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Exorcising Childhood Food Trauma
Monday, January 28, 2019      4 comments

You must think I'm very gloomy and so do I. But then I think, if this stuff is surfacing now, it's in the light, ready to be cast out. And I'm up for the job. It just takes a strong decision to fling this negativity into nothingness. One of... Read more
The Big 220
Wednesday, January 23, 2019      4 comments

Look at that. I weigh 220. No jiggling the scale. A big weight loss? Not in pounds - only five. But how long since I last weighed 220? Years and years and years. It's a huge loss! And one more pound will break the barrier. That's what I have gai... Read more
Nightmares - Empty Tables
Thursday, January 17, 2019      2 comments

I dream of tables that are spectacularly sparkly clean, without a speck of food on them, surrounded by idle, mournful would-be diners. The first is from my childhood, when father forbade anyone to eat before he did, but we must assemble as ... Read more
Mary Jane floating through the door
Saturday, January 12, 2019      6 comments

I'm serious! I live in a cheap but respectable apartment building, except for the the occasional strange short-term tenant. Long story short, he stood outside my door and and blew smoke through my door. Why my door? I think because it looks like... Read more
Friday, January 11, 2019      7 comments

Day 4. Lost a pound yesterday, the first one in many years. I'm very cranky, can't shake how awful life is. Also got the dizzies, so can't clean up. Took a nap and hot cat joined me as usual piling on top of me, just when I need to breathe. Then... Read more