I keep rewriting my goals. Trying to determine what they are. I came to the conclusion that I was being too lofty. I needed to address my basic desire.
# 1 I want to live - and that is in question
#2 I want to enjoy life- that means being... Read more
Reality - heart disease
I had a heart attack in September and now I was hospitalized for articular fibrillation. I have to face up to the fact that my body needs help from me if I want to survive. Every decision I make has consequences in the future, but I just want ... Read more
I have spent my adult life as a teacher. I gave more to my classroom than I did to my family. My family survived the neglect and are doing fine. Now that I am retired I feel guilty about my easy, drifting life. I want to continue to be invol... Read more
Ashamed of myself
I had a temper tantrum yesterday. Here on the site because I am feeling very alone at the moment. I am sorry to have taken out my frustration here.... Read more
A year ago I wrote a blog about loss. I am writing again about that same subject. My cousin died. She was my last contemporary in my family. My brother is still alive. He is 10 years old than I am. All other cousins, aunts, uncles, in-law ... Read more
Dealing with loss
I feel so alone. In the last few years, I have lost so many family members. My parents are gone, My aunts and uncles are gone. My grandparents are gone. My husband, his brother, his brother's wife are all gone. All that is left of my genera... Read more
A new Month
I want to start each new month with as much enthusiasm as I did the new year. Today is the end of a cycle and tomorrow is a new beginning.
goals for the month - I will
not eat in the car, no snacks, no drive through
realize that I have a ... Read more
I can do this. It is time to engage in a little positive thinking. I will envision myself 25 pounds thinner, with better blood sugar levels and greater physical capabilities. I will see success. When the basketball team wins the game it is ... Read more
It has been a long time since I have entered a blog. First I want to thank all of my Spark friends for their continued support. You have helped me in so many ways, keeping me going when I was ready to give up.
Body shaming - I was recently o... Read more
A new Year
Yes I am making Resolutions. I am focused on making them doable and healthy.
# 1. Move more, get up walk around the living room, make it a habit
#2 Practice portion control - measure fats, proteins and starches
#3 Do strength tra... Read more
My main concern is no longer weight loss, it is blood sugar control. When I focus on weight loss I feel as if I have suggestions for success not rules for success. When I am focused on blood sugar control I have RULES for success. I am eating... Read more
Who am I
I am a retired teacher
I am a mother
I am a grandmother
I am a human being with wants, desires and needs.
I am a person beyond my relationships with others. I am an individual. I am unique and sometimes I am lonely in that uniqueness a... Read more
I am still here
I spent a month battling my own demons. Everyday I came to Sparkpeople. Sometimes I did not do anything but read what others had written.
I had many excuses, my computer had a virus, my tracker did not work because my computer had a vir... Read more
What a difference a night's sleep makes
I had been going to bed between midnight and 1. I wake between 5 and 6 every morning. So I was grumpy, eating the wrong things, not exercising, and in a bad place.
Last night lights were out by 10. I got a good night's sleep and actuall... Read more
Last Page »
I am still here, so obviously I have some motivation, but it does not feel like it. I am still logging my food so I have some motivation. I am still going to water aerobics so something is still there.
I seem to have lost my focus. I do ... Read more