time. Why? New grandson lived with us his first full year, is still here a lot. He will be 2 in April. Our son is now four, and I love him to pieces My husband had a quadruple bi-pass last Aug. and still... Read more
falling away or standing up
Sunday, November 06, 2016      2 comments

The last year has been a struggle. My work was stressful, with long hours, bringing work home, extremely difficult students, and low pay. My home life is stressful with an unhealthy husband who had open heart surgery last August and lost his... Read more
Sunday, October 26, 2014      1 comments

This picture was taken yesterday. A few things can be taken away from this picture. How we dress has a big impact on how we are perceived, and how we feel. I lov... Read more
Pillar of Strength, or Capable of So Much More
Thursday, July 03, 2014      0 comments

If someone had told me at age 13 that I would begin feeding, bathing, changing, and lifting my mother when I was 16, and carry that through until my early 30's I would have said no way. That would be too difficult. Never in my wildest drea... Read more
Whose a runner? Not me! Or am I?
Tuesday, July 01, 2014      0 comments

I've said this before, but I am not actually a "runner". I just feel I am naturally too round or curvy to be one. That said, I have been doing some jogging. As I wrote earlier, I jogged a full mile outside for the first time the other day. Then ... Read more
WW Active Link
Tuesday, July 01, 2014      0 comments

Do you wear an activity monitor of some kind? A simple pedometer, or Fitbit etc? I have an Active Link that coordinates with my Weight Watcher's site. A monitor of some kind can be a great motivator. It can also reveal misconceptions about how m... Read more
For My Daughters Day 20 Final Entry
Monday, June 16, 2014      0 comments

What was the purpose of this blog? Why did I embark upon this adventure into self-love? Was it to be prideful? To encourage? To build their self-esteem or mine? Perhaps all of the above and more. I want my girls to see the beauty and wonder of ... Read more
For My Daughters day 19
Wednesday, June 11, 2014      1 comments

Yesterday I went to a physical therapist who works from a Osteopathic point of view. It was very interesting. Other than the fact that I have constant burning pain in my lower left SI, and I NEVER relax my back muscles, he is at least the fourth... Read more
For My Daughters day 18
Tuesday, June 10, 2014      2 comments

Our oldest daughter has many struggles. She has made decisions in her young life that will have long reaching consequences. Yesterday we had an honest and devastating conversation. If I dwell on it I may crumble. How did she bring herself this ... Read more
For My Daughters day 17
Sunday, June 08, 2014      1 comments

Today's Body Positive: I have a strong core, which enables me to play and enjoy life.... Read more
For My Daughters day 16
Saturday, June 07, 2014      0 comments

The original catalyst for this venture was a video asking woman to describe their body in one word. The word most often used was "disgusting". Over and over that is how we describe ourselves. How sad. Today's Body Positive: one word descri... Read more
For My Daughters day 15
Friday, June 06, 2014      0 comments

What if today was my last day on earth. Would I want my girls to remember me constantly saying I'm fat, or if only this that or the other then I would be happy? My girls were surprised that I actually do see positives about my body. They ... Read more

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