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the wait
Sunday, October 13, 2013      3 comments

The Weight-ing Games Not a game really. I took it for granted. And I've drifted. Up 10 lbs since I moved out of Winchester (apt of 20 years). 153 - 162 today. Up and down between. I weighed 162 in August of 2012 -- so says the rem... Read more
i forgot how
Thursday, October 03, 2013      4 comments

so... i'm alone in an apartment with a galley kitchen so... i'm eating alone.... and too often i got used to dinner for two.... to shopping together.... and talking through my day...instead of eating over it. I've had a string of overeatin... Read more
Sunday, September 15, 2013      4 comments

I'm in Chicago. September 15th. I left here at the end of June. I was truly out of my mind -- adrenal crash, hormone crash, nervous ...breakup.... etc etc Three months later... endocrinologist and supplements and celexa later... Still 153l... Read more
CC of Featured Blog Post "Lessons from Someone Who's Kept the Weight Off"
Thursday, April 11, 2013      2 comments

Week of 04/11/2013 - Featured Blog Post TINAJANE76 Lessons from Someone Who's Kept the Weight Off Over the course of the past year, I've learned a lot about myself and the strategies that are important for me to use to stabilize my we... Read more
April Fool - fooling myself (Way-Station --- Between-ness ---- Liminality...)
Thursday, April 04, 2013      2 comments

I tell myself.. .I'm through with love... and I'll have nothing more to do with love.... But they all know...it isn't so.... I'm just foolin' myself. These are lyrics from a great old 40's Billie Holiday tune. I used to sing. Apri... Read more
Scale Come-uppance ---- Spring Again
Tuesday, April 02, 2013      5 comments

Got up and GOT ON THE SCALE. oy. i knew it would be up. but one is never really ready for the bad news that comes with repeated eating-my-feelings. . . . which i've been doing for a coupla weeks off and on but mostly on. Up 6 lbs. Cra... Read more
I don't know where I'm Going. I don't know where I am.
Wednesday, March 13, 2013      4 comments

Chicago. March 2013. 155lbs. Down from 245 in 2010. Down from lifetime highest of 299 at age 17. Yoyo's and a lifetime of eating disorders, recovery, therapy, self investigation.... READING EVERYONE.... woodman and roth being the best of al... Read more
Back to Basics. Onward & Forward.
Sunday, January 13, 2013      5 comments

Onward and Forward... was a chapter heading in a kindle book I was perusing... not about weight.. but about Mindfulness and ACT (which apparently is a new CBT). The point being that it resonated smack dab in the center of my Spark cheer her... Read more
Where Am I and Where Am I Going
Sunday, December 16, 2012      4 comments

Be Here Now? But where? It feels good to be in my Sparkpage. I love the connection to you my friends and this community. I am wanting to have you and this as my place to come to -- more than a forum, this place and you have held me to my o... Read more
Leaks or Suitcases?
Wednesday, October 31, 2012      4 comments

Don't know what to do, where to go. I seem to be questioning EVERYTHING. And have no toehold on anything. I feel Rootless. Need community. Need work. Need structure. My relationship with Joe gives me comfort and a structure that I wonder a... Read more
159.6! Omg!
Wednesday, September 05, 2012      14 comments

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Barrie's Email -- BIGger LEAPS NEEDED with prosperity/abundance
Friday, August 31, 2012      1 comments

Paula, Yes of course. No one who listened to anyone with as much experience as Janice would be reckless with my portfolio. My life is always shifting and in flux.and that changes how I use my money. Im not really sure what you are asking but I... Read more
Swap Meet Soiree - First!
Sunday, August 26, 2012      2 comments

Swap Meet Soiree/Party at My Friend Barrie's House Friday Night. Women of all ages shapes and sizes. And, mostly, younger women (30's-40's) under size 12... but clothes, pants, dresses, shorts, jackets, purses, jewelry, shoes, and more... from... Read more
Where are we now... inventory (54 looking at 55)
Monday, August 06, 2012      2 comments

"... are you in some hotel room, does it have a view?...." Joni Mitchell quotes are never far from my consciousness, no matter how long it's been since I've heard them or thought about them. Hmm. But that has nothing to do with the blog. ... Read more
A moment this moment - taking stock (july 20, 2012) - Flare and Then
Friday, July 20, 2012      4 comments

Alone in my old run down little apartment. It's been a long time. Joe is away. I cried at the airport-- always do...cry at goodbyes...with everyone....What IS that? Now it's cooler outside and even with all the crap going on here I feel HAPP... Read more

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