Almost a year later...
Saturday, May 18, 2013      2 comments

Same position, only BIGGER. My husband is gone, boyfriend is gone. Sad and lonely and eating all the time. Self loathing, depressed, stuck and in denial. Losing all hope. Can't look at myself in the mirror, don't want people to see me or look at... Read more
Nothing changes...if nothing changes!
Friday, April 20, 2012      3 comments

I have to face the awful reality of buying new clothes in a bigger size. I hate it. I have already had to buy XXL T-shirts to hang around the house in..I remember the day I was so happy to throw my old ones away. Nothing fits me, I have to chang... Read more
hope lost and 15 pounds gained!
Saturday, January 21, 2012      1 comments

Six months have gone by and I am back in my Hometown. After 6 months in sunny paradise, I returned home to SNOW! I spent three months looking and praying for the perfect job and then 3 months working the perfect job and one day....bam - it's all... Read more
A look back...
Saturday, July 23, 2011      0 comments

I just re-read all my blogs from the begining and realized a huge trend...I would get on here and talk about how I was going to start my life anew and get back on track and blog the next day about how I failed. 8 days and I will head south and I... Read more
Starting over - yet again.
Tuesday, June 28, 2011      0 comments

Well, here I am again...taking another shot at recovery from food addiction. I wish I could afford to go to a REAL treatment center...but in 33 days I will leave the toxicity of my present environment here in the north - - -to begin recovery on ... Read more
A new ME resolution...
Thursday, January 13, 2011      0 comments

I decided on New Years, well a few days prior to the 1st of the year that I was going to make a resolution for a new me! This goes beyond just weight loss but a commitment to not abuse my body any longer. When I eat healthy, I am choosing to be ... Read more
Set backs...set backs...set backs!!!
Monday, December 27, 2010      1 comments

Hope everyone had a great Christmas! I was sooo bah humbug for lack of money and as always, it all worked out...except for my poor Husband for whom every gift I got for him was either too big or too small or a duplicate of something he got from ... Read more
Commitment... Why is is so hard????
Thursday, December 16, 2010      1 comments

My commitment to this blog shows the same level of commitment I have for my diet! Rock solid for 5 days and off in space for 4! Yet I ask myself why I am stuck at this weight for so long? I know why, I have the answers---I just don't want to hea... Read more
Food tracking is keeping me honest!
Sunday, December 12, 2010      1 comments

I belive that is exactly why we should do it. I have always started to do it and always given up due to frustration...the moment that I realize that I can not have something because I am out of calories is the moment I become a very angry girl..... Read more
When it comes to food...I HATE the weekends!!
Saturday, December 11, 2010      0 comments

Why is it we can stay so focused during the week but when the weekend comes it's bam!!! eating foods that practically can not be itemized in calories---oh sure you can guess but dont we always underestimate the receipe by about 40%?? Yes, resear... Read more
So many regrets, so little time!
Thursday, December 09, 2010      0 comments

It is remarkable how something so small can trigger a huge amount of emotion. I was fine all day today and driving home about a half hour I suffered some sort a mental break down in the drive way. I can not even remember what thought sparked the... Read more
I made it through another day...the pasta helped...
Wednesday, December 08, 2010      0 comments

Hello dear friends - another day has come and gone...I sit here feeling a little nervous because I think I may have overate on pasta (a healthy one) but more than I needed to eat...and I just had a few handful of walnuts...again a healthy vegan ... Read more
Day 3 of "detox" always arrives with withdrawal right behind it!
Tuesday, December 07, 2010      3 comments

Good Eve - I am burning the candle at both ends tonight, trying to study for two exams tomorrow...but I can not stop thinking about gettin out of my head by writing down my thoughts from today. Today was officially day 3 of my Vegan lifest... Read more
picture it....Vegas.....2007..."
Monday, December 06, 2010      0 comments

A famous Philosopher once said "you can't get to where you are going if you can't remember why you started to move in the first place"...actually- now that I think of it, it wasn't a famous Philosopher---it was my Mom! Anyway, it is true, I have... Read more
and so it begins....once again!
Sunday, December 05, 2010      4 comments

Another Sunday spent looking back on a crazy week of crazy eating with no exercise! I sit here every weekend dreading the dawn of a new Monday, not just because I have to get up at an un-Godly hour, but because each Monday starts the same....I w... Read more