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Tuesday, September 17, 2013      2 comments

I quit trying awhile ago. I find life to be very difficult most days. My bounce back is warn out. But, I've continued to eat what I should for the most part. Last year, I got to drop one dosage of a pill. In the last 6 weeks, I've not n... Read more
I'm admitting failure-uncle, I'm done.
Thursday, August 22, 2013      3 comments

Well, I've made some healthier changes but I am giving up. I'm fat and too depressed to do what I need to do. Maybe in another lifetime. My 16 year old got bad news today-the school refuses to allow his transfer credits and they refuse to... Read more
just rattling on
Wednesday, July 31, 2013      3 comments

Watched extreme weight loss again hoping for inspiration. I did walk a bit on my treadmill, but not much. I put a mirror in my house last month-haven't had one for years. I hoped seeing myself would make me realize I need to work on mysel... Read more
Battling myself
Monday, July 29, 2013      3 comments

Still down. I've been praying a lot about my inability to stick to this healthier life plan. Been praying a lot about where I go from here. I can pray, I can write, I can want, I can dream but what is missing is the doing. I'm not doing anyt... Read more
The truth is ugly and I'm still FAT
Wednesday, July 24, 2013      5 comments

I'm not any good at this. I cannot seem to stick to any plan for any length of time. The changes I try to make do not stick. What is wrong with me? I hate the way I look and I don't like who I've become. Was thinking a lot about the c... Read more
Grouchy still
Tuesday, June 25, 2013      3 comments

I'm having a really hard day today and decided I better stop talking to people because I sound like a crazy person. My 7 year old grandson dumped his bike on the blow up pool we bought yesterday and popped it. My husband didn't want me to... Read more
Depression makes me whine
Tuesday, June 18, 2013      5 comments

Reading about all these people working really hard toward their goals and making progress. Know what I'm doing? Eating and watching. Why? Because I'm depressed and crazy and lazy and not liking life much. I joined an obesity support g... Read more
Still eating through my problems-sigh
Monday, June 17, 2013      2 comments

Wondering today what it truly means to be strong. Not feeling very strong today-just worn out. Went on a 10 day vacation so I should be revived, right? Came home to lots of drama, lots of work that should have been done but wasn't and now... Read more
Struggling with my inner demons
Thursday, May 30, 2013      5 comments

Was doing well and then BAM, Memorial Day slapped me and I wasn't ready for the impact. Melt downs are no fun. Panic attacks are less fun. My husband is tired of this and so he decided I should do certain things. I told him NO. He spent the... Read more
Starting again with success in mind
Monday, May 13, 2013      4 comments

Tried to blog yesterday about being in my own way but "poof" eaten by cyber space. Feeling far more motivated today but sadly, starting all over again. I've had zero success in the several years I've been here but maybe this time. I'v... Read more
Just stopping in
Tuesday, April 23, 2013      0 comments

Haven't been around much as I've not been doing much. My foot continues to be a problem and now is severely infected with an unidentified something. (And I paid for this diagnosis) So, I spend my days with my foot propped up bored to death wa... Read more
Replacing lost sodium and other medical fun.
Friday, April 05, 2013      2 comments

I've never been a big exerciser so it doesn't take much for me to sweat. Before killing my foot, I was working on being more serious. I sweat a great deal when I exercise and when I sleep. My blood work is showing that my body is not retainin... Read more
Just down a bit
Thursday, March 28, 2013      4 comments

Today is not a good day. Trying to write myself a new exercise plan that I can do without my foot. The sun is out and it's a bit warmer and I'm trying hard to find joy in that. It's tough to accept the fact that my children don't want to ... Read more
foot update
Wednesday, March 27, 2013      5 comments

Love it when I pay a doctor for stupid advice. $91 (after my 30% discount)-first he tells me he thinks there's a deep bone bruise that's worse then the fracture. He wants to do an MRI to get a better look. I told him I didn't have insurance. ... Read more
Still wating
Tuesday, March 26, 2013      5 comments

Haven't blogged for a few days as I'm not making positive progress. Going to see the ortho doc tomorrow and see what he says about my foot. Husband is very angry about this but he'll get over it or he won't. Looking forward to seein... Read more

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